#but because of the subject matter in question: he's obviously going to be more senstitive to things regarding god because he was struggling

[adammilligan]

see now i wonder how much michael would’ve cried when adam died and how much adam would’ve cried when he woke up alone. we KNOW archangels can cry because lucifer did after gabriel yelled at him but knowing michael and how he reacts to things of that magnitude he probably would’ve given himself two minutes tops for a tear or two and then flew off to go hide in the church because there was no time to grieve and he doesn’t process his emotions anyway. adam on the other hand woke up on that beach with the world at peace so he had time but in a way i think that would make it worse because he doesn’t process his emotions either he just compartmentalizes so he’d probably give himself like one minute tops and then sit up and start trudging back towards civilization. and then in the future he just keeps suppressing everything by sheer force of will. which wouldn’t surprise me, since that’s probably what he did the majority of his time in hell

#all i do is take how they reacted in canon #and try to piece together how they would react to other certain situations #for writing purposes #michael just isn't that outwardly emotional #him reacting like he did in 15x08 to adam prodding him about god has been the exception and not the rule when you compare it to other scenes #and even then i just think it wasn't only just because adam is a person designated assafe to express his emotions to #but because of the subject matter in question: he's obviously going to be more senstitive to things regarding god because he was struggling #between his love & duty and doing the right thing #and adam post-cage really does tend to suppress everything in order to get things done like how he stood up for sam and dean #in order to fix the greater problem at hand #and really there were three times he expressed real emotion about them: the diner scene; the part where he goes 'oh HELL no' #and the apology scene #he's very good at just. brushing aside his emotions in order to move on #and i could see him giving himself a minute to grieve and then shutting down before the impact actually DOES break him #because it certainly has the potential to and i doubt he'd want to let it #but anyway. if you've read this. why DSJKKNJDNSFDKJ #azure rambles #midam #adam milligan #michael