#but cest la vie i suppose

[capricioussun]

Papyrus with cats n dogs!

as (sort of) suggested by pawpyrus_13 on ig

#snow and hail #papyrus #undertale #ut rus #undertale papyrus #papyrus day #I fucked up it was just supposed to be cats I’m sorry pawpyrus 😔 #I misremembered and had already drawn all the pups 😭 #cest la vie I suppose

[night-dark-woods]

ID. a mirror selfie of me, a white butch with a bleached mullet. the image has been flipped afterwards so my shirt is legible. it is a black tshirt with a design stylized to look like a retro ad with a picture of a gas pump and the text, "24/7 full service top; expert care and service; lube, oil, cold drinks & hot meal." im also wearing a thick black leather collar with silver spikes. End ID.

got home and immediately ripped the package open to cut the sleeves off this thing.

#my face #was going to take some with the collar off but i forgor and now its dark so. #cest la vie #mainblog can have a collar photo i suppose.

[everyones-least-favorite-bard]

WESTERN AU YOOHAN!!

#this one fought me #but. its done #i feel like yjh is ooc again but eh. cest la Fucking Vie i suppose #orv #omniscient reader #omniscient readers viewpoint #yoohan #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung #yjh #hsy #implied yhk tbh but like obliquely #kdj is there in his absence #kim dokja stop haunting the narrative challenge #its a writing kind of night ig #orv western au #bard writes

[wabblebees]

im like if the most useless boytoy twink was also an incredibly handy butch lesbian

#this post is about me collapsing as soon as i got home from work #where i used a garden hoe i sharpened myself to hack down+tear out a truly impressive thistle 3× my size while 3 of my coworkers watched #swung it overhead like an axe until the centre stalk (almost the size of my wrist) was felled. then hoed around it until the roots came free #& i could grab it with my hands where there werent any thorns. turned around and all 3 of em were lookin at me like 😳😳 lmao #but now im sitting in my bathtub bc i cant stand long enough to shower anymore hdksgsk #knew this morning it was a bad pain day but pushed thru it anyway bc!! there was work to do!! but now im gonna be totally useless for 24hrs #cest la vie i suppose #after the thistle was properly disposed of just kept tilling+weeding+fixin tomato cages in the fields. came home & felt sooo dykey+hot lmfao #was like ''fuck yeah man idk what was up with me this morning im feelin fine now! great even!'' #then took my knee braces off to get into the shower & almost busted my ass on the tile when both of em gave out🤦 #my shoulders are now reminding me that i Dont Have the muscle mass to use a bigass hoe like anything but a hoe w/out Paying For It later #its a good thing i have the day off tomorrow bc im going to turn into a slug as soon as im done steaming meself like a little dumpling #definitely thinkin about using my pathetic-wet-cat-charm to get someone to bring me food tonight tho... hmm #anyway. wheres that post #''im not a butch but i believe their beliefs'' #its my exectution thats lacking lmao. but in any case #mwah. mwah mwah mwah #<-for all the butches out there. ily tysm youre wonderful #and to all the useless boytoy twinks out there: o7 <3 #godspeed fellow hopeless fags. ily too. keep doin what yr doin lmao #bee speaks

[tickisms]

other random screencaps i took i want 2 chew on him

#the tick #the tick comics #tick #cest la vie :3 #i think for most of the frontfacing angles his antennae are supposed to be like. hanging forward #but it just kind of makes them look droopy. in a weird dogy kind of way SEE #hes weird dog to me forever andever

[dragonji]

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what do you do when every direction you throw yourself into desperate for some kind of reassurance just ends up tightening the noose. people offer halfhearted solutions, tell you again and again to just Do something, say you have options and resources and to Just Be Better without seeing how much it never works. you can keep running all you want, change paths or divert what little energy you can to keeping some hope, and yet still. Still things fall apart around you again and again and again. it becomes a fools errand trying just to be ambivalent about living. but even thats a convenient lie, because if it were truly unbearable you'd actually do something about it, wouldnt you? It wouldn't matter that youre so full of fear you spend your waking hours- and then more besides- locking it behind your teeth trying not to choke on it. You wouldn't be clawing for the pitiful fleeting gasps of air you can manage, the way you have been for years. You wouldn't be wasting all of this time, all this desperate fading strength, on running so far and so fast from something you willing yoked around your own neck. Nevermind that you never asked for the chain in the first place- you didnt fight it, did you? Took it as obligation, as only what you owe, as the burden you must repay in order to justify your own existence. Personhood's a luxury you were never meant to afford. Maybe thats why you get so attached to the concepts of divine and monstrous, to endless ageless fluid spirits. No one to blame but also no one to thank, just a truly individual existence, fully embodied only because of the whims of careless fate. It's captivating really, one of the truest ways to capture your attention wholly even if just for moments at a time. How different, how curious, how free it must be, to live as something so close to humanity but so far removed. An existence where connection and relation are not nearly so damning a prospect, where you have choice and time to make the wrong ones. No one expects a god or a monster to sacrifice themselves to spare humans that scorned them- and if they do, well of course theyre due honor and respect in return, it's only right. And as an aside, none of this is to say that you are inherently better than any human. Gods and monsters may be powerful and beastly and awe-inspiring, but they are no less infallible. And immortality is no safeguard against pain, it just gives more time to process and understand it. But for gods and monsters both it seems a simplier existence. At the least, both have Purpose. Both serve a higher need and no one blames them for following their natures, any more than they'd blame a storm for rain. Whether it's a blessing to nourish parched earth or a flood to sweep terrible devastation, it's all just water.

#vent #j.txt #did not actually mean to post this one it was supposed to be a draft but cest la vie i guess

[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

Omg. Vanessa Gilbert and Micky were jonsey's girlfriends? Do you know anything about them?

i really don't know much mostly because anything is just heard through the grapevine. all i know is that someone once said he and vanessa were "great friends" and read henry miller together which is definitely a "friendly" thing to do. the mickey account is from "i'm with the band" and, if i'm to speculate, i don't believe that connection lasted very long based on my assumptions of jpj's eventual habits when dabbling with other women.

#tbh talking about the girlfriends always makes me sad because it's just like.......sigh #cest la vie i suppose #that's what i get for loving fucking bands

[mobbothetrue]

Yeah I have a normal level of impulse control I think <- got burrito grease all over my fresh painted nails because I was hungry

#mobbtalks #painted my nails right before eating because I wanted to experiment with masking tape #I mean it worked I’ve got a cute little heart one one of my nails now it’s just that it’s also been drowned in pizza grease a little. #cest la vie and all that #pizza grease…. why did I say pizza grease??? I mean I suppose a burrito at its core is sort of just a rolled pizza #meat. cheese. dough. if I added tomato sauce I woulda had a basic pizza #I mean getting even more technical I was eating a sloppy joe in a wrap <- ran out of buns <- had sloppy joe filling left over #But. I’m getting off track. grease on nails. gonna go run them under water and what happens happens

[satvruu]

hmmm in writing the getou fic im having an increasing fear that its going to be Short…. like i would love love love for it to hit double digits by completion but Realistically i dont know how possible that is

#:( short as in like 7k #maybe cause the writing style isnt as Wordy as the more contemporary fics #But cest la vie i suppose…… #text

[gremlins-2-the-new-batch]

it's really horribly murphys law ironic when everyone you miss very much either forgot to reach out to you or decided not to anymore

#this isn't targeted at anyone but #my friend just graduated and we were supposed to hang out #but i got covid right before she had to move out #and i've been messaging her not too much but i let her know i miss her and that im sad i got covid right then #and she just said 'cest la vie' ok she does not miss me back?? #we hung out all the time when school was in #and my dad hasnt been answering my calls #and i havent had a real converation with him since february #how am i repelling people like this? #im trying to be fine about it but the longer it goes on the worse i feel #this is just kind of a journal entry no worries

[fictionkinfessions]

oh post canon game very exciting. if I had to pick a canon where i know the Most about my post canon (and where I have more memories post than during canon) I'd have to say Azula (atla.)

first and foremost i think its so funny the comics think the fire nation had straight jackets and "asylums." thats so funny. i was in prison. I was in prison and then I spent an absurd possibly inhuman amount of time in solitary confinement (I forgive my brother for this, I truly was causing too many problems around other people. it was a different Time.) Eventually through Circumstance however when one member of team avatar caught me wildly disassociating and self destructing inside of an ice cube he decided he'd make me his little pet project. and it worked very well. he sat with me for my main meal every day for months and therapized me. often very poorly because he was just as much of an idiot as he was intelligent, but that made two of us.

after that I transed my gender, (eventually...) rebuilt bridges with my brother and uncle, kind've squirmed my way into team avatar, and got deeply into spirituality. never truly became a pacifist and did enjoy firebending deeply for the rest of my life but eventually it became better for me to tune my innate connection to my element towards more peaceful endeavors, and I was damn good at it, thank you. I remember visiting my uncle for tea in the spirit world... I do quite like the theory that that firebending priest in TLOK is me, I can see it. maybe if they gave her One sarcastic quip I'd know for sure, but I can see it.

one other fun piece of trivia, had a phase where I got really into dance, specifically that kind've showy firebending stuff you see in book 3, it was another good way to use all my training towards understanding my element and my body in a way that was nondestructive.

on firebending; an INTERESTING thing, I don't associate very much with the blue fire. I think I did that because I was deeply mentally ill and needed people to think I was perfect and beyond every one elses level, and knowing what I know now about *how* i could do it it was very impressive, but it was purely show, the fire wasn't actually hotter, i just needed people to think I was cool. I suppose I just dropped it at some point.

all of this is wildly noncompliant with canon and i just assume I will never meet anyone with similar memories. cest la vie. I will say I quite like the most recent post canon comic for me, they do actually bring spirits into it, which considering how important that became to me I really appreciate it and do hope they'll take me down that line, even if they leave out my year or two of prison mental breakdowns and my stupid little boy toy. and you know i'm too girl power for them to ever realize CLEARLY i am transgender (joke, I know im *very* non compliant for that, all love to other azula kins who kept their canon gender, I however was a failboy.)

I don't. have any post canon memories of my mother. I don't know if we met her. i hope if we did she didn't do what she did in the comics. but i wouldn't blame her. part of me hopes I never saw her again. i just don't think I'm ready to think about it.

apologies for the essay as usual!! azula is such a high kin for me but my post canon is so hyperspecific I never get to talk about it. hugs and kisses to everyone from source, miss you lots xoxoxo❤️

x

#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #azulakin #atlakin #post canons #prisons cw #torture cw #prison abuse cw #food cw #ableist language cw #gamrep #mod party cat

[everythingsinred]

Sorry-- this is about the poll post you reblogged:

Natsume was in a poll??? A catboy poll??? He's not even a catboy!! The stupid fecking mask isn't even something he wants to wear, and he doesn't even wear it for most of the series rrraaahhhhhh I'm gonna go flip a table

i'm kinda unreasonably ticked off by that idk why

he was indeed in a catboy poll. i understand why you'd be a lil annoyed bc yeah the cat mask isn't his choice. i do believe he IS catlike anyway, just based on his behavior (he is a cat, really)... but im gonna be entirely honest i dont really know what a catboy is supposed to be. i'm not really hip w the kids.... lol. like, is it a boy who acts like a cat? bc then... yes he could fit bc he's catlike in his personality. not even in a cringe way. or is a catboy a boy who dresses as a cat? bc if thats the case, then no he shouldnt win on the basis of the cat mask being a torture device, etc (tho i DO wish he wore it more bc it was supposed to be his symbol and he was supposed to wear it on all his missions and tbh it feels like higuchi tachibana just forgot abt it and that bugs me).

i think natsume deserves to win whatever poll he's in just because he's perfect, but it's a little unfair to pit him against much more popular characters from trending anime. i'd rather ppl just NOT include him, especially since he was only included to create more rounds on the poll, not bc op actually cared abt him as a character, but i can't enforce that even if i wanted to so. cest la vie and all that.

#poor natsume #hyuuga natsume #ga #gakuen alice #tardytothepardy #answered #no seriously i have no idea what a catboy is #u dont have to tell me. i dont really care very much. im happy living my way #with the soul of a reclusive crazy cat lady grandma.... thats the life ive chosen for myself and im ok with it #u youths with ur tiktoks and ur catboys.... bizarre!!!! baba anya doesnt understand any of it

[just-omega-things]

Dear just omega things, it's me, blogging while knotted anon. I want you to know that myself, my roomie, and their brother looked you up during a watch of Jupiter Ascending in which we had fun arguing over who was a beta, omega, and alpha. We didn't even know their brother was aware of ABO until he made the joke first, and the floodgates were open. We ended up on the topic of justgirlythings, and then looked up justomegathings - you can imagine our collective DELIGHT when you blog popped up. I saw it was long past its prime, but we had a fun idea, so we sent it in anyway. I never thought I'd see it posted, but there we are.

It's funny, I was never actually INTO ABO, though I've definitely indulged a fic or two. Kinktomato and all! There's some aspects I like, and others I don't. Cest la vie. Such is life, such is kink. I'm glad kink brings joy into your life in this way! I hope there are many fond memories that you have of this blog.

But I want you to know sometimes I think about that post with your tag and it makes me smile. It's amazing what we can do, completely anonymously, from such a distance and through time. My ask made you smile. Your posting it and your commentary made me smile. Now I'm smiling again. I hope you are too.

I am married, and not looking for another lovely poly partner at the moment, so I'm afraid that the law and my own limits will keep us apart. But, as this is justomegathings, I suppose this means that I'm the butchy, overly warm, sentimental alpha that got away. Seems fitting, I think.

Sparkle on omega. I hope you find what you're looking for.

first of all - this ask also made me smile irl, thank you so much!!

second - i am also LAUGHING. this blog was made to amuse myself & some users on a private forum. i'd assumed you were someone digging through old threads and came across this blog that way. i could not have predicted you were someone who'd happened to put in the right url to find me. i'm genuinely delighted

It's amazing what we can do, completely anonymously, from such a distance and through time.

it really is! we may be two ships passing through the night, but we still found happiness in that brief moment we were side-by-side.

farewell, alpha. i will remember you fondly <3

#asks #not omega things

[lurathsharvest]

I went down to the stream today to turn some sticks into snakes just for funsies and found we have a new resident. There’s a dam. A big one and it’s made a lovely little mostly placid pool that’s wonderful at reflecting but has pissed off no small number of fish who suddenly found themselves unable to easily traverse downstream. I offered them legs so they could get out and craw around it but they were very offended by that and in case you’ve ever wondered, most fish are in fact capable of projectile urination.

The beaver (Alec) says that this was his part of his purpose- easy fishing.

To make a long story short, in exchange for some real estate on top of the dam, the Redcap Pixies will be available to airlift a few fish every day. Frankly, I grew board about halfway through negotiation and I’m rather hoping they’ll forget I stopped by because the last thing I want is to be constantly fielding complaints from fish.

This is exactly why I’m supposed to have a a Page- they could handle this nonsense. Maybe I’ll put out a help wanted add or hang a silver ring from a tree branch and see who I catch.

I’m accepting applications, so apply if you wish.

Well I’ve set a few mortal snares around the woods, apparently it’s one of your holidays, though there’s no celestial alignments going on so it seems ridiculous to me. Anyway, my hope is that a few of you mundies decide to go for a hike- I haven’t made a bargain in a long time and I’m itching to bamboozle someone.

A dragonfly has taken to following me around but refuses to say a word. I thought she was a messenger but I guess she just likes my hair. I don’t blame her.

I also need a bog witch so I guess applications are open for that too.

Honestly, I doubt any of you mortals will find and read this. Can you image? A fae lord posting on the internet and it’s not of note. The last time I spoke directly to the human race, they engraved the words in stone. Cest la vie or whatever. I’m off to piss off some rainclouds- it’s the fastest way to make lightening and I need some ambiance.

#fae #fae rp #fae talks

[whiskeyandwolfsbane]

7/28 - 9:42PM - The Night Before Surgery

So everyone probably knows by now that I'm getting surgery tomorrow. That's why this blog exists now, lol; I've had a few people ask for updates periodically and I thought, you know, I struggle to message more than two people back a day as it is, maybe I'd better find a place where I can just put it all at once.

All I could think of was a blog so here we are.

I'm supposed to be up at 4:30AM so I really should be sleeping but I still have stuff to do and anyway, I'll be sleeping like the dead for a solid four to five hours tomorrow anyhow so like... eh.

How am I feeling? Excited, sure, but mostly I'm just nervous and anxious. It's not a surprise, I stress out about everything ever, the joys of having generalised anxiety disorder. Will the results turn out okay? Will the surgery itself go okay? Will I get there on time? What if I screw something up? What if I forget something I'm supposed to bring tomorrow? And on.

I'm trying to just remind myself that what happens, happens. I've done everything I'm able to do so what good is it to just sit here freaking out? None.

Anyway. Here's the gist of what's going on tomorrow, I guess:

I have to check in by 6AM, so I'm waking up at 4:30AM so that I have enough time to shower and everything. Hopefully, departure time will be about 5AM. (Many thanks to my friend Lucy who is visiting, and also being my chauffeur for this venture.)

We have to go to Bellevue, which is why the departure is so early; it's a 40 minute drive usually, and according to my mother, that timeframe has traffic typically because of everyone heading off to work so.

Then, it's likely I'll be sitting around in the pre-op room for hours before actual surgery. The surgery itself takes roughly four hours according to the care team, and then whatever time it takes for wake-up, recovery, etc. I'm roughly guesstimating that I'll be there for around eight hours total.

I wanted to get a video of myself when I wake up because according to multiple friends who asked me to, folks say weird shit when they wake up from anaesthesia. Unfortunately, thanks to Covid, I'm not allowed to have anyone in the pre- or post-op rooms except the medical team. I'm pretty bummed about it, but cest la vie, I guess.

I'm gonna write "PHONE" on my hand in big letters if permissible so that it hopefully reminds me to record myself on my personal phone, which the nurse said I am allowed to do but we'll see.

But yeah. I'm currently trying to gather a stockpile of songs and podcasts on Spotify (why won't Spotify give me more organisation power), shows on Netflix (same with Netflix) and other TV streaming sites, and games I can play on my phone to keep me occupied both in the hours before surgery and after while I'm at home recovering. Suggestions are always welcome.

So are any other words of wisdom or encouragement or whatever - I'm probably going to be even more nervous come the morning and I may very well be asking people to talk me up then anyway lol.

And keep an eye out here for updates, I guess! All the talk about anxiety aside, I am also still pretty excited.

#journal entry #surgery blog #surgery journal

[cursed-tm]

i saw a few posts about harley quinn and i thought she was cool until i saw one that referenced that she was a therapist and i did a complete 180 like actually? i hope that bitch dies and it’s like potentially a problem that i cannot imagine sympathizing with a therapist in any capacity even fictional i suppose but it’s really not one that i give a shit about solving at all whatsoever so cest la vie