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tasteofthatgoodlife · 2 years

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26 julio 22

Es tan dificil recibir todo lo que más habías soñado en la vida, y saber que no eres lo suficiente para ello.

Desde que recuerdo, fui una niña de 10. Sacaba la mejor calificaciòn porque id make my parents happy and that would make me happy.

Nowadays, I dont know where my brain is. I dont know where my true being rests. I feel like I´m sitting in a dream, those where everything is foggy, you cant seem to make out what happens, and whats actually going on, but you feel something. Very intensely. And you try different things every day. To work through it. Sometimes they work. Sometimes your days are actually pretty happy and enretaining. But the core problem persists, its still there. And will always be there.

No matter what I do and what I try, I feel like I keep on shrinking. No matter how much I try reaching out, it’s like everything becomes clearer. I’m blank. Its not what i am, but rather what I’m not. I’m not what everybody else is.

I can’t think. Like I can’t even think. And the more life advances, i feel like i’m getting dragged by. Whats the point of getting one of the greatest jobs, if I’m not even able to do it right.

Whats the point of getting into one of the greatest universities, If i don’t have even the language or cognitive level for it. I’ve just been priviledged with opportunity. The cv really does lie.

It tells you I got honours for my bachelors degree. What it doesnt tell you is I went to a lousy school. Where there where barely any classes, and barely any reading.

Reading. It’s so essential. So important. I get jealous of all the books read in their university times. All the reading I could’ve done. It’s like I’m a car missing out parts. Shit. Fuck that. I dont know one thing about fking cars. Bad reference.

I dont know how to fking fit the mold. Theyre all lies. Yeah, I manifested into getting a job, and my fkin dream. It came true. But thats bullshit. None of that really matters when your own selse of self doesnt align with any of that.

And I’m tired, of people around me pumping me up. It’s dangerous, to tell someone they’re something positive to make them feel good, when it turns out to be a lie. Don’t lie to anyone, ever. Thats toxic positivity to me, right there.

I am entering a warzone unarmed. That’s what I feel.

I can’t not go to the uni. Why? I dont know. What does anything mean anyway. What does getting a job, and going to university mean anyway. What is being smart. What is thinking. Why do we do all this stuff everyday?

I mean yeah, we do it to solve problems. Make life bearable. Do shit so we don’t die right away.

I really dont know what I am. Like I know in my core who I am, and all that really actually matters to me are people. My friends and fam, they’re the only thing in this world that make sense.

But it gets hard. It feels like im in an acting scene, but I’m the only one who didn’t get the script. I don’t know what is personality. What is banter. What to talk to others about. What is anything.

Suddenly, I have no memory anymore. Like my brain is fried out. Maybe from the weed and alcohol.

Like fk this. I have to forcefully depend on being something in society. But my society mask is so fragile, I dont’ know what part to play out. I dont know how to respond, interact. Where is my mind? Where is my creativity and intelligence. Where is my capacity to withhold information.

Suddenly, words are no longer here for me. I’m just existing. Being present. Getting dragged by others. I’m just standing there, letting the tide move me, side to side.

I don’t understand what is happening to me, and why. The only thing that makes sense is my capacity to understand my own mental processes.

I know, that if everything else fails. And i know I will probably be unable to keep my act up for much longer. I cant keep on pretending, i feel like someone will figure it out. Call me out on it. Finally someone saying that I’m incompetent.

I find comfort in knowing I can be useful. Thats the thing though. I dont have 0 confidence. I know I’m smart, but not the kind of smart I need. It’s like a thick glass wall separating my mind from the rest of the people. Those who really know me, understand. And love me as I am. But I cant reach out to others. Its like the real me is stuck inside this inner cave, screaming out “hey! I’m here! I exist! I think! I am!” but the words cant come out, and instead, there’s silence.

A deep silence, a transference in the signal, broken chords, broken cables, that distort the message, and out comes the un-understandable.

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burdenedhelp · 2 years

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I’m sad, i cant even write a fucking complaint anon’ on the internet right. without accidently deleting the whole thing. im tired of bringing those around me down. im tired not being the first want someone feels when they have free time. im tired if feeling this mental soulful thirst for someone to fill the void in my chest by truly wanting and loving me. im tired of hating being alone im done im emotionally exausted and simply only surviving. and its not getting any better.

i think about running away

but even if the people change i cannot fill the void in my chest..

I can say its from xyz, but idk really what the void is caused by, or why it happened. but

thats why i dont want to be alone. because when im with someone i love my chest doesnt feel that weighted space, i call my void.

i cant feel that gasping dry thirst for acceptance, for being wanted-

being wanted is a good thought.

i dont know one people who i truly say wants me. because idk a single person who knows how truly painful my heart is, and how must i suffer, and how im spritually dragging my feet along -not knowing how many more steps i have in this walk of my will to live.

idk anyone who i could trust, that could see my ugly colors and my abusive crys for help and actually still want me.

i dont even want me why the fuck would i believe anyone else would.

i just want sweet sweet release. that beautiful word. releasse. im tired i dont want to play this cry game of life anymore. the game is over and ruined for my character. let me donate to someone who can use my privileged healthy body, that i am not worthy of. let my soul rest and release from this pain it squeezes tightly. let my soul relax and not feel any fucking desperation

why do i love nature and animals so much is because it feel like what ldove would be if i was to be able to be loved.

i can love but not be loved because no one person on the planet could make my void heal.

no one would have me if they knew

knew all the uncomfortable things i am, do , or feel

i wouldnt be respected or held to the same light anymore

im tired of being a disappointment to my spouse. my self and my family.

im tired of being a disapointment to myself

im tired of the weight of being dissapointed in myself

my ego of myself is chained to my ankle drowing me in the dark of the sea while i suffocate in all im lacking.

a smoke will make me feel less pain less sad

but i wish i could not be so weak

weakness is not what gains me love

its not what my spouce or friends would love

im a strong act. supposed to be bubblegum pink and cotton candy, brick that sheild from pain and someone who others can depend on to look after them.

my childhood hurts

my child

me child

childme* hurts. im tired of letting people down, i love n so very much but he deserves so much better then me. i only pain everyone who loves me. and i dont say hurt. i cause worse. pain. internal pain that doesnt heal. because im a cancer in the life of happy people and yet i dont want to hurt them. yet if i was a good people i would hid from my loved ones and let them move on, friends fam and n, so then they can keep me in the past where i cant suck the soul out of them anymore. that would be the true defintition of loving someone. love gives you the strength to hurt yourself at the reward of knowing they can move on and heal from me and bloom again without me.

my period.

brings up all the pain i feel to my lips and finger tips.

f the spelling f the punctuation. f the lot of it. i just needed to direct my emotions as i feel them and release them out on to surfaces they can infect.

i want to be worthy of him

and make him smile

make him feel trust that i love him - but i cant make - anyone - feel. that part is up to them but i wish he could see. how my love for him brings me to tears. that fall to my smile being loving him is the closest ive ever felt to filling the void. its given me the ability to feel what i imagin i want to be felt for me from someone else.

thinking about how much i l o v e him brings me peace in my chest and makes me think this is the feeling i missing inside. and altho not a perfect fit. it fills me with enough to no longer be exhausted by the void,despair,and dissapointment in myself.

loving the dogs gives me the same feeling almost.

only them

the dogs and n make me feel like life is spring blooming instead of exhausted drowning.

but i hurt who i love

and it hurts me to hurt them

hes better off without the constant nag and need and despair making him feel like hes inadequate.

he feels that way because i get overwhelemd with emotions from others or other thoughts and lash out. or in the moment high expectations and then its almost what i call a manic. moment. where i emotionally think unlogically. and then when i come down i realize how stupid i am and how its not okay

saying he wants to live together, but i know we wont make it to that. im not that lucky to have a perfect pleasant prince of himself to want to be with this damaged potato sack .

i am chaos,

im tired of chaos.

tired feels the same as chaos

so i am infinite chaos and nothing felt so right in my gut to say but im a chaotic void

time for a smoek

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tokaywineandcheese · 3 years

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#im going to lose my MIND #without going into too much detail #my brother is very determined to secretly bring his friends over for his birthday tomorrow #his original plan was a sleepover....if he decides to do it #im just #so mad at him and how selfish he is #like....bro.....we're in the middle of a pandemic?#4 people....for a....SLEEPOVER #thats SUCH HIGH RISK #and like #if he gets covid?#whatever #but...he'll likely spread it to the REST of us #i do NOT want covid thanks!!#you can get it and suffer for all i care #but dont drag me and the rest of the fam into it #im so tired ugh #>:/#xan's nonsense

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schnees-and-schnugs · 3 years

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The rest of the Schnees + Klein come to Winter’s rescue BUT ANGST

Ironwood disarms Winter and has her in a position where he can easily kill her, Willow sneaks up behind him and mouths to Winter “I love you” before tackling him off the edge...

...and Whitley unlocks his semblance to save his mother with a glyph and lets Ironwood fall

May Allah grant this ONE birthday wish of mine 😌

I live in this wonderful fantasy land where willow, whitley, and klein are actually headed to the vault because they're supposed to meet winter there and go thru the portal together. It's canon unless crwby tells me otherwise hehe

#yall are gonna have to drag me kicking and screaming into hiatus if i dont get a reconciliation between winter #and the rest of her fam #whitley schnee #winter schnee #rwbyv8spoilers #james ironwood #willow schnee #ask

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kvgehiras · 3 years

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can i request sleepover hcs with trickstar (separate)? i feel like they would be so much fun to be with... the new shuffle unit really woke up my inner trickstarP 🥺 (hope it's not too much to request all 😭)

HELLO !!! nd no it's ok !!!! it took me some time bcs i didnt . rlly know how to start out hokuto's part BUT IT'S DONE NOW !!!!!!! (also i hope u meant it in a setting where y/n nd the members r in a relationship (separately ofc) bcs that's how i wrote it so ye) hope yall like it ~

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

AKEHOSHI SUBARU

• he probably brought up the idea while u were accompanying him on a walk w daikichi

• u were talking abt how u brought these glow-in-the-dark stickers nd they remind u of him

• "it would b so nice if u could see it omg!!! but .... it's the best when u watch it right before u go to sleep.....nd ur probably busy :(("

• "????? LETS HAVE A SLEEPOVER THEN!!!!!!! W ALL THE SPARKLE SPARKLE STARS!!!! AAAAA IT WOULD LOOK SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!"

• nd ur just like :0 bcs u cant believe this dumbass . he has a live to perform in day after tomorrow but he's gonna have a sleepover........what

• "dw abt my live !!!!!!! ill tell hokke nd the others that i can't come today but i'll practice extra hard tomorrow !! they'll understand dw (*・∀-)☆"

• they didn't.....actually...but he cut the call on hokuto before they could get him to attend so uh-

• "anyways!!!!!!!! ^^^^^^"

• yall bring daikichi over too. it's not even a question daikichi is literally yalls child at this point but anyways

• he probably looks for board games for a good hour or two while u get some food for daikichi nd then get some food for subaru nd urself

• (he doesn't find it)

• u peek at the doorframe bcs for a while u keep feeling like someone has been watching u for a while now nd then boom . u see the other baby (read : subaru . main baby is daikichi, ofc!) pouting at u

• u laugh nd wipe ur hands on ur apron before ruffling his hair nd he goes

• "i can't find the board games :((((( y/n :(((((("

• surprise guessing game : whos the actual puppy? akehoshi subaru or his actual dog daikichi??????? it remains a mystery

• anyways u help him look for them nd after u hand him over the thing u get food for the both of u nd force him to eat atleast a bite bcs this bitch is too busy trying to win against u in snakes & ladders 😭😭😭

• "subaru.....pls....the food is getting cold....."

• "no i Know im gonna win!!! the sparkly stars r my good luck!!!! i know it!!!!!!"

• he.... doesn't win .....for the 5th time....

• so manz just gives up, noms all the sandwiches visible (aka his portion bcs u alrdy finished urs an hour ago JDJDKDN)

• nd then sleeps, still sulking

• yes it ends up in u guys cuddling under the glowy stars

• nd subaru thinks that mayb losing against u isn't that bad after all (´꒳`)

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

HIDAKA HOKUTO

• unlike subaru, this was actually a planned one

• u both had homework to do, u especially had a test tomorrow nd subaru just ditched the rest of trickstar to go hang out w someone else instead of their practice so ┐(´∀｀)┌

• hokuto appears at ur doorstep around 6:30pm, as discussed earlier

• "right on time!!!!!! so true hokke (´∀`)ｂ"

• he chuckles a lil as he closes the door behind him nd takes off his shoes

• "(y/n) u keep sounding like that masked pervert whenever u say smthg like that pls"

• u laugh it off nd then get him to the living room, where u two get ur books out nd then start studying

• hokuto asks if uve studied any material before to which u quietly reply no nd hokuto just goes

• "oh, that's ok… i think it will be good practice for me too if i taught u all this, right? so let's start, hm?"

• HOKKEEEEEEE ๐·°(৹˃̵﹏˂̵৹)°·๐

• sasuga hokuto kyun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• anyways !! u guys (finally) start studying now!

• except…..except ur alrdy falling asleep……

• hokuto doesn't even realise this till he looks over to his shoulder bcs wow it suddenly feels heavy! wonder why!

• nd then boom ur face is an inch away from his

• poor hokuto his face gets all red and his ears r burning nd when he realises that ur sleeping he just . freezes

• doesnt even move fucking muscle

• mentally too manz just checks out NDNDNDJDJKS

• BUT IN HIS DEFENCE WHEN HE CAME TO UR PLACE HE DIDNY EXPECT THIS!!!!!!! HE EXPECTED TO STUDY ND THEN GO HOME YK!!!!!!

• poor guy he can feel how hard his heart is beating nd hes praying that u dont hear it nd wake up

• thank goodness ur a heavy sleeper……..nothing, nd i mean not even if boulder is dropped on u, can wake u up

• sasuga…..y/n……?

• anyways !!!!!

• u wake up at like . 2 or 3 am nd u find hokuto just closing his eyes shut, cheeks still bright red nd. WHYS HE SO CLOSE-

• o u fell asleep on his shoulder lol-

• U FELL ASLEEP?????

• u jerk back up nd apologise a million times for falling asleep even tho hes so desperately trying to teach u nd hokuto just tries to hard to explain that it's ok !!!!!!! (bcs he actually kinda . liked it . aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAA)

• after much thought u guys just decided to go to sleep bcs ur too tired anyways so it's not like u would retain this info anyways

• nd it was a good decision bcs after waking up in the morning nd going thru his notes instead u actually aced the test !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so true y/n !!!!!!

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

YUUKI MAKOTO

• this one….. it's like . neither planned or accidental?????

• it just happened????? yk?????

• he called u suddenly in the evening bcs he went to this new game shop that opened near his place right

• nd hes just like !!!!!!! y/n!!!!!!! uve got to check this game out !!!!!!

• nd so u go to his place to play the game nd u see that he just has everything prepared so u get the snacks that u got for both of u on a plate nd get some juice from his fridge nd start playing the game

• nd the game is rlly good !!!!!

• from the graphics to the boss music, makoto rlly knows ur taste

• (he blushes nd thanks u all flustered too hehe)

• nd after switching consoles nd playing the game for over 3 hrs, yes it's a pretty huge game, u finally reach the boss battle!!!!

• nd this . this scares u

• uve seen ppl on the net say that this battle will absolutely End u . periodt

• u never rlly understood why but holy shit u now do

• uve been trying to win against this bitch for AN HOUR at this point . why cant he just die

• poor makoto is just cheering u on in the bg bcs u refuse to let him help

• "y/n….(;´Д`)...... it's ok bb…...i'll finish this up for u…. it's like 4am we have class tomorrow- wait no it's actually today-"

• "makoto No u always help me in games let me finally win smthg for u !!!!!!"

• nd u point at his forehead nd poke it several times as u make ur point

• "ill win for u !!!!! ok!!!!! this stupid boss can never be as strong as my love for u !!!!!! (*｀へ´*) 彡3"

• nd hes just . looking at u all worried but he . he trusts u . so he lets u do it urself

• yes u lost even more times nd cried a lil out of frustration

• so at one point, instead of directly helping u, he just starts giving u directions nd at this point ur too tired nd exhausted to say anything so u just follow him

• (u also have ur head on his lap nd hes combing thru ur hair nd looking down at u like :') lmao what a lovebird)

• but when u actually beat the boss, finally, nd the screen says "win!" in huge yellow letters ur eyes go O.O

• nd u jump out of his lap, while he's still spaced out, combing ur hair nd hug him v tightly

• nd hes like ????? huh ???? wh wh wh ?????????

• nd u explain that u finally won nd u guys just rejoice lol

• then immediately fall asleep. both of u

• (u guys were late to school next day . sigh)

─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

ISARA MAO

• unlike the other three, this man was actually dragged to ur place

• why? u might ask

• WELL THIS DUMB RAT IS BURNT OUT !!!!!! HE DOES TOO MUCH WORK ND HE DOESNT REALISE IT !!!!!!!!!!

• so after u guys r done w school, nd when u check in w his fam too that hes gonna stay at ur place (nd also that he has almost no work today, ofc) u drag him to an arcade nd hes like ???

• "today is a rest day!!!!!! so no work at all!!!!!!"

• u said this while pouting a bit so mao mostly thought u were joking

• but even after going to the arcade, going to the shopping mall nd getting snacks, going to the fast food place u guys visit alot nd getting food from there, his brain doesnt catch on that ur indeed not joking

• until it's been 3 hours at ur place, ur having the dinner that u guys had bought from the fast food place while watching a random movie that was airing on some channel that his brain suddenly went

• 'i know they were saying that this is a rest day nd ur not allowed to work probably as a joke but bro…. i dont think it's a joke anymore'

• this is so sad f in the chat for mao lol

• but also he doesnt bring it up bcs ur forcing him to watch musicals w u (some of ur favs) nd he... actyally likes it?

• he hasn't felt so ….relaxed in a very long time now that he thinks abt it

• nd he has to thank u for it yk

• nd so after the musical marathon ends, as he thanks u, he kind of just goes on a rant yk

• abt how he's feeling

• he never expected for this to happen but u tell him it's ok yk

• nd while he shouldn't burden himself w so much work, ur always open to listen to his thoughts, opinions, random bs, anything !!!!!!

• for hours u guys just have a very deep talk abt how guys have been doing nd mao feels like hes so so glad that u did smthg like this for him

• yall also go to bed early bcs mao alrdy has a bad sleeping schedule (so let's not make it worse!!!!)

• nd in conclusion, it was a v good day! now yall do this whenever either of u r feeling down or get burnt out lol

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aestheticsuwu · 3 years

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🌌🕹°Time Travel is a Bitch 🕹°🌌

Part 1 / 2

Time travel au . Pairings : Sam LaRusso x Miguel Diaz, Robby Keene x Doug Rickenberger, Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz x Demetri .

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A snippet how one mohawk teenager manages to time travel with unwilling friends to a time where both senseis were pining from a distance , now the thing was they now have to manage how to survive-only good thing they all get to meet Mr Miyagi but unfortunately for the old man has to undure chaotic kids .

......

Wtf

Was exactly what was on eveyones mind . They were all having a normal day at the dojo , everyone with their signaficent other just fooling aroud and conversating .

Then suddenly , Poof .

...... ....

Sam and Miguel were teaching each other new moves with a flirty banter , Tory was letting Moon braid her hair while adding adorable pins . Hawk was rummaging through the boxes of Mr. Larusso and Mr. Myagi with Demetri .

While he was laying back in between Dougs legs and skimmy through the pages of Mr. Larusso yearbook .

" She looks hot "

Turning to glare at his dumb giraffe of a boyfriend that has no right to be looking at other people while he has a whole snack on his lap .

" Damn . "

" Dougie , Im this close to hitting you with this damn book . " He wasn't kidding .

" Im sorry , baby . " Rolling his eye and pouting after hearing Doug chuckle .

" Give me a kiss . Robby , Robby . You know your the only one i want , pretty boy . Give me a kiss . "

" Ok " Turning around to kiss him , because hey ! , he's human after all and he lives off of affection now.

Everyone was to busy in their own little bubble that they didn't hear Demetri telling Hawk to stop .

" Eli , i think we should leave that alone . "

" Dem , dont worry . I got it under control just because the warning said not to- uh oh . "

" Eli ! "

" Whats going on guys ? "

Miguel rushed after hearing Demetri , Sam walking behind him to see what had happened .

" Nothing , right Dem ? "

" uhhh .... Yeah. i was just overreacting like always " Elbowing his boyfriend for making him lie , He was already feeling guilty . Demetri just hoped there wouldn't be consequences.

You see in that moment they should've confronted the situation throughly. Knowing Godamn Eli Moskowitz was a crazy chaoctic dude that was never up to no good .

Especially after Hawk had made up that tazer tag game dragging Doug into the mess .

But they all turned a blind eye . Why ? Well because they needed the peace and quiet .

Hawk didn't quite get the assignment .

Moon and Tory left after saying they had a date planned for the afternoon . They left hand in hand looking in love as ever .

Doug was helping him get up from the floor when suddenly everything started to shake and if it wasnt for his boyfriend he would've ended up on the floor .

" What the hell is going on ! " , He shouted , wrapping his arms around Doug while the lights flickered .

Sam and Miguel were holding hands while trying to maintain balance over the turbulance of the floor .

" Shit , shit , shit shit ." Demtri kept chanting over and over . Alongside Hawk who was looking at Demetri as he hold onto a box .

It didnt help their case when Hawk opened his mouth , being the last thing they all heard.

" Were about to die , no cap fam ! "

Suddenly it all turn black .

..... ...... ....

Robby didn't like to point fingers but he's totally going to since he had a feeling it was Hawks fault .

Waking up felt like the worst hangover he ever had while he had to look at his surrondings . It was dark and no sign of no one .

Furrowing his eyebrows , confused at the sudden change of location. He rubbed his temples to ease the headache , He starts calling out to his boyfriend .

Because well Sam and Demetri would look for their boyfriend . If not , then he was a really bad friend .

" Doug ! , Doug ! Rickenberger ! " He was met with silence . Reaching his pocket to call his Doug and his friends but it was nowhere to be found .

He swore that if they were pranking him right now he would kick their asses .

Turning around quickly once hearing someone call his name but couldn't find the person .

" Keene ! " He knew that voice ! Running towards the silhouette , hoping it was his boyfriend and not a stranger that he was about to jump on .

Crashing to his boyfriends body holding on tight , he feels the other arms squeeze him while he gave him kisses on his hair .

Both sighing of relief , until Doug pushed him away to look at him .

" Where the fuck were you !? " The taller boy asked , slightly raising his voice . He was scared for a moment thinking he had lost his short boyfriend .

" I was here ? Where were you ? Where's the rest of the guys !? . " A look of panic crosses his face realising none of his friends were around . Doug dismissed his questions and took a hold of his hand taking him somewhere.

The rest of the group was outside of a dinner that he never seen before . Somehow they all looked different . Sam no longer had highlights and Hawks Mohawk was gone and no hint of hairdye in his auburn hair .

They all looked shaken up like they all seen a ghost . Catching his breath as Demetri passes him a newspaper . Everyone waiting for him to read , guess they forgot about his dyslexic ass .

Headlines with a bunch of shit he clearly didnt have time for , something about a mall's grand opening and Coke raising up sells but what made him feel like hhis lungs stopped was the date . Nowhere near 2021 that was for sure .

Ring of bells rang once the door from the Dinner had opened . Laughter coming from the direction of a group of teenagers wearing red leathered jackets just mocking them .

Were fucked .

Oh god , they always had to deal with his dad and Mr. LaRusso pining now they have to deal with their teenage pining . He couldnt catch a break .

" We're Fucked . "

" And not in a good way ." They all turn to glare at Hawk after the words left from his mouth .

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comfyswitcherblanketfort · 4 years

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Snowed In p10

this is it kids. this is the end.

Pairing: Geralt x fem!reader

Warnings: dont thing theres any? mildly steamy at one point but nothing that qualifies as smut

Summary: The slow burn is finally put out fam.

Part 9 here!

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You woke from a fitful sleep, vague memories of whispers in the night that you never quite understood lingered at the back of your mind but you dismissed them as another dream.

Geralt and Jaskier had already packed up their rolls and were conspiratorially discussing something over the fire.

“Why didn’t you wake me? We need to get moving.” You grumbled as you sat up, rubbing blood flow back into your face and raking your hands through your hair.

“I tried, you just snored.” Jaskier teased, standing up and stretching, “Well, I’ve got to see a man about a horse.” He smacked Geralt’s shoulder with the back of his hand as he passed and disappeared into the woods.

You wished he wouldn’t. You didn’t know how to act around Geralt anymore and it didn’t feel right to sit in silence without being able to lay across his lap or run your fingers through his hair. So you busied yourself with packing up and saddling your horse.

Jaskier still hadn't returned when you had finished, making you a bit worried, but you assumed he'd probably gotten distracted by something he wanted to write about. It wouldn't be the first time. You bit back your pride and settled into the log next to Geralt, keeping a respectable distance and staring into the fire. It was barely burning, but the coals warmed your knees and watching them turn from orange to white and black served as a decent distraction.

"This is shit."

You frowned, not looking up at Geralt as you replied, "He's not taking that long. We'll make town by sundown."

"I-" Geralt forced a nervous rush of air out of his lungs, "-no. I mean this." He gestured to the space between you and you felt your heart sink.

You clenched your jaw, folding your hands in your lap and squeezing till they hurt, "Having regrets?" You hoped your tone was light.

Geralt shifted to face you but you still couldn't look at him, "Y/N…"

This was it. The final conversation where it would all come crashing down and you'd be left helpless. Maybe you could go home for a while? Regroup? Stitch yourself back together? He reached for your hand, and you let him take it, as much as you knew it was going to hurt you still couldn't tell him no.

"I don't regret it I promise."

"Then what's so shit?"

You heard his breath hitch in his throat and finally turned to look at him. He clearly hadn't gotten any sleep, the circles under his eyes were blue and heavy. There was something akin to fear in his eyes as he searched for words but for once you weren't going to let him off the hook. If he was going to break your heart he was going to look you in the eye while he did it.

"Sleeping without you. It's cold and lonely and I hate it."

It surely wasn't what you were expecting, but the hopeless romantic piece of you was disappointed nonetheless, "Geralt, I can't go on pretending th-"

"I love you."

All the air left your lungs in an instant, your chest tightened in what felt close to panic and it was a while before you could take a shaky breath in again.

"What did you say?"

Geralt looked like he might drop dead, but you had to be sure you weren't hearing things. When he finally replied it was like a floodgate opened.

"I-I love you. I know it's not fair of me to say it now, after all of… this. But I do. I love you. Probably since before the inn… Everything you do pulls me in deeper and I miss you. We were no more than ten feet away all day yesterday but I missed you. It feels ridiculous…" he let his gaze drop to your hands and you realized you were just staring at him. Mouth slightly open, eyes wide, and probably making him all the more nervous.

"You asshole." You breathed, then finding your voice you continued at a yell, "You love me!? And you let me wallow in self pity thinking I was nothing but a fuck to pass the time!? A sympathy lay!? I fucking pined over you for nothing!? When I could have just enjoyed being stuck in that room for months!? What the fuck Geralt!?"

"You-?"

"Shut the fuck up." You ordered, pulling your hands free of his and placing them on either side of his jaw, "Are you serious? You're not fucking with me?"

He nodded, his expression a little bewildered, but his voice was sure, "I love you."

A soft gasp escaped your lips and you leaned closer, "Holy shit…"

Geralt placed a hand behind your neck and pulled you to him, closing the distance and gently brushing his lips against yours. Someone sighed, maybe it was both of you, before you pushed forward and kissed him eagerly. His lips were chapped but soft and you picked up that familiar taste of him. Your head spun when he traced your upper lip and you immediately parted for him, shivering when his tongue met yours. You whined when he dragged the tip of his tongue over the roof of your mouth, pulling away for air and leaving you breathless.

You stared into his eyes, still clouded with worry and finally remembered you had a line yet to deliver, "Oh, fuck! I love you too!" You giggled.

His face lit up and he laughed as he lifted you to straddle his lap, holding you close and pressing another gentle kiss to your lips, "Thank gods, I thought you'd never say it."

You shifted a bit to unbend your knees, fully sitting on his lap and crossing your ankles behind his back, kissing him again and reveling in the feeling, "Thought I'd never hear it."

He brushed your hair behind your ear, "I love you."

Your whole body felt like you might just melt at his words, "Mmmmmm, say it again." You hummed, kissing his forehead.

" I love you." He began, kissing every inch of your face between his words, "I love your smile. I love how you snuggle in your sleep. I love your sense of humor. I love how strong you are, how never back down from a fight. I love the way you mock me, surprisingly. I love how you snort when you laugh too hard and how you fight sleep even when you're exhausted. I love your eyes. I love your lips," he paused, leaving a lingering kiss right where you'd wanted him for weeks now before moving down your jaw, "...your chin, your neck."

Your skin tingled in the wake of his touch, his stubble tickling your neck as he moved lower.

A loud whistle interrupted the moment, followed by Jaskier's singsong voice calling through the trees, "Ow! Ow! HOT!"

You laughed as Geralt turned to lay his head on your shoulder, hiding his own laughter, "Get out of the bushes, you perv!"

He sauntered out, looking rather pleased with himself, "You're welcome, you two. For making Geralt use his words."

You rolled your eyes, resting a hand on Geralt's hair and keeping him close to your chest, "Hey Jask, guess what?"

The bard raised an eyebrow at you, picking up his lute case.

Your grin turned mischievous and you lowered your voice, as if telling him a secret, "Geralt said I was his best friend."

"Y/N," Geralt's tone was one of warning, but you heard the smile in his voice.

Jaskier looked outraged for a moment before he smirked, "Before or after getting his dick wet?"

"Guys" Geralt squeezed you even tighter, turning to hide his face in your shirt.

You just laughed and rubbed your hand in soothing circles on his back, not wanting to ever have to move. You kissed the top of his head and whispered into his hair, "Hey?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you."

"I love you too."

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#the witcher #geralt of rivia #the witcher fic #geralt of rivia fic #jaskier #jullian alfred pankratz #geralt fic #soft!geralt #soft geralt #geralt of rivia fanfic #yall this was so self indulgent and you can absolutely expect more self indulgence bc I have no school for the next three weeks.

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i-just-want-to-destroy · 3 years

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what do you think of bakugou and endeavor redemption arcs?

SEE THE THING IS,

I feel like bnha is always on the precipice of like. Touching on some REAL stuff but it always backs out at the last moment.

First of all im a big hater of both characters so expect a biased opinion here (lol). But i do think they are “good characters” as in they are interesting and pertinent to the plot, complex etc. bleh. bleh bleh. but the way their arcs are written.... lots of things rly dont sit right with me

**Fair warning i dont have the english skills to phrase this whole thing better.

1. Bkg first. I remember when bkg took the hit for deku i made fun of the whole thing bc OFCC thats how we r going to “redemp” him. Which in one hand ok, it does stay true to bkgs character bc he literally cannot communicate his feelings to save his life, hes more of an action guy. But also i really do think the buildup for that moment can be pushed more. And im not even gonna blame bkgs character entirely here bc he IS an established stubborn ass with the communication skills of a tadpole etc etc. what im gonna blame is the way horikoshi never lets deku even TOUCH on the bullying he’s endured before UA. Its literally never been discussed. Like the only time it IS brought up is the flashback we get right before bkg sacrificed himself. But deku, instead, never got the chance to process any of it. And i think thats my main problem with the whole bkg thing (and ofc there is a vindictive part where i feel like bkg hasnt got enough “repercussions” for it, which may be arguable, but thats a whole different ballpark).

i especially think bkg should apologize outright/address what he’s done to deku, but if horikoshi wants to drag that speech out (and thats if the speech will ever happen in the first place) i can accept that. BUT. to me. It has to be equal... as in deku should be allowed to address that too.

I get that deku is a virtuous main character who will supposedly forgive kacchan no matter what or whatever. And fuck it you know what, thats okay. But im begging let deku at least process it in some way. Bc the thing about deku’s character is whenever he gets angry, its always on behalf of someone else’s and not himself.

Which, again, is a virtue. But i also think the author tapping out on the whole bullying issue is kinda a coward move. Even when deku dukes it out with bkg its always about “im gonna get stronger and be number one kacchan!!111” and not “man you irreparably damaged my entire childhood and told me to [redacted] myself.”

literally the whole bullying nuance is casted out and replaced immediately with some boys will be boys rivalry. Which, really, just looks like the author taking the easy way out to me.

I can see how much both characters have grown, tho, and its clear that they care about each other. but the development is really :/ it leaves much to be desired wtf.

I’m not satisfied w bkg’s redemption arc thingy but i dont expect anything better either. I think if i were to reread bnha from the beginning i can have a clearer perspective on the whole thing, but i dont really feel the incentive for that bc it simply doesnt compel me enough to do so LOL.

If its worth anything, i dont really hate bkg anymore. only sometimes lmfao

2. End*avor. Ugh.

Ok. I love family drama its like crack to me. the whole dabi thing had me yelling forreal. And todoroki fam has like some of my most favorite characters in the whole series.

I dont even wanna discuss end*avors character... like honestly, the ones that shine the most in end*avor redemption arc are the other family members and not end*avor himself. Which on one hand i appreciate but also i might be biased? But im really <3 over how we get todoroki rei’s character development from this arc. Not only is rei’s arc cathartic as hell but its also very, very encouraging to see a character stands over her ab*ser like that after suffering for so long. I cant express how much i love that. And fuyumi and natsuo? Insanity. I esp love how fuyumi’s efforts get the appreciation they deserve.

And i liked the surprise where dabi rained on end*avor’s parade right after end*avor thought he could actually redeem himself. Ok im not gonna sugarcoat it i just liked to watch dabi fucked him over, it was a standing applause eureka moment for me.

Honestly i think the whole concept is really delicious, like the son of the number 1 hero is a villain thing, heroes arent saints, etc etc etc. like that is so sexi so dramatic so soap opera literal superhero telenovela and i loved it a lot. Like i really enjoyed reading the whole thing. so like. i am entertained.

Do i feel like end*avor has redeemed himself? Mm NO <3. I appreciate the details that he himself thinks that he is unforgivable (blehh) and he DID suffer which was nice to watch, personally. but its not enough and it will never be <3

im not sure if i think this way bc i just think what he did is irredeemable or bc the storytelling sucked OR BOTH <3. And i still do feel bnha did that thing where it backed out at the last moment with end*avor’s arc.... like it was touching it but it still didnt want to get its hands dirty, you know? Like what stance is it taking, really? It just never goes all out.

i think some details about this arc also irk me...... like why does the rest family got to shoulder the burden of his fuck ups? <3 die <3 like this part annoys me so much. and seeing how he got to be comforted after everything he’s done.................................................... i cant even say how much that just ... pisses tf out of me <3 haha

like thats the thing. i feel like both characters (bkg n end*avor) are still coddled despite everything.

im fully aware im biased tho. and no i will not change

leaving that clownery aside, i didnt expect bnha to take this direction, so like. ..Applause i suppose :/. The recent arcs have been a pleasant surprise in some part and i will still be following its developments. i do genuinely think both characters are interesting btw i just kinda hate them lmfaooo.

honestly, what i do. is just to keep low standards 🙌

TLDR I dont rly feel like either characters have redeemed themselves and i feel some disappointments over their respective arcs but i like the development n direction that the story is taking overall.

#anon #ask #scroll down for TLDR.#bit long btw

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rakimaiirisa · 3 years

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A fun little ask/prompt/whatever you'd like it to be for Arisa provided I did not already ask it of you, but: lets say it is Arisa's birthday coming up and the fam decides to throw her a surprise party. How do they keep her out of home? Does she notice the deception or are they successful in hiding it? Does she notice they're hiding something? If so how does she react? And finally how does she react to the reveal? And what other hijinks occur during the party?

I have they first one you sent me and I was stuck on on writing it out but I'm thinking on maybe small excerpts for each question might be better 😊

1. How do they keep her out the home?

The hunt had been fun. It wasnt often that she had the chance to take her beast form, especially since she became harbinger. Resisting urge to tear into the the carcass of the elk she brought down, she dragged it to the fire that Farkas set up. He looked up from the small wood piece he had been carving as she approached, a small smile on his face as the hulking she wolf dropped her kill at his feet and huffed at him. He nodded in the direction on the small pond nearby.

" I put your clothes and the soap over there. Whenever you're ready. "

He looked back down at the piece he held as she loped away, it looked decent enough. All he needed was to carve in the details. He glanced up at the sky and noted the sun's position.Mid-day, which means they had been out for a few hours. Hopefully Vilkas would've everything set up by now.

2. Does she notice the deception or were they successful in hiding it?

As she washed away the blood and grime from the hunt, her thoughts turned to the smell Farkas gave off since he asked for her to hunt with him that morning. It's not that the request was unusual. But the scent he had given off all morning was. He smelled anxious, she thought. But why? Was it because she had shifted to her beast form? He had admitted that ever since giving up his beastblood, he had become uncomfortable with her and Aela's transformations. She had asked him that morning if he would be alright with her using her beast form and he didn't seem to have a problem but maybe he had. Feeling guilty, she sighed. She would go apologize after she was done bathing.

Does she notice they are hiding something?

"Sorry? For what?" He asked, the puzzled expression he usually had becoming even more pronounced. She eyed him curiously. The smell of anxiety was overlapping with another scent she knew all too well. Guilt.

"For shifting, Farkas. I know you don't like when I do, and I shouldn't have asked."

He shot her a nervous smile." Ah, you dont have to apoligize to me. I was fine with it." Before she could ask him anything else, He hefted the cleaned elk carcass around his shoulders and practially sprinted towards his horse.

"Hurry up, Arisa, Lets hurry up and get back before it gets dark."

She shot him a annoyed glare as she mounted her own horse. What the hell is going on with him?

If so how does she react?

Annoyed, she attempted to talk to Farkas on the ride home, Spurring Stepper, she managed to catch up to the fast pace he had set. Farkas grinned at her expression.

"Farkas, I want-"

"I know, I know. You want to have a race, right? Last one to Jorrvaskr smells like a dirty dog!"

The distant laughter as she urged Stepper into a run told her that he heard every curseword she had directed at him.

I have to end it here as it got to long for the ask, But I will tag you for the rest on it on a new post.

I wanted to say thank you so much for these asks. They are fun but its also helping me write more. I really appreciate them 😭❤

#skyrim #skyrim asks #arisa #farkas #vilkas #I cant write too good but I am trying

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bigskydreaming · 5 years

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Okay but so technically, Jason beginning his rise to power as the crime boss the Red Hood happened in the comics AT THE EXACT SAME TIME....as Dick was working undercover as an enforcer for the mob.

Dick literally even ‘auditioned’ for Black Mask????

So what if....dun dun dun....their paths crossed here? Before Jason even did most of the stuff that made him most infamous as the Red Hood and strained his homecoming with his family to the point of near impossibility? And Jason’s like....umm wtf??? But he’s pretty sure Dick’s just undercover and faking all this, but like....he’s a way better actor than Jason ever gave him credit for. (Because of course Dick is justifiably emo as hell at the time).

So he’s about ready to call off his little investigation and get back to his own plans, he’s let Dick distract him long enough....when things ramp up. And suddenly, Dick’s working for fucking Deathstroke and calling himself Renegade, and again, Jason would just like to know....umm wtf??? And Dick’s infiltrating the Secret Society of Supervillains or whatever they call themselves, WHICH Talia is a member of, and so in this AU, Talia’s like wait what is Nightwing up to here, AND because she’s Talia and is funding Jason/keeping tabs on him, she’s aware he’s been looking into what Dick’s doing...and so SHE cashes in some chips with Jason and says he owes her, and thus pulls him into the Society to act as her own enforcer, which puts him and Renegade in frequent contact and even running missions together, and Dick still has no idea that the Red Hood is Jason, because nobody but Talia knows at this point.

And like....Jason finds himself bonding with this version of his brother more than he expected and he DOES NOT LIKE IT because it just feels WRONG, having certain things in common with him while they’re both working for freaking supervillains, and its like looking in a mirror and not at all liking what you see, and eventually of course Dick clues in because he’s depressed, he’s not all of a sudden a dumbass, and because family is the magic word with Dick all of a sudden its like “Must....claw....self...out...of...pit of despair...and drag little brother kicking and screaming along with me ugh he’s such a drama queen why” (lol Dick you lovable hypocrite. I mean, dont get me wrong, both Dick and Jason have EARNED their drama queen status, they worked HARD for that crown, but doesn’t mean they both don’t wear it with gusto).

And so it becomes a who’s saving who here, really, kinda thing, only they’re both kinda saving each other because that’s really the only way it works, and its the way it SHOULD work with that family anyway. And it definitely clears a path for Jason to be reunified with the family on MUCH better terms and like, actually a part of it, but don’t get me wrong, Jason’s still Jason and he still believes what he believes. He and Bruce still are gonna have to clash like that in a big way, but Jason’s less invested in like, proving it AT his family’s expense here, and he’s got more support from the sibs here due to not like....trying to kill half of them at some point, so I picture him ending up in like a Red Hood and the Outlaws kinda team ultimately, but where he’s on good terms with most of his family except for tense but okay-ish terms with Bruce, and he’ll kill when he has to but doesn’t go LOOKING for opportunities to do it just to make a point, and Bruce is super not happy about that but in this AU we stan a democratic Batfamily not a dictatorship so the rest of the fam is like boo hoo, you big baby, get over it, you’re outvoted and we’re not letting you kick our brother out of the family, who even does that.

And they all live dysfunctionally ever after. I mean its comics, so they die a lot too, but they always come back, bc plot armor is fucking amazing like that. Highly recommend.

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eremika-forever12 · 4 years

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|| Drunk In Love : Eremika Drabble ||

Flushed & drunk, Mikasa trips over someone laying below her....with drowsy eyes she finds out its Sasha laying completely flat on the ground blabbering something in her sleep....

Suddenly Mikasa started to feel all funny as she started to giggle slightly!

Ah This Wine....It is doing something to her stomach & her throat! Did she have too much of it?

Well Whatever....Its doesnt feel bad....its just she feels she is floating in some air!

Mikasa could feel....her eyes were on verge of shutting but instead she rubbed her eyes vigorously as she jumped over Sasha trying to not wake her up....

In attempt to do so she lost her balance and fell on ground with thud.

Mikasa groaned a bit as she muttered to herself- Ah my...Ass! This....is so...

Suddenly she realised she just fell infront of Eren who was laying on ground with eyes closed.

Was he sleeping? Mikasa wondered with her drunk eyes.

She realised her face was so close to him as she laid flat on the ground.

Mikasa grinned to herself while staring at Eren- Eren....There You Are! Looking handsome as ever!

His face was so close to her that she could feel her cheeks getting Warm!

She could see his slight open mouth as his eyes remained close....must have just passed out from being drunk!

Mikasa just couldn't help but stare at his face intensely as she remembered What he told her few hours back or more appropriately what he asked her!

The moon light fell on him.....making his face shine brighter as she remembered his words...

“ Why Is It....That You Care So Much About Me?”

“ What Am I To You?”

Mikasa ears got redden a bit....back then she couldn't answer honestly!

All she did was stammering in front of him & hesitantly told him that he was family to her!

Mikasa could be drunk as hell but her brain was still functioning in proper way....thats what she thought!

Mikasa lightly touched Eren's hair as she wondered Was she honest with him? At that moment? More importantly Is she honest with herself?

Mikasa dragged herself a bit crawling more closer to Eren....

She could smell his aura now...

Why did she lie back then? Why cant she just confess to him for once and all! How much he matters to her! How much she feels for him!

Mikasa could feel her eyes closing but no she cant sleep now....no matter how much her head was whirling!

She wont get such chance again in her life....being so close to Eren....stare at him whole night while he being unknown to her deep stare!

But today at the moment, her heart started to feel heavy! She felt a huge burden of emotions wanting to erupt all of a sudden!

Her eyes beemed with tears as she breathed heavily close to Eren’s cheeks.

He seems in deep sleep looking adorable as hell...

Mikasa muttered in low tone as she looked at him being all drowsy- Eren....I wish I could....just froze this....moment....with you!

She stammered as she continued- is....nt? The night.....so....cold....so...br...eezy? But beautiful?

She slowly puts her one hand on his shoulder as laid properly close to him....

Mikasa sighs as a tear unknowingly trickled down her cheek as she stared at him....feeling all dizzy...

Mikasa in low voice- I have to confess something to you....Very important! I know....you...wo..nt be listening but still I would say....as I need to release the heaviness from my chest! I wanna....be honest....with you....back then...I couldn't....couldn’t blurt out the truth....

Suddenly Eren's eyes stirred a bit unknown to Mikasa as her eyes were already closed but she kept on murmuring- You....are....You are not My....Fam...mily...Only! These feelings were....burried deep down me....since....we were small....Eren I Just Want To Say....I Always.....

Eren eyes shot open widely as he stared at the sky....

Eren's POV

My Head Hurts Badly!

My Throat Is Dry....With The Feeling Of Need Of Water!

I Feel Restless....

More Importantly My Heart....It Aches So Much! I Wonder Why!

Even Though I apparently dont feel drunk even after drinking so much!

Which is not wierd but Today I feel like Alien To Myself!

I could see my friends passing out after being completely drunk while I Just remain unaffected still trying to consume more of alcohol!

But nothing was working.....

The Pain In My Heart Was More Than Anything....

What Is Happening To Me!

Is it because of What Mikasa answered!

Well wasnt that obvious? I was indeed family to her....but then Why....

What was I hoping for?

Ah....A Last desperate chance....to feel myself worth of living....worth of being loved....

I tried to search that last hope in her....I knew what she was going to say anyway still I wished it was a different answer...

I dont know about her but lately I did start to see her in different light....

Something more than a family...I cant comprehend the feeling but it is something beautiful!

The sight of her face was a beauty to me & a sense of purity in me!

Dont know from when it all started....I started to like her in a different way....I dont know what exact word it should be....Love? Perhaps? Ahhh Me & Love! Funny it is!

I am not the person who deserve to be loved but I still hoped....if she also saw me in that different light! Or was indeed just I was a family to her!

I am hurt maybe by her answer....but perhaps its for best! She deserves better anyways! Not a monster like me!

Ah what am I even talking! I dont feel well again....I need rest , some silence from this chaos....

But I want to memorise this last moment with my friends....Ah Armin he already passed out! My eyes searched for Mikasa again....& I could see she was still drinking with Sasha being all flushed!

I smiled to myself as I laid on ground trying to find some peace by closing my eyes!

All I could see was Mikasa......

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Everything is dark....I have no idea where I was at the moment....was I in my future memories! Or is it something of Dad! So hard to concentrate....I could hear chattering all around me!

Where am I? Am I Sleeping? Having some dream?

I could smell.....alcohol breath near me....

Probably from my coat....No wait someone is near me....I can feel it...

The breath touching my face....someone is saying something.....

The voice is so low....I could feel touch on my hair as the voice neared....

Mikasa? Is that you? Yes its you....I can always identify you voice but Why do you sound so unclear!

I could hear her saying “ Eren....Eren”

Her voice sounds so sexy all of sudden....Wait I think this is a dream!

“ I wish...I could....just froze this....moment....with you! “

Wait What? What is she saying? Her voice sounds heavy!

A hand on my shoulder....she placed her hand on me....her breath was more heavier now! Is it real? Is she really beside me? My head spins badly....I want to open my eyes but What if all these is a dream! I dont want to break this dream! I never get to see such dream with so much real feels!

I could hear her voice again....she is continuously blabbering something and I am having hard time to understand it!

“ I wanna....be honest....with you....back then...I couldn't....couldn’t blurt out the truth....”

Heyyyy What!!!!! What Truth? What is she talking about?

The voice has begun to reduce....but I could hear clearly now...

“ You....are....You are not My....Fam...mily...Only! These feelings were....burried deep down me....since....we were small....Eren I Just Want To Say....I Always.....”

Is she....Real? I Opened My Eyes At Once....I was so blank....I could see stars infront of me in the sky...

“....I Always Loved You “

My Heart just skipped a beat....

I turned around slowly to the side from where the voice is coming and I found myself facing her completely....Our faces so close....My nose lightly brushed with her forehead....a current passed down my spine as I moved a bit back....feeling heat rushing to my cheeks...

Her eyes are closed....She passed out from being drunk....but she was still muttering something in her sleep....and Whatever she spoke right now was all real but difference is she was not in her senses....

I found myself staring at her for a while....she looked so calm....and beautiful while being asleep...

And I noticed a trail of dry tear along her cheek on one side....Was she crying?

I hesitantly touched her cheek....

As she suddenly spoke in her sleep making me alarmed- Eren....I will...always...Love You Till End....! I dont know about you....But....My....Love Will...Follow...You...Anywhere YOU GO!

Her voice was low but I heard it all...My heart was heavy! My eyes beemed with tears...

I brushed off her hair strands away from her face without trying to wake her up....

She Just Told Me Even Though In Her Sleep What I Wanted To Hear Back Then....

She felt What I felt! Her feelings are same for me just mine are for her!

She wont even remember What she said in her sleep! Was it fair? Well maybe Yes! I dont deserve to be loved after What I am gonna do....

I felt tears welling up in my eyes....

I will be leaving Tomorrow....keeping everything behind....

The sadness is back inside me....I couldnt confess her back, maybe I wont be able to do it ever....As everything will change from tomorrow....

I dont know what the future holds after What I am going to do! Probably everything wont be same and I dont expect it to be....I stared back at the sky!

I got everything tonight....What I needed most before I start my final Mission!

I turned back to look at Mikasa who was now fast asleep as I smiled sadly & whispered- I LOVE YOU TOO MIKASA!

P.S So This Was A Small Shot On Eremika Moment Chapter 123😂 I Badly Want Something Like This Which Might Have Happened Back Then So Decided To Write It Down Myself😂 Hope you guys like it. Like, Share & Comment.

#eremika #eren yeager #eremika fanfic #eren x mikasa #shingeki no kyojin #snk fandom #mikasa ackerman

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obscure-imagines · 6 years

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-meeting him before the apocalypse

-back when he was a soft boi

-lets just say you’re a witch and you kind of act like an in between for the warlocks and witches

-so when the warlocks find Michael they call you to come meet him

-meeting him for the first time and he’s just so attractive

-you show him around and you end up talking for hours

-somehow ending up outside looking at the stars

-your first kiss starts of sweet but ends kinda rough and thats when you realize this boi has a dark side

-he’d take while to trust you and once he does he tells you his entire plan to take over as supreme

-you’d totally have to be a secret couple

-the witches would not be happy about you dating ‘the enemy’ seeing as Michael is trying to overthrow Cordelia

-both of you sneaking out to see each other

-stolen kisses in dark hallways

-once he learns how to do transmutation he just zaps into your room

-i just think like meaningful conversation would mean a lot to Michael

-so lots of cuddling and talking

-but now lets get into the rough stuff, i know why you’re all here and i got you fam

-he likes pinning you down with his body

-he’s an absolute tease, he loves making you beg

-choking is totally a thing

-yeah he a dom anti-christ thats for sure

-marks are definitely a thing

-but its still secret which makes it more exciting

-tangling your fingers in his curls because yes

-please make this boi a flower crown

-then the apocalypse happens

-Michael would have totally seen it coming

-but so did Cordelia and she wipes your memory just like Coco and Mallory.

-there’s so much going on that Michael has to really stop himself from going and getting you right away because he knows the witches would try to use you against him

-when he finally shows up at the compound he restores your memory

-and its just like immediate power couple

-he’s the most adoring boyfriend every

-like i feel like he’d want to be with you 24/7

-especially with how dangerous the world is

-since you’re his ‘weakness’ he protects the shit out of you

-you can protect yourself but he likes showing how powerful he is

-he sees you often for ‘interviews’ but everyone knows whats really going on

-ooooh i feel like he’s a biter

-like got make outs and his hand is on your neck and he just bites slightly on your lip then pulls back

-that grin

-he is honestly just beautiful

-so like... you either like the hair or you dont... you know what i mean?

-he’s formal in front of others but he likes to call you Baby or Kitten

-calling him Babe or sir or daddy

-wearing his cape

-like... just his cape

-i dunno he has really good fashion and it would be fun trying on some of his stuff

-he likes to rest with his head on your lap as you brush through his hair with your fingers

-he either lets you curl up against him to cuddle or he’s the big spoon but on very rare occasions he’ll be the little spoon

-he likes intertwining his fingers with yours

-he’s that person that just looks at you so intently, like he really looks at you

-he gets very concerned for you when you’re upset and he’ll do anything to make you feel better

-probably showering together after he does rituals and you make sure he’s okay and all the blood gets washed off

-honestly just so much time in bed. i’ve mentioned it already but like seriously

-others have to treat you with respect

-or else

-he gives you one of his rings and it would be really big on you

-he just likes to drag his fingers across your skin

-he just loves touching you

-pressing you against the wall

-like i said, pinning you down or like against things, keeping your hands restricted while he teases

-how have i not yet mentioned dirty talk?! like this boy has the dirtiest mouth

-”you like that kitten? hmm? i dont think i heard you. better speak louder Kitten or i might not let you have your reward.”

-taking his rings off for sex cuz lets be serious, his finger game is strong

-fingers... in your mouth... because... like.... yes

-imagine him just growling, like deep rumbling in his chest, damn boi

-hand kink to the max yo

-he likes brushing your hair out of your face

-he’s the guy that just cups your face and lets you nuzzle into your hand because soft boi still present

-he is a toll boi so yes please

-also just how perfect is the view in that gif. i mean... like. i dont even have to say it, we’re all thinking the same thing *wink wonk* (its a blow job we all know it)

-maybe just like slow dancing together alone in your room because thats cute

-he would definitely tease you for your purple outfits because they’re mainly kind of old fashioned with lots of lace and bows

-he takes his sweet ass time undoing your corset

-well shit. this keeps going back to sexual shit because this boi is just such a snack. i am so sorry.

******* gif credit @mhysaofdragons thank you to this gif maker for giving me permission to use their gifs! im addicted to the new American Horror Story season and im so glad that gif makers like the one who runs this blog is in the same state i am haha <3

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mistymark · 6 years

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the one with the halloween party // z.c.l

zhong chenle x reader // 2.3k words // high school!au

“We’re enemies that coincidentally go to the same costume party wearing masks and I get to know you and I think I’m in love” // first bulleted au (?) // masterlist // part one of one // warnings: swearing, theres a party but its Completely Pure and Innocent, just fluff tbh

okay, so you and your friends are pretty close, sorta popular but mostly just really nice

so you get along great with almost everyone at ur school

and by almost,,,

I mean everyone except zhong chenle

dont get me wrong, the guy has great friends and seems pretty easygoing,,, but for some reason he hates your guts

which is okay, cause you hate his guts too

he’s a bit of an ass to you and has been for a while now

would knock your book off your desk “accidentally” or kick your chair constantly during classes just to annoy you

but you weren’t any more mature:

you’d stick your foot out to trip him up in the halls and remove the ink part from his pens just to have him experience an inconvenience for once in his perfect goddamn life

you were in competition constantly,,, and not the cute kind of competition,,

if you beat him on a test he’d be so annoyed, and would study for hours to make sure he beat you on the next one

and there were times when your friends and his would have to drag you away so an actual fist fight wouldn't break out during one of your petty arguments during literature, when discussing the meaning of a particular symbol in a book

you were both so stubborn when it came to that, and neither of you would back down

it got to the point where every little thing he did pissed you off

laughed like he always does loudly?? pissed you off

sat down with his friends during lunch, making a face when he made eye contact with you?? pissed you off

seeing him flirt with random students in the year levels below you ?? pissed you off

“he’s such a fucking flirt, why does he have to lead them on? the poor things they just look up to him” “sounds like you’re jealous” “I am NOT jealous”

“he’s just doing it to make them vote for him for president!!” “I thought we discussed this yesterday, y/n” “we did but im still annoyed about it... dont roll your eyes at me, I do NOT like him!!” “sure, y/n, sure”

anyway

a girl in your year decides to throw a fun halloween party, to get everyones minds off of school and exams and such, and you're hella excited like

opportunity to dress up in ridiculous costumes ??? hell ye

you’ve been planning your outfit with two of your friends for over a month, you've decided to go as the three musketeers (a reference to a book one of them has been studying in a class) complete with leather outfits, boots, swords, and for fun, masks

when the party is only a week away, you walk into ur lit class (ayyy get lit fam) and chenle is sitting on his desk, talking to his friends about how he’s got the best costume for Saturday night

you roll your eyes

he doesnt fail to notice

“hey, y/n, you going on Saturday?” “idk, are you?” “yeah” “then no”

you poke your tongue out at him when he flips you off, and turn your back to him, making yourself busy by grabbing out your books

his dumb (but a lot nicer) friends are going OooOoOoOooh and u feel a smug smile on your face as you pretend not to care

you hear chenle mumble a “whatever” as he jumps off the desk when your teacher walks in and makes his way to his own seat

luckily, you dont see much of chenle around school for the rest of the week, and when u do, its just giving each other death stares or glaring at each other from across the room

he did “accidentally” trip you while you were walking into one of your classes

and you “just so happened to” pull his chair away as he went to sit down, because your chair was coincidentally missing and you “didnt see him sitting down”

he glared at you as he stood up, hand holding the back of his head as he forcefully grabbed a spare chair and sat down

when Saturday rolled around, you grabbed all the last minute items you needed and drove to your friends house to get ready

“how do I look” “why? planning on impressing someone tonight ? maybe,,, chhheeeeeeeenleeeeeeeee”

you finished your eye makeup and tied the mask around you head, grabbing one of the swords from the bed and tucking it into your belt loop

“damn y/n, you're going to have guys fawning all over you all night” “maybe chenle will finally have the courage to ask you out” “SHUT UP”

you arrived at the party not soon after, and marvelled at everyones costumes

there were definitely some really good ones this year

after two hours, you found yourself standing by the drinks table, tired from dancing with your friends and having impromptu sword fights

“I like your costume!” someone shouted over the music

you turned around and it was,,

batman

nah seriously you couldnt tell who it was, but you knew it was someone from your year

“batman? wow thank you,, that means a lot, coming from you” you jokingly raised a toast

“shouldn't there be three of you?”

“the other two are off dancing, I lost them a while ago. shouldn't you be off fighting superman?”

he smiled and you felt like you recognised him, but u couldnt place it “already defeated him, look...” he pointed to the dance floor, where another boy dressed like superman was dancing “the only thing that could make someone dance that badly is if they had an injury” he pointed at himself proudly “I did that”

you laughed and the conversation continued from there

you felt bad for not knowing who the person was, as he clearly knew who you were, and were too shy to ask, so you just went with it

“do you wanna go outside? I can't hear you in here” he shouted over the music, pointing to the door

you ended up spending an hour with him on the porch, picking out the best costumes, having playful arguments about their origins and which ones were more original, and you found yourself to be happier when you were talking with him than with anyone else there

you agreed on four of the top five most unoriginal costumes,, with the exception being his own

“Im sorry, but batman is not original at all! there are at least three walking around here” “so? theres at least three musketeers too” “THERE ARE THREE MUSKETEERS!! AND ONLY ONE BATMAN?!” you both began laughing at your own dumb arguments, and settled into a comfortable silence

it was getting pretty late, and the sun had well set, and you shivered as a breeze passed you

without thinking, batman offered you his cape, wrapping it around your shoulders

you couldnt help but think he was flirting, and had been since you began talking, and now had the strongest feeling that you’d developed a crush on someone

it was too late now to ask his name, considering you’d been talking like you’d known each other for years the entire night

when your ride arrived a while later, he was waiting with you and stepped back onto the porch as you turned away to walk to the car

suddenly, you felt sad that you’d have to leave this perfect night, so you quickly ran back, pecked him on the cheek and ran to your car without looking back at his reaction

when Monday rolled around, your friends instantly found you in the hallway, wanting to hear everything about ‘Batman’ and your bold flirtations

you’d stressed for the past two nights that he might not have actually been flirting with you, and you’d taken his jokes and friendliness the wrong way

but your friends had assured you he probably felt the same way, based on what you'd already told them

“ugh, and I just had calculus with y/n’s favourite person, and he would not stop boasting about this chick he’d met at the party. whats the bet he’s still talking about it when you both have lit with him” your friend laughed and continued eating her lunch

you had lit right after your lunch block, and when u walked in, he was smugly talking to his friends

he looked up as you walked past “y/n didnt catch you at the party, guess you really decided not to come, huh?”

“?? I was there, chenle, or were you too busy talking chatting up that girl you met to notice” you continued to your desk, but froze at the words of one of his friends

“yeah, I thought batman wasn't supposed to fall in love”

you looked back at the group, and they hadn't noticed your behaviour, so you quickly made your way to your desk and flung your stuff down, grabbing your phone in panic

“im not in love”

you tried to calm yourself, there were more than three batman’s at the party, what’s the likelihood it was chenle you had kissed??

nothing to worry about

“idk man, the way you talked about her made it sound like you are” jeno laughed

“aNd tHeN sHe kiSSeD mE” jaemin mocked, making his voice higher

you buried your head in your hands

no no no no no

nO NO NO NO NO

it could NOT HAVE BEEN CHENLE

you DID NOT kiss chenle

you did not KISS chenle

you did not kiss CHENLE

and then to make things better, one of your friends walked in

“Y/n! sword fight!” he grabbed a pencil from his pocket and pointed it at you

immediately you playfully sparred with him, before jabbing him in the stomach

“guess once a musketeer, always a musketeer” he mumbled, sitting in his seat, defeated

in your peripheral vision, you saw chenle’s head whip to you

“thats what you get for coming as a CLOWN”

you tried to keep your voice level and your head down as your teacher started the class,, but you couldnt help it

you snuck a glance towards chenle’s desk

he was already looking at you

fuck

you felt your eyes widen, and watched his do the same

there was something unrecognisable in his gaze, and you decided to focus on your work, dragging your eyes from him

when the bell signalling the end of the class rang, you haphazardly stuffed your textbook and notes into you binder and attempted to dart from the room,, but something held you back

or rather,, someone

you looked at chenle’s hand wrapped tightly around your wrist and shot him a pleading gesture

“not here”

he simply nodded and began packing his things away neatly

you waited, tapping your foot anxiously

you found yourselves sitting behind the school in awkward silence (wheremystaysat) as both of you thought about what to say

“im really hoping your costume was unoriginal enough that it maybe wasn’t you” you said, shooting him a glance

he sighed at your words

“there were three musketeers, too” he mumbled, not looking up as he fiddled with his watch

that’s when you knew it was definitely him at the party

more silence fell between you

suddenly you took a deep breath

“I actually had a really great time on Saturday night” you said, glancing up to gage his reaction

you saw him smile a little “me too”

you felt a bit more comfortable seeing him smile, and it felt like you both became submerged in memories, comfortably thinking in silence

“my favourite part was when you said goodbye” he moved his hands to either side of his body and leant back, basking in the sunlight

he had made a point of not looking at you, but he turned his head towards you and squinted after he had spoken

you tried to recall actually saying goodbye to him, but all you had said was “oh your cape!” as you handed it back to him and took off running to your car

when you pointed this out to him, he laughed and shook his head at you

“not that part, dumbass”

suddenly his voice became quieter

“I meant the part where you kissed me”

you felt your smile widen into a grin “zhong chenle do you have a crush on me?”

his eyes widened as he turned to you “what? Of course n- maybe?” he looked at you sheepishly

you moved your hand over his, and he threaded his fingers through yours “I maybe have a crush on you too”

he looked at his watch again “look, the last thing I want to do is go to class rn but I think Im already ten minutes late”

“shit,that means I am too” you picked up your belongings and walked inside with him, heading to your separate classes

“what do you have now?” he asked

“chem. You?”

“oh yea, you always have chem when I have calc”

“you know my schedule?” you blushed

now it was his turn to flush “maybe”

his classroom was down a separate corridor to yours, so when it was time for to split off, you said a quick goodbye and started down the hallway “ill catch you later yeah?” he bid you goodbye

thinking better of it, you turned around “wait!”

he stopped walking, looking confused as you ran back towards him

“I forgot” you said, biting the inside of your cheek as you approached

yes girl go get your man

you stepped onto your tip toes and pressed a kiss against his cheek, his mouth forming into a dumb grin as you stepped back

you turned around, ready to go to class for real now, when he grabbed your arm, spinning you around

he pulled you closer to him, his arm wrapping around you waist as he kissed your lips softly, quickly

when he moved away from you, creating a distance you only wanted to close again, he had the biggest smile on his face, his eyes forming little crescent moons

“fuck, ive wanted to do that for so long”

this is my first bulleted fic, what do you guys think?? also,,, two posts in one day?? how blessed ?? I felt inspired a lot today, and the fact im working from home made me more productive (for fic writing not for actual work tho lol)

#nct #nct 127 #nct u #nct dream #nct dream imagines #nct imagines #nct dream writing #bulleted fic #nct fic #nct dream fic #chenle #zhong chenle #chenle x reader #zhong chenle x reader

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freakandgeekuniverse · 6 years

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Suck, Bang, Blow

Warning: There is unprotected sex fam dont be silly wrap your willy & bathroom blow jobs.

Authors Note: I’m not as satisfied with this one as I could’ve been, but that mostly due in part to me not being in the right mindset to actually write out a smut. And fun fact: the title is actually the name of a drink that, if you’re not careful, will have you f*cked up it’s so many different types of alcohol in it. Thanks, Try Guys. But seriously, I kind of hate this, but not too much ‘cause it’s like my child.

Summary: Party animal. That’s what you are. You came to have a good time and you arent leaving till your wasted and or being drag out by your men. Lets just say you like to flaunt what you got and that mean showing some neat tricks you have.

Pairing: Namjoon x Male!reader

Word Count: 780

Bass thrummed through the floor as Namjoon stalked through the crowd in search of his boyfriend. The alcohol flooding his system had begun to affect his already fucked up motor skills, making the lanky male lurch about like a zombie.

It wasn’t until he spotted a smaller crowd of people huddled around a lone figure did he actually locate his elusive partner. Of course, he should’ve known that his boyfriend would be on top of a table doing a keg stand, actually doing push-ups in his position.

“Babe,” Namjoon called, his voice getting lost in the raucous cheering going on around them. When he saw that his boyfriend was continuing without even faltering to indicate he had been heard, he tried again, but louder.

Hearing Namjoon calls for him, the younger dismounted from his place atop the keg. “Joonie,” he slurred with a giddy smile on his face. Stumbling off the table, he made his way to his taller boyfriend. “Did you see me, I was upside down for so long,” he giggled as he leaned against Namjoon.

“I saw, but I’d much rather you were upside down only for me,” Namjoon teased, running a hand along the other’s exposed arm.

Shivers ran down Y/N’s spine as his hazy brain recognized the touch and words. A more sultry smile split his face as he ran a shaky finger across Namjoon’s chest. “Naughty Namjoon,” he giggled, eyes darkening with lust, before biting into his bottom lip.

“C’mon,” Namjoon pulled his now horny boyfriend after him towards an unoccupied bathroom. It took the couple a few tries, but finally, they found a bathroom free of vomiting partygoers, drunk hookups, or just someone taking a piss. “Show me your new trick.”

Removing his pants and boxers, Y/N flipped into a handstand right in front Namjoon, going a step further and spreading his legs into a split. “Does Joonie like my new trick,” Y/N asked.

“I love it, baby,” Namjoon replied, placing kisses along the other’s inner thighs. With each touch of Namjoon’s lips, Y/N could feel the strength in his arms weaken bit by bit. If Namjoon continued the way he hoped and thought he would, it wouldn’t be long before he’d have to abandon his position.

When Namjoon saw his boyfriend struggle to keep himself upright, he felt that he had teased him enough. Without much warning, Namjoon licked a final stripe from one knee to the other, feeling Y/N shudder in pleasure. “Joonie, I can’t hold it for long,” Y/N warned.

“C’mon, relax for me, baby.” Y/N relaxed a bit, eyebrows furrowing when he felt Namjoon maneuver his legs so that they were resting on his shoulders. “Sit up,” Namjoon cooed into the soft flesh of his boyfriend’s thigh. Without question, Y/N lifted his torso up until he was sitting right on top of Namjoon’s shoulders with Namjoon sitting down on the toilet seat for some sense of balance.

In the new position, Namjoon gave a few kitten licks to the tip of Y/N’s aching member. With each stimulant, Y/N’s fingers tangled themselves in the silvery strands of Namjoon’s hair. “Joonie knows how to make me feel good,” he whispered into the older’s hair just as Namjoon switched from kitten licks to long, fat stripes on the underside, making sure to massage his balls with his tongue.

“I know what would make you feel even better,” came Namjoon’s muffled reply. Before Y/N could ask him to repeat or clarify, Namjoon had already engulfed his member with his mouth. Feeling Namjoon’s wet, hot mouth around him caused Y/N to hiss at the new sensation, fingers tightening their grip. Hollowing out his cheeks, Namjoon bobbed his head back and forth along the weighty member, teeth catching slightly on Y/N’s tip.

“Let me fuck your mouth, please, Joonie,” Y/N muttered, eyes closed at the feeling. Complying, Namjoon opened his mouth just enough for Y/N to thrust in and out at his leisure. Having been given the green light, Y/N wasted no time before bucking his hips into the older’s mouth. It wasn’t long before the younger nearing his climax. “Joonie, I’m so close.”

Namjoon closed his mouth around the other again so that he could help him reach his end faster. Y/N’s whimpers grew louder as he drew closer and closer to the edge. It wasn’t until Namjoon hollowed out his cheeks once more did Y/N get pushed over. To Y/N’s pleasure, he could feel Namjoon swallowing down his load.

“I love my Joonie,” Y/N cooed as he petted the top of Namjoon’s head.

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