#but due to Them Being In The Army they recoincile and instead of simply being grateful he still has a friend despite being a MASSIVE

[peachcitt]

reading a book and i absolutely hate the main character. he sucks so bad. genuinely said out loud “i hope you lose everything” after he did something not even that bad compared to his other misdeeds. i want to see him suffer

#peach rambles #HEAR ME OUT. HE JUST FUCKING SUCKS #at the beginning he wasn’t so bad and then he did Terrible Things and then promptly lost his friends which. good for them for getting away #from him. and he was like ‘ive done terrible things to my friends but has anyone considered the fact that i miss them🥺’ LIKE SHUT UP #and then he joined the army and somehow gained a friend who is perhaps the nicest man on earth and he was like #‘ive done terrible things i can soil him in my sins :(’ which. correct #BUT INSTEAD OF AIMING TO BECOME A BETTER MAN FOR HIS NEW FRIEND HE JUST. BECOMES SELFISH AND WORSE #like his friend because he’s the nicest man on earth has a bunch of other friends and the mc is like. hm. i hate all of his friends because #They Are Not Me and im the one most in need of a friend and they’re stealing time with him away from me. #i will proceed to threaten them to stay away from my friend because im the worst and i see nothing wrong with this #AND WHEN HIS FRIEND (justly) GETS MAD AT HIM FOR DOING THIS HE’S JUST LIKE #‘i can’t hewp it :((( you’re my fwiend:(((’ and his friend his rightfully like. stop manipulating me and they don’t talk for a while #which was nice because i like his friend and i want better for him but i had to deal with the mc lamenting the fact that he’s alone even #though it’s his own damn fault for being a piece of shit to everyone he talks to #but due to Them Being In The Army they recoincile and instead of simply being grateful he still has a friend despite being a MASSIVE #shithead he just??? fucking does not change??? I WANT TO SEE HIM LOSE EVERYTHING. I WANT TO SEE HIM SUFFER #because okay the truth is i. hm. okay the truth is i want to enjoy this book and i want him to actually be deserving of being a friend to #the nicest man on earth. i want his friend to live happily like he deserves. i love him. i want the book to be happy for him specifically #and the only way i see that happening is if he leaves the mc for good (which i would be happy about) or if the mc loses everything and goes #through a fantastically gnarly redemption arc where he finally realizes FOR REAL how much of a shithead he’s been and that he doesn’t #deserve to have anything he wants. because right now he knows that’s terrible but he still thinks he deserves his old friends and his new #friend for some reason. even though he’s treated/treats them badly #so yeah. there’s a lot of this books left to go. but that’s where im at right now