#but god i just

[phantom-does-a-thing]

Why are having friends so hard o(-(

#two different friends want to hang out today #and I have work tonight #and I do not feel very good #as in like I don’t have social energy #and now I have to choose between them #bc I lowkey agreed to both #like I could easily ‘ oh I forgot I was doing this with them today’ #and do that #but god I just #I don’t have the social enetgy rn #I’m so tired. I’m burnt out. I don’t want to be a person #I’ve just been listening to riptide today and that’s all I wanted to do #rambling #phever dreams with phantom #vent #help idk what to do I don’t wanna be a person #and I can’t cancel on both

[doctapuella]

what the FUCK is this. i wait minths for lfi to come back, and they HELP fucking FTR??????? why does tk hate me

#im so fucking furious #this.fully bombed the show.for me #i screamed all.happy when i heard rush's intro #but god i just #i dont like ftr #i know theyre great wrestlers #but i find them so BORING #no charisma #and lfi are my hardcore favs #and im just. im so disappointed man #all the lfi hype videos #and then finally show up and its to help a couple dudes? #what a fucking disjointed arc #anyway tk hire me 2024

[saltpepperbeard]

“Get it through your head, mate. Don’t you understand? I wanted to do this. All of this.”

But even with the sincerity in Ed’s voice, Stede didn’t understand. He didn’t understand at all; he hadn’t from the moment Ed had stepped in front of him.

“Why?” he subsequently asked, voice whispered and tearful, “Did it not destroy you? Didn’t I?”

“No. What destroyed me was thinking I’d lost you.”

There was a flutter deep in the recesses of Stede’s heart. But the scars persisted.

“But…Weren’t you better off?”

“No. Never.”

“H-how?”

“Because,” Ed breathed, insisted. “Because you make me whole.”

#OFMD #OFMD Fic #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Drabble #Shot myself in the foot with that gif set and felt inclined to do another drabble #FELT INCLINED TO WHAP STEDE’S DOUBT OVER THE HEAD #Their inevitable conversation where they talk feelings and what happened between them might end me tbh #Like I can picture it going so many ways #But God I just #NEED Stede to ensure Ed that he loves him and never wanted to hurt him #And Ed to ensure Stede that he was willing to do anything for him in the name of love too #So I guess what needs to happen is for them to be like ‘I LOVE YOU YOU NUT’ #…ALAS ALL OF THAT DIDNT FIT IN 100 WORDS LMAO #So just a wee snippet 🤏

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

you know, thanks to ✨traumatic life experiences✨ during lockdown, i got used to the surreality of knowing someone you love is considerably unwell while not being able there to support them or even see them and i forgot how just achingly empty it makes you feel

#kai rambles #personal #delete later #i said id stay home to take care of our dog since im also having bad fatigue from like idk ME? fibro? both of them? neither idfk #but god i just #you feel useless and you feel bad for feeling anything but fear and worry but you cant even see whats happening #and life goes on #and goes on #i know this pain and monotony so well #and i hate that its easier than the first time #but i think id go insane if it was as difficult as it was the first time

[starrygazingpie]

self care

#do keep me posted if there's any drama #but god i just #he annoys the shit out of me #and ppl keep talking him up like a good part of tumblr and i just #nah son #i already blocked him ages ago

[gayfishermanfive]

the way that now i have my lil ic rp/ask blog thing for five im straight up tempted to make one for ashe too..

but like. the overwatch fandom is borderline non-existent so i dont think anyone would follow LMASDKDJFKSD

#how does a game with millions of players have like #such a dead fanbase LMAO #like damn im sorry ashe is my favorite character instead of cassidy i- #but god i just #shes so fun #i love her #i daydream abt stupid interactions LMAO #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #jump speaks #i just love the yeehaw lady okay #ow ashe #elizabeth caledonia ashe #gonna use her tag bc- #hey if anyone would be interested i will 100% make a blog #so yall can go harass the wet dog cowlady LMLFKDJSLFK

[kijobaby]

Hey another post abt how much pain I'm in and how I desperately just want Envy to hold me to their chest so I can bawl my eyes out bc I have no tolerance today :")

#my prescription is refilled and i get to pick it up after work #but ive almost blacked out twice today #and my manager is being so understanding and tried to send me home but i cant afford to miss work lol #but god i just #wanna die this shit is so fucking awful

[foxpriestss-moved]

what i want: miko to finally breakdown and sit in her emotions for as long as it takes

what ill never get: just that because the day miko opens up is the day she dies because she doesn’t have a healthy outlet to even cry in a safe space without feeling like she’d be teased or judged like SHE’D probably tease and judge someone-

#listen i know we all joke about all our muses being in denial #but god i just #imagine how cathartic GOD #;out of fox to give

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[slavicafire]

sobbing into my plate after overhearing a conversation between a mom and her tiny daughter in this shopping centre food court

#żmija gada #I will elaborate once I get home but gods. loving conscious and tender parenthood just makes me #break down

[lesbianralzarek]

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

#i originally posted this as just a 'hey remember how fuckin bad middle/highschool was? shit was wild' type post but now #there are a bunch of teens in the notes being like 'oh my god are you serious? it gets better? im not stuck in hell forever??' #and im reminded that the only people who told teenage ella 'it gets better' were speakers at mental health assemblies #aka the least relatable people alive who were seemingly born to lie to you #so. uh. yeah im a certified adult who isnt here to lie or sugarcoat the realities of being a teenager #the only thing more certain than the pain is the transcience

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

#talk tag #IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still) #(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'') #GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!! #one time i saw that a ​person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi. #they are TWIN BROTHERS. #not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this. #just horrible #also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Must be a Sugondese joke.

#dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #laios touden #senshi #Looks like I won't be able to post this on dungeon meshi thursday so instead I will have a fun past/future conversation #This is wednesday me who has not seen the episode yet but I have such a strong feeling that it is going to be extremely special. #*This* fight is what the first arc has been building up to and it has *so* many incredible moments. #We're going to see the chilchuck knife throw! The leg sacrifice! The bones! #Watch them ramp up the quality this episode and go wild with the frantic action of 'oh god our plan is going to shit'. #Hello. Me of the future who just watched the episode. #I knew it was going to be good but that...that blew my mind completely. My high expectations were beyond met. My god. #I'm just speechless at how well they handled everything. The leg. The tension. That ENDING. #If you have not already: PLEASE watch Dungeon Meshi.

[epicsauce]

learning that self deprecation isnt cool and just makes the people around you uncomfortable unironically improved my mental health a lot. like if you just stop saying negative shit about yourself you will genuinely like yourself more and other people wont be repulsed by your attitude and you will have more friends. it's true.

#people will fr go ''god im such an ugly loser LOL i suck at everything i do and i should just kms“ #and then go “why does no one want to be around me” #maybe because your attitude sucks. maybe because i said 'those mean things you say about yourself arent true' #and you spent five minutes arguing with me about how im wrong. #00

[adriles]

they are Cancelling me for dealing with my grief as best i can . also for the vicious war Crimes

#book 24 #the conversation between the gods at the beginning there is just this #greatest hits #all i say is vicious war crimes in a vague way #and you all start frothing at the mouth like rabid dogs #a lot of yall get the memo with the blorbo tags but also. seeing quite a few strange pulls #not exactly war crimes but Ok #sometimes normal vicious crimes can just be normal vicious crimes ok guys #can yall stop tagging this as israel u guys r fucking weird…. #if u see this and think it is a joke about actual fucking horrific war crimes and ethnic cleansing. u may be fucked up in the head #please be normal #will people stop commenting on this please. none of yall r funny

[sapphic-storm69]

Spiderverse thots

#across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #across the spider verse spoilers #ALSO GHE COWBOY SPIDER-MAN????? 🩷🩵💖💗 #I guess #not really but just in case :) #I fucking loved spider punk #hatred of British people temporarily paused #fuck Miguel #fuck Jess #miguel o'hara #miles morales #gwen stacy #peter b parker #spider man #the word spider doesn’t seem real anymore #god couldn’t have made that movie it was too beautiful for his corrupted hands to tarnish with his sins #god bless the spiderverse #god….. poetic cinema