#but i am DISGUSTED with myself

[ash-th3-fae]

*clears throat*

Trans women do not have it easier.

Trans women are not just a fetish.

Trans women can be asexual.

Trans women are not ‘begging for attention’.

Trans women are not ‘asking for it’.

Trans women are just as equal as trans men.

Trans women are just as equal as cis women.

Trans women are just as equal as literally anybody.

Trans women deserve respect.

Trans women deserve rights.

Trans women deserve to feel safe.

Trans women are women. If you cannot wrap your head around that; get off my fucking blog.

#i myself am a trans man #and it’s fucking sickening the attitude i see towards trans women #yet i haven’t gotten even an ounce of that disrespect myself #it’s fucking disgusting #it’s fucking vile #and it’s not fucking okay #trans women are women #that is final #trans #transgender #trans feminine #trans woman #trans girl #trans rights

[theswirlersisterscircus]

Because of this post reminding me about the Bad Kidz Parent Polycule, I present to you the Bad Kidz Family Cluster.

[ID: A family tree of all the Bad Kidz and their parents using the updated official art. In the top right corner, Gorgug has a solid green line connecting him and Roz and Gorbag. A dotted green line connects him and Digby and Wilma. Roz, Gorbag, Digby, and Wilma are connected by a solid black line with a question mark below it.

Below that, The Applebees are connected to Kristen, Bucky, Bricker, and Cork by solid green lines. Kristen and Tracker are connected by a solid pink line with a red X crossed through it.

Tracker is connected to "Unknown Parents" by a solid green line. "Unknown Parents" is connected to Jawbone by a solid blue line, and Tracker and Jawbone are connected by a dotted green line with a question mark above it. Adaine is connected to Jawbone by a dotted green line, and Aelwyn is connected to Adaine by a solid blue line.

Jawbone and Sandra Lynn are connected by a pink line. Sandra Lynn and Gorthalax are connected by a pink line with a red X crossed through it, and Fig is connected to them by a solid green line. Gorthalax and Sklonda are connected by a pink line with a question mark below it. Sklonda and Pok are connected by a purple line that is bisected by the skull and crossbones emoji. Riz is connected to them by a solid green line.

Sandra Lynn and Gilear are connected by a purple line with a red X crossed through it. Gilear and Fig are connected by a dotted green line, and he and Hallariel are connected by a pink line. Hallariel and Bill are connected by a purple line that's bisected by a skull and crossbones emoji. Fabian is connected to them by a solid green line, and Fabian and Fig are connected by a dotted blue line. End ID]

Green means parents/children, Blue means siblings, Pink means dating, and Purple means marriage. Dotted lines mean non-biological. The black line means I have no idea what the Thistlesprings and Roz and Gorbag have going on.

I wasn't sure if Gorthalax and Sklonda are actually dating so I put a question mark, and I wasn't sure if Jawbone actually adopted Tracker or was just letting her live with him. Regardless, here's the full family tree. I hope it gets worse <3 thanks for your time.

#nick knacks #i am so fucking tired this took a disgusting amount of time to make #fantasy high #fhjy #i made a version for myself of just the parents and its a fucking circle #the thistlesprings being the only ones not directly a part of the polycule is baffling #considering they seem down for polyamory as long as theyre together lmao #i think by the end of fantasy high this diagram should be unreadable #i think they should be SO messy it would be so funny #also i didnt add a couple people (cathilda ayda gertie nara etc) bc theyre not connecting bad kids with other bad kids #theyre not Part of The Family yknow

[tigerr-cherry]

Leshy hates the lamb this, tsundere Narinder that , blah blah blah

WHAT ABOUT HEKET, HUH ??! WHAT ABOUT HEKET?!?!

#i have an emotional connection w/ heket bc i too am the 2nd oldest daughter #she's disgusted by how easy her brothers are #heket is a hater first lesbian second #too many ppl i aint tagging all them this is about heket #she does draw on her lashes & eyebrows #i had to control myself from putting something truly nasty as the caption #cw cursing #cotl fanart #cotl bishops #cotl heket #cult of the lamb #my art

[traaumaa]

i give up

#despite peoples approval it will never be enough i'll always think they're lying #they only say nice things bc they dont really know me #im the one with myself 24/7 i know the disgusting person i am #mine #traumacore #trauma #actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #pink #actuallybpd #actuallyborderline #actuallyneglected #actually neglected #actually bpd #bpd #i hate myself

[hajihiko]

Too bright☀️

#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Kuzuhina #Kind of disgusted by how sappy I am lately but also beating that part of myself with a broom. Let us be sappy idiot! #Then beating THAT part for calling myself an idiot all the time. Be nice to yourself asshole! So on so forth #Anyway you know how it is. Dont perceive me etc. Its been very nice and sunny out lately. ☀️ #Been a while since I selection-shaded. Forgot how easy it is

[lil-gingerbread-queen]

So, I cannot show support to Palestine at my university (flyers for protest, the colors and the flag, you get it...) because it's "encouraging violence and antisemitism" but when my university was tagged with antisemitic symbols, they did NOTHING. When the students union was targeted with threat of violence and their office was destroyed, covered with neo-nazis symbols, they did NOTHING.

The Neo-Nazis student association (which has been multiple times reported for their hate-crimes) were distributing flyers at the entrance yesterday WITHOUT ANY ISSUES, because they support Israel.

#I'm so mad #france #palestine #And I will not talk about the caricature of leftists in a nazi uniform because we support Palestine #That's like so fucking disgusting how dare they compare people being AGAINST a genocide to Nazis #repeating to myself that murdering one of those assholes of the gov will only make it worse #don't fucking judge me on my violent thought I a French leftist this is normal to us we know this is the only way to get things done #bro look at the Marseillaise lyrics it's about fighting turanny and oppressors that kill your family #and you dare make France stand with Israel #I know things suck way more for other people but I am tired and scared about what France is becoming

[i-am-l-ananas]

just because your peers are reaching “life milestones” before you doesn’t mean you’re falling behind in life. You’re not behind in life. You’re not you’re not you’re not you’re not and maybe someday you’ll believe it

#one of those nights folks! #I know when and if a person reaches so called life milestones is arbitrary!!! But why am I so behind??? #it’s just. more people I grew up with are getting married and having kids #I don’t even think I want kids!! #it’s just that it goes along with them having the relationships and stability to do so!! #and I’m envious of that! #and it’s pathetic that I still blame all the bullying I went through for my lack of relationships when I know it’s really my own fault #for not bettering myself and going out and meeting people and instead waiting for a future where I’m no longer disgusted with my body #ack sorry if you opened the tags only to be slapped in the face with vent #it be like this sometimes

[starwikia]

suicide cw

look i have been in this area before mentally. it sucks and i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. but, and this is going to sound callous, but i don’t feel any sympathy for james somerton. even if i hope he’s like. not dead. But thats all the amount of goodwill im willing to give him. The more i think about this really, the more angry i am. 

ngl this entire situation is another example of how white people weaponize their mental illness to avoid consequences. Im seeing it in real time.

this man has a continuous habit of using self-harm as a get-out-of-jail-for-free card. in both of his apologies, he has worded his supposed attempts in ways that were clearly meant to guilt people who displayed his plagiarism and overall horrendous history of racism and misogyny. i say supposed because, while i���m not saying those are lies and this would he such a fucked up thing to lie about that i don’t want to think he has, unfortunately, it’s been proven again and again that his word can’t be trusted, as he’s known to lie to try get out of consequences. Hes a proven liar. him lying about this is actually the best case scenario, because no one should go through this entire situation, wouldnt wish this on anyone, but you can only do this so often before people stop sympathizing with you. is this callous? Yeah, but like. I’m actually fucking angry he cant straight up take no as an answer. that this is how he reacts realizing he cant be one of the Cool Kidz™️ on youtube anymore. he acts like he DESERVES a career, like its not a privilege hes lost due to his own actions.

He lied about apologizing and forgiving people, he lied about giving the money to hbomberguy to give to ppl he ripped off (yknow, instead of doing it himself), he lied about the jessie gender situation and rewrote the narrative to make it so he isnt the bad guy, and hes the victim all along actually!

you can’t tell me that supposed last message of his isn’t meant to be a 13 reasons why esq attempt to deflect the blame “look i’m going to kill myself and it’s all YOUR PEOPLES FAULT for not letting me achieve my DREAM of being filmmaker IN PEACE!!! I just wanted Nick’s (the guy who I have thrown under the bus again and again) portfolio up!! Im just being a good friend dont you all FEEL BAD” he refuses to take ANY ACCOUNTABILITY of any of his actions and he IS STILL trying to shove the blame over to other people again.

it’s also pretty ironic people are like “uhhh well hbomber’s fans harassed him!!!” like hbomber outright told people NOT to HARASS JAMES!!! ALSO acting as if james doesn’t have a very real documented history of STRAIGHT UP sending his fans to harass and threaten smaller creators, more notably women, trans, and bipoc creators. especially after he’s stolen typically very personal anecdotes so he could profit from them. so why can he do it but the second people are like “hey this guys an actual piece of shit.” and he can’t handle it suddenly people are trying to white knight his shit? like no he doesn’t get that. he doesn’t get that at all just because he couldn’t handle the consequences of his actions. 

what? were supposed to stay quiet about a man profiting off of other minorities because he wanted to be the spokesman for all gay people? people tried to solve this on a smaller, more private scales for YEARS and he kept doing it. it was clear that the giant public video was the ONLY way to get people to notice. HE WOULDVE GOTTEN AWAY WITH STEALING 87 FUCKING THOUSANDS WORTH OF DOLLARS. HE CANT HANDLE THE FACT HE CANT GET AWAY WITH IT. 

am i supposed to feel bad for the guy who basically threatened a trans woman with the police? i don’t care what anyone says, it’s so fucking obvious that he threatened jessie by implying he was getting the police involved in their conflict. what am i supposed to act like that didn’t happen? are we supposed to pretend like he didn’t glorify nazi’s and outright said that gay people made up a good chunk of the nazis? That he didnt say america joined ww2 bc they were jealous of the NAZIS. WHAT WOULD POSSESS YOU TO FUCKING SAY THAT. but then? He gives women (not even women most of the time, he misgenders nonbinary ppl constantly) shit for writing mlm. are we supposed to act like he doesn’t straight-up sees himself superior and better than people of color and steals their works to put himself on a pedestal? Are we supposed to act like he didnt spit on our elders by saying “only the boring gays survived aids” like man! Fuck you! He BLANTANTLY MAKES UP HISTORY TO PUT HIMSELF ON A PEDESTAL!! HE ACTIVELY TRIED TO REWRITE LGBT HISTORY TO SUIT HIS FUCKED UP NARRATIVES!

yes this sucks ! no one deserves this but no one should be making him a martyr. Thats what he fucking WANTS! He wants to be immortalized as a victim!! (again, supposedly, it was reported hes alive but its not confirmed).

The shit he got isnt near the amount of fucking callous behavior hes done again and again. Again, to drill this point, EVEN IF HE DIDNT CALL THE POLICE HE THREATENED A TRANS WOMAN INTO THINKING HE DID!!! The fact he tried to use a head injury to justify years of the outright ghoulish shit fucking astounds me. Why the fuck did anyone in his life thought it was a good idea to let him TRY to come back. in the end, he had options. he didn’t need to try to make a comeback. HE DIDNT NEED TO FUCKING LIE OR IGNORE THE SHIT HE WAS CALLED OUT ON the reality is, he wanted to come back thinking he could shove it under the rug, was told that no dude, you’re not allowed to be a youtuber anymore. you’re done. you need to move on and went full nuclear. it’s not on anyone’s hands but his own. HES BEEN DOING THIS TO HIMSELF!! But nah man we cant call his shit out bc hell may or may not kill himself. Fuck the other minorities who have the same issues but worse and sometimes BECAUSE of him. This is going to SUCKKKK so bad when other ppl, specifically white gays, are going to weaponize this shit to get away with their stuff.

#warning: do not read this post if you want me to be nice to james somerton. i am extremely mean in this post. #before anyone accuses me of shit i legit never contacted him myself or anyone involved. i am someone who witnessed this behavior repeatedly #again. i hope hes alive and well. the fact is him lying about this WOULD BE THE IDEAL SITUATION. BC NO ONE SHOULD GO THROUGH THAT. but. #he HAS to forever be the victim in his eyes. attempting doesnt automatically mean youre free of sin. #its just terrible to see that regardless whether or not he did do it #its very clear his attempts to run away from his consequences are working on some people #we need to acknowledge that if your shitty ex friend can weaponize a threat to kill themselves #so can this internet person after being called out for horrendous shit #like what was the alterative? what were people supposed to fucking do? be nice about it? #yeah as if poc and trans women arent historically given shit for being 'too mean' about wanting justice. #this isnt just the plagiarism this is the fact a white dude has been parading himself as THE speaker for the gays(tm) but has been using hi #gayness to shield himself from his misogyny racism transphobia and antisemitism #its very clear regardless this means that ppl r going to side with him and then give him benefit of doubt #if you cant handle the heat stay out of the fucking kitchen dude. this is the consequences of your fucking actions. #hes a disgusting person who cant handle being told no so hes going to drag everyone down with him #like. idk this entire situation is frustrating to me. #its also frustrating ppl trying to be moral abt it like 'see! i knew this was bad all along!' no you didnt. shut it. #for the record im like mainly talking abt twit watching those spineless uwu cutesy ppl basically saying hes done noting wrong #oh and also alt righters who are clearly weaponinizing this where u know they wouldnt give a shit if a right ytber did this. #james somerton #idk might delete this later its just. ugh...

[hatred-rage-and-repression]

Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.

#self hatred #self hate #self loathing #depressive #depression #paranoia #paranoid #unlovable #i feel so unloveable #i hate myself #i am stupid #mother wound #i am disgusting #cptsd #trauma #coping #traumatised #traumatized #dysfunctional family #dysfunctional household #narcissistic abuse #mother issues #father issues #father wound #emotional abuse #physical abuse #psychological abuse #neglect #childhood trauma #personal

[theswedishpajas]

[Mii Maker Music]

!!Find the palette in this thread!!

#my art stuff #beetlejuice #cartoon #toonjuice #digital art #bugs #emoji #I made my own brush for the bugs so I can use them in the future #I’m trying to make art more enjoyable for myself and that means making it much less complicated and take less time #so I’m hoping to use this brush more in the future when drawing beej #or things in general #I’m getting better at lightning the weight I put on myself with my art #but it’s an upphills battle and I am STRUGGLING #I’ve been using this eene inker randomly for a while now and it’s making art so much easier to do for me somehow #but it looks so disgusting in my art. not cus it’s an ugly brush. I think it’s really nice-looking actually #but I have such a strong need for all my art to look clean and for every line to be intentionally put where it is #I have a tendancy to go in and fix singular pixels in EVERYTHING when I draw. even if just to make it intentionally look unintentional #but this brush does it on it’s own and I haven’t felt this relaxed while making digital art in MANY years and it’s STRESSING ME OUT #but it’s good that I can relax. That’s the goal. I want to be able to rnjoy drawing again. #The biggest hurdle is my autism hating change but once I’m past that I know I’ll be right as rain #in the meantime I hope people can still enjoy what little stuff I mannage to crank out randomly #also don’t ask me what the style is. my hand just went off with the “whatever just get it down real quick” mentality #I really need to draw the sweetheart more… I say when he is all I draw besides myself anymore-

[ademonfucker]

you’re never fully dressed without a

#hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #angel dust #angel dust hazbin hotel #you’re never fully dressed without a smile #Sometimes I disgust myself so much I am tempted to yeet myself into the abyss #i need sleep

[081700]

LANA DEL REY SUPPORTS ISRAEL. LANA DEL REY SUPPORTS GENOCIDE. LANA DEL REY SUPPORTS THE MASSACRE OF INNOCENT CIVILIANS INCLUDING CHILDREN. LANA DEL REY IS A ZIONIST. LANA DEL REY IS COMPLICIT IN MURDER.

#it’s been a long time coming for her downfall #as a woman of color I am disgusted that I’ve let myself support her for so long #her music is amazing but i can no longer justify her actions #and I know she is tumblrs icon but if you want to stand on the right side of history I encourage you to stop supporting her #Palestine #Gaza #free palestine #lana del rey

[starrysharks]

every art critic, teacher or tutorial maker who tells you that your character designs must be conventionally attractive or appealing is a big fat liar

[altgoth-aesthetic]

"Woke up this morning,

I feel so fucking important

I looked in the mirror, I'm different

I finally made the decision" 🖤💅🏻

#fuck my body dysmorphia i'm cute af!!!!! #i'd almost stopped taking pictures of myself altogether bc of how shitty i've been feeling #but omg why am i being my own biggest hater?! #my flesh prison keeps me trucking along and i get to decorate it and make it my safe space!!!!! #i want to be my own safe space!!!! #goddamn idk if that will make sense to anyone else lol #but i just want to get to the point where i can at least look at myself in the mirror and not feel disgusted #i want to feel safe and loved within the confines of my own being #anywayyyyy #here come the annoying tags #my post #me #my face #my style #ootd #fit check #outfit #black and white outfit #alternative #alternative fashion #alternative style #alt enby #alt girl #goth #goth style #goth fashion #goth enby #goth girl #blue hair #body positive

[notdelusionalatall]

i am so disgusting

#gaslight gatekeep girlboss #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #my year of rest and relaxation #girl interrupted syndrome #girl interrupted #female rage #female hysteria #the feminine urge #whisper girl #feminine hysteria #feminine rage #female manipulator #femcel #dark feminine aesthetic #unhinged girls #girlboss interrupted #delulu #delusional #live laugh lobotomy #female insanity #i am disgusting #i hate myself #this is a cry for help #depressing shit #depression #depression memes #mental illness memes

[zlobonessa]

one aspect that always fascinates me about the witch cult is how much they are used-to-be humans-but-now-not-really-are. they were just people who sometimes were good in the way people are and sometimes were bad in the way people are. and then their lifes had been altered by powers so fundamentally that they just. lost touch with any humanity that they had. how do you comprehend being a hundreds years old? how do you comprehend being able to kill a human as simply as a mosquito? how do you comprehend being beyond time, beyond aging, beyond life and death, beyond your own body, beyond your own memories? it's a horror scenario accepted willingly, horror where instead of running from monster you shake its hand and convince yourself that that's all you ever wanted, because the alternative? the alternative is the existence so miserable you'd rather die than go back. the existence that may ask you to take responsibility for your actions, navigate your own life, change who you are as a person.

they cannot do that. they never could do that. they live for years and years, having powers to do literally anything and yet led by instructions in the book, further and further conservating in the state they were from a start, the moment they took a deal.

doomed from the beginning. never having a chance to escape. never wanting to escape, instead allowing your humanity to slowly seep away as a price for not bearing the weight of that it means to be human. damn.

#re zero #sorry for being barely comprehensible myself i just think about this. a lot. #like the sheer fact that all of them lived either literally or technically (lye) for thousands years #and yet they still hold grudges for stuff that happened lifetimes ago #never progressing never changing despite the fact that their whole life is now technically about Progression To The Goal #to do more work! (nobody except petelgeuse actually cares about the cult goals on the personal level) #to collect more names! (there are never gonna be enough names) to collect more wives! (same thing here) #to be loved by someone who could never love you back because he stucks in his own role and unreachable goal #to be loved by everybody even though you are completely disgusting by your own volition #none of this matters but hey if you convince yourself that it does it doesn't suck so bad! #and if you admit that it doesn't then the only option is to ask yourself what am i doing here actually! and you not gonna love the answer! #well i sure am talking A LOT about them. sorry. #also that's the part where i'm slowly pointing at regurein- [I'm shot at the back of the head] #[my bloodied hand still draws “I'm a monster who hunts monsters” in sand tho]