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kumezyzo · 7 months

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corpse x faceless streamer cause it has more plot...

anyway, enjoy! or dont :) m.list

as cliche and over-used as it is, you met bf!corpse in an among us lobby. but you two had heard of eachother before, seeing as youre in the same faceless community.

your followings seemed to have a lot of crossover, so when you met, it was a dream come true for your communites. and for you two, it was nice having someone understand what it was like to be faceless.

overtime, you two grew closer, hanging out outside of streams. and at some point, you got comfortable enough eachothers faces.

when your chat found out, it became the only thing they could talk about for a good two days on twitter.

"guys, corpse looks really cool," you said to your chat. you and corpse were streaming on your channel, just talking and catching up. his scoff made you giggle quietly. "im not joking, he's kinda... attractive."

"and yn looks nothing like how she described herself," he said, laughing at how much prettier he thought you were.

"and his hair is actually curly," you say.

then, you both went on anthony padilla's channel as a part of his 'I spent a day with...' series. and you revealed that you were doing the interview on the same day.

"i mean, corpse is the only other youtuber that knows what i look like," you state simply. "if im honest, the main reason im here is because this is the first time im meeting up with him in person."

thankfully, no one was suprised when they heard that in the video. but thats just because corpse posted a video of you two playing rock-paper-scissors.

it started off silent, you two doing the motions silently. corpse played scissors, you played rock. he sighed. another up and down motion. he played scissors, you played paper. you took a deep breath. another up and down. he played rock, you played rock. you scoffed and cracked your knuckles. one more time. he played paper, you played scissors.

"fuck!" he yelled loudly as you laughed manaically in the background.

during this meet up, you stayed at his apartment. and it just so happened you got to spend more time with him. slowly, you both started developing further feelings for eachother.

it showed itself in you two being cuddly, touchy with eachother. both of you tiptoeing round the topic of the weird dynamic. neither of you actually choosing to say anything or admit your feelings.

it really set in when he started unironically calling you "baby". it gave you butterflies and he felt his face heat up as the words left his mouth.

and when you had to leave, it was far more intense than you had expected.

"thank you for letting me stay here," you told him greatfully. he smiled softly at you, going in for a hug. you smiled and felt yourself melt into his arms.

you two pulled away briefly, looking into eachothers eyes. you dont know when it really happened, but the next moment, youre lips are on eachothers.

when you went back home, it was like you two know you were dating. but you never actually said it. it just felt right.

this is kinda like a prequel to this beautiful shit. i also know no one requested this (or at least i could find one when i went to check cause this was in my notes for way too long) -Nony

#corpse husband x you #corpse husband x reader #corpse x reader #corpse x streamer reader #bf!corpse #i wish i could tag anon or asks #but i cant #cause this came straight from moi #😁#even tho its the worst shit ive every written #*ever #im not rewriting that shit #anyway

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strawberryspence · 1 year

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Steve Harrington has always loved the sky.

How vast, and complex, and free it is. How it changes colors with the season and weather. Sunsets and sunrises, and the things they signify. Some may hate the way it makes them feel smaller, but Steve loves it. He feels safe being a tiny particle under this big sky.

At the early age of six, Steve remembers his mother, sitting beside him in the garden. She was the one who thought him cloud watching. Laying mindlessly in the garden, as they both point out at shapes at the blue sky. There’s a cup, a shape of a heart, a bear. One even looked like a guitar! It was one of the only things they did together for fun.

At thirteen, the sky becomes Steve’s only companion. His parents has left him again, alone in a big quiet house. He’s been in the pool for almost three hours, floating aimlessly as he stares at the sky. There’s different shapes, and it makes him a little less lonely knowing that he’s at least not alone as long as he’s under the big sky.

At seventeen, Steve finds the beauty in the night sky. The dark canvas, with the shining stars and the moon looking down at him. He doesn’t cry, because Harrington’s don’t cry. But there he was, laid in his backyard, nursing a broken heart from the first person he’s ever loved. He’s alone again, and he thinks he’ll always be alone. Just him and the big vast sky. However, there’s more important things now, more than heartbreaks and loneliness, like 12 year olds that get experimented in labs, a girl getting pulled in his pool and to her death and monsters living underneath him. Although underneath the big dark sky, Steve feels like he’s being wrapped in it’s darkness, almost like a comforting blanket.

At eighteen, Steve finds a real friend. Not the sky, but Robin Buckley. A friend he found under the night sky as the place they met went into flames, including Billy Hargrove and Jim Hopper. It’s cruel, but one of the things Steve has learned is that there’s always lost, and there’s always gain. Two nights after the fire, Steve asks, if Robin would lay beside her on the ground. They watch as dark sky turns as the sun rises, too scared to go back to sleep because only then can the nightmares haunt them again. They watch as colors mix from darkness to brightness, and the for the first time in a while, he has someone there with him.

At nineteen, Steve meets Eddie Munson. Really meets him, a brand new slate from what they had in high school. It’s the night just after they come back from the upside down, his bits have been eaten and they’ll probably go back there again tomorrow. Nancy has some kind of plan and he wants to sleep, but he can’t. They sit at the back of the trailer, away from people that could see them (specifically Eddie) smoking a cigarette.

“I can’t believe you guys have been doing this for years.” Eddie says, disbelief apparent in his voice.

Steve shrugs, “I don’t either. They’re—“ He pauses, thinks about El who’s only 15 and has the weight of the world on her shoulders, thinks of Will who’s been through hell and death, thinks of Max who’s still grieving her dead brother only for it to be used to lure her into death, he thinks of the kids, the kids who’s all barely 15 fighting this entity, “They’re all too young for this.” He finishes.

Eddie gives him a look, Steve doesn’t like it. It feels like he’s being studied, he feels naked under Eddie’s eyes. Like he can see through him, see the pieces Steve has hidden for so long.

“You’re young too.” Eddie answers back, tilting his head, “You, Robin, Nancy, even me.”

Steve shrugs, “I guess. I just want this to end already.”

Eddie looks away, staring at the skies as it finally starts changing its hues.

“I don’t really like sunrises.” Steve looks at him, offended and ready to defend his dear old companion.

But Eddie continues, “I’ve always liked the sunsets more, you know? Sunsets are— endings. But they show you that even endings could be beautiful.”

Steve stares at him, watching silently as Eddie smokes. Steve knows the sun is rising now, and he’s never been one to miss it when it’s right in front of him. But there’s something about the way the different colors are hitting Eddie’s face, the light dancing on his skin and his brown eyes illuminating the colors, like it’s lighting him up in ways Steve has never seen before. It’s breathtaking, Eddie’s breathtaking and it makes him feel things he’s never felt before.

When the silence grows heavy, Eddie breaks it with, “Plus I really like it when the sky turns orange.”

It’s the first time Steve has ever ignored the sky.

At nineteen, Steve learns that the sky could also be red. He doesn’t remember much, just Dustin crying over Eddie’s body as the red sky above him thunders on, menacing and cackling at their demise. The clock just struck, four fault lines running across the town above him. Vecna got Max and Eddie’s dead in Dustin’s arms. It’s hard to look up at the sky then, when they finally emerge from hell. Steve thinks that no clear blue sky, or no dark starry night, can ever give him comfort again.

At twenty, almost three months from the first Vecna fight, the sky is permanently gray and stormy. Steve Harrington is bones and meat. Nothing else. He is nothing but a body, weary of the life that has been given to him. They fight for the last time. Steve wants to run away, pack his bag and never look back but as long as his under this fucking sky, he will always remember that he abandoned them. He fights, he fights, he fights. Eddie’s dead, and Max is in a coma, and Steve Harrington fights until it ends.

They get Max back, but she’s forever changed by the experience. They win, the skies turn back to blue and Steve wants to vomit. If this is what it means to win, then why does he want to die? Why does winning feel so much like losing?

At twenty-two, Steve moves to Boston with Robin and Nancy. It’s a weird group, his best friend and her girlfriend, who was also his ex-girlfriend. But they’re Steve’s family (aside from the kids) and he’d go anywhere if Robin asks. He hasn’t laid in his back to watch the clouds in three years, he hasn’t stayed up to look at the night sky, he hasn’t watched the morning sun rise to it’s beauty and he hasn’t watched the sunset in a while.

It’s a conversation they’ve always avoided. Robin knows that Steve used to love the sky, he told her just as much, how it feels like a companion he’s always had. She doesn’t know why he stopped, why he stopped looking up and pointing out random shapes, or random constellations. Why he hasn’t been waking her up in the morning just so he can show her the sky changing to another beautiful color, morning after morning. All she knows was it stopped after Eddie died.

Eddie’s death has always been hard for the three of them. This one person who’ve they known for almost a week, leaving such a big impression in their lives. She knows Nancy has stash of metal music, smiling with a sad grin whenever Metallica comes on. Robin has multiple guitar pins, always an electric guitar in the color red, pinned in her coat, in her bag, in her bedroom and anywhere else she can stick it on. And Steve, well, Robin held his hand as he got his first tattoo. A D20 dice, just above his demobat scar. Robin’s still not sure if he cried because of the pain of the needle or the pain of having the same scar, in the exact same place, of someone who didn’t survive it.

It all comes out one day. The anniversaries has always been harder, not only were they far away from the kids, but the Vecna spring anniversary always hits them the hardest. It’s also Eddie’s death anniversary, to make it worse. Robin plans it all out, they stay in all day. Just watch movies, eat snacks, stay wrapped in comfortable blankets. The three of them fall asleep in the middle of their fourth movie of the day, all tangled together and it’s days like this— like this that makes it harder to ignore the fact that it should’ve been the four of them rather than just three.

Robin wakes up with Steve not beside her, Nancy still sleeping peacefully beside her. The digital clock— they all can’t stand the silent tick tocking of a clock, reminds them too much of a grandfather clock, no matter how big or small— blinks at her, it’s almost 5:21 in the afternoon. From where she is sitting, she can feel the cold wind brushing her feet, the door of the apartment balcony open. She stands up, wrapping the blanket around her shoulders and walking out to the small balcony.

It’s a surprise to see her soulmate watching the sky start to change colors, the sun impending to set in a few more minutes.

“You’re watching the sunset.” Robin states, making Steve look up at her.

“Yeah.” He replies.

Robin sits beside him, putting the half of the blanket on his shoulder, the half on hers. They watch as the colors start to change. The blue shifting to pink and purple.

“I stopped watching the sky because of Eddie.” Steve starts, startling Robin. It’s been a conversation waiting to happen for years now, but she didn’t think it would happen today. She finds her footing almost immediately, “Why’s that?”

Steve isn’t looking at her, just watching as the sky dances in front of him. Robin have imagined hundreds of ways that this conversation could go but she never expected him to say, “I think I could’ve loved him. Sometimes, I think I do love him.” She had her suspicions, that maybe her bestfriend isn’t entirely straight. But she didn’t connect the dots that it was Eddie who made him realize this.

Steve continues, “He said he loved sunsets, he loves when it turns orange. Because it showed people that endings could also be beautiful.”

Steve has watched maybe hundreds, maybe thousands of sunsets in his life. But this one— they stay quiet, Nancy comes out a little later, sitting on Steve’s other side and holding his hand through the sunset. Together they watch as the day of the anniversary ends, with what Steve could only call the most beautiful sunset he’s ever seen in his life. It turns into the most beautiful hue of orange and Steve breaks.

“That’s him.” Robin tells him, as she wraps him into a hug, as Steve finally cries on her shoulders, both grief and pain chocking him as he sobs harder, “It’s okay. Eddie’s okay now, and he’s letting us know. We’ll be okay.”

“We’ll be okay.” Nancy reassures, hugging the two of them.

Only then does Steve find comfort in the sky again, with the two people he loves and he knows loves him and under the sky as an old friend watches over.

At twenty-six, Steve graduates with a Bachelor of Science, majoring in Atmospheric Science.

Steve doesn’t avoid the sky anymore, he studies it now, writes the weather news for a big Boston channel. He stops to point out random objects in the sky, has a telescope set up for constellations. He drinks a hot cup of coffee, every morning, watching as the sun rises.

He lays in the grass with Dustin and Suzie’s son and teaches him how to cloud watch. He takes time to send reminders to Max and Lucas to wear a raincoat if he sees that it’s going to rain in California. He talks to Will and Mike for hours, just trying to describe to them a weather phenomenon so Will could draw it and Mike could write it for their latest best-selling comics. He knits El a gorgeous sky blue scarf, because he knows how cold it gets in New York.

Wayne calls him, every other day, to ask how the weather is in Boston and Steve asks how the weather is in Indiana. Steve spends a few months in a year in the guest room of the farm house Joyce and Hop bought in 1986. He stays and writes about the stars and the planets, because the skies are so much clearer in rural places.

He still lives with Robin and Nancy, but they’ve moved to a house now. He’s got equipment for sky watching at the backyard and the girls surprised him with sunroof in his office. They have a dog named Hetfield and cat named Sabbath.

And more than anything, Steve loves sunsets. He has the time of every sunset for everyday charted in his room. He stops, whatever he is doing, however important it is, just to go out and get a glimpse of the sun setting. Sometimes, at home, the girls accompany him, like an unspoken ritual, to just watch the sun setting. He waits for it to turn into some shade of orange and smiles when it turns to the color.

It’s a hello, a how are you, a comfortable hug.

It’s an old friend in the form of the sky.

It’s Eddie Munson just checking in.

→ @undreaming-fanfiction’s beautiful addition (p2)

→ dustin henderson & sunsets (p3)

-> the alternate nicer, fluffier sunrise fic

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bioshock-2-was-a-good-game · 1 month

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My friend and I are having a BioShock infinite conversation and she whipped out "Bioshock infinite is good! When it's not trying to be a 'better' (in Ken's eyes) version of Bioshock 2" and she's right.

#I love the art #song bird? beautiful #some lines go hard #but i cant #the rebellious female religious idol has already been done #bioshock

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smosh-mouth · 2 months

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can i say something.

#shourtmanda #sorry #need to stop shipping smosh throuples #but i cant #ot3 #shayne topp #amanda lehan canto #courtney miller #courtmanda #shaymanda #shourtney

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levisrations · 19 days

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Modern Levi thought:

He would absolutely find me getting mad at randoms when playing an online game hilarious.

Maybe he’s in the living room reading or on his laptop. (Has a whole set up himself for his job with three monitors in the same room but he needs a break from that space) Suddenly you just start yelling and he smiles to himself because he’s in for a show.

“Why the FUCK are you all the way over there by yourself” “Get FUCKED dummy” “I just wanna know what made you think you could push a whole squad by yourself and gave absolutely no comms” “AAAAAAHHH!!!!”

You’re 100% aware how obnoxious you’re being but you can’t help it when playing these online FPS games. You should probably stop, maybe stick to the story mode games, Levi prefers those anyways. Right now you’re replaying RDR2 and he sits next to you while you play. Kinda like catching up on a show together but instead it’s video games. You know exactly what happened in the game but you let Levi figure things out and he immediately did not like Dutch.

“He looks slimey and so does that Micah”

He also HATED the Strauss missions. Always told you not to do them.

“He purposely preyed on people that were desperate he’s a rat and deserves to lose the money” Boy did he have something to say when he learned how Arthur got sick. (He shed a tear when he died and you were sobbing even though it was like the 4th time you played)

Anyways he oddly finds you freaking out playing video games comforting as well. You suddenly get quiet and he goes to check on you. You’re on the floor on your stomach and your cat is laying on you.

“Did you win?” He smirks. You just turn your face and glare at him while he chuckles at you.

#levi #levi ackerman #attack on titan #levi ackerman x reader #levi x reader #aot #levi aot #got carrier away with the rdr2 LMAO #carried*#🙄#also playing apex with randoms is not good for my blood pressure #i need to stop #but i cant #and yes i cry every time i replay rdr2 #FUCK strauss

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ghostwnby · 2 months

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I just want to kiss him

#i need to stop #but i cant #im going through it rn #someone help #formula 1 #oscar piastri #op81 #mclaren

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residentmara · 6 months

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CW FOR BLOOD + SCARS,

poorly drawn , but mind still feels empathetic for heart even if he did shoot him

they dont just hate each other. their friendship is toxic, sure , but they still do actively care for one another in their own fucked up way. unfortunately, thats how it is . no matter how much theyve done they cant help but stick together, cause they only have each other

#chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #fan art #pre transition #heart and mind transitioned sfter juno incident #in my headcanon #have a lot to say about the lore #but i CANT #GRR

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sanzusslutt · 10 months

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ʀᴇɢʀᴇᴛꜱ♡︎

your ears finally seem to get some peace as you close the bar's bathroom door. this has been a long night and the unbearable headache the alcohol has given you isn't helping at all. the bathroom seemed empty as you make your way to the washbasin, craving for some quiet and get away from all the loud music and the extreme make out sessions.

unfortunately the silence did not last long. as the bathroom door opened, without turning your head, your eyes got a glimpse of a blond man but something red and big stole your attention. your eyes unconsciously shoot to the mirror in front of you, wanting to see who just entered and hoping it wasn't who you though it was. fuck, it was him. blond messy locks falling beautifully on his face, gold wide eyes staring at-

you immediately stoped your thoughts when you realized that you're staring at your 6 months now ex. he stood there for a good 15 seconds, admiring the mesmerizing view in front of his eyes. he shaked his head, trying to focus on why he came to the bathroom and not the beautiful form inside the room. easier said than done...

you could tell he was drunk. not wasted but definitely drunk. you turned your head downwards, facing the washbasin and trying to ignore the fucking elephant in the room. the air was getting thicker as you turned around, making your way to one of the bathrooms, leaving the hero facing your back. but just as you were about to open the foggy glass door, you felt something grabbing your hand and in seconds you were with your back on the cold tile wall and the blond man pinning you against it, trapping you between the wall and his mascular body.

his handsome face was so close to yours that you had to fight with all hell's demons not to kiss him right there and then. the silence was louder than the awful music playing in the club's dancing floor. what if someone came in? what if your current boyfriend finds out? what if he saw you like this?

"kei- hawks.. please let me..." you hesitantly said, staring at his black shirt and dying not to look him directly in his eyes. angels and devils fighting inside you to make the best decision. angels, stated that the best decision is to push him out of the way when the devils on the other side, insisted on grabbing him by his unbuttoned black shirt and kiss him till your lips go numb.

he slowly moved his hand and placed it gently on your neck, his thumb on your cheek to rise your head so you're now faced to him. you couldn't even form the right words to tell him that you want to leave. you actually didn't want to find the words.

you had a thing going on for some weeks like a month ago but he had to leave the city for some hero work. your current boyfriend wasn't even your choice to be honest. your parents made you start dating him as he was the only son of your father's boss, making him the perfect and richest person of the city. not wanting to cause trouble to both you and your parents, you agreed. you wanted a change, but that doesn't mean that you were ready for one.

"look me in the eyes and tell me to leave." the alcohol in his breath and the smell of his expensive cologne making you dizzy as his voice was harse and cold like his hand around your neck, forcing you to only look at his gold eyes and nothing else while he waits impatiently for your answer.

"what we are doing is wrong. we have to stop." his eyes eating your figure as soon as he finished his sentence. you knew that being with your ex boyfriend in the bar's bathroom behind your current partner's back was cruel. you knew that. but, how could you fight back the feelings of love you had for the bird pro hero.

he lowered his messed head, placing it on your shoulder as he loosened the grip he had on your neck. "I.." he started. as soon as he opened his mouth to speak he felt the words heavy on his tongue, fighting not to be spoken. his other hand forming a tight fist against the tile wall, right next to his rested head. his mind turning into a jungle of words but none of them seemed to form a proper sentence. everything inside him begging not to say another word because if he did, he would instantly regret it for the rest of his life.

images from the life you had together started playing on his mind like an unwanted movie, building tears of nostalgia in his eyes. "I c- can't keep doing this, y/n.." he couldn't hold back the breaking of his voice and the quiet sob as it fell of his lips. "it's breaking me.. the fact that he gave you everything I couldn't.. the fact that he is the one making your day better.. the fact that he is the one forming a smile to your pretty and sweet face.. because all I did was bring tears to your perfect eyes.." that wasn't what he wanted to tell you. no. what is he doing?.. this is useless.. you can't fix-

"keigo.." your soft voice broke the silence and turned his attention away from his bad thoughts. he removed his heavy head from your shoulder, blurry eyes meeting yours as you placed your little palm on his red cheek, comforting him and reassuring him that he is what you wanted. "the guy you're so obsessed over is not who I want to spend the rest of my life with, keigo.. and he could never replace you. ever." that was his last straw. tears of now joy and relief falling down his cheeks and decorating his perfectly-made face.

"fuck.." he chuckled. "I just made myself looking like an obsessed idiot.. sorry.. we aren't even together anymore and I-" you closed the distance between your soft lips and his, taking him by surprise and shutting him up. you moved your head backwards, breaking the kiss and placing both your hands to each side of his handsome face. "I am the idiot for breaking up with you and making you feel so horrible.. I'm so so sorry.." you sweetly said, placing a little peck on his forehead.

he circled his big arms around your waist, pulling your perfect to him body closer to his. this felt right to him. the familiar sense of your bodys together, connecting in every way possible. his safe place inside your arms that want nothing more than his happiness from him. thats what he desired for you too, his perfect little princess.

#I've had this in my drafts for way too long #but i cant #i love him #mha hawks #pro hero hawks #hawks fluff #i love hawks #my hero academia hawks #wing hero hawks #mha takami keigo #takami keigo x reader #takami keigo #keigo x y/n #keigo takami #keigo x reader #keigo angst #keigo fluff #keigo takami mha

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