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alexjcrowley · 9 months

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WARNING: GOOD OMENS S2 CRITICAL

(You don't want to hear critiscism? Just skip this post, you don't have to click on read more)

By the time I heard of a season 2 I had already understood I could bid adieu to Crowley and Aziraphale having a qpr. I mean, why leave a relationship indefinite and opened to different layers and interpretation, especially for underrepresented communities, when romance sells more?

Good Omens 2 really fought the war on amatonormativity on the side of amatonormativity.

But hey, if N*il G*iman wants Crowley and Aziraphale to become a romantic couple, he is the author, I am a nobody and he doesn't have to write what appeals to me. I am sad, but I understand.

What I am pissed about is Maggie and Nina. To be honest, I don't even vare about them as characters, they're...there. That's all I have to say about them.

But it does make me fume that first Nina goes with her speech on how Crowley and Aziraphale shouldn't have forced her and Maggie together because it was wrong BUT THEN-

Then they obviously say "yes it will take some time but we'll date eventually". It's a justification of what Aziraphale snd Crowley did meddling in their love life. Like yes we are formally going to acknowledge that it was wrong to try and pair us up but, after all, we liked eachothers all along so it's kind of fine.

Because God forbid Nina just wasn't attracted to Maggie. That they didn't end up together in the end, or at least declare they are attracted to eachothers. They're narratively pushed into a relationship, giving Nina a toxic relationship with Lindsay so the audience HAS to wish Nina leaves her to run to Maggie. Because apparently it's not queer representation if it doesn't culminate in a love story. Nina couldn't just not like Maggie. They had to being in love with eachothers just like Crowley and Aziraphale had to and Gabriel and Beelzebub had to.

And after saying you should not meddle with other people love life, what do Maggie and Nina do? Tell Crowley how to live his love life. Because obviously Crowley's relationship with Aziraphale is wrong or incomplete if they're not boyfriends or they didn't profess their love to one another.

As I said before, N*il G*iman wants to make Crowley and Aziraphale into a romantic couple? Be my guest. But the fact that Nina and Maggie not only blatantly contridicted their own speech, but also automatically assumed that Crowley and Aziraphale needed to sort out their relationship because they weren't romantic partners...

I am not saying "G*od O*ens 2 promotes amatonormativity because 90% of the important characters of the season get paired up" (technically, it also happened in the first season with Crowley and Aziraphale having a close relationship any way you to interpret it, Shadwell and Madame Tracy, Anathema and Newt), I am problematizing in the how. How is romance treated in this second season is what irks me. Like it's the center of it all, the meaning of life, the most important thing in the world.

God or G*iman forbid you're not in love or in a relationship. G*od O*ens S2 said we support every letter of the LGBQTIA+, except the ones that aren't easily marketable.

I think this is far from the biggest problem of season 2, but as an aromantic this hit on a different level.

G*od O*ens was one the books of my formative years. I saw myself almost completely is Aziraphale, he was a very important character for me. When I realised I was aromantic, I was very happy to think that Aziraphale, one of the characters I loved the most and I cosidered so similar to myself, could be even more like me, since his character was opened to the interpretation of being aromantic (as much a supernatural being can be open to human labels regarding sexual attraction, romantic attraction or gender).

I'll always have the book, but I can't say I didn't miss when the show's approach to love was more "that's something that can happen to you in life and you often find it in the most unexpected places" and less "romance is what makes the world go 'round".

P. S. In case it wasn't clear.

I am NOT against Ineffable Husbands as romantic partners, I think they're very cute. I used to ship them romantically, I am not against their shippers or the concept of Crowlry and Aziraphale as a romantic couple. I just wished we could keep the unlabelled relationship of season 1/the book, that way it could have been open to more than one interpretation.

#good omens critical #I put the warning and the tag so don't come @me #I am allowed to have criticism on this show you know #you loved it all? Great there are so mamy people who loved season 2 of good omens go read their posts #but I am allowed to vent in my blog #please do not come into my comments or asks to insult me #amatonormativity #aromantic #arospec #go critical #good omens season 2 critical #good omens s2 critical #aromanticism #aro

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fgooooooo · 4 years

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Update:

Posts are going to be slow

Just realized I have a lot of work over the weekend

I'm very sorry about that!!!!!

But riddle post will be out today and as a warning beforehand (I will put more as I post)

Warning: The Riddle Piece is very emotional and will contain Blood and decapitation!

#i also dont wanna get out of bed #but i do need to take vare of myself #butnsnznsban it xan be hard at times #i hope who ever reads this. i hope your day is going great!!#personal

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shoftiiel · 3 years

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bound to you: 2

“you have nothing to worry”

synopsis: y/n is the new girl in town, she would like to escape from her past and begin a new life without any romance drama, but what happens when she caught the attention of a certain boy who happens to be one of her brother’s best friends.

word count: 783

warnings: cursing??? i actually don’t remember, mentions of cheating

a/n: sorry if there are any mistakes

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you scoffed at the message your brother had just sent you, when you looked up you saw a tall young man walking towards you, finally, you thought.

“y/n!” jake smiled and gave you a tight hug, he was happy, his baby sister was going to be with him, he felt the need to protect you, in his eyes, you were was still a fragile little girl; but the truth was that over the two years that he had been away lots of things had changed.

“Jake, I cant breath, you are crushing me” he quickly let her go and gave you a warm smile, you two were actually very close, Jake was only a year older than you but he still treated you like a baby. He grabbed your things and stuffed them into the car.

“so tell me, how are things back home” Jake asked, “well you know, mom’s always busy, dad is varely home, they send me here so I can keep an eye on you” you said with a mocking tone “yeah sure, if anything I am the one that will be keeping an eye on you”. The way to campus was filled with laughter, “you'll be staying in the dorms?” Jake asked, he sounded a little concerned to be honest “yes, according to the email they sent me someone should be waiting for me, a kim sunoo, do you know him?”

“him? He is not going to be your roommate?” y/n rolled her eyes at her brother’s comment “no jake, he is just going to show me around and be sort of my guide”

“I could do that” he was being overprotective, most people would find that annoying, but you thought it was sort of cute “you don’t have to worry about me, I can take care of myself” of course he did not buy it, “if he tries anything funny just let me know”

The truth behind Jake’s behavior was that you used to have a boyfriend, he cheated on you just one week after Jake left; when you told him he wanted to swim all the way there just to beat his ass, he was furious, but what bothered him the most was the fact that you were all by yourself. Back in Australia you did not have friends, you were always hanging out with your brother, it was you two against the world.

“you have nothing to worry big bro” you knew how jake hated when you called him that, he just rolled his eyes “oh you better stop that young lady”

“ew don't call me that you sound like dad”

“but for real yn” he sounded very serious “you are not alone anymore, I am here, anything you need you call me, i’ll be there for you”

“thanks jake” i really appreciate it, he just smiled at you.

“now, let's look for this kim sunoo guy”

He parked in front of the sophomore dorms and there was a guy sitting by the door of the girls' dorms, “Jake look, I think that’s him”. The guy had a big smile, he looked so kind. When you got out of the car he stood up and approached you.

“hi, you must be y/n”

“y-yes, that’s me”

“well, hello, I am sunoo, the school office asked me to show you around, but i believe its kinda late, so here is my number” he handed you a sticky note “anything you need just let me know, here are the keys to your dorm”

“thank you”

“it's on the second floor, the third door to your right” you could not believe how someone could be so nice to someone they just met. “I guess that’s all, i’ll see you around” he waved at you “byeee” he said to Jake, that actually startled him a little, but he returned the gesture.

Jake helped you carry your things to your dorm “gosh y/n! How many things did you bring” he complained all the way to the second floor “you are such a cry baby, it is not that heavy!”

“You don't have a roommate?”

“nope, i am not complaining tho”

“all right then i'll leave now” he was heading to the door and when he was about to leave he just said “oh I almost forgot sunghoon says hi” you blushed at the mention of his name, Jake knew that you had a small crush on his best friend, he couldn't blame you tho, sunghoon was indeed very attractive, but you did not had any romantic feelings towards him, besides he saw you as a little sister, you reminded him of his sister.

“byeee jake, see you tomorrow”

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comicteaparty · 4 years

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January 15th-January 21st, 2020 Reader Favorites Archive

The archive for the Reader Favorites chat that occurred from January 15th, 2020 to January 21st, 2020. The chat focused on the following question:

What sort of merchandise are you most likely to buy for webcomics you read and why?

carcarchu

does a physical copy of the book count as merch? nothing compares to the feel of a real book in your hands and watching my collection grow is so satisfying. i like having a tangible way to show my support. after that is small prints. i rarely see acrylic charms of webcomic characters but those are nice too

LadyLazuli (Phantomarine)

I know I'm particularly weak for enamel pins - which happen to be the first major merch I made for my first time tabling at a con. They're definitely the most common thing for me to consider purchasing from others. I also like small prints and stickers! And if a particularly cute character is somehow made into a plush... I'd be all over that, too.

Cronaj

For me, I love physical comics. So if a webcomic creator made a physical print version of their comic, that would be the best way to entice me to buy something. Comics almost always look better on paper in my opinion, and I'm a weirdo when it comes to book smell I sniff new books like an absolute degenerate. The other thing I would buy is art prints or art books. I have a huuuuge collection of art prints from creators I admire. So keep 'em comin'! I mean, I'll buy any merch that calls to me, but usually if I can't put it on a shelf, hang it on the wall, or wear it, I probably have no use for it.

Capitania do Azar

I'm a big fan of physical copies and charms of all kinds! I also appreciate stickers and small prints (big prints are nice, but take up a lot of space). Zines with side stories or related/concept art are also a good choice

keii4ii

Storage is a big issue for me, so I tend to not buy physical books unless like... it's a comic I would love to read but can't do so online easily (e.g. if the website doesn't function properly on my computer) I really like prints that have qualities/features that can't be replicated digitally -- e.g. foil, holo coating, VERY special paper texture, etc. (I've even seen one artist offer lenticular prints which I thought was awesome -- just wasn't into the characters that were on the art) Small to medium sized prints are fairly easy to store, so that's also a big plus for me! Also, clear plastic folders? I've never bought them admittedly, but those can look SO nice with the right type of art (some artworks look so special when printed on that clear material). I wish more people offered them so I could actually buy these, but I understand they can be costly to print.

Tired Programmer

I would buy physical copies as well. About the storage issue... Well, when I understand, that there are too many of them for my humble bookcase, I just sell or give old ones away. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ And also stickers. Stickers rock. (edited)

SAWHAND

I agree! If I really like the comic I like to have a physical copy! It feels special since I think a lot of times they're limited printing. I also really like stickers since they can just get put on something I already have and thus not take up extra space. I generally don't get prints because wall space is at a premium and I feel silly not having them hung up, but that's just a personal preference. Other than that it would have to be something really cool or something with function, like a notebook or...I don't know, an apron, or maaaybe a t-shirt.

mariah (rainy day dreams)

Printed comics are definitely my go to fav especially if it's a webcomic I've been really wanting to read but haven't had the time to do it online. Sitting down with a book is a lot easier for me that sitting with my phone or pulling my laptop out. I do also like stickers a lot. I've really gotten into covering the inside covers of my sketchbooks with them the last few years X)

kayotics

I usually go for printed books, pins, or plushies. If there’s a Kickstarter happening I’ll usually splurge for a pin tier if it exists. I don’t use stickers that much but I know a lot of people love them? But it’s not my thing.(edited)

Cap’n Lee (Flowerlark Studios)

Usually printed books and phone charms. I will always buy webcomics that go to print and I collect charms. Other things like stickers and pins are nice, but often too pricey. I will go for them when they're bundled into KS tiers with printed books, though.

varethane

Printed books for me! Sometimes stickers, and sometimes enamel pina

Pins

I dont tend to get prints because I wont really do anything with them

(But my prints tend to sell decently, so there is a market for them out there...)

keii4ii

I just like collecting prints! I don't even put them on my wall, I just stick them in a binder kind of like my own custom-curated artbook

I really like seeing the combination of certain artworks and certain paper textures!

FeatherNotes(Krispy)

omg Kei...why have I not thought of that ?? I will now do that for all the print i've collected gosh!! and I agree with Vare, books are top tier merch I go for (zines included) Prints are a second for me, with charms and pins being the thing i least go for bc of space (though I am seeing pin boards come into fashion and I'm def into doing that as well!)

mariah (rainy day dreams)

I do really love pins too, I'm just really bad at remembering to wear them. I probably should get myself one of those clear back packs con goers wear.

FeatherNotes(Krispy)

oh yes ita bags!

varethane

The problem with me wearing pins is that I normally bike everywhere, while wearing a backpack

So if I put them on a jacket, the straps of the bag will rub on most of the good pin locations

And if they fall off while I'm riding my bike they are lost forever

Cap’n Lee (Flowerlark Studios)

I tried putting pins on my backpack for a while.... only to come home and realise they fell off at some point during the day.

varethane

Yeah :(

mariah (rainy day dreams)

Ita bag! Yes! Lol I'm always super scared that my pins will just break and I'll loose them X') so when I do remember to wear one I'm constantly checking to make sure it's still on me

varethane

I have one jacket that I've been putting most of my pins on, which I wear to conventions

And it did pretty well except my rice boy pin fell off somewhere in the Seattle airport and is now lost forever :(

Betrayal......

FeatherNotes(Krispy)

i have def...super glued pins to my backpack before and the rubber backings are so bad for pins too bc they never hold

mariah (rainy day dreams)

Oh, patches are another thing, like pins, that I love but usually have to stop myself from getting. I need to find a good patch jacket, because I really love a patch. I've been wanting to make one for my own comic merch for a while too.

FeatherNotes(Krispy)

ohhh yes same-- i stll have patches that i havent done anything yet with bc i haven't found The Right Jacket

mariah (rainy day dreams)

Same TuT

Eightfish

I've got the Property of Hate tarot postcards up on my wall right now. Also partial to a good enamel pin. What I'd love to see in merch is a well designed, stylish shirt, but haven't really found that so far. I find webcomic shirts tend to be too detailed and illustration-y to look good as shirts, and would prefer something more graphic.

Q @CecilieQMT making WAYFINDERS

I'd love to design shirts! Just haven't figured out how to get them printed properly... ^^'

RebelVampire

For me, it's digital copies. So PDFs and eBooks. Unlike many people here, I can't stand print copies for a myriad of reasons. XD But digital copies I can get behind cause it supports the artist, has some nice bonus stuff sometimes, and generally collects everything nicely so some website hiccups aren't a problem. While this has never come up because it's rare, I would also buy plushies. Cause one can never have enough plushies. But alas, I don't think the market is there for that XD

kayotics

Plushies are just really hard to produce and store, same with T-shirts

Well, T-shirts aren’t that hard to produce, but they’re hard to store and keep a good amount of sizes

Mei

I tend to buy books/physical copies of webcomics I like! I really enjoy the physical reading experience! I also really like buying enamel or non-enamel pins. I enjoy collecting them, but going off what people have already said, I also have an innate fear of losing them :(

AntiBunny

If it has a cute character, and the price is in my budget, plushies are awesome. Unfortunately that's a difficult one to do, because small batches of plush that are build by hand are going to be expensive, and a comic has to be very popular to warrant more economical large runs. And I'll also say physical books.

Mei

plushies ARE awesome

I got the coyote plushie from Tom, the guy who does Gunnerkrigg Court

I just really love it

and also I couldn't decide which of the MANY volumes of comics to buy

(i didn't and still don't have space to stock up on a lot of books so I must be prudent sometimes)

((but my bed always has space for plushies))

#ctparchive #comics #webcomics #indie comics #comic chat #comic discussion #comic tea party #ctp #reader favorites

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canon-fcdder · 5 years

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gamblealife replied to your post ““Don’t get me wrong, the power of science is impressive. But it is...”

Sheldon vc: “... I’m right here, Vare.” >)

{ ☆ } “Oh...” Is all Varian can reply for the moment at the unexpected arrival. Tone and expression a deadpan kind of confused calm, like a deer caught in the headlights. When had his friend wandered into the room? ... Probably during his little monologue about the benefits (and superiorities) of science when compared to other, less-logical reasonings... Like love.

After all, love causes an abundance of problems... for him, at least.

“H-Heh... Hi, Shelly.” Yet try as he might, he just can’t seem to shake it. “How uh... How long have you been standing there?” Cheeks growing warmer— partially from embarrassment and partially because of... other reasons —a hand awkwardly rubs the back of his neck as he admits with a light chuckle, “I was just... talking to myself.” Something that he happens to do a lot, now that he thinks about it. “When there’s usually no one else around, you kinda... get accustomed to it.” Cue a small silence, Varian averting his gaze as he mulls over whether he should voice what he’s thinking. Something that honestly, barely takes him a second.

“... I guess I don’t really need to do it all that often anymore, huh?” { ☆ }

#(The smile... is one of my favorite Varian icons... and I Must use it... Because lookit)#(He needed to say hi to your boyyo. lol)#(Bby boy bby)#(I... need to respond to some Things... with Varian... BECAUSE IM LOVE HIM omfg)#canon-fcdder #⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ’ʟʟ ꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴜᴘ ᴀɴᴅ ꜰɪɢʜᴛ; ‘ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ’ᴍ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ❞ ¦ 「 Varian IC 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴅᴇꜱɪɢɴ ❞ ◌ ᴍᴏᴅᴇʀɴ ¦ 「 Varian 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴛᴏ ɪɴᴠᴇɴᴛ; ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ɪᴍᴀɢɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ᴘɪʟᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴊᴜɴᴋ ❞ ¦ 「 Sheldon 」#gamblealife #⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ɪꜰ ʏ'ᴀʟʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ; ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘᴀꜱꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ? ❞ ¦ 「 RP 」

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qelizhus · 5 years

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wip tag game

moving this to my writeblr, but was tagged by @farrradays, thank you! this is for ‘the odes’, where i need to find a better name and make a wip intro. still. tagging @kaigods @dragonauthor @royal-artichoke @tayluin @explosivebang @melwrotethat if any of yall wanna do it. this is very long, so it’ll be under the cut. i apologize in advance for my answers, my brain is currently fried.

1. describe the plot in one sentence

girl finds herself distressed after bff dies, goes to great lengths to reunite and/or make bff proud

2. pick one sight, sound, smell, feel and taste to describe its aesthetic

sight: the sun meeting the horizon

sound: constant movement; the sound of feet marching against the ground

smell: smoke & the memory of home

feel: mist touching skin, the dampness of clothing

taste: hot chocolate powder

3. which 3+ songs would make up a playlist for the novel?

billie eilish - ocean eyes, grandson - things change, two feet - lost the game, svrcina - meet me on the battlefield... probably

4. what’s the time period and location in which the novel takes place?

takes place on the fictional planet ‘aeon’, sometime not-as-technologically-advanced-as-we-are-now. i haven’t figured out all the time period details yet, lmao.

5. are there any former titles you’ve considered but have discarded?

considering this is not even a solid title... no. unfortunately. i’m worried i’m gonna get too attached to ‘the odes’ that i’m not going to be able to find a proper title.

6. what’s the first line?

“Frélik was not the first of his kind to be born. Far from it, though it was not as if there were many others alive at the moment.”

7. what’s a dialogue you’re particularly proud of?

i didn’t look very far but:

““I doubt you’d want me to give you the perfect summary,” she says, dryly. “There’s always some truth to rumours and old folk tales, didn’t you learn? Every—you know, anyone that is born there, they aren’t evaluated. They’re only expected to be perfect; the ideal of purity and kindness and all of those happy traits.”

“You weren’t,” he guesses.

“I wasn’t,” she agrees.”

8. which line from the novel represents it the most?

these are all so hard to answer

““I like living,” Amara mutters, but no one responds to her comment.” i was debating between this one and a different line, but that one was more spoilery, so i left it.

9. who are your character faceclaims?

i’ve really only chosen four, but one of the four i can’t find the name of the person, so have at what’s left:

rylee - chiharu okunugi

myrau - darya dogusheva

frelik - mahesh jadu

10. sort your characters into hogwart houses:

ooh i really like this one. these are all off the top of my head, but i’ll do it by group:

gryffindor: tyren, myrau, yara, vare

hufflepuff: rylee, mira, frelik, carena, ter

ravenclaw: ben, arcas

slytherin: riya, amara

11. which character’s name do you love the most?

riya. it’s really cute. (she’s also, like, my fav character out of all of them, so there’s that too.)

12. describe each character’s outfit.

can i skip this one? i’m skipping this one. (most of them are deities, so they’re like blobs of mist.)

13. do any of the characters have distinct birthmarks/scars?

i’ve never really put much thought into the characters’ appearances, so... i don’t know! rylee definitely has scars, as does yara... really, most of the mortal ones. there’s a lot of fighting, so i’d imagine it would be hard to avoid that, much less from general clumsiness. for the deities, i’d go with myrau, if she chooses to keep them around. i think she would hide them for a while, before accepting them.

14. which character most fits a character trope?

i’m not very knowledgeable about character tropes, admittedly. i will say myrau has a little bit of a ‘found family’ thing going on with amara and vare, though.

15. which character would be the best writer? worst?

tyren definitely was a great writer. maril--one of the “city elders”--would be a good writer too. the worst... would be rylee. wow, i really don’t seem to think very highly of my main character asdl;fkj

16. which character is the best liar? worst?

carena is hands down the best liar. yara and myrau might tie for second. i’d say frelik is the worst. sorry, bud.

17. which character swears the most? least?

i actually didn’t write any swears into it, so this is interesting to think about. i think ter probably swears the most; he’s a very passionate guy. a little too much, to be honest. mira seems to be the kind of person who tries to avoid swearing as much as possible.

18. which character has the best handwriting? worst?

tyren has terrible handwriting. bet. i think ben--a very obnoxious deity--would never have learned to write though, so maybe him. on the other hand, arcas probably has very neat handwriting.

19. which character is most like you? least like you?

hmm. i think the way rylee perceives things and comes to decisions is very much like me. amara is very forthright and self-confident, which i personally don’t see in myself. all in all, though, i imagine i share a lot of similarities with most of my characters.

20. which character would you most like to be?

i admire riya a lot. she has a good grip on her emotions and pretty rational when making difficult decisions, but cares a lot for those close to her. she’s also pretty independent and self-assured.

#the odes #tag meme #i think ive been tagging these all wrong #so from now on it'll be #tag game #rylee arnsvelt

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art-critics98 · 5 years

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Deutsch:

Hier ist etwas das ich nicht verstehe.

Von all den Malereien die Van Gogh gemalt hat wieso ausgerechnet diese Sonnenblumen so berühmt geworden sind.

Sie werden im Unterricht in der Schule behandelt, nicht nur im Kunstunterricht… ich meine es sind Sonnenblumen! Klar Van Gogh hatte Talent.

Seine Pinselstriche, sein still seine Farbwahrnehmung und Wahl, einfach einzigartig.

Aber es sind doch „nur“ halbvertrocknete Blumen.

Ich meine denkt man an das „Nachtcafé“ oder an „Starry Night“…in diesen Gemälden ist es als würde man in ein anderes Univers/ in eine andere Galaxie gebracht/teleportiert werden in dem eine Ruhe und Stummheit herrscht doch keine leere.

In der „Starry Night“ in welchem nur knapp ein kleines Dorf zu sehen ist mit einem hohen, auffälligem Kirchenturm und weiten Feldern zieht der Nachthimmel den Blick auf sich/ steht der Nachthimmel im Mittelpunkt.

Es geht vielleicht um die Schönheit des Himmels den wir viel zu selten appreciaten. Jede Nacht ist er von der Erde aus zu sehen und nur viel zu selten sehen wir auf und sehen ihn uns an. Keine Nacht sieht er gleich aus und wir nehmen uns nie die Zeit ihn uns anzusehen und einfach in seinen Schein zu baden und kurz durchzuatmen.

Wir leben in dieser Welt in der alles einfach viel zu schnell läuft. Wir kommen selber nicht hinterher. Ständig will jemand oder etwas etwas von uns. Ob es das neuste IPhone ist oder eine neue Kampagne die unsere Meinung hören will. Jemand will immer etwas. Wir alle leben in Wirklichkeit schon im morgen. Wir leben nicht wirklich im jetzt und hier. Nein wir denken schon an den nächsten Tag, die nächste Woche, sogar ans nächste Jahr.

Und dabei vergessen wir uns um unselbstständig zu kümmern. Mal innezuhalten und in uns hineinzuhorchen und zu tun was wir wollen, was unser Organismus braucht. Er ist nicht dafür gemacht in der Zukunft zu leben. Er kann nur im jetzt leben. Er braucht Zeit um hinterher zukommen. Und das wird in „Starry Night“ gut dargestellt, finde ich.

Im Gegensatz zur „Starry Night“ von 1889 sind im „Nachtcafé“ von 1888 Menschen und ein kleines Viertel zu sehen die unter einen Sternenhimmel ihr Leben mit ihren liebsten genießen. Sie sehen aus als hätten sie no care in the world. Als wäre ihr Leben für diesen einen Moment, perfekt! Wie in einer kleinen Blase in der sie von der restlichen Welt abgeschottet sind.

Und ganz sie selbst sein können. Und geht es uns nicht allen so? Wünschten wir nicht all, dass wir uns in ein anderes univers zurückziehen könnten und dort ganz wir selbst sein könnten. Ich weiß nicht wie es bei euch ist aber wenn ich erst ein Stück Blatt und einen Stift in der Hand hab zusammen mit meiner Musik habe ich auf jeden Fall das Gefühl in einer anderen Welt zu sitzen wo mich nichts und niemand was tun kann und ich ganz ich selbst sein kann.

Aber genug von mir, zurück zu Van Goghs „Sonnenblumen“, natürlich kann es auch sein, dass die Sonnenblumen in Wirklichkeit für den Lebenslauf steht. Wie das Leben verläuft egal wer man ist oder was man in seinem Leben erreicht oder auch nicht hat. Das Leben fängt mit der Geburt an genau so wie das erblühen einer Sonnenblume und genau wie eine Sonnenblume verwelken auch wir irgendwann. Manche früher und manche später je nachdem wie man sich um seine geliebten gekümmert hat oder auch nicht. Aber genau werden wir das sowieso nie wissen, wir können uns alle nur unsere eigenen Gedanken machen und Meinungen bilden.

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See here is something I do not understand.

Of all the paintings that Van Gogh painted, why is it that those sunflowers have become so famous.

They are topic in school, and not just in art classes ... I mean, they're sunflowers! It’s clear to see that Van Gogh had talent.

His brushstrokes, his color perception and choice, are simply unique.

But they are "only" half-dried flowers.

I mean think of the "night cafe" or "Starry Night", in these paintings it is like being transported / teleported to another universe or another galaxy, where there is a silence and muteness that does not feel empty.

In the "Starry Night" in which only a small village can be seen with a tall, striking church tower and wide fields, the night sky is the eye catcher. It may be the beauty of the sky that we appreciate too rarely. Every night the night sky can be seen from the earth and only too rarely do we look up and look at it. No night looks the same and we never take the time to look at it and just bathe in it’s beauty and remember to take a break. We live in this world where everything just goes way too fast. We do not look after ourselves. Constantly someone wants something from us. Whether it's the newest iPhone that we must buy or a new campaign that wants to hear our opinion. Somebody always wants something. In reality, we are all livning in the next day. We do not really live here and now. No, we are already thinking about the next day, the next week, even next year.

And we forget to take care of ourselves. Stop and listen! Do what you want, what our organism needs. Our organism is not made for living in the future. It’s made for living in the now. Our organism needs time to be able at keeping up with our new lifestyles. And that is well illustrated in the “Starry Night", I think.

In contrast to the "Starry Night" of 1889, the "Night Café" from 1888 shows people and a small neighborhood enjoying their lives with their loved ones under another starry sky. They look like they have no care in the world. Like their life for now, in that moment was perfect! Like in a small bubble in which they are isolated from the rest of the world and they can for once be themselves. And don’t we all feel that way sometimes? Do we not all wish that we could retreat to another univers and be ourselves there. I don’t know about you, but once I have a piece of paper and a pen in my hand along with my music, I definitely feel like I am in another world, where nothing and nobody can harm me and I can do and be myself.

But enough of me, back to Van Gogh's "Sunflowers", of course, it may also be that the sunflowers in reality stand for the circle of life ( anyone else thinking of lion king?). As life goes on, no matter who you are or what you have achieved in your life life begins with the birth. As well as sunflower who will always blossoming and just like a sunflower we eventually wither and die. Some earlier and some later. Never mind how you cared for your loved ones. Where you giving them enough love and water? Yes? No? It does not matter. Because eventually we will all leave this earth. But if that is in fact what Vincent Van Gogh wanted to express with his paintings we will never know anyway, (and i think that is good so) so all we can do is to just form our own opinions.

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Se her er noget, jeg ikke forstår.

Af alle de malerier, som Van Gogh malede, hvorfor er lige disse solsikker blevet så berømte.

De behandles i klasser i skoler, og jeg mener ikke kun i kunstklasserne ... Jeg mener, de er solsikker! Klar Van Gogh havde talent.

Hans penselstrøg, hans farveopfattelse og valg er simpelthen unikke.

Men de er "kun" udtørrede blomster.

Jeg mener, tænk på "night cafe" eller "Starry Night". I disse malerier er det som at blive transporteret / teleporteret til et andet univers / en anden galakse, hvor der er tavshed og stilhed, men uden at det føles som tomrum.

I "Starry Night", hvor kun en lille landsby kan ses med et højt slående kirketårn og brede lange marker, tiltrækker nattehimlen fokussen. Det er skønhed i himlen, som vi alt for sjældent sætter pris på. Hver aften kan man se himlen fra gaderne, og kun sjældent ser vi op og ser på den. Ingen aften er som den næste og alligevel tag’ vi os ikke tiden til at se på den. Bare for at bade i dens skønhed og for at tage en dyb indånding.

Vi lever i denne verden, hvor alt går alt for hurtigt. Vi kan slet ikke holde med det tempo vores liv køer på. Konstant ønsker nogen noget af os. Uanset om det er den nyeste iPhone vi skal købe eller det bare er en ny kampagne, der ønsker at høre vores mening. Nogen vil altid have noget. Og i virkeligheden lever vi alle i næste dag. Vi lever ikke rigtig i her og nu. Nej, vi tænker allerede næste dag, næste uge, selv næste år. Og vi glemmer at tage vare på os selv. Stop og lyt! Gør hvad du vil, hvad din organisme har brug for. Vores organisme er ikke skabt til at leve i fremtiden. Den leve kun i nutiden. Den har brug for tid til at komme med. Og jeg synes det er godt illustreret i "Starry Night".

I modsætning til "Starry Night" fra 1889 viser "Night Café" fra 1888 et lille kvarter med mennesker der nyder deres liv med deres kære under en stjerneklar himmel. De ser ud som om de ikke har en bekymring i verden. Som om deres liv for det ene øjeblik var perfekt! Ligesom i en lille boble, hvor de er isoleret fra resten af verden. Og de kan være dem selv. Og vil vi ikke alle sammen lige præsis det? Ønsker vi ikke alle, at vi kunne trække os tilbage til et andet univers hvor vi kan være os selv?

Jeg ved ikke om dig, men når jeg har et stykke papir, en blyant og noget godt musik, føler jeg mig bestemt som om jeg sidder i en anden verden, hvor intet og ingen kan røre mig, og jeg kan være mig selv. Men hvad angår Van Goghs "Solsikker", kan det naturligvis også være, at solsikkerne faktisk står for lives cirkle. (Ellers nogen der tænker på Løvernes konge?)

Livet, uanset hvem du er eller hvad du har opnået i dit liv begynder med fødslen ligesom blomstringen af en solsikke og ligesom en solsikke vil også vi til sidst dø. Nogle tidligere og nogle senere. Uafhængigt af hvordan du plejet din elskede. Gav du dem nok kærlighed og “Van”? Ja? Nej? Men det er også ligegyldig. For vi allesammen kommer til at forlade denne jord på et eller andet tidspunkt. Men om det er hvad Vincent Van Gogh ville udtrykke med sine malerier vil vi alligevel aldrig finde ud af (og jeg tror det er også godt sådan). Så det eneste vi kan gøre er at vi kan alle tænke vires tanker og danne vores egen meninger.

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mental-health-advice · 6 years

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Submission about girlfriend leaving

I hope this will not be as long as I thought it would be.

Its been 1 year and 5 months since my girlfriend left me. My life has been upside down since then.

Everyday I dream about her and everyday I think about her, this even made it impossible for me to begin a new relationship. I have only eaten one meal a day and my doctor got mad at me for not taking vare of myself. I tried to commit suicide 4 times this years which only made things worse. Two of them I was already in the hospital, since im in the middle of a treatment against lung cancer.

I had a serious argument with my family last couole months and had to leave home. Ive been living in a small apartment since then, which has not been healthy for me with no one around.

My will to live has been droping more and more each day and now that im all alone in this apartment, ive been thinking there would be no one to bother during my department. Im sorry but I had to get this thougthts aroubd somewhere.

I dont really know what else to do. I wish I could give more details but im frantic and my english is horrible.

Hi friend,

Thank you so much for feeling able to reach out to us here at MHA! I’m sorry that your relationship ended and that you have been struggling with some negative emotions since then. I hope I’ll be able to give you some ideas about some things to try and help yourself feel a little more positive.

I do just need to say though, that if you find yourself considering suicide and you are reaching a crisis point, please reach out for some help. You can call your local emergency services for immediate help. You can also try helplines and web counsellor who will be able to support you through that point of crisis and hopefully encourage you to keep yourself safe.

Suicidal thoughts are really serious and very hard to cope with on your own. Have you had any professional help for how you are feeling? Even if you are not suicidal, but still experiencing this negativity I really recommend going and talking to a professional like a GP or counsellor. They will be able to help you explore and understand your feelings. You may be offered medication, inpatient treatment, talking therapies, and many other options; it is about working with the professional and finding which treatment will work best for you in your current state. Talking therapy may be a really good place for you to start as a therapist will be able to help you understand your suicidal and negative thoughts and what is triggering them; further to this, they will hopefully be able to give you some great coping techniques Here is our page about getting help which might be useful in answering some concerns you have about talking to a professional!

Getting over someone and a past relationship is a tough process and one that is completely different for everyone, so I can’t tell you a hard and fast rule for how to deal with it. Something I do suggest though is cutting all ways you have of contacting her, so deleting her number, blocking her on social media, etc. This is to prevent you from thinking about reaching out again and hurting yourself that way. You could also maybe try and think about the reasons why your relationship wasn’t good for you, or even try writing her a letter in which you talk about all of the things you have wanted to say to her, the good and the bad - then instead of actually sending it, destroy it, burn it, rip it up, throw it away, whatever - that way you can get some kind of closure by saying all the things, but when getting rid of it, you can mourn the loss of the relationship and that person in your life. Hopefully this will make the loss a little easier for you!

I know it can sound a little silly but many of us forget to give ourselves credit for the little things we do each day, and it can be really beneficial to take the time to acknowledge them when we are trying to improve happiness. So perhaps, you could just start with one or two little things to achieve each day, such as washing your dishes and going for a 10 minute stroll somewhere. Another little thing you can try is getting your friends and family to help you to write a list of all the reasons that they love you and that you are a good person; keep the list, make it pretty, and look at it everyday to remind yourself that you have so much worth and goodness in you! It is also important to keep doing all of the things that you know used to, or still do, bring you enjoyment, and try and do them more if you can! Painting? Music? Writing? To start with we just need to find that one thing that makes you want to keep going and get up every morning.

I am linking this page by Psychcentral as it has some really good tips and advice on overcoming loneliness. Even something really simple like reaching out to people you know first by commenting on a Facebook status, or sending them a short message saying hi and asking what they’re up to - initiating conversation can really help you to feel more involved in a group or friendship. I also think it’s really important that you take some time alone to look after yourself and relax - so having a bubble bath, reading your favourite book, painting your nails, whatever activities you enjoy doing that make you feel more at peace and comforted. Being alone doesn’t always have to be a bad thing, and I honestly think it’s so important to try and keep reminding yourself of that.

Is meeting new people and making friends something that you want to do? Something I would suggest is to look online, like on Tumblr, for a community which share a passion with you - for example, there are a lot of band and anime communities on Tumblr I know about. But I’m sure you would be able to find at least one person whom with you share a common interest, no matter how niche it is, and then you can chat with them about that? Also, have you considered joining any local groups or volunteer programmes near you? This would mean you got out of the house and socialised with others in your local area which can be a great way to start making new friends which I think will be particularly important for you when your current friends leave for college.

I also want to say that we are always here for you, and happy to talk to you about anything that will support you in feeling even a little better; I hope knowing that makes you feel slightly less alone. I hope this has reassured you a little, lovely, and that going forward you are able to find happiness. Please feel free to get in touch with us again if there is anything else that we can help you with!

Please take care,

Rhiann xo

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gabby27scott-blog · 6 years

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FIELDWORK ASSIGNMENT CHAPTER 3 “MAPPING A BLOCK”

The location I have selected to map is the gymnastics room inside of Vare recreation center. Vare recreation center is in South Philadelphia. At Vare recreation center they have a gymnastics program where they train gymnast to compete in different types of gymnastics competitions. I chose this particular place simply because I used to be a gymnast myself. I used to train in this very gym for over 10 years. My senior year I decided to take a break so that I could really focus on my school work and prepare for college. This weekend I went home and decide to observer what I left behind. After spending a couple hours in this room, I had noticed a couple of infrastructures with the conditions of the equipment and the building. The ceiling has multiple cracks in it, the hooks that are helping keep the bars stable are beginning to lift, and that the springboard for the vault is very stiff. Looking at all that I realized that they need to upgrade their facilities. I also noticed the peaceful atmosphere, with all the instrumental music playing for the floor routines. The environment was friendly with the coaches, gymnast and their family all getting along. Another thing that I also noticed is the fumes in the air, it smelled like sweat and feet. There is one thing I believe I missed though which is the gymnast will to do what they are doing. I did not have a chance to ask them why they decided to do gymnastics. Some of the gymnast worked like they really wanted to be there, and others did not. The next day I went back and noticed that there were very few gymnasts there on the Saturday. This is because the coaches split the competition levels up so that they could work with each level closely in order to make any changes or improvements that are necessary. During the week there are very many gymnasts in the room, for they have class back to back. No matter what time you go during the week it is always a lot of gymnasts in sight. This observation really opened my eyes to the things that I have not realized a couple years ago and just my observations skills in general.

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aruneshgoyal · 4 years

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(I) Empty Vessel

Shri Siddheshwar Baba was quite a renowned saint in the remote Bhigaan hamlet, off Sonepat town. He was said and widely believed to be a personal devotee of Sai Baba (of Shirdi & Puttaparthi) and had authored many a book on yoga, meditation, and psychoanalysis, especially psycho-analytical meditation. Unlike many other seers and peers, he was well educated and learned too having a Ph.D. degree along with an M.A. in Pol. Sc.

As I was passing through a very trying time, I decided to pay him a visit and offer my humble respect at his feet. I was neither enjoying my job as per the M.C.A. grade nor had I been successful at the Civil Services Mains (twice). Apparently, my father had been his hostel mate during their college days and I found no harm in taking him along with me. My father had already told me that ‘Guruji’ (as everybody known to Siddheshwarji used to address him now!) knew about my disinterest in the M.C.A. curriculum and the apparent poor showing at the IAS Mains, which in fact, according to him, was not poor but exemplary considering the fact that I had given up my own desires at the altar of my father’s wishes.

My first experience with Guruji was just unforgettable. A joint chanting of the Gayatri mantra – “OM BHUR BHUVAH SVAHA TATSAVITO VARE NIYAM BHARGO DEVASYA DHEEMAHE DHIYO YO NA PRACHO DAYAT,” was going on and echoing in his room and even though I forgot to take my shoes off, he didn’t take any offence but called out to me lovingly – “Arunesh! I’ve been waiting for you ever since ‘GuruPoornima’ two years back. I know all about you – your academic and other brilliance, failure to come to terms with the M.C.A. rigmarole, and two unsuccessful but keen, honest, and clean attempts at the IAS. You need not worry. I know you mean well of all and time will take care!”

The words were so comforting and soothing. I replied warmly – “Guruji! My bowl is ever empty! Whatever I put in my vessel turns upside down, leaving me with just nothing at all!” “Fill your empty vessel with Rama’s NAME and the mantra – ‘OM NAMAH SHIVAYA,’ and one day you will be blessed with the divine vision of Shri Krishna himself playing enthralling music on his majestic flute!” – replied Guruji even more warmly.

From that day onwards, I got the idea straight up my sleeve. Instead of running after ‘Maya’ (materialistic world etc.), why not run after the governor and the one who bestows ‘Maya,’ in other words – the “Maya Pati,” of whom all the materialistic wealth of the world, including just not money and finances but riches like fame, name, respect, peace, prosperity etc. are just all humble slaves who run around and do their bounden duty at the simple twitch/sway of his fingertips.

Further, deep meditation brought me alive and face to face with the fact that one can’t serve two masters at a time. Either you choose Shiva or choose Shakti. That is to say, either you serve Rama or you serve your materialistic desires! In the latter case, you may get your materialistic wishes fulfilled but only up to a point. As soon as the collected fruits of your good deeds from present/past lives are over, you stand to lose your control over the desires rooted in the world or Shakti, which is the dynamic aspect of the cosmos and runs under the direct control/will of Shiva, the static aspect of this entire cosmos. In the former case, however, you become One with Shiva by merging into Him and thus, Shakti now becomes your obedient servant too; you are never at the risk of losing your control unless and until you do something, which makes you fall from your pristine position and glory of Shiva hood.

Well, my empty vessel had indeed been blessed and was overflowing with abundant warmth, grace, and joy! What more can anybody ask for? Instead of running after and getting mere tinsels in the process, I was now running after my Inner Voice – the soulful sound, and was finding myself ever more stable, peaceful, and contented rather than being in a state of lack of self esteem, self-respect, vigor, energy, and good vibrations. I was indeed the chosen One, the blessed child of the Almighty omniscient Lord!

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zakiyainteractivityjournal · 4 years

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Working with code

Having not worked with code in a while I quickly realized that I'm a bit rusty, the code is quite complex and I have not worked with computer vision before. I have encountered computer vison before of course in more ways than one, spanning from snap chat filters to face recognition for opening my phone. In trying to understand computer vision better I tried to understand the different ways it works in a broad sense. My initial thought is that computer vision is either adding something to the picture or analyzing the data for verification or both. Adding - This is the case of the Snapchat filters or most of the examples we were presented with, there is, of course, analyzing of the data I think the example that measures data points on the face and then estimates what fealing that is being showcased is similar to the way Snapchat uses data points for making their filters work. I think that a layer is added on top of the stream with markers that correspond to the markers of the layer making it possible to show the mask moving correspondingly to the face of the viewer, there is most definitely more advanced things going on but that's the simplified version to make it more understandable for myself.

Analyzing for verification - This is the usage of data streams in security and looking for certain things to appear but instead of layering it over it tells the program that things are present. This is shown in one example that tells what type of things are in the frame (albeit not correctly in the case of the sketch we are working with). For me, an example of that was when I sold my soul (think conspiracy theories) and started using face recognition to open my phone one big worry was that anyone could just place my phone in front of my face when I was sleeping and gain access to my super-secret Google searches. So one of the first things I did was to try this out and lo and behold the developers had thought about that too. I'm guessing that some of the verification points are connected to the eye being open, maybe the width of the iris or something similar. There have been mishaps with this type of security, I vaguely remember some company whos face recognition were not adjusted for people of different nationalities, making it so that their data points were to unspecific and that made them not personalized making for really shitty security. So this is the other way I think of computer vision as a way to find things and identify them.

When starting out tinkering with the code I started looking at the diff code, it works by measuring difference in the pixels from one frame to another. Making it possible to map out movement. When an object has been moved it leaves a disturbance in the picture in the form of colored pixels. By changing the raduíus its effects and the timing of it I was able to make it vare aesthetically pleasing, I wanted to take only the shimmering pixels and to put them on a black background giving the person a possibility to create a dynamic picture. This, however, did not happen. After numerous attempts and only ending up with broken code, we had to re-evaluate if we had a reason behind doing it more then creating something beautiful. The answer was no so we moved on, after the first coaching it became clear that we needed to find a way to incorporate both the topic and the material.

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