#but i just. can't. focus. :<

[crabsnpersimmons]

I got my hair cut the other day and of course I had to draw the dca boys running a hair salon:

Sun would be so effortlessly charming. Always chatting away with customers, explaining each product he uses and how to best maintain and style their hair.

Moon I can see being popular with the less chattier customers (like me) but over time they begin to open up. I imagine he hums while working. Otherwise, he's all ears for the newest gossip.

(The clipped up hat idea came from @bamsara's solar lunacy doodles!)

Also I love the popular headcanon that the dca can speak other languages, so I can imagine them being a hit with the aunties.

The full sketch page under cut! And some of my other thoughts

Other thoughts about this... AU? Can I call it an AU? Feels kinda small for an AU, but whatever:

Eclipse works there too! Haven't decided if it would be canon or fanon Eclipse, though I really like the image of 4-armed Eclipse working on 2 clients at once (plus, the nickname Clip is perfect for this scenario)

of course they're great with kids! They'd be able to console kids that get scared of getting their hair cut. Sun would do a little trick and tell them how good and brave they are all the way through. Moon would console them and hum a soothing song (or hey maybe they notice the kid's wearing a disney shirt and starts humming some showtunes). Every kid gets a candydrop and a balloon on their way out.

y/n works at the hair salon as a part-timer and does tasks around the salon like sweeping, arranging bookings, washing hair, etc. They don't really care too much about their own hair, but the boys are always offering to style it, dye it, braid it. With y/n's permission, the boys always toy with their hair—patting it, combing their hands through it, brushing it over y/n's ear, ruffling it.

#fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf dca #dca fandom #this idea has been running rampant in my brain while I've been trying to focus on my modules these past few days #I can't take any credit for their outfits tho these were literally just what the hairdressers at my local salon we wearing that day #this all started because my hairdresser was wearing a delightfully yellow sweater #and just ohmygosh hairdresser sunny popped into my mind #this was also an experimentation with colouring with markers #need more colouring practice especially with shading #also learned the hard way that none of my fineliners are waterproof #or at least they don't play well with my markers! they seem to work with my watercolour paints just fine #sighhhhhh #crab art #New Do Same You AU

[knifearo]

this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things. #people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time. #but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized. #sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement. #this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex. #and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things #especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love. #our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!! #it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild.... #anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that. #silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff. #love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another #same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take #anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that. #kiss kiss (<— lovelessly) #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #talking #aroace #aspec #sex positivity

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe... #...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him... #...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed... #...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that... #...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

[lonicera-edulis]

The idea was supposed to be for a photoset type of post, but it doesn't exist anymore, so I had to make one gif.

#I actually tried to animate it year ago and fixed it today #it is also too silly #I don't know #not my playlist starting playing a one hour song vid #while I was finishing it #like I am not insane enough #this song also was in hobbit ytp and it was the funniest part #animation is hell for someone who can't draw characters in same style #oh no that song video is 10 hours long #making animations is also difficult when your brain feels like a scrambled egg #you just can't focus

[heybiji]

dande's dying btw

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd art #dnd character #dnd oc #dandelion treehollow #more specifically he's ROTTING #don't get punched by a mummy yall #ok but narratively dande rotting to death is very satisfying to me what with his arcane focus being a rotten tooth he wears as a necklace #but also #DANDE'S DYING #it's okay they just gotta find someone who can remove the curse... #down in these caves................... #dandelion is dying. #very funny considering the night before when the paladin was trying to get him to find jesus dande was like #nah i'm good i aint gonna be dying again any time soon #hahahahahahaha #anyways he's FURIOUS ABOUT IT #ravelers #dande is DYING #i do love dande reacting with pure rage when his mind is overwhelmed with the thought of dying #it's fun to play in contrast to his typical demeanor #dande is dying #send your thoughts and prayers #also he's stuck at 10 hp and can't be healed!! #THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS

[lord-squiggletits]

I think the key component to my personal reading of post-Delphi Pharma is that he's trying to be a horrible person on purpose. Not "on purpose" in the way that people have free will to exercise their own choices, but in that Pharma's "mad doctor" persona is a performance he puts on to deliberately embrace how much everyone else hates him. Basically, if people already think you're a "bad Autobot" and a horrible doctor who just kills his patients for fun, why try to prove otherwise to people who have already made up their minds about you? Just fully embrace the fact that people see you as an asshole. Don't try to change their minds. Don't plead for their forgiveness or understanding. Just stop caring. If you're going to be remembered as a monster, you might as well be a memorable monster, and eke as much pleasure and hedonism as you can out of it before karma catches up to you and you inevitably crash and burn.

I mean, I guess you could just go the route of "Oh, Pharma was always a fucked up creepy guy and Delphi was just him taking the mask off," but I really don't like that interpretation because, for one, it feels really wrong to take a character like Pharma becoming evil under duress and going, "Oh well clearly he did the things he did because he was evil all along," as if somehow Pharma breaking under blackmail/torture/threat of horrible death was a sign of him having poor moral character. As opposed to, you know, suffering under the very real threat of horrible death for himself and everyone he cares about while being manipulated by a guy who specializes in psychological torture.

The second reason is that it just doesn't make sense to write Pharma as having been evil all along. I mean...

Occam's Razor says that the best argument is the one with the simplest explanation. Doesn't it make way more sense to take Pharma's appearances in flashbacks, his friendship with Ratchet, his stunning medical accomplishments, and the few we see of him speaking kindly/sympathetically (or in the least charitable interpretation, at least professionally) towards his patients and conclude "This guy was just a normal person, if exceptionally talented." Taking all of these flashback appearances at face value and assuming Pharma was being genuine/honest is a way simpler and more logical explanation than trying to argue that Pharma for the past 4 million years was just faking being a good doctor/person. I mean, it's possible within the realm of headcanon, but the fact is Pharma's appearances in the story are so brief that there simply wasn't room in the story for there to be some sort of secret conspiracy/hidden manipulation behind why Pharma acted the way he did in the past.

I just can't help but look at things like Pharma's friendship with Ratchet (himself a good person and usually a fine judge of character) and the fact that even post-Delphi, pretty much every single mention of Pharma comes with some mention of "He was a good doctor for most of his life" or "He was making major headways in research [before he started killing patients]" which implies that even the Autobots themselves see Pharma's villainy as a recent turn in his life compared to how for "most of his life" he "used to be" a good doctor.

And although Pharma doesn't know this, we as the readers (and even other characters like Rung) know about Aequitas technology and the fact that it actually works, so... if Pharma really was an unrepentant murderer, why couldn't he get through the forcefield too? The Aequitas forcefield doesn't require that a person be completely morally pure and free of wrongdoing or else how could Tyrest get through, just that they feel a sense of inner peace and lack feelings of guilt. Pharma has murdered and tortured people by this point, and put on quite a campy and theatrical show of how much he sees it as a fun game, so why then can he not get through?

It circles back to my headcanon at the start of this post that the "mad doctor" persona is just that-- a persona. Delphi/post-Delphi Pharma's laughing madman personality is just so far removed from every flashback we saw of him and everything we can infer based on how other people see/saw him before that, to me, the mad doctor act is (at least in large part, if not fully) a persona that Pharma puts on to put his villainy in the forefront.

To avoid an overly simplistic/ableist take, I don't think Tarn tortured Pharma into turning crazy. To me, it's more like the constant pressure of death by horrific torture, the feeling of martyrdom as Pharma kept secret that he was the only one standing between Delphi and annihilation, the physical isolation of Messatine as well as the emotional separation from Ratchet, being forced to violate his medical oaths (pretty much the only thing Pharma's entire life has been about), etc. All of that combined traumatized Pharma to the point that the only way he could avoid cracking was to just stop caring about all of it. Because at least then, even if he's still murdering patients to save Delphi from a group of sadistic freaks, Pharma doesn't have to feel guilty and sick about doing it. As opposed to the alternatives, which were probably either going off the deep end and killing himself to escape, or confessing to what he did and getting jailed for it.

In that light, Pharma becoming a mad doctor makes sense. It avoids the bad writing tropes of "oh this character who was good his entire life was actually just evil and really good at hiding it" as well as "oh he got tortured and went crazy that's why he's so random and silly and killing people, he's crazy" and instead frames Pharma's evil as something he was forced into, to the point where in order to avoid a full psychological breakdown and keep defending Delphi, he just had to stop caring about the sanctity of life or about what other people might think of him.

Then, of course, the actual Delphi episode happens, and Pharma's own lifelong best friend Ratchet basically spits in his face and sees him as nothing more than a crazy murderer who went rogue from being a good Autobot. Then Pharma gets his hands cut off and left to die on Messatine. At that point, Pharma has not only been mentally/emotionally broken into losing his feelings of compassion, he's received the message loud and clear: He is alone. Everyone hates him. Not even his own best friend likes him any more. No one even cared enough about him to check if he actually died or not. He will only ever be remembered as a doctor who went insane and killed his patients.

So in the light of 1. Having all of your redeeming qualities be squeezed out of you one by one for the sake of survival and 2. Having your reputation and all of your positive relationships be destroyed and 3. People only know/care about you as "that doctor who became evil and killed his patients" rather than the millions of years of good service that came before.

What else is there to do but internalize the fact that you'll forever be seen as a monster and a freak, and embrace it? People already see you as a murderer for that blackmail deal you did, so why not become an actual murderer and just start killing people on a whim? People already see you as an irredeemable monster who puts a stain on the Autobot name, so why beg for their forgiveness when you could just shun them back? You've already become a murderer, a traitor, and a horrible doctor, so what's a few more evil acts added to the pile? It's not like anyone will ever forgive you or love you ever again.

Why care? Why try to hold on to your principles of compassion, kindness, medical ethics, when an entire lifetime of being a good person did nothing to save you from blackmail and then abandonment? Why put yourself through the emotional agony of feeling lonely, guilty, miserable, when you could just... stop caring, and not hurt any more?

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i'm sure the doylist reason for the writing is just that pharma was a designated villain #so since he's a villain and 'crazy' it's fine for everyone even the good guys to treat him like complete trash #i just think from a watsonian perspective taking a sympathetic approach is way more interesting and logically consistent #what i mean is like. from a meta perspective one of the best ways to show that a character is super evil and not worth saving #is when even the good guy heroes. the ones who are supposed to be kind and compassionate and wise. see him as dirt #and this is also kind of a necessity in most plots bc TF is the kind of series that just needs action villains and long-term antagonists #so not every villain is written or has a plot to be made redeemable. and pharma is one of these bc he's not important or a legacy character #so from a doylist (meta) perspective you could read the autobots' disregard of pharma as a sign of #'this guy is not meant to have your sympathy as a reader. pay no attention to him' #but from a watsonian (in universe) perspective it paints a miserable picture of pharma being utterly forsaken by the ppl he served alongsid #and like yeah i'm super autistic about pharma so of course i view him with sympathy but like #the idea of being a loyal and good person for years only to be subjected to a Torment Nexus of #being blackmailed into breaking all of the oaths you held sacred. under threat of you and all your comrades dying horrible torturous deaths #then when your comrades find out about it they focus solely on the 'harvesting organs' and not on the 'blackmail' part #and then you get literally left for dead by your comrades and best friend hating your guts #and then you get rescued by a guy who uses you as a test subject for his evil machine #this is a fucking nightmare scenario like pharma could hardly be suffering more if the author TRIED to make him suffer #and for me it's like. the evil pharma did can't be decontextualized to what drove him to that. as well as the question of like #how easily ppl can write someone off as evil and turn a blind eye to (or even find satisfaction in) their suffering bc theyre evil #and either brought it on themselves or it's just karma paying a visit #like. i feel like if pharma WERE a shitty doctor and a terrible person his whole life then the delphi situation would feel like karma #but the way it's written and the lore retroactively put in makes it feel more pharma getting thrown in a torture carousel #and THEN becoming evil. but then being treated as if he was always evil or was some sort of bad apple #bc like i'm not opposed to LOLing when a villain gets a karmic torture/death related to the wrongs they committed #but in pharma's case it feels less like karma and more like endless torture + being abandoned by ppl who should have been more loyal

[aerithisms]

i understand what people are saying when they talk about fandom overstating the importance of farcille to the dunmeshi narrative and that their frustrations are related to a larger frustration with fandom in general prioritising shipping over other relationships/narrative themes. HOWEVER i do find it a little suspect and annoying that the one time the Big Tumblr Thing Of The Month has a popular f/f ship that the fandom is over-extrapolating from in the same way that fandom usually over-extrapolates m/m relationships i'm suddenly seeing all these posts complaining about it

#blahs #dungeon meshi #like i get it i too wish people didn't laser focus on ships so much and i have complained about this very thing a lot before #but to a certain extent it's a losing battle to complain about shipping on the shipping website #fandom is as fandom does! and fandom usually does not do this for f/f unless it's a specifically sapphic fandom #i can't even get the hotd fandom to rally around rhaenicent which actually IS the whole point of that story lmao #so idk seeing a more general audience fandom like dunmeshi rally around f/f for once is kind of novel and fun to me #and it's not like people are wholesale making up that farcille is important. it IS central to the themes of the story #they're just exaggerating a little. as a treat. i still see a gazillion posts about the boys i think people are interpreting the story fine

[stargirl230]

Happy lunar new year! 🐉

Couldn't make it home this year but i'm still determined to have a good time :')

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

#my art #artists on tumblr #original art #art #lunar new year #lny #chinese new year #year of the dragon #illustration #omg guys first original piece in like 2 years #i'm healed from AP art burnout it's a lunar new year miracle #AND I FINISHED IT ON TIME (rare occurence) #shotgunned this painting in a day so it's messy but i'm trying to focus less on making everything perfect #i'm still learning procreate and i just discovered the bloom feature if you can't tell from all the glowy stuff lol #also just realized this lowkey looks like i'm setting the wall on fire but i swear that's not the intention!! #i'm a law abiding citizen no arson here

[chemblrish]

11 March 2024

I was surprised that my solutions didn't crystallize over the past week to which my thesis supervisor said lightheartedly that it's normal and that he once waited for something to crystallize for THREE YEARS. I hope my solutions know I need to graduate some day.

#unrelated but i have this TERRIBLE habit of talking to myself while working in lab #i can't help it #thinking aloud helps me focus on what im doing #but today some of my precipitate stuck to the bottom of the beaker #and i just could not fricking scrape it #and i said 'you f electron piece of shit' OUT LOUD #and i have nothing to say in my own defense #(at least i was alone in the lab 😶) #mine #studyblr #chemblr #studyspo #study motivation #chemistry #thesis tag

[divorcedfiddleford]

@tazmiilly and i talked for no fewer than six hours today about parallel ford and his mobility aids. here's some of what i came up with

you can barely see it but credit to @badwaves for the institute logo (link to a drawing he did with it)

image IDs are in alt text; design notes below the cut

Image ID: a screenshot of writing on a digital whiteboard. the text reads as follows:

wheelchairs - 2

foldable chair - easily transportable - designed for manoeuverability in high traffic/urban areas - mostly used at the end of a long day

motorized chair - for long treks/field missions - ridged metal frame - designed for rough terrain - souped up by fiddleford

two or three canes

fancy cane for formal events (mostly for fashion)

everyday cane (sturdy, classy)

field cane (collapsible, has a concealed weapon)

mabel puts stickers on all of them

end image ID.

#this is . merely a fraction of what we came up with LOL #i just mostly wanted to focus on the aids themselves #gravity falls #artwork of the damned #stanford pines #fiddleford mcgucket #journal 3 #i'd love to write about all the hcs we came up with but idk how lmao #oh and of course it goes without saying but they are super married #i just happened to draw them both facing right so unfortunately you can't see the rings on their left hands. SAD

[crabsnpersimmons]

"Slow down, Sunshine. You're not falling behind and you are loved for more than what you do for others."

#fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #crab art #traditional art #self-insert #my OC Esther #please don't copy these tags i'm just going to vent a bit #it's just been one of those weeks #been feeling overwhelmed lately #like i need to keep up #like i'm not doing enough and i tire or lose focus so easily #and i don't feel rested after resting #so i thought i should go back to my roots of drawing the DCA comforting me with words i can't seem to give myself #was debating whether or not to share this #but perhaps it may offer someone else some comfort as well #i'll be okay #this too will pass #it's just been a particularly busy and out-of-control week

[seventeendeer]

walk forward through the cold dawn!

sonic frontiers made me feel some kinda way about these friends, so here’s a lil cozy messy thing to celebrate ;w; <3

also turns out koco are way bigger than I drew them here but I didn’t realize until way too late so ehh whatevs. they’re cute in pocket size ..

#sonic frontiers #sonic fanart #sonic frontiers fanart #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #knuckles the echidna #amy rose #sonic koco #i love the massive extended sonic cast but also the decision to have frontiers focus just on sonic's closest friends was sooo sweet .... #added to the kind of lonely atmosphere a lot + just a lot of rly cute moments w sonic and his besties .. my lil heart #artbytheherd #also hey i've been trying out a new art style! it's made it much easier for me to finish stuff recently i really like it #turns out it's easier for me to do quick messy lineart when it's ms-paint-ish looking pixels! #can't wait to do more stuff like this it's so fun to loosen up a bit and do quick cute lil drawings like this for once #been making animated gifs in this style too .. wanna make so many more

[natelia-aldelliz]

Omg imagine if Ghost got hurt in a mission and like his mask is drenched in liquid like I dunno blood or water or something, and he's half laying down on the ground, still reeling in

And Soap approaches him very gently, like he's a spooked animal, because he basically is, and kneels in front of him, with very soft hands reaching for his mask and he says with a quiet voice :

"Am gonnae lift yer mask, LT, I ken ye dinnae want tae, but ah dinnae want ye tae drown yerself... Ah hiv another one fer ye, a dry one, tae replace this one. If ye want tae, ah'll even close ma eyes tae dae it"

And it's Simon who looks back at him, feeling terrified but so in love that it hurts him to hold the words back and instead he just nods slightly, doesn't know if he wants Johnny to recognize the emotion in his eyes or not. Because he doesn't know if he can love him, if he can provide for him, keep him safe, and he doesn't know if he can keep himself safe if anything happens to his Johnny.

But Johnny closes his eyes and lifts the mask off and reaches in his pocket to take out a napkin and another of his masks, wipes the blood and water off his face and gently puts the other mask back on and it's just too much.

"I love you." Ghost says, and once it's done it doesn't feel like he can stop. "I love you, fuck I'm sorry Johnny, I love you"

Soap opens his eyes, feels a bit shocked but not as much as he would have expected. Because it makes so much sense, and he maybe already knew it even if he didn't dare to admit it. Didn't dare to hope. Instead he looks in Ghost's - no, Simon's - eyes, immediately reaches out to wipe the tears that cling to his pale lashes, and smiles.

"Yer a bit of a numpty aren't ye, Simon?" he says, pouring all the love he feels in his eyes. "ah've been in love with ye since the very beginning, dinnae apologize, please, yer more than enough fer me"

#cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #btw the '''little''' comic i'm drawing is the longest thing i've done #it's going so slowly and i can't focus it's just awful lmaooo why is my brain like that it knew how i work when it gave me this ideaaaa

[wiggly-round-worm]

I’ll be honest i HATE the way the QSMP fanbase is treating Gegg and Tallulah. Like Gegg literally just appears, bro hasn’t done a single thing and people start talking about how they want him to die 😭 ?? And Tallulah starts feeling insecure trough no fault of Gegg and the Gegg tag just EXPLODES with hate. I’m a big petty baby and i don’t like seeing /neg in the tags bro. It just kinda feels like tallulahs the golden child who can do no wrong and Geggs the scapegoat who’s blamed for everything, and i feel like people are already taking it too far

#Gegg #QSMP #worm do rant #I can't belive im ranting about minecraft egg roleplay #To be honest i really relate to the whole seeking love an affection thing #so the first gegg stream was kind of like emotionally comforting almost #and then this gegg stream was fucking awful ngl #like its super funny #but seeing how people reacted to gegg made me upset #Also? geniunely starting to not like Tallulah #just by assosiation #don't like seeing her treated as the golden child at geggs expense #this might all sound rlly stupid but im off my meds and i need to be emotionally invested in something that has no consaquence over my life #because if i focus on my actual problems im gonna kay em ess #HE DID FLOW UP TILINS ROOM THATS FUCKED UP #but aside from that? bros innocent #i support geggs rights and geggs wrongs

[ann-chovi]

If he fits he sits

#hisuian typhlosion #quill #pokemon legends arceus #wore myself out today with imposter syndrome and anxiety #can't seem to focus on anything for longer than 5 minutes and just want to sleep #this is probably as finished as it's getting #it's been sitting unfinished in my files for a good month now #at least i got the next couple of comic pages planned out before the mental health took a dive yay #can i blame daylight savings? #I'm gonna blame daylight savings

[roz-ani]

THAT MAN IS SO STRESSED HE JUST PULLED OUT HIS HAIR

so that's why he's going bald

#we finally know why he has that terrible undercut #like it's horrible but I can't imagine him with anything else #at least it's better than the one in the comic #let's just focus on the front #alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #alastor hazbin hotel #mine