#but i keep seeing things tht make me want to write this chapter soooo

[alwaysmicado]

hi micado!

i just found your blog and devoured all chapters of you wanted this. it seems that i entered the angst era immediately? 😂 (don't get me wrong i loved it)

the reader is so relatable, we thought we are broken, but deep down still have a tiny hope that someone told otherwise? tht's why i feel so complicated on fwb!joel

from a 3rd person view, i can get why he did this. although he continuously claimed he won't pressure her into anythg, he is a human being and got feeling afterall. he probably didn't have a clear target for this action, maybe a mixture of frustration/want to push her (no matter what a man "claimed" i.e. greedy)/confused then go with the flow to move on/etc. part of him doubted her feeling to himself, another part of him believed she loved him. either way, he took this as a good method to test or push her (he thought himself know her enough to push her in appropriate timing, from previous chapter). i can believe he didn't mean to hurt her (i even believe him hesitant till the last minute at gas station - whether really doing that/telling her), but made a wrong decision with a wrong estimation under a wrong circumstance so getting the worst outcome.

however, i do think he DESERVES it. even he didn't aware and he THOUGHT himself not taking her trust light, by contrast, he kind of take her adoration and trust as - i won't say for granted, but something he earned and won't lose anymore. he thought the "on a date" thing is a nothing-to-lose gambling, result in he wins her or keep the current status. on his imaginary timeline, the few previous occasions were proof of her feeling to him such that "she needs my push", the increase of intimacy is fuel for him to send both of them "make a decision, don't pretend anymore" (perhaps it's also a limit for him - close but can't have her - from his view, should give himself an exit to move on, whatsoever, so one more accusation on him - selfish). on her timeline, this was a process to give her trust, in baby step. she needed to fight her internal struggles, convinced herself a lot to succumb to him. at the point she accumulated enough courage to hesitantly let go of the handrail, he swept her legs 😳😒

(sorry i tried to be more organised but failed lol, that stupid guy affected me i guess 😂...... ) thanks for this story and can't wait to read the next chapter 💛

Hi Rachel! 😍

Thank you so much for your wonderful message omg!! 🥹 I'm so beyond happy and grateful that you're enjoying the series, took the time to write down your thoughts and feelings, and that you're sharing them with all of us! 🤍🤍🤍

I can totally see where you're coming from with the idea that Joel told reader about the date to see her reaction and finally get confirmation if she really does like him more than she's willing to admit. Because, as you said, he might have been at a point where he wanted to give her the final push to finally clear things up. And then it backfired and he hurt her.

I'm not confirming or denying that that's what Joel's plan was / that's what happened, but I think it's an interesting theory based on everything we know. 👀

on her timeline, this was a process to give her trust, in baby step. she needed to fight her internal struggles, convinced herself a lot to succumb to him. at the point she accumulated enough courage to hesitantly let go of the handrail, he swept her legs 😳😒

Yeah, that's exactly what happened! 🫣 You said it perfectly: it was a (difficult) process to give him more and more of her trust as time went on, and in the end she still got hurt.

(sorry i tried to be more organised but failed lol, that stupid guy affected me i guess 😂...... ) thanks for this story and can't wait to read the next chapter 💛

Thank you soooo much for reading and being involved and enjoying the series, Rachel! 🫶☺️ I really really appreaciate it!! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

#ask #fwb!joel miller x f!reader #fwb!joel miller #series: you wanted this #thank you so much for your reading!! <3

[sailorshadzter]

doing a little writing for a chapter of one of my multi chapter fics, it's been a minute, so here's a little sneak peek if anyone is interested!

On the morning after the fall of King's Landing, Sansa rises from the chair she's occupied all night long, shivering, not from the cold, but from the sick sense of dread that has filled her whole body. She quietly crosses the room and kneels down at the far side corner, where settled there is the trunk she once carried with her from Lys. Pushing back the trunk's lid, she does not have to look long, for what she's searching for is still there, tucked safely into a side pocket among silk scraps she once used for sewing gowns. Carefully, as if it were the most precious of things, she pulls the little silver vial out from it's home, cradling it in the palm of her hand as she shuts the trunk.

"My lady?"

It is Brienne, come so quietly that Sansa had not even heard the door open. Or perhaps she had only thought never to be of need of what she now holds in her hand. "We're to leave for King's Landing. Immediately." She says as she rises back up, slowly revolving on the spot so she might face her lady knight. "I would like for you to remain here, with my son and brother." There was no one in the world she would leave her son and youngest brother with besides Brienne and though the woman opens her mouth to protest, she falls silent when Sansa offers her a small smile. "There is no one else I trust to this. I know you will keep them safe."

As Sansa sweeps across the room, towards her bed, Brienne stops her. "But who will protect you, my lady?" Here, in the privacy of this room, Brienne knows she may still yet call her this, the term she has called her since those early days in Lys.

Again, Sansa smiles, turning back to her knight. "Why, Jon will, of course." Brienne can't help but to smile herself, giving a slight nod. Of course it would be Jon.

It would always be Jon.

#this is the chapter after the one i should be working on lol #or even a later one #but i keep seeing things tht make me want to write this chapter soooo #here we are #jonsa #actuallyjonsa #sansa stark