#but i kinda get it

[waitmyturtles]

Okay friendies, I did it, I’m all caught up on the Eclipse. (Three Star Bar review, see you Monday or Tuesday, I owe you a cocktail and a can of something delish for getting bumped!)

DANG Y’ALL. LOOOOOTS TO PROCESS. #LONG POST!

I don’t think I can muster a complete review of episodes 10 and 11, per se, because there’s so much going on between these two, so apologies just for the random thought thread.

1) Episode 10 ate. What a GORGEOUS balance of romance, intimacy development, TRUST building, revelations. Like I said yesterday, the pacing through episode 10 was exquisite. Akk’s growth into himself, trusting himself to fall into Aye. That bedroom scene! And Kan! Kan being his sweet and ballsy self, growing literally in front of our eyes to be brave enough for the confession. So lovely.

2) Episode 10 also gave us so much more of the panic and anxiety development that is dogging Akk, and I appreciated the strong set-up that someone was “behind” Akk’s devolvement -- I think that was the right framework to move the plot forward.

3) One more point about episode 10 -- Teacher Waree talking about the minority disrupting the majority was excellently done to reveal that essentially what we’re talking about in this show is internalized homophobia. (All my credit for this revelation goes to this Tumblr post by @kittyann, which I read once I was brave enough to check the tag.) Waree and the students who call the protestors misfits, cannot stomach the different-ness of the demands, and of the protestors themselves. And, to the point of the post by @kittyann, of course, we’ve been seeing this repression this whole time vis à vis Akk and to a smaller extent, Kan. 

Interesting that at this point, one begins to realize that Aye is at this school to break HIS friends, his lover, his people, his family from this curse. For Aye, it becomes not only about revealing the truth about his uncle -- it becomes about keeping his new chosen family from experiencing what his uncle experienced. LOVED THIS SETUP. 

4) Moving to episode 11: Wat, you’re the real MVP. 

Seriously, leaving Thua aside for a goddamn fucking second (W. T. Actual. F. Thua.), Wat, y’all came through! Number one, you covered for your homies, badass. Number two, you THEN like, kinda cutely blackmailed your homies for your art. I’m sure Warhol did the same thing. Number three, you THEN CREATED an INSIDE comedic JOKE ARC about Thai BL, which all of us viewers, I think, damn needed, because Thua and Chadok fuckin’ fucked us up so much! Wat -- LOVE YOU. WE NEEDED YOU, MAN. 

5) Also leaving fuckin’ Thua aside for another goddamn second, I think the plot line about Chadok and Dika was rushed. (Speaking of that, Sani, you’re also an MVP, all with that Polaroid reveal. Love you and your cape blazers.) Chadok literally choosing Suppalo over Dika, Chadok getting Dika moved to Parot -- I think some stuff was glossed over. They get outed at school, okay, but I’m not quite sure I’m following why their relationship would have had to end. They could have still lived together in secret. If I missed something, please fill me in -- am I reading that plot line correctly? I could very well have missed something. 

I am wondering, though, as I write this, if essentially, Chadok chose the school’s demand for internalized and externalized homophobia over being out with Dika -- but again, I’m not sure if that was clarified, considering Chadok’s previous voiceover had stated that their intention was to marry and live together in secret. So I’m just not sure why that would have changed, with Dika moving to another school. Maybe it was the trigger of the entire experience that sent Dika into his own depressive devolvement, leading to his suicide. I’m not sure, but for something as emotionally complicated as that, I’m not sure the plot gave enough room to that development. 

6) So, Thua. I unfortunately think his own plot line was REALLY RUSHED, and I think he comes out looking like a whiny prick because of it (but I think it kinda resolves in the end, I’m just angry right now, ha). Wanting to know the truth is fine. Feeling defensive about the protestors and what they were going through -- I totally understand that. The protestors are young, out, and clearly did not deserve what all happened to them.

But I think framing the accusations against Akk, and trying to out him, without being able to then connect Namo into the evidence just didn’t make sense. And not admitting to the group that you, Thua, yourself also continued the curse! And literally actually continuing the curse to get people to ‘fess up. 

I mean, it weirdly worked, but other than knowing about Chadok from his step-dad, I’m just not sure that the impetuses for why Thua would DEMAND these revelations made sense. 

In other words, was Thua written as the right foil for the revelation of truth -- was his demand convincing to me? I’m not sure, especially considering how he had been written throughout the series. I get the plot needed a kick to get Chadok to talk, but the jump to Thua being the trigger was a big ass kick. I think the writing suffered here.

(I want to note that the amazing @respectthepetty​ has a post about the closeted bully trope, and the argument that Akk had his outing coming to him, because Akk as a prefect was/is a bully himself. I want to acknowledge that I need to sit with this post and give it time in my head, and hopefully I’ll be able to process it on Monday. But right now, I’m still angry at Thua, ha. And I’m still not comfortable with the outing. I’ll take the time to process all of this, though.)

Sigh. All of this is me just complaining a little bit. I think the jump then to the Thai BL comedic arc was really cute, but a bit too fast, considering that the Chadok/Thua storylines are actually really heavy, and we still have Akk and his pain to get through.

7) Akk. Wow. He is so beautifully written. God, a character that really takes us through every emotion he is going through, the pressure he’s under. Watching him makes me wish I was a teenager watching this show, and feeling that it is OKAY to know that dealing with the pressure of the WORLD on your shoulders is unreasonable, and that it’s OKAY for your friends and lovers to support you through seeing what reality actually is, or should be. 

Generally speaking, except for Sani and the various parents, the adults are absolute failures to the kids in this show. The pressure the Suppalo grown-ups put on these kids to uphold adult values is insane -- and, from an Asian perspective, I can totally relate, ha. It’s how my family raised me. Be good for US -- be good for Suppalo, regardless of what it does to you.

And we see what it does to Akk. 

8) And Aye -- what a foil! What a FOIL against that. He literally puts into WORDS his own PROTEST against what that pressure will do to Akk. He is literally putting his hands out against that pressure to keep it from touching Akk anymore.

His gaze at Akk during the award ceremony, the wordless support he gives to his lover -- Aye, you’re the best boyfriend in the world. 

Aye really grows in this episode. He sees what the F is happening with Thua and calls that shit out. He comes to Akk in his defense. He confronts Chadok. He absorbs the revelation about Chadok and Dika. That is a LOT FOR A YOUNG ADULT TO TAKE. 

And yet, he still stands by Akk and supports Akk in his moment of stress. Gorgeous. And written very convincingly. While we think that Aye is potentially unstable, in fact -- he becomes the model of stability, and the real holder of the real truth of this entire circle. 

WHEW. I’ve only just started digging into the tag, I gotta take some time to read up on the thoughts of the episodes I really loved, namely eight, nine, and 10. Fantastic show. @the-nihongo-adventure, I need to send you flowers or something! Virtual hugs, friend! I also have high high hopes for episode 12!

#the eclipse #the eclipse meta #akk x aye #kan x thua #wtf thua #i'm so mad at you #but i kinda get it #but like #you hung your homie out to dry #after you went to his house in some gorgeous part of thailand! #like #lol #okay maybe i should stop rambling about thua #how do you play your friends like that come awn #i'm conflicted thua #sorry kan

[adyophene]

Husk's secret weapon

#hazbin hotel #husk #alastor #hazbin art #radiohusk #kinda #long post #i did not mean for it to get this long 'oh its a simple comic idea how many panels could it take?' too many

[noesa]

i think the thing that is specifically bothering me about the conversation about the new hbomberguy video ("live your life in a way so that hbomberguy doesn't tear into you for 3 hours", "hbomberguy has figured out how to death note someone through video essays", "oh new hbomberguy video [incredibly dense paragraphs of text] i now despise james somerton") is that it really feels like people aren't paying attention to what hbomberguy was actually saying. like, as much as he wanted to make people aware of the plagiarism issue, he also very explicitly did not like the fact that he might even remotely have a financial incentive to make those sorts of videos. and rather than the last video, which was a "get mad about this" call to action, hbomberguy spent this whole video sympathizing with the people who were directly out indirectly affected, and wanted the focus of people's attention to be on uplifting small queer creators

but also, negativity drives engagement so i guess it's to be expected.

#esse.txt #hbomberguy #this is just kinda weird vomit #but i wanted to get it off my chest #10k

[middle-o-nowhere]

I find the fact that #hannibal is trending on Easter is both terrifying and absolutely hilarious. Well, back to my Easter shenanigans and food…

#was going to ask why #but I kinda get it #not really #unless #hannibal #trending

[lungthief]

listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

#like you get why all the fics about those two are insane right. the narrative is just so goddamn compelling #and thats not even getting into the whole thing abt the serum curing steve of every ailment except his love for bucky #which makes him realize it was never an ailment to begin with (despite the commonly held beliefs about homosexuality in the 1940s) #and bucky being *electroshocked* again and again into forgetting steve #like howd you make your gay ass movie that gay and not realize it. its kinda impressive #sorry for the ridiculous stucky retrospective its 4am and i rewatched the winter soldier recently #its not that deep. its not its not its not . but if it was anything other than what it is it could have been. and thats the worst part #shut up riley #marvel #stucky

[chloesimaginationthings]

The FNAF game Mike and Vanessa are a lil quirky,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #mike schmidt #michael afton #fnaf vanessa #vanessa shelly #vanessa afton #fnaf vanny #fnaf #fnaf 3 #sister location #security breach #fnaf fanart #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #the game vers of Mike and Vanessa are kinda deranged #but I support them 💜 #they do be getting a lil quirky #their movie vers learning about their crimes #Michael is chill despite his record #Vanny is still figuring herself out here she’ll be chill soon #tbh I really just wanted to draw Vanny without her mask #I loveeee drawing these four fr fr

[ink-the-artist]

Video game I saw in a dream. It was in this low poly style like an older video game. You play as this character I think was meant to be a lamb, or maybe a weird mix of a lamb a mouse and a rabbit, (while not really looking like any of those things) and you’re running away from a wolf. Your objective is to last as long as possible before the wolf catches and eats you.

The house you’re running in is endless and bizarrely put together like most building interiors in dreams are (like the infinite toilet dream dimension on Reddit lol) the layout of the house is pretty detailed, you can stop and hide in places like closets or bins while the wolf looks for you, you can go up and down stairs and into rooms etc.

You never actually know where the wolf is or how close it is to you until it appears in your line of sight, it makes no noise and the game gives you no way of knowing where it is, and it’s pretty unpredictable it doesnt move at a consistent pace. When the wolf catches you there’s an animation showing it eating your character

#the actual animation of the wolf eating your character wasnt scary he kind of just cartoonishly swallows the character whole lol #the scary part is being pursued by him and never knowing how close he is #i remember being surprised when i first saw the game bc it was presented to me as #a fun addictive sort of game kinda like a mobile app game #and then i see it and its a horror game and the creators are just completely oblivious to it lmao #dream art #<- thats my tag for all my dream-inspired art #art #gif #photomanipulation #digital art #liminal #weirdcore #used a mix of ai photos and regular photos for this one #the ai stuff is sooooo good for recreating what a dream looks and feels like #but i didnt use it too much bc i wasnt able to get the specific photos i wanted :/ #hmmmm this is vore isn’t it

[kithj]

games (mostly text-based) about houses and places-- exploring them, haunting them, feeding them:

childhood homes (and why we hate them) - after a decade, you return home.

return - a text-based horror game about coming home.

singing from the far side of the hill - about a trans woman, homeless after a bad breakup, who rents a stranger's spare room. it's a decision she comes to regret.

anatomy - Explore a suburban house, collect cassette tapes, study the physiology of domestic architecture.

leave house - leave house

the open house - We at Northtree Real Estate (in partnership with Optix Dynamix Labs) are proud to present our new, state-of-the-art, open house simulator!  Come and take a quick tour of 15615 Hollow Oak Lane, a familiar and comfortable showcase home in one of our premier developments!

what girls do in the dark - This little game is based off one of the greatest fears they had as a teenage girl: showing up late to a stranger's slumber party.

unbecoming - a sonically-textured interactive horror fiction exploring cycles of trauma and unspeakable forces of nature in a mythic rural American landscape.

13 laurel road - an interactive fiction game about the relationships we have with places and reconciling with trauma. You play as a young man named Noah who has been tasked with picking up some things from his cousin’s old house.

domvs - a gothic mystery game in which you rely on your environment to uncover the truth.

flesh, blood, & concrete - you find yourself in a vast, empty apartment complex.

i am still here - a short, unconventional ghost story and vignette reflecting on the end of a long lockdown.

vacant - Film a ghost-hunting show.

#on a haunted house kick #some of these are like. a stretch i suppose #but all of them revolve around places or exploring them in some way #people seemed to like that last list i posted surprisingly lmfao #this is just from what i've personally played #it's kinda hard to search for a niche subgenre....i skimmed some of the haunted house tag on itchio #but as soon as you get into 'horror' over there you just get some real awful schlock #edit: I CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT GONE HOME..... #games

[abisalli]

detective work 🔍❓

#batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #cassandra cain #dc comics #my art #digital art #this started with Chibi batman and then I just kinda kept going #I've been looking into opening my own sticker shop lately because I have accumulated a bunch of sticker designs #so coming march or april you may be able to get your very own abisablli sticker designs :) #batfamily

[generichoneydew]

8/52

#I did this kinda quickly but I like how it turned out regardless #minecarft #hermitcraft #grian #hes just never gonna get mending now is he #generichoneydew #art

[thatonesapphicfilipino]

k i’ve caved

if this gets 2k i’ll annotate all my alice oseman books

if this somehow gets 3k i’ll show my mural progress/mural reveal

and if this gets 4k i’ll use my paycheck for that month for other people only

and if my some miracle this gets 5k i’ll tell the girl i liked for over a year i liked her

as of feb 12 every goal up to 5k has been met and i’m now taking suggestion for 10k and over cuz like 2 whole months yk

BTW ALL BY APRIL* 15

#you don’t suck* #5k #if this gets 5k i’m killing u guys #i kinda really don’t wanna do 5k #let’s see #sapphic #alice oseman #wall murals #mural #art mural #caring #*this was changed and 2 months were added

[hatepotion]

iii / vi / vii / ix

#ah yes i managed to fit literally every single shade of gray in one photoset (i thought these were all kinda uniform but alas) #this was my excuse to get procreate dreams :) #gideon the ninth #the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #griddlehark #ortus nigenad #campal #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #coronabeth tridentarius #ianthe tridentarius #naberius tern #dulcinea septimus #protesilaus ebdoma #cytherea the first #tlt #tlt fanart #my art

[syrren]

“The artist becomes the canvas!” - TMAGP 002: Making Adjustments

#tma #the magnus protocol #tmagp #the magnus archives #fanart #the magnus protocol spoilers #tw: body horror #kinda??? #this is the most vague fanart i could possibly post im so sorry #i swear i've also started drawing the actual. yaknow. characters? #but for personal reasons episode two hit so close to home for a second I thought Alex j newall had acquired access to my medical records #so I had to get this out of my system LOL #myart

[thesociallyanxioussociopath]

Part 3 of Alastor's really bad awful day~ What's worse than having to go on a fake date with your rival ? Your other rival (one-sided) deciding to play paparazzi, of course.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 (end)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #radio demon #alastor hazbin hotel #charlie hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer #vaggie #my art #had to separate part 3 and 4 because it was too big of a post it didn't look nice #on a side note I feel like I'm getting better at drawing Alastor's hair ! Though I still hate his 50 shades of red color palette #radioapple #kinda? #I just like when they annoy each other

[eyes-of-nine]

pls assume i'm thinking about this moment 24/7 all week every week

#ahsjgdh i love the young xianle quartet sm they're almost barely not traumatized...kinda #they're very silly especially in retrospect #aaa i do also really want to draw young xie lian and mu qing but the idea of rendering that much gold detailing sounds like hell ywy #i'll do it but christ alive #my art #fanart #tgcf #tgcf fanart #tgcf spoilers #technically #also i haven't read past book 3 for now ywy #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #feng xin #hua cheng #...he gets one tag bc i'm not keeping track of all the aliases #every time i draw hc his hair gets worse and worse #my man has not seen a hairbrush in the past 800 or so years of his existence

[keksalot404]

World'Z MoZt ObviouZ Joke.

also if PC is actually taking time on this might you consider:

#kekart #pokemon #pokemon legends #pokemon legends ZA #Legends Z #(the logos kinda vague) #zygarde #flygon #(as a unova enjoyer I am happy our games are untouched as Kalos gets a W) #(I had to draw 100% zygarde for this you best be grateful) #meme