#but i ought to do a few

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Lackadaisy Enrichment

#in our enclosures!! #video linked as source; which i'm glad to see already has a million views and is trending. That's Right #lackadaisy #WHICH i have been reading since at least '07 when i was thirteen my god b/c this animation is based on the ongoing webcomic #like does its influence show up Directly in some Discrete way i can point to in my art? not very easily probably. And Yet. #the inspiration....i wasn't able to be Regularly Only for at least another year / art done Nonprofessionally Online was novel to me #like wow ppl can make & post fanart of w/e they love huh....didn't know webcomics were a thing & i never really read that many since but. #good god the quality of Lackadaisy at its onset is like this is superb?? this person putting in all their talent and effort??? #and Then you get years & years more art and i don't even know what superlatives to throw out abt its quality as it evolves. obsessed w/it.. #if i see a new lackadaisy comic page i Will be acting out. obviously this animation is a delight & also stunning. and fascinating to also #juxtapose as a Translation / Interpretation of the comic in a different medium & standalone snippet of Story #and that we're not even quite there in the comic timeline; Taking Notes abt character info we get distilledly here....genuinely love like #take it back to '07 i'm like oh boy can't wait for the dream team to assemble. then a decade later when it did? Oh Boy. that is payoff lol #namely hooray for stitches and mudbug at the field office for every passing gangster. killing one marigold associate but not the other #which seems like a promising start to shootouts w/the other dream team triumvirate. i adore that in canon so far mordecai freckle & rocky #have met but only over a nice brunch. re: all intentions anyways. anyways i'm like Gifs Must Be Made while i'm also so riled afresh abt the #comic that i've been sooo hype for for over fifteen yrs now babeyyy Deservedly. i've done a couple of rereads & ought to do another.... #For Interest it'd probably take a few sittings to catch up from the start but there is much to be engaged over....this ongoing story that's #historical fiction prohibition bootlegging cats with plenty of focus on characters & several Mysteries. which i'm better at parsing now lol #like one of the more recent rereads like Oh Of Course x (probably) accidentally killed his y & z took the fall & that's a binding secret... #Not [oh of course] abt the circumstances surrounding a's death & how b & c were involved. nor the ''what's marigold's damage'' mystery #which is great. love to not know things. love that we can readily follow all the emergent drama everyone's wading in nowadays. hell yeah #anyways admire my organized approach to gifs here. four shots each Expressions Atmosphere Action Groupshots #sure might've muddled through gifmaking for this anyways but fr being a huge lackadaisy comic enjoyer for now most of my life helps #and its very Overall Inspiration like. just really getting the [you can really just draw stuff out here] going. fr the art's detail & skill #and that enrichment like i'm gonna have a great time following this. And I Have #you don't expect a crowdfunded indie animation in the mix back then but hell yeah fellas #SIGH ok removing a 4th gif that's broken / not displayed despite reuploading then entirely remaking it. if it's a bug i'll try again later

[uncanny-tranny]

Also, in response to the "testosterone making people angrier" myth, I've found that, personally, testosterone has given me the self-respect to recognize and call out when my boundaries are being overstepped in ways that I wouldn't have had the courage (or, frankly even liking of myself) to have done before. This is in addition to me working on my trauma responses, but testosterone was the spark that gave me the will to do this in the first place. When I see people sae that as anger and thus is a "bad thing," I wonder how much of that is just people being uncomfortable with us... having boundaries or enforcing them, and that the response to that overstepping is labeled as aggressive anger.

Frankly, I now actually respect myself enough to care when I am being mistreated. It seems that people sometimes take that as a personal failure on my end because I don't think I deserve mistreatment.

Caveat: Anger is a fine emotion, and it is a worthy thing to recognize and honour. I find that the accusation of trans men* and trans masc* people "being angry" on testosterone is a moot point simply because it is often a false accusation which uses anger as a punishment. My issue isn't that we're "angry," but that our perceived anger is used, often, as a transphobic bludgeon to punish those who either want to transition with testosterone or who currently are, and everything in-between.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #unpopular opinion i guess but: trans man* and transmasc* anger is a fine thing and more people ought to express it without fear #basically i want to start a punk band with some other trans guys/trans guys+ who are Angry and Will Express It #like not going to lie but i had no boundaries before because i HATED myself... #...so it's pretty weird when people almost... miss that they could have taken advantage of me had i not realized my worth #like why does my Testosterone Anger say something bad about me when you MISS that you could have taken advantage of my self-hatred. like. hm #anyway. i let myself be angry now because i have realized that i deserve to express my full range of emotions #i notice that many trans people start asserting themselves way more when they transition gow they want/need to... #...and i think part of it is that many of us start to get out of the rut of feeling Horrible 24/7/365... #...so when people express they 'miss the old [you]' to me that's a red flag... #...because... do you miss that person pre-transition or do you miss their abject misery and passivity? #this might be a generalization because of tumblr's tag character limit #but i have noticed this with a few trans people when they are openly/currently transitioning #this isn't me saying that this is universal but just... something i have Taken Notice Of #and it seems weird to me that this hasn't only just happened to me because. it just feels...... gross

[chiropteracupola]

christopher paolini has written another 700-page tome and I have been slingshotted directly back to high-school-era inheritance brainrot. ....voilá, murtagh sketchpage.

#em draws stuff #inheritance cycle #murtagh #murtagh morzansson #as sailorpants puts it: Baby's First Problematic Fave #and he certainly was mine! so the fanart's long overdue really #got a more complex thing (with thorn in it!) sketched up since I feel like after that 700-page Tome of Events the boys need a Break #but Big Dragon is always a challenge and I felt like I ought to do a bit of character design beforehand (since mr paolini has not helped!) #so for now have a few free-range organic murts* while we figure out just what it is that he looks like #*he is neither free-range nor organic but Hey

[jamesphillimoresumbrella]

Thinking about a lot of things but mainly of how Terry Pratchett writes tiredness.

(Which means I’m mainly thinking of Sam Vimes. Which is normal.)

But he gets it so right.

The feeling behind your eyeballs. Stealing time from your future self with coffee, and, when the coffee doesn’t work anymore, going on sheer bloody mindedness because you cannot stop, you can’t. Not being sure when you last had real sleep. The strange state of mind you land in where you should absolutely not be tested because everything’s on a hair trigger, and things feel like they’re moving through treacle and your ability to make decisions feels shot to hell so you can only hope that you’re making the right choices.

Not Terry Pratchett’s words, if course, but I can’t get to my bookshelf at the moment, and, if I could, I’m not sure that I can read anymore. 

I’m tired, is what I’m getting at.

And Terry Pratchett writes the whole spectrum of being human so brilliantly, but, damn, how he nails down being tired. 

#gnu terry pratchett #sam vimes #Normally I would be hard put to name a favorite anything #but Sam Vimes is my favorite #I ought to get off the computer now #but I had to send an email #one of my co-workers has been leaving me post-it notes about how sleeping is needed and work is optional #and I apparently look as bad as I feel because my boss repeatedly asked if I'm okay and do I need to talk about anything #I need to stop #I had more thoughts #on how much the world has changed while I'm still in it; how I feel fundamentally unsuited here west of the sunset #how exhausting it is to be advertised to every waking minute; how I feel like a dinosaur about technology #(smart devices in particular - I'll be damned if I schedule my next platelet donation via Alexa) #but those are for another time #I'm going to bed #and getting up again a few hours #holy fudgecakes #also thoughts on how worrying internet purity culture is; how it feels like lip service to ideals #with no examination (self or otherwise) and no actual action taken towards change #but again that's for later

[morrigan-sims]

Pirate Outfts

I was bored, so I started trying some different outfits on Zara... The last one might be my favorite, if only because I already used another swatch of the first one for Wolf, and I can't have them wearing the same thing... But I also love being able to see all her freckles in the 2nd one...

#ts4 #the sims 4 #sims 4 CAS #ts4 CAS #adventures in cas #my sims #cas #ts4 fantasy #ts4 pirates #sims 4 fantasy #sims 4 pirates #oc: Zara #(she's only about half mine but oh well. I came up with the idea for her and my DM took what I gave him and has been cooking with it.) #I'm so fucking nervous to see how her conversation with Rook is gonna go. #He's planning on surprising her which will be... interesting. #and we recently found out that she knew where he was for those two years and didn't do anything about it... #and the DM says she's been having her own problems in the meantime but she's not a captain anymore... #it's been 3 fucking years since Rook has seen her and she's still nearly a god in his eyes. #I've imagined a dozen ways the conversation could go and there's probably dozens more. #I just gotta wait A FEW MONTHS to find out. 😭😭😭😭😭 #funny thing is I never decided on a surname for her I don't think. #seems like I ought to but I just never did. She's always been Zara to Rook and to me.

[rohirric-hunter]

I'm actually very worried about that questline we don't speak of in the Angle because LotRO is usually so good about faithfully adapting Tolkien's obscure lore that it would be reasonable for someone to play through it and assume that it is also a faithful adaptation of some obscure lore. I mean some people might be clued in by how horrible it is as a quest, but taken at face value it could easily just be a bad story about some perfectly reasonable lore.

I feel like it should have a disclaimer before you accept it, that it alleges things that are straight up false. And also is going to make you feel really gross to play through, but technically that's a different complaint.

#really what they ought to do is remove it from the game but #i think the game would be greatly improved if they just cut it out entirely and let the angle be empty and weird #if you havent played the angle yet two things: the questline that starts with rhaevedron is not great #but in my opinion salvageable. do it when youre in a forgiving mood #and be ready to do a lot of mental editing to make a lit of the stuff that happens in it okay #however if you see an injured ranger outside tornhad offering you a quest no you didnt #my recommendation is to open the quest dialogue with him. do not read it. click 'filter on all characters' #its the button in the lower right corner that has a few silhouettes on it. youve probably never used it before #go on with your life and revel in the fact that your day has not been ruined

[ladytauria]

haha I love how at this point

everytime you say "i have been encouraged" my name is in there

lmfao me too

me in all my a/n’s now is just “thank you abuse for encouraging me, brainstorming with me/feeding me more ideas, & catching my typos and repetitions”

#deepwithintheabyss #asks and answers #ought to come up with some kind of blanket statement #‘influenced by abyss’ #and then a few lines down just #’thanks abyss for catching my typos <3 possibly/probably in advance’ #one day i will stop just *almost* dropping my docs for proofreading before posting and actually start *doing* that

[beauceronn]

Going to the judges education page on every breed club website desperately looking for anything useful

#some of these clubs have NOTHING #i think i ought to sketch pieces that could be used for illustrated standards because it is just #devastating how few breed clubs seem to have passable ones #i do like powerpoints with photo examples but some are not very good #the neo club has a really good one #so does the shar pei club #and the beauce club one is okay but i have too many opinions about beauces to ever be fully satisfied LOL

[miodiodavinci]

anyway ugghh i need to learn to stay off of twitter now that the algorithm has picked up on exactly what it needs to show me to make me righteously upset (← gets wrapped up in long discourse responses to shitty unethical AI works and ongoing vtuber drama that are a little vindicating at first but make you feel like vile, hate-ridden garbage after a half hour of scrolling)

#i am a dumb little trout who sees the first worm of 'ugh these ai people are so shitty!!!' and i go 'yeah!!! they do suck!!!!!!' #and bite it every time like a fool #and then twitter shows me qrt after qrt showing shitty ai people being shitty #and people dunking on them like 'this is terrible and soulless and you should feel bad' #and at some point it stops being 'get their ass' and more just an unending haze of feeling shitty #and then i catch myself and i get frustrated that i was able to be duped ONCE again skfjhgkjsdf #so really i ought to just #stop opening the tab beyond checking my notifications and scrolling through like. a few friend's tweets. #i swear if select friends were more active on here i would be so out of there skdjfhgjlk #like rice and ashley are Very Active on twitter and i do not want to miss things from them #but man #got to get quicker about realizing when the algorithm is trying to hook me

[afieldinengland]

back to the flat tomorrow and aiming to get straight into the library in the week before classes start. so naturally i am rewatching rise of the nutters and spinners and losers in order to properly olliereederise

#you will be pleased to know that i am actually considering doing myself a kindness #<- by this i mean i have a bad hip and i am thinking of taking the bus to the library at least a few days this week rather than dragging it #up the not inconsiderably steep hills on the route i’d walk otherwise #although they will be full of freshers…. well maybe not at 8am #please don’t feel you ought to sympathise about the hip it’s been bad for two months and it’s largely subsided #and i do have an appointment with the student health physio the week after next. you don’t need to care about this i’m just talking #i haven’t necessarily gotten a whole lot of sympathy at home

[chiropteracupola]

wreckers' fog...

[collaboration with @dxppercxdxver again]

#em draws stuff #flintlock fortress #team fortress 2 #I have never drawn quite like this before and I do not know if I can make it happen again #sometimes the drawing just Takes Me and then it's hour upon hour of scribblescrabble even if I have other stuff I ought to do #(and boy do I ever have other stuff I ought to have done...) #anyway! I'd been wanting to draw this fellow flintlock-ified for some time and I'm quite pleased with how he turned out #thought he was off-model but the second person I showed the drawing to guessed it instantly. and then I perished. but it was worth it. #every color in this image is picked from an n.c. wyeth painting! I gathered up a few with the right vibe and it worked splendidly! #although in the end the style isn't very wyeth-y and I can't figure out who it is that I'm getting reminded of instead #edited to add: OH I THINK IT'S DAN SCHKADE'S ART THAT THIS LOOKS LIKE. this is MOST WONDERFUL.

[despair-tea]

I was able to get my rx in yesterday but just the thought of doing my own injection made my hands shake again...

#i do so hate being defined by fear #but panic attacks were the reason I stopped doing my own shots #you really ought to have a steady hand you see #trans #my post #it's weird coz the first few times i did it with ease #but at some point i couldn't hold the damn thing straight

[thebirdandhersong]

holding on real tight to "if you don't want me / then you're not the one" this week ladies

#was rejected a few days ago without even SAYING ANYTHING and boys HOWDY #there are some ways to get across I'm Not Interested to someone but alas this was not a very gracious or generous one #beloved friends. sisters in Christ. if a boy is not interested in you and isn't very mature he may do similar unthoughtful things #such as: ignoring you completely in group settings when he's speaking very loudly and animatedly to Everyone Else #completely avoiding eye contact. very short and abrupt answers when you ask him simple unobtrusive questions about his day etc. etc. #making it Very Clear in uncharitable ways (at least according to my diana anyhow) that he just does not want to be around you #don't waste your time!!!! i am not going to waste mine #anyway the end of another saga........... first mr knight and now the firefly boy (sigh) too many things happening in one year #would like to......have a break from boy troubles for once :') #anyhow that's that on that......back to schoolwork! #alas girls songbird once again had high hopes and he seemed very nice #aside from questionable coffee drinking choices and this sort of behaviour he SEEMED like someone i could get along with quite well #i mean not every boy will listen to songbird ramble for a while on modernist literature and ask questions at the end #but all that goes to show that one ought not to be hasty :') #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21 #the pluto chapter

[hephaestuscrew]

EIFFEL: Oh. Hi, uh... I'm sorry, but do I... do I know you? MINKOWSKI: Yes, you... Hi. My name is Renée Minkowski. I'm the Commander of this space station. EIFFEL: Minkowski. Pleasure. MINKOWSKI: Please, just... call me Renée.

After Eiffel loses his memories, Minkowski's first instinct is to answer his question directly, to say 'yes', to tell him that he does know her - or at least he should. 'Yes, you...' feels to me like the beginning of a sentence that would have expanded into how he knows her, perhaps into something of what they've meant to each other. But she cuts herself off.

Instead, she switches to a greeting, a reset, an acknowledgement that he is experiencing this situation as a first meeting even though she isn't. When she says "Hi" and tells him who she is, she's letting him off the hook to an extent, attempting to let go of the expectation that he will recognise her and remember anything of their shared history.

To try and answer 'do I know you?' properly there and then would take more time and energy than Minkowski has. It also would put some of the emotional burden on Eiffel; I don't think that it would really help in that particular moment, even though he needs to learn that information at some point.

What she wants to tell him is that he knows her, but a part of her recognises that simply telling him that he knows her in that moment wouldn't make it true. Instead, she takes the first step towards him properly knowing her again: she tells him her name, she tells him her position, she asks him to call her by her first name. She starts with the information about who she is; the fact that he used to know it can come later.

#w359 #Wolf 359 #I know this is reading a lot into very few words #but I do think those words are evidence of this thought #Sorry I will never shut up about this scene #Also this is getting more personal than I probably ought to be on here but #both my grandmas had severe dementia #so I have had people I love be unable to recognise me #and in situations like that there's a part of you that wants to be like #'come on. it's me. you know who I am' #but instead you have to push that sadness and frustration aside #and give them the context they need #You have to reintroduce yourself gently #even when having to do that feels wrong #You have to try not to show how having to tell them your name makes you feel #because you don't want them to be distressed that they couldn't remember it #Sorry to overshare and project #but I think that is something that gets to me in that scene #even though its not the same #It's a very different situation #but there's still something very real about that emotional reaction to being asked who you are #by someone who you feel in your heart ought to know #w359 spoilers #Wolf 359 spoilers #long post #Eiffel & Minkowski #the empty man posteth #tw dementia #<- guess I should put that for my oversharing tags

[rohirric-hunter]

I've been trying to put this into words for a while now and I think I might have something -- most of the time when people examine storytelling tropes, especially experts in a related field, especially historians and medical professionals, they are setting out to disprove the trope.

Even if they're not, once they find some evidence that the trope doesn't work in real life or isn't how it was done historically, they often expect that to be the end of the conversation. Historically, people did not go adventuring with two-handed greatswords strapped to their backs -- and therefore you should not have it happen in your fiction, and the conversation ends there. In real life, having a character get hit so hard on the head that they pass out for several hours would demand immediate medical intervention and likely cause permanent brain damage -- and therefore you should not have it happen in your fiction. End of discussion.

These people fail, I think, to understand the reason these tropes exist. It is not because people are just uneducated and think that's how things work. In fact, I would go out on a limb and say far more people are already aware of these things than these experts assume. The attraction of the trope doesn't come from the belief that it is accurate.

These tropes exist because it is widely agreed that they are cool, sexy, emotionally fulfilling, narratively convenient, or any number of other things that really have nothing to do with whether or not they are accurate to reality. I'm not quite sure what it is about most of these experts that makes them unable to understand that, or unwilling to play the game that the rest of us engage in, where we all quietly pretend that it does work because it's harmless and enjoyable.

Really the only people I've ever seen who understand that and try to work their own expertise on the subject into the tropes in a cohesive and satisfying way are Shadiversity on YouTube and blumineck on here. Both in the martial arts categories, which ties mostly into history -- I've yet to find a medical professional online who's willing to play the game.

#on a totally unrelated note #if anyone knows when someone has fallen into freezing water and is at risk for hypothermia #all the articles i can find online say to get them warm and change them into dry clothes #but none of them say what to do if you dont have any dry clothes #is it better to leave them in their wet things until you can get some dry clothes or take them out of the wet things #even if you dont have any dry clothes to put them in #yes i KNOW theyre probably just going to die at this point if thats what you were thinking then you have no sense of narrative tension #and yes i KNOW this is why you always take a change of clothes whenever youre going hiking in the cold #the clothes fell into the freezing water too OKAY #sorry if this is like aggressive but im so tired of hearing the same few responses that dont actually answer my question #do these people think im looking for actual medical advice??????? #im writing a story! the characters are going in the Situation whether they like it or not #im not planning for my own life just in case i ever find myself in this situation #the fact that i thought of it for the story ought to tell you ive already thought of how to prevent it for myself

[endreal]

I kinda want to read The Little Prince out loud to somebody I know.

Oh no.

#[deep sigh] #I suppose I ought to clarify that this is not a new thing #I LOVE reading this book to/with my affections #And it's criminal how few chances I've actually gotten to do so #But now there's someone else on the list. Rude. 😤