#but i thought id share in case someone else needed it

[twinnedpeaks]

greek mythology, from salem m.s. essays on autism

#ok not well written or edited #but i thought id share in case someone else needed it #in case u didnt know hi im an autistic writer whoop de doop #writing #poetry #words #writeblr #quotes #poem #poems #writer #writers on tumblr #poetscommunity

[therandomartmaker]

[Image ID: An artwork featuring Danny Phantom, full green excluding his hair and white accents, transparent, sitting on a pile of rubble head tilted slightly upwards with his eyes closed. His hair is wispy, he’s got pointed ears and he’s much more identifiable as a ghost. The rubble includes the F of the Fenton Works sign, a satellite dish of some kind, pipes and concrete. The rubble, and Danny, is surrounded by yellow-black striped caution tape. Above Danny’s head is a conversation, in white, “It’s been ten years,” has been written, and in green, “It’s only been 10 years,” is written. /End ID]

Day 31: “It had been a decade since anyone last lived at Fenton Works. Or so people thought.”

tbh this took like. Less than half an hour to make haha. I may have forgotten to do this yesterday lmaooo. To make up for it, here’s a continuation of this prompt by @cryinginthevoid that i filled, wherein Danny has been stuck haunting the rubble of a ruined Fenton Works after his permanent death, only to later be approached by a very much alive Damian, who is the first person to See Danny in over 10 years. So yep, bonus challenge post 2 under the read more :D

Damian had visited. He’d promised and he’d followed through on it, Danny sitting still and watching as Damian approached, day after day, even after Danny had no more words to say, no more information to give. To quote, he was “a tolerable friend despite your intolerance for proper respect.” Danny had no idea if that was a good or bad thing, if he were to be honest.

But still! It’d been 10 years since he’d to spoken to someone, something other than the air. Damian said his brothers wouldn’t follow him, despite saying he’d bring them to meet Danny during one their tentative hangouts, and Danny supposed that was a good thing. He didn’t want Damian to sound crazy or look crazy for talking to thin air, especially not by his family.

Though, what was interesting was the weird amount of black-haired blue-eyed outsiders hanging around town. The FentonWorks rubble had a pretty good view of most of town, despite it’s slow erosion into dust, so Danny was able to see the several strangers in town whenever he went looking.

Damian said his family was looking into ectoplasm due to it’s relation with the dead, and trying to find if anyone around town knew how to access their information databases. They needed to know if there was a way to relieve “Jason’s” burden of the “Lazarus Rage,” and prepare in the case someone else in the family acquires it. And that ‘Lazarus Pits’ are classified information, but who did Danny have to share it to, no one could talk to him except Damian, anyway.

And truthfully, those Lazarus Pits Damian mentioned sounded like pools of ectoplasm that Maddie and Jack would’ve killed for. Danny could only suggest looking into ‘ecto-acne’ treatments, as from one of the stories of Vlad Masters Danny’d heard, it sounded like the short-term effects of ectoplasm exposure.

—

Damian didn’t know why he was sharing so much confidential with Daniel, but he didn’t seem to mind, and didn’t seem to talk to anyone else. He figured it’d be fine. Daniel needed to know as much context as possible in order to help Damian.

Daniel was strange, he spoke in large amounts, but quieted as though he doesn’t expect someone would respond to him. He rarely moved, and there was something unnatural about him. Perhaps the lack of a rise and fall of his chest, or the way his eyes shined.

Damian couldn’t help but make comparisons to the dead he’d seen. Lightless glossy eyes, pale skin, sallow flesh. Daniel was built like a dying or dead person.

Damian… worried. He’d grown close to the other boy, Daniel’s snark to Damian’s sharp tongue and his acceptance of Damian’s veganism, multiple other factors about Damian never drove Daniel away from him. It was nice, being accepted by someone outside of his family. Daniel’s health was concerning, malnutritioned and Daniel’s reaction time was slow. Multiple things were off-kilter about him, and Damian wanted to know why. So he could help.

Because Danny was his friend.

—

Dick observed Damian. He’d taken to pacing the length of the hotel room, and he seemed worried about his new friend (!!! Dami has a friend!!!! And he’s worried about him!!!), muttering about bringing food to the next time he visited. Dick kinda felt bad about what he was about to tell Dami.

“Richard, why are you looking at me?” Dami asked, stopping his pacing to look up at Dick, a soft half-hearted glare on his face.

“Uh well, Tim…” (fuck! He wasn’t supposed to mention Tim!)

“What did Drake do?”

“Tim told me to tell you that we’d gotten enough information and that we were leaving in two days, just in case something new crops up!” Dick rushed, knowing that Dami would loathe the information, but despise Dick more for not telling him.

Dami needed to say goodbye to his new friend, after all, but from what Dick could tell, they couldn’t even have long-distance communication, because “Daniel Who Liked Being Called Danny” didn’t even have a phone!

Dami’s click of his tongue was expected, and his expression had worsened too. Dick had messed up, but he didn’t think there was anyway to break it gently that Damian would have to leave his newfound friend.

The boy stormed off, leaving the room with a door slam. Dick felt bad, man. Well… Dick did have a spare phone he was free to gibe to someone… Perhaps Danny would like it?

#randomartmaker writing #randomartmaker art #digital art #dpxdc #dcxdp #danny phantom #short story #small story #dick grayson #richard grayson #damian wayne #damian al ghul #ectober 2023 #ectoberweek2023

[cy-cyborg]

How your disabled character's allies react to their disability can make or break the representation in your story: Writing Disability Quick Tips

[ID: An image with “Writing Disability quick tips: How your character's allies react to their disability matters” written in chalk the colour of the disability pride flag, from left to right, red, yellow, white, blue and green. Beside the text are 2 poorly drawn people icons in green, one is standing with their hand up to the face of the other, who is in a wheelchair. /End ID]

Something I brought up in my big post about Toph Beifong was how the other characters reacted to Toph pointing out that things were not accessible to her and setting boundaries regarding her disability, which were ignored. I had more to say about it than I thought I did, as it turns out (when isn't that the case lol) but I feel like this is an important aspect of disability representation that is all too often over looked.

You can write the best, most accurate portrayal of a specific disability ever put to screen or page, but it won't mean much if all the other characters, specifically those we're supposed to like and empathise with, treat your character terribly for being disabled and having needs relating to said disability, especially if the story justifies their behaviour.

You see this most often with autistic characters and especially autistic-coded characters. The character in question will be given a bunch of autistic traits, most often traits relating to not understanding certain social dynamics or sarcasm, and when they get it wrong, the other characters we are supposed to like jump down their throat, tease them or outright abandon them. Autism isn't the only disability that gets treated this way, but it is one of the more common ones that get this treatment. It doesn't matter if you do everything else right when creating an autistic character if the other "good guys" constantly call them annoying, get angry at them or laugh at them for the very traits that make them autistic, or for advocating for their needs.

Likewise, if you have a leg amputee character who is otherwise done well, but is constantly being criticised by their allies for needing to rest their legs or taking too long to get their prosthetics on, it undermines a lot of the other work you've done. Same goes for having a wheelchair user who is accused of being a bore or a stick in the mud because they point out the places their friends want to go to on a group holiday have no wheelchair access, or a deaf character who is accused of being entitled for wanting their family to learn to sign, or anything else.

This isn't to say you can never have moments like these in your stories, but its important to remember that a) people with the same disability as your character will be in your audience. If you spend a whole season of your TV show shaming your autistic character for real traits that real autistic people have, they're not exactly going to feel welcome and may not want to hang around. b) it's going to very, very heavily impact people's perceptions of your "heros" who do this, especially in they eyes of your audience members who share the character's disability or who have had similar experiences. This isn't like calling someone a mean name or being a bit of a dick when you're sleepy, it's going to take a lot to regain audience appeal for the offending character, and depending on exactly what they do and how frequently they do it, they may not even be able to come back from it at all. And finally, c) there should be a point to it outside of just shaming this character and saying the other guy is an asshole. Like I said before, you're character is criticising real people's real disabilities and the traits or problems that come with them, things that they often have no control over, it shouldn't be used as a cheap, quick way to establish a quirky enemies to lovers dynamic or show that one guy is kind of an ass before his redemption arc. If you really must have your characters do this, be mindful of when and how you use it.

#Writing disability with Cy Cyborg #Quick tips #Disability #Disabled #Disability Representation #Writing Disability #Writing #Writeblr #Authors #Creators #Writing Advice #Disabled Characters #On Writing

[aquaquadrant]

I recently found yours Hels to Pay AU and I love it so much that I'm going to rant about things that I find really neat in no particular order

Helsmits names:

Dr. Clear - MumboJumbo. It took me a while to get it but wow it makes sense seeing as the phrase "mumbo-jumbo" means nonsense and clear is the opposite of that. Also funny considering the coherentness of each one

BadTimesWithScar - GoodTimesWithScar. Classic

AnimosityGaming/Timmy - SolidarityGaming/Jimmy. Wonderful. Animosity and Solidarity are opposites as well so that's cool

bXMiner - XbCrafted. It's the two halves of MineCraft. Also reverses the letters of his name

Bravo - Tango. Derived off the phonetic alphabet I would assume

Dbubs - Bdubs. Reverses the letters of his name

Patho(s? I'm not sure) Lair - Etho's Lab. Ethos and Pathos are Greek words meaning character and emotions respectively. Lair and Lab are similar to each other. And they have similar nickames taken from misreading their names (Etho Slab and Patho Stair). Genuinely my favourite name of yours.

You have other helsmits but I can’t think of more words for them so moving on

Dr. Clear is Alister's spy. He told Bravo about Tango indirectly just before they opened the portal, and also managed to get Atlas to slap him in front of Bravo. He's also incoherent enough (faking?) that Atlas wouldn't consider it

Dbubs pathologic lying? How sometimes he doesn't even realise it? How when he did and said something he didn't mean (I hate your stupid face) he felt bad?

Pathos feeling at home in the crimson jungle. Feeling absolutely horrible for ignoring Dbubs whispers whenever he leaves.

Pathbubs is my new favourite ship but god they're about as healthy as that Panera Lemonade

I'm not saying Tango's theory about confusing the universe is wrong, but where was Tango's Portal meant to go if that was the case? It was an actual Universe Portal, so it's not like someone figured out how to make one and then left it there. I think the Universe made the id display to Bravo as Hermitcraft so he would enter it, because Hels just sounds like a bad place. In my head this means the Universe looked at Tango and Bravo and said, "my bad, you need to switch places"

Now that Tango and Jimmy are in Hels, once the Portal is broken, they will be unable to escape back to Double Life by themselves, as their coordinates will still send them to Hels. They will need to meet up with someone else's doppelganger to get back to Double Life.

Thank you for writing an amazing AU

thank you, i’m glad u like my hels names! it’s something i always spend a lot of time thinking abt, deciding where i wanna pull the name from, whether it’s an opposite thing, helsification, name scramble, or some other significance. clear’s full name is actually clear cut, which is even more of a contrast to mumbo jumbo, and it is technically pathoslair but he goes by patho the same way ethoslab goes by etho, dropping the ‘s’.

ah, pathbubs… i love them sm… man i really need to write more of them sometime 😂 absolutely unhealthy but DAMN they compel me…

as for your questions about the universe portals… i’ll just say that no player has figured out the real explanation for the swap yet. they’re working off what they know and certain assumptions they’ve made; in tango’s case, the assumption that he’s an evil creature who would never have purposefully been brought to hermitcraft. in bravo’s case, the assumption that tango’s mere existence resulted in a massive mistake (even tho plenty of other players have joined hermitcraft without being swapped with their hels counterparts…). they’re silly gooses <3

anyway thanks so much for sharing ur thoughts, i LOVE to hear what y’all are thinking and theorizing about with regards to the fic. it’s like enrichment for me.

#hels to pay au #HTP ask

[oloreandil]

i've been having random thoughts about death note happening in more recent years, with social media as a widespread method of communication and identification

doxxing / finding names and pictures online is so easy right now, Light getting the power of the eyes would only really hinge on finding out L's name. the few criminals whose identity can't easily be found online would matter to him even less compared to the loss of half your years

i still think Misa would take them for the convenience and romantic appeal of immediate deathly powers (by the way. taking the eyes again steals half your life AGAIN. Light pointedly would not stop her, especially since people's internet presence would have wildly changed already)

rigidly pseudonymous identities outside of your trusted circle would become the norm in my opinion, with web extensions to hide your ID in all previous posts mentioning you, and counter extensions to show them again (popularised by pro-Kira blogs who want to engage in doxxing). i can very well see discourse around "what do you need to hide :/ I'm a publicly law abiding citizen which is why I don't care that my name is out there" as it is literally a "counter argument" in the conversation around privacy laws right now

there would be lots of forum threads on finding out how Kira kills in the same way we have massive discussions around fan theories, and the sheer amount of ideas and brainpower usually leads somewhere, but it's also gonna lead to burying less popular theories regardless of how correct they could be. L and the Task force (and then, Mello and the SPK) would have to sort through thousands of reposts of the same popular arguments

callout culture would be absolutely horrible, too. people would 100% make up fake crimes so Kira would punish someone they don't like, even though i don't think Light would take the Minoru approach of asking people for information. he doesn't trust anyone else to do it properly, but can't get proper sources at first and i'm sure innocent people would get caught in his net. i wonder how that'd reflect on Kira, if people would start to question his god-like powers because of poor media literacy or if people would turn against those who tricked Kira and "tarnished god's hands" or something

those would all be fantastic tools for L, though. fake articles published by real news sources using his influence, but with various kinds of ID available on each criminal so he can pick up which are actually relevant. a variant of his "only in Tokyo" news report but on social media, to see where Kira might have an account and follow that trail. fake profiles of real people to see if Kira would kill them instead of the Lind L Tailor murder on TV. i don't think he'd show his face nearly as quick as he did in the manga, if at all, and he'd definitely never go to uni with Light in case someone gets a picture (or he'd have to do massive damage control to remove every instance of his face posted online, with added pressure after the appearance of the second Kira). i think he'd probably only show his face to the task force or Light when his suspicions are so strong he kidnaps Light and Misa

social media would be banned from the Task Force HQ but it'd be way harder to erase their social presence, especially Aizawa (his wife posts about their family life) and Matsuda (previously very active). that would be one more reason to make them resign from the NPA sooner. reposts of old articles start to appear when people notice that a large part of the Task Force has been wiped from police records - the list of police Kira investigators could have leaked, putting further pressure on them to quit as the pro-Kira crowd massively doxxes them

i'll probably add more to this at some point and i'm really curious if other people wanna share their ideas !

#death note #meta #i thought about including it but i am not touching the deepfake discussion actually skjbvb #olorea talks #dn #txt

[papayajuan2019]

What’s your email address? I can’t send you money because I live in Canada but I can send you an e gift card for Uber eats or something else online that you think would help. Also please put up an online tip jar and take what people give you for your writing even if it’s silly. Or ask if any artist friends want to turn your writings into comics and work together. Or start a sub stack. It’s not evil - you’re being read online anyway. You can stay anon. Take what you can get positively for your sensitivity because you are taking the suffering and negativity from exposing yourself constantly anyway. It’s hard to be so sincere you might as well get compensation for putting yourself in such a position. Someone needs to fill that role for the sake of everyone’s hearts and you’re filling it for free. Don’t just get the damage. Take the good too. You deserve more. Sorry for lecturing you, I know it’s not my place.

this is genuinely such a thoughtful message, and so sweet too i didnt know how to respond at first. you were thinking up ways to solve this problem for me... like that is so sweet to me. it's okay to lecture me, sometimes i need a lecture. sometimes i need the reminder that it's okay to ask for help. it's still a very new thing to me. sometimes it doesnt hit me that choosing to become so open has helped other want that too. that sensitivity can be appreciated if i share it. and that i deserve to take a bit of relief when it is offered. though i think in this case i can manage without setting up tips or anything yet. i think i'll find a way to manage til the end of the month. it's not like i dont have the money, it's just that losing my wallet has temporarily removed my access from it. ive been managing by using my phone for payments, though banks make it incredibly difficult to take out cash without a card lol

ive thought of setting up a substack or something, though i dont think i would feel right charging for people to read my things. i have complicated feelings on asking for money in exchange for my creative output. if i had it my way id write for everyone to see and never ever have to worry about money. we'd all be free to share back and forth forever.

also youre giving me some great ideas, in regards to sharing my writing with artist friends. i hope to one day work on a comic or storybook with someone. thats a dream.

dont worry sweetie, i'll figure this situation out. like every situation, it's only temporary. seeing your message yesterday reminded me that i'm very much cared for. that if i ask for help people will help and not turn away. i dont need the help just yet. but it is so relieving to know that i would receive help if need be. thank you so much for reminder. it helps much more than you can imagine

[the27percent]

YOUR MUSE'S INVENTORY. [original meme from @treasurechestrpmemes​.]

rules: list the things your muse carries in their pockets or bags in their every day life. (optional: explain their significance.) repost, don’t reblog.

POCKETS.

fingerless black gloves - if atieno doesn't have them on, these are contained in their pockets. it's an easy to access accessory and they feel a certain kind of presence in putting them on.

casual cosmic shards/minerals/rocks - they pick up all kinds of weird little rocks and things as a part of their constant movements throughout the universe. they are glad to share these with a friend or someone they meet, just because they knew these are rarities and they exactly where to find them

occasional snacks - although atieno doesn't really need to eat, sometimes they will just carry an energy-bar or some kind of weird snack with them in the area, just so that they have a thing to bite on when they are bored, and thinking about where they want to go next.

custom carved knife - it's something they've forged from incredibly dense material, embedded with a personal power - that can cut and tear through whatever they need at a given moment. it's formidable it's flexible. it has somewhat 'spider-y' imagery on it for reasons only they seem to be privy to.

wallet/pouch thing - it's probably not a formal wallet, but it holds a little currency of varying types. a card connected to a distance account that they have set up and take care of over the years. also contains an 'id' but maybe not one that would be easily recognized. they know they are a walking issue. how much they genuinely care seems to vary. it's a dark blue bag with silvery streaks embedded across it.

a few hair-ties. they sometimes like to tie their hair up. and they need a few reinforcements on hand just in case something happens.. and they need to tie their hair up again real quick.

communication device - it is ... not strictly a cell phone. it often operates like one. and they can make calls and texts. but ... the sheer range in how it reaches out and how effective it is .. clearly is beyond the tech that is often available on earth. they have an update every... few years or so. they have a regular source that they collaborate on updates with .. it's a very durable piece, and it has a few little space-y charms on it. one of the more recent updates allows them to listen to music - so they indulge in all the moor mother, funkadelic, missy, nina simone, max roach, pharoah sanders, death, pure hell, living colour and .. so many others they could possibly get their hands on. it's been a nice, nice update.

BAG.

when a bag is spotted on atieno - it's often a black or dark blue small messenger bag or backpack. even when it's not there.. it's probably not far. results of pocket realm access and all that.

black and blue notebook with a pen or two. or three(they like pens) - atieno takes a lot of notes about their surroundings, their journeys. they take the time to process their thoughts, emotions - using a combination of languages and tongues that often would confound anyone trying to read their writing. and yet it would blur together - images, stories, feelings could be evoked in what they are writing. they take a lot of time for documentation even if it may never really get seen. also the better a pen's ink flows, the better. they are always seeking that next level flow. so to speak.

headphone-equivalent - they've always.. enjoyed the over-ear sensation more than anything else. although they do have a few ear buds they use for convenience. if they are alone, they will take the time to relish in the sounds of an over ear, surrounding experience of music and sound.

hair-wrap - when they are resting in their more 'human-ish' form they do tend to wrap up their locs for convenience. it only really makes sense. they've tried a few varieties over the years and developed their preferences. a lot of dark blue, purple, black - starry, gothic, images show up in their design choices

books! - atieno is usually carrying a book - often about history of civilizations across the universe, the world, music history, about marginalized groups- they had been on a black arts movement kick recently because of their distant relative, z who was was deeply inspired by it. they also read poetry, literary criticism and satirical books from across the universe - along with scifi, horror. and maybeee the occasional romance. you didn't hear them mention that though.

an extra top - often a button down shirt or loose blouse. sometimes they just don't want to be bothered with people noticing them wearing fishnet tops so they will throw something over it to give themself another layer. may incorporate a scarf as well depending on the temperature of the environment they are in. not because they are cold (they don't seem to mind cold at all), but.. just to be a bit more uh 'subtle' sometimes.

personal gift - this tends to rotate from time to time, atieno keeps varying gifts from others at their little hidden cluster hideaways that they have. but they like keeping small items on them to remind them of a person or place, or for the sake of comfort. it's nice for them to fidget with and appreciate about their connections.

tagged: @imsobrooklyn @tximidity

tagging @bewitchingbaker @oddlies [for muse of choice] @dethqveen @moonspower

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[thisismehappy]

I need, for when they finally have their *conversation* for it to be long single takes. Few edits. Id prefer a bottle episode. Stuck somewhere. No choice but to talk it out. In the words of Abed from Community "They're wall-to-wall facial expression and emotional nuance"

Basically I want a play.

Do i want the script to have an outline and have M and C improv the rest? Also probably.

Sorry! I think this got buried in my notifications! I don't get very many asks and I just saw this in my inbox which I never usually look at.

This was a lot so I figured out how to add a cut. See below. 

Generally, I'm not a *huge* fan of bottle episodes. Pragmatically speaking, bottle episodes serve a purpose in the TV industry as a low-budget episode because they only need to use one set for the whole episode and there are no location shots and relatively few actors and probably no extras. That puts a huge amount of pressure on the writing and the actors and it is, as you say, more of a play format which makes sense given everything I just mentioned. Most of the time they feel, to me, like the writers and production team are trying to *do* something in a way that as an audience member I don't actually want to be aware of. Like maybe they're swimming beyond their depth. It feels forced, is what I'm saying. Forced and itchy and uncomfortable and I find myself checking the time every 2 minutes waiting for it to end. So I almost never hope for a bottle episode.

BUT I have really liked Mariska's bottle episodes on SVU. I'm thinking specifically of Something Happened, Part 33, The Year We All Fell Down, and 911. None of which were perfect bottle episodes, as I recall, because they did have some movements to other sets and some location shooting and things like that. But any 43-minute show that has Mariska on my screen for 40 of those minutes is fine by me. And she tends to do really well with them. I get the feeling she enjoys the challenge and so she puts a lot of herself into them. She won a freaking Emmy for 911 after all. I also think if it was an EO episode, she would be so beyond focused on making it perfect bc this has been her dream really since day one imo. (There's a clip floating around if Chris giving an interview in season one and Mariska runs up and hugs him and says, "He's playing a detective that's in love with his partner," or something along those lines.) And I think Chris would be great at it too. So all that to say, I do think the actors are up to the challenge.

I worry about the writing a bit though. While I understand where you're coming from, I'm not sure I'd agree about them just ad-libbing it bc to me this is something that needs to be pretty carefully thought out with a clear understanding of the implications of the words and a pretty specific memory of the past events they're discussing and the actors are great, but they've been part of this for 24 years and aren't going to remember everything. Someone needs to go back and reference old episodes. If a bottle episode happens, I want that script to be *crackling* with subtext. I want to hear Elliot apologize for not being there and Olivia say, "I know you can't spend your life looking over your shoulder to make sure I'm okay." I want them sharing a drink. I want her to have to blink a light at him to show she's okay. I want him to ask if anyone's taking care of her. And I want him to cradle her in his arms like he did in fault and spooked. I don't expect all (or realistically any) of that too happen, but I think a carefully, beautifully written script would do this moment the most justice. Idk if the writers are up to that or not, but they've been showing us things this season that (mostly) give reason to hope.

The actual plot of a bottle episode is where I get tied up though. SVU is a police procedural above all else and every other bottle episode they've ever done has been related to solving the mystery of a case. An interrogation, a hostage situation, a mystery girl on a phone, and argument in a court house waiting room. These are what we've seen before and what we would expect to see from a show like SVU. An EO bottle episode is uncharted territory. Is there a case that's going to be taking up half the plot? I cannot imagine them really talking unless they were alone so that rules out most of what we've seen before. (Although, Olivia having to interrogate Elliot for a crime while half the department stands on the other side of the window does sound *delicious*.)

A court house argument could work, with the aspects of the case hitting *all* the wrong buttons for them, but it's been done before. Some kind of escape room type scenario could be really fun and interesting. Where they're trapped somewhere and need to solve a mystery to get out. That could be on point and very them, but unless it feels like life-and-death, idk if there would be enough of a driving force to get them where they need to be emotionally.

If I were going to write a fic about it, it would be a situation where they were maybe chasing a suspect or investigating a location and no one really knows exactly where they are and they get hurt and trapped somewhere. Personal preference, I would have her more hurt than him. I want it to be kinda enclosed so maybe it's triggering her claustrophobia (which she has if it's my fic). I want him to need to pull some of her clothes off to help with her injuries and find her scars from William Lewis. I want her to ask him to take Noah if she dies. I want him to be in serious pain from his own injuries but feral to save her. Maybe in the end, his recovery time is worse bc he does something stupid to get them out. I think the fear of death and of missing their chance to be together might be what it takes to make it finally happen. These two are very stubborn. If they were just trapped in a room together with no other problems idk if they'd get there. (Maybe, he's pretty motivated now, so that would help. But idk if he's going to push her too hard if she's really fighting him in it.)

Also, they're gonna kiss if it's my fic, and imo, their grievously-injured bodies are about the only thing I think would keep them from going all the way the first time they kiss. And I don't mind that either, but the idea of them finally being together, but having to wait 6-8 weeks to get medically cleared for sex sounds really fun. The first day in the hospital is very *serious* but the second day features them both trying to check out AMA and him hobbling his way into her room and making out with her in a hospital bed. They're going to get busted multiple times by different people. And yes, realistically they should be traumatized, but things worked out in the end and they've got the world's best security blankets. And I think even Liv's shrink would tell her to go for it.

#lol that was a lot #thank you for triggering my ramble #just thinking thoughts #olivia benson #elliot stabler #svu #law and order svu #asks #although i don't think you asked for that

[menalez]

I'm assuming you're a Muslim, and I truly apologize if you're not. But how do you deal with being a lesbian and not feeling any guilt or shame or even fear! I struggle alot. Same thing with viewing Islam as a religion when there's so many sexist and patriarchal things about it, but I can't let go because this is my religion.

im not the best to ask about reconciling religious beliefs with one's sexuality because i was never religious and was always skeptical of religion overall & in my case islam specifically. but ill share my process in hopes it will help & for those of u who come from more religious backgrounds, i encourage you to share your wisdoms with anon as i know my experience is not aligned with what anon needs.

so, i came out when i was 18 and i was very much afraid. i was mostly afraid not because i thought id be going to hell, because that idea didn't make much sense to me anyways, but because i was afraid of the reality of being gay (& especially a lesbian specifically) in my country. i literally felt like a wave of heat take over me and felt this weakness i can't even explain, its like i had a really high fever or sth. i knew i would lose the love & respect of many relatives and that id never be able to actually live a decent life in my country. we are so far behind in terms of gay rights, its not something people talk about yknow and theres no kind of community or orgs for us because its illegal to "promote" it in any way which means its illegal for such an org to even exist. theres no support for us.

at that time, i did look into more liberal & progressive interpretations of islam. it did help me a bit and it made me feel like i was doing something and promoting change that will maybe ultimately help gay muslims like myself. i thought maybe it would be possible to change how muslims view homosexuality bit by bit. so i looked into those things and surrounded myself with other gay muslims and would read about the interpretations from this one gay imam and id argue all the time about how qaum lut (people of lot) were actually not punished for homosexuality, that theres no actual mention of homosexuality, and that what is actually being criticised is them committing adultery (they were married men) & rape for power. i argued they werent even gay anyways and its been misconstrued for homophobic reasons.

i did this for a few years until i realised it was fruitless & theres no changing bigots, but looking at those interpretations at least did give me some kind of peace of mind that this idea of women being inferior and gay being a sin and all the other nonsense most muslims believe is at least not believed unanimously. so... idk how helpful it is but id recommend perhaps looking into that? it was part of my process & journey and maybe it'll at least bring you comfort and a peace of mind. the way ive seen religious muslims also think of it is like, it makes no sense to make gay people and then single us out for something we did not choose nor can change and just reaffirming the fact that if god does exist, then god would love gay people too. idk. good luck tho anon & i hope someone else has better input to provide

[remtheenlightenedone]

Hashtags imma use from now on....

So idk if this is a thing, but I made a few hashtags for my post to specify it's my post. Just bored and wanted something to list too. Alright:

#just thoughts / #rem's thoughts = my two cents, comments, opinions, on a specific topic

#mental wellness / #rem's mental wellness = mental health related stuff in general. Sometimes I might not tag as such.

#no offense = in regards to jokes that are sarcastic, crude, or just a tidbit out of pocket. Usually just an autistic thing.

#bruh = "I can't believe you posted this" / "did they really say or do that?" (Not op, the person they mentioned) / funny and/or random post. Not a bad thing.

#no sleep / #2 am thoughts = comments passed bed curfew or midnight

#quotes = shared or reblogged quotes

#inspirational / #motivational = quotes, stories, poems, etc that are meant to inspire and encourage positive outlook on life

#rem's vegeta f/o = regarding "my" Vegeta. Not anyone else that shares him.

#positivity = general positive post

#f/o positivity / #fictosexual / #proselfship positivity / #proself-ship community / #f/o community = I am neither on any side but the proship community in general has always been chill so I made these tags in case. But it's in regards to f/o or fictosexuality in general. I don't pick sides. I refuse to.

#rem's philosophy / #philosopy = covers theism, agnosticism, and philosophies I share that consist of stoicism, minimalism, Buddhism, and daoism. Some might be christian based but dw I'm not a Christianity zealot. I follow God for how I believe God to be.

#rem's (insert mental disability/illness here) = anything related to Autism/Asperger's/Autism Spectrum Disorder, ADHD or with both just AuADHD. Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Atypical Depression, or any other thing I haven't listed.

#rem's manic panic! = If im self aware enough, I will tag this. Usually I tend to make longer post or can't articulate myself in less word counts so I go on long tangents. It's usually caused by hyperactivity or mania.

#err of caution on rem = rem's not themselves, possibly paranoid, and needs help. Give them a hug and some treats and comment positive things. They will thank you. Also a tag to indicate that I'm not myself. May not be mentioned during times of distress or illness.

#rem the poet = poems made by rem. They're not the best but they're fun to write.

# rem the burned out artist = artwork that is either finished, wip, detailed, simple, etc and consist of watercolor, acrylic, graphite, or digital drawings on ibis paint. Hardly post though

#rem loves it = when a like on a post isn't enough to show appreciation for it and op

#🙏🏽❤️ = your post has been praised / appraisal

#❤️ = shorthand for rem loves it

#rem rebukes = for negative post that has negative speech, words, phrases, etc. Or tells someone to unalive (ex. kys)

If rem thinks it speaks from a dark place, rem rebukes it. Also to rebuke on their own post that speaks of toxic or negative people.

#rem thinks this is positive 👍🏽 = self explanatory

#rem's positivity bookmark / #positivity vibes #positive thoughts / #positive = for positive post, quotes, etc.

#rem likes pokemon / #rem's pokemon= pokemon related stuff

#this is why rem likes atla/tlok = for topics relating to atla/tlok or any zutara content

If I think of any more id definitely post them in an update ✌🏽

#rem's hashtags

[yerbamansa]

Ohhhh my god, so I wrote a novel-length fic over the last five months and I just…need to write down some Thoughts on that, because it hadn’t happened before and I have no idea if it will again, just seemed worthwhile to collect myself a bit. To be clear: I’m…really proud of myself?? Who knew I had it in me! And I think it’s a fun read! I learned a lot! More under a cut if you care to read my ramblings.

The gdoc containing my initial outline of ideas was created on October 29, 2022. I shared it with the group chat from whence the idea came, because I was planning to participate in a daily prompt challenge in November so I wasn’t going to have time for it yet. By late November, quite a bit of work was happening in the doc—a proper outline with a three-act structure I borrowed from various writing tips websites and then wandered off on my own with. I’ve never written something this structured and long before, so I searched for some structure tips.

I found a few different forms (a 9-block, 27-chapter structure; a three-act checklist) that I ended up using almost like a self-survey/brainstorm. A couple passes through that, plus trying to work it out as a character/timeline spreadsheet, gave the whole thing a much clearer shape. I knew I wanted to alternate between Ed’s and Stede’s POVs, but not limit it to theirs. Early on I decided that Oluwande would be a third POV character because (a) I love writing him and (b) the crew’s perspective is REALLY IMPORTANT. Then, because I used Lucius as an outsider, he became the fourth POV, introduced at the beginning of act 2.

[ID: A bar chart showing word count by POV character. Ed has over 34,000 words, Stede about 26,000 words, Oluwande 13,000 words, and Lucius a little under 10,000 words. End ID.]

But it’s not like I had it 100% perfectly mapped out at a chapter level, nor did I know exactly what details would…emerge. Like, I knew the shape of the details, but I kind of worked them out as I got to know this version of the characters better. The outlining process was kind of my draft: I went through it to get to the point that I could sit down and outline each chapter (or two ahead, in some cases) and then write it.

Very few things were written out of order, but the scene where they’re trapped in the storage closet was written well before I finished chapter 1. And I thought it would happen later than it did. I really thought I was gonna enemies-to-lovers these guys! 😂

There were a TON of details/potential plotlines I thought about including, but ultimately decided not to, either because it was totally out of my lane to do it justice (ex.: literally anything to do with Ed’s heritage and food—I read up some and whew, it’d have to be its own story, and not really mine to tell) and/or because it would’ve overcomplicated/distracted from the plot as it unfolded. There was a whole thing where Stede was meant to pull a Christopher Kimball thing and screw over the magazine by starting a rival publication and, you know what, there was more than enough drama to mine from just the Bon Appetit Test Kitchen debacle(s).

The idea came from a group chat, and the same group chat was instrumental in helping me flesh out a bunch of character details. That was fun. That’s also where my main beta reader came from. It’s funny, I’ve written on and off pretty much my whole life, but rarely had an editor like this. It was very collaborative and challenging in the best possible ways, I think; especially with something this long, it really helped to have someone who knew some of what was in my head but wasn’t nose-deep in it.

While it hasn’t been a runaway hit or anything, it’s had by far more eyeballs than anything else I’ve written in this fandom. Definitely a lot more comments than anything else, which is fun. Some folks I really admire have said kind things and if that didn’t make me all 😊 well. (It did, though.) It was because of those commenters that I got a sense of how it was coming off—that it was, and could be, fun and frothy and still touch on subjects that were difficult (labor rights etc.) without making light of them. At least, that’s what I hope I pulled off in the end.

There were so many random little side routes and ideas that came up while thinking about and writing this that I really had to make a series. For the one-shots. For fuck’s sake, I put too much into building out this little world and this version of each character not to.

And if one of those ends up being some kind of E-rated fic involving Mary and Evelyn, like, posing for Doug with fresh fruit still-life and it turning into A Whole Thing, so be it. (It didn’t make the story text, but Mary and Evelyn are married and Doug is Mary’s guy who lives in the guest house out back. Also they make cooking YouTube videos together as a trio. There will probably be one-shots about them because Evelyn was too much fun to write.)

#my stuff #kitchen mistakes #test kitchen au #writing about writing #collecting my thoughts for myself mainly

[egipci]

in terms of why someone may otherwise remain completely anonymous online apart from stating that they’re disabled, again i think that’s just a case of everyone finding a different balance of what they’re comfortable/safe sharing vs what you have to disclose about yourself in order to form connections with people.

if i want to meet other people who like a tv show i need to make it clear that i like that tv show and am looking to talk about it.

if i want to meet other trans people and discus our experiences being trans i’ll need to be comfortable identifying as trans online, since that’s what i’m looking to form community around.

in the same way, if i want to form a community with other disabled people where we can talk about what it’s like being disabled to other people who get it, i will at the very least have to disclose that i am disabled.

but, in all of the above examples, i don’t NECESSARILY have to disclose anything else about myself. i might, i could, but i don’t have to. whether for privacy/safety, personal comfort, or any number of other reasons.

that’s my thoughts anyway! i do have slightly more complicated feelings regarding disclosure of information and identity online. i think some people need to be a bit more careful about the stuff they put online, i find it wildly jarring to come across blogs that seems to have someone’s entire fucking medical history in their bio, but to each their own. i can’t begrudge someone for wanting to connect with others, even if i think some aspect of their method is unwise

id be interested to hear your thoughts too, but no pressure obviously. hope you’re having a good day etc etc

I totally get what you mean about seeing someone's entire medical history, but I also find it very curious when I just see "disabled" because that covers a ton of different experiences, which would necessitate further disclosure eventually if you want to form a connection with someone else based on that (but maybe not?). Like I just said in the previous answer, I tend not to be very optimistic about "online communities," and I share your concerns about privacy online, so there is that as well.

I think I also have some cultural(/maybe religious?) and personal hang-ups about identifying as a "disabled person" or even characterizing my disabilities as such (it literally felt so weird to type "my disabilities" just now) because they're 1. invisible so it's kind of hard to distinguish what's "normal" and what's "abnormal" and 2. I've only very recently gained access to the medical care required to get professional diagnoses, and I've never thought anonymous online friends could have helped me with this kind of stuff. But maybe they would have, and I hope that does work at least for some people. <3

#asks

[systems-overloaded]

"i hope your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, you never have to carry more than you can hold. i hope youre right there getting where youre getting too, i hope you know somebody loves you~~ i hope your dreams stay big~ yeah this~ is my wish for you."

idk who sings this, or the song name. but it started to play in my head, after id posted previous vent abt nervous-ness and wanting to just have a nice time.

someone within sent it to me, so i thought id share in case its a message someone else needs to hear. sounded pretty, maybe country??

[kimium]

Ugh i'm in love with your fic singing in the rain, i'm assuming the point of it was to just set a scene and let it hang there but i figured id ask if you had planned anything out as to how the plot would have developed had it continued? Stuff like if owain would have staged a third accidental meet up or if they genuinely would have run into each other again, or if theyd end up getting involved romantically before owain's identity was revealed or just how that reveal would go in the first place. Of course if you haven't thought about these things i understand and it's just props to you as a writer that your story got my mind racing like this so thank you regardless!

(They are referring to this fic in case you want to read it.)

Hello, Anon! Thank you so much for this ask! I'm so excited to answer this!!! I'm also so happy to hear you love the fic! You are right that I wrote it mostly to set a scene and didn't have any plans for it to continue. However, I do have a few thoughts I'd love to share.

-Owain would have 100% tried to stage another meet up with Leo and Niles. There is simply no other option they have. They need a lead in their case. Leo and Niles are that lead. So, even if Owain didn't want to do it, he'd be forced to be Severa and Inigo. "It's the easiest option!" they'd cry and Owain would have no choice.

-That being said, just because Owain is asked to stage a meet up doesn't mean it would go according to plan. I'd probably switch things up and have Owain genuinely meet them accidentally because that would subvert our expectations (and Owain's).

-I would, without a doubt, 100% have Owain become involved with Leo and Niles romantically BEFORE his identity is revealed. I'm too in love with dramatic reveals and especially ones that cause tension. Now, there are two camps to how I'd want this to go.

Option One: It's revealed completely out of Owain's hands (meaning someone on the opposing side, maybe Iago) revealing Owain's secret to Leo and Niles while Owain cannot stop them.

Option Two: Owain comes clean on his own accord and just tells Leo and Niles, probably when he feels their romance isn't a fling or one time thing anymore.

Regardless of way, tension would happen. Leo and Niles would feel betrayed by Owain and wonder if he was stringing them along only for information, does he really love them, etc.

-I'd also have a dramatic reveal to Owain's powers. I hinted that he has supernatural healing (he does) but what else does he have? I don't know. I'd probably keep everything in the realm of healing magic so nothing cool and "flashy" as Owain would put it. But his views on reality are skewed towards "if it isn't seen in a Super Sentai then it's not cool".

-I might have found a way to incorporate Camilla/Severa and Xanlow because I'm so trash for those ships. If not, it would be fine, but those options are always present when I write Trio and Nohrian Royals.

-My plan was to obviously bring in Mikoto and Anankos somehow into the story. How and to what capacity, I do not remember. All I know is I wanted to write the Hoshido royals too.

-Corrin would still be in Nohr and I planned for them (and the Nohrian Royals) to know nothing about Corrin's past. They're all victims in Garon's tyranny to certain degrees so it wasn't as though the Nohrian royals were doing bad things.

And that's about all my small thoughts to this fic. Again, I am so happy that you enjoy this story and the elements in it. Thank you again for sending this ask! I had a lot of fun revisting this story and thinking about the ideas I had for the AU!

#personal #replies #fire emblem fates

[buttonofreset]

Privacy

I always have a private life. Despite me being public on my main socials, most of what I do remain to myself and to myself only. Maybe a hint of what I do, I will share but majority of it, stays private with me. Thus the creation of this blog: to remind me of who I am in reality; and at the same time, to remind me of what I do, done by somebody who's not the real me.

What do I mean the real me. I have this alter ego I really crafted well. Name, address, birthday, school, and even a fake ID. There are times that the real me and my alter got mixed up, but it's actually not that bad, it's okay I guess.

Here comes the crazy part. I made this alter ego to protect my real identity from the stuff I do because these stuff that I do are beyond the ordinary. I did those mainly because I just really wanna try it, experience the thrill, know how it feels, discover what it's like. I can say it is NSFW for the most cases hahaha! Therefore, I have this alter ego I created so well, I guess, to protect the real me.

The real me won't do those, or so I thought. The real me wanna try all those things my alter ego could do or willing to try. Why is the real me scared? I don't really know either. My alter gives me the freedom to be someone I am not when I am me, the real me, but I have and need to be really careful.

I am telling you, it is not easy to pretend to be someone else. You have to be careful in choosing your stories to tell and to always make sure to stay away from the real you without getting to far from the real you because the source of your alter is the the real you. That is when and where it gets really complicated.

There was new law passed in my place of residence and I have to comply. I don't wanna give more details but to share the idea of what I did, I used my fake ID to comply to the newly passed law. Fake IDs are not allowed of course. The tricky part is that I have to do it again using my legitimate documents for the other things I have to comply. There is this post verification process I still don't know what covers so I am hoping I am not screwed because this could potentially be jail time and losing my license.

But, I hope they could listen to my reason, that I only did what I had to do to protect my identity, to protect myself from anybody that I cannot fully trust.

#alter ego #alter #trust #protect #privacy

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

hm ok i know it was ages ago but i still wonder which way my ex is spinning the story tbh. i mean i know some of it?? he is portraying me as abusive and predatory. why? cus i lost my shit with him a bare handful of times? cus i didn't continue to treat him like i worshipped the ground he walked on, after he abandoned me and got married to someone else?

abandonment.

i built my life around him, accommodating him, caring for him. that's on me, yeah. ive learned since to not do that so much. but i was in my early 20s, still very young, when i met him, i didn't have a solid grasp of myself, much less my boundaries; which i could not set or enforce. in fact, a lot of my ex's behaviour was aimed to erode my boundaries. he needed to be included in everything. he needed to have my attention, constantly. if i wasn't giving him attention in the ways he wanted me to, it was always my fault.

so then he took off for a month and during that time left me adrift.

and I've been afraid of changing

cus I've built my life around you,

and then when i tried to be in contact during that month, he shot me down and accused me of guilt tripping him... for doing exactly what he wanted me to do literally the entire rest of the time.

when he got back, it was the perfect storm. he was married, had had a taste of the life he wanted to live. a life that didn't include me, at all, he had made that very clear in his behaviour towards me during that time.

he said he didn't owe me anything.

that was the moment i decided that well, in that case, I didn't owe him anything either.

and the months following that were awful, as he found ways to punish me for this. interspersed with joy the likes of which I'd never felt before - as I decided to come out of my cocoon and move on a little bit myself. as i fell in love with my now feyonce, i, too had a taste of the life i wanted.

and with my ex blaming me, bitching about me loudly where i could (& had to) hear, whining about how he just wasn't a priority to me anymore, somehow i felt disinclined to invite him into my new life, my newfound joy.

it turns out that if you tell someone that you won't be taking their needs into consideration anymore, that you don't owe them anything, they might end up not wanting to make you the number one top priority in their life anymore. huh. fancy that.

he punished me for it relentlessly for about 9 months before finally leaving.

in his side of the story, i had abused him.

had deliberately kept the relationship unequal (even when i actively empowered him to get his own income. even when i encouraged him to have his own life, pursue his now wife, pursue other friendships and relationships).

i had enabled his drug addiction (which he already had when he met me; it was medicine for him you see. if id pushed him to give it up that would have been held against me just as much)

had been violent (once grabbed his arm during an argument. and then when he was married and i found out that his WIFE thought we weren't sharing a bed/room anymore, i told him to get out of my room. i threw his clothes in the hallway once. SO VIOLENT)

I'd insulted his wife by calling her ugly (he called her ugly first and i routinely got punished for disagreeing with him)

i was a nonce (we were both adults when we started dating)

I was disrespectful of his boundaries (his boundaries were "i don't wanna hear about 🐻" and then "you violated my boundaries by not telling me you were going out to see them", his boundaries were "you gotta look after me and help me out even if im being an absolute shithead to you in the process" and "you can't talk to my friend, our mutual housemate" and "you can't rant about this situation on twitter" and "you can't go to see your partner for a park date". yeah)

possibly he's also saying i stole his cat or even cut him off from seeing pictures of him (he left malibu in my care willingly, acknowledging and admitting i was gonna be a better cat parent for him. i never said he couldn't approach me for pics and even now wouldn't shut him out if he asked)

anyway

yeah this post about boundaries got me thinking about him again for some reason. my life is so much brighter without him in it and i regret nothing??? if he wants to see pics of the cat he's more than welcome to ask for them. i would be happy to share. Malibu is so happy these days. a confident, loving, playful little boy. he's in excellent health and loves to chase string and he loves his sister so much. he loves 🐻 so much. he's so happy.

that's my takeaway from this. my cats are happy. they love my partners and they love me. that's all i need. t b h.

#i need a tag for my own rambles #apologies for the rant #still not over this tbh