#but i wanted to because i love this rp so damn much

[shhh-secret-time]

Baby please, I am begging you to get out of the tags!! You can't keep those headcanons there! Because when I read that Butters is the museum owner in your Au I squealed so loudly!! He would be so cute! Getting all stary eyed everytime you bring something in??? AHHHH! 💖💖💖💖

Yes!! He starts off just so sad that the museum doesn't have anything. Constantly cleaning the display cases even though there's nothing in there.

But the farmer (you), come around with the little trinkets you find at the mines. Digging things up or finding them while fishing. And like you said he just gets these stars in his eye. (Yeah he still lost the other one)

Goes on for hours if you'll let him! Speculating the history behind the dwarven artifacts. He polishes those gems with such care! Butters is the happiest he's ever been since leaving the big city.

I think Kenny and him decided to just runaway one day. They grabbed Karen and moved out to the valley!

(That way if you ship Bunny it works, and if you don't it's just two besties supporting each other.)

As you start bringing in more things he starts looking over at the front door more. He perks up expecting you to come in covered in dirt, but he thinks it gives you a certain charm. He can smell the earth on you and immediately associates you with a flower of some kind. He'll change the flower pinned to his shirt to whatever that flower is. Got red hair? He's got tulips. The prettiest blue eyes ever?! Hydrangeas put carefully next to his heart. Oh you think your brown eyes are boring? How dare you, they're patches of soil that help support life!

Dude practically has hearts fluttering around his head when he sees you. Lips quivered into a smile, trying not to giggle just because he's nervous.

I swear his one heart event would be him crafting you something. He works with Scott to build a display case for it and sends it to you. It's not so big that it won't fit in the mailbox, maybe like a little box. It'll be something that doesn't belong in a museum but maybe one day it'll be in the house you share.

I'm working on Stan's sheet right while I'm at work! I'm writing up heart events like he's gonna be in the game ☠️

Tag List: @hunnysnoops @apple-butter-tea

#south park #stardew valley #star park au #leopold butters stotch #butters x reader #butters x farmer #i guess? #god damn it guys #this shit is so wholesomely sweet #i wanna rp now #sp fanfiction #south park fanfiction #reader insert #south park x reader #x reader #apple-butter-tea #I do this for you baby #i know you love that little dandelion with all your little heart. #if nft butters is the bad time line #i hope this is the good one #he has most certainly banned eric from the display area #that doesn't stop him and it makes Butters so nervous #hes just tapping his fingers together mumbling #not that I think Eric would ever go in until he finds out Butters doesn't want him there. #then it's game on #I also can't decide if Kyle should be the doctor or the teacher for the kids #because...I like professor Kyle #I like professor Kyle very much #BUT THEN WHO'S THE DOCTOR????

[the-blaze-empress]

ahahah what if chapter 3 of tmatimry came out like. tomorrow? or something? idk just a silly little idea i had lol.

(yeah it’s happening i wrote another chapter in a night it hasnt even been 20 days since i started this fic and ive got 13.6k words already)

#original thoughts in their natural habitat #god my mind has been entirely consumed by this damn fic lmao #im not complaining i love it so much #but like goddamn i literally cannot remember the last time an idea had me in such a vice grip #something something writing for myself and not others #something something writing something i genuinely enjoy and not something i just think is neat #something something actually writing an idea when i have it and not forcing myself to do things i dont want to do instead #something something im still learning more about myself and how i work and this is so. nice #im actually really enjoying the process of writing this fic and not just writing it because i want to publish another chapter #writing it because i want to write it #sorry to the rps im in rn im being consumed by kidza and dadnoblade #(im not sorry actually)

[ghostlykeyes]

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HEARTSTEEL KAYN/READER : KISSES ♡ Gender Neutral ♡ SFW, NSFW under bold header ♡ TW: Sexual Content ♡ Please don't ask me how much I spent on RP when the skins released!!! IT'S NOT RELEVANT !!

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KAYN

Kissing Kayn is damn near indescribable. It's all his passion, his excitement, his energy, all focused on you. It's like, well...picture this. The pins-and-needles sensation when your leg falls asleep. The burn of sunbaked summer pavement on bare feet. The gasp that comes when you get shocked by static electricity. Hazy neon signs, spicy cologne, ice water after mint gum. Somehow, Kayn feels like all of this at once.

Kayn really likes those double-sided mints, the ones that are half strawberry. He's usually crunching his way through a pack of those, so it's not rare to kiss him and taste a hint of strawberry and the coolness of mint.

If you think you're going to get away with giving Kayn a tiny peck on the lips, think again. Go ahead, try to whisper your lips against his and pull back. "Uhhh," he raises an eyebrow, scowling, "what's that bullshit about? Come back here." Kayn slides a quick hand around the back of your neck, all-but-crashing you back into his mouth. He doesn't let you go until your bottom lip's shiny with his spit, and your cheeks are heating up.

If you catch Kayn when he's extra sleepy, though, you might get some sweet kisses out of him. Pull him close as he's stirring in bed and pepper kisses across his cheeks like freckles. He'll squish you to himself and lazily touch down on your forehead, your temple, the bridge of your nose. He's the sweetest when he's half out-of-it.

Kayn has zero shame. He will kiss you in front of anyone, and he will kiss you anywhere. If you want a kiss? You get a kiss. Anytime, anyplace.

Just because he's gone full-Rhaast doesn't mean he loses the urge to kiss you. If anything, his urges get stronger. The need to have you, to show everyone you're his, to be so close to you there's barely room to breathe in between. Often, he'll tip the edge of his mask up just to put his mouth on yours.

His favorite place to be kissed is his neck. Kayn's extremely sensitive there. If you attack his throat with little love bites, pausing over his Adam's apple, he squirms into your touch, sighing happily���you might even coax a giggle out of him, if you're persistent enough. (If you call him out on it, though? He will never admit to such a cute noise. "I was coughing," he insists.)

Kayn's favorite place to kiss you? Well, if you're in public...he's a classic mouth man. He loves nothing more than the softness of your lips and the warmth of your tongue.

N S F W

If you're in private, though? Kayn's favorite place to kiss you is just below your waistline, right on the edge of your underwear. He lingers there just before catching your underwear between his teeth and tugging them off of you.

Kayn doesn't kiss you during sex, so much as he attaches to you like a leech. His mouth is always on you, always moving, up and down your neck, hovering over your chest, pausing on your shoulders. And he bites. Gently, most of the time, but he's been known to leave bruise-dark hickies in places spilled over your skin. He's especially rough if you're topping him, riding him within an inch of his fucking life. Kayn's been known to leave teeth marks if you're really blowing his mind.

Who would Kayn be if he wasn't at least a little bit disrespectful to everyone, always? He loves to spit in your mouth. Don't worry, though, he takes it just as good as he gives it. If you spit in his mouth right back, he's instantly so hard it's almost painful.

#heartsteel #heartsteel headcanons #heartsteel kayn #heartsteel x reader #kayn x reader #kayn/reader #sheida kayn #kayn

[houxe]

Regarding my SBI/DSMP Fics

TW: Abuse, Trauma, and Mentions of Suicide.

With all that has happened, I did want to come out here and make my stance clear. I will always stand with Shelby (Shubble) and all of the victims who are speaking out against Will Gold (Wilbur Soot). If you still support that bastard, unfollow me and leave my blog and whatever small community I made.

I've already stated this is my Discord channel, but I want to put it here too.

For me, c!Wilbur is so far removed from cc!Wilbur that I don't connect the two. The characters are vessels for my own characterizations and stories. It's a bit like writing Supernatural*, Twilight, or Hazbin Hotel fanfics. I don't support the guy, monetarily or otherwise, he does not interact with fanfics, I have plans to be very vocal that I'm on Shelby's side no matter what/make it clear that what Will did is wrong, and I don't use his real life events as plots in my stories. At least, I certainly don't try to. It's why I typically change traits about the characters. (I.e. Tommy is shorter, Phil is taller, Techno is bulky, and Wilbur always has golden/hazel eyes.)

I'm aware that it's a tad different because it's rp and not something like a full on book or an actor in a movie, but DSMP has also been over for over two years and the characterizations I make for SBI are not at all based on the CCs. Real life Techno isn't a literal terrorist, Phil ain't a father married to a goddess, Tommy is not a traumatized child soldier, and Wilbur isn't suicidal and blowing up countries.

I think I'll likely focus more on Techno, Tommy, and Phil for a while, but I'm not gonna let one dude ruin a fandom and things I've made for myself. Nothing I write is ever made for Wilbur, as I've seen people saying. Additionally, Wilbur was not the only writer. Technoblade, Philza, TommyInnit, and so many others made that story what it was. Not him.

However, if any CCs come forward saying they don't want their old characters interacting with his, I will respect that.

Though I do think there is a tendency to take real life events (i.e. Techno's cancer, LJ's music, Tommy's real life parents, etc.) and put them into fiction about DSMP. I, however, don't try to do that and have stated before that I don't feel comfortable doing so. The truth is that we have not gotten any genuine SBI content outside of DSMP for years. The dynamic in real life is very different from what was presented in the DSMP. Did personalities still bleed over? Yes, I'm not going to deny that, but I'm not going to act like they're exactly the same between character and person either. We've had that conversation like in 2021, it's why we have C! and CC!.

The rather sad truth is, SBI is what got me really into writing and it's a comfort for me that nothing can compare to. Obviously, I don't think it's appropriate to be writing certain types of stories right now or to be involving characters made by CCs outside of the DSMP. I think it's up to everyone else to decide on what they want to do, however, rushing it also isn't the way to go either. Give yourself time to heal and think it over first instead of throwing away something that gives you comfort and has not been associated with by the creators for over two years.

Anyways, fuck Will Gold. Fuck the fact that he hurt so many people, and fuck that he lied and manipulated his way around the damn internet. ESPECIALLY fuck the fact that he tried to diminish what he did and not take proper accountability.

Go and support Shelby so so much, she and everyone who spoke out really deserve it. I'm glad silence on these types of issues is not being normalized.

Here is a list of (American) resources for DV help:

TNLR

RAINN

WOAR

Love is respect

The Trevor project

Futures without violence

National domestic violence hotline

Resource on what DV and abuse looks like

*Changed it from Harry Potter to Supernatural because Harry Potter is a significantly worse and more problematic franchise, even just within the content of the books. It'd be better left in the dust. I've talked about it before, but it was the first thing that came to my mind at the time and was a poor comparison on my part, I'm truly sorry for that.

#tw abuse #tw suic mention #dream smp #ao3 #fanfic #shelby support #tw trauma

[sand-through-glass]

Rambling a Commander theory again...

One thing I consistently noticed throughout the story is that whenever we're put into a "worst fear" situation with the dragons or demons, while Dragon's Watch tend to be manipulated on the topic people they've hurt/lost (Jormag messing with Braham about his guildmates, or in Mordremoth's mind when we confront his mother for example.)

But the Commander always faces themselves. This happens repeatedly in the story. Now I imagine that it's a writer's technique that they don't want to tell the player what THEIR commander is traumatized/troubled about so using a "fight your worst self" is a pretty safe bet from a writer's viewpoint to remain neutral enough that it can be built on in RP but strong enough that it makes sense for the story.

But I like to think it runs deeper than that, that this genuinely is their worst fear. That they fear what they're becoming, what they're growing into. It's brought up a few times in attempts to manipulate the Commander that they don't care about their friends. Which of course isn't true, but as a fear? I could absolutely see the Commander being afraid of losing themselves in their attempts at saving the world, that they forget how to be close to people and feel like they can no longer relate to anyone because they've just been through so. damn. much.

Eir in Gyala Delve, as well as Almorra, back this up to me. They could have gone the angle of "you were too late" or "there was more they could have done" to hurt the Commander but they BOTH said similar things to them; "I was nothing to you/You don't care that these people love you."

So it keeps coming back as a manifest, there's no one event that haunts the Commander in particular, it's what these events threaten to turn them into that they're so scared of. So whenever an enemy wants to manipulate them, the best go-to is to fight the worst version of themselves because that's what they truly fear.

Because maybe on some levels, it's true. Maybe buried deep down, the Commander is struggling to relate to the common man because after the dragons and a god, how can you go back to small talk? Maybe the Commander is suffering from compassion fatigue deep down and finding it hard to care about the smaller things now. Maybe they are as chaotic as people say, and they just don't see it anymore because the traumas of war have just all blended it together.

What if the worst version of them DOES exist, just under the surface?

#gw2 #gw2 commander #guild wars 2 #just rambling #idk man

[estranha-de-all-star]

FUCK OFF! I KNEW THAT WHATEVER RP FOREVER, PAC AND CELLBIT ARE GOING TO DO TODAY I WAS GOING TO BE SOBBING AND I WAS FUCKING RIGHT!!!

Dude the moment those three are in the Order, with Q!Forever locked up and Q!BBH and Q!Philza helping Q!Cellbit to locked up Q!Pac too, and they starting to talk with each other I just knew they would make a great RP

Q!Pac was SO afraid of everything and didn't want to be alone ans sad anymore, and Q!Cellbit going to him and saying with so much confidence that he was never going to be alone again because he was there? Knowing their past? I got chills!

And Q!Cellbit saying that it was thanks to Q!Pac that they got an antidote? And Q!Pac voice was so broken and so unbelieving, as he was so surprised that he really was able to make an antidote and did it, and helped Q!Cellbit to save Q!Forever (As Q!Cellbit said "Esse é meu queridinho!!")

I just started crying

And dude! Q!Forever? The way he was suffering, the way he screamed and cursed at Q!Cellbit, fully believing that it was Cucurucho and saying he was going to explode everything if he didn't give back his son and the other eggs! And just breaking down and answering Q!Cellbit (wich btw, did really well on trying to take answers from Q!Forever before giving the antidote to him), and then saying that the eggs runned away? Because there is something MORE dangerous than the Codes and the Federation! I was so shocked by that, because in a way, he was able to take from Cucurucho what happend to the eggs and from that they can trace a plan to find the eggs.

Oh my God I fucking knew that those motherfuckers would make me cry, but damn it, it was so good!

Ps.: the moment Q!Tubbo got there and intentionally breaking the moment of the lore was so funny

My man was so confused with everything and Q!Cellbit just saying "Dude dude, don't step here it's a trap, wait up there" and Q!Tubbo just "Okay I will hide on the wall, like I always do"

I just lose it.

It was so funny, oh God, I love Q!Tubbo. Never change, king.

Anyways, today was amazing, truly truly amazing, can't wait for the event on the 16th!!

#qsmp #qsmp brasil #q!cellbit #q!forever #q!pactw #qsmp cellbit #qsmp forever #qsmp pac

[verycharismaticdragon]

Can I ask your top 10 fav fics ever (from any fandom, if you don't mind)?

Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "verycharismaticdragon "?

I'm not the best at remembering things past the hyperfix, so half of this will be SV, but I'll start at prev fandoms for variety.

Artificial Nocturne (Motorcity) - I've read this ages ago but I remember it rearranging my brain chemistry. And making me realize I had a scar kink.

An Abomination, Grand Cleric Elthina's Murderer and the Herald of Andraste walk into a Bar (Dragon Age) - it's probably abandoned but it's so good. Anders and Varric in this are so *incoherent gesturing*

intra-personal negotiation (Venom) - I don't understand why I didn't bookmark a single Venom fic even though I distinctly remember like 5 straight bangers, but thankfully I'm following this author at least ✊

deathbed (Qi Ye) - that time I was whining there were no first life JBY/ZZS fics and then! Anyway it's understandably melancholy it's also very pretty and exactly right as it should be.

the good rain knows when to fall (TYK) - you should be reading Bichen's entire discography fic collection I just remembered this one first. This one is lighthearted old foxes clowning! The author's angst and cannibalism are also top-notch 👌

Ok now to SVSSS.

Joyed to be Forlorn - THE binghe fic for me. inspired me to start digging into Luo Binghe's character in a way that resulted in Transmigrator Time Traveler, hopefully thats recommendation enough

continued - possibly THE best fic in scum villain fandom. the format alone... oh just read it, you'll see what I mean.

A Child Once - again, i could rec Tossawary's entire discography, but this one is my personal favorite. (if your fav character is SQH though, the one you want is pride is not the word I'm looking for. aka THE sqh fic.)

sweet tongues, sharp teeth - unfinished but raw enough to lodge itself in my brain despite that.

Tale Within A Tale - cute as fuck. made me kick my legs and giggle many times. ...and because once I started pulling up SV fics it was difficult to stop...

side effects (rated E) - part 2 in particular didnt have to go so hard for a fic where the premise is 'bingqiu with tentacles'

don't underestimate me (rated E) - "all for the sake of preserving biodiversity!" god shen yuan SO would be in this situation.

The Best Luo Binghe (rated E) - binggeyuan. shen yuan SO would be in this situation, take 2.

put me in, coach (rated M) - bingqiushang. so fucking funny okay i love it so much

from your knees (rated E) - bingjiu. they're so rancid in this one its perfect 🖤

...Damn, this really puts the difference between my non-hyperfix and hyperfix memory into perspective, huh 😅 i actually had to trim the sv list a bit 😅😅😅

Anyway, yeah, my username actually just references an rp session we had with friends quite a few years back. Where at a certain point my character was referenced as "a VERY charismatic dragon" after managing to turn the antagonist by impressing them (thanks to some VERY lucky dice rolls). And I was dissatisfied with my old username at the time, and thought it sounded funny and snappy enough, so - stars aligned and all that. I'm happy with it still! Probably because dragons are always cool ✌️

#svsss #motorcity #dragon age #venom #qi ye #tian ya ke #<- for org purposes on my blog #😘 thanks for the ask!

[paper-mario-wiki]

Your Trollsona is such a damn cool concept! I love the sheer insanity that the RPS unfolds into and I gotta ask, how does their Captchalogue and Fetch Modi work? Those are always another fun bonus way characters quirks are shown

Not quite!

The Sylladex object recovery and creation system is COMPLETELY separate from the RPS system.

Total mastery of the RPS fractal would be DESTRUCTIVELY OVERPOWERED, considering if you knew exactly how each object interacts with the other, you'd be able to instantly resolve any conflict with a single action no matter what. But this is near impossible because the RPS catalogue accounts for all possible concepts, not all possible objects. This is why a double-sided barcode is used instead of the typical hole punch system. You can't captchalogue a kick in the nose, after all.

Each line in the barcode represents a single binary digit. With each digit added, the amount of possible values goes up exponentially. Within only 10 lines in the barcode, 1024 values are possible. But what's even MORE exponentially gigantic is having it be double sided, because then it squares itself instead of just doubling itself. So a two-sided ticker tape with 10 bars on each side would be 1024^2, or 1,048,576 different values. And that's with a code that fits within the circumference of a nickel.

However, if you refer back to the gif with the ticker in it:

That's WAY more than a nickel's length.

And that’s an absolute necessity, because every possible concept must be accounted for. The system is pretty fucking wildly, multiversally, insanely gigantic. Hence the need for extremely dense data to get anywhere.

And even then, the bar code doesn’t actually grant you access to the item that its value represents. The only thing it does get you is access to all relative values, or everything that interacts with that object in a meaningful way. The RPS Chart acts as a gigantic excel spreadsheet which catalogs and calculates how one thing could reasonably negate, counteract, subvert, or otherwise destroy another thing, and vice versa.

You can't just KNOW where something is on a fractal, you have to find it. Like how theoretically you could find every single number combination within the digits of pi, but you'd still have to go looking for it.

Imagine it like playing the Wikipedia game, where you can only get from one place to another by clicking through links on pages, except instead of words with context on a screen, it’s dozens to thousands of arbitrary binary digits. The longer the code, the more quantumly hyper-specific the item.

You're going to have a lot easier of a time finding "cup of water" than you are "Betty McLaughlin's Red Diary From 1997".

This is why Kippyr has to spend as much time studying it as they do, because navigating through the chart with any amount of grace would take several human lifetimes to accomplish. However, with the Seer of Mind classpect, as well as their countless hours of diligent observation and experimentation with the chart, Kippyr is able to gracefully navigate through the fractals with the instinctual finesse of a sea turtle in an underwater slipstream.

NOW. Onto the topic of a Fetch Modus.

Kippyr is a slow adopter of it. Fetch modi are not a necessary element in the Homestuck world’s set of natural laws. For the majority of their life, Kippyr'd prefer to just use their satchel and pockets to carry all their stuff around. But as they progress further into Sgrub, and their session becomes more demanding and complex, they’d eventually develop one that works seamlessly with the RPS system:

The RPS Modi. The way it works is simple: Just throw the shape of the object which would beat the object you’re looking for. If you wanted Rock, you’d throw Paper, if you wanted Paper you’d throw Scissors, and if you wanted Scissors you’d throw Rock.

Simple! Just don't forget the hand shapes :^]

#rikuredo #homestuck

[jupiterredolent]

ALEXIS GETTY & SAM COLLINS

I think what appalls me is that people scale over these crucial details when defending Alexis' actions against Sam. It has me scratching the crown of my head every time. By all means, say what you will about her, but do not proceed to tell people they are in the wrong for having opposing views toward Alexis, specifically speaking with the audience on Tiktok.

Now to start, in the seventh video of the Vampire Mate series, Audio RP| Getting Closer to Your Vampire Mate, Sam states, “She (Alexis) and I were friends of the sort back when I was still human. The kind of friends that don’t do much talking when they’re together if you catch my drift. I didn’t want anything more than that and she kept saying she felt the same.” [8:01 secs - 8:30 secs]

Sam stated clearly that both he and Alexis had a mutual understanding of their relationship and that it would be nothing more than sexual. Thus, Sam never wanted and never saw an eternity with Alexis, nor was he willing to make that sacrifice.

“A friends-with-benefits (FWB) relationship is one in which two people are physically (sexually) intimate with one another, yet they’re not committed to each other in any way. People involved in a friends-with-benefits relationship enjoy spending time together, but their relationship isn’t romantic and has no strings attached.” said Lloyd, Stacy Laura in the article “What Does Friends With Benefits Mean and Is It the Arrangement for You?” in Brides, 26 Sept. 2022,

Sam was incredibly passionate about being a healer. In the Redacted ASMR Timeline in 1999, Erik explains, “Sam starts coursework part-time at the Dahlia Academy for Magical Novices, pursuing certification in Healing.” And then in 2003, “Sam graduates from D.A.M.N. with his certification in Healing and begins work in the field.” With this, we have knowledge that not only was Sam exceedingly diligent, but was also greatly motivated in his studies.

In D.A.M.N., it's not outlandish to assume that they learned about all different types of species and magics, one of which included vampires. In Audio RP| Getting Closer to Your Vampire Mate, Sam says, “ […] I told Alexis I could do it, but she starts talking about turning me. And I told her no. I said I can do this and even if I can’t, I don’t want that. I don’t want to live like that […]” From this, it’s not unlikely to assume that Sam had a general idea of vampirism and knowledge about turnings. It was also likely he had several vampires as his patients during his work as a healer. Furthermore, he knew if he was turned, the healing magic that he adamantly cherished and enjoyed, would diminish tenfold and would have to be learned once again. “[...] I was a healer. Damn good one. One of the best.” Sam explains [12:20 secs - 12:28 secs]

Sam was at peace with being human. He understood that becoming a vampire meant solitude and the inability to take satisfaction in minuscule things in life as he used to.

Taking a step back, in Inversion| The Void They Leave Behind, Lovely’s life source has been stripped away by Shades which leaves them in a grave condition. Because healing is unable to penetrate what's been done to their core, Vincent is left with the tough decision of turning them. He says, “[...] Do you want this? It’s forever. I love you and I will spend eternity at your side if you let me. But I won’t do this unless it’s what you want. It would be a new life.” [31:44 secs - 32:17 secs] From this we can gather Alexis, a much older vampire and under the teachings of William, had exceptional knowledge of the extent of turning someone, the consequences of doing so without consent, and, even more so, knew this very fact when she and Sam got into that dire accident that also left him with life-threatening injuries.

Back to Audio RP| Getting Closer to Your Vampire Mate, Sam tells Darlin’, “[...] She starts grabbing my head, tilting it to the side, telling me she’s gonna make it all better, and I told her no. Pushed her hands. She was too…” [13:25 secs - 13:52 secs] Sam not only verbally told Alexis that he didn’t want to be turned, but physically too. Physically tried to shove her away. Later, he also tells them, “She made me look her in the eye and dug her nails into my skin so my eyes snapped open so she could trance me, and then she turned me.” [14:31 secs - 14:48 secs]

Again, in Inversion| The Void They Leave Behind, Sam says, “Your body knows how, Vincent. Blood for blood.” And then Vincent responds, “Blood for blood.” [32:48 secs - 33:00 secs] This alone makes me feel even more unsettled and quite frankly sickened by Sam’s turning because not only did she drink from him, but she deliberately forced him to drink her blood.

Most of what I’ve seen on the defense of Alexis has not only made it seem that Sam’s suffering and trauma from his circumstance should be disregarded, but has made it seem she should be forgiven for her horrid actions and, frankly, crimes against him and his bodily integrity. Forgiveness is offered not owed, nor is it to be expected under any occasion.

That is all I have to say.

#redactedverse #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redacted asmr alexis #redacted alexis #alexis getty #redacted sam #redacted asmr sam #sam collins #redacted audio sam #redacted audio sam collins #redacted asmr darlin #redacted darlin #redacted lovely #redacted asmr lovely #vincent solaire #redacted vincent #redacted asmr vincent #redacted audio darlin #redacted solaire clan

[cinememed]

₍ 🎞 ₎   revolutionary road   (2008)  rp  starters  ! featuring toxic relationships, mature themes, violent & explicit language . some lines have been slightly adjusted for rp purposes .

you'll leave me? is that a threat or a promise?

so now i'm crazy because i don't love you? is that the point?

you're not crazy, and you do love me. that's the point.

i just wanted us to live again.

i feel sorry for you. maybe we deserve each other.

how pathetic is that? to put your hopes in a promise that was never made.

i made a disgusting spectacle of myself, right?

you were just some boy who made me laugh at a party once.

you're not worth the powder it would take to blow you up.

you're not worth the trouble it would take to hit you.

is it supposed to make me jealous or something?

what the hell are you doing in my house if you hate me so much?

you are an empty, hollow, hollow shell of a woman.

is it supposed to make me fall in love or back into bed with you?

in other words, you don't care what i do, or who i fuck, or anything.

you'll have the time to find out what it is you actually want to do. 

that's right, i don't care. fuck who you like.

don't you understand that i want you to care?

our whole existence here is based on this great premise that we're special.

i saw a whole other future. i can't stop seeing it.

you heard wrong. it's all gone now.

i want to feel things. really feel them.

we were never special or destined or anything at all.

you think you can bully me into feeling whatever you want me to feel.

have i said i'm sorry enough times already? damn.

i'm just about the sorriest bastard i know.

i suppose i would care if i still loved you. but i don't think i do anymore.

i've got many questions to ask and i'm willing to pay for the answers.

how about doing everybody a favor? how about shutting up?

you've never tried at anything. if you don't try at anything, you can't fail.

i think you're the most interesting person i've ever met.

nothing's permanent, right?

are you still talking? isn't there any way to stop your talking?

you're the most beautiful and wonderful thing in the world.

i have the backbone not to run away from my responsibilities!

you just seemed.. special. of course, you still are.

sweetheart, what are you talking about?

we can be happy here. i can make you happy here. 

when i first met you, there was nothing in the world you couldn't do.

i don't mean how you make money. i mean, what are you interested in?

good to see your shining face.

no one forgets the truth, they just get better at lying.

if you come any closer or touch me, i think i'll scream.

i've never really been anywhere.

i guess it wasn't a triumph or anything, was it?

i just don't want you feeling bad about it. because it's not worth it.

it strikes me that there is a considerable amount of bullshit going on here.

haven't i made it clear i don't particularly want to talk about it?

you're always so definite on the subject of what you do and don't deserve.

this time you're not going to get away with twisting everything i say.

this happens to be the one time i know i'm not in the wrong.

you're sick. i really mean that.

you know something? you're lucky you met me.

why don't we go get some air, you and me?

i missed you all day, and i wanted to say that i'm sorry.

i think this whole plan sounds a little immature.

you really are being melodramatic about this whole thing.

all i know is what i feel.

i guess there isn't much more to say then, is there?

all i'm saying is you don't seem entirely rational about this.

can't leave, can't stay. no damn use to anyone.

you should value what you do. you're obviously good at it.

#rp prompt #rp meme #rp memes #rp starters #rp inbox meme #ask memes #rp ask prompt #LONG ONE BECAUSE EVERY SCENE GOES ABSOLUTELY SICKO MODE #forgot my memes haven't been formatted like this before but now i'm too lazy to change it back

[spoopieere]

Very long rant

Just expressing my love for these slashers dw

I think none of you understand how bat shit crazy I am about Asa/Arkin and Preston/Jesse. Because- look, I’ve been all over them since 2020 okay? And for the past 3.5 years, I think about them daily. I think about them during meals, while I’m studying, in class, folding laundry- I CRY OVER THEM FFS. Istg I’ve been crying over them in silly angsts situations that I make up in my mind before I go to bed for the past years. I cried to the point that my old pillow cases literally got tear stains stacking and mold underneath bc of how damp it got. My crying got so severe that bawling my eyes out while thinking about them for 1 or 2 hours straight is normal. I cry about them almost every. Fucking. Night. If it’s mild, it’s 10-30 minutes. If it’s worse, 1-2 hours. If it’s severe, 3-4 hours. I cried so much I had to take water breaks, I cried until my head hurts and my eyes swollen. My nightly-crying streak record is 12 DAYS straight- where I cried over them every night. I can make myself cry on the spot if I think about them for too long. Sometimes they’d creep up inside my thoughts and I suddenly wanted to cry in public. I even shed a few tears during class bc I thought of them. They occupy my thoughts like a plague, I think about them so much that I just casually slip an “Arkin.” or “Preston!!” out loud- because I was repeating a scenario in my head. I even have a little self-insert to squeeze in there.

Once I got introduced to C.Ai, I got even worse because I literally cried from 11pm to 5AM while acting out the angstiest scenarios with the Jesse ai bot while rp-big as Preston. Don’t get me even fucking started on how many tears I shed over Asa ai bot while setting my persona as Arkin ( and vice versa ).

I’m so fucking obsessed I bought a black turtleneck bc I thought of Asa the moment I saw it. I always envisioned Asa as a cat. So now every time I see a video or pictures of cats meowing, abandoned cats or cats suffering, searching for their absent owners I just get sad then immediately get reminded of Asa. I compared Preston to a pigeon so now whenever I see any type of birds at all, I immediately think of Preston. I headcannoned Arkin to like fishing, so now IM interested in fishing. I have a ginormous amount of brain rot over these 4 mfs that- me and a mutual of mine, have texting back and forth all of our brainrot almost daily for THE PAST 7 MONTHS (since last June)- AND WE STILL HAVENT RAN OUT OF SHIT TO SAY YET.

AND- by the time I’m writing this it’s 5:45AM in my country, and I’ve just finished another crying session (over Jesse/ Preston this time) that lasted for over hour. Is this normal?? I don’t think it is. Idk what kind of autistic am I but DAMN-

#all I needed to say I said above #slasher #slashers #asa emory #collectkin #the collector #rottingcitrus #arkin o'brien #chromeskull #laid to rest #jesse cromeans #Preston #preston laid to rest

[bluheaven-adw]

i'm just a curious anon, who means no harm, but... how did you and j meet? i follow you for your art, which is beautiful by the way, and wasn't honestly expecting to stumble on the post he made abt you but the dynamic you guys have is sweet. honestly hoping to see more of it!

Short story? He ran a trollhunters RP blog @theonceandfuturetrollhunter ... which was fun to interact with, and the whole group of them.. we all kind of adopted each other. But then he ended up in the hospital with sepsis... and I stuck around and talked to him OOC every day... and we kept that going even when he was better and we'd picked the RP back up. It kind of grew from there.

Now... long difficult story, and I do have permission to post these things..

I've always put out into the universe, choose kindness, compassion, and love; and I've always tried to adhere to that. But at the same time I've always put out there that... I don't want kids, I would make a horrible mom (at least that's what I convinced myself of)... I can't even have kids now. And some of that might come from extremely severe trauma in the hands of an abuser... but even before those events. Point being... I didn't want kids. And the universe apparently thought I was wrong... and into my life tumbles this half feral kid with so much shit gone wrong in his life... undeservedly so... because he's caring, and sweet, and whip smart... sarcastic... but he also has mental health issues, and so do I. And the universe whispered in my ear... "he needs you"... and my heart answered the call. I stuck by him through almost dying of sepsis, through breakdowns and panic attacks, through family issues, and more... I've had moments where I was terrified I was going to wake up and he'd be gone... but some point along the way he became like a son to me, and at some point along the way, he started calling me mom... and damned if I don't wish I could make that true. I love him so damn much... and I'm so furiously proud of him. Like... you guys have no idea. I'd legally adopt him in a heartbeat if I could... because I want him to not just survive... I want him to thrive, to have all the happiness in life, to find his peace... I want to see him graduate college, I want to be there when he gets married.... has kids... I can't imagine my life without him in it... it's like he was always meant to be there. And I know there have been people who have given up on him, and practically abandoned him.... but I refuse to do that. He deserves better than that. He deserves that happiness, and love.

Gods... that got heavy... way more than you probably wanted to know. Sorry....

[sillyseaanemone]

i hadnt realized this whole lore moment happened with sunny and lenay’s corpse in the ocean but wow. watched some of it and i just cant stop thinking how damn depressing it is.

to put it simply, sunny wants connections. some of the older eggs were hesitant to be around her, and she assumed from many signs that it was because of her loud and materialistic personality. so she already feels hella insecure because she believes not many people like her. while she has a strong connection with people and other eggs, that insecurity cannot be shaken very easily. i also think this connection has to do more with her family.

like she was promised 5 parents to take care of her, but the only one to be here always is tubbo. not that it doesn’t mean anything, but when other eggs have such large families to take care of them.. it can really emphasize it in sunny’s eyes, i believe. she absolutely adores her father but its clear she wants her other parents just as much. being told “they’ll be here eventually” is hard to believe in anymore when its been MONTHS..

sunny’s a really fascinating character, and this moment with “mermaid lenay” was really fantastic rp i feel. i really would love to see how this may develop more for sunny’s character, and perhaps how it will affect her relationship with her other parents if or when they appear..

#livevodding #qsmp sunny #silly anemone rambles #i also really appreciated qtubbo in simply playing along with this whole thing #like that’s probably the best thing to do even with how strange and morbid it is for ur child to be talking to a corpse #best not do anything to emotionally harm sunny when it felt she was in a vulnerable state..

[haunted-plush]

Kenman nsfw headcanons + scenarios because I am HORNY

[Extremely aged up obviously, 100% consentual]

Kenny is smaller but he doms

Going to the movies together and only getting tickets for one seat, Cartman sits on Kenny's lap and over the course of the movie just casually starts to grind on him

Of course this turns into all out fucking

The poor employee that has to clean up after them...

Kenny calls Cartman Eric, he just does and he's one of the only people besides Butters and his mom to ever do that

Kenny knows Cartman liked stuffed animals so he got REALLY good at the crane game and loves winning him prizes

Cartman has a big stuffed animal collection [mostly from Kenny]

Some of them are just freinds, but some of them he likes to hump on when he's feeling horny

When they do voice calls together and Cartman is horny he'll put a strap on one of his plushies and fuck himself on it while they talk

Sometimes Cartman puts Kenny's parka on a stuffed animal and they have sex

Kenny putting his hand on Cartman’s thigh all the damn time

Or putting his arm around him

They have to be touching 24/7

The casualest of casual sex, they will literally hook up any day any time out of sheer boredom

Showering together

Fucking in the bathrooms of the local restaurants

Kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing kissing ki

Going down the lazy river at a water park and finding a corner to fuck in the water

Getting caught in the rain and getting inside not even bothering to take their wet clothes off before they get nasty

Having sex and Cartman deciding he HAS to hold onto one of his plushies, Kenny fucks him nice and good while Cartman just holds on tight

Superhero roleplay superhero roleplay superhero roleplay

He likes to wear his ears and tail just in general

Cartman growling and mewling in his raccoon outfit

COLLARS

LEASH

GOOD BOY ERIC!!!

VERY GOOD BOY!!!

It's a fashion accessory but they also find it hot

Fantasy rp, princess Kenny princess Kenny

Big movie nights where they prepare days in advance, big huge bowls of assorted snacks and Cartman makes delicious food

They love eating out and ordering food, Kenny loves watching Cartman eat [and feeding him]

Of course the classic "you got something on your face" when Cartman gets a crumb on him... Kenny will swipe it away and put his finger in his mouth or just straight up lick it off

Or just kiss him

Probably fucking before the movie is over

Kenny giving Cartman clothes that are too small but denying anything so Cartman goes out showing so much skin

Cartman gets so used to it that he basically goes to walmart in lingerie at this point

Kenny groping Cartman in public

Vibe in Cartman’s asshole while in public with Kenny's finger on the button

Sometimes he goes out with the vibe in him and he just has it on a low setting the whole time

Kenny being devious and turning up the vibe so Cartman cums in his shorts right there in the middle of the mall [he manages to hide it somehow and Kenny bought him new clothes]

Kenny just

Admiring Cartman

All his physical features

Cartman tracing his finger over Kenny's many scars gently in bed

Cartman falling asleep basically on top of Kenny

He enjoys the weight on him

And of course all the stuffed animals

Kenny learns all their names and begins to incorporate the naughty ones into the bedroom

"Coffee Kitty says he wants to have your kittens, Eric... and I think I have to agree with him"

Cartman being overstimulated and surrounded by plushies

Cuddles 24/7 naughty and otherwise

Full on nuzzling each other like animals

Kenny loves loves loves Cartman’s singing in general

But Cartman is really good at singing sensually to get him hot and bothered

Once he was just singing in the shower one day minding his business and Kenny decided to join him

Kenny absolutely loving that little period of time where Cartman steps out of a hot shower or bath and is in clean clothes and all warm and soft

He snuggles up to Cartman in bed who sighs and opens his robe for Kenny to come lay with him in the warmness

Holding hands and kissing all the damn time

#salty haunts your dash #south park #south park headcanons #eric cartman #kenny mccormick #kenman #kenny x cartman #cartman x kenny

[prince-liest]

This may be an odd question, but I believe you mentioned you got into writing because of rp(or at least into fanfiction?) And I was wondering how you transitioned into writing solo? Most of my writing is/was with a partner, but I've been trying to write on my own, and I've found it incredibly difficult. I'm told that what I write is still good regardless, but I've a hard time both finding enthusiasm for it without a partner to bounce off of or finishing whatever I'm working on.

This might just be a me thing and more to do with being self-critical, but if you have any advice, I'd really appreciate it. I just want to figure out how to enjoy writing again without jumping through weird hoops for motivation.

(You may have already been comfortable writing even before rp and if that's the case, feel free to disregard this question.)

I'd tried to write a bit of fanfic before my RP days with limited success motivating myself, so it really was very much RP that got me the skills and ability to be able to write full-form fics!

But more than mechanical skill, mostly I think the issue you face is very similar to what I struggled with for a while when swapping to writing fanfic, which is that a lot of the reason RP is so easy and rewarding is because it's such a profoundly social activity. You write a few paragraphs and then you get social feedback immediately from your RP partner in the form of chatting about it and/or the RP response you get! With fanfiction, you have to write a whole damn piece or chapter, post it, and then hope that you get comments if you want engagement - and then those comments are inevitably going to be a little bit less personal if, like me, you RP OCs that you put a lot of yourself into rather than pre-existing characters!

The problem with doing things for the sake of extrinsic motivation is that it kills your intrinsic motivation to do those things. This isn't a moral flaw, it's a documented psychological effect! Nowadays I write primarily because I want to see the things I put into the world, but that's fucking easy for me to say when I also have a large reader base and really enthusiastic commentors, isn't it? And it took me a hot minute to figure out how to transition to motivating myself that way rather than because I wanted interaction.

My suggestion is, honestly, to find folks that hype you up! I kinda crested that barrier by getting possessed by writing demons and pounding out like 60k words of insane Hawks-centric character study in one month during the 2020 quarantine, and I was lucky enough that people really liked it and immediately flooded my notifications with the kind of really lovely, long-form comments that my writing style encourages, which isn't really a typical experience. Those folks that hype you up, it is LOVELY if they are your friends, but sometimes what you really need to do is find the small social circle of freaks that are really into whatever niche thing it is that you are writing, and infiltrate their Discord. Ship-specific groups are really good for this! (Especially for rarepairs.)

But a lot of it is really going to be finding the balance of finding supportive people who will feed into your excitement, and also finding that part of yourself that finds the process of writing to be fun. Social activity is still 100% just a necessary part of the human experience, and I myself post snippets of my writing online and on Discord all the time for the little dopamine hit of "Yay! We're enjoying this together!" but it's become something I do because I want to share the joy I already get from writing, not because I'm writing to share it!

Which also means that you should write things that you enjoy writing. ;) Write things you are actually excited about - not just things you want to read, but things you think would be fun to write, and if there are boring parts that you're getting stuck on? Fucking skip them! I am not kidding! You think anybody thought it was a loss that I literally never even mentioned how radiostatic got together for the first time in 666? If they did, nobody's mentioned it, because it wasn't necessary to the story I actually wanted to tell. Literally so goddamn many of my fics start with cold opens because I don't like to bother with exposition until things have already gotten rolling. Fanfiction especially is GREAT for this because people are already familiar with the world you're writing in!

You are writing to entertain yourself! If it's not entertaining, don't fucking write it! Or figure out what about it is boring you, and then write it differently. This will have the splendid side effect of teaching you how to write transitions and also making a fic that is more fun to read. >:)

Anyway, this has gotten quite long, so: I'm sorry that I wasn't able to offer a great deal of advice, because I relate deeply to what you're experiencing but I basically got to speedrun the transition phase. I hope that it was at least a little bit helpful!

#ask #personal #Anonymous #writing advice #long post #thank you for this ask anon! <3

[anartisticdreamer0]

tallulah and wilbur rant

i think tallulah was trying to say that yes it’s nice that she’s loved by others, but if she were to die she wouldn’t be able to say she spent time with him and that as great as it all is she still misses him.

wilbur was right when he first saw her, that they met in the wrong time frame, he wasn’t going to have the time and he told her that. but he got endeared to her so much that he still wanted to try.

and he left her with as much of a structure as he could, he left her with a nice house (as protected as was allowed when he left) and a nice little area, and he spent time making connections with people to make sure people would take care of her while he was gone.

yes, q!wilbur is not present and yes cc!wilbur is obviously not thinking of any lore, but i think accidentally there’s really interesting lore to be told in the relationship between q!wilbur, tallulah and the rest of the qsmp.

tallulah really has it rough with it all, and it really makes me want to shove a laptop into wilbur’s hands. but obviously as it stands wilbur is a very busy guy and deserves any breaks he gets, but yeah it just sucks for her.

side note: major props to the admin for being able to rp this so well. she literally got handed one of the best storylines and roles, and made it work amazingly, she should get some damn awards.

edit: after wilbur’s brief mention of his character’s situation I FIND THEIR RELATIONSHIP EVEN MORE INTERESTING. he isn’t a deadbeat, he isn’t present because he literally can’t be. if it wasn’t so emotionally taxing for the cc, q!wilbur would have written more letters. THAT IS FASCINATING. i will be back at another time, when i have more time, but ooohhh everyone is in for it when i get the chance.

#qsmp #wilbur soot #tallulah #i have big thoughts and feelings