#but i will be !

[artcuse]

Everyday is a new opportunity to begin again. To be kinder, practice your hobbies, start a new book, be a better version of yourself.

#i havent been as kind as I should have been lately #but i will be

[chaotic-mystery]

Life when it heard I had plans to write all weekend and decided to make me go through the wringer instead:

#i am not well #but I will be #if I don’t get anything posted today it’ll be tomorrow I’m so sorry :((( #I love you guys

[ask-cthulhu-mythos-au]

Hey.

ok, I know no one's gonna care, and that it's useless for me to post this and ya.

But I just feel bad for not posting regularly, but uh, I'm not okay rn. And what I thought would be just a small amount of time off, is probably gonna be something like a month. I was about to come back because I thought I had mostly beaten what was going on. But uh ya, I relapsed and I'm worse now.

So ya...sorry. but I PROMISE..i think...I WILL COME BACK

#life update #update #announcement #post #i need some help #i need some sleep #i'm not okay #but i will be #trigger warning depression #tw sui implied #tw mental illness #mental illness #IF YOU NEED HELP GET IT #don't worry #i'll be fine #i hope you all understand #i hope you all are doing well #i hope you all have a wonderful day/night/afternoon #Be safe #Stay out of streets #Be strong #you are loved #you are worthy #you are enough #you matter #you are not alone #keep going

[cowardlycowboys]

greatest hits night selfie edition will be probably saturday just a heads up

#omg kiera no one cares #i haven't spammed you this much this year #but i will be #but everything is tagged with the two main tags so you will be fine

[ganondoodle]

(warning, near panic attack vent post)

i will spare you the details but my lil borther is moving out tomorrow and now its all crashing down on me, been in denial too long, i dont want to be alone here with my 60+ year old parents with health issues, i can barely take care of myself, how am i supposed to take care of them

i have like 1-2 online friends that live oversea, most of my immediate family i have barely contact with and i dont do well with them either, hes the only one i know that isnt exhausting to be around, and understands me .. and is queer

i feel like im losing my only support, the only anchor i had in life

ever since he got his current bf we have been drifiting apart too despite him still living here atm

im so afraid of everything, of being alone and forgotten, what if sth happens to my parents and i dont notice it in this big house

i dont want him to leave

i hate everything, im afraid of everything

im never gonna find anyone i can trust that would want to live here with me

i dont want any of this

#ganondoodles talks #vent #im only gonna talk here about it bc he doesnt have a tumblr acc #i dont want to be alone here #i dont want to be alone #i feel way more attached to him than he feels about me #i feel so childish #why am i like this #its all my fault too #if i was better at keeping the few irl freindships i have had #maybe i wouldnt be alone #but i will be #i will be alone #i am alone #you may laugh at this #go right ahead #get it out of the way #hes not gonna be far away #but i know my family #and myself #its gonna be like he disappeared #i just want a friend to live with #but im not gonna find one #especially not in a rural german village #bc i dont want to leave #i love this house and the garden and each tree #how each stone is arranged #... #i love it here #and i hate it here

[lifeafterwaking]

Today was the hardest it's been. After hearing that he's 'done' now after fourteen years. After moving into logistics of separation, it's clear that no amount of counseling will help mend this wound. Now I have to pretend to be fine, even though I'm in agony.

I'm not fine.

Nothing about this is fine. You sit there and look at photos with our son of times when we were happy. Well, when I was happy. You tell me you've never been happy your entire life. You sit there and listen to your sad breakup songs without thinking of how each word drives the dagger deeper into my chest until it's hard to breathe. I sit here and have to pretend to be fine.

I'm not fine.

But, I will be fine. There will be a day in my future when you won't be able to hurt me anymore. There will be a day when I can look back on this and say that this heartache paved the way for happiness.

There will be a day when I am fine.

#writing #prose #journal #after waking #I'm not fine #but I will be

[muncedes]

real recognizes real🫡

#not to be that person #but i will be #i just feel like me and everyone who agrees with me are hot girls and deserve sir joseph quinn and his love

[weaseltotheface]

me at one am: this is actually the best time to start working on my fic again :3

#i'm not tired but also we are going to see an apartment tomorrow and i should probably not be awake too much longer #but i will be

[card-queen]

ArtFight

Yes, I know, I'm early. But I wanted to make up my mind and vow to make time for it. I spent the morning adding the art and making thumbnail images. Now, to find time and put together some coherent and consistent written profiles...

If anyone else is gonna do ArtFight in July, feel free to add me! ArtFight

#gem art #my characters #artfight #not ready #but I will be

[fcb-mv33]

Max better win in Silverstone as a big fuck you to people bringing shitty flags about him…redemption in front of English fans I fucking pray

#rambles #he won’t be petty #but I will be #get the Dutch flag too baby

[bluebellhairpin]

i just want you all to know (again) that the main reason i'm "head down, hardcore writer mode" right now is because i desperately need to see everyone's reactions to kirishima watching [redacted] being [redacted] in the NEXT chapter. not this one. the NEXT ONE. the one i haven't even started WRITING YET.

#its a fnaf au if that helps #our poor husband will not be having fun #but i will be #nemos wips #the emancipation cycle

[unhingedselfships]

Realizing yet more things I thought were normal were in fact Fucked Up(tm) and that things were Worse Than I Thought(c).

#rambles #i am not ok #but i will be #im not giving myself a choice

[annierecovers]

this week was so freaking exhausting.

Like I'm tired on a level my body can't even comprehend. I was so freaking productive, but omg I feel so burned out and like I need to lie in a dark room for the next two weeks. I am so glad next week will be a little bit better.

But right now I just want that headache to stop. If only I could take pain meds and feel better, but unfortunately that's not how it works.

#mental health #i'm exhausted #depression #neurodivergent #adhd feels #burnout #autism #headache #chronically ill #I'm not in a good place #but I will be

[usbotthrills]

I’m going to my cousins house and I have to decide on two looks

For context my aunt, throughout the entirety of my childhood tired to pressure me into wearing ‘girly’ clothes (which, spoiler alert, didn’t happen) and she’s always been very subtly homophobic SO I have two options here…

1) I could look QUEER AS HELL, like to all in. Green corduroy trousers, bright David bowie t shirt, you know what I mean. The benefit of this is that I can be the cool, extravagant cousin who leads them astray from their mother.

OR

2)I could look masculine as humanly possible, which might be a little more boring but would REALLY piss her off. The benefit of this is that I may be able to help my cousins see a person who doesn’t fit these gender stereotypes they’ve been taught (because I’m not out to them and it’s likely I won’t be for a while to them SO I might as well let me being in the closet help someone, you know?)

Decisions, decisions

#my aunt is nice though #I’m not saying that #she’s just one of those people who isn’t educated enough about this stuff #but I will be #the cool cousin #and nothing can stop me #queer #trans #bi #I think #but that’s a whole other issue #either way I’m mlm

[sweetbutmostlysour]

My cat of 17 years, would have been 18 in april, just passed away tonight.

I got to hold her and tell her that I loved her in her last moments which made it just a little easier.

It's hard to lose a pet, it's even harder when that was the first pet that was fully and truly connected and bonded with you.

I use to joke that she was the only pet in the house that chose me.

Again, I'm glad I got to hold her and tell her that it was all going to be okay and that I loved her.

Tonight was a hard night.

#my text #pet loss #my pets #gracie #october has been a bad month for me #first my birds #now my cat #its been rough #im not okay now #but i will be