#but i’m not enough. i can’t keep up.

[stil-lindigo]

felt compelled to make this post after seeing the absolute mess that is my inbox this morning.

I feel like I’ve somehow made people think I’m an authority on this strike for some reason, and I just want to say that I am a random person simply trying to do my best, just like the rest of you. I’m neither Palestinian nor Jewish so please stop asking me to speak for either side and I am no more enlightened or educated than the average joe. I really can’t emphasise enough how much I am Just An Artist who makes comics sometimes.

I am happy to direct people to resources when it’s within my ability but I’m not like especially qualified to give advice. I am working with the exact same resources available to all of you and, I mean this as kindly as possible, there are some asks in my inbox right now that I know for a fact you could’ve just searched for on your own, instead of coming to me so I could spoon feed you a course of action. I am truly begging you all to have some initiative yourself in seeking out information and resources.

#this is a delete later eventually #but I’m gonna keep this up for as long as it takes for my inbox to calm down a bit #I really can’t emphasise enough how much my ‘resourcefulness’ is just me regularly seeking out ways to help and keeping tabs on those #it’s like. really not that hard

[manygreetingsfriend]

i’m sooooooo normal about the god of war series. so incredibly normal i liked it a normal amount and would be so chill talking about it. don’t worry about the sign

#god of war #i’m so so so so so normal about it it’s so whatever it’s so haha you know #something something when it comes to yourself you’ll let yourself drown before you change. you’ll die before you change who you’ve become #to survive this long #up to and until it affects the ones you’ve come to love in this life you’ve made for yourself and you suddenly have no choice but to change #it’s fine it’s ok it’s chill. everyone does this. #it’s becoming a parent and loving your child so much you HAVE to change. you HAVE to be better #we MUST be better. than they were. #who’s they. our parents. the gods that come before us. yes. #i’m screaming i’m crying i’m wasting away im disintegrating. there’s no coming back there no return #you are on your knees. you are gripping your son’s shoulders like they’re the only thing keeping you tethered to the earth. #you are struggling with who you are and who you want to become. you are promising to be better. #i’m so normal about parent(al figures) taking responsibility for their actions and choosing to do better #i’m not high enough to really express what’s going on here. can you feel it? can you fucking feel it? #this series has destroyed me. #dad of boy. dad(s) of boy. i will never be the same (affectionate) #can’t remember the last time i finished a series and went ‘oh well i’ve GOT to play it again Now That I Know’ #AND I HAVENT EVEN TALKED ABOUT THE BROTHER HULDRA!!!!!!!!! #sindri’s face. has not left my memory #i’m dying scoob #gow #gowr

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

I randomly get inspired to write weird stuff with Gabriel that I'm usually not even into and a lot of the time I get comments that amount to I'm not into this. Am I? or being surprised they were into it. Gabriel is just randomly inflicting this sort of thing on everyone I suppose

Gabriel Ultrakill has been reclassified as a gateway drug. Please keep an eye out for any suspicious activity.

#i can be your angle or yuor devil #metaphorical piece of ham/cheese that you wrap around a pill before feeding it to a dog #many things can be made palatable if you’re down bad enough #speaking from the heart #I would Not do that. oh but if he wants to it’s okay 🥰 #I’m being so tame and normal please. you can’t do this. you can’t enable me #I have work tomorrow I need to. relax #trying and failing pathetically to keep this account somewhat tame #non voice post #ask #asks #ask spam continues.. the dashboard cries #looks around nervously #i am so very scared and terrible at speaking #but if you really want to send me insane things I do have a Different Account For That #you gotta message me for it #but. I mean if you do that just know. I can’t even form coherent sentences #what im trying to say is that I can’t hold a conversation for shit #but. you can always send.. gabe things.. #ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ENOUGH. pack it up boys. im going to get shot if i continue

[sincerely-sofie]

*gently places angsty Twig comic in your hands*

There comes a point in healing, sometimes, where you must grieve the child you never got to be, and bury her along with the desperate hope of one day somehow becoming her.

It isn’t fair. And it never will be.

But you grieve the child, still.

#hey so do you think the PMD universe has a concept of PTSD or #I gotta admit I’m not so sure about posting this one either ;w; #i like. never make my angstier works public. so this is very new to me #man this AU really is just Twig Going Throught It huh #I promise it gets better #there’s a happy ending pending #Twig just has to get to a point where she can’t keep pushing things aside #she’s got to hit rock bottom so hard it knocks enough sense into her to ask for help #also when Young Twig appears beside Adult Twig she’s not literally there! #not sure if that was clear #Twig talking about how she feels messed up just reminded Grovyle of something she said while a human #it was a lil flashback on his end #*slips tumblr a $20 bill* please let this be less blurry than the last comic #stuff by sofie #the present is a gift AU #pmd2 #pmd eos #pmd explorers #pmd sky #pmd #pmd au #pmd comic #pmd grovyle

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: going thru my corny arc

#OKAY im back #sorry! working overtime pre paris airshow #i think I’m going to focus on this 80k of wips right now—just get them posted by the end of the summer #but u can keep sending in prompts if u want #and maybe someday I’ll actually be brave/creative enough to finish an AU #1. the frankly inevitable sickfic #2. this shit is so fucking corny but i literally can’t resist it anymore i just want them to say it all the time #3. have been slowly realizing lately that I’ve been slacking on how much the uranium mission probably fucked mav up #4. he is afraid of getting old & dying all over again #top gun #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #there’s so much thematic meat to be unpacked with ice’s cancer & eventual death #and I am sacrificing that thematic meat for my own mental health. #so you’re getting my analysis of mav’s death instead because i simply refuse to engage with an unhealthy ice #i know it’s wasted thematic potential & im sorry but i like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 cannot do it #we all have our little neuroses and ice’s death is mine #sorry I’m still in my ‘italicize dialogue to suggest surreality’ phase #i can literally track the very concrete ways my writing style has changed over the course of writing this series it RULES #progress!!!!!

[candiecarousel-art]

I like the mm1/powered up characters a normal amount (lying)

#my art :) #please don’t tag as ship #trying to redesign charas while also not looking at refs #becuz I’m just epic like that #gutsman gathers all his little siblings for the Titanic Noogie™️ #soon he’ll be powerful enough to noogie all of them… #except fireman I guess lol #the human!time man is so bad I was just trying to test how he’d look with afropuffs #timeman asks light to add platform soles to his feet to make him taller but he still can’t compete with oilman #this is canon now #he can’t reach anything in the chronos institute‼️flashman keeps putting stuff up high to mess with him‼️‼️ #fireman is a sad cowboy cuz I never draw him </3 #megaman #mega man #timeman #oilman #gutsman #elecman #cutman #iceman #rock mm #roll megaman #rockman #copy robot #Megaman? #idk how to tag these characters names some people spell it with spaces and others don’t aoughhhh #digital art #Megaman 1 #mm1 #megaman powered up

[swordsandspectacles]

I think I’m just not built for fandoms which is VERY annoying

Because I’d like to be !!! Y’all seem to be having fun out there

#whittering #I can make stuff but … I don’t think I feel anything /intensely/ enough to keep up #granted it’s not a competition but #… well when evern in a small social group you can’t get a response on personal work compared to half assed fanart #what’s the point #I’m very tired and feel very small and drawing a lot of things is miserable lately so #maybe I should stick to what I know and stop having Notions

[passthroughtime]

i hope you don’t mind me not participating in sunday six for so long and not updating my fic... i’m having a bit rough time handling my life irl right now

#meaning i’m having the worst start of the year ever #i’m EXHAUSTED fucking exhausted from my living situation and it doesn’t seem to get better any time soon #naturally i don’t have it in me to write because i don’t have enough time to relax. it’s been three fucking weeks. #i just don’t know even my body gives up from this stress and not like something terrible is happening #it’s extremely upsetting also considering that i love writing and it’s the only activity that makes sense to me #and always has been like that it’s in my core #and i. can’t do it. i can’t. i have no willpower or strength and it’s not writer’s block i’m just SO TIRED ALL THE TIME #therapy and years of medication mean nothing at this fucking point. props to me for not killing myself tho. well done 👍 #sorry for ranting i am so frustrated that i can scream. i have actually. didn’t help. #well ahem i hope you understand 🙏 i feel bad that i’ve promised the chapter a long time ago and NOT TO BE THAT AO3 AUTHOR but #i really wanted to keep my promise. fuck me i guess #putting letters together one word at a time

[starscelly]

#okay . sorry. i’m at the acceptance stage of grieving but i had to have a little bit of a not normal moment #thinking abt tyler having to just chuckle saying hockey is hard #tyler seguin who has been to 3 stanley cup finals and the only one he didn’t appreciate was the one he won #trying to chase the feeling of being 19 and the top of the world again #with a group of guys you actually love. a room you’ve cultivated to be loving. to be a family #and hockey is hard. the sport is hard and the emotions are hard and the toll it takes on your body and mind is HARD #but you can’t be the overpaid millionaire who complains that hockey is hard #you can’t stand up there and cry #acknowledge how it’s stolen time from your family you love so much away from you #it’s stolen your body from you. your mind. your heart. #and you give everything to it and it just keeps spitting in your face #and hockey hasn’t loved you since you were a teenager but you loved it and you love the people it brings into your life #and you can’t even cry about it because you’re a millionaire man playing a game for a living #so you just have to laugh and say hockey is hard like more pieces of your heart aren’t being torn off every year #okay anyways #yap yap yapping #dallas stars i love u and u will always be famous. the love will be enough eventually. tyler i need you to know the love will be enough

[totally-not-an-awkward-okapi]

Fuck it what if not all ripped 6 pack abs. What then.

#honestly Halsin could have a bit more meat on him but I was really struggling with him so I’m taking him as he is #I do not know how to draw Gale. #frankly though him looking like he wandered out of an illuminated manuscript is too funny to redraw him #I switched La’zel and Astarion’s heights #(because yes everybody’s height was taken from lining up the party from the composition screens to get their rough heights) #because it’s fucked up and evil that Astarion is not a short king and that La’zel is only a little bit taller than Shadowheart #speaking of her I love big fuck off weight lifter Shadowheart and you can’t stop me #Wyll is now no longer the only one wearing period appropriate(ish) braises because the weirdly modern underwear weirds me out #I based everybody’s* body types off different Olympic athletes #*accept Gale because he’s a wizard and Halsin because I forgor #I settled on rock climber for Wyll because it felt the most fitting for him #La’zel is a mix of runner/basketball player because Gith are supposed to be tall and thin but she’s also one of the strongest party members #Astarion is a very dehydrated featherweight boxer #because again the man is short I will die on this hill it’s just the vibe #and finally Karlach is actually based on body builders but less in the superhero way and more in the. #has muscle but also really isn’t eating enough or the right stuff #way #making her La’zel and Astarion are the only ones who keep defined 6 packs #(La’zel gets one because Gith are canonically thin and so presumably naturally very low in body fat) #(and also because it draws attention away from her not having a belly button) #(I understand in some birds/reptiles it’s where the yolk sac attached but also that’s a cop out) #also she gets her facial scars from earlier versions because why the fuck doesn’t she #her body is so messed up and her face looks like she stole it #sketchin’ #but only barely because I am not cleaning this up #Karlach and her scars AND tattoos can go back to hell

[padfootastic]

yeah so it’s not like my codependent james & sirius don’t love or care for other people. it’s that, when it comes down to it, their default is the other and sorry if u don’t think that’s different but it is.

they’re not putting the people in their life on a twisted graded hierarchy, they’re just?? each others?? most important person?? like bro why is it that the most common tropes on fucking earth are a problem when it’s prongsfoot????

#if u couldn’t tell already #i keep going onto the anti pf side of things #and ykno what i’m gonna do it. i’m gonna take the plunge. do what i dislike. and block. #(no but i’ll try to. really) #lEt tHeM bE bRoS #dOnT cHeApEn tHeiR fRieNdShIp #yah and while we’re at this it let’s also let the history books say they were friends #because we don’t have enough male friendships so we need representation 😀 #(sometimes??? do they realise??? they’re regurgitating older homophobic phrases or???) #like bro. ur not the only one w life exp. #‘sometimes i think these people don’t/can’t—‘ shut up shut UP #i hate romance irl. can’t do it will never do it don’t like it. #but that’s not my fictional consumption now is it? #and won’t be either #j&s occupy a space more than friends OR lovers #also don’t know why some people r seeking realism?? in this universe?? esp considering what they’re writing usually?? #like. some self awareness pls? #if y’all can’t tell. i’m annoyed lmao #i’m just sick of seeing j/s treated like. idk. it’s the first or only ship to romanticise friendships or wtv #WHILE and this bit is imp WHILE loudly shipping w*l farar and j*gulus like??? #just say u like those ships and go?? #but also. that last point is just me being frustrated. i get the bitching bc i do the same w those two ships #so like. yeah. respect their right to rant. but won’t respect the rant lol #also…this isn’t @ like anyone in particular . it’s just many people on the anti pf mwpp side i’ve seen who have similar arguments #and they’re always the stupidest #which i wouldn’t care for so much it if they didn’t constantly bring up ‘real life! realistic! not how it works!’ etc etc #yah #that’s it for now #i’m sure i’ll come back later lmao #pen’s whining

[mukagen]

I think I wanna come back and just be private when I do. Like if we’re already mutuals we’re good but I wanna focus on just writing n hanging out w my friends (my mutuals)… I’m too old 2 gaf bout whatever is currently happening on tumblr I fear. I may expand a Little just to write with characters i know my friends don’t but ultimately this will be a chill space for me I think. Idc about fandom idc about promos idc which of us mutually blocked each other over an icon dispute in 2021 … idc about nun of that. peace n blessings to u all x

#* general‚ ooc. #like when u take a break and come back with a fresh perspective? Thats how I feel. #u can’t do much about the past; i do fr wish everyone who came and went during my time here the best. Can’t say I’m bothered there #but I also feel I allowed things to be too important to me; keeping up with people/being active enough/being liked by everyone/etc. #It affected my desire 2 be around for sure. And I would like it not to #so I think I’m just gonna go back to how I was when I started in 2019; ima keep my circle small and focus there :3 #mwah

[starlooove]

Realizing the adultification and demonization of Duke and Damian is just. Not gonna stop. El oh el

#demonization more in Damian’s case #and not in the characters can’t do bad things kinda way #but in a writers and readers are so racist they’ll never even acknowledge that they don’t grant him the same grace they do anyone else #especially their white faves in comparison #and with the way they keep tryna spin Ra’s and Talia as being like. perfect parents maybe slightly absent or evil back then but family ppl #at heart it’s just gonna be more excuses to demonize a brown child bc now the very basis of his previous attitude will be gone #i mean for some of you it was never existed or acknowledged but there’s a certain bitterness I’m feeling when y’all can point to a panel #written by someone who’s only read WFA for background and say ‘see its canon that he’s just a murderous asshole for no reason!’ #same mfs who can’t tell me three bad things Tim’s done that they don’t fw bc either they’ve never read it or they justify it in their minds #and for Duke it’s like. just removing every aspect of his character bc god forbid u pay attention to a black child who’s not an easy stereo #that’s the difference Damian’s early appearance was very easy for a lot of y’all to stereotype even and at times especially Talia Stans #for Duke u can’t call him ghetto and u can’t call him one of the good ones bc there’s no ‘bad’ ones as a comparison point so he’s just a guy #he’s a good bro :) he’s there :) u don’t know enough about him to speak :) #and honestly if they keep going down the Al Ghuls are perfect route they might shoehorn Damian near that position too #that’d make it three for three when you involve cass. wow the poc of the family being reduced to no character besides propping up the yt #cast. maybe if we go that route and it happens to all three of them some of y’all will make a ‘fandom has a problem 🥺’ post and dip #like always el oh el so exhausted #batfandom racism #tim drake #jason Todd #dick grayson #bruce wayne #Lemme be a bitch today #Duke cass and Damian Stan’s I won’t clog ur dash with this #actually some of u cass Stan’s are…. #I’ll just say it a lot of you are racist as fuck and can’t say shit about cass besides she fights good and deserves the world #batfam #wfa #anti wfa

[fowlaroundtown]

Screw you *unturtles your 2012 turtles*

#Lowkey happy with how this came out ngl #they were so fun to draw #all Mikey’s need to have frosted tips it’s a legal requirement #Leo’s got the shortest hair in the family and Raph has the longest #Mikey and Raph are the best at braiding hair but Donnie’s can put up a messy bun faster than thw speed of life #he’s a master at it. litterally anything else tho he’s terrible with #Leo modeled his hair after Captain Ryan. #he uh. he can’t keep it slicked back well enough to be really close but he tries #anyway. I’m doing some screen cap redraws with these guys so keep an eye out for that #I really like how their designs came out. Leo or Mikey are I think my favorite to draw #anyway #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt human au #mikey tmnt 2012 #Leo tmnt 2012 #Raph tmnt 2012 #Donnie tmnt 2012 #human design #tmnt 2012 human designs

[broflovski-brah]

legitimate question

am i good enough?

#i just feel like i’m not good enough #not good enough to do hard classes #not good enough to live up to my standards #hell sometiems i don’t even feel good enough to be on here #i don’t know where i’m going wrong #i honestly just think this is my ‘depression week’ #mainly because it’s been two years since my very first suicide attempt and it just weighs down on me sometimes #and the only thing that sometimes works is pretending some fictional character would give two damn shits about me #when in reality i wouldn’t even be good enough for that #i can’t stop thinking like this #this is honestly just a really hard time for me because i just tend to have everything weigh down at once #but i just don’t feel good enough #and i know no one is gonna see this or care but i dunno #i’m just tired of everything #it’s pathetic of me to pretend some fictional person would give a shit about me #it’s pathetic of me to keep trying to be better at something than my brother so i can have one thing be known as a me thing #and i know i’m weird #and i hate it #i hate the way i am #it’s just the reality of it. i’m not good enough. not for me not my family nor anyonee #i’m not digging for clout either so just…please don’t. #skipper speaks #vent #i actually think this is the lowest i’ve been in a while