#but i'm tired and i do not care

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

i vote that next year instead of reading Dracula we do a Jeeves & Wooster Book Club. those two never got the rabid tumblr shipping fandom they deserved (disqualified for the sheer technicality of being published a century too soon). we must correct this injustice

#jeeves and wooster #i want to watch tumblr go rabid i want to watch ao3 overflow with jeeves/wooster fanfiction #yes obviously the fandom EXISTS but it's a cozy little neighborhood #a handful of talented artists and writers doing their best to keep their charming little village going #but i'm tired of cozy i want this fandom TRENDING #I WANT TO SEE THIS ON MY DASHBOARD PEOPLE #i swear to you if they made a shiny new tv series tumblr would absolutely obsess over these characters. good omens levels of obsession #it's just such a great dynamic! the good-natured overly-trusting bumbling idiot in constant need of rescuing! #the stoic all-knowing genius who quietly masterminds mayhem in order to protect this one moron he's devoted himself to for some reason #jeeves as a morosexual is just such a beautiful interpretation of the original text #wooster as a happy-go-lucky himbo who stumbles his way into a relationship with a protective caring and supremely competent mastermind #the angst and social complexities of a same-sex cross-class relationship in turn-of-the century london! #oh AND half the stories are about jeeves helping wooster get out of engagements/desperately avoid marriage #two men who live together constantly scheming to maintain their bachelorhood. this is quite literally the main plot point #the gay subtext is there! the gay subtext is there and very ripe for picking!!! #this thing is LOCKED AND LOADED we can pounce literally any time

[sevilai]

Vessels born outside the abyss and therefore not containing any void is that anything

edit: to clear up any confusion this is my take on what Little Ghost would look like jjfhc

#mainly I just thought it'd be cool to draw #I wanted to do Hollow too but it would just be Pure Vessel 2.0??? #I'm going to draw so many bugs I don't care how tired I am #my art #hollow knight #hk ghost #hk little ghost #hk vessel #little ghost #digital painting #digital art #Outshine AU

[keferon]

Starting to consider doing really shitty drawn animatics. God knows these robots take too long to draw to be effective or humane for animation..

#I have so many ideas #help #but I keep just abandoning them because I don't have enough time and energy to draw all those c u b e s properly #wanna do some bad animatics #I mean “don't give a fuck about proportions” kind of bad #“little arrows expressing the motion” kind of bad #I'm tired #I drew half of the animatic about Deadlock and Wing and I'm really to combust #after all no one really seems to care about those animatics even if they're pretty haha #okay no one exept one person #I should be sleeping but I can't stop thinking about making Megatron singing villain song don't mind me

[ahsoka-in-a-hood]

I'm always a bit surprised when I see hate for Shaak Ti based on her "Republic property" line like it's some kind of slam dunk statement of her views... have you guys seriously never had to speak someone else's language before? I'm not even trying to comment on her motives or beliefs here- but whether you read her as advocating for Fives or not, if she was 100% unambiguously advocating for Fives there that would still have been the right thing to say to the Kaminoans to get custody of him.

#this just seems like such an obvious thing to me #and i guess it bugs me because there's a lot of focus on people saying the right things and not enough on people doing things #you know in general. on planet earth. #and this is so clearly a place where virtue signalling on Shaak's part would have been 100% useless. The Kaminoans do not care. #she's lawyering. it's such a basic thing. #i don't really want to go into the thornyness of jedi-clone relations right now or what the council did and did not do for and to them. #i know i'm basically a pro jedi blog but I don't think it's perfectly rosy either but i'm tired #so i should probably leave well enough alone #but i felt like griping about this one specific thing #which is not evidence of anything except rules-lawyering #shaak ti

[fisheito]

Sometimes you just.........

#eiden: says something stupid #rei: spongebob rainbow imagination.gif but the rainbow is monochrome and the words are I Do Not Care #so. it's a grey scale of reality is what i'm saying. #rei is a grey scale of reality. #i love his bitch energy #the tired looks he gives everyone #nu carnival #rei

[eastgaysian]

don't. you'll regret it.

#tomshiv #tom wambsgans #shiv roy #succession #succession fanart #i do not care about good posting times. you'll see it when it's done/i'm tired of looking at it #freshly minted

[antianakin]

It's really depressing that the only real Jedi centric and Jedi positive show in existence is written for preschoolers, while many of the more "adult" shows are edgy and about morally ambiguous or straight-up evil characters. As if lessons about being kind and selfless are somehow not important or relevant to adults just as much if not more than they are to children.

It feels like characters who are unambiguously good are seen as only enjoyable by the very young and adult viewers will only actually appreciate characters who are cruel and selfish (and the requisite "tragic backstory" that always goes with it to help excuse their cruel and selfish choices).

It's just really sad and disappointing.

#star wars #listen i love andor #i really do #but i'm seeing a pattern of shows aimed at older audiences always always ALWAYS having moral ambiguity as a central theme #the good ones like andor always keep in mind that these people are doing awful things #they're not necessarily heroes even tho they're on the right side #the bad ones like ahsoka and acolyte find ways to send the message that being selfish is actually the right thing to do sometimes #i'm just so tired of the jedi getting relegated to the side because no one can see nuance in unambiguously good people #like at best they are just not there at all #at worst they are turned into the villains specifically for refusing to stop practicing their culture even in the face of persecution #give me my adult jedi show #GIVE ME THE REVA SPIN-OFF I DESERVE #STOP GIVING ME THIS JEDI CRITICAL BULLSHIT #IT'S ALL HORRIFICALLY BAD #I DON'T CARE HOW GOOD YOUR CGI IS THE STORY IS NO LONGER STAR WARS IF YOU HATE THE JEDI #GO MAKE YOUR OWN SCI FI IF YOU CAN'T RESPECT THE JEDI

[xensitshere]

Regrets

#animation vs animator #ava the chosen one #ava the dark lord #alan becker #my art #i don't do backgrounds #whatever whatever i don't care #i'm sick and tired so i did a background because that's what you do when you're sick and tired #regrets? yeah i regret a lot rn

[itsamenickname]

No one:

Not a single soul:

Me: You know, since Luigi's first official appearance was in 1983 while Bowser's debut wasn't until 1985, that technically makes Luigi canonically older than his 10-foot dragon-turtle boyfriend.

#luigi #luigi nintendo #bowser #bowser nintendo #bowuigi #bowser x luigi #super mario #super mario bros #in case anyone cares I am mentally doing a little better #although there are times where the depression really hits me hard #idk I'm just hoping things will get better soon #because I'm so tired of fighting all these battles with no light in sight #anyway sorry for venting #this Bowuigi idea made me smile when I first thought about it and I hope it makes you smile too

[ameiniateria]

consistently I'm a little annoyed about the rift between c!Tommy and c!Dream fans in this fandom. like I like your guy too! I think he's great! actually, I think our guys have a lot in common! I'd love to see your take on this really messy, complicated relationship!

oh wait you think c!Dream is a pure evil, completely heartless villain that exists to do nothing but torment c!Tommy, who is of course a sweet innocent uwu baby who did absolutely nothing wrong, and therefore deserves to be murdered twice, imprisoned, isolated, starved, and tortured with no control over his own autonomy (but prison was actually way better than exile, which was the worst thing that ever happened to anyone on the dsmp. obviously. because c!Tommy tried to kill himself. yeah. don't think about c!Dream walking into a wall of lava and burning himself to death multiple times because he was so incredibly desperate for human connection. that was to escape, right? c!Dream couldn't possibly feel real emotions -- that would mean he's a person that -- oh no -- deserves compassion despite the terrible things he did. oh no -- that would make him -- gasp -- a lot like c!Tommy!) and actually he deserved more than that. he was never actually punished. c!Dream always won (citation needed).

also, c!Tommy was a child. do I have to say that again. well, I will anyway. c!Tommy was a child. c!Tommy was a child. c!Tommy was a child.

great.

#discourse #dreblr #c!discduo #to clarify I don't think c!Tommy deserved exile #obviously #no one deserves to be manipulated and abused and bullied #I don't think anyone actually thinks that exile was a good thing #to be fair #it's a really annoying strawman but people keep bringing it up #c!Tommy went through some pretty horrific shit! #but so did c!Dream #there is no law on the dsmp #if you're mad at c!Dream because he blew up L'Manberg -- good for you #in the nicest way possible I do not care #doomsday was not a crime #no one even died #DOOMSDAY WAS NOTHING MORE THAN PROPERTY DAMAGE #what would you call c!Tommy griefing c!George's house again? #sorry for ranting #I'm just tired of not being able to follow like any c!tommy apologist blogs because they have inevitably posted #super rancid takes about c! and cc!dream #why is c!discduo discourse such a mess #why can't we be friends #I don't want to argue with any post directly because I think that's rude #but I wish we could have lore discussions in good faith and actually learn about each others' favorite characters #without accusing each other of being abuse apologists or whatever #I know I came off as kinda mean here #I'm sorry #no one's going to read this anyway #I'm just sensitive and this is frustrating

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Trigun Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 2

So now that I've finished with volume 1, I just wanted to write down a couple thoughts I've had and neat things to point out so far

When I was watching Stampede, I took note of a few kind of textbook avoidant behaviours Vash engages in, and lo and behold, here he is in the manga displaying even more of them. I'll list out a few here.

In order, we have:

Casually asking for a time limit on the interaction (ie. "How long do I have to keep this up before I can leave?")

Attempting to lose people in a crowd

Leaving without saying anything (and as a bonus, dreading being recognized in public)

Over-indulging or over-involving oneself in social events to create a viable excuse to leave suddenly (in this case, he uses alcohol as a reason to "pass out")

Sleeping to avoid unwanted conversation

Escaping to the bathroom to get away for a bit (and also to grumble about it haha)

Playing off sincere reactions by deliberately allowing them to be misinterpreted to avoid personal questions

It's really obvious, even this early in the manga, that Vash is intentionally avoiding prolonged interaction with people, and only involving himself in situations by necessity. He doesn't like attention on himself - the only reason he intentionally draws it is to divert it away from others.

The reason for this is a bit muddy though. It does seem that Vash doesn't particularly enjoy being caught up in drama, and it is also very likely he wishes to get in and out of places as quickly as possible to avoid them getting caught up in his drama too. It may even be that he finds prolonged socializing kind of tiring; that he needs a certain amount of time to himself.

But then there's also this bit, shortly after the celebration, where he pretends to pass out.

This brings in a bit of a guilt aspect to it. It likely has to do with July, or maybe it's due to something else (at this point, we can't say), but I think it's notable that Vash cuts things off shortly before they become intimate. He can play along to make others happy and to share in their joy for a bit, but the second things get too personal or focused on him, he will quietly slip away. Now this is specifically an instance of physical intimacy, but I think it'd probably hold for emotional intimacy as well, given the continuous avoidance and misdirection he does to prevent too many questions.

I made some commentary on Stampede Vash's self-punishing behaviours - specifically, the way he denies himself food. I don't want to get too into it because I don't know if everyone reading this has seen Stampede, but food is framed as something to be shared in the show - so, denying himself food is denying himself the right to share with others, which is denying himself belonging, which is denying himself any semblance of intimacy. (It means other things too, as food-sharing is associated with Rem, but I don't want to get too into it here.)

Vash in the manga doesn't seem to have the same issues with eating, but this is a similar premise - he's denying himself intimacy out of a sense of not being deserving of it.

So, then, there are probably many interwoven reasons for Vash's avoidance - he's sick of the chaos that follows him around, he doesn't want others getting hurt, he gets tired from having to "play it up" all the time, and he seems to also feel that he doesn't deserve that closeness. I'm intrigued to see how Vash's avoidance will be tackled going forward (I'm assuming it will?), and I suspect, more than there being one right reason for it, that all these reasons are actually true to an extent.

On a completely different note, this panel here is the biggest mood. I feel it in my bones.

#me looking at vash's avoidant strategies: ha ha ha. i do that. #me: ...wait. no. that's bad. #meryl says 'vash stop getting into situations' and vash says 'i am trying to get OUT of the situations! i don't want to be here either!!!' #i do think there's a lot of... exhaustion to his character we don't see as much with stampede vash. manga vash looks TIRED man. #it makes sense. we know vash isn't... happy. to say the least. #playing it up all the time when you are not happy - i can tell you any social interaction becomes flat out exhausting #you're always acting. you feel like you have to be so careful with what you say. it's far less draining to just leave the room. #trigun #trigunbookclub #vash the stampede #trigun meta #storyrambles #if i'm just saying what is incredibly obvious or repeating what others have already said i'm sorry. #once i'm caught up i'll follow the book club tag and read what others have written!

[esaari]

honk

#idk if this fandom is alive anymore but here's burnt toast man #shall i tag this shit.......... sure lets tag this shit #payday 2 #payday #hoxton #was thinkin about how therell be another one of these games and felt the sudden urge to draw the fave again #payday tumblr sure was fun to be part of back in the day #anyways i'm off to bed... been insanely tired today and hopefully i'll get to some of the art on my to do list #tomorrow i meant to say. hope to get to it tomorrow lol #i have some nice ones there. though. mostly ones i won't be able to post here lmfao #maybe throw in oc with pride flag thing on this list so i'll have sth posting worthy. #in a non related note at the end here i just finished playing tlou on the pc and it was so much fun... never did finish it on the console #just watched others play through it #i smell an AU but i'll keep that to myself because whomst cares #honk honk good night

[theofreakingbell]

honestly if asgard 'discovered' jotunheim back in the day and took it over I feel like there would be some doomed arctic expedition level screw ups before they learned how to be competent in the environment. like loosing entire expeditions to arrogance, improper preparations, refusing to ask the locals anything and then accusing them of eating their teams when they loose them. just. utter disaster made by colonial arrogance. racism. general calamity. asgard has mountains but even if they get snow in the winters it seems a big difference between that and a planet made entirely of rock and ice. it is going to take some trial and error

#i recognise this is niche and I don't care #I'm giggling #lbr they'd absolutely name their boats ominous things too #yes this is the asgardian ship Dread and her sister Gate Of Helheim #I would expand on this but I am so tired ugh #blurb thorverse edition #jotunar not even having to do anything the aesir just run out of food and then die from eating frostbeast liver #They also aren't beating the cannibalism allegations

[barschter000]

How baby is Baby Barok?

(aka I saw this post and took some time to make some silly guesstimated height calculations.)

tl;dr: In that one official art with Klint, eleven year-old Barok measures an adorable height of about 107.5cm (3"6', according to a converter) which is more than 10cm (3.9in) smaller than ten year-old Iris (canon height: 120cm, or 3"11').

How did I get there?

1. Barok's canon height is 192cm (6"4'). Pretty damn tall (and probably too tall for his era, you can find some interesting and entertaining re-calculations in this post), and officially confirmed.

2. To estimate Klint's height, I aligned Barok's face in the photograph (still so happy and innocent, sigh...) with that of his full body art and tried my best to determine where Klint's head might end, his pose isn't all too convenient.

3. Having determined Klint's height to be about 196cm (6"5'), I could scale the artwork featuring him and his tiny baby brother to fit to Klint's height. Barok (baby) is not fully standing on the 0cm line though, so I drew a line at his feet and at his head, guessing where it might end under all that floofy hair...

4. ...set that to the 0cm line et voilà! The little darling of the Van Zieks family is about 107.5cm (3"6') tall!

#he's so small. and baby. if anyone cares #and if my train of thought and calculations make sense lmao. there is no limit to the nonsense my brain can come up with #I'm tired but still want to engage with the blorbos so I must do it in this fashion #This information doesn't have any actual consequences but it makes me happy #Barok is a certified baby boy. Puberty must have hit him like a truck #Puberty and then. The Horrors 😔 #barok van zieks #the great ace attorney #spoilers #tgaa spoilers #dgs spoilers #tgaa2 spoilers #dgs2 spoilers

[sureuncertainty]

so as a former employee of RMS Titanic Inc, I have some thoughts I need to get out about this whole current situation, or I will literally explode.

for context, I worked for RMST Inc. for a year and a half as a tour guide and artifact specialist. The company owns the salvage rights to the wreck site, and partners with Oceangate and other companies to retrieve artifacts. the artifacts are used for educational purposes only, in the museum that I worked at, although they weren’t above selling little bits of coal from the Titanic in stupid little tchotchkes like snowglobes and hourglasses.

i dedicated so much of my life and passion to that company and that museum and was treated like absolute dirt lol. and I didn’t even get the worst of it, I had friends and coworkers whose safety and wellbeing was consistently disregarded for the sake of profit, fighting desperately for corporate to stop pretending to care about the legacy of Titanic when all they really cared about was making money

so despite my initial shock at reading about what was going on with the missing submersible, I can’t say I’m surprised. This is what fucking happens when you cut corners and put profit over everything else. If only there was some big historical event that we could look to that would show us just exactly how dangerous that can be...  oh wait.

Jack Thayer, who was 17 when he survived Titanic, said that “the world woke up on April 15, 1912″, which pretty much sums up how SURE people were in 1912 that they would never make those same mistakes again. They realized had gotten complacent and swore things would be different. They enacted safety laws, pointed fingers at survivors, created conspiracy theories to try to explain what happened, all out of fear of it happening again. And yet, history always repeats itself

and now people are fucking OBSESSED with the Titanic, they find it fascinating,  they won’t fucking leave it alone, and the company I worked for, and Oceangate, and others, capitalize on that because they’re greedy and want to make money off of it. all they care about is how to profit off of it. they PRETEND to care about Titanic but they don’t. They never did.

I also actually have a personal connection to one of the five members of the team in the submersible. I met P.H. Nargeolet at the event our museum did commemorating the 110th anniversary of the sinking, I spoke to him and heard firsthand some of his accounts of dives to the wreck site, I even took a picture with him. He cared, he cared so much about Titanic and its legacy, and so do I and so did so many of my friends I worked with. The company we worked for took advantage of our caring, it took advantage of how passionate we were about it in order to line its executives’ fucking pocket

I’m horrified, I’m devastated, I’m vindicated.

on the one hand, I hope this ruins them. i want to watch the company die. there’s a satisfaction in that. but the shitty thing is how much suffering has to happen for things to change. i just wish good people didn’t have to die to make change happen. I wish people cared first, before tragedy strikes. I wish our world wasn’t so fucked up and shit like this didn’t happen. But it did. And it does. And money won’t save any of those people any more than it saved John Jacob Astor or Benjamin Guggenheim, or any of the other rich greedy assholes who died on Titanic. I’m not celebrating their deaths. But I won’t ever forget who suffers the most. The coal trimmers and the stewards and the minimum wage guest service associates at the museum I worked at.

I’m glad I don’t work there anymore. But some of my best friends still do. And I don’t want them to suffer more because of this. All I can hope is that it enacts meaningful change that actually lasts. But I know that’s just wishful thinking.

#win rambles #this is very convoluted and not really... idk how much sense it makes i just had to get thoughts out #i don' thave a witty conclusion or a message or anything like that #i just want people to know how shitty our company was and i want you to know how much i loved that job and how much i cared #and how much people in the titanic community do care #i'm just tired of seeing posts and memes about it from poeple who don't know what they're talking about #the titanic community is full of shitty bigoted white men and people who fucked me over bc i'm trans #and fucked over my queer nonwhite neurodivergent disabled friends #but me and my friends are in the community too whether they like it or not and we care and WE matter #titanic #rms titanic

[sprout-fics]

Okay hear me out: ruining soap’s orgasms. making him wear a strap on above his actual cock and sucking the dildo off until he cums and you never even touch him. tying him up and edging him until he’s a whimpering watery eyed mess and then just when he orgasms you stop touching him completely so all he can do is sob and desperately hump the air as he cums. giving him head but the only thing you do is run your tongue along the underside of his tip slowly until he’s begging, fucking PLEADING for you to just slide the head in your mouth but you don’t and he cums anyway and it drives him insane. Running your nails along his entire body to give him shivers until he’s so hard it’s almost painful, and then only giving him the tiniest amount of stimulation with the back of your hand until he’s a desperate insatiable mess who almost breaks his restraints to have his way with you. Lord I need to top that man until he gets so sexually frustrated he snaps. Manifesting 🕯️🕯️🕯️

I have few weaknesses because I am a strong independent woman but God be damned if I don't fucking adore the idea of teasing a handcuffed Soap until he cries and begs

#I'm sorry anon I wanted to do a full thing for this but today's events have tired me more than I care to admit #Some of these I'm publishing as fair game for whoever would like to run with them #thursday night thots