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mrsdobrik · 4 years

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CHAPTER 2:

warnings: Idk. But be warned. Y/n’s boss is an ass

It had been about a week since David met Vardan’s teacher and he couldn’t get her smile out of his head. He had actually thought about picking Vardan up from school just so he could see her again, but it would have been difficult to explain. So instead he just spent hours thinking about the way her hair fell on her shoulders, the little shadow her lashes cast on her cheeks, the way her lips moved when she talked. It was amazing how much time he could spend thinking about a fifteen minute meeting...

“David! Are you even listening?”Natalie was frowning at him.

“No, sorry, I drifted off”

“What is wrong with you lately? You are even more distracted than normal, and for you that is definitely impressive”

“Ha ha, so funny” He retorted sarcastically.

“Just turn left at the next intersection and try not to “drift off” while driving, I don’t know about you but I would like to live a couple more years.”

They were going to meet some of the guys at a burger place before going clubbing. It was Jonah’s idea, obviously, he said they had even better burgers than In-n-Out, and if Jonah said so that meant something.

After a few more turns they arrived at a 50’s diner. Zane, Heath, Mariah, Jeff and Jonah were already seated at one of the tables. The place looked awesome on the inside, the walls were pink and had old posters, photographs and neon signs on them. The floor had the classic black and white tiles and all the booths were red. It even had a jukebox that still worked and you could go and choose the song you wanted. David could tell he would be able to get great disposable pics in there.

They all looked at the menu and decided what they wanted to eat, then while everyone else waited to place the order, David went up to the jukebox. He wanted to play “Crazy Little Thing Called Love” by Queen.

By the time he went back to the table they had already ordered the food. The girls were not at the table and the guys were discussing how hot the waitress was.

“Did you see the way she looked at me? She is obviously into me, I am so getting her number” Jonah said

“Baby, are you delusional? She didn’t even look your way!” Zane replied

“Yeah, besides I am sitting right here so…” Jeff said, running his hand through his hair.

“Nah dude, I am telling you, she is totally into me” Jonah went on.

David was checking his instagram as the guys kept bantering and then he heard Heath tell Jonah to shut it since the girl was coming. David looked up and couldn’t believe his eyes, it was Vardan’s teacher. She was wearing a pink uniform with a little white apron and had her hair in a ponytail. She was carrying a tray full of drinks in one hand and was talking to another waitress as she approached their table.

David could see her cheeks blush when she met his eyes. He found it adorable. She started giving everyone their drinks as the girls returned from the ladies room. When she finally got to David she said hi in a soft voice, kind of like a whisper. He stood up to say hi to her

“Hey! How are you doing?”

“I’m great, and you?” she said blushing even more.

“Cool, just going out with the guys” At that point everyone in the table was very obviously staring at them. “These are Zane, Heath, Mariah, Jeff, Jonah and Natalie” he said even though she had admitted to watching the vlogs so she probably already knew. “She is Y/n, she is Vardan’s teacher.”

Everyone said hi to Y/n but Natalie who, after living with David for a couple years, could read him like a book and was giving him an inquisitive stare. David just ignored her. Y/n’s eyes were gleaming and David could see how excited she was to meet everyone. They had been talking for about two minutes when David noticed that from across the room a bald guy standing by the wall was giving Y/n an angry stare.

“Hey princess! Do you want a cup of coffee too? Move that ass! Your tables aren’t going to serve themselves!” He yelled and the entire table went completely silent.

Y/n’s face went completely red with a mixture of anger and embarrassment.

“I should go.” she said softly before grabbing her tray and heading for the kitchen. David’s blood was boiling and from the looks of everyone else at the table he wasn’t the only one.

“Who the fuck is that?”David said whilst clenching his jaw as he saw the bald guy follow Y/n. “What is his fucking problem?”

“That is the owner of the restaurant” Jonah said “I’ve seen him here a couple times.”

“He’s disgusting.” Natalie said. She wasn’t wrong, David was ready to punch him in the face right then and there.

As they waited for their food David kept his eyes on the kitchen doors waiting to see Y/n come out. About fifteen minutes later she finally did and she was carrying two trays filled with food. He watched her wait on a few more tables before she came up to theirs.

“I am so sorry for the delay” Y/n said while giving everyone at the table their plate.

“It’s okay,” said Natalie “I just hope we didn’t get you in trouble.”

“Not at all” Y/n said looking down, she was a terrible liar and David could see right through that. “Will you be needing anything else?” she said as the bald guy exited the kitchen doors and stuck his eyes to her.

“No, that is it! Thank you!” David said locking eyes with her for a short second.

They ate their food and brainstormed bits to film the next day. David kept eyeing the manager every once in a while and kept checking on Y/n during the rest of the meal.

Y/n’s POV

It was Friday, most people look forward to Fridays: the end of the week, hanging out with friends, possibly going out for drinks. But for Y/n it was a really long day of teaching and then rushing to the dinner for the night shift, which ended really late, and then barely making it home with enough energy to get out of her uniform. She was exhausted and overworked, even though she would never complain about it.

However, that Friday turned out to be just a bit different because as she was serving tables at the dinner she saw some of the people from the vlog squad come in. Suddenly her heart skipped a beat when she considered the possibility of David being there too. Since she had met him at the school he was popping into her head a lot more frequently.

As she approached their table to greet them and take their orders she noticed David was nowhere to be found, a knot of disappointment formed in her stomach. As she went into the kitchen to serve the group’s drinks Bob, her boss and owner of the place came in. He had a reputation for going after employees and was extremely rude towards most of the girls working there, he was a chauvinistic ass.Y/n tried to avoid contact with him as much as possible.

“Hey princess! Looking good tonight!” Bob said, staring a little too intently at the hem of Y/n’s skirt. He smelled like alcohol and grease which made him even more unbearable than he already was.

“Hey Bob!” Y/n said looking down and quickly exiting the kitchen. “Crazy Little Thing Called Love” by Queen was playing and she couldn’t help by humming, she loved Queen. She went over to the table where the vs was sitting to serve them their drinks only to find David now sitting at the table. He introduced her to everyone, which Y/n loved. She wasn’t going to fangirl in front of everyone but she was extremely excited to be meeting them. She had been chatting with them for about a minute when Bob’s voice filled the air.

“Hey princess! Do you want a cup of coffee too? Move that ass! Your tables aren’t going to serve themselves!” He yelled and the entire table went completely silent.

No, please don’t

Her entire face went red and started heating up. That was so embarrassing she wanted the earth to swallow her whole. How could he yell at her like that in front of the customers? If it weren’t because of how badly she needed the money she would have quit a long time ago, but bills needed to be paid.

She told everyone at the table she’d better leave and headed straight for the kitchen, Bob’s heavy steps following close behind. As soon as they were out of sight he grabbed her arm tightly.

“Don’t forget why you are here princess, this isn’t Cinderella, you are here to work” he said before letting her go. Y/n could feel her eyes itching, tears starting to form, but she reminded herself that she couldn’t cry, crying would only make things worse.

Jazmine, her roommate, best friend and coworker rushed to her side as soon as Bob went into his office. She was the only close friend, one might even say family, that Y/n had in L.A. They had hit it off immediately after their first shift together when Y/n first moved to the city and had been inseparable ever since.

“Girl, calm down, it's going to be okay. You just need to get through this shift and tomorrow you can sleep till noon and watch movies on the couch. Okay?” She always knew how to calm Y/n down.

“Okay.” Y/n said. She took a moment to collect her thoughts and resumed her work.

She served all her other tables before she inevitably had to make her way back to the vs. She could feel both David’s and her boss’ eyes on her while she ran around the diner. When she started handing them their food her eyes crossed David’s just for a moment but it was enough to make her stomach feel funny.

God, he is so cute. Quit dreaming girl, you’ve got work to do. Besides it's just a childish fantasy, he is rich and famous and you are just delusional if you think he’d ever lay eyes on you.

Sometimes your mind can be your worst enemy, and for Y/n it was. All the reasons why it was impossible would keep popping in her mind through the night, even long after he had left.

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grlfriends · 3 years

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The Raven Boys thoughts

ch 1: boi I thought gansey was the bald one 😔 anyway the bald bitch and the nerd who looks like a twink in every fanart are gay

ch 15: wow guys nothing has happened so far... nothing..... we're almost 200 pages in and nothing that interesting has happened, I know the plot is setting in and the pace is starting to speed up a little but wow so far this already isnt my fav book of the series I think

ch 24: ok the pace is starting to pick up and I'm really enjoying it rn, I still see gansey as this polo wearing and golf player fucker but he's getting better I guess, Ronan can fuck off sometimes he's so edgy it irks me a little

on this and on the previous chapter they saw/hallucinated some stuff at that hollow tree and then at the end gansey was like "ohh blue was the missing person/thing I feel so connected to her something something" and tbh I did not enjoy that very much it was a bit 😬😐 for me bc I just dont like when this type of connection between characters bc it feels like the author is trying to force/speed up a relationship they just dont have yet?? and we the readers must accept they feel the connection in their souls and it just feels so right for them to be around each other when in reality it feels a bit lazy to me..... I'm still halfway through the book so it's not like I can complain for real but still ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ch 42 maybe?? : okay just something's I wanna tall about: can we pay respect to Maggie stiefvater and how organic she made Adam deciding to wake the ley line?? bc it was GREAT and I deeply loved it, i know i said that the book felt boring and very slow and how it needed to pick up the pace but i think this trilogy falls into the lotr/hobbit category where it's one big movie (in the specific case, book) divided into 3 so it would be easier to digest and I think this makes total sense, everything I've read so far (from chap 33 to here) feels so perfectly paced and planed but still it feels natural, when Adam was coming back home and he had a confrontation (well, not really) with his dad it just felt like was supposed to happen at that time with those exact words describing everything and mwah I'm loving it so much

also!! boi do Adam and blue sound so cute together, when he said he wanted to kiss her I was like

bc holy shit do they make a cute couple EVEN THOUGH I do know she ends up with gansey and their energy is also really good but goddamn do they look cute together and to think he would have been her first kiss too I'm going insane rn brub oh my god

also maybe it's the 21 year old in me talking but god did I wish they were one or two years older, it just kinda makes me a bit :// reading to 16 year olds being this traumatized about life in general and I feel like it honestly would change much if all this happened in the meantime they're about to turn 18 bc it would still be a ya book but it would be just?? more comprehensive I guess, adam dialogue about making up enough money to leave his house and getting into a good college so he can live a good life and have a home finally baby that's a 17 year old talking and feeling the pressure of the so called adulthood and being so close to being independent but also still being so young and !!!! I just feel like it would make more sense to me personally

re: about gansey's glasses: did I miss something or have the part where he gets glasses already went by?? bc he shower up at blue's home wearing white ones and there was no tall about it?? nothing else and it makes me feel like I missed something and I'm not sure yet

ch 48 and ending thoughts: ok. I'm not really sure what to feel about it bc even I had a rocky beginning with it I did end up really liking the ending but it left such a big taste of wanting more than I got that it just kinda makes me feel like it was, in a way, a prologue for the second book, where I imagine things will be more intense and already be in motion plot-wise. I have many question but my biggest one is that wow apparently that was the big explanation for gansey wearing glasses?? bc it honestly looks like I missed something or a chapter where something happens and he got glasses, his fight with whelck did break his thumb but it somehow got him glasses too?? or what the hospital like "yeah you're blind so fuck here's some glasses bitch"?? and Adam mentioned something on his face from their fight and??? was the discussion their fight and how did it hurt gansey's face?????? HOW???

not only that but also Adam sacrificed himself and how exactly does that affects him?? or was the whole "oh I've sacrificed myself my whole life" dialogue supposed to explain something?? bc yeah it kinda did but I was left with the thought that he would be kinda like a puppet I guess? bc he said he would sacrifice himself so in a way he wouldnt be himself anymore and there would be something else controlling him and maybe that was just my imagination wanting to guess what was going to happen now

I did think there would be the classic sacrifice scene and that whelck would try to shot gansey and that Adam would step in front of him or idk bc the scenario wasn't really solid in my mind and I did have trouble trying to figure out who was in what place but it was fine I guess

how on earth did Noah pull out chainsaw from his dreams?? man what the heck I need to read the second book

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sirensorisons · 4 years

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i survived cats (2019)

thoughts from someone who never saw the musical:

i still don’t know what a jellicle is and at this point i’m too afraid to ask. i’m sure the musical is much better but it does not translate well to the screen, at least not this way.

i get that the songs were supposed to be like, showing off the different types of housecats you might find (the mischievous cat, the curious cat, the dejected stray, etc) but that cutesy message is really undermined by the sheer body horror of what you are witnessing

over the course of the movie i kind of got used to it but then the cats with clothes start taking off layers and you’re just like. forced to readjust to the knowledge that these cats are naked now. very awkward. i feel like a lot of issues could’ve been fixed by having more long-furred cats (to hide the humanoid form a little better), more clothes, and some sort of cat makeup on the face so their faces aren’t so jarringly human. the nose and upper lip, specifically

GET RID OF THE MICE AND COCKROACHES KILL THEM WITH FIRE WHY DID REBEL WILSON/JENNYANYDOTS TAKE OFF HER SKIN! PUT IT BACK! WHY DID SHE DO IT TWICE

mr mistoffelees felt like the main character more than victoria (the white cat) did bc he had his big hero moment bringing old deuteronomy back, whereas victoria barely sings or speaks. like she encourages grizabella to come inside and sing but........ idk. she’s a good dancer but she really doesn’t get a chance to shine outside of that. maybe that’ll be better for the actress in the long run considering what a failure this film was

despite the whole film being cats saying their names over and over again, i kept forgetting who was who? like i forgot munkustrap’s name for the entire film until i saw it in the credits. probably would’ve helped if there were more dialogue where characters address one another by name in a normal conversation

the singing and music were alright (jason derulo stands out in particular, vocally), though a couple songs went on too damn long. memory and whatever that final song was at trafalgar square... people got up and left during that last song bc it dragged on so long. every time i thought it was going to end it just kept going.

casting-wise, ian mckellen was a great fit for gus the theatre cat, and his visual design was one of the better ones. i feel like since he’s older, the parts of his face where it looked like the fur was balding didn’t look so bad. it also helped that he was one of the few cats wearing clothes so it hid a lot of the weirdness. his performance was probably the closest i got to being charmed by the film

jennifer hudson was really acting her heart out as grizabella but it felt totally wasted bc the bad digital effects kept distracting me from her performance, and the audio mixing was weirdly bad? like the instrumentals throughout the whole film were much louder than the lyrics and the few moments of dialogue, so it was very hard to understand.

the whole movie felt like one continuous scene and while that might work well on a stage, it doesn’t translate well into movie format because it just felt exhausting. like it goes from one musical number directly into another, and there isn’t any time to absorb what just happened before you’re thrust into another nightmarish character introduction

any moments of respite just felt awkward more than anything because they would just stand and stare at each other in silence before launching into the next musical number. like it’s silly to complain that there’s too much singing in a musical but for a film adaptation... i feel like there should’ve been a little more dialogue to connect them or transition between scenes, and build the relationships between characters a little better. would’ve liked to see more dialogue from our main character/audience insert, victoria, in particular

also everybody hated grizabella because she was in with macavity at some point, but nobody attacks bombalurina (taylor swift) for drugging everyone. is bombalurina gonna be the new grizabella? what about rumpleteazer and mongo bongo?

an aside: male tortoiseshells/calicos are very rare and pretty much always sterile so like. mongo bongo said trans rights. i know that’s not his actual name i’m just having a bit of fun. i found him and rumpleteazer to be among the most entertaining in this whole fever dream of a movie.

i understand that going to the heaviside layer is supposed to be a great honor, so they don’t want to reward macavity for being an asshole... but why don’t they send him off to be reincarnated just so they can get rid of him? seems like an easy solution to the problem of him kidnapping and threatening folks

final verdict: the movie was bad and it gave me a headache, but it wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be. unspeakably bad at the start, nearing bearable in the middle, exhausting at the end

#welcome to the shitshow.txt #long post

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rainbow-squirrels-7 · 5 years

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!!ENDGAME SPOILERS AHEAD!! Since I did it last year with Infinity War and now that I’ve seen Endgame twice here are my ramblings:

But before we begin apparently I accidentally predicted Endgame’s title during my IW ramblings and then completely forgot about it...

-so like that friggin beginning tho poor Clint like the entire movie. Agreeing with a favorite YouTube movie reviewer of mine, this was really Clint’s shining movie despite his uh- downward turn for a bit there -but on the bright side I’m glad his older kids’ names are canon now; like legit I thought those (Cooper and Lila) were made up by the fanfictioneers. Maybe they were and the writers were like ‘huh okay less work for us- yoink’ -then Nebula and Stark playing table football that was adorable. The shiny paper reminded me of that one Chris Hemsworth gif you know the one of him making a face at his reflection? -and heck yes Carol coming in hot to save the day what a legend -woohoo go get Thanos time -and he’s just in a frickin farm in a T-shirt (a T-SHIRT?!?) collecting some fruits and starting a new YouTube cooking channel -“what’s up half of the universe today we’re making weird bumpy fruit stew” -but heck yeah Thor cut off that guy’s head -and then just like whoa five years later. I usually can’t stand time jumps but it’s alright. It really gives a perspective of ‘yeah the world isn’t better with half its population. Everyone’s so sad’ -good job of Steve starting a therapy group tho even if he doesn’t take his own advice -I can’t believe a rat saved Scott talk about lucky -unless that rat was actually Loki -just sayin -and the bike kid: “wouldn’t you like to know weatherboy” -I forget how old Cassie was in Antman and the Wasp but +5 years to that I guess. She looks a bit too old to me but what do I know. I’m very glad she didn’t disappear though cuz I love Scott very much and I don’t want him to go through that -tbh Scott saved everyone cuz he had the time travel idea in the first place. I love an optimistic boy -UHBUHH I HAVENT TALKED ABOUT CAROL’S HAIRCUT YET UM HECK YEAH -it’s very good I’m very gay -anyway -I liked Nebula’s prominence in this movie she’s growing on me but of course it doesn’t take a lot on account of me loving robots (cyborgs?) so much -getting the band back together! -baby Morgan Stark/Potts was Very Good -ohmygod Thor -so chub -I was annoyed being without beefy Thor the first time, but rewatching it though I thought his Look was maybe not only reflecting his depression (cuz yeah) but maybe mythological Thor? Like I’m just throwing spaghetti at the wall but maybe in actual Norse myth Thor was (well, actually a redhead) that chub/beef combo but he did have the fluffier beard that MCU Thor had this time. Idk, like I said- spaghetti -Valkyrie’s back! Love her -they call her that though? Isn’t that what she is- like her job? Does she not have a name? Could have sworn it was Brunhilda or something -and Korg and the sharp bug guy are back too! Love them -friggin playing Fortnite -jokes aside though I do love that deep look into Thor’s guilt throughout the whole movie. Like he thought killing Thanos would just make everything better but it didn’t and just couldn’t deal and would rather drink to forget -Clint’s guilt was also interesting, like showing that ‘oh god he could really go there, he could get this bad given the circumstance’ -just Blade Runner-ing all around Tokyo -I haven’t seen Blade Runner but it has neon lights and rain right? -but yeah I do like the “the Snap took away good people and bad people but like it could have just took bad people and since it didn’t I’ll have to instead” -sad boy -he was very uh ‘Magnus rushes in’ if you will, during this movie. Not caring for a lot of it if he lived or died cuz he’d lost so much -god he was good in this movie -anyway -I also called the time travel:

-it still doesn’t completely make sense to me though? Like time travel is confusing enough but adding in a multiverse just makes it even more so -I loved the revisiting the old movies! -low key wanted an Age of Ultron revisit so we could have OMG we could have seen Pietro again -still on the #bringbackpietromaximoff train guys -but anyway we could have seen some good Wanda scenes and also my boy Vision again -but it did make more sense to get the three in NY at the same time -it was real cool to see the bald wizard lady (Minerva from TAZ Amnesty) defending the wizard building during 2012 Avengers- like that is so believable and now we can watch 2012 Avengers and be like “oh hey the wizards were there” -“that is America’s a**” I love how much Scott hero-worships Steve like we saw that in Civil War and yes it’s so funny and I love it its great -Steve vs Steve fight?? Great -“I can do this all day.” “Yeah yeah I know.” -And again, we can totally watch 2012 Avengers again and be like ‘yes meeting with Secretary Pierce and the other Shield guys- this is totally believable, it’s exactly what would have happened we just didn’t see it.’ -the elevator scene! I thought for sure Steve was gonna do the “now before we begin does anyone want to get out” but the “hail hydra” was just as good -“they’re hydra but we don’t know that yet” “they Look like bad guys!!” -and I guess Loki using the Tesseract to escape during that scene is setup for a... tv show? He’s gonna be wreaking havoc through time and space I guess?? Glad he’s back though -anyway revisiting more movies -friggin Guardians 1 -Quill singing Come and Get Your Love really badly cuz all we heard was the actual song and OhmyGOD that was hilarious -I’m glad Rhodey and Nebula got on a team cuz they can be prosthetic buddies -but did Nebula just not tell Clint and Nat that one of them would have to die for the Soul Stone? Or did they know and just not wanna talk about it till it came up? -TBH I though the ‘lose someone you love for the stone’ requirement would have been filled by both Clint and Nat already cuz Clint could have been like “um my dude do you even know how much I’ve lost already??” -apparently not though -Nat’s hair was great for the time travel parts I liked the red fade to white -though it was a sad and intense moment with Clint and Nat deciding who of them had to die it was also sweet cuz you can see how much they care for each other -and I was- well not glad but I really wanted Clint to see his family again -not that The Avengers weren’t his family -that friggin line “did she have family?” “Yeah. Us.” GOD -and then there’s that whole rigamarole with double Nebulas and oh Gamora’s back too -again time travel/the whole multiverse thing apparently doesn’t make sense to me so I’m just gonna gloss over it as much as I can until I can get more into it later -anyway the other time travel to the 1950s! -cool callback to Winter Soldier like you could see Zola going into the bunker -like So many people were there at the Camp Lehigh (idk if that’s how it’s spelled) like Everybody was there -good good moments with Tony and his dad -I thought it would have been cool for Tony to have given his dad the inspiration for his own name but oh well. Maybe that wouldn’t have even worked with time travel and all -Steve’s prank call to Hank Pym that was funny “um the box is glowing” -but oh geez the scene where Steve finds Peggy oh god when he goes in the room with her name on the door my roommate and I were watching it together the first time I saw it and both of us went “ohhhhhhh oh nooooooo” -cuz like that’s the first time he’s seen her since he went in the ice! Or at least seen her how he remembers and not old in Civil War hhhhhhhh GOD -I think seeing her there was a factor in his decision later but I’ll get to that later this is a long heck movie -oh and the OG human Jarvis showed up! I like him, I only saw season 1 of Peggy’s show but I remember liking him a lot -but yeah back to the present unless- well I’m sure I missed something -OH FRICK THOR’S BIT -I can’t Believe they went back to The Dark World -tbh I actually like The Dark World I think it’s a good movie but it’s not universally liked -callback to the scene with Loki tossing the cup in the air ahaha that one was always good -so if they had Rocket’s pokey device during that movie the whole plot of that movie could have been avoided? -anyway um Frigga?? What a queen. Literally -I loved “I was raised by witches I can see with more than my eyes” -she’s really what Thor needed there but god the “she dies today” poor boy -she’s so good though -I loved that ‘measure of a hero is being who you are not who you’re supposed to be’ Yes -and the “I’m still worthy!!!!” Thor needed a win -“eat a salad!” -Now back to the present -Stark-Tech can apparently channel Infinity Stones? And doesn’t need a special heart of a dying star and giant dwarfs to forge a special gauntlet um okay -“what do I have flowing through my veins right now?” “Cheese whiz?” -Bruce is so good though so strong I loved the “I was made for this” -so sweet when Laura called Clint! Yes! Everyone’s really back! -and double Nebula just Had to ruin everything tho -before I get into the final battle- I wonder how much of the time travel scenes were reused from old footage and how much was reshoots with the same actors/costumes/sets? -anyway -um rude blowing up the compound -and god the water scenes were so stressful the first time. Water/specifically-about-to-drown scenes always freak me out. Also trapped under ice and squished under something scenes -Clint finding the gauntlet and getting away from Thanos’ cronies! Every time anyone was running with the gauntlet all I could think of was that one goof from TAZ Balance in Petals to the Metal- Taako’s “Grab the Gauntlet and don’t look back” friggin

-also when Steve, Thor, and Tony all go to confront Thanos who is waiting for them, there’s a specific song playing in the background: https://youtu.be/H_9mnO_NOjk?t=120 (it starts at around 2:00) and you’ll hear this series of deep bell sounds? For the life of me- that specific sound sounds SO FAMILIAR and I can’t friggin place it. I can’t decide if it just reminds me of the Wind Dance song that plays in TAZ Balance whenever the Hunger shows up (which is fitting tbh)? Or if it sounds like some boss battle music that I can’t place? Maybe from Pokémon or Mystery Dungeon? I just can’t remember. It sounds real cool tho -but uh yeah UM -STEVE!! WORTHY!!!! -I mean we all be knowing but! -such a cool scene. I started clapping the first time I watched and others in the theatre joined in -not as cool as when Vision lifted the hammer but I’m biased -but things look dark at this point and I can’t remember if it’s at this part or one one next but there’s this real cool wide shot, this real nice tableau of Steve on a hill or something and this light behind him as he faces Thanos’ army and yeah it just looks real good. Like a good computer background I’d like to have or a poster -but yeah then! -“ON YOUR LEFT!” -Yay!!! Portals open and ‘oh yeah! Everyone’s back now! We have friends to help us fight!’ -gave me some good TAZ Balance episode 68 vibes. Could have called for a cool Lup-esque speech tho from Steve since he’s so good at that- “You see this? This is scary. But we can do this.” -EXCEPT -now we reach the part of my rambling where it turns into somewhat of a rant -because I’M annoyed but only for a specific reason that won’t affect the average moviegoer since Apparently not everyone’s a fan... -cuz Literally the only person who doesn’t show up -is my boy Vision -I mean Yes -I Know he was one of the people who died before Thanos snapped -but my hopes were Way Way Up that he’d come back somehow -and UHHH APPARENTLY I WILL JUST HAVE TO BE DISAPPOINTED -everyone Else came back??? Why not my boy?? -he wasn’t even mentioned despite being So Important in IW -except vaguely when Wanda pulled a real Taako in Balance episode 67 “You f**king took everything from me!!!” -she could have took out Thanos on her own for sure like he had to call in the big guns just to stop her from doing just that -strongest Avenger heck yeah -and Carol came too! -friggin Star Wars Episode 8-ing up in here shooting through Thanos’ spaceship that was So Cool -and the Girl Squad! Girl Squad! part!!!! Yes!!!!! So good!!! Protec small Peter! -somewhere, Nat smiled -Spider-Man’s instakill that was great -I loved the ‘pass the gauntlet’ part though -when Clint handed it off to T’Challa, T’Challa called his name and that was good cuz callback to Civil War when Clint said “we haven’t met yet. I’m Clint.” And T’Challa was like “I don’t care”. He does care now! Lol! -Carol just friggin Beast mode Thanos can’t even touch her he had to pluck the Power Stone from the gauntlet to even knock her back! We stan! A legend! -and oof Tony to Stephen Strange “14 million and one we win? Is this it?” “If I tell you it won’t be” -cuz oof -it really was a good ending for Tony though -he started it all way friggin back in 2008 -and the “I am Iron Man” Yes -and also I think it was in Age of Ultron that part when Tony was talking to Fury and it was like “I saw them all dead and that wasn’t even the worst of it” “the worst was that you didn’t” -so it’s very fitting and so so good -lining up with and going against Howard’s earlier “the greater good rarely outweighed my personal interest” and proving that Tony really was so heroic -so like it’s sad but it’s fitting and not like an unsatisfying end for his character -and it’s not like he won’t be friggin mentioned ever again or anything he’s friggin Iron Man he’s already in the new Spider-Man trailer -(no shade at all in the ‘not begin mentioned at all’ category...) -anyway oh wait -oh god Peter Parker tear my heart out again sad boy he’s so good at making us sad when he’s sad about Tony -yeah anyway again -loved the “proof that Tony Stark has a heart” disc from the first movie that was good -oh and so like the camera is moving through all the different groups of people on the dock and moving towards the house -(just an interlude but CAROL IN A SUIT UM YES) -there’s a shot of some random kid! And I didn’t know who it was until I was leaving the theatre and another guy heard me and my dad talking and he told us! It’s the kid from Iron Man 3! Now That was a nice throwback -but yeah then it gets into the I guess TAZ Balance Rebuilding Year-esque scenes -which were all Very good! Good family scenes; Hope and Scott and Cassie, and T’Challa and Shuri and their mom, and that scene with Wanda and Clint was very good BUT -would it have been So Hard to do just a small scene of maybe somewhere in Wakanda like Shuri helping to rebuild Vision with all that vibranium while Wanda was there watching? Maybe even from his old body?? Would that have been so hard?? Just Something to give me hope?? -why are all these movies So Against Wanda being happy??? -but yeah almost to the end -more time travel with Steve going to return the stones! I’m glad Sam and Bucky got more lines I love them both -but what I really loved was that Steve got his Magnus ending -not in a “how does Magnus die” way but a “how does Steve live” way -love me a good happy ending esp if it involves dancing like that’s All he wanted -like I said earlier, I think just seeing Peggy again was enough for Steve to be like ‘oh it doesn’t matter if I can’t live without war action (a la what Ultron said in AoU) i do really want that life with Peggy and I can do that now’ -it was just Good -but it does raise a few time travel questions -like if Our Steve went back to the 1940s (he did go to the 40s right?) does that mean that there’s another Steve still stuck in the ice? I would say there can only be one Steve at a time but that was proven wrong in the very same movie. There’s gonna be something to do with multiverse in the next Spider-Man which will of course just make everything all the more confusing but still... I guess if I don’t think about it too much it’s not such a big deal -it was also very fitting that there weren’t any after credits scenes. It reminded me of the end of TAZ Balance with the announcer (Junior) not announcing the final episode since he said in 68 that we’d have to see what happens in the last one together. Idk but I liked that -and I liked the signatures of all the OG avengers! That was like them signing off on this huge thing they did, which is really what happened! This huge friggin 12 year thing! -wait was that what the 12 meant all along?? The 12%, the 12 minuets? We may never know -but anyway back to the most important part to me -my boy Vision

-I was so naive

-like I’ve been told there’s gonna be a tv show or something but like -come on -you could have given me Something -I feel like Griffin in the Fallout 4 Monster Factory after Roachie despawned “nothing?!? You leave me nothing!?!” -so like all in all it was a good movie a Really Good movie I liked it a lot -that Time Heist- I love time travel plots. I already had some of my next DND campaign planned with time travel being a big part- I hope my players don’t think I’m stealing lol -it was very enjoyable and so so good to wrap up this huge thing and put a bow on this story arc. Which I guess can open the door for experimentation now? Which would be kinda cool -Scarlet Witch movie maybe and my dreams can come true??? I can be happy??? Please -I just- one little scene could have left me less disappointed and given me just a little hope but anyone who’s not in the ScarletVision boat will not be disappointed by this movie (cuz the deaths [Tony and Nat] are heroic and satisfying to me, so I’m not not satisfied by that) -it wasn’t Their movie but still. Let me complain -It really was really good though -And I guess I only get motivated to write fanfic like once a year (or whenever new ScarletVision content is in a movie though um the Vision part of that was uh nonexistent) so like my Complements fanfic is in the process of growing a fourth part so look out for that I guess -and if you’re still here reader, I hope you enjoyed my long long ramblings

-and in conclusion:

#marvel #endgame #endgame spoilers

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/ first love / things of first love / looking on my parents as my first love / who looked on me as her first love / (but) "My Greatest Love' / commitment to truth about love / minjung theology / "total christology" - / returning love to the first love and greatest love (john 3:16) / "The Roommate" - Westfield (NJ) Snow - the Kim brothers - Trader Joe's - Zegna shirtmaker(?) - Tracy Espiritu - "The Faces on the Heights" (2008) - from social media, my governor's school friends, Mona (Monna?) Yao I never met, who made Chingwen stop hating Shanghainese, ECE girl from RU GSE (Graduate School of Education not Governor's School of Environment) - very black eyes - She wanted to buy the Minnie Mouse dress from the Disney Store - Jessie Lee, he drinks a diet coke then goes running - "California" is a frisbee play I thought only I know - Jessie wanted to be my friend or so b/c my brother is excellent - "That play is called California [dumb----] - Always California is a Law School Discussion person whose essay I told her what she meant / where she was going with her past-future but nowadays Millennials etc. can actually form a face-intent without finding themselves first and go forward forever instead of "whatever shrapnel in my back pocket could afford" or people who try to base their plans on available resources instead of aiming then looking for resources / materials. Jessie told Lydia Han "Take care of yourself" - She was playing DDR at Fusion Ti and not talking to me - I don't remember her last words to me - They were making noodles in Edison - / what did i ever do that was not writing about my friends / alden's vanilla bean ice cream (maria / change mind), 2 everything bagels davidovich, earlier a few ginger coconut candies from h-mart but made in china, coconut oil for brain, MiO energy thing Acai Berry and Ginseng, earlier 8th continent soy milk thing, almond silk, spanish mixed nuts, 7 almonds (obama?) - i had more - avocado butter - drinking canola oil - californian olive oil burns - i have a cold sore - i can't have canned tomatoes anymore - 183 pounds AHC "All His Children" / my password used to be for tassadaromega... canisexmachina... then I changed to impluveam impluveam11 impluveam11et - jaeyoung's son "fullness" - a glass of white wine at centraal the full measure of god's spirit (sauvignon) - mushroom soup i didn't touch - Why did I not follow through on what was demanded not to talk a word with him - the beginning of "Stepfather" - It is clean at the Food Court at Mayfair Mall - I feel powerless and pure - I will read the paper with you and explain why you should not take "Parasite" as a Gospel message about what has to happen, or... but it is easy for me to promise 'strong benevolence' is better than immediate economic justice or - In my first dream of "Searching For Towards the Eastern Empire" "lily Sarah" moved with her baby wrapped swaddled in light dove gray right to left through the woods to the field / meadow, in a cool spring or so, now past a frozen lake through the colors of "Elizabeth's Nightgown" or the summer colors of 2012 2021 left to right, the whole procession, carrying lanterns too, a bit like Caspar David Friedrich colors and a bit like that frozen lake out in the suburbs of Madison where Nikki called me and the phone vibrated on my heart to tell me Chi Hye tried to call me on Valentine's Day night - I called her - I forget - someone's phone ran out of batteries - the next day we got (?) at (?) Japanese "I really want to eat rice" - and a bit like "Fantasia Night on Bald Mountain" - the procession of the Saints with the lanterns, "we all of us." The rainy cliff, the Korean refugees(?). The image from "The Admiral" where the civilians flag Yi Sunshin from the cliffside shore. In my 645 rendition they are walking, the notes are like babies on their heads. But the image of the peasants signalling to YSS in another vision are chained together and being gatling gunned which is why I say some people want to kill all Koreans. Maybe it is because of that short from Apocalypse Now or maybe it is because of and why I named Segalchik "Danilov" from "Enemy at the Gates" the Commissar who wants to build a new world and man and whose dying words are "There will always be rich in love and poor in love," then allowed Koenig to shoot him in the head to draw him out for his "teacher only friend" because I guess enemies are enemies and friends are friends and Russians are loyal, even in failure, like how Nabokov synaesthete said "loyal is like a gold fork," and Putin doesn't forgive traitors. Putin reminds me of Houellebecq's voice from the end of Particulaires "This book is dedicated to the human race who saw beyond themselves" - as and with the poem from the beginning, "Now that we dwell in the eternal afternoon we can revisit the end of the old world order" - and in the end "the medieval grace and sin" - "ontology of states not space" - I still remember the bruised skin on the cover, which would come from limited beatings or a certain kind of holding sex - My favorite Houellecq poem is "Liquid Birth" from "Art of Struggle" - "This world has never been written of" - It makes me cry like thinking about Kendi's beauty - "It's there, at least possible." - What's Macron up to - He married his teacher(?) - "My thoughts are too complicated" - Putin's too - Russian elementary piano teachers hold the student's hand and split the fingers for toward cantabile - I learned the Goldbergs and the only book I'll touch anymore is Kempff's organ transcriptions with his precise description of pedaling like a certain kind of chapel organ - "Kempff played better than he could (Liszt's Saint Francis preaching to the birds) - and when he played "Berceuse" in 1946 it's like saying to Germany "Dream for a while" defeated in WW2 - He lived to be 95 - father-like. Wilhelm Kempff is "saenggi(?)" - "Oh [Dave]." He doesn't try to give, or make. He just "says." Like "the wave said what the sea broken once laboriously spoken." That's why I say he's the best; he's one of the best pianists ever. "Sospiro" final fioritura - I wrote "sospira" where the piano-teacher is mandatorily retired and euthanised after his best student - Arrau said relax use your soul - I drove through Indiana corn fields listening to his "Emperor Concerto" 1st movement - "Beethoven America power" - but Kempff does'nt rely on his own soul, he "waits for the Spirit of God" or "waits on the Lord' - "asks the sky." This is why I like Stritch University Francis statue with the birds as well and Francis PP. St Francis of Assisi from whom Michelangeli claimed to be descended and I bought Michelangeli's op 111 DVD at Seoul Arts Center at the Liszt Society concert actually married his secretary in secret or something and "loaded" pieces whereas Kempff loaded nothing, ABM offered to teach Martha Argerich who is my favorite Andante Spianato like Josephine Park but I don't think she took him up on it, he smoked, he practiced at night, his head exploded(?), he died in Lugano. A pianist is a pianist (not a brand, franchise, go into teaching). Jenny / Jaein said I want to be a pianist. My first "Lullaby" was Idil Biret, IDK if the clock motif left hand is 1 2 3 4 5 6 or 1 2 3 4 5 (). A steady lake lapping, not a clock. In "Being Kim Poor" Krystal Jung fell asleep in the rowboat on the lake in Switzerland after the wedding in the chateau and trying to eat / hang out with the caterers. KP is an ex-soldier, her bodyguard, his friend is a Southerner like those Blackwater / Academi types who got rich quitting SF gov't to do contracting but Paul / Poor won't really. I thought about Sunny something something cyber stalkers in Whitefish Bay walking up the hill where I also listened to Fifth Season SSWFL later and in the neighborhood of the Obergefell blackout. "Free firewood" a chopped-up desk - am I an "afterburner" for having a desk and "free."

The original love-truth-faith-promise. The Minjung Theology book is "whiteness-words," holiness.

I feel like I almost arrived all in one piece for a while. I put on my white shirt. I weighed 160(?). The caseworker said she couldn't imagine me another weight. Pop was writing letters to the caseworker. I recommended "Whisper of the Heart" to for her son.

Now I feel like Hananim / God will let 300 saints die young so one sinner can be saved. "I was born in 1970" - I thought she meant "I became an angel in 1970" maybe.

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l’amis headcanons

these are just my personal opinions but i do get most of my info from the Brick + basic history, message me if u have questions or a different opinion tho! Enjolras -v v gay -for Grantaire specifically -french native (via the Brick; his family were likely French aristocrats) -studying law when he’s not arguing with a teacher -literally incapable of writing an essay within the given parameters it's always at least a page too long enj tag

Grantaire -bi as fuk -loves enj with every fiber in his being -moroccan on his father’s side and romani on his mother’s, hopped on a boat to france one day bc he heard the wine was good -actually is a genius, studying art but he took one Popperian philosophy class and hasn’t stopped trying to falsify enj since. -reads too many Greek mythology books he Needs to Stop -he has severe depression and is an alcoholic (this is straight from the brick!! however, this is not ///cute/// in any way; i don’t romanticize it at all but it’s important to acknowledge that he has mental health issues) taire tag enjoltaire tag

Combeferre -hes jus doin his queer lil thing being bi -literally!!! cannot!!! express!!! his love!!! for!!! Courfeyrac!!! -his family are Cargèse la Grecque (Corsican Greeks) -double majoring in philosophy and physics as an undergraduate degree before med school -his blood is probably 95% coffee ferre tag

Courfeyrac -very pansexual and somehow?? everyone he flirts with is attracted to him -he mainly flirts with ferre tho because ferre is the Love of his Life -spanish, moved to France from Spain to study law -“study” law lmaO he has a fuckin bookshelf full of trashy romance novels that he calls his “legal library” jhsdbfjkhsdg -he brings his mother’s sangria recipe to every meeting and nobody drinks it but him and ferre because it’s ridiculously sweet but ferre is a good supportive boyfriend and dutifully has one glass every time courf tag courferre tag

Feuilly -he makes fans thats…. rly gay -i guess u could say he’s BahoreL’S BIGGEST FAN LMAO -lil redheaded nerd from Poland (according to the Brick, “He had for his specialty Greece, Poland, Hungary, Roumania, Italy. He uttered these names incessantly, appropriately and inappropriately, with the tenacity of right. The violations of Turkey on Greece and Thessaly, of Russia on Warsaw, of Austria on Venice, enraged him.”) -English major with a minor in Eastern European history -he really went to the fuckin barricade with a sword :’) a fucking sword :’))) dramatic impractical femme ass bitch :’)) feu tag

Bahorel -gay are u kidding…. -forever trying to get Feu to arm wrestle just so he has an excuse to hold his hand :)) -his family probably originated from Port-au-Prince in Haiti before being trafficked into France via the slave trade– he reminds me a lot of General Thomas-Alexandre Dumas, who really was a general in the French Revolution -very lazy law student who is only in school to spite the system lmao -sdgfhjkdgh he literally has a ritual of cursing and flipping off the law school every time he passes by (“Every time that he passed the law-school, which rarely happened… he took hygienic precautions… He wasted a tolerably large allowance, something like three thousand francs a year, in doing nothing.”) -tends to get into fights easily especially when drunk… he needs 2 chill…. bahorel tag feuhorel tag

Joly -poly + bi -constantly trying to get musichetta and bossuet into medical cots if u catch my drift :)))))))) -i headcanon joly as chinese-french, since that’s currently one of the largest immigrant groups in Paris. however, this characterization would be difficult for canon-era since Chinese immigration began in early to mid 1900s. however, once the Chinese immigration wave did begin, it resulted in the popularization of Eastern medicinal practices in Europe, which goes along w the brick’s characterization of joly as a med student -majoring in biology for his pre med and when he had to dissect a cow brain he almost puked on it -canonically, has some kind of anxiety disorder, most likely OCD and/or severe germaphobia (again, not to be romanticized!!! it would be a legitimate issue that would realistically affect his life in some negative ways) -always trying weird teas and herbal medicines -he thought that grantaire’s crush on enjolras was symptomatic of a brain tumor for the longest time joly tag

Bossuet Laigle (Lesgle) -who the fuck knows lmao he’s poly and ????? pan?? all he does is make gay jokes -chetta and joly know :^) -his mother was probably one of the 50k+ free black people that migrated to Paris after Napoleon sold the Louisiana territory to the United States and most likely met Bossuet’s father after he was given the posting office in Meaux, Paris by the king (the Meaux part is canonical and results in one of the best puns in the brick) -he’s a year behind Bahorel in law school and honestly……… his grades are abysmal help him -its not even because he’s stupid he’s literally just lazy and his professors always???change due dates without him knowing lmao -let! bossuet! be! bald! bossuet tag

Musichetta -bi + poly -started dating joly and bossuet after L'Amis began using the Musain as a meeting place, maybe she hooks up with Éponine too??????????? idk -french native, light skin, dark hair and brown eyes (in canon, she is “…white and dimpled, with the eyes of a fortune teller,“ this may indicate Romani origin) -works as a bartender in the Musain (for modern headcanons I think she studies English on the side, since Joly describes her as “very literary”) chetta tag jolsuchetta tag

Marius Pontmercy -he’s literally the only str8 here lmfaO -i mean maybe one time courfeyrac convinced him to dabble but it didn’t work which is fine bc he is devoted to Cosette -french native; like enj, his family were rich and closely affiliated with the monarchy -he’s an English major working towards becoming a lawyer and is the epitome of the Poor College Student -!!! freckly and shy and full of LOVE (it’s canon that his Bonapartist views conflicted with the more extreme politics of the rest of L'Amis. he’s not a doormat in any sense, but he is a quieter character since he’s learning the way of the revolution from the rest of L'Amis) -he’s so fuckign dramatic jshdbfhjdsb once he stood with his head against a tree in angst while cosette cried in the background like thats in the text actually marius tag

Cosette Fauchelevent -bi and proud!! -Marius is her angel -french native, “chestnut” hair, blue eyes, v innocent look about her -majoring in political science and interning as a journalist (obviously i’m ignoring the sexism of canon-era, but this career choice fits her canon personality: “Cosette was not very timid by nature. There flowed in her veins some of the blood of the bohemian and the adventuress who runs barefoot. It will be remembered that she was more of a lark than a dove. There was a foundation of wildness and bravery in her”) cosette tag marisette tag

Jehan (Jean Prouvaire) -nonbinary af, pan -they’re “married to Romanticism” jhsbjkfhe they’re like the Queen Elizabeth of L'Amis -french native, according to canon, he too came from an extremely wealthy family -poetry major who is never matching ever at all -,sjbkjhdhj they literally learned four fucking languages just to read their four favorite poets and their past times include “saunter[ing] through fields of wild oats and corn-flowers” they’re Extrá jdhvfjhds jehan tag

Éponine Thénardier -shez-a-lesbian and the mess w marius is compulsive heterosexuality, genderfluid imo -she’s totally over marius but cosette…. come 2 think of it cosette is kinda cute… -her grandparents were likely immigrants from the french territory of guadeloupe (this is possible in canon, give or take a decade, because France received an influx of black immigrants in the late 19th century. also, guadeloupe’s enormous amount of internal conflict would account for the Thenardiers’ crooked ways and affiliation with crime gangs) -she’s gotta be an english major bc her entire adult introduction in the brick is a scene where she shows marius how well she can read and write despite being a plebeian -KBFKJHB SHE HAS SUCH A DEEP VOICE (“It was a dull, broken, hoarse, strangled voice, the voice of an old man, roughened with brandy and liquor”) ponine tag

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"Home is where the heart is" I dont have to tell you where that lies. But its only part of the pain. I know in my heart I'm a good person, but my life has been in shambles since I was young. Theres many like me, that dont deserve the life they were given & yet somehow persevere through it just to survive & try to be happy through the pain.

How I ask do I deserve not to be happy. I feel there was no justice for me, I was dishonorably discharged lol. I was truly happy where I was, but even if i were to travel place to place...that is also in my blood, not just the place I resided.

I was at home, I was at peace, I truly loved everyone there & every second. But do I dare go there again, absolutely in a heartbeat. But this is what kills me, Part of me says "this is your life now, accept it, push through even if u can't" the other part of me says that ill be white knighted with a bust through the door like the kool-aid man & he says "sike, yea i fucked it up & didn't realize I had something special, will u forgive me" 😅

But i know that could just be my imagination & im overthinking again. But where actually is my life headed? I have a good heart, i care so much about those thats affected me even in a bad way...but maybe that's God's love showing right through me, because I forgive easy & help those that need it. My brother says that a "helper" is equivalent to a partner in crime & all aspects, a soul mate. He throws the word around with this subject, but he's also trying to find his forever helper which he believes is the mother of his 1st born children. Thats great, given the right circumstances & if her situation was better, yea they could probably try.

For me, caring & trust is my biggest downfall. Because i do so much for others b4 myself, I end up taken advantage of or at least feeling like it. Even if its not the case, the wrong thats been done to me all my life..made me this way. I cant help that. And to find someone that I trusted fully, only to find out that I couldn't. That breaks a person like me down & actually hurts to the core. I didnt deserve that, but it was the disservice that was thrust upon me without a 2nd thought. I wasn't given the proper chance to love someone because they refused to love me back & yea most of the time it was about them...but thats a leo for ya 😅

When someone shares it mutually, everyone wins, you're complete, u have that "helper" you've been longing for all your life. The good times that were shared, the humorous banter, doing something for the other just cuz u can & cuz u want to, showing eachother off to friends & family like "yea thats my babe right there" as if to say they were happy u were there,the best friend & sidekick that everyone needs...it was all gone in a blink of an eye. Leading on my heartstrings, making me fall harder & harder, the friendship to the end even, all for nothing. But because of all the positives, thats what gets me, it's why my pain is so confusing. Why was it all like that if not on purpose whether for a positive reason I have yet to understand, to make it easier for them not to deal without regard for the others feelings, or cause God making me suffer more through it to make me stronger...when I thought I was done with low struggles already.

Idk man, I just dont understand. But because of what my life has been like over the past half of the year, all the positives makes me want more...because I never got all of him in the 1st place. I always wanted more because he held himself back & on purpose. So maybe it did seem like attachment, but only cuz I longed for the same feeling in return & didnt give up trying to find it..literally any sign of it. I was trying to figure his sweet ass out & learn what kind of person he really was lol, so I could accommodate to him more especially in the last weeks I was sweating my ass off 😆 I was dedicated so much I was willing to change what wasn't liked on the outside. Like I wanted to do so much to keep the best thing i had, cause deep down I knew his old feelings fizzled out quick & I just didnt understand & I still dont. I mean I guess I understand if he wasn't ready for a commitment? And that's fine, but he committed b4 & when I was brought there. What is it that was so wrong about me, that negative thoughts festered so much about someone it makes u think someone else is the problem, when its not the case at all.

Theres nothing i can think of, nothing else i could've done to show my worth, that I wasn't a waste of time. Maybe I pushed too hard? But in those last few weeks I gave space & focused on myself & my tasks at hand with so much more effort to have some kind of a chance, to save what was precious to me..save someone else that couldn't rise up on their own. & i blew it somehow. I was told i settled, but that was the point from the beginning that we both agreed upon. I think it was just that the other was getting comfortable with someone around & it scared em..to where they couldn't do all they wanted in life along with dealing with someone else at the same time. Or possibly felt 1 or the other wasnt good enough for the other & felt inadequate or unequiped. And searching for someone else to fill a void they already had at home, thats another thing that befuddles me. The last time I saw him, it didn't look or sound like he cared, avoided eye contact til he drove off & my heart sank even more as I knew it might be the last time I ever saw him. I was too pissed & in the heat of the moment flipped him off til he was out of sight, but after...i wanted to die right then & there but my best friend was there & we were on a deadline just as he was. If I were alone & my friend wasn't there, I'd be sobbing in that parking lot for hours til someone found me.

They, he, had it all but lost it due to their own negligence, in my opinion.

I mean come on whats not to like about me that didn't go hand in hand with what they were searching for.

The perfect heritage to match his (Templin Germany the 7th largest region) with some jew blood, same interests & hobbys, outlook on life, the lucky number, a good & gentle soul with a love for God. Passion for travel, soft spot for bald eagles, the dream of becoming a parent 1 day, intellectually & gamer gifted, both loves BLT sandwiches...because i da snack too 😏, both have the same middle name but spelled differently & 30yr olds with same hs class year, I have 3 hansome brothers & he has 3 beautiful sisters. I mean Dafuq? Lol. We're total opposites & literally residing NE to SW of the country, 1 grew up well the other not so much...yet we still were able to find eachother....somehow? Bro how about u try the other half of the yr here, 6 month equivalent & finish 2020 the right way huh lol BET 😂 oh man. A girl can dream though can't she?

I have a college writing level & training in business, musical theater, massage therapy (which was the fav), veterinary tech college training in hs, 7 years of choir under my belt since 5th grade including after hs in multiple churches & my choir teachers wedding. I Iove animals, likes to paint, great with technology, listen to music & sing along to every word almost exact, family oriented, a gaming & content creating wizard, passion for helping people, can organize & clean the shit out of anything, can be the boss when i feel the need as well as the spunk & charisma to push forward at any given task. I can multitask & can get shit done if I set my mind to it, if there's something or someone I need to feel purpose to be my best self, yea & if I'm accepted, that's purpose enough right there to get my ass moving.

Yea, jumbling alot of shit in my early life made me crack under the pressure but only cuz i really went over the top & burnt out. But ive relaxed alot since then & am treated for my ailments, ive learned to do things to pace myself now to prevent a psychosis from ever happen again.

Ive said this b4, there was 1 other that also broke up with me...1st time it ever happened the other way around mind u, was also a Leo.. shocker lol. After only 3 months & of me saying the L word too quick...it was what finally broke me, what added ontop of everything else. I was living in my own apt since hs & after school a yr later at 19..he lived in the same apt complex & worked where i did. We hit it off really well & loved talking to eachother at work, almost the same humorous & smart personality with a passion for gaming, dead ass great driver, skinny & ample where it counted, & yea also a weed enthusiast 😅 all of it pretty much the same as the recent one in my life. Honestly thinking about it now they probably would've been great friends lol. Thomas was his name, but I was in a relationship at the time of meeting him as well. But I didn't pursue anything til that relationship blew up in my face just cuz my current bf's grandfather was my boss & saw how well Thomas & i got along as friends, associated it with cheating, & that was that. Tom could be mine after all lol, chips fell into place on their own after he professed his feelings to me on his MySpace blog so damn smoothly lol 😂 Saying there was a girl he liked, i commented on it, he asked me out, that was trap lol, but it worked lol. The chemistry was 🔥

But yea, we had alot fun together & he was completely chill with me. But after it ended it set something off in me. Ended up in a psych ward for 2-3 weeks, little did I know he was worried sick & had no idea where i was or how to visit. I wasnt allowed to have my phone but the persons number I knew by heart, was the previous guy b4 tom, the chubby aloof dumbass that was my 1st love lol. Tom hated him with a passion cuz this dude wasn't a man that treated me fairly, pushed onto me by his family for me to take care of, shelter & feed him mooching off of me & taking advantage of a comfortable place to live at 1 point. When i was in the hospital, my 1st was the 1 to pick me up. When I got back from the hospital I learned of how tom was worried & he gave me a big hug. But by that point I was back with the 1st...somehow that happened & I actually don't remember what brought it on cuz my memory throughtout those weeks was dowsed in medication...but Thomas was the one heartbroken instead of me this time cuz he actually did want me back, the fact I took this other guy back over him, a person he despised...was terrible to him & he severed all ties, moved away. He broke up with me, technically it was okay as so i thought to see someone else regardless if it was an ex or not. i didn't know I had another chance at all.

But anyway, the difference between the 2 leo Ts, 1 let me in completely, cared about me as much as i did for him in same way & the L word too soon is what did it in for him after 3 months 🤷‍♀️ The other T well..unfortunately 1 sided for the most part despite how well we clicked, i was faithful & the other tried not to be after 3 months & hid things due to his own insecurities, pulling me along for another 3months when I didn't have to do jack for him at all after that point, but I did. I might've said the L word too soon with him as well idk. But because I'm a different person than I was then, there's no psychotic break...its just the depressed feeling of defeat with the mix of the longing i still have for him.

Wtf is it with T names & the number 3!? ffs! 😫 Briana Leigh Templin BLT, Bri Loves...whoever Tfuk 🤣

I cant write anymore today, I gotta leave tomorrow. My brother wants me to work for him instead & make more money, in a team that would be like in an office space, basically an assistant but making calls & checking in with clients within his real estate, solar, etc businesses.

But idk, I just got my foot in the door with something else. If I let go of that, for something that could or could not be bad for me, then what do I do? Neither of them sound any less stressful, bryans idea however earns more money & would have me dealing with stuff I like to do in regards to skills maybe? Idk man, idk. It'd a tough call.

My point in writing this, nothing accept to show how much I thought he was perfect for me, just as he originally thought about me. These are all thoughts going through my mind, get them out of my head. To talk openly the way I am, its therapeutic. But I miss him so damn much, not sure when this feeling will go away. I still love him & even dare I say trust him,even through his lying ass faults & idk why, i shouldn't but i do...thats the powerful effect he had on me. Still waiting on the last promise to be friends, im giving space, venting here instead of to him cuz i wouldn't want to be that much of an annoyance. I was going to include more but it'd be dark & negative,& im not about outing the worst in people especially if he was a good guy for the most part...no that wouldn't be right, probably deserves it to be honest..but no. I still wanna do right by him. That's all for now

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cerealmonster15 · 7 years

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*clutches your face* TELL ME EVERYTHING!!!

DND CHARACTER BACKSTORY TIME THAT IM PUTTING UNDER A CUT BC IMTOO WORDY FOR MY OWN GOOD (1k+ words lol cries) BUT HEY SO

His name is Armazz and hes a triaxian alchemist…………..

a triaxian, for anyone who’s reading andUnaware [i sure as fuck had never heard of one] is an ALIEN humanoid from theplanet triaxus (I think? One source said that and the other was like WE CANTSAY THE NAME BC COPYRIGHT) that kindalooks like either a furry or bald mix between a human and an elf, but the earsare kinda more big and down rather than skinny and up i guess

winterborns are kinda narrow eyed and havewhite fur and pale bodies [idk if the skin is pale or if theyre just describedthat way bc theyre totally covered in white fur lol]

summerborns are hairless and dark skinnedw/wide eyes

winter and summer lastfor centuries at a time so if ur born during that season u typically die duringthat season and are best adapted for said season. HOWEVER, there are shorter,transitional seasons between the two [btw im getting all this Lore from this page and this page]. a triaxian born during the transitional stagelooks a bit different from their parents and offspring (im guessing they looklike a hybrid between the two lol), and if theyre born during the transitionalperiod between summer/winter, theyre often seen as ill omens because the winteris coming and the time of harvest or w/e is ending yadda yadda blah

some believe them tobe the force that actually bring on the winter, and will attempt to kill thechild. the parents will typically either hide away the child, or also try toTAKE IT OUT…

and this is wherearmazz comes in! he is a transitional triaxian, born to two summerborntriaxians. He has copper skin like a summerborn, but narrow eyes like awinterborn, and a thinner layer of white fur than most winterborns that ispatchy throughout his body. Because of this, his father, along with others fromtheir village, saw him as an ill omen for the winter soon to come, and wishedto slay the baby. Armazz’s mother ran off with him and managed to get away andhide off outside of town. They were later discovered by a summerborn woman andher two children, who had sympathized with armazz’s mother, because she, too,had given birth to a transitional triaxian, but the child had been slain bytheir town, and her husband was murdered while trying to protect the baby. Thewoman accepted armazz and his mother into her home with her two kids (adaughter and younger son- both summerborns), where armazz would remain asecret, seldom leaving the house. They lived in a home on the outskirts of atown that was a fair distance away from both the families’ previous homes.

Over the next fewyears, Armazz’s mother and the lady that took them in grew close and ended upgetting married (or at least were in a relationship together, idk if triaxiansget married but whatever lol). Armazz first learned alchemy from his stepsister(I should really give them names, shouldn’t i). it was nice, but armazz was abit lonely since it wasn’t very safe for him to leave the house. He was also abit quieter and on the tad more serious side, partially due to the winterbornnature in him, and partially because…I imagine it’s a lot weighing on a youngchild/man to know that your existence had you and your mother driven from yourhome and you must spend your entire life in hiding.

When Armazz was about20, however, things took a turn for the worst. Most of the time, armazz stayedindoors, but on occasion, he would work close to the yard or only in the forestnearby when no one else was out. The family didn’t live in the most populatedarea, but they do have a few sparse neighbors. Only a few ever saw him, andwere more good natured (as summerborns tend to be, apparently? Even tho somewant to murder transitional seasoned babies?) and would turn a blind eye ifthey saw the suspicious looking young triaxian leaving the house. Not all wereso kind, though, as someone visiting a neighbor caught a glimps of the patchyfur and narrow eyed young man. Not wanting the town to be cursed with a barrenwinter, the stranger soon spread the word and it wasn’t long before a riot fromthe town was at the door, demanding to take away Armazz. In the struggle and attemptto protect Armazz, his mother was deeply wounded. Not wanting to cause hisfamily any harm or risk their lives (and also to save his own), armazz gave hismother a quick hug (staining his shirt with blood) and ran out into the woods,leading the mob away from the house. He knew returning would only endanger thefamily more, and decided if he were ever to live a somewhat normal life, he hadto leave Triaxus. (I have. No idea. How he leaves the planet or where he is nowbut. Hes gone. Hes elsewhere. Yay armazz.)

It’s been 15 yearssince that day. Armazz now lives… on another planet (we haven’t started thecampaign so idk where he is now lol) and is generally still a hermit as that’s reallythe only lifestyle he knows. He lives, yet again, on the outskirts of a smalltown, but this one he can at least go into without fear of being attacked.Because he’s a transitional triaxian, he’s better suited for adapting seasons(the summerborns are much more suited for hot weather and winterborns thecold), but he wears robes out of habit to hide most of his patchy fur, as thatis what he grew up wearing in attempts to keep himself safe in case an onlookersaw (unfortunately, that clearly didn’t end up working foolproof ;p). for a fewyears, when Armazz first came to… planet…….., he lived near a mysteriousalchemist on the outskirts of… town… who sort of took on Armazz as a bit of anapprentice, teaching him how to adapt around society and a little bit ofalchemy skills to keep from getting rusty. The alchemist was very old, and overtime, disappeared. Perhaps he died, or perhaps he just left. Armazz isn’t toosure, and missed his friend quite a bit for a while. He still practices alchemyon his own to honor/feel connected to his family/step sister back home and theold alchemist. He has no idea if his mother is still alive or how his family isdoing, as he has not seen or heard from them since he left 15 years ago. he metthe alchemist when he first settled on the new planet, the alchemistdisappeared after about 7 years, so it’s been about 8 years since thedisappearance. Alchemy is the only thing that Armazz feels like he has thatconnects him to those he’s loved and he won’t lose :”)

#yall dont have to read All That lol but it's there if u wanna ;p #dnd #mercuryblacksleg #asks #the font may or may not look weird bc i typed a lot in word and copy/pasted #shruugs also my theme has tiny font still im sorry lmfao i need to fix that

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THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS/SHADOWHUNTERS: A Movie v TV Show Casting Comparison.

It's hard to chose which I like better overall because I actually really like the movie and the TV show (although neither stick to the books at all, they're so far away from it, so many unnecessary plotlines, why??).

CLARY: I definitely like Lily Collins more as Clary. Kat seems like a nice person, but I think her acting needs some work, she's often not very convincing. It may come with time though. Apart from the hair colour, Lily just embodied the character so much better, although she still annoys me, but I feel like Clary annoys everyone.

JACE: Jamie would be my first choice for Jace, but Dom's acting certainly got better as the series moved on, so he's not too bad. I feel like Jace doesn't actually get very much screen-time in the TV show, maybe because Malec is the main couple right now, but Jamie really had Jace's snark and overall demeanour down, as well as the total 180 he does in his moods with Clary, much more than Dom does. I'm excited to see how that changes when (SPOILER) the whole incest thing stops being a thing.

SIMON: I can't chose either actor for Simon because I love them both. Robert maybe had the character down a little better, but I do love them both. They're cute and they actually look kinda similar when they have the glasses on. I like Alberto's vampire portrayal better I think.

ALEC: Okay, everyone's always mean to Kevin, and yeah he was kinda old to be Alec, but I actually really liked his portrayal, and he's such a sweetie. Malec wasn't going to be a big thing in the movie, because it was based on the first book, where Malec was basically non-existent. However, I must say, I love Matt so much, and he portrays Alec better than I thought anyone ever could. He's like my fave human whoops. But yeah, I love both these boys, I just think Matt is a better Alec simply due to age. His chemistry with Harry is great, in a way that Keven and Godfrey didn't have.

MAGNUS: Magnus was also cast kinda old in the movie, and I love Harry's portrayal, so I definitely prefer the TV show casting there. Some of the effects were better in the movie in terms of his magic, and I like his cat eyes in the movie, so there's that, but overall, Harry wins. He has the charm and the flirting but also the care for Alec, and Clary as well. Also I love the initial Malec meeting in the movie and the TV show, always makes me laugh. I'm glad their story is getting more developed than it did in the movie and even the books, where they always took backseat to Clace, and even other couples as they started appearing later books. All that freaking gay erasure, am I right?

ISABELLE: I actually completely forgot what the Isabelle in the movie even looked like, showing how great her impression on me was (not very great at all). Em is great as Izzy, really has the sass and the flair, though her accent isn't amazing, but obviously that’s not her fault, and I feel like it’s getting better, particularly in season 2. A great choice for Izzy I think, and the family likeness in the Lightwoods is great (except Max, lol why is everyone else in the family clearly not white, but Max is the whitest kid I've ever seen, terrible casting).

VALENTINE: Valentine annoyed me in both movie and TV show bc HE'S SUPPOSED TO HAVE LIKE LONG HAIR. Idk why it bothers me so much, but it does, like wtf why is he bald in the TV show. No thanks??? I just don't think either characterisation of him did his villainous nature justice. Valentine is this sick, insane, twisted character, and it’s just not really shown. I get that maybe it would be too much for the rating of the show/movie to show the true extent of this horribleness, or maybe that’s to come when (SPOILER) our good friend Sebastian shows up, but like who knows, I just don’t really like it.

SIDE CHARACTERS: Jocelyn doesn't bother me, she's not that key, tho (SPOILER) why did they kill her off in the TV show? Like no? Her and Luke get married? I need Jem to be there so he can steal Church? Luke is fine in both, I hadn't realised it was the actual love of my life Aiden Turner in the movie tho. I think I like Luke better in the TV show, he had more room for character development, and the image in my head of what he looked like has changed thanks to Isaiah. Maryse Lightwood casting is good, really looks like Alec and Izzy. (Are there more side characters I have forgotten? idk? idc? it’s 3am?)

TV SHOW EXCLUSIVE/I FORGOT IF THEY’RE IN THE MOVIE: I can't really remember Raphael from the movie, but the TV show portrayal is great, got the snark down, though I'm worried they're going to make him straight? He’s having some weird moments with Izzy (SPOILER) with the whole Yin Fen plotline (also yeah that sucks, I hate it, wtf no, where did it come from it’s basically ruined their chance to make a Clockwork Angel series bc you’ve taken Jem’s plotline?) Like no, he's canonically gay, right? But yeah, A* casting, good job on that, he looks just like I imagined, though I feel like he's older than he's meant to be in the books. Maia is cool, I want more of her storyline. Camille is just how I imagined. I can't even remember if those two were in the movie lol.

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Omg I have such a thing for the optometrist that works with my mom at the vision source here. She’s so godamn fine it makes me get feelings. She has this skinny lean fit body, tall, gorgeous fucking face. Shit I met her like twice, I looked beautiful a few years ago when I met her the first time…

So she was running late and she came into the office and said sorry Mir! I’ll try to do this fast!! I told her lol no worries, I’m in no rush, I work late tonight

She asked where I work. I said at Ross, I’m a cashier, lol yeah that’s what I’m doing at 30. And she said hey no judgement here. Her hands and arms are so fucking pretty too. She kept talking to me and putting her hand near me like she wants to put it on me but she was holding back. It felt like she was attracted to me but since she’s married she isn’t going to go that far. Um. I told her yeah I turn 30 tomorrow. And she said oh wow dirty thirty. And I’m like lmao yeah. She asked what I’m doing or what plans I have for it. I said nothing lmao. And I said you’re younger than me aren’t you? And she said noo “I’m 33” and I said oh what! So what did you do for your dirty thirty! And she said “lol actually… I think I just went to dinner” I’m like SEE, SAME. LOL. and she said it’s such a big birthday. I said I know.

She then had me run through the eye tests and everytime I had to look directly at her, I got these feelings, it must be lust, except this is a woman I’d totally date and want to be with. Um, yeah I asked her what her ethnicity was. She said her mom is Vietnamese and her dad is totally white. I said you have such a unique face. She does. See? I love half asian/half white women. It’s the best. Anyways. She laughed. So cute. Ugh. And I asked what she does for fun since she said she had two kids and I mentioned like, so what so you do for fun, you know, besides having to be with your kids. Hahaha. She said she likes to do photography. And I said oh nice! And uh, what else, I told her about my music and idk we talked so much. And she was, very engaging. There was a pic of my eyes on screen and I asked what it was, she said it was “just your optic nerve that connects to your brain” and then she laughed and said “I mean not JUST” hahahaha cause obviously that isn’t something so simple, it is quite amazing. I already had a thing for her back in 2015 when I met her. I believe she was flirty then too. But yes there was that pic of my eyes on screen, like a zoomed up pic and it’s green, and she sees my lashes in it and she says “omg look at all those lashes” and she waves her hands all over them. And she said share them. Hahahaha. I’m smiling as I type this, writing about it, thinking about it. I told her her lashes are just as nice! And she said “yea but I have to wear mascara” I’m like, I think your eyes are just as beautiful. Or something.

Maybe I didn’t say beautiful. Might as well have.

I need a haircut rn… I would have looked better… But I looked great enough anyway haha.

And so we went to the back to try on my new contacts. The girl that I met at my work that works here was there, lmao I flirted with her once and she was so shocked, I remember her, nothing serious though.

So back to optometrist bb. She’s so beautiful. At the end of it all she asked me if I had any questions for her. I asked if she had a Snapchat. She said she doesn’t. But she said she has an Instagram. And we sat there looking up each other’s Instagram lmao. We followed each other. I told her yeah my shit is emo but I post myself and yeah lol but that’s just me. And she said she posts her kids. And she had a photography page too, I followed it too. It was good. She’s so hot. Sorry. Lol. Anyway, she asked if I post my music there too! She was excited and I said yeah lil bits, but it’s with solo software so it isn’t as intricate as what I want to do really, with a band and all. And yeah. She’s so sweet. I followed her and it was private and she said I have to approve her, I said lol no, YOU have to approve me. Lmao. And she did.

We talked about music and how she used to be good at piano. She says she can read music but not play by ear. And then she said something like “well when you make it big” I could invite her..haha. she said that out of nowhere. It was like. Honestly, it felt flirty or filled with some kind of attraction. I remember it.

Or she’s just being nice. I don’t know, her body language and the way she nearly touches me, the way she engages with me and asks about me… I think she’s attracted to me.

Her husband looks like a small silly bald white man! How did he ever pull her? He must be nice and wealthy, but lol, she’s a optometrist, she makes bank dude.

I don’t know? I wish she was single.

Oh I said something else about the office she works in..I said oh yeah it must be fun working here… Where everyone is right wing… And she said “ugh yeah but most times I’m in the middle so it’s okay… But it’s the owner who is completely right wing, hardcore conservative” and I said lmao yeah he doesn’t like me. And she said omg really? And I said yeah lmao we would fight… If we kept talking, we would fight. Not physically, but you know.

And then I told her briefly about my horrible date few days ago and how I got kicked out of a club cause they thought I was gonna fight. I said it to illustrate that I don’t fight. Haha. She said “see, you just put yourself out of that position”

Lol maybe I overshared and I definitely dropped an F bomb, maybe I should not have been so unprofessional. But when I’m comfortable with someone, it happens. Especially someone I have a thing for.

I don’t really think I have a thing for anyone else. Its sad. I would love her. But I still don’t want to be with anyone. So it’s… Strange.

There was a lot more that happened but I can’t remember and I'ma go eat.

I wanted to get her snapchat because I’m more happy and day to day life… But she said instagram, so I gave it.. I usually don’t… Because my instagram is kinda emo and a bit too personal…

Damn

Oh right, as she gave me my new contacts and I put them on, she asked what else do I play besides guitar. I said vocals but ever since jaw surgery it’s been hard to sing. She was cute about it. And as soon as I could see after putting on the contacts, I looked right at her and said “there you are” and she said “here I am” …

…

GIRL DO NOT GIVE ME A FUCKING FULL ASS BONER IN PUBLIC LIKE THIS, OMFG.

I didn’t, but my god, the feels.

Oh yeah he said she was from Cali too. She can't go hiking here though

Especially cause of the heat

Omg that right, she said during college she worked at the gap and she loved the 50% discount.. I said omg that's a lot! And I said they were trying so hard to hire me! Idk why! And I said it's closed now and she said yeah they are closing now, maybe trying to focus on online sales. She said her discount went from Gap, to old Navy, and another joint company. It's all the same

I had so much fun talking to her

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1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? Romantically, there's one boy that I actually cares about, a lot. 2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? In the end I forgive everyone. 3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” Cat(?!) Maybe Tony Stark bc he's like a cat?? (sorry not sorry) 4: What’s something you really want right now? To see my mother I miss you 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? I'm afraid to fall hard in love, go slow doesn't hurt anyone 6: Do you like the beach? YAS 7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Ugh let me think, probably with friend 8: What’s the background on your cell? Plam tree in the purple sky. Very aesthetic I gotta say 9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? -Mine in my room -My friend's resort -My host sister's -idk im not in that many beds 10: Do you like your phone? Hate the fact that the amount of memory I get are not enough. 11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? I don't really know, does anything ever go as planned? 12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? thb I don't remember no one calls me 13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? Why not both? My neighbour have an adorable, fat, and so not agressive Rottweiler. But poodle are cute and quiet; I like peace. 14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional 15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? ART MUSEUM ANYTIME CONCEPT OF THE ZOO ARE JUST LIKE OH YEAH WHAT PROVILAGE WE HAVE TO JUST LOCK ANIMALS UP AND BOOM WE GET MONEY FROM THAT???!?? 16: Are you tired? YES SO TIRED 17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? My whole life (hello mother) 18: Are they a relative? uh yes 19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? I have one. And if he love me back (which is kind of impossible) then totally. 20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? That time I kiss him. 21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? No I would want to do a lot of stuff that you won't get to do if you are married. 22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? I don't think so. Though he's a good kisser. 23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? One. And that's my hairband. #standardwoman 24: Is there a certain quote you live by? Cannot think of one. Though there's a lot I like about science, art, and phylosophy. 25: What’s on your mind? Religions are kind of create wars and personally it is dumb I'm so angry. 26: Do you have any tattoos? No. I wish! My mom would kill me totally. 27: What is your favorite color? Black and White is the classic! For color-color, have to be mustard yellow, plant green (like dark green). 28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? Totally 29: Who are you texting? No one ever 30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? Nope it was very casual. 31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? A lot and that's not a good thing 32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yes and I live for them they are the best human existed in my life ever thank you 33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I think there's one or two, but really not sure. 34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yes but I don't think that was honest bc my eyes are boring af. 35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? I wouldn't care that much since I don't care about him. 36: Were you single on Valentines Day? Yes to the lastest one. 37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? Yes 38: What do your friends call you? Nine 39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? Oh yes I'm a women of triggered 40: Have you ever cried over a text? Yes it's horrible don't do it 41: Where’s your last bruise located? My knee, it hurt like hell 42: What is it from? Have NO idea. 43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Month of March, my life was kind of shit and I want to go home. 44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? One of my exchange friend, we literally talked for the first time ever. 45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? My white adidas superstar, or my cheap sandals that I prefer over burkenstock. 46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? Depends on my mood. 47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Totally 48: Do you make supper for your family? Rearly. I'm not that good at cooking. 49: Does your bedroom have a door? If there's none I would have killed myself by now. 50: Top 3 web-pages? twitter, tumblr, ao3 51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? Yes like almost all males in my life. (Except my exchange friend they are like crazy at shopping) 52: Does anything on your body hurt? My back is quite sore rn 53: Are goodbyes hard for you? Sometimes. 54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Water. And intentionally. 55: How is your hair? Dry af bc I didn't wash it after swimming in the chrorine swimming pool 56: What do you usually do first in the morning? Grab my f phone 57: Do you think two people can last forever? If they really REALLYYYYY lucky maybe 58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? Oh yeah I wasn't dating anyone when I was seven I don't think 59: Green or purple grapes? GREEN ARE THE BEST 60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? When I have to leave everyone of this country and when I met the fimiliar faces. 61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Yes. On a beach, aesthetically tropical. Away from all the BS 62: When will be the next time you text someone? Prob tmr 63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? In this bed I ain't going nowhere 64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. Sleeping like a dead person 65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? No one ever 66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Hmmmm not always but prob my cousin she's like the sweetest thing 67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Nope 68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? It's okay. Not having panick attack or depression is nice. 69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Tbh I don't feel like I ever go all out on something bf 70: How many windows are open on your computer? Prob like 5 71: How many fingers do you have? 10 72: What is your ringtone? That's a good question 73: How old will you be in 5 months? 17 yas bitch 74: Where is your Mum right now? Working 75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? We broke up 76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? My friend 77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? No 78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? Yep bc he'a my ex 79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? Phoebe's boyfriend in Friends. 80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? No oh not that romantic 81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? A lot 82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Not the last 3 days, the last 3 weeks would be a yes. 83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? No 84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? Mary 85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? I will care if it's effect their physical or mental health 86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? The fucking butter (in the popcorn) went through my fucking favorite jeans and I'm forever mad. 87: Who was your last received call from? My exchange friend 88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? You can buy me with money go ahead I'll do it. (But will feel extremely guilty) 89: What is something you wish you had more of? social skill, life skill, money, good friends, time 90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? Oh yesss this is sensitive subject it hurt like a bitch 91: Do you sleep with your window open? No never I'd be so f paraniod 92: Do you get along with girls? Sometimes, depends. Mostly I'm good though. 93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? No 94: Does sex mean love? Not always 95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? If sex is problem then yes? 96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? No 97: Did you sleep alone this week? All week bro 98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? Sometimes, I don't like to depend my emotion on certain people bc they are so temporary 99: Do you believe in love at first sight? no 100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? my host sister

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