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stil-lindigo · 6 days

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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cloudyydraws · 4 months

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more mario and luigi doodles but i took their mouths away

+ extra unfinished stuff under the cut

#the dear doppelganger weeg one is purely self indulgent bc ive been playing it on loop recently im normal #and i know doppelganger is a different whole thing than what he has but. hey its ok we ball #more spm on the way (i hope!!!!!! as long as i dont get distracted by avemuji or sekai for a bit)#most of this was practicing mario bc i still dont like the way i draw him tbh but i think we're getting somewhere #shoutout priv twt oomfies for dealing with my mario fix bullshit youre all so real #drawing these little guys is so much different from my other little guys i think thats why ive liked drawing them so much constantly #it just feels fresh for me!! i just get to fuck around when i draw them its fun to experiment again #ok done talking i like them a normal amount #mario and luigi #mario #luigi #super mario bros fanart #super mario bros #super mario fanart #spm #super paper mario #mr l #starlow #smb #super mario brothers #mario bros #mario fanart #art #fanart #my art #cloudy draws #nintendo #nintendo fanart

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raphaerolo · 2 months

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The jedi and his commander

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 3 months

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a funny lil flower that suits a funny lil guy

#im so normal about flower symbolism < lying lying lying Lying #(pointing) SEE! SEE! I CAN DO MORE THAN SCRIBBLES!!!#AHA! I CAN DO MORE THAN ONE THING!!!!#that being said im never doing lineless again <3 #No Thank You!#it was not enjoyable! i did not have a good time!#it killed my already subpar mood!#scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #wally darling #i... dont like this still!#but i dont know how to fix it and im tired of looking at it <3 #oh well! there will be hits and misses!#you all might like it far more than i'd expect. you Never know!

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felsicveins · 2 months

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I feel like Bruce would use his charm against Otto whenever he tries to mess with his brothers. Bruce sees Otto about to say something nasty to Floyd, calmly gets between them while giving Otto a Look™ and telling him to play nice, immediately flustering him so badly Otto has to run away to avoid embarrassment.

Not sure if Floyd and JD would find it funny or be horrified at the idea of Otto actually being into Bruce (even if it will never develop into a relationship).

The Talk consists of Bruce telling Otto to leave his brothers alone

Bonus:

#bruce does seem to be ottos weakness! jd and floyd hid behind him when they first saw him again #trolls #ask #trolls 3 #trolls band together #Bruce trolls #Floyd trolls #brozone #jd ex husband #trolls oc #trolls oc otto #listen. he's the heartthrob. they have to ve used to it by now #final note? bruce is a good older brother : )#i tried not to spend too much time on this cause i have other things im putting off .. sorry for the wack colors #i dont feel like fixing them

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egoarc4de · 1 year

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[haunts your meth lab] [haunts your meth lab] [haunts your meth la

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pumpkster · 2 months

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#art tag #detroit become human #i think im gonna stop that thing i do of posting many drawings at once bc i'll go insane if i have to finish a bunch of stuff AND #NOT POSTING IT IMMEDIATELY #this type of colouring is funny bc it looks like they threw a bucket of water over them #this is a redraw of an old drawing #i was cooking back then (in that)#i wanted to change connor's uniform (the triangle and arm thing ) but idk what . i did a redesign before. yeeears before #i checked it now and i dont like it bc connor's thing is to be in a suit to re-fix his tie and look cool so the suit is staying (my designs #were with no suit ) hello artists where are ur connor clothes redesign #everytime i go back to dbh brainrot is because of hank and connor BECAUSE IM SIMPLE AND PREDICTABLE #I LIKE EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED CHARACTERS AND THEY BOTH ARE #I LIKE CONNOR DYING AND PRETENDING ITS NOTHING #and him getting adopted of course #hank anderson #when i saw hank's button up patterns i went im not doing allat and i forgot to do it at the end LMAO

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sodrippy · 9 months

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genuinely how sick and twisted is it that renters have to move every fucking year or put up with rent hikes for no reason. except of course everyone is increasing rent so even looking for a new place is an evil endeavour. can we all explode

#i dont even have to think abt this for another ten months but im already exhausted by it #i wouldnt mind staying here but im already paying way too much for what im getting im still pissed about the shoddy reno they did #but theyre gonna increase the rent im sure despite providing NOTHING #but what are the chances ill even get a new place thatll have the benefits of this place+fix the things wrong here+be affordable #literally being a rental tenant in this market is so why dont i just kill myself 👍

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mythtiide · 2 months

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what the fuck kind of production meeting is this

#signalis #signalis falke #signalis adler #drawing dis was a new kind of hell i think #<- tbh ‼️ drawing character interaction like this is just hard for me in general #its totally one of my bigger art goals for dis year i thinj #i wanna!!…!!!!!!! draw them being handsy together…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but its hard 😔#ANYWAYS! hardhips aside i really like this ……#i think it turned out suuuper good #especially adlers arm (thats holding the clipboard) ….. that gave me so much trouble yall dont even know #theres still things ive noticed that i kinda want to fix but! im forcing myself not to because if i did we would be here literally all day #myth.art

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harbingersecho · 9 days

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grif's surgery but just a little more... obvious?

I actually rly rly ADORE frankengrif but I don't have an in-show reason why he'd have extensive long-term allogeneic skingrafts on his face 😔

#rvb #red vs blue #dexter grif #grif #*24 #mine #art #cw wounds #Look I love biology stuff like this so I like researching what would be at least semi-plausible even if it's just for a dumb halo show that #makes 0 sense where CPR cures a headshot but i cant help it!!! and like the 'lazy' reason for it would be sarge is just crazy like that but #its not a good reason imo. and like the things he lists needing replacement are mostly internal and body parts which makes sense #considering how grif got injured by sheila like I could 100% see that rupturing organs and crushing his hand and there being burns etc #but like nothing points to grif needing any surgery above the neck and i dont think anyone mentions his face being different? i could #make up injuries for him but nothing in the show actually supports that he'd need grafts for anything but his body..#I'm SOO ready to be convinced otherwise btw like I said I want an obvious frankengrif to be true so bad !!#AGH would it be too insane of me to make like a surgery/injury overview thing for grif just so i can convince myself abt this idea...#i can bend to some fun stuff tho im not a total joykill u know! thats why i give his body the mismatched donor skin look despite allogeneic #grafts not being permanent w/ current tech. like it really doesn't matter if it's realistic or whatever but also Yes It Does.#and like during/after chorus would grey offer to 'fix' it? i imagine the feds could mesh a skin so they could use grif's own skin..#or like during rats nest when they got reassigned?

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 month

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OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever