#but im hungry and i WANT to eat like ive gotten over the shame factor and most of the time the lack of appetite

[dirt-grub]

i love art classes dont get me wrong but a three hour night class was a terrible idea

#its just too long that i cant focus thru it #we take really small five minute breaks but like i think i need a big one in the middle for this to work #also its at a really bad time when it comes to like eating food #my eating habits are slipping aaaaasdaljfsjkf #i didnt notice but i dont eat three square meals anymore fuck!!! #breakfast is good ive kept breakfast in check which is important #lunchtime i just forget i exist so like #and dinner is never certain like right now i have no clue #like nothing sounds good either its a problem #but im hungry and i WANT to eat like ive gotten over the shame factor and most of the time the lack of appetite #but whats going on wit me nothing sounds good #dont like college life too much i want to live in a cabin with many friends where we have communal meals at a really long table #basically the way my schedule is in maine is how i want to live idk how it doesnt translate down here #probably bc i live with people i dont want to live with #but like i get up early and am energized and breakfast is fun and lunch is fun and dinner is fun and everything in between is fun #it might be new york actually nobody here is capable of fun or relaxation #HATE new york standards like the days here feel short and meaningless and then up there even tho we take our time they feel shorter #why the fuck bigots always live in the country thats my goddamn element #gays. gays lets just pick one of those real empty states and take it over #wyoming is ours comrades let us live in a giant log cabin and drink and eat and be merry #connor talks #idk what im doing i just dont want to be in class and i am humgry