#but im just

[hazel2468]

“Kids are too young to learn about that stuff/ it might make them feel bad!”

My earliest memory is being told by a cop that “your kind aren’t welcome here” when my mom tried to take us to a playground. I was seven when someone called me a kike for the first time. The boy I had a crush on found out, told me he would never think a “Jew-pig” was cute, and then told me that as a “good German” he was going to put me in an oven “where you belong”. I spent all of middle and high school with kids throwing Nazi salutes at me, flicking pennies at me, drawing swastikas on my desk. When people started a rumor that I was blowing random guys in the theater, I was specifically called “Jewish whore”.

If I can deal with all of this from the age of FUCKING FOUR without it letting up for a single fucking week. If black kids can experience being called slurs, assaulted, being afraid for their lives because they know what cops do to them. If disabled kids can spend their days being called crip, spaz, being excluded from the most basic of things because no one, their peers and adults alike, cares to accommodate them. If queer kids can handle being assaulted and mocked every day, being excluded from activities because of their gender.

Then your fucking kid can handle sitting in class for a lesson or two. Learning about all  of the shit that’s been done to us in a way that is so watered down, it doesn’t even begin to cover it. Your kid can spend a day sitting in the auditorium watching “Schindler’s List” and giggling like a little fuck and imitating the Nazi salute while I sit there with the only other Jews in my grade and cry because we know this story and we have for years. Your kids can handle history lessons where they’re told that they could be Schindler. While I and kids like me know that we’re the little girl in the red jacket. Only meaningful for our shock value and pity when we die and nothing more. Only useful as a rhetorical device to inspire sympathy and tell other kids that they CAN do good, all while ignoring the fact that marginalized kids are fucking tortured at school by other kids, their teachers, and the fucking administration.

If you can’t handle your precious little baby having to learn about the Holocaust, or slavery, or racism, or the maltreatment of disabled people, or the AIDs crisis, for one day in an easy-to-swallow teaspoon of only slightly bitter medicine. Imagine being one of us.

#im pissed tonight #saw some shit about critical race theory #watched the John Oliver bit again #which is awesome by the way love him #but im just #oh my kid is too young to learn it at that age- #bitch if i and other kids like me #marginalized kids #can fucking LIVE IT from infancy #then your kid can sit and learn about it for a couple of hours #racism #abelism #antisemitism #queerphobia #slur mention

[reformedpeasant]

do I buy this lc! vinyl even though I shouldn't?

#like its $35 #but im just #i kinda want it

[sketchy-tour]

Tiny little heads up!

I'll be heading out on a trip tomorrow that will last a few days and will probably be absent from the blog during that short time! I'll try and go through and answer my few asks before I go! I'm silly and wanna doodle stuff for them instead of just answering with text which would be easier but man that's less fun fjsjdjd

Side note!! I hit 1500 followers already after hitting 1000 not too long ago?? Dang! It's been a wild time interacting with all the welcome home peeps! And though I can't promise this will be my fixation forever, I can say that the joy I get from this fandom is just indescribable. Just. Idk. Drawing the puppets makes me happy. And it makes me happy that yall like my stuff!!!

Anyway!!! You'll hopefully see my silly answered asks and then I'll be gone for a few days!!! See yall then!!!

#text post #just rambling #I know ive been doing a lot of rambles lately #but im just #feeling so sentimental right now yall have no idea #I havent had this fun feeling with a fandom in a long long time #its been a blast and I love you all!!@ Youve all been so sweet!!! #YIIIIIPPPEEEEEE

[notebooks-and-laptops]

Thinking about how Izzy Hands is the part of Blackbeard that allows Stede to fall in love with Edward and having brainrot about it.

I mean. Stede finds the concept of 'Blackbeard' fascinating. He's one of Stedes 'example pirates' in that scene for Frenchie. No doubt Stede read stories of the man while still with Mary and the kids. But Stede also falls in love with the softness of Edward. Edward is Blackbeard and undeniably cool, but it's the softness of Edward, the fact that he likes fine fabrics, the fact that he doesn't kill, the fact that he is an illusionist at heart that makes Stede fit with him.

And then there's Izzy Hands. Izzy Hands who is the Hands of Blackbeard. Stede walks from a bathtub confession with Edward about how Edward can't kill, into the sword of Izzy who has been killing for Ed for years. Izzy whos hardness, whos practicality, grounds the illusionist that is Edward enough for them to work as the coherent unit that is Blackbeard.

Stede can fall in love with Edward because the parts of Blackbeard that would be unlovable don't belong to Ed. They belong to Izzy.

#izzy hands #ofmd #blackhands #stizzy #look right okay #so i KNOW before anyone says it #ed has a dark side #and i hope Stede sees it #and loves it #but im just #im just having brainrot about THIX #right now

[mysticalblue09]

And remember, that’s just a theory. A GAME THEORY! Thanks for our childhood. 🥹

#game theory #film theory #food theory #fashion theory #matpat #childhood YouTubers #I’m happy for him #I really am #but im just #really sad to see him go

[nohriantomatoes]

quite literally in the dirt road sobbing right now

Baby hummingbird came up to my bright pink shirt so close I could feel the little wind generated by his wingbeats

The baby flew around and came to look at my phone and thats when I saw all his baby dark feathers

I looked in his eyes and he looked in mine and he went on his way and I immediately began crying

#personal #god i fucking #i fucking love field work #i think he was looking at my nails bx they are also bright pink #but im just #i cant right now yall

[serendipititties]

the more I look up Henry Cavill the more confused I am. What do you mean he's not technically english. What the fuck is jersey. What do you mean he was almost edward cullen. What do you mean he was in Stardust (2007) and no one recognized him. How the fuck do you lose a role to Liam Hemsworth?? How do you lose both your biggest roles in like a week anyway? What was that ugly ass haircut in argylle. What do you mean he dated a 19 yr old at like 32. Whats wrong with this guy.

#Idont really like him or anything #Especially after the college girl thing and the MeToo comments #But im just #This mans career trajectory is like a balloon losing air #And losing a role to a hemsworth? Embarrassing #So yeah ig #anti henry cavill #??? Is that a tag #wren rambles #wren left her barbequeue on

[macbcth]

literally in so much physical pain i hate having a chronic condition

#i like can't focus at all everything is so hard and im so tried #but i already asked for an extension for this essay and i can't just not turn it in #it's also only three pages like i can DO THIS #but im just #so brain fogged #like i feel insane #ive tipped over from exhaustion into hysteria #aisha.txt #college tag

[snikkts]

MOON KNIGHT (2022) / 1.06: GODS AND MONSTERS

#mine #moonknightedit #marveledit #mcuedit #tvedit #ammit #ammit moon knight #i know this might just summon a lot of nonsense #but im just #a+ villain reveal imo #its a very chill kind of menacing i like it #moon knight spoilers

[troutbug]

I know Ikuhara is known for making weird shit for the purpose of literary analysis but what the actual fuck was sarazanmai

#still reeling #sarazanmai #ikuhara #LIKE I GET THE MAIN POINT #but im just #what

[kingflups]

My fucking cat jumped onto the door of the terrarium I was building and shattered the glass

#my cat is okay #she ran away from the sound #but I locked her in my office Im so mad right now #i just have to. fix it #I already did what I could for tonight #siliconed the shattered panel on the outside and made a temporary brace while it set #but im just #fuck #dude that was a $200 tank and I didnt even get to use it before lydia cracked it #i can add a panel across the worst of it #but god fucking damn it #i wish I had a roommate to cry with right now #i think the worst part about living alone is just being trapped with the feelings #FUCK #dude I saved up for this tank for forever fucking hell #shit #i can fix it #I can #murphy speaks

[elegyofthemoon]

been slowing with honkai once i got to ch 18 and 19 1) bc i feel a little bored 2) im just in pain bc mei is miserable so im miserable too watching her like girl please stop you are your own undoing 😭

#the parallel too between tianwu and mei is making me more miserable asdlkfjashkl #IM FINE THOUGH LIKE I LOVE IT and i feel like it didnt pick up for me till the parallels w mei and tianwu but God. #like bro i know this mans bout to die trying to save ana its going to be bad and very sad but im also like #mmmmmmm mei >_> #idk. #i cant word it properly bc im caffeinated and shaking like a leaf (and sleepy) against this COLD AND RAINY WEATHER T - T #but im just #mei....... i hope.....you kinda. take something out. from this experience...... #like she sees herself in tianwu as well which makes me go hmmmmmm hmmmmmmm #T _T but idk if she will understand..... #avil plays hi3 #its not as super eventful as the last few chapters i think #and the slowing of the plot is nice bc you can just sit for a bit and think #but also im like #(sprawls on the floor)

[apersonwholikeslotus]

NO BUT YOU ALL DON'T UNDERSTAND I ONLY USE SIR/MA'AM SERIOUSLY FOR PEOPLE I'M SCARED OF

I WAS HIT AS A CHILD FOR NOT SAYING IT ENOUGH AND NOW WHEN I USE IT FOR PEOPLE IT'S BECAUSE I'M SCARED AND THAT'S HOW FUCKING CHRISTIANITY WAS TAUGHT TO ME AND I'M ANGRY ABOUT IT WHY WOULD GOD WANT US TO BE SCARED OF HIM?? I STARTED ASKING AND EVERYONE WAS LIKE 'WELL RESPECT AND LOVE BLAH BLAH BLAH' AND IT TOOK YEARS TO FIND A CHURCH THAT WAS LIKE 'NO WHAT THE FUCK WHY WOULD THEY TEACH YOU TO BE SCARED OF GOD??"

#tw: religion #this is n't coherent ik now #but im just #im sorry #i have to find a way to say this that makes sense but i can't i cant ever verbalize this the right way with just getting angry #i;m angry at the pepople who made me scared of epople who are supposed to be protect me im so angry at them

[invisiblyvisiblejay]

i have so much fucking shit to get done like. today and i did essentially nothing this weekend and i do not know what to do <3

#i mean do it obviously #that's what ill do #but im just #idk #been spending a lot of time w girl im dating and maybe i need to #stop doing that #like something probably has to give and nothing else can lol so #idk well see #im seeing her today anyways we're in a class together and we have to do the homework

[kragehund-est]

a huge portion of her posts are "god i HATE bisexual/white/whatever women! i'm 100% serious, literally all of them are racist homophobes! they all fucking suck and shouldn't call themselves feminists!"

so most of these accused group just think "oh ok she's venting, i'll leave her be". a few people commenting "hey, isn't this a little harsh?" guilty people groveling "i'm s-so sorry for beimg evil... i try so hard to be an ally and stand up for youu.. i prommy i'm one of the good ones..." and then insane people saying actually homophobic racist shit.

so she screenshots all the insane people's responses to be like. "see? i was actually just venting and i dont actually hate them. but look at these screenshots. see why it's justified for me to hate literally all of them? i didn't even actually think they all suck but they're proving me right because literally all of them are the worst."

#the worst people in the scenario are obviously the actual racists and homophobes #but im just #really sick of seeing her bait them #and accuse large numbers of random people in the process

[klarion-the-witch-boy]

Whinging about my extremely subjective dissatisfaction with the Constantine in the Sandman show. Like. Super subjective and I know that, but rambling into the abyss is how I get things out of my head so there can be more room in there.

Anyway yeah, permission to scroll past and ignore me lol.

Johanna Constantine doesn't even have a trench coat (or blond hair). I was trying so hard not to be Super Gay for John Constantine about my dislike for Johanna, but that fucking pea jacket. No. I refuse. She's okay - the actress is good and I'm not salty enough to say otherwise - but Johanna's not Constantine and I'm not happy about it.

Everything else in this show (Sandman) is so fucking cool too. I'm just pissy because I'm too gay for John and not gay enough for Johanna (look I'm a demiboy and anyone I like is basically someone I'm gay for to me).

God the pea jacket. It's not actually a pea jacket, tho. It's worse in my heart. Why couldn't she be Constantine in the trench coat? Why she gotta be, what?, stylish? Fuck off, give me the rumpled button up and loose tie and stupid trench coat.

I don't need her to be John, per se. But the lack of trench coat is salt in the wound of the. The. The not being John.

I just want that stupid trench coat I think. I'm emotionally attached to it.

Keanu Constantine pleases me more than Johanna. At least he had that silly black trench coat. *huffs*

#im just whinging #i wont tag the show or the character because i dont want to put my annoyance jn the tags #but im just #ugh #no thats not constantinw #and i really am pissy about hair colour lmao #its so stupid i know #anyway #out of context shit #nightblogging #lmao #my usual tags lol #ugh johanna is back on screen #get out of my LIFE youre not constantine and your name is pronounced weird go away #ugly as chic belted javket is back too #fuckin fuck fuck mc fuck a duck go aWAY #get out of my liiiiiiife #why arent yoh matt ryan? ;n;