#but im not going to fix it

[fairie-punk]

wow something original to post

#art stuff #art #painting #ap art is killing me #original art #stop reading the tags #i dont even like this painting #but im not going to fix it

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[shaniacsboogara]

liking dnd is so funny because yeah you play the actual game sometimes but mostly you just think about the game and watch other people play the game and slowly go insane thinking about how much you wish you could play the game and hoping that buying more shiny rocks will fix everything

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #not going through something rn wdym haha... #i am FINE i have DEFINITELY played at least once in the last seven weeks #i am also definitely not the scheduling person in my group i am not stressed that no one has time for dnd apparently #i'm fine i just started another critical role campaign im fine im so stable #*screaming* #it provides seratonin but WHEN IS IT MY TURN TO BE HAPPY TO ROLL MY LITTLE DICE FUCK #it's okay i just need to buy more dice #that will fix me

[obsob]

hmm anyway. holds u in my arms

#mine #cats #i did this a while ago n forgot 2 post whoopsies !! #anyway. my brain was so so small today colouring is so hard but...i think i may...have a solution....perhaps....we will test 2morrow and se #i hope everyone has had a good beginning to ur week also #tomorrow i need2 do orders and fix colouirng maybe and then thrusday finish colouring n then friday im going BIRD WATCHING #its fun ducks season i love fun ducks #ducks r so easy. unlike say a plover or a bunting of which there r 1000 and they are all the same

[aulerean]

gem's angler fish? pretty cool.

#my art #geminitay fanart #geminitay #gemini tay #hermitcraft gem #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #hermitblr #artists on tumblr #art #digital art #illustration #artist #artistsontumblr #fanart #i hate autodesk sketchbook #tearing things with my teeth #ive never been able to get colours to look the way i want them to the same way i could do with photoshp #deepest sigh subscription programs my beloathed #no idea how to paint but consider this an idea to come back to later and Fix TM #ughghghghghgh #still #i think the vibes of the atmosphere i was going for are kind of there #having a real big hand/skill not matching my eye art moment #but im telling myself 100 bad pots to make one good pot 100 bad pots to make one good pot- #art improvement when #(learn how to paint and get a better program) #(soon) #(Soon.)

[barghest-land]

ata tu corazón, mi amor, y arrástralo por la tierra

#this art hurts so bad #in a way i'd never be able to explain #also it just upsets me a lot because i don't like how i did it:( #idk how to make it better so i'm just gonna leave it as it is #and go to sleep good night #it was supposed to be cool and simple just like that #but in my eyes it's just missing everything and i don't know how to fix it #genuinely thought it was gonna be a good art but here i am oh well. that happens i guess #im sorry javier :(( i'll make more good art i promise #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella

[shanniakharina]

a little addition to bakery enemies au part 184 from @buggachat I put the dialog to let y'all know where I imagined it'd go!

If you haven't already, go check her comic now!

ID: [Adrien blushing a bit is leaning over giving Marinette a kiss on the cheek making her blush profusely while she looks shocked. Adrien has a speech bubble over him saying "you're amazing".] End of ID

#miraculous ladybug #beau #bakery enemies au #buggachat #i haven't drawn in forever #this little doddle took me longer than i'd like to admit #no i did not draw adrien's hair like 500 times what are you talking about #adrien's face looks weird i know don't come at me #i suck at drawing profiles lmao #hopefully mari looks cute tho? #noooo #i just realized i forgor mari's other hair strand!! #T.T #oh well #im outta time anyways #fixed it! #added the hair strand lmao #i should really go to sleep now #my art

[delicourse]

lesbian pride moment 😳🌸

#jolyne cujoh #hermes costello #stone ocean #jjba #jojo's bizzare adventure #deliart #jolymes #i didnt make it in time for pride month. its 3 in the morning #but some for some time zones im just in time<3 #focus here was GREEN i just wanted to work with lots of green colors #bc i never do and i need to improve at that #we ended up with neons tho still sorry #also the background was fully rendered so much details n stuff but u cant see it hehe bc i blurred it #that was what most of my time was spent on . btw #anyway. hope u all enjoy the dresses lol #might go back and fix some stuff tho bc i drew this in like 3 days from lineart onward #so i havent been able to rest my eyes inbetween. so ill probably find something i wanna fix later

[lightbulb-warning]

saimatsu week day 3 not on day 3: reunion

they do be sobbing

#it's me im sobbing i dont know why i made an animation i dont know how to animate?????? LMAO better luck next time me!! #saimatsu #saimatsu week #shuichi saihara #kaede akamatsu #drv3 #ndrv3 #danganronpa #danganronpa animatic #listen. LISTEN. me hating this means there's nowhere to go but up next time i animate something!!! AAHGSHDKABRJXJSBJ #im so okay. i am so fine!! #shuichi saihara x kaede akamatsu #shuichi&kaede #danganronpa v3 #danganrompa #im going to sleep for the next ten year BUHBYE #maiora draws #maiora animates #FUCK THE LAST FRAME I FORGOT HER ELBOW FGJDYHSYKB #no! i am NOT fixing it!!! im freeing myself im running away byeeeeeee

[spacemanspiff0fficial]

They always say if u love smth then let it go 😔 as a long-standing Sidon girlie I was struggling w coming to grips I fear (which ended up not being all that hard to do bc Lady Yona is so cute I love her.......)

Before that happened I did manage to snap some photos mid-fish domestic. In case I had one last fighting chance

#totk spoilers #totk #tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom spoilers #prince sidon #link #legend of zelda #loz #sidlink #lady yona #mfa #realized at the tail end of finishing this that the size difference is wildly off. hate and war on planet venus #pretend link is standing on a barrel or smth #im not going back 2 fix it ive already been to war w all these armor details. struggle of a woman used to just drawing regular guys in pant #anyway sidon DOES have two hands....... #regardless i cant tell u how happy i was just to be back in zora's domain and teamed up w my favorite fish man !!!!! character of all time!

[octoling-wearing-gauges]

look who's back

#goobers being edgy #they never leave my brain #steven universe #lars barriga #sadie miller #larsadie #su lars #su sadie #my art #fanart #sorry i took so long!! #been in an art funk since i got my tablet fixed but im raring to go #smoking tw #alcohol tw #click for better quality! #lars of the stars #sadie killer

[time-woods]

wings n such

#chasing stars au #sīdus the fallen star #prismo the wishmaster #the carmine cavalier #scarab the god auditor #prohibitedwish #fionna and cake #adventure time #adventure time au #hes rlly not used to his back/wings being touched #i completely forgot to draw his jewelry in the second part but im too lazy 2 go back and fix it

[bigothteddies]

I think being worshipped and thirsted after would cure me actually

#unimportant thoughts #im gonna go take my morning antibiotics now #i dont feel as fixed as i should by sleeping last night #i want to feel normal again :( #1k

[qrowscant-art]

CHILDHOOD HOMES (and why we hate them): After over a decade, you return home to find it unchanged.

A short, interactive horror story, and my first attempt at making something in Twine. Inspired by Anatomy, House of Leaves, and my deep hatred for my own childhood home! Full trigger list included on the itch.io page.

Play here!

#its done!!! finally! im so anxious and an hour late but here you go! yell at me if anything breaks and ill fix it lol #pixel art #horror #ditherpunk #interactive fiction #haunted houses #body horror #mal-art #childhood homes (and why we hate them) #the growing pains collection

[puphoods]

ive only seen bits and pieces of what happened to predesterone, i know they got deleted (at least twice) and the ceo is making defamatory statements about them, but im genuinely confused as to where I could find this all going down. if u dont wanna gather links or whatever i get it its just that everything popped up on my dash suddenly and i want to know whats happening but i dont know how to find out

theres obviously a lot of people posting rn but ill try to get some links together to sum it up as best i can find- keep in mind i never followed her myself and only distantly knew of her so there are people closer to the situation that probably have more stuff they can tell you though, and searching her url(s) has a lot of info

avery has i think two blogs deleted yeah, unsure about any older ones but predstrogen and avewy/predesterone were both deleted very recently

predstrogen (the first blog) was allegedly deleted for "sexually explicit material" despite any posts that may have been labelled as such being marked with a community label and her blog recently being manually approved as NOT containing adult content. she also talks in this post, as well as here, about how she has had a support ticket open for several months for harassment she was receiving that has not been dealt with

this is an example of the threats and harassment she has been receiving. ive seen a few different people get this ask copy pasted

the CEO of tumblr made a post wherin he publicly aired information regarding her deletion and threatened legal action against her , showing examples of the alleged death threats where no actual threats were made and telling people in the replies to just leave if they were unhappy with the moderation of the site

avery made a post about this and her new blog was again deleted within five minutes of her making it

multiple people who have made posts about the situation have said matt has DMed them and confronted them

this is word im hearing secondhand, so if i get any details wrong please correct me, but posts of hers such as her transition timeline are apparently ones that were flagged. i cant find any screenshots but many of her posts, including one that was a silly edit of a snow leapord wearing shoes, have been completely wiped from the site. if anyone has a screenshot or link to both the original post and it being deleted i can add it to this

again there are a lot of posts going around but these are i think what you really need to know whats going on...

#answered asks #predstrogen #predesterone #im fixing typos in this post as i go along btw very sorry. i was a bit scatterbrained when i was making it and trying to put it together #if u see these tags id appreciate u checking/rbing from the source so it is the most up to date

[sourfrootz]

survivors guilt

#sonic prime s2 spoilers #i guess #WGAHAHAHAHAH IM SO NORMAL IM SOR NORMAL #i hope in prime s3 everythimg gets fixed 5he first epispde and the rest of the season is sonic going to therapy #doodle #my art