#but it hurts so much

[blackmetalsnake]

I just watched the last episode of the Fellow Travellers.

I'm dead. Thank you.

#fellow travelers #OH MY FUCKING GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #now this is my favorite series #BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH #WELL. I EAT GLASS AND DON'T REGRET #I also see parallels with what is happening in russia #we have huge problems with aids treatment #our people don't have enough medicines #and I remember news about how buses with free hiv testing and free contraception were attacked by all kinds of scum #do you know why? simply because these buses were from lgbt activists #and all these raids that are now happening in our gay clubs because the new homophobic law #am I really living in the 21st century?

[longeyelashedtragedy]

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#granit xhaka #gx #👁️ #i'm always fond of how the athletic describes his mannerisms #he does like...never blink lol #a boy...now a man oh god #i want him to do well and i want him to be appreciated #but it hurts so much #i love my team just as much with him gone but it's also never going to be the same #'i'm still agressive' as he said in his v first arsenal interview #see? it's conscious

[yourplasticpal]

Oh god. Oh fuck me. It's just now sinking in. Us. We could have been Us.

The Them, and The Us.

I can't. I'm dying. I'm dead. Go on without me.

#good omens #good omens season 2 #probably not as deep as it feels #but it HURTS so MUCH #something inside me is bruised #everything feels worse than it is #help #ineffable partners #ineffeble husbands #ineffable idiots #you're a mean one mr gaiman #but thank you for this pain #and the payoff that will mean so much more for it #good omens 2

[localoceanqueer]

Hi tumblr between you and me and God I hate that a breakup can be a trauma and I hate that I hurt someone I love and I hate that I am hurting and I hate that everytime I think about the divorce I just want to cry

#i know breaking up was the best decision bc we'd been so stuck in our ways #but it hurts so much #and i know they dont owe me anything but i miss them and i wish it had gone differently #nichtwissen #sohn der leere #got a new id today and i just wanted to cry bc i have their name now and i was so happy about it and i just hate that it went the way it did

[jahayla-parker]

You’re Losing Me

My favorite verses in order of their place in the song (NOT in order of how much I like them):

(That being said, purple is my all time favorite and hits so hard. My counselor and I have a new song to break down why it is so impactful now 😭)

You say, "I don't understand" and I say, "I know you don't"

I'm getting tired even for a phoenix — Always risin' from the ashes — Mendin' all her gashes

How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'? — I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick — My face was gray, but you wouldn't admit that we were sick

I know my pain is such an imposition

I gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy

And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier

And I wouldn't marry me either — A pathological people pleaser — Who only wanted you to see her

Tbh was hoping for a song I couldn’t relate to but was a bop…. Then she dropped this song instead 😭

#don’t get me wrong #it’s freaking phenomenal #But it hurts so much #trigger warning abuse #Like I am not that old #I shouldn’t be able to relate to this #on a spiritual level #especially knowing not all of it comes from romantic relationships #But also family dynamics and abuse #But man I love Taylor #my life as taylor swift lyrics #taylornation #Taylor swift #you’re losing me

[robbybirdy]

Completecy Challenge: Gen 2 - 🌸Blake & Blossom 🌸Chapter 77. Casper sees animals

Not exactly sure what house he was in, but Casper found a house with nothing but babies and small animals in cages.

#ts3 #simblr #ts3 simblr #completecy challenge #Generation 2 #spring #ts3 gameplay #ts3 screenshots #ts3 legacy #ts3 simmer #Appaloosa plains #Ghost #imaginary friend #Fairy #Such a simple post #But it hurts so much #I took the pics and wrote it when Smokie was still alive #Probably sitting right on top of me #He loved sitting on my chest while i was on my computer #He was such a gamer boy

[marshallmallows]

LITERALLY SOBBING HOW AM I EVER SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON AFTER THIS

this dialogue ATE ME UP abel flint my living fairytale... living on with my soul etched onto his own...

#the shadow sacrifice route was always going to be my default one #BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH #seeing them mourn for me... #SEEING ABEL TALK TO ME LIKE THIS #i live for the angst for the loss for the love #no matter how much i love the shadow route i genuinely cannot imagine leaving my love like this i cannot fathom it #I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ABEL FLINT #abel flint #it lives within

[aphvlion]

For no reason at all this feels like a perfect opportunity of pushing my "Love can kill" by Stella Lennon as ineffable husbands-agenda 🙃

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoiler #I am so violenty upset its insane #this song is ineffable husbands #no questions #it fits soo good #but it hurts so much

[thebarkpaladin]

I have to say goodbye to Paisley tomorrow. I don't know if I can do this.

#i just want to say goodbye while she's still having good days #but it hurts so much #im not ready #what am i going to do without her #paisley

[acrazybayernfan]

I always knew about Lewy’s defects; about his conceit, his pride, his insecurities, his selfishness and his ambitious character. I tried to never idealize him although when you doesn’t know someone personally you always idealize him a little. I never had any faith in his good qualities but I had a lot in his defects. I always thought that his conceit would prevent him from exposing himself to ridicule, that his pride will prevent him from displaying ungratefulness and inelegance, that his thirst for love and attention would make him appreciate and value the devotion that the Bayern’s fan had for him, that his selfishness would make him want to stay in a club where everything is organized around him and that finally his ambition would guard him against any desire to go somewhere else. 

Also, for me, there always was a conflict in him between what I allegorically call his Bayern’s side and his Real’s side; a conflict between family, work, simplicity and glory... against exposure, marketing, ostentation and popularity... Lately I had the feeling that Bayern was winning the match and I don’t know if it was true or if it was just me imagining things because now it’s quite the reverse. Robert reminds of Mr. Crawford in Mansfield Park, he had a Fanny Price with Bayern and a Fanny Price who loves him. He has enough taste, intelligence and sensibility to admire her, understand her and love her but he is also unable to resist the temptation of leaving with a Maria Rushworth. Bayern, like Fanny could have offered long term happiness to Mr. Crawford, could have offered him something invaluable : eternity. He could have been deified; his name would have passed from generation to generation associated with respect, admiration and love; he would have been bathed in the eternal light of the glorious sun but he prefers the fake and brief lighting of the spotlights ! He needed to wait a few more years to obtain eternal glory but he doesn’t have the patience to wait. He wants immediate pleasure, immediate fame.

But despite all this, despite the fact that he disappointed me I still love him, i’m unable to held any true resentment against him, i’m not even sad anymore and I hate this. I want him to succeed wherever he goes, I can’t stand to see him sad or to hear people say that he never had any real talent and that all his achievements are just due to the fact that he was playing in a farmer league. But in an other hand I want his achievements to stay deeply connected with Bayern, I want him to understand that he couldn’t have been what he is without us and can’t be. I’m worried for him because no matter in which club he will go the fans will never sincerely love him, he will always be the enemy especially at Barcelona (he made them suffer so much), they will display exterior signs of affection but when he will retire they shall not cry or truly regret his departure, they will never keep any fond memories of him.

His departure from Bayern also alarm me because of someone else, and that someone is Thomas. During the last six years he has played for Robert, with Robert and because of Robert and I don’t how he is going to do without him. Lewy’s presence is what saved him in 2016/2017, what allowed him to reinvent his way of playing, is he able to change everything once again at this age? If Lewy had left in 2018 he could have done it but now, after all this years? On the pitch Robert is his landmark, his goal, his target, his everything... I’m so afraid that the end of Lewy at Bayern could also be the end of Thomas ! 

#robert lewandowski #fc bayern #my thoughts #don't read this #it's such a mess #I'm writing everything that I had in mind after today's events #and this is as weird as I am #i needed to get this out of my system #i'm rambling #i'm ashamed of myself #thomas müller #my shit #welcome to hell #what am I saying #but it hurts so much #I know that it's so stupid to love someone that I doesn't know so strongly #and to be so attached to him #i'm ridiculous

[girlrandomstuff]

Me before reading Leia, Princess of Alderaan: it's a story about teen Leia, it can't be too painful.

Me after reading it: traumatized.

Me before reading Bloodline: okay it has been like 30 years from the events of the OT it can't be to hurtful.

Me after reading it: traumatized.

Me before reading The Princess and The Scoundrel: it's about Leia and Han's wedding and honeymoon, it will funny.

Me after reading it: traumatized, deppressed.

#why we can't have a not depressive leia book novel #it's literally destroying my mental health #not really #i'm always here for leia remembering or talking about breha and bail even years after their death #but it hurts so much #leia organa #breha organa #bail organa #star wars #obi wan kenobi #leia princess of alderaan #bloodline #the princess and the scoundrel #eclipse short story #eclipse #queen breha #princess leia #senator organa

[june-again]

ok if he still follows me here it would actually be a fucking disaster not just a funny cute awkward thing

#june shines #because oh no #fuck #i cant even listen to music 💀 #IT WILL GET BETTER promise it will get better #NO THIS IS ALL BECAUSE OF MY FUCKING #depressive episode #i just #lost touch with all feelings #and then it's like #it's like at the party last night i just melted #i just melted #my poor friends next week this is all anyone is gonna hear about #talking to the june #WHY DID I BREAK UP WITH HIM #no i know why #it was meant to be this way #but it hurts so much #im gonna go listen to cameron philip and finish psyc shit

[chaserofstarsandtheabyss]

You know you’re too attached to a character when people trash talking him makes it feel like they’ve stabbed you in the chest

#this is about Mike Wheeler btw #I am surprised that every time someone insults Mike it hurts #it feels like a personal attack #I know it’s not and I don’t react as such #but it hurts so much #it’s probably because I relate to him and cate about him as a character #it’s the same reaction I get when someone insults any special interest of mine

[quicksilverownsmysoul]

It kinda hurts when you see friends from high school and they are thriving while you’re slowly dying

#like I’m so happy for her because I love her and she was one of my best friends #but it hurts so much #I’m currently living out Olivia rodrigos Jealousy Jealousy

[bethehero90-5]

Remember that episode where they went to the aquarium? How Anne thought she would never see them again even though that was the logical thing to do? That’s how I feel about the finale

#it makes sense narratively speaking #but it hurts so much #amphibia #amphibia spoilers #my post

[game-set-canet]

apparently I have a muscle inflammation in my right shoulder and it hurts every single time I take a breath

#it really hurts #it's better than yesterday bc of the pain killers #but it hurts so much #mira's rambling