#but it should be fine

[oldfashionedmorphine]

chapter 21

“So look, I um—” Jonathan starts to say, unfolding the envelope and setting it on the table, smoothing it out as he stares down at it. “Well, the other day I received a call—in the morning before the viewing on Wednesday…they told me they had the preliminary results from the autopsy—”

🎵 unofficial song of the chapter 🤭 🎶

tagging:

@across-thestars @boahey @magentamee @daydreams-in-the-moonlight @greenfiend @rebellius @booksandpaperss @castelobyers @total-serene560 @karenchildress @sparks-olivarpente @hazmatazz @suzieburself @krakoansam @mandycantdecide @robin-therobber @foodiewithdahoodie @soyboystan @trvbblemaker (if you want to be added or removed, let me know!)

#please heed tags and cw!!! #this took longer than it should have #i blame covid for not finishing this in december #but hey it’s done now and it’s 10k words and the second longest chapter (i think?) #and i had two scenes beta read because i wanted to make sure i didn’t have to change the rating #but it should be fine #and i’m sorry but i make the rules and that is their song now #iawwyh #byler #byler fic #byler fanfic

[ultimateaclrecovery]

I am so very close to finishing this sweater dress that I started nearly two years ago. The sleeves are finally on and now I just have to weave in all of the god damn ends. There are so many. I’ve already done 8 and I’m not even halfway done 😭

#too many threads #they should weave themselves in #finishing is the worst part of knitting #I don’t mind seaming so much #it’s just the steps at the end of the big step is hard #and okay setting sleeves was a challenge #but mostly weaving in the ends is just annoying #and I’m always worried about not doing a good enough job and ruining the project #but it should be fine

[rainyraisin]

FINALLY SORTED THIS SIDE OF MY ROOM YIPPEE

I still have a few other things to sort but I start school tomorrow so after I pack my school bag I'm gonna chill for the rest of the day (and by chill I mean either write or draw a shit ton whilst watching Community either works)

Btw I got this for school hehe (I am going to get bullied)

They let me steal the pen box but I still feel cool shdkdbkdnf

#rai rambles #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #the one part of my room that will actually stay decent fr fr #we just moved everything around and it all got ruined #my manga might also get ruined a bit cause over the summer ive amassed quite a few volumes to read at school #but it should be fine

[zevlor]

hell yeah guys getting my tattoo in over an hour lets goooo!!!

#ori. #so excited hopefully the design he did i like lmao #but it should be fine

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[anarchopuppy]

I, a hearing person who likes subtitles just as a preference, shouldn't have to read a subtitle that's obvious nonsense, go back a couple seconds, and listen again in order to figure out what's going on. An accessibility feature should not be the most half-assed part of a professionally made production. Scripted media has absolutely no excuse for not having subtitles or having subtitles that aren't perfectly verbatim. Professional captioning services should be ashamed of the shoddy work that they put out. Captions should be treated as a part of the production, just like filming, editing, audio balancing, etc - and anything that releases with missing or bad captions should be seen as unfinished

#the subtitle mistakes i've seen are absolutely fucking embarrassing #subtitles should make something easier to understand not harder #and i can hear just fine so i'm lucky! #i've seen the kind of mistakes that would make an entire video unintelligible to someone who doesn't have the audio for any reason #it's unacceptable

[embraceyourdestiny]

to any americans who feel "paralyzed" and "dont know what to do" to help with gaza:

reading a fucking book. i beg of you.

in a time of knowledge suppression is it your duty to arm yourself with knowledge.

read about americas occupations in the middle east.

read about 9/11 from outside of america and see how they inflicted senseless harm and violence to countless amounts of people and have been suppressing your rights for the past 2 fucking decades.

read about any of the countless wars from the past 30 years. especially from a civilian's. and the victims and survivors' perspective. listen to the horror stories and do not plug your fucking ears as to what your country is doing.

and read about fucking gaza and palestine and keep up with what is happening no matter how "sad" or "uncountable" you might get.

dont look away from this.

you dont have the right to be comfortable during countless active genocides.

if you're knowledgeable, you're powerful, and our current state doesnt fucking want that.

you have the power to change things if you open your eyes and scream to the world.

wake the fuck up.

Edit: please check the reblogs there are readings and ways to help

#og #truly if youre not about it your against it and i dont fuck with you because you're complacent #wake the fuck up #we're all responsible and dont you dare say you're not #americans need to stop living in the world with their eyes closed and their ears covered #look at what your fucking 'glorious country' is doing to people #everyone should be against america no fucking exceptions because america is violent and evil and needs to be stopped #then read about what america has done to the natives of their land #radicalize yourself #decolonize your mind #free palestine #land back #palestine will be free #theres too many fucking movements of just the past couple years all happening at once to act like the world is fucking fine #we are in a human rights CRISIS #WAKE THE FUCK UP PLEASE

[protoctist]

i know ryoko kui is a real one because she wrote 97+ chapters of a manga about fantasy ecosystems and food chains and not once did she write the phrase "survival of the fittest" (it's a bad phrase) (it's a social darwinist phrase even) (hated amongst biologists) (doesn't make sense) (darwin didn't use it) (coined by an business major) (one of the worst phrases in pop science) (no good)

#i think the closest she comes to this is when kabru says something about the weak being eaten but he also thinks all monsters should die #so i don't think he's like the voice of reason when it comes to ecosystems and evo bio NOT a kabru diss just saying #i think eat or be eaten is fine. it's like migrate adapt or die. i think it's fine and not the same as survival of the fittest #dungeon meshi #ETA: i was wrong darwin did use the phrase after it was coined. doesn't matter phrase still sux

[prisonpodcast]

hey I felt exactly that same way in one of my classes and it’s prob late in the semester for u as well but. what helped me is I met with my prof and (unsurprisingly in hindsight) she wants me to succeed so she told me what I should do to still pass the class and supported me. idk if you’re also worried abt passing your class like I am with mine or it’s just the assignment but!! i just wanted to encourage you to try talking to your teacher if you still can bc it’s worth a try! Anyway sorry if you just wanted to vent and have it handled, gl w the assignment

We actually do have consultations for this assignment next week we were just supposed to be preparing a rough draft for her to look at so I can ask her then :0 but also I’m worried she’s gonna tell me I did the whole thing wrong bc of the confusing instructions 😭 but hopefully it will be okay 🙂👍 thank you anon :33

#I’m glad your teacher was supportive anonie :33 #the whole thing isn’t due for like another month it’s just the rough draft that’s due Monday #but I feel like the rough draft will take me way longer than the final and it’s more brain power #since the final is just gonna be me touching up the rough draft #so this is the hardest chunk of the work #BUT IT SHOULD BE FINE #actually me typing this all out is making me realize that my stress is kind of an over reaction it’s just a rough draft 😭 #I just need to get it done on time!!! which requires me writing stuff down which is hard but itll probably be fine #thank you anon #asks

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[go-learn-esperanto]

I see so many people starting to use Threads as a way to escape Twitter and yes, it's owned by Facebook's CEO and giving Facebook the monopoly of social media is bad but I think we should also talk about the fact that, you know, Threads isn't avalibe in the EU for privacy reasons????? That should be concerning to EVERYONE

#twitter #threads #just so there's no confusion: Meta is the one that isn't gonna release Threads to the EU #This is because they're afraid it won't pass GDPR #You should probably be aware the Facebook has recently gotten a fine of $1‚2M+ for breaching GDPR #So Meta doesn't want to try their luck. Since they don't seem to want to change how their app works #they are gonna wait until the EU confirms this #although it's pretty clear they are getting more data than they should

[idledreams-burninghearts]

I'm feeling better, but like from 15% to 40%

#idle posting #dreading going back to work #but it should be fine #working on options

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

based off that matpat photo

#ethan winters #mia winters #mithan #chris redfield #rose winters #rosemary winters #resident evil #resident evil fanart #rebhfun #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #re8 #t4t mithan #chris finding out ethan is trans by visiting them in the hospital #and seeing ethan in the bed #and chris is like #'cmon man ur wife jsust gave birth she should be the one resting' #and mia and ethan are like 'omg we didnt tell him? 😭' #chris seeing mia walk around all fine and thinking 'wow what a strong and independent woman...'

[vebokki]

shen qingqiu and the mystery of why people fear his cutest disciple

#dw he only turns into an eldritch monster if u get too close to sqq. steer clear and u should be fine 👍 #actually id steer clear anyway..if he bites u im not legally responsible #svsss #luo binghe #人渣反派自救系统 #svsss fanart #mxtx #shen qingqiu #scum villains self saving system

[newttxt]

vague and sketchy captain trio shenanigans,, idk pretend theyre seastone bullets or something

#did you think i only did finished and well thought out comics? #well. yeah. i try to. but hey sketchy is fine too. #one piece #uh. should i?? tag it as?? #lulawkid #they arent together or anything. they just belong as a trio #luffy #trafalgar law #eustass kid #anyway sorry zosan ive been moonlighting with the captain trio

[machinegrl]

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turn on bb.moveobjects before placing

when using the pc you have to let your sim sit on the chair before clicking the computer!! they won't automatically use it if the desk is too cluttered!

t.o.u:

feel free to use however you want!

but don't claim it as yours

don't re-upload

you're welcome to tag me if you use it! i always love to see it <3

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previews under the cut!

#ts4 lot download #machinegrldl #mgbuilds #ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4 apartment #why does posting these give me a shit ton of anxiety! #crossing my fingers everything should work fine i hope!