#but it was sad and tense

[voidedjuice]

Alyssa

#inktober #inktober 2023 #old oc i wanted to take for a stroll on a whim #sad lich woman who used to be a serial poisoner some hundreds of years ago as revenge for her sister's death #at her employee's hands #nowadays shes just kind of doing stuff #she cant die no matter what but is otherwise relatively powerless. tense galpals with another old oc yaya #my art #artists on tumblr #oc #original character #my artwork #drawing #illustration #traditional art

[martyrbat]

batman: tenses #1

#if i had a nickel everytime bruce had a very mentally ill shower ill have... uh.... i dont wanna talk about it actually #happy sad boy sunday !!! #hes sad not because yknow ptsd or anything but because his restroom is so fucking ugly #id in alt btw :) #c: batman: tenses | i: 1 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #disabled bruce #bruce's sad showers

[whumpsandbumps]

Caretaker shot up in bed like they’d been electrocuted, their shirt was stuck to their back, drenched in cold sweat,as their breath came in shaky heaves and trembling hands found their way to their face, trying to stem the flow of tears that threatened to fall.

Their thoughts raced as they struggled to breathe, Until they managed to pick out one crystal clear thought that stood out from the crazed mess of their brain.

Whumpee.

What if? Oh god- what if Whumper had got them again? Or-

They barely had time to finish their thought before they were sprinting down the hallway and wrenched open the door to Whumpees room, fearing the worse, expecting an empty and a shattered window and-

Whumpee is fine, as they were the last 3 times Caretaker had sprinted to their room. Soft snores being the only sound they can hear, their ruffled hair just visible on their pillow due to the soft glow of the nightlight Caretaker had bought for them for when they brought them home.

Caretaker exhales, which turns into a shaky sob as relief and pure utter exhaustion overcome them.

Whumpee, always the light sleeper,stirs at the sound mumbling something under their breath and blinking sleepily at Caretaker.

“Caretaker?” They whisper “Are you okay?”

Caretaker has to take a shaky breath before attempting to reassure Whumpee,

“Yeah I’m fine Whumpee” their voice is strong until Whumpee’s name comes out of their mouth and their voice wobbles, tears flowing down their face.

They’re glad Whumpee can’t see them in this light.

Whumpee frowns and gets up, padding over the floor to Caretaker, hands reaching to cup Caretaker’s face.

“You’re crying, wh- why?” they mutter, as Caretaker leans into their touch.

Caretaker doesn’t even get to reply, not that they can, as they continue sobbing, their hand pressed over their mouth.

Whumpee takes their hand and drags them to their bed, climbing in and patting the space next to them.

Caretaker follow suit and curls into Whumpee’s side, still sobbing.

Whumpee pulls their blankets over the two of them and runs their fingers through Caretakers hair, shushing them gently, as Caretaker did to them when they rescued them.

It doesn’t take long for Caretaker to fall asleep their tear streaked face pressed into Whumpee’s side and Whumpee quickly follows suit, equally as exhausted.

#whumpee but caretaker? #caretaker #caretaker is sad :( #saw a prompt of this #yes I did not proof read this #and now I realised the tense suddenly changes halfway through #this is ao3’s fault for going down #whump writing #whumpblr #based off a whump prompt

[danceinthunder]

Remus loves his friends, loves his boyfriend, loves them more than anything. But every time they go to Hogsmeade and one of them buys him something, it makes him jaw tense and stomach roll a little.

Remus has lived a life of quiet content and homely pleasures. He was always comfortable but the silent weight of money, of it always being so scarce, pressed down on his shoulders.

He wouldn’t ask his parents for anything more than books and jumpers for Christmas. He would understand when he was younger why his parents would have to say no to buying him toys and he saw how much it hurt them to have to say it so he stopped asking. When their toilet broke and they had to fill the back of it with a bucket for three months he never said anything in fear of upsetting his parents.

He loved his parents because they always tried and did their best.

And he loved his friends too. Loved James’ unlimited generosity but something in him convulsed slightly at the ease of which he could empty his pockets, especially for others.

He loved Sirius more than anyone else but the difference of how they were raised was startling. Sirius almost didn’t see money as a currency - he had far too much of it growing up to appreciate any small sum of cash.

To Sirius money was a key to get him things he already owned. Wanting something was not something that Sirius experienced growing up, at least not in the material sense. His parents kept their children’s hearts empty but their pockets full.

And even now, after leaving behind the rich legacy of his family, James’ parents gave and gave and gave to Sirius in a way that Remus’ parents never could for him.

So every time he picked something up off a shelf to briefly admire it and later be given it by James or Sirius, he would smile and thank them but flush in embarrassment and sit in shame on the way back to their dorm room.

He felt silly that sometimes he’d cry a bit before going to sleep, shoving the gifts from his friends under his bed because he could t bear to look at them. He felt different again, felt estranged and lacking. He felt jealous and uncomfortable.

The wolf inside him made him feel out of place in his skin and his second hand clothes were too small to cover it, long grown out of.

Remus knew that his friends didn’t think any differently of him. They’d support him no matter what. But he hated himself for having another fault, another vulnerability that they thought he needed help with in the first place.

Sometimes, Remus wished he had never been delivered that damn letter on his 11th birthday.

#dead gay wizards #mauraders #sirius black #james potter #remus lupin #wolfstar #microfiction #i think #my baby Remus is sad in this one #sorry #I hope the tenses in this make sense bc it’s too late for me to be bothered with rereading it anymore #remus lupin angst #marauders angst

[kaeyapilled]

god the kaebedo propaganda got me so bad. a couple of months ago i was like "eh im pretty neutral towards them i just think they're neat :)" nowadays i have SEVERE brainrot about the intricacies of their relationship and how their origins relate to each other and and and

#and they don't even interact that much in canon this is two thirds me being delulu #i need them to kiss and i need the kiss to be not just a kiss but also a metaphor #i need them to be cute and sweet and domestic and also tremendously sad and it needs to start tense and almost bitter #(what do you feel like when someone with such close ties to the past you're trying to escape shows up in your life?) #godddddddd im a kaebedo girlie fine you guys got me. im fully converted #kaebedo #my posts #kaeyaposting #albedo #kaeya

[paupelou]

As a "sim parent" (sim maker) we shouldn't have favorites - but we do. Post your favorite sim baby (the golden child) and least fave. Pass it on!

most hated and loved sim in my game

#love him but it's so stressful to play with him!!! #always opening my save to him being angry/tense/sad and in the midle of a life crisis

[knickynoo]

At what point in time do you think the original timeline McFly family started being dysfunctional? I’m sure George and Lorraine were fully in love at first, and Lorraine even still in the 80s seems to look back fondly when recalling how they fell in love. But I do wonder when exactly it started to go downhill, when they started having kids? Just with age? Or maybe it was never really great to begin with before Marty got involved

This is a really interesting ask, and it's something that I've thought about a handful of times. The Twin Pines McFlys fascinate me.

As for my own headcanons about when the dysfunction started, I think it was always there. Dysfunction within families is complex, though, so it likely ebbed and flowed and morphed over the years. Some thoughts! (hehehe, analysis and theories incoming)

I 100% believe George and Lorraine were fully in love at first and are even still in love when we meet them in 1985. It's just that life has beaten them both down in various ways, and they've lost touch with each other and fallen into a pattern of being resigned to (and maybe even comfortable with) all the disconnect within their family. But there's no mistaking the fondness with which Lorraine begins her story of how she and George met and the way it shifts to such sadness within just a few seconds. Her question of, "It was the night of that terrible thunderstorm, remember, George?" is such a clear bid for connection with him. A hope that he'll smile and recall that night and join in on her story. That's what Lorraine wants! But George doesn't even acknowledge her (not on purpose, I'm sure; he's just so wrapped up in watching The Honeymooners), and you see Lorraine gradually deflate from there.

It's so sad because you can see the emotions shift so suddenly in her! That first gif still holds such affection as she recalls their first kiss. It's like she's a girl again, feeling that overwhelming sense of love and all the possibilities for their life together. But then it changes. She's brought back to reality and all the unhappiness, the disappointments, the realization that life isn't what she imagined for herself.

By the last gif, she's a woman who clearly feels trapped. Now stuck with this guy for the rest of her life. And what makes it so awful is that you can TELL Lorraine still loves him. She longs for that happiness they once had, but it takes two people putting in effort to make a marriage work. She can try to reach George all she wants, but if he can't be emotionally present, it isn't going to work.

Also, I'm sure that George loves Lorraine as well, but he's got a whole plethora of issues that just. Haven't been addressed. George has no self-worth. He's meek and lets people walk all over him and is so completely anxious about everything in life that he's mostly shut down. He's trapped too, with no way (that he can see) to change things. So he does what he can to survive, which consists of doing Biff's bidding and retreating to an inner world at the expense of shutting his family out.

I don't think things were always to this extreme, though. For a while I'm sure things were okay, maybe even good. They were young and in love, and while George was still George, I don't think life had defeated him yet. They got married, really established their little life together, and I can see them as both having hope. And even if there were moments that seemed shaky or hinted that things might be difficult down the road, it was easy to brush it aside. They were still finding their footing, and they were young and had their whole future together to make things better. In all honesty, Dave probably got to experience the "best" versions of his parents for the first several years of his life.

However, each year and every hardship (big and small) likely chipped away at the McFlys and brought about additional dysfunction. I don't know if Biff and George started working with each other right out of high school or if they came to work those jobs later on, but I'm sure that was a huge factor. It offered no escape from Biff for either George or Lorraine. Just a predictable cycle of George having to do whatever Biff told him, Biff invading their home whenever he pleased, and everyone having to watch George immediately tuck his tail between his legs.

As I said, I think things gradually kind of unraveled in their house. As the state of their family became more solidified, Lorraine likely began drinking more and withdrawing. I do think they still had their good days, though! Moments that brought them together and where they felt that happiness they once shared (I mean, they had three children together, and it's clear Dave, Linda, and Marty ARE loved and were raised well.) But the state of the McFly household is probably all Marty has known for the majority of his life. I can see situations arising where maybe Dave has told him, "They weren't always like this, you know."

Dysfunctional as they are, George and Lorraine really are trying. I think they can absolutely see the cracks and the flaws—perhaps even the potential damage being caused to their children—but they just have too much brokeness inside themselves to do better. So, they do what they can, which for George involves trying to protect his children's feelings by discouraging them from taking risks. He doesn't want them hurt or sad or disappointed, and his solution is to have them form shells around themselves. Better to save yourself from all the headaches life brings.

Lorraine does her best to protect and guide her kids by way of warning them away from the very things that brought her to where she is in life. We see this manifest in the form of criticism mostly when she's talking to Marty.

Lastly even with Lorraine seeming as downtrodden as she is, I can see her clinging to the possibility of change. Hoping and praying that eventually, George would say enough was enough and stand up for himself. He'd put his foot down, step up as a husband and father, and things would become what she always wanted. She was the one always telling herself, "Someday. Someday..." until the point we see her at during the dinner scene, where she knows that "someday" isn't going to ever happen. Things are just the way they are, and she has to deal with it.

This was a lot, but I have a lot of feelings about the McFly family and how they operated in their day to day life. Especially the implications of the McFly sibs (Marty in particular!) being raised in such an emotionally disjointed environment. Ugh, those gifs of Lorraine make me so sad. The whole thing is sad.

Thanks for the ask, though! I want to write another Twin Pines McFly fic now.

#asks #back to the future #bttf #no but i could write a whole series of posts on Twin Pines McFlys #and how just that one short scene displays such a sad‚ tense home life #no cohesion. no true connection #checked out dad and depressed mom #& their oldest son who doesn't seem to have his footing in life‚ daughter who feels isolated & frustrated with a lack of social life #& youngest child who's anxious & so incredibly sensitive to rejection & feels directionless & has exactly one (1) stable adult in his life #growing up in that environment does things to you!! #and then Marty is thrown into a Better Timeline with very stable and well adjusted parents but he still was raised with the dysfunction!! #that's still part of him!!! how does he cope!!!!?? #losing my mind eric stoltz was right about the ending!!!

[awwoo56709s-sims4-mods]

Miscellaneous Tweaks

Okay, I've had a bunch of random tweaks I've wanted to release for a long time, but I'd feel weird making separate posts for such tiny tweaks, so (download link below):

2xLenientWolfpackValues: Reduces by 2x how often your Werewolf Sim needs to do the things listed under 'Pack Values' if the Sim is in a werewolf pack.

4xLenientWolfpackValues: Reduces by 4x how often your Werewolf Sim needs to do the things listed under 'Pack Values' if the Sim is in a werewolf pack.

HungrierWerewolves: Makes Werewolves' Hunger need decrease a bit faster, and makes them need to eat a bit more to replenish it. REQUIRES XML INJECTOR!

LessTiredWerewolves: Makes Werewolves' Energy need decrease at half speed, but increase slightly slower. REQUIRES XML INJECTOR!

NoTenseWerewolfProximityBuffOnPets: Pets won't get tense from being near transformed (but not rampaging) Werewolves. (Yes, this is a re-release. I've deleted its original post.)

SlowerVampireTurning: Doubles the time it takes for Vampires to turn.

SlowerWerewolfTurning: Doubles the time it takes for Werewolves to turn, and makes Werebies last twice as long.

SadVampireGuiltyDrinkerBuff: Makes the buff Vampires with the Guilty Drinker weakness get from drinking from Sims Sad instead of Tense.

Download them here!(MediaFire, separate packages)

(Overridden XMLs under the cut. Also this is hopefully common sense, but 2xLenientWolfpackValues and 4xLenientWolfpackValues conflict, because they override the same thing.)

2xLenientWolfpackValues:

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_SelfSufficiency

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_SelfImprovement

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_PackParticipation

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_ExpandExplore

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_Diplomacy

4xLenientWolfpackValues:

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_SelfSufficiency

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_SelfImprovement

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_PackParticipation

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_ExpandExplore

commodity_WerewolfPackValue_Diplomacy

HungrierWerewolves:

no overrides

LessTiredWerewolves:

no overrides

NoTenseWerewolfProximityBuffOnPets:

buff_Werewolf_NearTransformedWerewolf

SlowerVampireTurning:

commodity_BecomingVampire

SlowerWerewolfTurning:

commodity_WerewolfCreation_InsatiableHunger

commodity_WerewolfCreation_Werebies

SadVampireGuiltyDrinkerBuff:

buff_Vampire_Weaknesses_VampireWithAConscience_GuiltyDrinker

#awwoo's mods #miscellaneous tweaks #i seem to really love the word miscellaneous huh #lenient wolfpack values #hungrier werewolves #less tired werewolves #no tense werewolf proximity buff on pets #sad guilty drinker buff #slower vampire turning #slower werewolf turning #sims 4 mods #sims 4 #sims 4 mod #ts4 #sims 4 gameplay mod #the sims 4 #the sims 4 mods #ts4 mods #cc #sims 4 cc #the sims cc #ts4 cc #ts4 custom content #ts4 cc download #my cc #the sims 4 custom content #the sims 4 cc

[gyokujyn]

CATWS 10th Anniversary | April 2nd » Prompts: "But I knew him." for @catws-anniversary

a loving homage to A Softer World and @asofteravenger

#marvel mcu #catws10 #stucky #bucky barnes #steve rogers #a softer world #a softer avenger #remix #past tense #jyn makes stuff #i even made myself sad with this one #“but i knew him” simply doesn't fix it #if you love him and you want the both of you to be safe #you have to love him enough to let him go and walk away #i hope this sounds as good as it does in my head where there's that nice satisfying echo from all the brain rot #screaming into the void

[thronealigned]

iomedae girl i think you're inheriting the wrong things. girl i think there's a cycle

#also something about how iomedae was originally a paladin of arazni and galfrey was originally a paladin of aroden #and the hand of the inheritor was originally a servant of ragathiel #i've gotta get my hands on the original wotr adventure path books at some point #because the wiki does Not elaborate much on the circumstances of ttrpg-galfrey becoming iomedae's new herald #it just says she does it #nor does it elaborate on what happened to inheribro either #inheribro is a nickname i picked up from reddit. sorry #i'm assuming though it's the same as in the crpg- he's a miniboss and then either dies or is healed but doesnt return to his station #(unless youre on the angel path in which you Do convince him to keep being iomedae's herald) #well i mean it's in past tense i guess that's clear enough #anyway idk where i'm going with this. just a thought i had.. endless stream of servants replacing each other #my bet's on iomedae dying in the godsrain stuff btw this is mostly why. if i were writing it i couldnt resist #especially with arazni being the new addition to the core 20!!!! not that she'll be directly replacing the dead god like iomedae did aroden #but still. you understand you see the vision. i'll be sad though not getting to see what arazni & iomedae's dynamic as both full gods would #be.... not especially attached to any guess though i'm not suuuuper invested in pf2e #or pf1e/the actual ttrpg in general. on account of not being a ttrpg player (as much as i would like to be) #i just read the wiki & archives of nethys & the paizoblog stories #anyway goodnight for real #sorry the image formatting sucks btw

[crybaby-bkg]

“Can you help me with this, please?” You ask gently, chin jutting in Dabi’s direction. Your eyes are still glued to the task at hand, but you finally look up when a few beats of silence pass. Dabi’s looking at you from across the table, arms folded, resting the lower half of his face behind his forearms. His eyes are bright in the dimmed light of the living room, and his gaze is enthralling when it snaps from your hands to your eyes.

He doesn’t answer still, as he watches you. Bounces from you tying the party balloons, back to your face, to the other balloons scattering the floor, your face again. He inhales slowly, before sitting up, stretching his arms like a feral turned house cat. He reaches across the table with nimble fingers, grabbing for a balloon, and blows it up with his mouth despite the helium tank sitting a foot away from the balloons.

You blink at him a few times, taking him in—his low lids, tautly pulled mouth, the bored expression on his face, his slumped shoulders. Your head tilts as you place the balloon you just blew up between your legs to keep from floating away, frowning at him.

“What cogs are turning in that pretty little head of yours?” You ask, smiling faintly when he chuckles at you. Dabi blows up another balloon with his mouth before he answers you with a shrug.

“A lot, and nothing at the same time.” He grunts after a while. “Don’t worry about it too much, angel. Shouldn’t be occupied with my shit on your birthday.” Dabi tries placating you with the nickname, but you don’t budge.

“But if there’s something up with you, I can’t celebrate wholly.” You confess, tying a string to the balloon in your lap, gaze focused on him after you let it float to the ceiling.

“And why’s that?”

“Because I feel guilty celebrating myself knowing,” you stop yourself, mouth clamped shut, but you don’t look away from him. Dabi fixes you with a look, his mouth twisted, already knowing what words you were about to spill. He sighs after a long while, shoulders slumping, running a hand down his face.

“I shouldn’t be,” he stops himself, pauses for a long while, eyes fixated on the decorations in front of him. “I never got this whole, you know, shebang growing up. I just don’t know how to—to do this whole thing. Birthdays and decorations and celebrations, and shit.”

“You could always learn with me.” You tell him, barely a beat passing before you answer him. Your eyes are full of such sweetness, sincerity, and it makes his chest ache a little. You’re always so full of hope whenever it comes to him, so full of grace and understanding. How could you pass so much kindness onto a person so bitter like him? He can barely be happy that it’s your birthday without thinking about his own past.

And yet, you grab his hand and smile at him. Throughout the afternoon you hand him streamers and tape and which candles to get from the drawer to light. You help him find his best outfit for the party and bring him into the conversation every time your friends talk. You hold his hand while you’re sung to and squeeze it so tight when you blow out your candles.

He doesn’t understand your grace, but he’s thankful for it. Even if it’s just a tiny bit.

#birthday posts bc I thot about him Friday and it made me sad lmfao #bc I know he was never celebrated properly when he was just a baby!!!! #it probably always tense #always scared someone/he would say or do something wrong and ruin everything #always tense and a little strung tight despite natsuo’s efforts to better it #and then after he ‘dies’ he doesn’t really celebrate it again #especially not properly #toga and twice probably throw together a lil rinky dink party but :((( #I JUST SO SAD FOR HIM!!!! #okay bye I’m gonna go write a bkg piece 🏃🏽‍♂️ THATS GONNS BE SAD TOO IM SORRY #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬

[the-fools-hat]

“Stare” 6x8 b&w acrylic painting

Testing out a new style :)

Relative songs:

Out Getting Ribs - King Krule

Gallowdance (forever and always 🖤 lmao) - Lebanon Hanover

lucy~ - Corbon Amodio

The Lobotomy (yes I’m a basic bitch) - Maebi

What Did You See? - Cemeteries

Dog Nightmare - Jack Stauber

#my art #art #send help #traditional art #paint #painting #acrylic on canvas #black and white #sad and sorrowful or tense and mystical? #jack stauber is underrated #analog based #analog #waning gibbous #illustration #drawing #artist alley #small artist #artists on tumblr #queer artist #intermediate artist #or so I call myself

[hypnogogyc]

morning doodles

#mike probably doesnt mind the cold after his death and that makes oliver very sad #tma spoilers #oliver got alot more creative with his appearance post death but prior to it he probably dressed very reserved i think #graham folger #graham in my hc was very academic and they met in philosophy class or something cause they both needed the credit #and was so rooted in his logic that he refused to let oliver in much on his paranoia #until he lost himself too much to tell anyone #i think things got tense and it didnt end on a greeeat note #crack idea oliver goes around and unburies all his exes in the apocalypse #oliver banks #mike crew #tma #the magnus archives #the magnus archives fanart #tma art #my art

[blinkpen]

I

do not deserve this treatment but I am forced to endure it in peacekeeping silence and sometimes in some moments I feel like if there was a hammer in arms reach of me I’d crack my own head open just to escape

#Fighting off compounding factors and traumatic living situations that have yet to end for my fucking life #I’ll survive as I always do I’m sure but like I’m tired. I’m tired and sad. #Not just mentally. My body is tired and sad. It takes effort to even Breathe sometimes like I have to Make myself Breathe #I’m never not in Extremely Tense Animal in a Concrete Petting Pen that is always being Poked n Never Feels Safe mode #It’s existential torture. Make it stop

[gildedmist]

Crossing the grounds during the Battle of Hogwarts (1/?)

#hp #harry james potter #hermione granger #ron weasley #the golden trio #deathly hallows part two #hpedit #myedits. #crossingthegrounds #I love this whole scene of them #running across the grounds through the battle #it's so cinematically beautiful #but also really sad and tense and horrifying #this little portion of it is neat #since you get to see some spells #and their effects in real time #especially during the run down the stairs #there's also a lot going on in the background #though there's even more later in this scene

[llitchilitchi]

What happened with the Egg? I never found out and no one talks about it. I didn’t even know it existed until I had been in the fandom for months. Just how did it all end? Was the Red Banquet the end of it? How did it work? Wasn’t it supposed to hatch?

the Egg arc actually had several streams dating about two years ago now! after the Red Banquet there was a lull to it all but months later, more red vines started appearing around the server

then there was the whole Sam Bucket saga, which was a 3(?) part horror-esque stream series with Bad and Sam, and then there was the proper finale which was supposed to be part of the s1 finale. it started with Puffy's birthday party and had a really great ending, I don't actually want to immediately spoil it here but the ending to it all was amazing and was pretty much a 'there will be season 2 and boy oh boy, it will get good' - a lot of the CCs actually talked about how they already have skins for s2 and are excited for it, that it's gonna be better than ever, Antfrost fans were absolutely losing their minds over the implications of the finale- and then s2 got cancelled.

anyone reading this, correct me if I'm wrong, but I think Bad said he would like to organize something so he could actually do s2 of the Egg arc because they already had the story prepared?

#asks #mistythedritten #egg arc is really underrated and it makes me sad #i do wish bad did more with it while the smp was still active #the streams before the red banquet with the vines all over the smp were always somewhat tense because of the egg's presence #manifesting a munchy dsmp s2 with egg lore now