#but it's a starting point if you're lost

[jadewritesficshere]

Painting

Modern!Eddie Munson x Female!Reader

Contains: nudes, mutual masturbation, phone sex

18+ only

Eddie flopped face down onto his mattress with a sigh. After working all day, playing at the Hideout, and then hauling all of the bands' equipment, he was wiped. He wanted nothing more then to smoke and go to sleep. His phone pinged with a notification. A contact under the name "Loser" had messaged him, causing a split second of confusion before a lazy grin spread across his face when he realized it was you (he had forgotten he changed it when high). You had been unable to come see Corroded Coffin play tonight as you had made previous plans.

Loser: How did it go?? Good?? Bad??

Loser: Was that one chick who wants to be a groupie there??

Eddie: went ok. Y u jealous?

Loser: just curious lol

Eddie: sure. Wbu?

Loser: Good! Robin and Nancy came. We had a nice dinner. We did paintings! Robin's looks better then mine. Mine looks like shit 😔 now just taking a bath and relaxing.

Eddie: show me?

Loser: lol no???

Eddie: y not? I'm sure it good

Loser: you sure?

Eddie: yes

Loser: fine

Eddie doubted your painting looked bad. You always tore yourself down, even when you did amazing things. He always wanted to throttle you, but knew he would be a hypocrite if he did. Eddie rolled onto his back and looked at the ceiling. He would convince you one day that you were awesome, but until then he would just have to keep reminding you. His phone dinged with a new message from you. He opened it and saw a picture attached and-

Immediately dropped his phone. His heart picked up speed. His eyes widened and face flushed. Eddie dove for the phone as if it were a life preserver and he was drowning. He couldn't believe his eyes. He licked his lips and stared at his phone.

A picture from your neck down. Bubbles in the bath around you. Water was running down your collarbone towards your tits. Your nipples barely covered by the bubbles. One boob having no bubbles around it at all, but your hand flipping him off blocked him from seeing more. He was greedy. He wanted to see more, and had never imagined you would send him this to begin with. Eddie looked down at the tent that had formed in his boxers.

Loser: ask nicely next time 😤

Eddie groaned and his dick twitched. You had totally misunderstood him, he had wanted to see your painting- of course he was more then glad for this outcome. However, he couldn't quite unsee what you had sent, nor would he want to. Eddie reread your text. Next time means more than just this once. Means maybe he could see more. Means maybe he has a better shot with you then he thought. He already overthought things with you many times, and now his brain had just switched to overdrive.

A million thoughts ran through his head as his hand traveled south. He paused briefly," Oh fuck it." He grabbed his dick over his boxers, causing the outline to be very noticeable. He took a pic before sending it to you. He would have felt bad about not sending a message with it, but he would have sat there for ages trying to think of a response. And he couldn't find it in himself to care as he pressed lightly against his dick.

He dropped his phone on his stomach. All Eddie could think about was you as he pulled his dick out of his boxers. Your soap covered tits. How beautiful they looked.. He licked his hand before slowly grasping his dick and squeezing the base, causing the tip to flush more. The pressure causing him to moan. He slowly stroked up and down his length. He picked up the pace, canting his hips up to meet his hand. Part of him wanted to go slow, but the rest of him wanted to get this over with quick so he could do it again and again and again. His chest heaved and sweat started to form on his brow. A sigh fell from his lips that quickly turned to a moan at the thought of it being your hand wrapped around him. How small your hand would look on his dick. How-

His stomach tensed and he jolted as his phone started vibrating and your ringtone played. The vibrations on his lower stomach felt so good, he was tempted to let it keep playing, but the urge to hear your voice was stronger. With his free hand he grabbed the phone and answered. "H-hello?" Eddie asked, panting into the phone. "Oh fuck, Eddie," your voice higher than normal sounded like music to his ears. Eddie moaned and your response was a whimper. "Fuck babe, see what you do to me?" Eddie's voice felt like sandpaper, he was surprised he could even find words. "Uh-huh." The sound of water splashing caught Eddie's attention," holy shit. Are you touching yourself?" "Wish it were you."

Eddie's mind went fuzzy as he picked up speed. The schlick noise picking up, his mind filtering out everything except your moans. "Sound so good. Wish I was there." Eddie mumbled, feeling his tip leaking generously. He was so close. "Fuuuck Eddie I'm gonna-" your sentence was cut off with a moan and he lost it. His hips bucked without rhythm and cum spurted everywhere. He never understood the phrase of people seeing stars behind their eyes until now, but they were more like fireworks. He had never cum this much in his life, not even when he had first found porn.

He slowly came back down, a euphoric feeling enveloping him. A warmth spread in his chest as it heaved, trying to catch a breath. He looked down and saw his shirt covered with his release. Your chuckle pulled him back to earth. "Uh so that happened...so whatcha gonna do about it Munson?" He hummed," Think i should ask you for a date." "You should."

Eddie had the biggest grin when you finally got off the phone, date planned for Friday night. He looked down at your contact name before changing the s to a v. He was going to find that painting you did and make sure it hung over his bed, so he could remember this night forever.

#Eddie eventually tells you about the misunderstanding and you just become more and more embarrassed #You asked him to delete the pic out of embarrassment and he goes on and on about how it is art and how beautiful it is and refuses #He later comes back to you and tells you if you want him to delete it he will and you just laugh and tell him to keep it #He agrees tho that your painting does suck to which you say “yeah I do” and give him a pointed look and he doesn't catch on #Until you huff and grab him and look him in the eyes and flat out tell him what you're offering #Shoutout to my friend who did this to me (it was a clothed pic tho) and I went BRO? and immediately clarified #But it started this thought and it wouldn't shake me loose until I wrote it so here yall go #Idk how to end things and idk how to write smut so take this and do with it as you will #My dumbass over here getting too lost in my own mind to write well fjdjsls #Eddie Munson #Modern!Eddie Munson #Eddie Munson x reader #Eddie Munson/reader #Eddie Munson x y/n #Eddie Munson x you #Eddie Munson/you #Eddie Munson smut #Eddie Munson x female!reader #Stranger Things #Also Eddie absolutely uses only text speech and you get frustrated with it #Jade is Talking

[swiftispunk]

good morning @mrsmando and i are currently conceiving a joel miller city bus driver au for exactly no one but ourselves

#you know like. he picks you up for work every morning until he starts to recognize you #subtly offers you free rides #picks you up late one night after work and jokes about how he's only ever used to seein you in the morning #bus is totally dead and he makes a comment about being ur personal chariot for the night #some creep gets on and sits beside you even though the bus is empty #joel's watching the entire interaction like a hawk in his rear view mirror #the second you start to look uncomfortable he's pulling that bus over and kicking that dude off by the scruff of his neck #detouring the bus to drop you off right outside your apartment and make sure you're ok #leaving you with his number but /not like that/ #just wants you to reach out if you ever need anything or if there's anything he can do #just so apologetic you were ever made to feel unsafe on HIS bus #anyway #i have lost sight of normal at this point #now you can all join in whatever brainrot this is too #mimi tag #joel miller imagine

[possiblyawesometmblr]

as a writer, i feel absolutely zero sympathy for richard madoc. you're really telling me this dumbass's plan was to sit down and have a novel just pour out of him from start to finish. man had two whole years to write a novel and he didn't even have an ATTEMPT at an outline. 70% of his problems could have been solved if he just sat down and brainstormed a simple outline first and the other 30% came from locking a goddess in his house. he didn't need calliope he needed a goddamn writing 101 course

#title tbc by me #oh he had no ideas tho #that's like the FIRST thing they teach you #when he wrote at the top in arial font and that was it i fucking lost my mind #before you write a WORD of your novel get a basic ass outline #and don't give me the bit cause like. that's ALSO the point of an outline #you throw shit at the page until it sticks and develop from there #THEN you start writing the actual book #how are you lecturing about writing when you clearly don't know what the fuck you're doing #he dodged the question in the beginning about his process because he doesn't have one #richard madoc #ric madoc #sandman #sandman netflix #the sandman

[mobius-m-mobius]

Hi, it's the “love is a dagger” anon again! I hope you're having an amazing day! Firstly, I wanted to say thank you so much for making the gifset I requested!!

Secondly, I wanted to point out how, judging by their shape and design, the daggers Mobius had in his locker and gave to Loki for protection in 1x2 were most likely the same ones Loki lost to the Bifrost on the sacred timeline. The daggers, just like Loki, were once lost to time and space but then they were found and cherished by Mobius. It takes the entire metaphor to a whole new level and further cements the fact that the quote is specifically in relation to lokius. 🥺

You don't have to if you don't want to, of course, but a gifset of this connection between the daggers in the Loki series and the daggers in the Thor movies and how they relate back to lokius would be very nice to see, especially with how beautiful your gifsets always are!!

Hey again 🗡️ anon, lovely to hear from you!! The day has been a great one so far, hope the same for yours and had a wonderful time making your set 🥰

Completely agree with your observation about the daggers Mobius kept and tried to return to Loki being the ones lost on the sacred timeline, then considering what we know about how the TVA frowned upon personal artifacts or really anything at all to define individualization or connection outside work it means all the more for Mobius to have made a point of seeking out one of the few items Loki found comfort and identity in to treasure 🥺

As to your new request, first of all tysm for the compliment about my gifs, it's truly appreciated and I'd be more than happy to build on more Lokius parallels but (and I always feel a little sheepish confessing this LOL) I've... not actually seen any Thor movies, or hardly any of the MCU outside a bit of phase 1 + The Avengers and some clips involving Bruce and Vision so the irony of being caught up waiting for glimpses of Mobius for eternity isn't lost, trust me 😅😂 If you have any specific scenes or moments from the movies in mind though please feel free to let me know!

#oh i also saw endgame as a full circle moment and couldn't have been more lost during those battle scenes lmaoooooo #truly so checked out until owen created the man of my dreams and now here i am on my knees for this bureaucrat with a heart of gold 😂😂 #but no wonder when he's so - and lokius is so - #like. when you really stop and think about it mobius only really had one (1) jet ski magazine and loki's daggers to his name #then eventually loki themselves and if i weren't insane enough about them that would send me over the edge lmao 🙃 #thank you again for taking the time for this lovely ask and like i mentioned please point out some scenes which have stood out to you! #i mainly approach the character of loki similarly to the series starting with the nyc intro onward through their interactions with mobius #but have also loved hearing the perspective of those who have been fans for such a long time #hope you're well and sending lots of love your way 💖 #ask

[introspectivememories]

My fear is that DC makes Bernard such a beautiful well written character that mixs his old asshole personality with his newer tamed personality and people start actively liking him because he is own person with his own hopes and dreams and then fans want more of this Bernard only to be met with a shitty shell of a character and starting back at square one by forcing him just to be Tim’s love interest

this too actually

#a well written bernard... but at what cost? #sometimes the more popular a character is.... the worse they get treated by both the fandom and the editors #bernard getting popular and then the fandom flattens him into one personality trait? im literally quaking #a good writer other than fitzmartin gets their hands on bernard and we finally get a well rounded character? #and then more people start coming for bernard #and then they see this and they fuckin idk reboot the universe again #and now we have to start over from scratch #if real life had fear toxin i think that's what i would see #he's already only 'tim's bf' to them #every bit of character info on him is like inferred #or from like throwaway lines #like when he's patching up tim in tdr3 and tim goes 'but you're okay now right?' and bear says 'some days' #or the holy grail of bear info tdr7 #and then a little bit of urban legends 4 #all of the rr run from way back then is like a good starting point for bear but like he was 16 and the worst thing that ever happened to hi #at that point was his parents being shitty and when we meet him again he's like 20/21 #so i don't really enjoy it when people say he's lost his flavor or whatever because he's clearly been through some shit in the last 5 years #but like tdr7 when bear tell tim to 'have a great piss!' that was fitzmartin briefly being possesed by the real bernard dowd for a sec #these tags are getting too long #dc #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #asks

[sumeragi-hokuto]

Set 4 of chapter 3, volume 4 of the Tokyo Babylon manga. 9th chapter overall.

Cleaning/typesetting done by me, official Dark Horse translation used.

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#this has been in my drafts since november 2021 so i figured I would post it because I've already completed it so. yeah. #tokyo babylon #.....since i lost all my files i don't have my presets anymore. #now that i upload to tumblr it looks like i used the wrong font modifier. sorry for inconsistencies. i'll fix it next set #which might be the last one. because welp. you'll see in my end note maybe. #basically in photoshop the text looks thinner and matches the uploads but on tumblr it's way too thick. idk why it did that. i don't like it #also this is only 9 images because it's a good cut of point #and there are only 7 more pages anyway. i think #**** #all the tags before this one save the nov 2021 one were written in november 2021. if you're curious how i was feeling #but yeah. want to post what is already done. #i saw someone else started doing new scans so i think my purpose here is kind of over #still love the manga. i still have it on the small shelf next to my computer to pick up and use again #but life has gone on and my free time is almost non-existent nowadays so if i ever do pick it back up. it will be a while from now #though when i saw the person who'd continued it was only until the end of the volume i think? i can't remember where i saw it #it's been months though. i wonder how far they got and if they're still going #i should look for it

[bishonenspit]

every time people fundamentally misunderstand the patalliro characters i lose years off my life

#bii talk tag #this isn't about anything specific dw im just thinking in general #the amount of bad takes ive seen in my time here.... augh #mostly abt The Mawaich obviously ppl just don't GET HIM... like obviously i consider myself the CEO of him but actually #the one thing ppl get wrong imo is that he was softened and lost his bad assery later in the manga which i DISAGREE WITH #at no point in maraich's life did he CHOOSE to be trained as an assassin and do what he does that's like key lore #he was raised by larken and trained as an assassin since he was a child he didn't really WANT to do any of that business #and even post figaro he still shows up and participates in major plots more than ban does!!! tbh!!! #just bc he had a kid and started doing housework doesn't mean he became useless that's literally the opposite #and even before having figaro ppl say he got softened GOD FORBID!!! like u know!!! and he's STILL doin shit!! whatever man #i hate it fr he's not a weak character for living comfortably he's still capable you guys are just haters 🫵‼️ #also any time ppl call patalliro annoying i get annoyed bitch it's his show don't watch it if you're not here for him #also ppl give ban way too much credit he is Stupid #anyways im just Thinking

[2hoothoots]

poking my head in to say sorry about the radio silence! i'm not dead, just moved house & started a new job this month so there's been a lot going on. regularly scheduled posting to resume soon, in the meantime here's a blue eyes white dragon model kit i spent my long weekend building to put next to Money Kaiba in my display case

#if you're wondering why he has a 20: #at one point (like 8 years ago lol) he had yugioh cards #but they were such a small prop i lost them at some point during a move #anyway i built the new display case recently (yay for ikea furniture) and decided his hands looked a little empty #and i had this twenty dollar bill lying around #so... #(cannot stress enough how much i do not live in a country that uses dollars) #(where did it come from?? I don't know. money kaiba) #anyway I'm finally starting to have time for art again amongst all the moving stuff #working on some more aquato mermaids that i can hopefully squeeze in before the end of mermay #and then loads of people have been asking about A Certain Something In FSAU Canon #so my next project is gonna be something about that. wink wink

[franeridan]

okay look I know I've talked about this at length already but I've seen a ton of people talk about how they don't like whiskey peak and how they think it wasn't necessary for zoro and luffy to fight like that or straight up think it was ooc of them, but then the same people will turn around and go "isn't it fascinating how zoro's the only one who can say no to luffy or nearly order him around or that luffy waits for the opinion of before acting for no apparent reason it must be because they are soulmates" and honestly for real I'm the first to subscribe to the zoro and luffy soulmates thought but the reason why zoro can do all that is whiskey peak. that is the moment zoro took a decision that benefited the whole crew without asking luffy first for the first time, and that is the moment luffy unjustly doubted him without implicitly trusting his judgement, and that is the moment luffy learned that actually sometimes zoro sees what's best for the crew before he does and that trusting him to always act with the crew's best interests in mind is something he should do. zoro had never opposed luffy or acted without his consent in any way before whiskey peak and luffy never doubts him and always turns to him ever since, there is direct correlation between the two zoro and luffy didn't learn to trust each other and respect each other through a magical soulbond connection their relationship is actually pretty damn well developed

#like i know in most manga it's useless to analyze every scene this deeply since the mangaka doesn't actually think about it that much #it's not that deep usually and i get it #but op is Definitely not one of those manga imho you can and you should stop and read into every single thing that happens #everything has deeper implications in it it's one of my favourite things in the manga #you're allowed to not like the thought of zoro and luffy fighting or how they just moved on and laughed it off #(even if i do believe given their characters that's the only way a fight between them could have ended but that's just me) #but even without liking it just writing it off as unimportant or non influential is just wrong #that's part of their history it should be counted as such whether you like it or not #i know i always talk about the same thingssss but there's a lot of new readers starting the anime going in from opla #and wonderfully a lot of them are zo lu shippers which is fantastic but it does put a lens on the way they watch it #like same me too everything is zl for me too but #yeah whatever point it I'm seeing the argument brought up again ex novo all over #and I'm probably the n1 whiskey peak defender so im not unbiased lbr #i love that they fought there who am i kidding #........... I lost my point #anyway *waves hands at post* that's my thoughts on that

[transformers-earthspark]

I AM GOING TO CRY WHEN THE BATCH OF EPISODES COME OUT I LOVE THIS SHOW SM

Yeah, me too 😭

#i was sobbing halfway through the last episodes I just know i'm going to cry this time too #as soon as twitch started crying I lost it #since then I've realized how much I can relate to her yknow? being the oldest; having responsibilities-- #--that can sometimes feel like too much #and wanting to protect everyone but knowing that sometimes you can't change what life throws at you #sorry for rambling hahaha #my point is; you're very not alone in this #{ answered } #>> mod: firefly

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: February 12

“This Is the Life” by Amy MacDonald

#song of the day #this is another one off the playlist I reblogged earlier #I got a handful of new songs off the playlist and this one might be my favorite #she's got a lovely voice and the way the lines of the chorus run together makes it very satisfying to sing along #'the songs they get louder each one better than before #and you're singing the songs thinkin this is the life #and you wake up in the mornin and your head feels twice the size where you gonna go where you gonna go where you gonna sleep tonight?' #I'd like to be asleep myself #reaching the point where thinking feels like juggling eggs and every second of the day I'm haunted by the feeling I've forgotten something #I haven't lost the ability to spell or to type or--and actually that quick-run chorus makes today's song a very good metric for this-- #I haven't lost the coordination that lets my mouth keep up with my mind #if I start having trouble typing or singing fast then we'll know I've hit the sleep-deprivation point where I shouldn't chop my own veggies #which is worse than any of the aches and other bullshits that come with being too tired you know because it's just /inconvenient/ #nothing worse than feeling bad /and/ now there's something mildly aggravating going on #nobody else does the food prep right!

[tovaicas]

also hate that the game potrays ishgardians pathologically denying what they're being told is somehow irredeemable.

my guys they're literally in the middle of a civil war, everyone's terrified for their lives bc the horde is still very much a threat, and the vault (which is the biggest social structure around) has peaced the fuck out by now. have some empathy, they're latching onto the one thing from their perspective they think is true.

#saint.txt #ishgardposting #spoilers #major spoilers #quoting a friend here but like. #how dare these utterly terrified people facing potential annihilation not think entirely rationally! #it's never seriously considered that the Ishgard we see in HW is Like That bc it's strained to the breaking point. #they lost ALL of coerthas. all of it. the holy see lost more to the calamity than literally anyone else. EVERYONE lost their homes. #What survives of the population has squeezed itself into a city that's simply too small for them #where the only remaining available consistent work in this hyper-martial society is the war bc *that's the only place they can go*. #and that was only five years ago. And now you're telling them the basis of their faith is a lie #and the war they've been fighting and lost loved ones to was started with blood on *their* hands? #a people who's future #between the Horde and the simple fact they cannot grow food anymore is *incredibly* uncertain? #as a friend puts it. who WOULDN'T believe that this is just aym.eric making a power play. it's simple. it makes sense.

[marshmallowprotection]

Okay so - Kait, please forgive me for this extremely cringe and just...'ugh, really? 🙄' request. ;;

...would Ray like a...let's say, who does very much not fit in to what's conventionally 'pretty'...?

I've always been a tomboy, through and through.

I've never even touched makeup, my skin isn't...great, and I've never worn a dress or skirt in my life.

...what would Ray think of that?! He certainly seems to like more...feminine girls.

...aaah ;;;

Ray, please like me! 😭😭😭

Hey, Anon.

Let's make one thing abundantly clear so you don't have to feel any self-doubt, Ray loves you no matter what. It doesn't matter what aesthetic you prefer to align yourself with when you choose what you like to wear or how you like to use style.

As long as you are the object of his affection, that's the only thing that matters to him. You mean the world to him because you are the person that you are. He is obsessed with you and only you. That means that it doesn't matter what you dress like, what you look like, or anything of that nature. You are already his idealized fantasy. 

You don't have to change anything about yourself nor do you have to fill a role to be the person he loves. He already wants you as you are so there's nothing you need to change or feel insecure about when it comes to your appearance, personality, or what have you. 

You don't need to change anything about yourself because he is already infatuated with the idea of you. 

He's been dreaming of the day that you could come into his life so he would finally know what it felt like the field desired by the object of his affection. You are the very reason he's been able to survive in hell for so long. He has been living in what is basically a stewing pit of Hell for God knows how long and the only thing that's helped him get through this suffering is the thought of knowing that one day you would be able to join him.

Then, it would no longer feel as though he's suffering because he would finally have the reward at the end of the line. Ray would be able to experience happiness at the Eternal party because you would be there with him and it would all be worth it. That's his goal.

The only thing you need to think about is how to convince him that you do like him as much as he likes you. However, I can see where you came to the conclusion that he might not be as obsessed with you as he might be with someone who loves to dress up!

Many of the people who like him in the fandom are people who love to play into his theatrics and love of fairy tales. Not everyone, but a decent chunk of people love the idea of being able to dress up and play the role of a princess or prince for Ray.

The reason why a lot of people play into this is that everybody understands that what Ray wants more than anything is to be able to live inside a fairytale where he is the prince that gets to whisk you away to happily ever after. You don't have to fit the conventional role of his love interest in that story aesthetically or whatever you think you need to fit to be his object of affection. This is more about him being able to fill the role that he wants more than anything.

This is about him being able to be your prince. It's honestly less about you being the princess/prince for him.

Don't get it twisted and don't feel insecure about yourself because you don't feel like you fit into a role that is staunchly more quote-un-quote, “feminine”, than you are comfortable with. You don't need to wear dresses or skirts, you don't need to have "flawless" skin, and you don't need to be something that you aren't.

What I mean by that is that you don't need to force yourself to be somebody else to be loved by somebody. If you are a lot more comfortable not bothering with makeup or frilly clothes, that’s fine! You don't have to be interested in those things nor do you need to use them to make him like you. He already likes you.

In fact, if you are trying to be something you aren't so you can feel affection from another person? That person isn't worthy of your time or care in the first place. The person who is the object of your affection should be somebody that loves you back without hesitation or contempt for things that make you— you. The person you're with should love you for who you are, not what you can be for them by erasing yourself. 

So, no, you don't need to be whatever you think you need to be to fit Ray’s “fantasy”. You don't need to be a princess or a prince to be the person he adores. All you need to do is be yourself. It doesn't matter who you are or how you appear, if you are his MC, then you are the most wonderful person he's ever seen in his life. Male, female, non-binary, or however you identify, Ray loves you just as much as you love him. Girly, tomboy, or whatever aesthetic you have, he loves you all the same.

Also, I hope you know that you do not have to be “conventionally attractive.” Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and just because you don't fit some societal standard for what beauty is, doesn't mean that you aren't beautiful.

The idea of what is "beautiful" is constantly changing and it never stays the same. That's why you shouldn't hold yourself to standards because they never stay the same. All you need to focus on is being yourself and as long as you're happy with yourself, you will find somebody that understands you and cherishes you the way you deserve to be. 

Don't just apply this to this circumstance that you feel insecure about yourself when it comes to Ray.

Take that lesson to heart as somebody who has spent a long time unlearning what it means to be beautiful. Societal standards can really beat you down no matter how hard you try to like the person looking back at you in the mirror. Once you realize that the standard that everybody wants you to reach is not obtainable?

That's when you should focus on being yourself and enjoying Who You Are. It can take a long time to learn how to do that and I'm not saying it's the easiest thing you're ever going to challenge in your life. But, what I am saying is once you stop trying to feel like you need to be something you aren't, it feels like a weight leaves your chest and you can breathe.

None of us are ever going to fit what societal standards define as “beautiful.” You have to learn how to see the beauty in who you are. There's no right or wrong way to learn how to do that. Everybody has to take their own path when it comes to realizing that they don't need to try so hard to fit a bubble that isn't for them.

You don't need to change who you are to be loved. 

The people who really matter are going to be the people who love you as you are. 

#For real #When I was a child #The ‘beauty standard’ was much different than it is right now #And I am still personally affected by what those things did to me #It's taking a long time to unlearn that stuff #But the most liberating thing I can share #Is that when you realize that the standards are nothing more than trends that always change #You realize that there's no point in trying to keep up with all this bullshit #If people don't like you at face value #They sure as hell don't deserve you #If they don't love you when you're at your most comfortable #They do not deserve you when you want to quote-unquote dress up #I'm saying this is somebody who also isn't ‘conventionally attractive’ #Society is really shallow #This is coming from a person who spent the first 19 years of her life as a fat person #Fat is not an ugly word by the way #When I got sick and I lost so much weight because of it #People started treating me differently #Suddenly I had value and I was ‘more attractive’ #And let me tell you that experiencing that was enough to let me know #That beauty standards are bullshit #I had value no matter what size I was #You are wonderful no matter who you are #And I am so sorry that Society has made you feel like you need to be something you aren't to be loved by somebody #Ray doesn't need you to be a princess #All he needs is for you to be yourself #ask #anon #mod kait #tw insecurity

[aberooski]

I always know which songs are gonna be underrated/slandered on an album because they're my favorite song(s) 🙃

#i swear every time I watch a reaction video to an album #my favorite songs are always the ones that are either deemed skips or not very good/the best or could've been taken off the album #I watched a reaction video to 5sos's SGFG my favorite 5sos album and the guy said that airplanes and san francisco were the weakest songs #on the album and I was just there like ''...of course it's my favorite songs you're saying that about when you loved every other song😑🙃'' #and then I realized it really was a pattern because the same thing happened with emotions on 5sos5 and lover of mine on CALM #graceland too on phoebe bridgers' punisher is another example #THANKFULLY no slander for new years day when my boy HTHAZE did his rep reaction I would have LOST IT #he did slander call it what you want tho so #among other songs and albums but my point is that if a song is my favorite 9 times out of 10 it will be an underrated and/or slandered song #and that has really started to bug me a lot #abby's just rambling don't mind her #abby fully admits she's an idiot

[ambreiiigns]

i wanna be someone who listens to misfits full time again wtf is ghost

#i used to be so cool. i used to be my brother's inspirations and goals. now he sees me and cringes and he's right #hsnckajdja joking. but also no #i feel like i finished the main game (cool iconique music) and now i'm doing the silly but way funnier side quests (ghost) #i mean ghost is not a bad band by all means. but they are so silly. i for one cannot take them seriously. never could #i thot they'd sound like repugnant back in the day then i heard like ritual and dance macabre and pissed my pants at the contrast between #the sound and the look and the purpose of the contrast. i respect them and love them but God they are so funny #i don't know how to phrase this. i don't even know what point i'm trying to make #but i do miss the music i listened to in high school. i lost so many songs #<- cons of only listening to music by downloading it to my phone is that sometimes when changing phones or sd cards you mess up #bc you're stupid and useless w technology and lose 500000000 songs and the thought of having to find them again is #anxiety inducing so you kinda give up on listening to them ever again. lol #like i was listening to so much guns n roses... misfits.... iron maiden..... metallica.... tool.... idk just those cool person bands #and now i hardly ever hear them and i actually miss them a lot :( #thankfully my brother has been following my footsteps so far and he's currently in his pink floyd tool era so i'm re-living those days #thru him but. i just miss it. i need to download everything again someday #the only bitch who survived the changing phone & sd card purge was alice cooper. i went and downloaded everything again #i will NEVER give up on that old man he's my favorite music guy in the world #i also was just starting out w him when it happened tho so i didn't have a lot of catching back up to do but STILL. alice cooper forever #and ever 100 years alice cooper love that guy to death and hell #oh nay #ignore this. i've been feeling nostalgic

[elcorhamletlive]

do you ever feel like you messed up in a social situation and you don't even know why

#like most of the time you're like 'my anxiety makes no sense it is illogical it is wrong' etc #which is good but also. i feel like i've lost the ability to recognise when it's got a point #like it's tough because your head is like 'you're annoying you're annoying you're annoying' #and you start to go 'no i'm not' #which makes it difficult to recognise when i'm actually being annoying #idk. just. an odd moment i guess