#but it's like

[thebibliosphere]

Tw: restricted medical diet, missing hunger cues, death, general food and chronic illness stuff. (It's a good post tho)

Being able to eat cereal again has unlocked something actually feral in me. I'm so used to not being able to grab a quick little snack that won't have Medical Consequences later that I've pretty much gotten used to just... turning my hunger cues off and running at a deficit of calories.

It takes me literal hours to eat a bag of crisps because if I don't eke it out, my body will reject it. I can't have most fruits because my body will reject them. Raw vegetables will send me to the ER. All the foods I can eat require labor, either past or present, and when you're already running on a deficit of energy from chronic pain and constant hunger, well, that's easier said than done.

But being able to do something as simple as eating cornflakes, either with or without milk, and not have my body go into an anaphylactic meltdown is... This is game-changing.

When I say it has awoken something feral in me, I'm being literal. It's hunger. I'm feeling hunger, and for the first time in literal years, I'm able to sate it without having to burn up precious energy to do it.

And it's just so achingly normal that it feels like it shouldn't be a big deal. It feels ridiculous to feel tearful over a thing like cornflakes. But when I consider the fact that in 2019, I almost died from malnutrition because my nervous system was shutting down, and I couldn't eat anything because my MCAS was so advanced everything was sending me into anaphylaxis I, I just. Yeah.

Crying over cornflakes on a Monday night.

Just MCAS 'remission' things... ✌

#chronic health tag #MCAS #I'm so scared to say it's in remission #I am so so scared #but it's like #I'm drinking soda #I'm eating packaged foods #and I'm not going into spontaneous anaphylaxis? #like I'm not about to eat any of the foods that I *know* kill me but like... #I'm finally getting over 2000 calories a day for the first time in five years #is this... is this what... who... #*sweats nervously* #and I know recovery is non-linear with shit like this #but at the same time #I am grabbing onto this with both hands and RUNNING with it

[browniefox]

Undertale/Deltarune FanComics

I put out a post for some UTDR comic recs, and I've decided to compile them all here, both so that I can easily access them as I make my way through, and also so that anyone else who is interested in it can also check it out :D I've provided brief descriptions next the ones I could uh quickly find descriptions for or knew personally, so if you notice one you know that's lacking a descriptions, tell me and I'll add it.

Also if you think this list would benefit from further categorization in some way, let me know! Right now it's a bit of a mess and overwhelming lol.

I'll also be updating this with new (or old lol) comics if anyone has more suggestions!

Edit: I’m making a collection blog, @utdrlibrary, that way one can go through the posts for which comic sounds interesting, instead of scrolling through a messy list lol. I’m still working getting the comics from this post up on the blog

(a 🌟 next to a comic means that I have personally read and recommend it ^-^ )

Undertale

Aftertale by @loverofpiggies - Complete.

🌟 Darker yet Darker and the sequel Second Son of Gaster by @sansybones - Sans' creation, how he came to be and find his abilites, and his relationship with Gaster and Papyrus. Complete.

🌟 Over the Void by @undertale-over-the-void - Post-Undertale. Frisk, Asriel, and Monster Kid end up travelling to a strange alternate universe where the war with humans seems to be ongoing. In Progress.

🌟 Dogs of Future Past by @lynxgriffin - Post-Undertale. Trying to find Gaster for Sans' sake, Frisk travels to the past with Flowey, and stuck in the body of one of the dogs that make up Endogeny. Complete.

Under/source by @slylock-syl - In Progress.

Ask Fallen Royalty by @askfallenroyalty - An Everyone Lives au. In Progress?

Ask Frisk and Company by @chamomilekitten and @comikatva - In Progress?

Ask Chara and Friends by Miamouse - In Progress.

The Thought by @tratserenoyreve - Sans uses the souls. Complete.

Mercy by @renrink - Frisk, Sans, and Chara during the San fight? Complete.

You Are Not Welcome by @rumay-chian - Based on the ending of a neutral run? In Progress.

Shifter Au by @audaciousanonj, @leshyleaf, and @wilwoo (I think? There's a lot of names on this blog) - Papyrus (the older brother in this au) gives up his form to a shapeshifter who he hopes will raise Sans better than he is. In Progress?

Inverted Fate by @megaderping - A roleswap au. In Progress.

Underline Au - okay so I remember reading some of this, but the blog (@/underlineau) pulls up strangely and my browser says there's something weird about it? If anyone knows why that is let me know.

Ghost Switch by @clevercatchphrase - Switches Narra-Chara with uh someone else? In Progress.

Fallen Flowers by @tarableart​ - In Progress.

The Old Monster of the Ruins by @knking​ - Asgore Dreemurr, an old monster that take cares of the Ruins and the humans living in it. Complete?

Name the Fallen by @namethefallen - Papyrus went to sleep in a race car bed and woke up in a flowerbed and is trying to find out what happened. In Progress?

Storyshift by @ut-storyshift - I was unsure exactly what to link for this, or if it is even currently a comic? I think it's a fic now. In Progress?

Altered Destiny by @altereddestinyau - Discontinued?

Entity Neo by @entityneo - In Progress?

🌟 Unexpected Guests by @undertalethingems - Papyrus summons the full form of his Blaster and can't get it to go away. Shenanigans ensue. In Progress.

They Say He Shattered by @emilyparagraph - Neutral Routes start colliding with each other. Discontinued.

The Bar of Sanses series by VanGold - A bar for various Au Sans to visit? In Progress?

Heart and SOUL by @auroragriffon - Sans' and Toriel's daughter ends up in the Underground of the past. In Progress.

Duotale by @ask-duotale-b2fc - An au where it's a different child who is the 7th child? In Progress.

Horrortale by @horrortalecomic - Post-Empress Undyne Neutral Route. A new child has fallen into the Underground, and things have gotten bad. In Progress?

🌟 Handplates by @zarla-s - Papyrus and Sans, creations of Gaster, from creation to and through canon (I'm still catching up lol). In Progress.

Deltarune

🌟 Paper Trail by @lynxgriffin - Canon-Divergent take on Deltarune after Chapter 1 of how the story could've gone. Complete.

The Chara Timeline by @lilybug-02 - Chara is Asriel's college roommate. They're both in Hometown visiting from college. In Progress.

Looking Glasses by @ferronickel - Susie, Ralsei, and Lancer, two years after Deltarune. In Progress.

🌟 Gaster's Great Escape by @moldyjunk - Gaster trying to get back to reality, in Deltarune. In Progress.

🌟 Twin Runes by @akanemnon - Frisk somehow ends up in Deltarune. Mostly rn funny shenanigans but seems to be heading towards story.

#browniefox speaks #deltarune #undertale #utdr #i also have my own comic #but it's like #two pages #so we're not putting that here until it's worthwhile lol

[anisaanisa]

Inuyasha | 犬夜叉 | Ch.43: The Demon Reborn ☆

#*slams hands on table* we as a society do NOT talk about his temp elven ears enough!! in this essay I will WHINE!!!! #my edit #human inuyasha #but it's like #inuyasha #manga #manga cap #manga edit #inuyasha manga #inuyasha edit #犬夜叉 #shounen #animanga #rumiko takahashi #inuyasha chapter 43 #inuyasha volume 5 #spooktober #anisa reads inuyasha

[purpleguysimp]

*barfs up drawing*

Here :•] i drew the blorbo sleeping while i was actually supposed to be cleaning lmao

#this was originally just gonna be a sketch #then my finger slipped #billie bust up #bbu barnaby #i forgot his tail feathers fuck uh uh uh #you just can't see em here :•] #yea thats it #bbu #drawing #art #the lighting was a pain #but it's like #pretty so idc #i like to imagine this is after a party and so he gets to slep

[captain-k8kat]

People washing out Childe's character so that he is the perfect boyfriend is very funny cus every time it's just Thoma. You take the murder out of Childe and you get Thoma. Give Childe his murder back 😤

#ok this is an oversimplification #but it's like #childe is a bit insane #he has his redeeming qualities but he's also a little bit of an arrogant asshole #and he's also a freak #i love him dearly #genshin impact #childe #thoma #like if you want to perfect boyfriend character thoma is right there #he's the best #but if you want something a bit more twisted #then you go for childe #let childe be a freak 👍 #he's great at that #actually maybe asshole isnt the best way to describe childe #but he's definitely a little arrogant

[gayofthefae]

No but the way they said Lucas is Mike's best friend in season 1 just to make sure you knew that when they say "best friend" about anybody else it's euphamistic

#bc we know they knew about byler in time for chemistry reads #i mean MAYBE they had some earlier plan to be like 'lucas and mike met first but will and mike become closer over the course of season 2' #but it's like #'lucas is mike's best friend' ok cool i believe you #'will is mike's BEST. FRIEND.' #woah uhm ..ok cool. my bad #and the fact that will is mike's best friend but lucas is his best when things come to el #like in role more #s1 and 3 #why is 'best friend' and 'girlfriend' mutually exclusive? #it's not like 'best friend' secretly means boyfr- *gunshots*

[sunlit-haruka]

Sometimes I'm like "y'know, despite Haruka being my favorite Milgram character I really don't talk about him that much, maybe I should do that" And then I remember that a good part of my enjoyment of his character and my connection to him has a lot to do with my own experiences of being a neurodivergent teenager that I'm not really ready to talk about on the internet lmao

#haru chats about milgram #milgram #milgram project #haruka sakurai #sakurai haruka #milgram haruka #but at the same time I'm like “maybe I should be more open about these experiences and how they relate to my enjoyment of Haruka” #And I do genuinely want to make an analysis on the themes of his character and how they relate to some of the themes in milgram cause #I do feel like it's genuinely important and it's something I am very passionate about #But it's like #How do I do this without trauma dumping on an entire fandom yknow

[soggypotatoes]

had a real weird time cause like, as soon as my phone broke i was like. well time to self harm about it. cause i cant keep a phone alive for just 2 years which means i'm a stupid failure and also worthless. and, something bad happened, so self harm is just what happens!!

but this scared part of me is legitimately traumatised from the time i had to get stitches, and pretty badly triggered by the last time i relapsed as well, and every time i went to do it i felt my body seize up and refuse. and like. my emotions arent very strong today anyway, so i just watched ann reardon on tv for a bit.

then i was like.. stumped, cause what do i do when something bad happens?? when something stressful and just generally *not what i need* to happen, happens and i'm stuck with it? if self harm is off the table.. and it dawned on me that many people would actually react by doing something nice/comforting lmao. it just never occurred to me before that i could do something nice instead of punishing myself. but what? i'm being so serious here, i genuinely have 0 ideas of what i'm supposed to do in this scenario

#ed mumbles #idk what to do when i have big emotions #monetarily im. gonna be okay cause i have savings for this #but i am very mad at myself still #i was like 2 months off having a phone last for 2 years #and i dont know how people manage to keep their phones unbroken!!! #not supergluing it to a table might be a start dfjsghkjdf #in retrospect #i shouldve. done a few things to prevent that #but it's like #i have to make the mistake in order to prevent them #whereas other people just dont make the mistakes #and they know what not to do

[rapidhighway]

Hey being aroace is already so hard to describe and explain

#me saying that i want this mystical partner that will pretty much just be my friend but its kinda official but im not even that eager to #get that #especially when im in an environment where i have many friends now who wont just up and leave and eho actually value my wellbeing #i don't need a qpr or a relationship or whatever rn at all #sorry this is so hard to explain i feel like i made a mess of this person's head now #because i have this image of a relationship id like to be in and intold them about it #but it's like #not something i WANT right noe #now* #its not something i need ot even strive for its just something i think would be nice to have in the vague fantasy of a future i like to #imagine for myself #and now i get told thatnhey this other friend of mine who i love very much has a similar view of a relationship so we should get together #as if that would be any different #they are not even aroace byw #idk man #this is a mess #ughsnjdjs #the experience of being aroace in a society that doesn't get it at all is pretty much impossible to define i think. honestly

[shiroselia]

So basically this entire section of the gameblog can be read as: We're not getting enough players to pay for Star Rider and we REALLY REALLY need their money so we're going to completely ignore that the problem is Probably that our story is thin as shit because we've guttered everything that can be called progress and build-up because we've completely screwed over unlock requirements for this exact reason and now it's biting us in the ass but we're not gonna assume That's why so instead we're MAKING IT WOOOOORSE

#Not to say that a tutorial questchain Focused on that is bad #But it's like #You created this problem #This is your own fault

[worstloki]

some anti told me recently that Loki only gives a frick about Thor because they are family, raised as brothers. I was laughing so bad XD How do people still have this opinion after that what if episode. They literally made an episode where thor and loki still managed to find each other and be best of friends despite being raised in separate realms and there we can see Loki doesn't care much about Frigga as she is not his mother and openly mocks Odin but with Thor, their bond is still strong as ever. And that pure affection hasn't changed just because they are not related in this timeline.

Why does their relationship scare antis so much and I don't mean sexual kind but simply the bond they share

I don't know but I'm very close to assuming platonic intimacy scares people

#maybe even familial intimacy #which is wild bc like it should be standard that the brothers get along and like each other #not bc they're forced to do that as brothers but because they're in canon put through trials where they're given the choice #like regardless of whether or not they're considered 'brothers' (by whatever definition) they love each other #that's like #you can't delete that #you can say Thor loves the idea of Loki but not the 'actual' Loki and you can argue vice versa #but it's like #you're still admitting they love each other for whatever #they don't want to hurt each other even when they do #it's like bruhh if they held hands on screen casually i think people would start crying

[manofmanymons]

Omg their height difference <3

#had to share this here too because i keep laughing #maybe it's not actually that funny to anyone but me #but it's like #so exact #literally precisely 4cm #do you think because of takuma's fluffy hair and goggles that no one even notices he's shorter #digimon survive #takuma momozuka #kaito shinonome #hi guys I'm still alive

[jrueships]

SHUT!UP!!! people using the gainnis (GIANNIS sorry im shaking with rage) (not rlly im just stupid) picking dame over jrue for his all stars team as ammo that he's always wanted dame over himSHURUP!!! that he's already moved on, that he encouraged the trade as soon as it could be done and that's why it happened so quick and unexpected (for us)SHUT. UP. SHUT UP SHUTUP SHUT UP!!! THEY DIDNT CONSULT WITH HIM BEFORE THE TRADE! THEY DIDNTa theyDIDNT

#but it could be the pr just protecting his already very protected image #i feel like theres two starting points people take with media #roll with it or disregard it #and it's like idk which to take #usually i do a combo bcs while i dont like going 100% with i also hate going 100% against unless it's an understandable circumstance fortha #but it's like #..im waiting for the goodbye post is all #IT'S LIKE #idk #like while allstars is cool with ur teammate n all i think theres a thrill when it's going against him #and playing with guys u usually dont #to see whose team is better #it's like when the jays faced off and it was a massive highlight #giannis doesnt play with other teams stars on the offseasons #allstars is his only accepted time for that so naturally hes gonna want to take that opportunity #plus his allstar choices have been laughed at so #ppl dont do defense on allstar week. thats just fact now #but at the same.. it's a little #it's a little eerie #but like #mann idk #why cant i just be into what all the other ppl are into man #i NEED some gray matter i NEED some gra

[paramouradrift]

Me, preparing to look at my J&R draft: oh god it's going to be awful I'll have to delete everything to fit with the new outline oh god

Me, looking at the outline:

Me, still looking: okay.

Me, still looking:

Me, still looking: okay.

So I don't need to douse my deeply, deeply neglected draft document with agent orange. I can still use most of it. Which is good! It means, once I recover from my post-fic-completion doldrum I'll be able to turn around and update J&R quickly.

#j&r #h&v #atla #fanfic #zukka #writing #zuko is a gay pirate #but it's like #now i have to reorient myself to a very different zuko #to the one i just spent the last month writing #but on the other hand #gay panic zuko #bi panic sokka #delicious #nutritious #part of this balanced breakfast

[renmackree]

All the jeep talk on the dash is making my feral sterek needs come out and I've no where to put it.

#Personal post #I have plans for a fluffy sterek!parents Canon thing #But it's like #My lower fic check list

[herba-mysticas]

I keep getting the zero lab battle theme stuck in my head and it makes me feel really anxious and emotional but it's also toby fox so it makes me want to listen to it anyway and it is very difficult to deal with

#its a really good piece #but it's like #triggering for me