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tagerrkix · 7 months

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rage.

#welcome to today's episode of “me trying to draw 76 different emotions at once”#rage+grief???sorrow??? anguish?????#hmmmmmmm #definitely pain #and a hint of fear #no but like he's angry but there's sadness underneath you get what i'm saying #the kind of rage caused by something that left you traumatized and you just can't stop thinking about how unfair it was #like “i didn't deserve this nobody deserves this” kind of rage #well anyway #i don't even care about anatomy at this point #just let me see how much i can distort the face and still have it somewhat resemble the character #didn't mean to draw him crying again but my hand slipped oops #astarion #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate 3 #astarion fanart

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wisteriagoesvroom · 3 months

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getting a headache again because someone on twitter said (paraphrased) “my theory about lestappen so far is that max understands charles’s frustrations, and max knows charles is a better driver than his car allows him to be capable of. he is a special driver like me. that’s why we walk together”

and? the sheer poetry of someone knowing you deeply, intimately… yes, possible through the science, the data of race stats or car performance or analytics, but through all of it, it also amounts to them saying this:

I see you, I know you, you are my shadow. We push each other, and it is the closest thing to completion I might find on the track because you are my equal. This is a dance with only us in it. So take my hand.

#lestappen #1633 #3316 #f1 rpf #formula 1 rpf #yes im once again in my feelings #don’t look at me my emotions are all over the table #this is a draft from my november in my feelings phase #which surely will return when we next see them do insane stuff on the track #lestappies 2024 let's goooo

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muzzleroars · 1 year

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bundling up a war machine and a fallen angel so they don’t get cold in hell

#ultrakill #v1 #gabriel #fallen angel gabriel has been making me feral lately #he has experienced his death as that of the saint and archangel #his wings are now void and terribly painful unable to be touched let alone carry him #pure white that no longer reflects his emotions #a blank black where his bible verses once were #(i interpret his glyphs are verses in which gabriel is mentioned)#(have i even ever mentioned that????)#i think for v1 has referred to him as 'gabe' or 'gabby' for awhile lol #he HATED it #but now it really starts to mean something #i have a million things to say about him!!!#but i think that explains enough for now!!!#doodle tag #rise and fall au

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ioniansunsets · 6 months

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Alright but hear me out (hello btw how are you ?) kayn heartsteel have canonically been kicked out of his previous band ; imagine fem!reader (successful idol herself or civilian) comforting him and trying to help him push through it and get back on his feet to continue his music !

✖ Pre Heartsteel!Kayn Being Kicked Out ✖

✖ Word Count: 1.3k

✖ Tags: Established R/S, Idol!Reader

✖ A/N: You were a performer too and met him at a gig before either of you got famous! You two live together in this one, you’re a solo idol that practices at home so you can spend your days with him. These are headcanons! Whee!

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- It wrecked him. You two got together while he was in his old band, so it was an important memory to you both. As a solo artist, you understood the intricacies of being in the public eye but still, being kicked out? That was rough…something you personally could never experience. You did your best to comfort him.

- The first few days was the worst. Kayn was the perfect definition of bi-polar. Either his Rhaast ego was full blown, wild, and uninhibited. Man straight up was about to do crimes and was only stopped by you begging him not to make things worse for himself. (You caught him with a bag full of spray paint about to go wreck his old studio.) Or he was the trained Idol, Kayn. Rhaast entirely held back, the perfect definition of an average idol, obedient and reserved. Joining you in your dance and vocal practices in your home studio.

- Don’t even talk about the things he tweeted during that era, you had to run into his room and tell him to delete them minutes after posting. It was a bad time. If you were to ask Kayn now about those old tweets? He was on the very fence of, cocky pride on how he was a “badass” that “didn’t follow rules back then” or just overwhelming embarrassment for being young and dumb.

- There was a lot of work to be done over those first few days, you got the help of your own PR guys to try and get Kayn’s media presence looking better. You yourself doing your best to give him advice on performing, it wasn’t even that he was a bad artist, it was just…he had some strong ideals and just didn’t work well with his old band. It took months honestly but as always, drama died down and Kayn slowly got to live his life again.

- The saddest part of all this drama was that because you were an idol too it was hard to bring him out to comfort him. Paparazzi were hounding you both, media wanting to know what went down with Kayn and if you were seen beside him…gods who knew what the media would say about your career. You two barely left your house because you just couldn’t.

- So, all you could do was your best. Dragging him to game with you on the PC, buying new consoles to try new games with him (murdering things in game really helped him unsurprisingly), watching movies together at home (feel good films that actually make him cry), getting him to do weird shit like painting your shared room (you have a messy signature of his by the door), crocheting weird little animals (he made Rhaast!), hells you managed to get him to read a book (banned in various nations). It was…different. But it helped keep his mind off doing anything that would ruin his career more while satisfying his need to just be a creative.

- On one of those uneventful days, Kayn ordered a nice little delivery package and excitedly ran into your room. Holding the plastic bag up proud. “ Y/N. I’m going to change my image. Entirely. Can you help me. Like…Right. Fucking. Now.” You stare at him in confusion until he walked up to your table, and pulled 7 boxes of bleach and dye, dumping them on your table. “ I’m going to go hot pink.” You laugh, but oblige anyway. If it would cheer him up then you would spend the day helping him out.

- There was a lot of angry snuggling on boring evenings. Kayn would lie in bed in your arms ranting about his ideals, how he was meant for bigger, greater things, things no one else in the industry or his old band could comprehend. And you would hug him tight, supporting him as he complained, listening, agreeing where you can, giving him bigger and better ideals of grandeur. The both of you knew it wasn’t anything serious, but it really did help lighten his mood. “ I’ll really set the stage on fire next time just watch me.” “ I’ll bring the gasoline then.” “ For real! I will fucking bring fireworks and shit too. It’ll be sick as hell! Never seen before! I’ll wreck the stage!!!! Livestream that shit!!!” Such evenings would end with the both of you laughing. It was nice to see him happier again in those small moments. Sometimes you could even see a sneak of a soft smile creeping onto his face, his appreciation for you playing along and not stopping him.

- It took about a week before you felt it was right to get him to pick his guitar back up. Convincing him that the best way to get over the bad memories was to form new ones, the two of you sitting down to write a song. He really went HARD with the lyrics, it was a damn god rap at that but it was honestly a diss track at his old band and shall stay hidden in the files of your computer forever. You do secretly listen to it sometimes, it was raw as fuck, personally it helped YOU when you were angry and frustrated. Not that you would admit to him. It would only stroke his ego more.

- He only admitted it once. Once when you two were soaking in a hot bath together. Only Once did he tell you how much your support meant to him. Nice smells and colors from a bath bomb floating around you two. It was a slow morning, a few weeks after getting kicked out, right before he joined Heartsteel. You sat there, back against his chest as he rests his head on your shoulder. Relaxing in the tub. It was peaceful silence before he spoke up. “ Y/N…I’m going to join a new band.” You actually had to pause and turn to stare at him. Shocked. Asking him if he was sure, if he was ready, if he was comfortable to be performing with people again. You held his face, asking once more if this is what he wanted to do in his career, if he was going to give up on going solo like you. His hand rose to hold yours against his face as he spoke. “ Yeah, I talked to them a lot the past week and…they genuinely accept me and all my crazy ideas. They love Rhaast for who he is and I think I can work with this. I’m sure about this.” He laughs, putting your arm down as his hands wrap around you in a tight hug. Kayn moving his face down to your neck as he gives you a soft kiss, gentle, barely there as he whispers, not looking at you. “ I have to thank you for this by the way. For letting me Be Rhaast. For telling me time and time again to just be the Rockstar that I was meant to be. That my unique brand of rock was fine. I’ll remember this forever. Every time you see Rhaast on stage it’ll be thanks to you. Remember that.” And that was it. He never really showed his vulnerability about his old band ever again. The next day he joined Heartsteel, and it was great for him. Your own heart feeling warm and fuzzy seeing him laugh and have fun with new bandmates. And when you stand in the audience, seeing Rhaast rap some sick bars, you can’t help but smile. He was Your Rockstar.

#I was like damn i have writers block #then i wrote and wrote and wrote #and dropped the last headcanon and made myself emotional.........#they are good for him. they help him BE him #Anon Answer #HEADCANONS #League of Legends Headcanons #Shieda Kayn #Heartsteel!Kayn #Kayn x Reader #Kayn League #Kayn LoL #Kayn League of Legends #KaynLeague #thank you for letting me write this.#ONLY PROOF READ ONCE i will read it again later it was LONG

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gascansposts · 27 days

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„I love the way men love“ what if Gideon takes such care in his appearance because of his pa always at least brushing his beard and hair every morning (they would do it together in the mornings) and Kremy, his closest friend after getting free from the hobgoblins, also takes care in his appearance and knows that Kremy‘s fussing over his friends is his way of showing love (doesn’t everyone like to look nice?) and Gricko likes to teach Hootsie things by way of example so he and Hootsie get ready together in the mornings (like from his time in his tribe and the carnival where they first met) and Frost likes to stay clean because the robes he got are so valuable to him that if they get dirty he immediately feels like he got punched in the gut from disrespecting his old master (also having dirt and mud dry in his fur and joints makes for the worst feeling in the mornings) and Torbek after the horrible trauma of never being able to get clean and stay that way loves doing self care and taking showers and baths (cleanliness is a way to take back his own autonomy and show that he can do whatever he wants forever) and this all culminates in everyone when they wake up crowding together and helping each other get ready as a way to show that „I’m here you’re here I care for both yours and my own health and cleanliness, here let me help you with that“ and- I‘M NOT CYRING YOUR CRYING *distraught sobbing*

#y’know….#maybe I need friends to talk to about this #legends of avantris #once upon a witchlight #morning frost #gricko grimgrin #gideon coal #torbek #kremy lecroux #hootsie grimgrin #im emotional over love languages okay? let me cry in peace #this totally doesn’t stem from my own love of intimate platonic scenes like brushing hair or stuff #and this ALSO doesn’t stem from my own love for haircare because my hair is so important to me because it shows me and my personalitysimply #*more distraught crying*/pos #yep #gas cans fire #*screams*

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fiepige · 7 months

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Did somebody say more Hobie GIFs?

No? Well have some anyways <3 (Theme: Hobie and all his hand gestures) Part 1

#will I ever stop making GIFs of Hobie?#no #also decided to split this post into more parts #cause this guys moves his hands a LOT lol #but as always let me know if you guys have any ideas/requests for GIFs from atsv #it doesn't HAVE to be with hobie (but I would probably find a way to sneak him in anyways lol)#also I finally deciphered the note I had written to myself while travelling that just said hand gestures #I had no idea what I had meant until I went through the movie again and saw how much Hobie uses his hands to emote lol #he's so energetic I love it #also I once again slowed some of these down a bit to get a better look at the movement #hobie brown #spider punk #across the spider verse #atsv #miles morales #pavitr prabhakar #gwen stacy #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #my post #my gif #my gifs

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divatheeva · 10 months

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#my art #submas #submas reunion #yayaya Emmet is speaking in asl he got overwhelmed #or like Unovan sign language technically but yk what I mean #yet another of my ingo talks a LOT to cope and emmet talks Less to cope propaganda #ingo definitely talked through the entire movie btw #becuase I am once again projecting onto ingo #but also emmet going yes please I don’t wanna keep having emotional breakdowns let’s just hang out please yes that is me also

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hypervoxel · 19 days

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The first time Vox said, "I love you," to Valentino, it went horribly wrong, because Val laughed and made a joke about how often he's heard that as a sex worker (especially now that he's in Hell and has become a walking talking aphrodisiac that Vox was currently high on). Vox is now so self conscious about his feelings and has never voiced them that way since. In Val's mind, he told Vox to only say that if he means it, but Vox hasn't told Val he loves him ever again, so Val certainly isn't going to be the one to say it first.

#Vox and Val also experience love and attraction very differently. not incompatibly tho. i mean they're not healthy by any means #but they make their toxic cesspool of a relationship work. for them.#voxval #anyway i will find a way to work this detail into my fics. but it is the basis of like a dozen of Vox's Issues #where Vox is like 'i can't let the people i trust most see me vulnerable' even tho it literally would not be an issue #because he confessed his love once to Val and Val laughed at him and acted like Vox was the same as anyone else he'd fucked #(bc Val was not ready to admit that Vox had wormed his way into Val's heart. Val doesn't love easily‚#he finds sex and desire a whole lot more readily than any emotional notion of love—but Vox is one of the few people he would say he loves)#so Vox always has this nagging anxiety that he is not nearly as important to Val as Val is to him #(doesn't help that Val rants to him all the time and whatever is going on with Angel Dust this week)#and then of course. Vox confessed to Alastor and Alastor rejected him very soundly.#and. what are Vox and Val doing if not making their relationship issues with other people impact their relationship with each other?#staticmoth

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scribefindegil · 7 months

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Obsessed with the POV choice in Imperial Radch as well, both because Leckie does some really wild stuff with how expansive the strict first-person is able to become due to the worldbuilding and who her narrator is, and because it's SO entangled with the central thematic concepts of identity. In the first book flashbacks when the narrator is still a warship, "I" can encompass so many things, and sometimes explicitly refers to different facets in the narration--is "I" Justice of Toren, or One Esk, or a specific segment, or Breq narrating from twenty years in the future? "I" isn't simple, isn't unified, and while this is most literal and obvious with Breq/One Esk/Justice of Toren and Anaander Mianaai's split factions it's true constantly throughout the work at every level of scope. Individual characters struggle with internal conflicts and hit their breaking points--what is it that makes someone decide they have to disobey orders and make a stand or they won't be themself anymore? How do you know who you are if you've been forcibly changed (Tisarwat) or if the world you knew has moved on and become unrecognizable (Seivarden)? How does a character on a colonized world navigate the split identity that comes from the pressure to assimilate to the dominant culture? And then there's the Radch writ large, all the Radchaai so deeply invested in the idea that there is only one true concept of Radchaai society, of civilization, but of course there isn't! It changes based on location and over time, and Breq muses that the Radchaai empire would be largely unrecognizable to the isolated sphere of the Radch itself. In these books, even if you aren't the last remnant of a destroyed spaceship and its legion of bodies, "I" is such a complicated concept and the narrative never lets you forget it.

#imperial radch #i looooove it #first-person but Let's Make It Weird #and that's not even touching on the way Breq can get data from Mercy of Kalr once she's captain #so as long as Ship is watching she can see third-person-style scenes with her crew #and has access to their biometric data #so she can see what they're doing and make guesses about how they're feeling #but sometimes she's very very wrong!#('Seivarden doesn't love me.' girl please.)#and how that's ALSO tangled up in The Themes #because she's not a ship anymore! she only has one human brain so she can only pay attention to one thing at a time #can only watch one scene playing out; can't process all the data that Ship's collecting #can't swap out bodies when she's tired or regulate her own emotions or hold herself or sing with herself #and it reminds her of everything she's lost and it breaks her heart!#but it would also break her heart to give it up.

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teastarfall · 5 months

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LN2 + 3 (+ an oc) doodles!! because im autistic and that’s the only way to tame the silly within me

#it’s NEVER a tea post without hunter LN2 taking up an entire page I AM NORMAL (not true…)#blame the dantdm let’s play video that got me sucked into this hyperfix #also I got a decent idea on how i wanna draw low + alone rn!!#their faces i mean ermmm #once the games out their designs will most likely change tho lol #LN3 isn’t even out yet and i already love these guys sm #i must prepare for some emotional damage tho it’s gonna sneak up on us…#anyway must rest now (goes off tumblr and back onto procreate to draw)#little nightmares #little nightmares 2 #little nightmares 3 #little nightmares fanart #ln six #ln hunter #ln mono #ln doctor #ln low #ln alone

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yzafre · 5 months

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Roxas: Had the Halloween town kids throw bombs in his face for multiple missions in a row before finally breaking down and smacking them around a bit.

Ventus: The dwarves were rude and refused to talk to him, immediately resorted to chasing them down and whacking them.

Characterization I see frequently: Ah, yes, Roxas is the one always willing to throw hands and Ventus is a smol sunshine boy.

#kh #kingdom hearts #these are really silly examples but the point stands!#in fact I think it expands when you look at their full screen-time #I am once again begging people to watch a full let's play of Days #don't get me wrong Ventus IS brightness and sunshine #but he also has the energy of a chihuahua ready to fight the world and I will stand by that #where as Roxas will tend to just try to avoid it until he Very Much Can't #now I think Roxas does BITTERNESS better than Ventus or Sora #but bitterness is not temper #in fact bitterness is usually negative emotions left on the backburner until the resentment caves in on itself #I suppose this is up to interpretation but from my reading...#a lot of times Ventus seems to burn out his anger then let it go #whereas Roxas doesn't do anything with the emotions until he/the situation self-destructs catastrophically so it ends up being nastier #but on the day-to-day?#yeah no Ventus is going to be the one reacting first #you can also exchange Sora for Ventus for some of these arguments #though I think he lands somewhere between Ventus and Roxas for short-temperedness #all this is more complicated than this reductive commentary of course #you have to take in how and in what orders the characters were introduced and marketed #the difficulty of getting the handheld games historically and the biases that set in before they were easily accessed #not to mention stock archetypes for fandom joke set-ups that then perpetuate the characterization...#like there's a LOT to how this came to be #but it Gets To Me sometimes #yza talks about a thing

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thursdaygirlmp3 · 5 months

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hey.... the time you spend with your friends will be a faint but cherished memory in ten years...and not all of us will be so lucky so as to get to reconnect with the people we love who drift out of our lives. if i have laughed with you you will always have a place in my heart

#why did this random aside at the top of a beopardy about TV shows get me so emotional #reposting from my twitter #anyway every moment i spend with my friends has claw marks in it. im never going to let go #but time and distance and circumstances will slowly keep us drifting apart #it's the human condition l #i only hope that i get to hold my friends again at some point in our short short lives #wouldn't it be great if we were all so lucky? to get to hold our childhood friends close once again #anyway #smosh #smosh pit #ian hecox #anthony padilla

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aalghul · 13 days

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I don’t think it makes sense to assume that Jason was mocking Mia’s past. At all. The thing that got jason painted as violent back in the 80s was his anger against rapists…how does that turn into mocking a victim? and that entire story was written by winick. Do we honestly think winick intended to communicate that? The same writer who made Jason’s first kill a man who was trafficking children? Who had Jason pause in his mission of madness to make sure those kids were found by the right people so they wouldn’t be in further danger?