#but like i said i'm busy too

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

#girl what are you doing...... #also just in general she did not deserve him honestly he was so good to her and for WHAT #just to be abandoned at peak devotion and guilt and hotness 🙄 #girl get OUT of my way i'm stronger than you #if she cared she could fix him or make him worse but i could love and support him no matter what 😌 #his muder is a part of him and its SEXY #robert chase #house md #malpractice md #i know the actors broke up irl or whatever but wtf..... #i should have ended my rewatch w their happy lil wedding at the end of s5 #s6 everything instantly goes to shit #and stays shitty #chase should be happy fr #he's supposed to turn into house basically but they should have made him the well adjusted version of house #like how nightwing is the well adjusted version of batman #anyway i have no real point here i just lowkey dont like cameron bc of this arc #also her obsession w house is so weird i wish they hadn't made that a thing #this has been a shitpost #anyway she left chase at the absolute peak of his sexiness wtf....... #anyway since this apparently needs to be said its not that deep this is a silly post if you send me hate messages i wont answer #i block and ignore anon hate bc i am too busy touching grass to be rude to strangers over a tv show

[royalarchivist]

Quackity: This project is not over and I’ll do everything necessary to strengthen it day by day. It is a process. Step by step, and it will take time. But I’m taking care of it. [...] I have a personal conviction with this project and I’ll keep working to improve it.

This video is also available on Quackity's VOD YouTube channel, and will include English translations very soon. Please take a moment to read through the transcript of his stream in the meantime; I think it will help a lot of people feel a little bit better.

Translations provided by @QuackitySubs.

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Quackity: I turned on stream to give an announcement regarding what’s happening with the QSMP structure. I know there’s people with many doubts about lots of things so I hope this helps you all understand a little bit more. I’ll be saying all of this in Spanish because I find it easier to express myself in it since it’s my first language. I wanted to make that clear.

I want to give, and explain, a little bit of the context of everything, ok? These past three weeks have been very turbulent regarding many aspects. The restructuring process that’s going on for the project has not been easy at all. Before I involved myself, and I said it before, there was people who damaged the project in very harmful ways, administrative and financially wise. I addressed this before. But I haven’t given any updates or anything of that nature because the only updates I’ve had are all inner and of legal matter. Therefore, there are no visible changes, but they’re important ones that need to be done.

I’m telling you: people with ill intent have been removed from the project, and I’m still in the process with people that have caused a lot of this harm since the beginning. That has been one of the main focuses of this restructuring that’s being carried out. Guys, I want to make something very clear: during this process, the actions that are being made have to be done with extreme care.

Recently, I’ve wanted to give many updates both inside and outside, but we’re facing a very critical issue that’s leaked information. I don’t know if the people who leaked information and announcements from the inside knew this was going on. But when I gave inside information and it leaked where it shouldn’t have; that affected the process that was needed to take care of many things. And the people who affected me administratively and financially, which I already talked about in a past stream, found out about matters that they shouldn’t have known about and used this information to twist it and affect the process. This complicated to a great extent many things. This is why I haven’t given any announcements. This is why I’m not able to talk freely as much I’d like to, and I’m not ignoring or evading but a very, very delicate process is being carried out.

Since the beginning it was known, within my involvement, that to achieve a complete change we had to start with the people who affected me, the project, and that were the cause of many issues that have been going on this whole year. With that being said, what happened was we started looking for a financial strategy for the project because the costs are very high. The project was going to shut down, I already talked about this. And as soon as I could define through different strategies, if there was a way to support the project, the next step was going to reestablish the many QSMP parts that did not longer exist. And I want to make something very clear; given the financial circumstances of the server, I did not want to make anybody a promise that not even I knew could be fulfilled. For this reason, this element was still present- the financial element, and I could not give any more inner updates because I was working on a very important part of the financial element of the server.

It is my understanding that the lack of communication has been notorious, and I reiterate, it’s not on purpose. There are many matters behind the scenes that I’ve been meaning to address, but I’ve had to be very, very careful. I understand if there are people who do not agree with the approach of the process, and if you don’t trust the project neither the process that’s being carried out, don’t worry. I don’t have an issue if you stop consuming the project. I understand that completely. I said I had a personal conviction with the project and it will stay that way.

I’ve been working arduously, and I’m going to do everything in my power for the project to continue but with the best conditions possible, and something I want to make very clear is that this process takes time. That is something I want to make very clear. This process takes time.

Guys, there’s people who have parted ways with the project and that will continue leaving on their own will and I understand that fully. I don’t have a problem with whoever took or will take this decision and I wish them the absolute best. In fact, I made an inner announcement where I let them know that a restructure would take time to be implemented. And there’s people that, for reasons, no longer want to be a part of this project, and I completely understand it because it’s not easy to be in adjustment stages, so I understand. Something I announced from the beginning was that my main goal would be that the project would go back to normal, but with the best conditions possible. This can be achieved following the right dynamics and the right setting for every person contributing to the project and this cannot be done within three weeks. This entire process continues.

Having given a little bit of context behind many aspects regarding the project, I ask of everyone that would like to stay, their utmost patient. I don’t want to make any promises and I don’t want to sugarcoat it. I want to make concrete actions. And that’s what I’ve been doing, whether you can see it or not, that’s what I’ve been doing step by step.

Guys, the changes that I’m doing are in the project’s best interest and I’ll say this openly: These changes are in the project’s best interest and for the people who love it, people who have been impacted by it, people who follow and love what this project means. These people are my motivation and the inspiration for which I started the project, for which I’m still doing the project and for which I’ll keep doing the QSMP. I am not doing this, and I want to make it very clear, I am not doing this for the people who, for a very long time, want to see the project torn down through efforts that show the complete opposite of having love for the project. Be it non-constructive comments, malicious actions, ill intentions wishes upon me, the team, and any community that consumes the QSMP, and the project in general. To me, that all of these ill-intentioned people stop consuming the project does not bother me in the slightest. I want that very, very clear.

Guys, let’s not forget about something very important: it is very difficult to build something but it very easy to destroy it. To everyone who would like to join us in this building process, you’re welcome. For those who seek to destroy it maliciously… this project, since the beginning, wasn’t and it is not made for you.

Lastly, I’d like to say that these past days I’ve been getting many calls, emails and messages from people all around the world expressing what QSMP means for them. This is why, and I’m saying it as it is, this project is not over and I’ll do everything necessary to strengthen it day by day. It is a process. Step by step, and it will take time. But I’m taking care of it.

I want to thank everyone for putting their trust in me beforehand, and I reiterate my personal commitment to strengthen this project. I hope this clarified some doubts and gave context that to many people it was necessary. I reiterate, I have a personal conviction with this project and I’ll keep working to improve it.

#QSMP #Quackity #March 21 2024 #Admingate #QSMP Admins #He said a lot of things I kinda already assumed #but still nice to hear it again #I feel bad for him though man :( #Like yeah I'm not super jazzed about some of the things that happened and I feel bad for the admins #but I feel bad for Quackity too. #also he should NOT have to explain why he's speaking Spanish #It's so rude and very privileged (and racist tbh) for people to complain that he's not doing it in English #Anyways back to business #There were a few errors in the transcript which I fixed #one case of a wrong word being used and a few words spelled incorrectly but that's all I changed #the rest is directly from QuackitySubs

[earlgodwin]

"Prince to you, not a brother."

#i'm going insaneeeee #cesare at first corrected alfonso when he called him 'brother' by clapping back with 'brother-in-law' #but when alfonso revealed that he's aware that cesare killed his //real// brother juan... he suddenly went all 'brother!!' at alfonso lol #the deliberate use of brother to manipulate him hoping to dissuade him from exposing the truth about juan's death. the strategy though!! #it's so funny help the borgia is truly a sitcom #that being said. i never liked how they juxtaposed juan with alfonso because alfonso lacked juan's charm wit and charisma #at least juan and cesare had great chemisty and dynamic thanks to david and francois! #like if anything...they both loved lucrezia in different ways and met their ends at the hands of cesare #alfonso loved lucrezia purely innocently and genuinely cared for her but he was too weak to be involved in the family's business #juan loved lu in his own twisted ways as he deeply loved her yet acted out of jealousy and pettiness she ended up hating him #juan borgia #cesare borgia #alfonso of aragon #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #francois arnaud #periodedits #tvedit #by jen

[pawsandsuch-office]

Where is teru. Show me the boy (p. Please 🥺)

I was met with a dilemma on this one. You see I spent the whole day thinking about a cat Teru so it would match mob and the other kitties. But then, my sibling made me see beyond that.

Teru as an alpaca!

But if you wanted a kitty, here's one too

#I'm sorry today was a busy day so I'll probably draw more of him later #i don't like this kitty teru too much tbh #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #Day 11 #ask #request #what's his kitten name going to be? Meowruki Hanyanzawa omgggg #i have a lamb plush named after Teru so he's mind shortcircuited and said why don't you make teru an alpaca? what a happy mistake #Count 15 #Count 16

[squishosaur]

hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this

#the reason rsa doesn't have overblots is because they understand the joy and whimsy of life and friendship btw #LIKE. why is there no school counselor?? do you know how much time & resources & effort & TRAUMA we could have saved the students & #school from if ANYONE had reached out to riddle and was like 'hey are you alright i heard xyz and i wanted to let you know...' ESPECIALLY #since TREY LITERALLY TELLS US 'oh well here's the lowdown on her trauma this is Probably what is causing this' #or if someone sat down to tell leona 'hey! i'm rooting for you in ur magift(?) game! you're my fav player!!' AND LET HIM FEEL NOTICED #or if someone approached azul as an Equal to try to stop his plans. as a friend even. BEYOND A BUSINESS TRANSACTION #or if ANYBODY BUT ESPECIALLY KALIM was like 'jamil i think you should follow your passions and do something you enjoy today!!' or AT LEAST #let him know he was appreciated as a person NOT JUST FOR HIS WORK #'i know you're doing a lot today but i just wanted to thank you for how much Effort you put into this and..' etc etc etc #ERM.. IF ANYONE TREATED VIL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AND NOT A CELEBRITY??? or even 'hey i loved you in this film i was wondering if we could #do a play together or something..!!' AND LET HER TRY A TYPE OF CHARACTER SHE NEVER GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE. and sing her praises. #if anyone reached out to idia beyond a 'hey the teacher said to come to class'/'get out of your bed and come to our housewarden meeting' #or even. IF ORTHO HIMSELF was like. 'you know it's not your fault... you didn't cause all of this. not really' OR SOMETHING #or if malleus ever got to experience a small firsthand loss AND WAS COMFORTED THROUGH IT. not just quick fix via magic. not replacing. just #GRIEVING SOMETHING??????? and wasn't feared by literally everyone #um. maybe the real twisted part is that all of this tragedy was easily preventable if we had a support system in place. #but idk. twst is a highschool. there's no support in real high school either. i'd probably overblot too if i could ajdjrjfinfdndjd #twst #chatter #LONG RAMBLE SORRY #yes overblots are essential to the plot. but also. do you know how frustrating it is watching the blot build up and sitting in silence. #I'M SORRY IK IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO A GUY I JUST MET I WOULD PROBABLY NOT NOTICE.. but of it was my Friend or Housewarden.. #I'D ASK BRO.... I'D ASK ... UGHHHHHUUUHHHH #not that anyone would notice if *I* was about to lose it tbh #speaks volumes about our society o think #OKAY NOW I'M DONE FOR REAL

[jimmyspades]

#his happy handsome smile :) #james spader #alan shore #boston legal #* #going to bed early tonight bc this week is so busy love u <3 #i'm going to a concert and one of the band's songs is such an alan song to me. do you think they'll play the alan song for me... 👉👈 #do you think alan likes concerts. in that one ep he mentioned radiohead which was so crazy I can't believe he knows what music is #I think he sort of implied he'd BEEN to a radiohead show wtf... #so much of alan we don't get to see... like when he said he has season tickets to bruins games. wtf you love hockey? who are you #and james loves live music SO much I think alan would have to too. I just realized this scene he's watching a band play LMAO #for once my tags are relevant to the actual post... in a roundabout way... #anyway. i'd go to concerts with him i actually can't even imagine what he'd be like but the thought makes me wanna cry. allie bear #and hockey games. hold his hand when i'm cold sharing popcorn and soft pretzels. he probably has a jersey... he gets so into it silly guy

[alexa-crowe]

ASTARION in BALDUR’S GATE 3 (2023) - [11/∞] (mod, mod)

#bg3edit #dailygaming #gamingedit #vgedit #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #bg3 #baldur's gate #bgiii #baldur's gate iii #mine #keep forgetting to link the mods .......... well!! #also: proof that tiktok really does rot your brain bc i keep talking to him for no reason #other than to trigger this specific set of expressions at this specific angle. because he looks at the “camera” #anyways anyways he's so beautiful and like i said the white eyelashes are downright distracting like i can't even look at the rest of him #i'm too busy gazing into his doe eyes

[front-facing-pokemon]

#grotle #this is the one i forgot was not the final evolution of turtwig. it's the mid-evo. and by this point i'm already uninterested in using them #i dunnoooo it's just not very cute i guess. i usually want my pokémon to remain visually appealing. that's usually how i pick pokémon #favorites and teams and whatever. even though i guess now that i'm sorta reconsidering… grotle is pretty cool. plus torterra #why did i not like these guys as a kid?? hold on. i think i'm reevaluating my opinions. i might actually like them now #and i was just too busy assuming i had the same opinions that i did as a kid. no yeah grotle and torterra are cool. i'm keeping it #never mind fuck everything i just said about them not being cute. good pokémon. i'm picking turtwig in my next gen 4 playthru #if i end up ever doing one

[cozylittleartblog]

I want to buy a sticker from your shop, but shipping (to Canada) is down as $22 before tax. May I ask why it costs so much to ship a single sticker? Is it Etsy being weird, or does it really cost that much to send an envelope over the border?

I'm not trying to be snarky or passive aggressive or anything, I'm genuinely just kind of befuddled atm.

A fair question honestly! USPS sets the rates for international shipping, and shipping to canada really is about that expensive 😭 I considered sending stickers via envelopes, but 1. if I send them with a stamp (less than $2) they don't have tracking, and etsy Does Not Like That. I gotta send packages with shipping to qualify for star seller, plus it covers your ass in case USPS loses it. and 2. apparently it's illegal to send merchandise internationally in envelopes!! so sadly we're all stuck dealing with the super crazy international rates. I don't like it either because as someone who deals in trinkets, people generally do not want to pay $16 for a charm that costs $12, and they especially don't want to pay that for a sticker that costs $4... I would ABSOLUTELY have way more international sales if USPS wasn't fucking us with the prices but it's out of my control dssdjkfjksdf

I give this advice a lot, but if you don't want to pay international shipping (or just live in a country I don't ship to myself), you can borrow the address of a friend that lives in the states and they can forward it to you! I don't actually know if this is cheaper, but some people have said it is. it's def cheaper for stickers though if your friend uses a stamp!

TL;DR yeah etsy and USPS are Both Weird, sorry ; - ; i assure you i hate it even More than you do lmao

#etsy #not art #ask #anonymous #anon #i think i actually did have like three canadian sticker orders last week all in the same day #one of them ordered multiple stickers but two were just. One. and i'm like. you guys are either rich or crazy but either way i respect it #even US shipping is getting more and more expensive. five years ago i'd pay 2.80 to ship a 1 oz first class package #now its almost $4. even just over $4 if i ship to like California or something! #i'm gonna put a general PSA here to please not be too upset with small businesses' shipping rates even in the US #not to imply anon is or that anybody has said anything! but i do see like tiktoks and social media comments #on Other People's Pages saying like OMG $5 SHIPPING??? INSANE I'M NOT PAYING THAT #amazon has spoiled you guys sorry. shipping isn't free. not only do i have to pay for the shipping label #i have to pay for my bubble mailers. my envelopes. the thermal labels i print on. i recycle my bubble wrap at least but i have to pay #for materials as well. so this seems like a good place to mention it #frankly i shouldn't even have the stupid 'free shipping over $35' thing because again shipping is like $4 give or take 30c by location #but etsy makes me and it Does bring in sales so i'll pretend it balances out

[binah-beloved]

i was falling asleep, and then i thought about how Binah in LoR was probably becoming increasingly lonely after her time in Lob Corp, which is why she was trying so hard to have teatime with the other librarians and now i am 100% awake

#project moon #lobotomy corporation #library of ruina #binah #binah lobcorp #binah library of ruina #well i'm definitely not tired anymore #this thought is giving me too many ideas #like if you're assigned to her floor and maybe were the first person to attend teatime #because she extends the offer to her assistant librarians i said it so it's true #would love to write or draw this weekend but i'm busy #so i'll let this marinate here

[anonymous-gambito]

Since I always like to throw my interests together– the thing about Zuko is that the fandom thinks he's a Miki when he's really more of a Saionji

#i wonder if this kind of atla fan watched Utena they'd be calling Miki an awkward turtleduck or some shit tho #bc ngl i think that'd ruin my day #unless they said it to his face #that'd be kind of funny #i think hed feel like that should be a blow to his self esteem but would be too busy being confused by wtf a turtleduck is to really feel i #if someone called nanami that though she'd be Devastated #don't do that #avatar the last airbender #revolutionary girl utena #zuko #saionji kyouichi #miki kaoru #atla shitpost #utena shitpost #atla #shoujo kakumei utena #btw this is a joke and not serious character analysis #I'm only rating this on the basis of ''type of cringefail'' #in which zuko is way closer to saionji #ambi utena post

[oldmisfortune]

Finally got to finishing the comic idea that's been haunting me lately ;; i got super lazy with some of the poses and just copy-pasted them xD i hope this amuses people as much as it amused me :)

This is happening in my personal alternative ANE where Ez got dragged back to the guard and Nevra isn't a stuck up at first anymore and oh look! My oc is also there!! (I haven't decided on a name yet ;;;;;;)

#if you want me to drop info on the AU or oc hmu #i can't wait to scream about it :)))) #my art #fan comic #eldarya #ezarel #eldarya oc #this comic took so so long ngl #maybe cuz I'm very busy and don't have time to draw but anyways #i also made a ref sheet for my oc and Ezarel I'll drop it later so you can get a visual for the color #also!!! gave Ewelein a nurse uniform because i REFUSE to draw that complicated outfit to save my life #and also even if she's hot af and deserve to have her titis out on display like that I would rather she cover up when she works for hygiene #purposes #tumblr really said ur tag too long stfu #also would like to add ewe is 100% more chaotic in my head and I will act accordingly #she would tease my poor oc because funnies #sometimes funnies>>>> character consistency I'm deeply sorry

[taruruchi]

it just clicked into my brain today bc sometimes i forgot you're also a stay LMAOOOOOOO I CANT USE MY BRAIN ANYMORE

HAJSNKFMSF I mean idt I ever explicitly said it so 😭 But yeah, all that stuff from last year complaining about how my sister was trying to get me to know stray kids...... Yeah. Yeah that worked a bit too well

#But I think I remember you mentioning you were also into them ?? #If you were... I'm curious who your bias was if you had one 👁️👁️ #Way back when my sister was really new to skz she wasn't sure who hers was yet and one of my friends said “she seems like a seungmin or i.n” #That aged REALLY well. Jeongin is her ult now and seungmin is her bias wrecker 😭 #And I'm still baffled by the fact that SHE WAS SO RIGHT ABOUT WHO MY BIAS WOULD BE #HOW DID SHE DO THAT #EVEN I DIDN'T THINK IT AT FIRST #If I ever need someone to set me up with dates ik who to turn to /j (too busy being an academic weapon for dates 💪) #<- not even studying rn #☆ inside taruchi's ask box 💌 #☆ a friend!! sol 🕯️

[backpackingspace]

Okay but yin yu needs a raise this yin yu is overworked that. Where is the Ling wen needs a raise content

#Tgcf #Yin yu #ling wen #I do love the idea that yin yu has a great employment plan he's just long suffering and #If he's too busy working than he doesn't need to feel things ever #Obviously hua cheng probably bullied him and definitely made him transcribe his diary bc #“What if his highness wants to read it one day yin yu this is important yin yu” #But he also seems like the person who understands very well that money talks #And that an employee who is comfortable is much less likely to betray you #Meanwhile Ling wen is dealing with some bullshit 24/7 #She's not being paid half the other gods never wrote out reports everyone is sexist she hasn't slept in 3 years #Jun wu calls her into his office twice a day to make her scribe his evil plans (tm) #She's tried she's overworked literally xie lian is the only who's ever said thank you to her ever #Yin yu gets invited to the overworked employees club for drinks (idk who else would be there besides Ling wen but let's imagine that there #Everybody complaining/screaming/wishing for death bc they're so tired #Yin yu: Oh I think there's been a mistake I actually have great benefits #Ling wen considers homicide and defecting right there and then #Idk why I'm trying to push the Ling wen yin yu friends agenda but here we are

[bibiana112]

Kinda weird question- do you have any links to people talking about Mira from ZTD and ableist stereotypes? I mentioned that I was uncomfortable with her portrayal but kinda fumbled it and made some other ND people in chat uncomfortable. I searched for various keyword combinations but most of what I'm finding is like "and not to mention the ableism with Mira" and doesn't elaborate lol.

Not weird at all! And uh, you see, there's a recent post I made where what I complain about is the very fact I've never seen anyone post too in-depth about her at all, I'd love to see posts that do elaborate on that but I do not have any that I know of right now, sorry :/ hopefully someone else who sees this can point to one? Okay!! After some tag searches I have found exactly one post who kind of gets into it I like this take still would love to see. more than just one but hooray

And like though I complain I couldn't elaborate much on it myself I don't think, I believe most of the posts people make about Saito from aitsf would apply since it's a different uchikoshi take on the very same trope of "emotionless characters who cannot function without killing others" I guess he's a worse portrayal though since she's at least not stated to get reward brain chemicals when killing people and I guess her case also has the added layer of "femme fatale" to it? Which either makes it less bad or worse depending on where you approach it from As I said I am not doing a good job of being coherent on this oh and also there's her being "redeemed" and "cured" in the epilogue which in on itself is kinda not great to imply it just goes away like that and honestly I personally don't even buy it I think she'd just be like oh okay Akane over here has like a thousand reasons to hate me after all that oh and what's that she's the leader of a super wealthy underground organization who's organized one of these death traps before yeah no I'm better off going to prison I'll be fine there lmao bye

But I'll say as an autistic person with relatively low empathy I usually see a character who just doesn't understand other people's feelings and wants to feel them too and is just trying to survive despite getting no help and I just kinda go hm. yeah. shout-out to roxas kingdom hearts shout out to mary from ib shout out that's why I started hyperfixating on media art helps me with understanding others a great lot and Mira is just in a story too badly executed for me to care or even begin to wrap my head around tbh like god she's so fucking terribly used as a plot device in every conceivable way that it makes it difficult to see past it and into what she could possibly be if it weren't for the stereotype of equalling low empathy with no compassion what's with her killing off screen in ways that wildly deviate from her stated m.o? why or how was she even in cahoots with Zero why was that a thing? Honestly her dynamic with Sean could have been better fleshed out could have done something interesting about robot child and his aspd big sis but we just kind of don't get any attention brought to the subject of emotions and the authenticity there of except for the "reveal"...

YOU KNOW WHAT that's probably one huge reason it feels so fucked up actually! Like the whole fucking game is written so you could experience it in whatever order you want and therefore Mira being a serial killer at all is something that though not very well hidden it also cannot be a topic of discussion or explored Ever ever because the player may not have seen the fragment where that is revealed yet- problem being the menu design of that game sucks so bad and practically everyone gravitates towards the same few more interesting looking thumbnails first and then the rest is kinda just there, I mean that is part of the reason A Lot of characters feel half-baked I think but also I think it definitely does impact perception of her character specifically probably The Most and then there's just the general not being given nuance not being able to see the minutiae of how that disorder manifests in her character aside from the killings about how she acts aside from being overly flirty trying to lure in Eric but that affects pretty much all of the new cast we don't have last names and in her case we barely have any backstory at all like Saito is a harmful stereotype sure but we get So Much Context for him that people still love talking about him and delving into different aspects of his life since we have that very well telegraphed in the narrative meanwhile for Mira all we can do is fill in the blanks guesswork that only highlights the worst aspects of the surface level portrayal we got and ultimately that people just don't care enough to dissect because there isn't much there character wise once you remove it

#oh to be miraposting on a sunday evening instead of catching up on schoolwork #I love how you can see the exact moment while writing this that I had a brain blast akdhks #me: sorry I can't elaborate also me: types out. three paragraphs #also if you're comfortable with that I'm curious what you could have possibly said that it'd be considered fumbling #dms are open if you send it into an ask I'll answer privately and again only if you want to share #cause like I want to see different perspectives on this so bad even if they're not eloquent #especially since it's not really something that ever got to me much? but that I can kinda see why it'd be upsetting #my suspension of disbelief is just too tanked for it to get an emotional reaction of me especially with the rest of the cast for contrast #I'm too busy being annoyed at everyone else's portrayal in that game not to mention idk it feels like #like schlocky hollywood no thoughts character archetype go brr type ableism #not the really insidious woven into the narrative stuff that I usually want to rant about cough cough youtube video I'll probably never mak #like pretty sure it's stated somewhere that the idea for her character was uchikoshi going hm. there's been femme fatales in these games #but none of them have been Really “Fatale” you know? he literally just wanted the big booba character to also be the stabby character #zero escape #ztd #mira ztd #if this should be under a readmore. let me know #zero escape spoilers

[introspectivememories]

literally can't stop thinking about mafia!bernard and police informant!tim

it got too long for the tags

bear's in the mafia for whatever reason

and tim is part of a police team called idfk the bats

anyway bear's mafia is getting too big and they need sm1 on the inside. enter tim.

tim is a police legacy. his dad was a policeman and so was his father's father and on it goes

and he might've made it onto captain wayne's team but he's desperate to prove to the force that he's not a fuckin nepo baby

so he takes the job. enter bernard who only meets tim after he's been on the mission for a year now.

bear quickly takes a liking to this new recruit who's efficient and smart and has the tiniest waist he's ever seen.

and tim goes along with this liking cause hey information from the top will be more valuable right?

and they fall into this fuckbuddies relationship that quickly becomes way more. because like fuck bear looks at tim like he's worth smth

like he's more than what his parents have set out for him. like he's somebody. like he loves tim for tim. and not for what tim can do for him.

and fuck he loves bear and his smiles. the way his eyes crinkle and his gums show. he loves the way bear looks with a gun in his hands and he knows that's fucked up but the first time he saw bear with a gun in his hands and blood splattered across his face he had to actively stop himself from jumping bear in front of the mafia. and no matter how rough bear is when he's on the field he always caresses tim's cheeks with a softness tim didn't know was possible

and fuck his dick is massive and it's really not helping tim's feelings. and he knows he's compromised and fuck cpt. wayne probs knows too

but shit bear holds him like he's precious. bear looks at him like he loves him. bear twines their bodies together like he'll die if they part

bear whispers sweet nothings into his ears as they fall asleep and it'll break him when he has to give bear up but he's always been selfish

he'll keep this for as long as he can. (please lord let him have this.)

and on bear's end he really only becomes interested in this new recruit when he watches the boy deliver 10 backhanded compliments in a row

and nobody pick up on it. it takes 3 months before bear figures out that tim's a spy and still he keeps seeing him

bc it doesn't matter that tim'll be his downfall. it doesnt matter that tim doesnt really love him or care about him. that it's only a mission for tim bc tim is the best thing bear's life.

he is the sun to bear's moon. the first word on his lips when he wakes up and the last when he goes to sleep.

and he loves every version of tim -- when he's caustic and biting, when he's blissed out in bed covered in the marks bernard left, when he's laughing, when he's crying

every version on tim is a version he likes. and one of these days, his pretty bird is going to have to leave their nest but at least bear can hold tim until then

at least bear can press promises into his thighs. at least he can whisper his devotion into the crook of tim's neck. at least he can leave marks on tim -- lovebites on his neck, handprints on his thighs and hips -- a tapestry that says "i was here. and i loved him. i love him and i am here."

but until that day comes, bear will work on quitting smoking and turning his favorite safehouse into a home for them.

(please lord, just let him have this. just let him have tim.)

#honestly if i was to sum up this au in one sentence it'd be #'dick so good you'd let them commit war crimes' #he quits smoking cause his baby has no spleen. tim nearly cries when he hears that #bear always kisses tim before he leaves in 3s. one to the forehead. one to both cheeks. and one to his lips. #the first time tim says 'welcome home!' to bear he has to take 3 business days to recover #the first time bear comes over to money-laundering coffee shop front tim's been assigned to with a bouquet of flowers tim spends the rest #week giggling to himself. also tim and bear get relentlessly teased by their coworkers. #and when all is said and done and the mission comes to an end and tim has to arrest bear he does it with a tremble in his hands and tears #in his eyes. and bear's eyes are so sad almost mournful with the way they look at him in his police uniform #'hey pretty baby. here to lock me up at last?' bear asks #'you knew?' tim whispers. bear nods slowly like doing it any faster will spook tim off. the hand holding his gun trembles. #'then why-' #'why do you think tim?' bear responds quietly 'i love you.' #tim chokes on his sob. 'i did too y'know. i do too.' #bear smiles sadly 'but the job comes first right?' #and tim has nothing to say to that. tim loves bear and bear loves tim and it's not enough. maybe it was never enough. #anyway #how yall doin #i'm so normal about them i swear #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #timber #dc