#but like that shit hits different that shit kills

[geraskierfanficprompts]

Prompt 15

Jaskier realizes that when Geralt comes back from a hunt, pent up, eyes black, still snarling and panting like a beast, the only thing that helps is cuddling him. He hugs him, and runs his hands through Geralt's hair, and gently washes him with a rag and hushes words into his ear, and it helps bring Geralt back down. Sometimes he wakes up to Geralt coming back from a late-night hunt and immediately grabbing Jaskier's waist and yoINking him into Geralt's bedroll so they can snuggle. It's cute. And Jaskier certainly has no complaints.

Jaskier tries to ask him about it one time, but all it earns him is a "Shut up, Bard." and Geralt acting weird the rest of the day. Maybe he's embarrassed? Jaskier doesn't know why. He has no idea what the potions must feel like to Geralt, perhaps he truly needs the warmth and mass of a person in order to not want to rip his own hair out or scratch off his own skin or something else? So he's just fine with hugging his beefcake of a bestie (of whom he may be completely head over heels in love with) if it means keeping some awful ailment at bay. And he believes this for at least a decade, before he meets Geralt's brothers. Don't get him wrong, they're lovely people! But one day, an exceptionally difficult hunt calls for all three of them to go together and leave Jaskier at camp. Jaskier is a bit concerned over how he'll comfort all three of them at once, but when they come back, he finds that Geralt is suddenly ignoring him, and Lambert and Eskel are acting normal, if not just very exhausted. Jaskier pulls Lambert aside and asks him why they're not itching to hug him, and Lambert is very confused. Jaskier explains that usually Geralt needs to hold him in order to deal with the after-effects of his potions. Lambert explains that's not a normal witcher thing, and that Geralt probably just likes him, but he explains it in his own lovely lambert-y way, meaning it's mostly just laughing hysterically at his big brother catching feelings for some bratty noisemaker in silk (He likes Jaskier! It's just... Not what he saw Geralt going for.) Jaskier tries to talk to Geralt about it, but Geralt stops him from even walking close to him, and walks farther off as extra salt in the wound. It's like he can't even bear to be around Jaskier. It hurts a bit. Jaskier asks Eskel if Geralt took different potions or has a toxin of some sort i him that makes him behave like this instead of the normal, and then explains everything Lambert told him. Eskel agrees that it sounds like him just being comforted by the feeling of his mate safe and sound next to him, and that they've never seen Geralt like that. Jaskier is confused, because surely Geralt doesn't feel the same way, right? sURPRISE SECOND ATTACK! THE MONSTER RETURNS! OH NOOOOO Anyways, It slashes the shit out of Jaskier's arm, or perhaps chest, I don't know, whichever wound strikes your fancy, and the witchers go after it, but as soon as the beast is killed, Geralt rushes to Jaskier, and holds him close. The others try to walk over to help patch Jaskier up only to get growled at by their own brother. So now Lambert and Eskel are playing rock paper scissors on the ground over who REALLY got the final hit on the beast while Geralt sits 12 feet away from them, mending his bard. He growls at them if they look at Jaskier and him too long. A while later, he's off the high of the potions and adrenaline combined, and the witchers sure are going to have a field day lovingly making fun of their brother over this. But first, Jaskier and Geralt need to have a heartfelt talk. ♡!Optional addons!♡

• Big bonus points for a sequel or additional chapter of Lambert starting to act the same way over Aiden (or other ship of your choice, but Lambert and Aiden are my bread and butter lol)

#fanfiction prompts #geralt x jaskier #geralt x dandelion #geraskier #witcher fanfiction #the witcher #geralt loves his bard! #writing prompts #requited unrequited love #friends to lovers #Witcher Cuteagens (Cute mutagens) #this is a long one #story prompts #writing ideas #plot bunny

[cat-mentality]

Love doomed Team Soulfire.

Because they all love so very deeply don't they? They love their children, they love their friends, they love their homes, they love the little peace they have found in the Island.

They love so deeply that they just want to go home.

But love can be a curse.

Love can lead to nothing but pain and disaster when that love blinds you.

The Entity says that their children's lives are at stake, that they must win if they ever want to see them again, that there is a cursed team and they cannot lose, that their lose is death to their children. And Team Blue cannot risk it, they cannot allow themselves to let their children be put at risk in case they are the cursed them.

For love, they would do anything.

And that was exactly what they did. When other's are getting their resources, when they are thinking about what to do, how to proceed, Team Soulfire already knew, they knew they would do anything for their children, they would kill and they would die.

Surely everyone else was on the same page wasn't them? Their deaths meant nothing as long as their children could be saved.

Love blinded Team Soulfire.

Love blinded them to the pain they inflicted on others. Made them unable to realize exactly what they are doing the moment they spilled first blood, because that? That was the moment Purgatory began.

Not when they landed on the desolate Island, not when they were separeted on teams, not when their children's lives were considered a prize in a twisted game.

That first death? That started Purgaroty. Because what Team Blue didn't realize was that not everyone else was blinded by love as much as they were, that for others killing wasn't their first goal, that for a brief moment people thought they could fight against the system, that they could try in other ways.

But after that? Oh no, there was no turning back from that.

They didn't realize that when you kill someone over and over and over and over again, without mercy, without pause, without thinking about the sort of pain you are inflicting on them, it doesn't matter why you are doing it. They wouldn't look at you and see a friend, they wouldn't see a person who just wants to go home, who just wants to end this hell.

They will see a murderer.

They will see someone who sees their suffering as a means of gaining points, they will see someone who doesn't care about anyone else.

They will only see betrayal.

They will only see a enemy.

You cannot burn your bridges and expect to find a way home. You cannot stab the people around you, even if you do it for love, even if you believe yourself to be doing it for good reasons, and expect them to open your arms to you when you need it.

Team Soulfire loves. They love so deeply, so intensely, so very much.

And their love doomed them to be hated. To be viewed as the ones willing to do anything, to kill and betray and destroy anything the others have. Their love blinded them to the suffering they inflicted upon the others.

And the most painful thing?

Team Soulfire does not realize others are not playing the game as they are. That when they try to even the scoreboard, when they try to make things "fair" they are just feeding an uncontrollable fire, they are just scattering the ashes even further, they are hugging the broken pieces of what once was and they don't realize that the blood coating their hands.

Oh my darlings, how they put so much faith in a verbal agreement about the safety of the egg statues. How they love the children so much that they could not imagine that others wouldn't see those stones the same way they did, that they wouldn't be petrified that there was the slight chance that hurting the statue could hurt their children, how they believed that people would feel the same, would respect it as much as they did.

But of course they didn't. Because Team Bolas Rojas has been stabbed in the back from all the sides multiple times, they could not phantom the idea of trusting the people who have hunted them for sport, who have killed them for points in their own home, who have done nothing but hurt and betray them, they don't look at Team Soulfire and see friends just trying to go home, trying to protect their loved ones, they just see the people who hurt them multiple times.

And Team Green Ninjas agreed to not kill the statues, they truly had never any intention of finishing the job, but at no point their ever promised they wouldn't try to win, because at the end of the day they too worry so fucking much they couldn't imagine the possibility of not trying to win to save their children.

So that leaves Team Soulfire isolated, burned by love, forever to be distrusted and hated and avoided because of the actions they took in day one, because they believed that anything done in Purgatory was done for love and would be forgiven because they all have the same goal, they all want the same thing, because they believed people would understand their motivations.

And they did! They do!

It just doesn't matter.

Because the hurt they caused is too deep to be soothed by that.

For love, they have caused what seems like irreparable amounts of pain.

For love, they doomed themselves to be the villains in the eyes of everyone they know.

#listen im not going to point fingers in the main post but like #im a firm believer that bbh is the reason team blue is fucked #like sorry if you have mister 'i will kill everyone for the sake of the eggs and be cruel about it i don't give a fuck' on your team #ofc people are going to want to deck your ass when they see you #because he is part of your team so the logical thinking is that you agree with him when he is just hurting you and your friends #and aint nobody just going to accept that #mf burned his bridges and his team's bridges all in one that is a special talent if i say so myself #i think i will do team green in a different post hang on #qsmp purgatory #qsmp analysis #team soulfire #qsmp #what hits me the most about team soulfire is that watching them is like seeing traumatized people trying their best #but for others povs? they are just a bunch of motherfuckers and i would deck them in the face without hesitation #because they don't mean to but they were so very cruel on the first day #and now no one is willing to offer them a hand when they need the most #doomed themselves trying to do the right thing #i hope things get worse for them #disproportional consequences and all that shit #you started something you could never predict and now it's destroying you and everything you ever loved vibes

[chibi-scone]

It’s been said before and the fact that I’m an Izzy simp aside like having a character who survives the most certain death shit ever (shooting himself in the head at point blank) and literally being nicknamed by another character “indestructible” and then become a symbol of protection for a whole group of people die from a fucking bullet to the side that was established in universe to have no vital organs in order to “atone for his sins” or however you wanna spin it and have him say he wants to go after (see point one) literally trying to kill himself in the show that is literally about growth and betterment of the self in a cruel world that wants you dead and where the main (and mostly queer) characters survive the most batshit insane injuries is like COSMICALLY stupid writing like I don’t even understand how you get there and the fact that it’s supposed to be a kind/ happy/meaningful ending is beyond me

#and Izzy’s whole speech to Ricky before that could be interpreted as what like #being about even if you kill and try to eradicate queer people we’ll always be here #and then have RICKY deal the killing blow ???? #wahhhh it’s symbolic #ok it would’ve been more symbolic to have the fucking queer character live like idc you’re all stupid god bless #ofmd critical #tbd #maybe #oh and then I mean not even talking about how it’s supposedly all good #because the main gays who had borderline no redeeming qualities this season had their picket fence ending #literally what’s the point of having Ed come back from the dead #so he can learn that death is not the answer and that there’s love and betterment for him #and have that whole scene with Jim and Archie where they refuse to kill one another because there’s more to life than the cards #they’ve been dealt and they can be the difference #JUST TO HAVE THAT ENDING #my god I just #sorry if you guys are sick of me ranting about ofmd like 5 months after the shit show supreme #but these are like all thoughts that I’ve just had in my head for months but tried to forget #and now they’re just spilling out like idc anymore #ppl have made so many good posts that all say what I think but ig I still need to rant myself jvhsjnv #how long can your neck be for it to allow you to bury your head so deep in the sand #where you truly believe this is good writing idk #side note but gifs of cats randomly blowing up are my favourites #‘Izzy bettered himself before dying so it’s aaaallll good’ hits you hits you #stupid ass shit argument but also that was across maybe a week and dude was piss drunk dissociative half the time

[possiblytracker]

academia win(?)! this weasel turned in their dissertation

#i feel like ive been hit over the head with a brick repeatedly so this is easier and funnier than #reassuring several different people im alive one by one while im still fucked up khgSDK. hi tho #sorry to all of my friends i will individually apologise for evaporating into a fine mist later when my braincells regenerate #shaking and sobbing and foaming at the mouth i dont want to look at this ever again but i have to make a presentation on it #and talk abt it to an audience next week #give it a 60% chance the supervisor asks me a question and something within me snaps and i just start biting/j #im happy with most of how it came out tho. most of it #my procedure and study was so so shit my only saving grace is that i could fill out an entire discussion section with how much #shit i had to criticise and pick apart down to the goddamn seams. #by the end i wasnt even sure if i studied what i claimed to be studying the entire time but thats whatever i still get marks for saying tha #anyway im running on 4 hours sleep and a fistful of cereal and have to brave public transport later #and family stuff. its my sisters birthday so i gotta go home. which might also kill me #but i will be back on social media and talking when i feel less like a corpse i prommy 👍

[bitchfitch]

somebody shoot me with a gun until I am dead before I write the first chapter of that pirate thing for like. Genuinely the eighth or ninth time.

#i have versions i like the vibes of #i have versions i like the pacing of #i have versions i like the writing of #i have not a single one that manages to hit even 2 out of those 3 criteria #Like. I think part of the issue is the setting is dreamy its soft and floaty and things arnt Right #but the first thing that happens is a guy loudly boasting about how much hes going to enjoy sexually assaulting his deuteragonist #hes lying. but Toi'uhla doesn't know that. The people ze is choosing to sacrifice zerself for dont know that. #the child whos experiencing the fear of death for the first time doesn't know hes bluffing either. #and the entire time theyre on a boat thats floating in empty nothing in a universe that has no stars left. #So much of making a tangible Threat like that hit is slowing for a moment and describing the ugly details of like #existing. as a physical person in a physical world. This horrible thing is happening and while it does the wind is messing up your hair #That sort of thing. #But there is no wind. there is no water. or rain. Toi'uhla's sense of smell is almost non existent. so ze cant think about the body oder #of that many people in that close of quarters. #And all while this is happening. i have to set up that these are two alien species with distinct cultures and Very different perspectives #on what is happening. Lordakai Senior is the one who lead the raid that killed Toi'uhla's sire and zer siblings. #But ze only knows the name Lordakai. bc for Zer it is completely reasonable to assume that the two Lordakai's are the same guy #Koita are long lived. Toi'uhla has never had reason to learn how to tell how old they are #Lordakai jr is absolutely riding on his dads name. but he doesn't know his dad was a privateer #So like. Theres a lot of shit happening in a weird setting #With two characters that need to Mesh while both putting up complete fronts. #and it needs to set up the stakes and themes for the rest of the damn story. #qnd its just a lot man. I love this project. i love these characters. but there's so many moving pieces bc theres had to be to make enough #Stuff to fill out the long spaces where they're just. on a pirate ship. being bored. #im probably over thinking this #blehgh

[arundolyn]

hot(?) guilty gear take:

danger time is fun and not nearly as bad a mechanic as some people like to claim. they're just salty when they lose to it

#crow.txt #like its a really hype mechanic. its fun to watch and tbh never bugged me that much to experience #granted i didnt go to tourneys ever but like #idk. both opponents are given the same things. is it kinda a reaction time game? certainly. but thats like all of fighting games #idk why its so Irredeemably Awful to a lot of players who probably never even play in tourneys they just like regurgitating the same things #repeatedly forever bc its the internet and predominantly reddit #even if the argument is that some matchups are skewed unfairly (like slayer pilebunkering repeatedly) i mean.... yeah? thats like #the fucking crux of fighting games. its not specific to danger time. you can make that argument about literally anything #you could make that argument about certain overdrive mechanics in blazblue #i can see how it would be frustrating in a tourney but if youre getting THAT big mad about losing this specific way then.. man idk #is it that different than being beaten normally. not really #the real unspoken bullshit mechanic is being able to instant kill functionally whenever you want. THATS the tourney killer #its unrealistic in the vast majority of scenarios but like... at least with like every other game. blazblue and unib #you have to EARN it at least a little. yeah the consequences of whiffing are major but also with stun in xrd it can be easier to land #even when someone is a huge dick about astralling me in blazblue i dont get nearly as tilted about it as i would #at getting hit by a bs instant kill setup like first round in xrd. are you kidding me. holy shit #at least astrals have to be match point. you literally Do have to earn it. unib you yourself have to be half dead rather than the opponent #being able to instant kill just Whenever feels so much cheaper #getting off my soapbox for an opinion nobody asked for. even tho strive damage is already crazy insane #danger time was a fun mechanic and idk a danger time mod might be funny. never seen anything quite like it but thats true of a lot of gg #only guy on earth who misses danger time apparently

[every-captain]

Cannot stop thinking about Cash. He's so stupid. ❤️❤️❤️ Not a single thought in his brain at any given time. ❤️❤️❤️ Dumbass king of clubs. ♧ King of hitting shit with a baseball bat and forgetting he has spells. King of my heart.

#to be fair it is me that forgets he has spells but mostly because his primary motivations are hit shit and kill this one guy #emotional connection???? cant have it we are emotionally stunted like men #i am also trying to play him as perpetually overwhelmed because he has people in his head pulling him in several different directions #i think it kind of manifests as just... hes so stupid ❤️❤️❤️ #i love him #fave dnd character ive had in a long time #cash

[rayvern-sheep]

Whenever i see “pro-ship” or “anti” i have this funny thing where i instinctively unfollow… its weird…

I could have followed you for years but as soon as you share some post abt how “kids these days don’t like all my dark sexual fantasies, they must be fascists” I’m gone. I’ve disappeared to another fucking dimension to escape the black hole in your skull where your brain was supposed to be.

#bro please… everyone thinks those things mean different things #its gotten to a point where pro-ship can mean ‘fiction and reality are completely seperate entities and do not affect each other therefore- #i can draw as much children having sex as i want and youre all puritanical baby fascists for not liking me doing this’ #or it can just mean ‘i think hannigram is okay to ship plz dont harrass me’ #which is it???? #if i have to see the word ‘puriteen’ one more fucking time im gonna throw myself into a volcano #shut up ray #there a kinks that im not into that idc abt #just a ‘you do you’ kinda thing #there are kinks that i find gross but do not have a moral issue w/ #then there is literal child porn… my guy… i didnt know it was weird to find that shit morally reprehensible..? #no i dont believe those ppl just be harrassed or killed jfc.. but wtf are they posting that shit for??? #delete later #if i hit 30 and start whining abt teens not being into the same sex things as me and finding it gross #just shoot me. put me down. its over #teens being weirded put abt adult sex stuff is normal. just leave them alone to grow up instead of calling them names lmao

[dilfkuza]

so upset i couldn't grab any screencaps of the final chapter there's so much that makes me wanna go insane. Kiryu visualising Oda and Tachibana's final moments when he's seconds away from crossing the line he drew and killing Shibusawa, the war path he's raged to make it up to Tachibana for not being able to protect him.... everything in him compounds into a rage he can't contain on his own. meanwhile Majima holds himself back from killing time and time again. he controls himself from killing Lao Gui or Dojima, from fighting against Sagawa, from getting revenge for everything that happened to him in the Hole and everything he had to put up with afterwards. presenting himself as a Mad Dog while having incredible self control, meanwhile the Dragon of Dojima exists in relative peace until angered.... im going to rip my hair out y0 really said lets give them the mirror images treatment. those motherfuckers

#dont get me wrong ive played y0 through before but oh my GOD does it still hit different every single time. #i catch more details of these men everytime i see it and lose more of my ability to be normal about media with it. #not to mention i wanted a pic of Majima's lil smile at Sagawa near the end when hes calling him ugly!!! UGH #i need to rewatch the scene of Kiryu losing his shit too. it was ao fucking visceral seeing him scream with Tachibana in his arms #and so close to killing Shibusawa with his bare hands. oh my god we really dont talk enough about how violent Kiryu can be when pushed #like yeah haha breaking bones. daigo with a gun. majima the mad dog. taiga '18 guys' saejima. like. #okay but what about kiryu 'grate your face on the pavement'. kiryu 'i should kill you to make up for the deaths you caused'. #Kiryu's that meme of killing everyone in the room and then himself if his loved one waa hurt but like. actually. #bulletin board #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #tachibana tetsu

[keirankane]

Yugi must have some serious neck muscle carrying that hair and a big ass piece of gold around

#he has no muscle in his body aside from his neck #he’s so out of shape but could kill you with his neck like a giraffe #he just hits shit with it #yugioh #ygo #yugioh dm #yugioh anime #yugioh manga #yugioh s0 #yugi mutou #yugi moto #yugioh dsod #yugi mutoh #yugi muto #why is there so many different spellings of his name

[dirt-str1der]

Self shipping is always the morally correct thing to do

#Listen to my problems #sometimes self shipping includes the slow and painful process of getting killed over amd over by your f/o thats okay youll get him #eventually. orrr herrrrr (motivational speaker voice). #let me think hm theres been three guys ive loved enough to be this crazy over. self shipping is always correct #if youre not self shipping thats okay but if you want to you should you should draw yourself vivisecting him while hes squealin and giggling #you should write about the two of you biting eavh other until you hit bone you should literally kill him with a knife and them cry over the #body and then bring him back to life and do it again just so you can cry over the body again #you have to grip him by the shoulders and spit in his fave and use all the things he trusted you with against him and you have to make him #hate you you have to make him unable to forgive you then you have to make him forgive you then you have to apologise to him #and then. ohh and then you hit him with all that shit again but make sure you quick save before that because he might not forgive you again #you need to make him swallow pennies before getting into the mri machine and you need yo tell him that itll be okay smd you both know hes #going to explode but he does it anyway because he knows youre going to bring him back and he fucking loves it he wants to do it #oh he doesnt just love it hes addicted to it he wants it to happen and youll make it happen for him youll force it to happen even if hes #begging you not to do it again you can make him do anything you want. you can make him hate you if you want. if thats what he likes. you can #do it for him and you can do it for yourself and you can do it even if you both dont want it to happen you can make him get on his knees and #beg and then you can do it anyway and you can make him so angry that he hurts you right back and you can let him end it and after that you #can do it all over again if you really wanted to ... anyway you self ship to scratch an itch i self ship to scratch an itch everybody wants #different things out of the fiction they consume .. we should get more character reacts when you say youre pregnant but kiryu would be like #um. (blushes) wait is it mine ? <- and you can tell him anything and he’d have to believe it #god i need to go to bed ... wish i was playing yakuza rn ......

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#i had such a horrible melt down today... god i just need this week to be over! #i burst several blood vessels around my eyes temple and nose from crying too hard and for trying to do it in silence #and i also figured out that my big smart plan of hitting myself in the head as to not leave marks nor break things doesn't work #because i now have a fucking BRUISE ON MT FOREHEAD #goddamnit #i can hide it with hair but i really need to find a different way to cope... #i used to throw shit around but years of being screamed at for breaking toys or whatever i had in my hand at the moment has forced me to #turn the destruction upon myself #cause at least i'm not breaking shit other people paid for #but damn my head still hurts and now i have to hide the stupid red spots in my hairline #if my mom finds out she will most likely kill me ahnfjsng (not really she will just scream at me and call me stupid for hurting myself #which in turn will make me hurt myself more probably...) #it's a hard thing to admit i self harm. and i never really thought of it like that but it's getting worse so i need to stop #it started with scratching myself when i was too anxious and it turned into full blown out meltdowns... #i had to fight the urge to hit my head on the wall which is scary #like it took all of my willpower and the realization that people would hear me and maybe i would draw blood which would be harder to hide #that's what made me not do it... not the fact that self harming is bad and doesn't help... #like that's a scary thought to have... #i can think about it rationally NOW but in the middle of the mess? nope hitting is the only solution #i'm exhausted and so fucking embarrassed about it #i hate living with my messed up brain #i have to leave the house tomorrow... and because i mask still the only thing vissible will be my fucked up eyes with red dots around them.. #that's gonna be fucking embarrassing as hell?! #not worse than when i gabe myself a black eye tho #that wasn't self harm that was just me fainting when sick and falling face first to the floor lol #anyways... i'm off to bed i just needed to vent ahfnsjf i'm fine now #and i'm gonna do my best to find better coping mechanisms i promise #angel talks #personal #tw self harm

[roychewtoy]

supergiant games are 3 for 3 [sorry bastion..... i haven't played u bastion.....] to me. transistor, pyre and hades BEEEELOOOOOVEEEDDDD

#bastion regularly gets knocked down to like.. a quid on the playstation store. i should pick it up and play it at sum point.. #but yes.... cant believe they are making their first sequel.. treading into new territory.. CANT WAIT😃 #idk what my favourite of the three is.... very different flavours #with the throughline ofc being incorporating gameplay mechanics directly into the story.. Delicious #and jen zees art and darren korbs OSTs and LOGAN CUNNINGHAMS VOIIIIIICE YIPPEEEE #i think realising he voiced both hades and achilles was the most surprising to me just because how close together they are in the house #like...those r different guys. and i looooove him as the transistor itself😵‍💫ooooooouuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaahhh #really love that the original pitch for transistor was -> #greg kasavin and jen zee shooting the shit in a long car journey coming back from e3 #fantasy world. unassuming women working as a singer in taverns falls in love with a travelling wizard #group of people come for the wizard and kill him with powerful demonic blade. blade is lost in the struggle. she finds it #and miraculously hears the guys voice coming from inside the sword. wields it herself. goes out for revenge #and they enjoyed the idea but accepted it was never the sorta game they were gonna make. then transistor development starts hitting a wall #wonderin why they arent making the story the wanna make. and greg goes..because a demonic rune sword doesnt work in a scifi setting #jen designs red and the transistor. nails it in one. like the original concept art is just.. how they look in the final game #RIGHT TRANSISTOR DEVELOPMENT TANGENT OVER #i love the fleshy..marble design of The Process... eating up the city.... #LOOOVE sunkrish balas performance as royce. that third act with headphones on. he gave me chills. his intonation is soooo perfect and eerie #luv the ps4 controller lighting up when the transistor talks hehehehe #this became ramble city. Pyre. PYRE!!!!!!!! fire off points about pyre. go go go: #the Cast Of Characters😃....AUUUGH. the downside as a setting.. hello boundless purgatory.. endless plains and roiling seas to travel across #how TIED the gameplay of the rites is to the story of pyre. its kinda crazy how well integrated it is #pyre is soo Lore heavy. and most of it is optional. no voice acting in this badboy #only played it once but i fucking loooved reading all the entries in the book of rites... #its just so DENSE. I LOVE U HIGH FANTASY BASKETBALL SHOOTING HOOPS INTO FLAMES TO ASCEND FROM PURGATORY GAME <- greatly simplifying #it has fucking interactive music that changes depending on what team u are fighting against in the liberation rites COME ONNNN MAAAAAN #everybody and their nan knows how fucking good hades is. im running outta ramble space in these tags #tightest controls. weapon and boon combinations up the wazoo. drool worthy gameplay loop. just one more run: the game. pet doggy #i looooooooooove supergiant games i looooooooooooooove supergiant games. BOSH #chewtoy

[toastsnaffler]

tried going to bed early bc ive just been sitting staring at the wall or my phone all afternoon but it's been 3 hours now and I can't stop crying. :(

#I dont even know why im so fucking sad. this last week has felt like getting hit by a train repeatedly for no reason whatsoever #and it fucking hurts so bad and i cant fix it because i dont know whats wrong!!!!!! #i think thsts why its been so hard sleeping lately like my brain is problem solving but theres nothing there to be solved #and i dont even have anyone to talk to about it and even if i did i wouldnt have anything to say bc i dont know im just fucking. sad #like yeah ive gotten upset abt other things but thats me projecting my mental state onto everything. theres no original cause #unless it really is just pms and some hormonal shit which is likely but kinda insane to think abt. like yeah my body has decided #to flood the entire fucking system with Kill That Egg™ for a straight week except its too effective and makes me want to kill myself also #but apparently not fucking effective enough to start my actual fucking period. yippee #i want a thousand year long hug and to cry rly snottily into someones shirt and then to fall asleep and wake up feeling rested #man. nothing makes me feel any different. exercising and sleeping and socialising and eating and showering and reading #and i can feel my interest in things trickling away like i havent been able to do a lot of shit i rly want to bc of this barrier #and ive been trying to make myself do some things regardless bc inactivity will just make it worse. but nothing works!!!!!!! #i dont even know anymore man. i do everything right and im still as depressed as i was like 8 years ago #and i know thats just the depressed brain talking like i know i dont constantly feel like this but its hard to see outside of it man #u spend ur whole life drowning but its ok bc sometimes u get ur head above the surface long enough to take a breath or whatever #insert overused mentally ill metaphor here etcetcetc #ok i think ive run out of things to say im gonna try sleep again. day 1 billion of making longass vent posts sorry everyone #gn #.vent

[jvzebel-x]

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#sometimes when i get sad or irritated ill think about how when i was working behind the bar at komos for a couple months #the last time i went home for a couple months #&this guy would come in every night i worked&get so fucking wrecked i needed to drive him home #&the last time i did this it was bc he asked me for 'my strongest shot' so i gave him a four horseman&he basically died #&i was bitching about it to security on my way out the door-- to drive him home. again.-- &our security guy was like #'you know he really likes you. thats why he keeps getting so drunk&making you drive him home.' #&i was basically like 'fucking and? how is this impressive?' #&he was like-- I KID YOU NOT-- 'well you know. he's a cop. so he's a good guy.' #&i laughed so fucking hard that he didnt even know what to say&then refused to drive his drunk cop friend home. #i never saw him again. :)♡ the end. #ive worked at two different cop bars in my life&the stories from those places specifically are always so insane #but the wildest parts are always the cops hitting on me like i dont wish literal death upon them&all their cohorts. #... anyway i saw the footage of that cop talking about that woman being struck&killed by a fucking pig #&its just a good time as always to remember that all cops are bastards&if anyone should be gauging the worth of human life #it shouldnt be a farm animal who rolls in its own shit that learned how to put on a uniform&pull a trigger at civilians. ♡

[watermelonsenpai]

Let's see how many anxiety and sleep meds I can take before I black out because I can't deal with being conscious anymore. Everything is fake and nothing is real, the rules are fake, they're made up and they don't matter.

#already took enough that i feel buzzed like i drank #i just wanna not feel like this anymore #i would take any drug that was offered to me right now #might hit up the giant homeless group at the park and ask if anyone wants to fight me #would love to get punched in the face so i can feel anything else #would also love to beat the shit out of someone to feel my fists make contacts with a body #is cool tho nothing to worry about #just gonna be joining that homeless group tomorrow if we can't pay $3000 lmao #i love being alive in this fake world with fake money and fake lines and people that hate other people for just living their life and being #a certain color or having pigments on their skin that make them look different and oh man gotta kill about it #gotta kill em. they look different? kill em #it's the only rational and smart thing to do obviously #you know #it's cool #being alive is cool #it's not fucking pointless it's not like I'm living the exact reason why i hate this fucking world #I'm a product of my environment #and this environment has filled me with so much rage and hatred and violent thoughts and wanting to hurt things #it's cool though #no biggie gang gang bitch #🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙 #watermelon-sempai #personalmelon