#but like. bro im in the middle of something

[silvermizuki]

I don't think I'm cut out for this adult thing lmao

#bro #too much is happening at once #prepaid cards and taxes #trying to switch jobs #so i can start being serious about opening shop #car started having issues while in the middle of it #not sure how much its gonna cost to fix #so i feel stuck as my current job bc of it #hush silv #I STILL FEEL LIKE IM 17 OR SOMETHING #sort of a vent ig? idk although if youre curious as to why ive not been terribly active all this is why

[velolceraptor]

Me thinking about Ben: teehee he looks like such a silly goofy guy °v° He's kinda dumb but that's okay :) and hee hoo hee hoo silly silly little redheaded fellow tee hee!

Also me: Ben looks like he gets verbally beaten by his family for his low intellect and probably has a lot of pent up rage while dealing with it in unhealthy ways. He also seems like the type to fear falling behind and whenever he's showed up (embarrassed; put to shame) he takes it in the worst way possible since he's dealt with it so many times, quickly growing tired of it. But he's also probably insecure about himself and was probably shamed for it so for most of the time like school, family, and after school clubs, he probably puts on a face and lies about everything, trying to suppress his emotions and not make a scene. He probably and maybe constantly tries to prove his worth but ends up mucking things up and making things even worse than before. And another thing is-

*GETS SNIPED*

Me, now a ghost: hee hoo silly sad ginger boy

(sorry I listened to 'I bet on losing dogs by mistake while thinking about him')

#me thinkz #scriblscrabl #epithet erased #epithet erased ben #ee ben #epithet erased banzai blasters #banzai blasters #haha projection go brrrrrrrr #dude i can just tell hes insecure and angry and sad as hell #also he looks like a prep but with insanely strict parents #they probably hate him #and he hates too #maybe #bro has so much middle child energy its not even funn #and i wonder why does ge have a schedule #like is it something he made or his parents #dunno bro #buts soemthing tells me he DEFINITELY doesn't trust adults #but hey im just spitballing #anyways i like the violent ginger and i want him to be sad and ugly cry #... that's it #ok bye bye #actually one more thing #he definitely reeks of insecurity #ok bye bye for realsie #if Jello finds this i think i might die #jelloapocalypse's epithet erased #jelloapocalypse #curse you brendab blaber for making me attached to him and five other background cucks/j

[im-a-chunky-potato]

imagine being in school when the new chapter releases /j

L /j

HAHAHAHA

Mystic I am filled with such murderous rage right now don't test me/j

#BRO #ITS THE MIDDLE OF SCIENCE CLASS AND IM ABOUT TO EXPLODE #THE WIFI IS AWFUL IT AND SNDJSNSNJDSN #I am running on the new chapter a dream rn/j #VSUSNSBSNNS WHAT WAS THAT. WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT #Fyodors just a body snatcher Ig?!? #Seems like his blood has something to do with it

[inkybinkyboink]

hi ok unpopular thought but you can tell when a cis/het person is playing a queer character because they always prioritize the queerness of their character over anything else

#like were in the middle of urinetown auditions #and this guy is auditioning for barrell #and i am too #and now i dont particularly care #like none of this is to say that his or anyone else's performance is bad or lesser than #but barrell is gay and like you can tell watching this kid perform that that fact is at the forefront of his mind #we were talking abt it later and he was like “yeah your barrell was like really snarky” and im like YEAH bro he kills ppl for a living #like hes not walking around constantly thinking about how hes gay #no gay person walks around fronting the fact that theyre gay #like i dont go to the mall thinking 'i am gay and going to the mall' dude no i just go to the fucking mall #i have a love hate relationship with cis/het performers who play queer characters because you could pull it off??? #but youre lacking the subtleties #youre lacking the timing of when these things actually come into play #and again i really do hope this dude the best like honest to god if he gets the part thats great and i know he'll get there like i am #not the one directing this show and i trust the director completely #and im just using that as an example #but you see it in other things too #you can see it in good omens 2 and the danish girl and call me by your name #now compare it to something like cabaret and alan cummings portrayal of emcee #and you can tell theres a level of understanding there thats lacking in the other ones. our flag means death is also another really good #example. while rhys darby and taika waititi arent gay david jenkins is and it comes across in his writing that this is someone who #understands the queer experience and writes in a way that makes it possible for cis/het performers to understand what theyre playing with #turnip rants #delete later probably #all opinions and statements are my own we can coexist

[opanchu]

love being a child of divorce cause i can ghost my dad

#he deserves it ngl he's been an asshole lately. ok slight vent in tags #i called him out via text about how hes always talking in the middle of everything and/or making fun of things i like #when i watched the spiderman trilogy he kept talking every 2 minutes even when i told him not to #then when i wanna watch cartoons he keeps making fun of me and when i listen to music he makes fun of lyrics he doesnt even understand #so when i told him how this bothers me he was like 'this is how i am i thought you were accepting 😒' BITCH WHAT THE FUCK??? #ok well what im like is i hate when people talk throughout a movie i watch for the first time. or make fun of things i like #and he also said it bothers him how i dont help him clean but everytime i offer to help cleaning he says i shouldnt 😐😑 #fucking hate this bro anytime i call him out for something he makes me look like the bad one cause he cant realize he can make mistakes too #so anyway im not talking to him rn xx i have my mom and my buddies at least

[adriartts]

Something about purpose and pasts, old worlds and new ones.

(Dialogue from @dungeonsanddragonsfifthedition‘s Bird and Bear are Friends)

#original #nightlings #fauns #ANYHWAY. having an incredibly normal one #*slaps roof of mini-comic* this bad boy can fit so much fucking worldbuilding in it #bird and bear are friends lives rent free in my brain. omg they are. f.riends #me preparing to draw reiji: that's it you're going to the fucking grassland. get in the plains idiot #i fuck hard with the bright panel in the middle here. didn't turn out exactly as it was in my brain but i like it a ton either way #it's the only warm colors. they're hella saturated even more so than i usually saturate my colors. resembles either an explosion or the sun #both mean something to the world or the characters respectively so either interpretation is correct #redesigned the tattoo on milo's left arm again because i changed how the moons function. dig it tho and now it's got LORE lmao #the three panels of reiji that overlap the sun look really good. i like his fucked up eyes #all the hands. he's signing. his hair is down and the jewelry is gone. it's the middle of the night. he'd been sleeping #constellations as something that follows milo. stars as something that reiji follows #reiji's colors were initially more saturated but he was TOO fucking purple so i had to change it #their speech bubbles are complimentary colors. sorry. ill be SO normal dude i promise im so incredibly normal bro #apparently around thanksgiving every year I need to do a minicomic. last year was fierce deity comic. now u get ocs #now you get THIS GUY (plural) #my fucked up little creatures who are here to wander around and Find Out #my fucked up little guys who are here to exist on the ashes of an older world. and be friends about it #my fucking. these dudes. make a normal character then shoot them with my beam that makes them a fucked up little fantasy creature. #get creatured. idiot #ONE more. i simplified milo's design a lil for the sake of clarity. mostly just the fur pattern is typically not so defined but for the... #...small panels especially. it didn't look good to draw it all out. ok NOW i'm done #Milo Montalvo #Reiji Droet #oc #ocs

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

my review of the quarry is Fun game that suffers at crucial moments from being boring. 😪 that is to say the start of the game is loooong i know the characters need to be established but dare i say it, the game was far too ambitious in being able to handle a cast of THAT size. because nick & abigail & even poor jacob (i could even say kaitlyn tbh..) are neglected so much. nick you play as like ONCE, abigail a few times for very short segments and then every time i played jacob he was lost and naked in the forest LMFAOOO.

but it was a really fun game and id highly recommend it, id just say you might have to really push past the start of it and this one godamn segment in the game was so unbelieveably long and boring i felt like i was gonna die. like why are ryan and laura wandering around in this underground mine talking abt we only have an hour to kill chris !!! and then bickering and flirting like GODAMN !! CHOP CHOP LADIES .

my favourite was dylan. didnt expect it. but he was a sweetie pie. my least favourite was ryan. i cant explain it but he had this selfish self-importance about himself that got on my last fucking nerve and maybe that i had to play him so many times and hear him go 'uhhh' so much it had me wanting to ram my head into a wall. emma and her exposition to her instagram fans was more bearable. and besides i love mean girls who go on zip lines. but dylan was such a cutie . abigail shouldve been a lesbian .

#text #honestly i think nick was only in the game so they could have One character turn into a werewolf #bc otherwise WHY WAS HE THERE LMFAOOO HE HAD NO REASON !!! BRO DID NOTHING ALL GODAMN GAME #also why was he australian. im so bothered by this. its like implied that he lives in america #and has been living in america for a while. but he is unexplainably australian ??? #and the thing abt living in a country for a long time is u pick up on an accent so if he like moved there as a kid he wouldnt have #such a strong australian accent ? and it doesnt make sense that hed go to SUMMER SCHOOL #in AMERICA. IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE !! #so hes australian for no reason except like what cast nationality diversity ? pls #also i love the way every single character knows how to use a gun. Like the writers didnt even think to like #put in a thing of like ohhh they had to do blah blah gun safety training or something IDK ANYTHING #and they were like Yeah this is set in america nobody will question why everyone knows how to use #not just a handgun. BUT A SHOTGUN #like yeahj ur damn right. idk why im questioning it. theyre american. ofc they know how to use a shotgun #i bet i could ask a group of americans if they can use a gun and 3/5 would say yes #valkyrie.txt #fun game 7/10

[jellyfilledeyes]

Why are alot of pjo adults so weird?

#like bro your like 20 something why are you simping for literal teenagers #AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON WHAT THESE NASTY MF TALK ABOUT PERCY AND LEO #also nico that is 14 im pretty sure hes atill in middle school so why are some of yall calling him and will sl*ts and other gross stuff #nasty mf #percy jackson #pjo #nico di angelo #percy jackon and the olympians #heros of olympus #milo rambles alot

[4giorno]

so hard when you dont know if the drawing youre working on is a case of "trust the process and it will be great" or "just delete it and start over and itll be great on the next attempt"

#with my drawing of furina it was both like i almost finished a piece but hated it so much that i started over from scratch #and it was so much better and then it was in the ugly stage for SO. LONG. but i trusted the process #and the end result was something i liked and that really fit my mental image of her #i FINALLY finished neuvi so im on the final drawing and its arle and. i hate it so much hfkfjdjd its so painful #bc i really loved my thumbnail sketch and i wanna do a good job bc i love her #(and lets be honest i am getting extremely burnt out on this project LMAO i never manage to complete anything #that i conceptualize as a series of drawings so the fact that ive done 3 already is almost a miracle) #.......anyway bro i wish so bad that i had formal art training #last time i was taught art was middle school and lets be real. that wasnt actual art education LMAO #i think we went once to a little museum of an important poet to study a bust sculpture and thats it #also i somehow graduated without doing my final project bc i was stuck and had to restart but the teacher didnt let me #and then ignored me and refused to help so i just didnt do it 💀 #wow what a mess of a post

[skeletalheartattack]

drud that’s a family video you can’t buy games from there

just watch me. i whip my wallet and pull out an original holographic charizard pokemon card. yeah buddy. one of these for one luigi's mansion please. and some pikmin 1 and 2 as sides. and a laarge soda.

#ask #anon #i know what a family video is #we had one here when i was growing up but it was called movie gallery #i use to rent a lot of games there as a kid. sometimes good. sometimes bad. #good being like. wario world. mario galaxy. twilight princess. #bad being shrek extra large. one of the ice age games. and likely others im forgetting. #i remember renting ty the tasmanian tiger but like. theres one segment from it that i thought was some other game #so like theres a level at night near a pond and a bridge in that game. right. #my memory of that level involved you playing as a frog with a tophat or something and i couldnt ever figure out what game it was #up until i watched a playthrough/speedrun of it. #i think that memory was lumped in with ''game demos'' in my brain #cause we had a demo disk in our house that had treasure planet and primal (the ps2 game with the woman and gargoyle) #but it also had... i think a turn based 3D rpg game demo??? i dont know what game it was and i cannot find what demo disk it was #especially since finding specific demo disks (on youtube no less) is incredibly difficult #the demo had you started on a trail in the middle of these green green fields #and i think you ran into someone from your village and you battled them? or something? #the only other thing i remember was going into a house and having a camera that was placed in one corner of the room. #i think my family threw away that disc or something. its literally nowhere to be found. #same with a n64 magazine we had that had floigan bros and banjo tooie cheat codes #i had looked at the floigan bros page a few times as a kid cause it looked really fucking weird. but i thought it was an obscure N64 title #i specifically remember hoygles anger box. and maybe their fucked up dog. #but yeah ik what video rental stores are. but that doesnt mean i cant not want to go to a place that does sell old games #im blasting you with shockwaves and dinking my laarge sofa #ignore that typo.

[vampyrluver]

-_- every time i talk w my dad it just turns into him begging me to change the way that i am and it actually gets on my nerves lilke its been really upsetting me lately

#.txt #bruh #today he begged me to get rid of my vampire collection and to start wearing bright colors #its getting annoying bc things tht were like #part of me since middle school nd even elemteary school #hes like 'change this' #nd im like bro ive been like this for basically my entire life #why r u trying to get me to change now #when ever i dye my hair he begs me to change it to something normal #i think he just thinkgs that everything is a phase and that one day ill change #nd im open to change im open to evolving as a person but i alsmost dont want to just to spite him #idk its just upsetting to constatnly be reminded that he would b happier if i was literally someone else #its honestly a bit offending having him try to change me all the time #i know he loves me and cares for me a lot but it also hurts bc it feels like he loves me for like being his kid but if i wasnt his kid #im not sure if he would like me #i literally got rid of my clowns nd replaced it w kpop bc i thought at least if i had bright colored music albums everywhere he would leave #me alone #but that did not work #i feel insane fr

[the-deadlock-south]

pretty sure i felt my entire heart and soul melt at the new hanzo and d.va interaction in ow2 oh my goD

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #im NORMAL about this middle aged man i SWEAR #you just know he was saying shit he told genji all the time when they were growing up #GENJI PROB SAID THE SAME SHIT TO HIM TOO ‘maybe you should try paying some then MAYBE you’d frown less brother’ #then there go d.va sayin near the same shit and now dude’s just bluescreened #the little frustrated ‘hmph!’ though like UGH be still my besting heart that shit was cute #i love d.va bless her for Everything i love her interaction with ashe too #i just saw the hanzo one this morning and it was a great pick me up for my terrible week #my new favorite genre of hanzo is him trying to be serious only for something to happen to break that #this is ALSO in reference to his new sonic arrow voicelines #still love that cackle he does there’s such giddiness in it #bro i need the access key NOW i’m losing my mind

[mummer]

hey remember the scene in barry where fuches fully is shot and dies in the cold open and then later in the episode wakes up on a cowboy ranch being taken care of by a kindly mexican family who offer to let him stay there forever and wed their daughter and escape the narrative etc and for like 5 seconds he appears to gain a new lease on life only for him to just immediately steal their car and leave because he hates barry so fucking much anyway do you think it’s a winky parodic reference to this bcs plot point or nah

#where fuches is like ‘im in the middle of the desert…. im nowhere…..’ and the girl is like #Oh um theres a starbucks over the ridge there #fuches. what a character #also idk if this is an insane bcs opinion to have but. I dont much care for mike 😕 #i think he works well in brba but getting a bunch of focus on him is kinda yawnnnnnn…. like i feel bad but #I GET IT!!!!!!!!! do we need all this #i understand his story is marginally about like reluctance to use violence etc etc #but i feel like this theme is explored in bcs with other more compelling characters #like bro we know he loves his granddaughter and wants to do something with his life that isnt hurting people but he cant bc that’s all he #ever knew how to do. after a certain point idk if that’s developing any further it just feels repetitive #LIKE I FEEL BAD BUT every time theres a mike scene it’s like Dang i wish my guy nacho was here…..

[ikyw-t]

this is a moodboard for how my brain has been feeling the past couple weeks. yes i spent like 10 minutes organizing these pictures if that tells u anything about how im feeling

#not that anyone asked but it's bc my adderall rx changed a month ago from extended release to short release #bc the extended release was making me feel super anxious in the afternoon when it would start to wear off #which is obviously counterproductive and i am already anxiety-inclined if that's even a phrase #so ive been on the short release version of adderall for the last month and overall it was going a lot better #the anxiety in the afternoon pretty much disappeared which was nice #the past like three weeks tho ive been dealing with being unable to stop picking at my skin and cuticles too #which is something ive struggled with since middle school in various degrees and tho it was getting better in the past couple years #ive never struggled with it LESS than i have since starting adderall in like march. and my god. what a joy and relief that was #so now that it's started happening again it's honestly pretty upsetting bc it's kinda physically painful and also just rly embarrassing #like i dont even have that bad acne probably but being unable to stop picking at it makes it like ten times worse #like i haven't had acne on my back in like three years since i finished taking accutane #and in the past three weeks i have but it's rly only bc i can't stop scratching at it and so there's gonna be scarring too #it's just very embarrassing and also disappointing nd disheartening since i was finally able to NOT have to deal with this for a few months #it's appalling and upsetting to realize that this was just my life for like a decade before i got treatment for adhd #and once i did it a lot of my impulsive and unconscious skin picking pretty much disappeared. #like damn bro the amount of times my mom and everyone in my family told me how nice my skin would be if i could just leave it alone. yeah. #anyway. im gonna talk to the doctor about this next month when i get my refill obviously bc i am not having a good time #even tho this was working rly great for the first three weeks. like whyyyy can't medicine just work. whyyy #anywayyyy if u read all this no u didnt bc it's embarrassing for me lol #i just felt the need to talk about it cause it's been upsetting me today

[noxtivagus]

bday dump cont. in tags 🫶🏼

LOOK AT THE PICS I TOOK OF MY WOL W THE GLAMS A FRIEND GIFTED 😭😭

#🌙.rambles #dude's like a big bro c: #the shirt isn't bought tho!!!! the hats n boots of my current glam is from songbird n #HONESTLY RECEIVING GIFTS IS SMTH IM REALLY SHY ABOUT? #i very much appreciate receiving stuff but i get too too shy if it's with money bcs i don't really use much of my own allowance 💀 #I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS VVVV MUCH AAAAA #apo n i finally ended up playing a bit w one of those twt moots 🥺 #IM SO HAPPY.... we talked quite a lot today n i think! we def got closer!!!! #bcs we're all pretty Shy in our lil trio too but 🥺 we're more chill now i think #im really glad. it means a lot to me to be able to be closer with ppl #GOD WAIT APOLLO JUST COMPLIMENTED MY GLAM #I WILL COMBIST AHFJFJAKAKAKK ??????!/!: #GOD I SWEAR IM USUALLY MIRE COMPOSED BUT I REALLY JUST CRUMBLE W ANY SORT OF AFFECTION WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKKKKK #two of my friends from middle school greeted me in dms too on ig 🥺 #N. MY BEST FRIEND FROM GR4 I LOVE HERRRR she's in another school now w shs but #frienfs before high school i'd honestly consider a childhood friend! c: #god wait my mind is all over the place genuinely wait AAAAA #oh ffs everytime i hear something nice about me my brain just fries i think #i get too flustered everytime. i'm not good with affection. please stop. i hate you. SOB....... #OH I REMEMBER SMTH I WAS GNA RAMBLE ABOUT EARLIER #w friends i know purely online on stuff like tumblr twt yes i realize i tend to be really nice #i never force it tho it jsut comes really naturally 😭😭 wait wtf i just remembered smth #WHY AM I LIKE THIS...... it's either i'm super hyper like this! like a kid! emojis n emotes ^-^ n i look v sweet on text i would imagine #or the opposite. 'uwu' if you may then 'emo' ...... SO #SOB ???? 💀 theres smth really funny wbt it for me #god wait i got distracted i have sm thoughts i cld write on n on buti realize i naturally just end up hiding when it comes to #wait. wait wait wait no. i was abt to say smth but NO i will never ever rwmble abt that ever #y am i like this..... the very one topic i avoid! despite how personal it is for me #idk what i'm trying to say abt that but i hate lying but i often hide i think w certain stuff. i don't run but #actually no it wld be bad if i say anymore oh nooo i will never talk abt that! not even apollo knows abt that b i'll never ever EVer talk ab

[maraeffect]

you ever leave a virtual therapy appointment like

#bro i did NOT expect today's session to go like that #not in a bad way but like. #you ever realize in the middle of a therapy session what a big root issue is #and it's like something huge and previously untouched so ur just like. #'oh. fuck (:' #literally a rollercoaster of emotions today!!!!! but im excited to have unearthed this #bc now i get to work on processing it and it will hopefully help a lot #chatter #recovery