#but not! a! single!! day goes by where i DONT think abt what i could look like now if i kept going like i was

[riflesniper-a]

I love that u rbed that get mad at people post cause im literally going thru that shit rn!!! Like there really is a breaking point after communicating so clearly "hey this sucks please dont do it" Over and over and nothing ever changes and its literally like. Ive fuckin had enough lol. I dont just lie down and take it when people give me shit over and over.

YESSS literally recognizing when enough is enough is so freeing. and its so so painful to watch people endure and endure and endure bc society decided that forgiving and forgetting is the be all end all of healing. it isn't. sometimes healing starts with taking a knife to a rope and screaming that you won't let it drag you around any more.

i love you boundaries i love you paradox of tolerance i love you justified anger i love you self-compassion and rage going hand in hand i love you denial of second chances I LOVE YOU CATHARSIS AND HEALING AND CULTIVATING A HEALTHY SOCIAL LIFE etc etc,

#sprite.exe #like. idk. i think a lot about the shit that the people i care about have gone through. #i think abt the abuser that one of my friend groups endured for so so long before cutting them off. #i still think abt how much pain they were in. how much they still sometimes feel. #and how much i wanted to rip into him like a fucking animal but couldn't bc it'd just make the situation worse. i think. #and. i think abt my partners ex. and how fucking unfair and hurtful it was to him #and of course my love for him outweighs my rage towards it etc etc but there isnt a single day that goes by now #where i dont think abt what happened. where i don't think about how unfair the situation was and still is. #and theres so many other situations and bouts of drama in my past that i could list off here but the point is. im so so tired of #watching the people i care about just Endure. and if that post can make one more person realize that #they don't have to endure any more. that they can allow their rage to bring consequences to someone else's actions? #that will bring me joy. #whoops this turned into a long ass tag rant but i have so many thoughts in my brain every day #i gotta go fuckin... trim the weeds now. after i eat. got damn

[mangoposts]

girl i need to know ur thoughts on alahna. like for me i genuinely miss her sm bro and it makes me so upset that she still wishes they could be friends -but they’ve just like fully ignored the whole thing and have never said a WORD abt it whereas she’s constantly like reposting stuff about old friendships and such that’s def about them. also i always think about how like even IF they became friends again and like we all found out, there would always be like a sense of awkwardness knowing abt the friendship breakup. like obvi it’s happened before with youtubers and stuff where they’ve stopped hanging out but then a couple years later theyre friends again, but i really don’t know if i see that happening, and like she’s a childhood friend as well so it’s a bit different. ALSO it makes me so sad too how they make such an effort with nate and see him all the time, i just don’t get what happened with alahna like that’s my girlll. AND (sorry i keep thinking of more stuff), with the whole unfollowing thing that started it all, that really caught me off guard cos like they have other friends from boston who i bet they dont see that much, but they still have each other on insta, like there’s no need to fully remove them off all their socials ykwim?

also just another thing (IM SORRY😭) in regards to madi, i love her and think she’s so cute, and honestly by no means do i believe she’s replaced alahna cos their friendships were always so different, but for me no matter how close they get with her, it’s just not gonna compare to their childhood friendships, cos it’ll always be through her mom being their manager, so it lowks work related?? STAWP it sounds like i’m hating on her NO I LOVE HER PLS - and i do think their friendship with her is very genuine i’m just saying like the vibes i get are so diff to their boston friends

like in their videos with alahna/nate/chloe etc the friendships are just so real it just like makes me so upset bro idek( obvs it’s cos they grew up tg but yk😭😭)

sorry for this long ass rant ik its sooo not that serious and none of my business at all but like i genuinely mourn their friendship constantly ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

PLEASE.

PLEASE.

PLEASE.

DONT GET ME STARTED.

I don’t think anybody understand how much i love and adore alahna. No doubt i miss her ass soooooooooooooooooooo bad. I literally talk about it every single day it’s my disgusting roman empire i never stop thinking of her, I’ll die without ever knowing what happened between them. But im sure it was all for a reason, i know it doesn’t look like it makes sense but we weren’t there and we never know what goes down behind the scenes. I don’t think it was anything messy i don’t believe alahna has ever had bad intentions and she never will. But i mean it’s obvious something rough happened if they treat her that differently from the other friends in boston, ill never fucking knoooowwww and i have to get over it one day but i miss her so so so so so so sos is sos sosososowowowowowo BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Fuck. Im not saying anybody is trying to compare, but nobody will ever compare. That’s all and if u don’t like alahna i hate you and block me

#sturniolo triplets #🥭

[oathofkaslana]

gay hi3 moments from the top of my head (some details inaccurate) also some of these are awful and i hate them ok i need it to be known i dont like all of these.

kiana counting down how long it’s been since she’s seen mei to the minute.

the “i gain the power of 100 men when mei’s around!”

bronya seele kiss in azure waters where seele goes "i gave you my first kiss sm sm" and im pretty sure makes her promise to give one to her when they reunite

FUCK. COOKING W VALKS MANHUA WHERE SEELE GOES "the sea is so beautiful i feel like i could stare at it forever" AND BRONYA GOES "duh because the water is azure blue. just like your eyes" AND GOES LIKE AN INCH IN HER FACE.

i feel like i have to put everything in azure waters oh my god i feel sick i miss them so much.

kiana licking mei’s wound in escape from nagazora

kiana and mei in a hot spring and kiana touching mei’s boobs saying she’s been wanting to. i think also in escape from nagazora.

kiana getting unnecessarily jealous over bronya whenever mei shows her any attention

bronseele ad where bronya complains about having her license revoked and seele going “good! now i know you’re not picking up other girls”

lament of the fallen. (COME ON. COMPARED TO EVERYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD, YOU ARE MORE IMPORTANT????)

kiana and mei being compared to a canonical m/f couple, owl and ana.

shakespeare mentions how it’s interesting to see real couples play a part and one of the couples being bianka and rita in durandal’s visual novel.

speaking of that play. biankas cgaracter makes a line about having sex w his wife (played by rita) and rita teases bianka about wanting it afterwards and bianka blushes

biankas one birthday cutscene where the narrator was talking abt how there’s this feeling she can’t put into words and how captivated she is by rita’s radiant smile ← GET A ROOM!!!!!

elysia calling her fight w mei a first date

eden saying that forever being apart of elysia makes her happy because its the most romantic ending

mei saying her favorite colors are orange and red (kiana and her's key colors)

mei coming back to the elysian realm after briefly talking to kiana and eden and elysia both notice how much happier she is and elysia goes "tell me about her" (HER.)

elysia voice. i like pretty girls.

every single elysia and kiana interaction in ch 34 idc if its mei's dream ("im so weak for pretty girls like kiana" "unless kiana prefers something more bold like purring in my arms" <- WHAT IS WRONG W HER!!!!!!!!!!!!)

natasha intenbtionally taking her hood off after mei told her that elysia says she doesnt meet natasha bc of her hood

elymei horn scene.

mei dreaming about having a japanese wedding with kiana.

kiamei matching rings named after chinese numbers symbolic of love that were given out for white day.

kiamei stigmata showing them getting married that was given out for valentines day.

reburn kiss where kiana kisses mei's battered mech while crying after i love you in german flashes on screen.

kiana going "this treasure called love" and immediately getting a text from mei.

"this is a story about love it will end with love" as kiana and mei walk with each other past durandal and rita to meet with bronya whos with seele AS CANON IN D STARTS PLAYING. YK THE FUCKING MARRIAGE CEREMONY SONG.

SAKUKALLEN KISS IN COOKING WITH VALKYRIES

theresa thinking sakura (a woman) kissed her and going "wait! im not like kiana and mei!"

kallen voice "the herrscher girl is innocent and i am in love with her"

^upon learning that kiana blushing and going "theres onthing wrong with falling in love with a herrscher!" while thinking of mei

moon shadow where kiana's heart starts racing bc she thinks fu hua's fallen in love with her and the wlw symbol is drawn behind her as she blushes and says "ive given my body and soul to mei but--"

fu hua later being teased by a coworker who suggested that hua likes kiana

sakukallen "love at first sight" line in sakura samsara

HELP THAT ONE EVENT WHERE VELIONA SLAMS BRONYA ONTO A WALL TO INTIMIDATE HER AND BRONYAS BLUSHING AND AS VELI'S YELLING AT HER, EINSTEIN WALKS OUT, SEES THEM, AND GOES, "sorry for interrupting, have fun"

also in that same event, bronya blushing and avoiding seele the next day and going "sorry bronya cant forget because thats a precious memory for bronya"

susannah fawning over durandal, rita, and sushang

susannah talking about how pretty sushang is and how she likes her voice i hate them oh my god susannah get up

tesla being jealous of welt joyce when ein teasingly gives him special attention in the visual novel

tesla getting jealous when planck (i think) hugs ein tightly and kisses ein on the head

tesla edison fingering joke after edison sniffs her neck.

bronya's bridge interactions w seele. my god i love them so mcuh.

sakura and kallen having heart reactions when you put them in bed next to each other

sakukallen "yae sakura shall fade, beloved, your kin shall live. in the far east 500 years ago where sakura blossoms bloom, yae sakura waits for her one true love"

gratitude arc where kallen loves sakura so much that protecting sakura becomes a part of the oath she genetically passes on to theresa

the 4koma on the sight where kiana and mei are told to get a room, apply for a marriage certificate(? i think), and have heart eyes towards each other while the wlw signs are behind them

kiana voice "this has nothing to do with me going lesbo!!!"

4koma kiana voice "im a lesbian everyone knows that"

elysia and aponia's "girl games"??????????? <- on thin ice but cmon no way that wasnt an innuendo

elysia's interaction w HoO mei where she talks about wanting to touch a particular thing but gets cut off by mei telling her she cant touch her horns again (SHE DOES NOT HAVE HORNS IN HER HoO SUIT)

kiana smiling when she sees mei's boobs in the anniversary vlog short thing.

the shenzhou island event where kiana points a camera at mei's boobs and goes "hehe mei is so pretty"

durarita matching earrings in their matching battlesuits

and ok im blanking now yay this is definitely not all when i say off the top of my head i really mean off the top of my head.

#hnk3

[silvergoldraeven]

Okokokok so (assuming) you’re an avid heimes shipper, I’m rlly curious, so like, how do you think (in your resurrection au) kratos would feel if Hermes came back to life out of nowhere and started dating Heimdall??? LMAOO

OR EVEN, WOULD, your au Heimdall even ever be into Hermes at all????? Due to his redemption and all??? KSJDKDJ I can’t stop thinking abt it😭

oh ive thought about this A LOT. like an ungodly amount. i actually at first made a character for Heimdall as a love interest but scrapped it cuz i didnt want it to be a Heimdall x oc thing ya know. then my dear friend (@medievildead) got me Hermespilled- and now i have. better ideas. they wouldnt work with what im actually going for with res!AU cuz itd add sooooo many things and its just. ough. but!

There's so many ways this could go. So Many. (x0k if youre reading this im encouraging you to make a version with your Hermes AU c:)

But i'd like to imagine that Atreus one day just comes home wearing the like ancient Greek travelling outfit and Kratos looks him up and down, goes silent for a few minutes before asking where the fuck and who the fuck he got that from. Atreus just happily going "from this really nice man, had flaming hair, weird little voice but he was cool and- oh there he is-" and just points over to Hermes crawling out of the bushes and yelling "where are my fucking shoes Kratos?!"

i think thats funny, i think that should be canon. Hermes existing and following Atreus home to Midgard opens up so much place for angst with Kratos and Atreus but im not here for that, im here to make 2 people worse. mostly Heimdall, reverse therapy now that Hermes is here /hj

Hermes joining the gang is just like like the Thor scene but Loud and hes like "i brought olives :]" and Kratos lets him in just for that trade tbh.

Kratos asking how tf hes even alive and Hermes replies with "im bugs" without elaborating, we never find out how he's alive.

Uncle Hermes is definitely my fav trope so him bonding with Atreus over atheletics and mischief, mostly bullying Heimdall. Hermes locked eyes with Heimdall and immediately decided that he was a worthy opponent. so their relationship starts with Hermes and Atreus bullying the shit out of Heimdall, who's self growth is really being tested on a daily basis. when Atreus leaves again Heimdall is left with just 1 shithead insisting on making his life harder (but oh so affectionately).

i think Heimdall would actually be more likely to fall for Hermes cuz he finally got that giant stick out of his ass, would probably find his japes and overall mischief endearing, after he warms up to the Greek god.

Hermes is canonically really good at cooking too if im correct so him helping Heimdall with cooking,,, cute. so cute. Hermes teaches Heimdall Greek dishes and Heimdall teaches him Nordic dishes but Hermes usually just goes "this has no flavour" which in return makes Heimdall call him a slur of some kind in offense.

Heimdall showing off Gulltoppr being like "this is my great and loyal beast, he has never left my side for anyone, neither in life or death. he will never be loyal to anyone els-" camera turns to Hermes giving a purring Gully tummy rubs :3

unrelated (sorta) but i think Angrboda and Hermes would actually get along really well.

Hermes being the god of travel drags Heimdall around the 8 realms c o n s t a n t l y. Heimdall hates it, especially since Vanaheim would probably be Hermes' fav realm. but he usually plans a 'surprise' picnic so Heimdall isn't too upset about it :3

Hermes constantly throwing apples at Heimdall. infront of everyone. its funny. most people dont get why Heimdall turns completely red every single time.

if Kratos still has Hermes' boots like he did in the gow 2018 trailer and actually gives them back, Hermes would probs lend them to Atreus occasionally for travelling like the good uncle he is. or as i like to say, buncle. Atreus' bug uncle c:

Hermes would definitely flirt with Heimdall constantly before they start dating just to annoy the living shit out of him which Atreus would find extremely entertaining but once these 2 fuckers start dating they turn their attention back to bullying Atreus. rip my man

Heimdall giving his bf bifrost legs. Hermes deserves bifrost legs. he'd look So Gay. not sure how that'd work but its canon now.

overall i just have many unhinged (normal) thoughts about these 2, too many to put into words but this hopefully gets the point across c:

#gow ragnarok #heimes #gow heimdall #gow hermes #raevenasks #gow

[kymantruther]

kyman’s relationship is unclassifiable

i am forever obsessed with how unclassifiable kyman’s relationship is. like that quote in casa bonita where cartman says “but we've also been through a lot together and maybe that alone doesn't make us friends but it makes us something” lives in my head rent free. the fact that in canon even the two dont know what what to call each other is something so personal to me!!!

most people would argue that they’re just rivals and i’m looking in too deep but i feel like, even though, yes, that label does capture a good portion of their interactions, but it also ignores some of their most bare, important moments with each other.

theres literally so many instances where their relationship looks so confusing and beyond “rivals”. like in smug alert or jewpacabra, where they save each other’s lives. (bonus for smug alert because the fact it literally points out cartman NEEDS kyle). or in cartman finds love where it pretty much confirms cartman is romantically into kyle, and the heiman arc pretty much confirms kyle is romantically into cartman (there’s more evidence that they’re in love but these are some of the biggest examples. i’ll make a post abt it maybe) imagination land scene when cartman has a whole breakdown about kyle dying, ass burgers/ you’re getting old where they abandon stan together, kyle being the first to be sympathetic and believe cartman can change, faith hilling, crack baby athletes association, i can keep on going for days.

and ofc there’s the fact the two, despite seemingly despising each other, will stick by each other’s side, hang out, willingly work together etc. like they could literally just leave each other if they hate each other sm but they don’t. and it’s this willingness to hang out w/ each other that’s so interesting to me. the mutual need for each other to make their lives complete...how can you say they’re JUST rivals.

their relationship is just so specific. they’re stuck as forever “rivals”, as the boys who would argue about something every single day. but then have moments where they care for each other. they’ve been through hell and back with each other, through thick and thin, and the unwillingness to leave each other’s side or to abandon or give up on each other (take a look at any ep they team up or are the main focus) really says a lot about how deep this relationship really goes. how it’s so much deeper than just rivals.

but then again they aren’t just “friends” either. they’ve had so many disagreements, fights and pit against each other so many times that it doesn’t exactly fit into the category of standard friends ripping against each other. it’s clear they’re much more.

kyman just has such a unique dynamic. i don’t even think this post even gave it’s complexity and inner workings justice. idk if any thing in this post even made sense but the fact my brain can’t wrap itself around it kinda just proves how indescribable their relationship truly is. they really are “something”

#kyman #sp meta #kyman meta #the trouble i had writing this?!?! #kyman is literally just my little project..hehe #some of these topics need their own post

[hurrakka]

oh man. theoretically in a l4d au luis would've helped develop the green flu yeah? sure it's a naturally occurring virus in l4d canon (maybe. we're not really sure where it comes from cus ceda doesnt say shit but ellis mentions the government using bio-bombs in one of his keith stories so it could be a bioweapon?) but this is an au we can do what we want.

anygays im just imagining leon getting infected. we know better-safe-than-sorry-guy (i call him scout cus his va is the same as scout from tf2) is human when we first find him but experiencing extreme paranoia and some compulsions then a few minutes later he fully turns, going from able to speak and function to choking and growling and fully mutated (either into a hunter, boomer, or smoker) so there's always the possibility of a rapid transformation too. im thinking leon falling behind a bit while theyre walking because he's coughing and chokin and shit n he falls to his knees and luis is all like "bro whats wrong!!" and he gets to watch as leon Turns Before His Eyes. even better if he turns into a hunter cus if you look closely at their models they don't have eyes. we can't be exactly sure what Happens to their eyes when they turn but the two most popular headcanons are both equally brutal-- either Luis has to watch Leon's eyes quite literally melt out of his skull or he gets to watch him claw his own eyes out. Fun!

BUT there's graffiti in one of the safe rooms arguing over how long it actually takes to turn-- whether it's 20 minutes, 2 hours, overnight, or some other wacky chunk of time. so there's also the thought of Leon turning slowly. progressively becoming irritable and irrational and confused and him slipping in and out of conciousness for days until Luis goes to check his temp one day and he fucking Lunges.

and if leon turns and luis makes it out alive imagine the Guilt. he feels awful enough in re4 canon when there's a cure,,, but the green flu mutates too often to develop a proper cure for it. if leon gets infected and he isnt immune then he's just. done. theres nothing that can help him at that point. and luis already feels so goddamn guilty about the millions of people he's killed and now leon's gone too and he cant help but visualize every single person who had somebody ripped from them by his hands.

oh man and if luis has to put leon down? its joever. that man would Never recover. i dont even know if he'd keep trying to survive at that point. maybe just for that shred of hope of developing a cure (even though he knows it'd be damn-near impossible but it's the only thing hes got, dammit) and stopping this whole disaster.

coughs. sorry for the rambling i simply have been obsessed with l4d for going on 12 years now so <3

I had to lay down for a moment bc of the feels and potential outcomes in the event luis lives on while leon well...yeah (thinkin abt how buddy from re damnation would jus turn as well since leon is no longer there and that made me big sad dgkrnekhbfgnjklh) Since the re verse has like morbillion viruses, the green flu existing would be plausible so its just another stonks moment for umbrella lol. But yeah luis would absolutely be devastated. He probably doesnt have the guts to pull the trigger, least he can do is to restrain leon for a while and tries to find whatever humanity he has left in his nonexistent eyes. Tho in my witch!leon hc I think luis may have a chance to keep leon around??? Since witches seem to have the most humanity among the infected (and thats not saying much) he could probs observe him a lil bit without getting eaten right away. It would just be a warm bodies scenario ngl (i just watched that movie recently so this is huge copium dksfghbshgndfh) Honestly Im glad l4d fandom still alive after all these years. That game will always be goated and it was one of my high-school obsessions. I used to do crossover stuff back then and Im back to doing it now. Time rly do be a flat circle

[dojae-huh]

huh nim, I think I knw that anon who said dotae and neos r just coworkers...haha....I have seen a lot like them in tl these past days...especially when ty got into that stupid scandal.like they got a license to make him out of the frame...u knw I am also a jaedoist that I believe in them nd dont even try to ship them....but i really hate some of the jaedo shippers who just cant accept the bond between dy or jh with other neos...that really sucks ...i will just explain it with dotae....just like jaedo , taedo are equally was together, for the past 11 years..nd I believe their bond that they showing on or off camera was 100 % true but i am a jaedoist but why would i support them ?..look at shalala promotion there was not a single ty clip where he didnt mentioned dy...if anything related memebers there comes doyoung...dy too...he was the most excited one for his bestfriend solo...ofcrs there is still some fights nd talks between them but that's inevitable in a friendship.. .how much nd how long could they pretend like they r bestfriends for the fans? U can see they r being vulnerable with each other especially when they r emotional ..nd there is only 2 possibilities for those who denies it like that anon... either u r pretending not to knw what their bond is or u just cant really see it...then I am really wondering how did they believe jaedo is real then? That they r a family? R they going to define it with Jae's heart eyes nd dy adoring jh? When dy nd ty both showed their closeness in these all years? Thats what making me confused...they could understand jaedo but no dotae? Is it hard to accept their relationship even tho it is platonic ? If they r sure jaedo is real what is insecurities in talking abt dotae? Do they really believe or just pretending to ship jaedo..I dont care anyway...but they r just worst...I just want to tell this to them if they dont have anything to talk abt other than their fav , just stop spouting the negativity in the fandom...it is already a mess...dont add the fuel in it...

I don't appreciate negativity in the fandom either. Even if a fan lives in a fantasy world and gets too emotionally attached to idols and their friendships, fake or not, it is not a bitter outsider's role to burst the bubble. Only people in rl can judge if the fan goes too far and if there is any danger to the obsession. Maybe a parasocial relationship is the only light in the fan's life, or an example of things being possibly better, like a fairytail, if it helps to go through the day, it is a positive thing. Being happy or sad for other people is called compassion and empathy, something the world needs more of.

Denying DoTae friendship is a willfull act, requires cognitive gymnastics. I guess it happens when a fan likes one idol but not the other. The way Tae's akgaes hate on Do, or Jae's akgaes cut out Do from all events, ignoring Jae's heart eyes and puppy behaviour.

[inutaffy]

🧍🧍🧍

im not sorry. im pulling up a chair and you will be stuck here for a millennia

SO. NUMBER 1. “do you know why you’re leader of this team?” “well uh yeah. bc i asked to be? u said it wasnt bc of my skills.” THIS RIGHT THE FUCK HERE. OKAY. BITCH.

LEO ALREADY HAD SO MANY DOUBTS ABT BEING LEADER MAN ITS AWFUL. LIKE. FUCK. and this isnt to say that leo is like confident in his abilities bc HE IS. HE REALLY IS HE KNOWS HE’S GOOD WHEN HE NEEDS TO BE but like that doesn’t immediately get rid of the feelings of inadequacy, ESPECIALLY after he got beat down by shredder in s2 and the earth got destroyed in s3

to him, he’s just leader bc he asked to be, nothing special abt it. its not bc he’s the smartest or the strongest or fastest. he just asked and splinter said lmao sure why not (LISTEN I KNOW THAT THAT WASNT REALLY SPLINTERS REASONING. leo was always gonna end up as leader bc he IS GOOD AT IT. he knows how to lead n he’s inspiring or whatever but he doesnt say this to leo until later) so to him there’s NOTHING STOPPING HIM FROM BEING REPLACED IF BE SCREWS UP ONE TO MANY TIMES. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS? IT LITERALLY MAKES EVERYTHING MAKE SENSE. like the shift in how he views leadership after s1. how he CONSTANTLY sacrifices himself for the cause bc WHAT ELSE IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN THINGS SPIRAL OUT OF HIS CONTROL?? just. dude. i fucking hate this. he sacrifices himself at any minor inconvenience (not really but 😐) and i hate that it makes since. he is only leader bc he asked, there isnt some special skill keeping him in this position (THERE IS. the others would be soo screwed if he wasnt leader. they’d make it obviously but DAMN) so he’s easily replaceable, and if something goes wrong to the point where he needs to REALLY get his shit together and DO SOMETHING TO FIX IT, HE SACRIFICES HIMSELF. BC WHAT ELSE IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO. he does it when they had to destroy the technodrome, he does it when he goes to fight shredder alone, he does it when they needed to get that black hole generator piece from that one lady, and he does it when trying to destroy the triceraton mothership. its the worst thing in the whole fucking world

number 2. “i knew that one day you would grow up to be the leader of this team, and when I pass on to be like a father as well.” OUGH. this hurts me so much. this is damn near the center of a good chunk of raph and leo’s fighting. not ALL of it obviously bc they’ve got their own stuff to work out but this definitely plays a part bc above all he wants leo to be HIS BROTHER. not his dad. NEVER HIS DAD. leo IS NOT their fucking dad and when he tries to act all high and mighty it IRRITATES HIM. WHICH IS SO VALID BC WHY ARE YOU THE WAY THAT YOU ARE. STOP. SERIOUSLY. WHO ARE YOU. yk? like fuck. he doesnt want leo to parent them dammit. imagine your dad dies or something and then your older brother is trying to fill that gap instead of taking time to GREIVE

AND TBH. I DONT THINK SPLINTER MEANT IT LIKE THAT EITHER. splinter probably meant this in a “when i die i trust you to take care of this family and be there for each other and support each other” way. not in a SINGLE MOM WHO WORKS TWO JOBS WHO LOVES HER KIDS WND NEVER STOPS WITH GETNLE HANDS AND THE HEART OF A FIGHTER IM A SURVIVOR kinda way

this gets lost in translation tho bc leo totally takes this and runs in the opposite ducking direction for a while which just

NUMBER 3. AND THEN WHEN SPLINTER OFFERS HIM SOME ADVICE/WISDOM LEO JUST. HE CLOSES HIS EYES AND SHAKES HIS HEAD AND TELLS HIM THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE. YOU ARE FINE. BC HE NEEDS THIS TO BE TRUE LIKE. ISNT THAT JUST AWFUL? you watch your dad get killed in front of you, then you go back in time and save him, only for him TO STILL DIE. that is AWFUL MAN.

“i dont get it, you’re fine father. is there something your not telling me?”

I HATE EVERYTHING. leo is dodging EVERY hint that his dad could die soon, he refuses to even entertain the idea. like at all. and its so fuckinf sad bc he is clinging to this hope that no matter what everything will work out fine just like it did before, they’re going to come out on the other side bruised but whole, and it HURTS bc that is not what happens at all. splinter is still killed right in front of them and they carry his body away and bury him and that’s it. that’s fucking it and it’s TERRIBLE.

and its not just awful bc of that its awful bc splinter is trying so hard to prepare them for this, he knows he died once, and has come close numerous times, so its gotta stick eventually right? so the least he can do is make sure his family isnt without closure yk? he can make it so that he torn from them without any warning or goodbye, without something to remember him by, so he goes and he has a moment with each of them in this season before he gets killed and it hurts me so much bc he’s trying to gently prepare them and its just. ough. OUGH. can we just take these mfckers out of situations ffs

NUMBER 4. THIS SHIT.

HIS FUCKING FACE???? AS THEH WALK AWAY???????? KILL ME NOW PLEASE???????? he literally just wants his family to be ok and theh ARENT and it hurts me so. his brothers and dad look so fucking happy too but just. OUGH. the HORRORS man the horrors are coming

anyways. timestamp 3:25am. this is just my rambling from the first few minutes and these are all the scenes from the clip i tagged u in. we haven’t even gotten to splinters death or what leads up to it yet, things are deceptively calm rn and im so scared

GO TO BED

#its 130am for me 330 for you im trying to restrain myself from posting embarrassing things and ranting n raving about shameless and #and you should WE should sleep #literally this is more work and dedication ive ever seen you put into school #we need to get you on payroll for this #fucking tmnt quizzes and see how you do

[starscelly]

i’m the question asking anon from earlier and istg literally every time you share something about this au i just become more invested! i will read anything you post about them why do these boys have my heart

robo’s rebellion moment made me chuckle, it’s also so sweet that his mom helped familiarize him with the guitar!

i still don’t know what questions to ask so ig this is like another ‘ today i want to talk about [ insert thing here]’ (heck, it can be another 5 of those, however many you need/want)

i guess a question is how did roope find robo and otter? what made them realize that they fit/work together in that way?

the boys also have my heart and every single inch of space in my brain so i get it !!!! thank u again for ur like. investment and giving me space to blab abt them fudfkskldsfl i appreciate it sm <3 <3

i had to marinate and think a Lot on how robo, jake, and roope all meet bc obviously coming from 3 different places there has to be an element of chance but also. i dont wanna go completely batshit lmao. here's an Attempt at explaining my thoughts!!:

otter still goes to college but instead of bu. bc he's not pursuing hockey. he ends up going to ut austin (its a good communications school and he actually has a communications degree like. real life)

he doesnt rlly Love school but he’s figuring out what he wants in life and his parents wanted him to go. so.

robo and him meet at some random ass show in texas, where robo only is bc his family drove over in the rv for a Different show

they dont immediately run off together and play music lol but they do keep in contact via text and calls for a few months, rlly Bond and become super close

robo comes through texas with his family again eventually but theyre not performing in austin this time, just dallas. so jake goes out there to see them

they've kind of vaguely been talking abt forming their own band at this point but obviously there's the distance that both of them are kind of. scared to close on a whim for smthn that might not work. and also they want to get someone who can consistently do lead vocals and play bass etc

anyways. they have a couple free days so they go to random house shows and smaller venues around dallas

roope is in the area bc at this time he's playing in the NAHL but heavily considering dropping hockey for music (he Actually played for bismarck and for like 2 games but. for the au ive decided he played longer for the lone star brahmas lol) and is basically just trying to find out what he's heading for, what he Wants

they see roope performing with a band that is like. Not His but just kind of a random assortment of his friends in the scene fucking around having fun (the house show is at one of his friend's places)

and roope is not. a great singer. he's not professionally trained and amazing. but he has a really fucking unique and cool voice (they will later find out this is bc of his accent and aversion to having a clear throat) so theyre like. heavily heavily intrigued bc they think it could make for a sick sound . in their band. what a coincidence!!

robo. looking like the most average dude ever. walks up to him after like hey ... we saw u from across the punk house and rlly dig ur vibe. and otter is kind of mortified but also is like ^^ play music with us please just to see ^^

roope is in an . emotionally difficult time in his life trying to decide if he wants to take a leap and leave all he's ever known his entire life. so obviously he jumps at the first chance and is like. Fuck It let's do it

obviously there's more logistics - roope finishes out his season before fully committing to the band, robo has to have this whole discussion with his family and have this emotional ass move to dallas, otter doesnt drop out completely but does have to explain to his family that his band is going to be his first priority at some point and starts taking only online classes etc - but thats how those three kind of. Meet and Click

theyre also still having bassist woes and thats when roope calls miro etc but. this isnt abt him rn for once

its a weird mix of a lot of Right Place Right Time scenarios, but how else do two americans who have no reason to ever meet end up with two finns who have little reason to be in america in the first place!!

i also think at first there's not really. Issues necessarily. but it takes a while for otter and robo, who are both super friendly open people, to kind of figure out roope's whole thing so they can finally click. which he's not Unfriendly per se but also he's not going out of his way to make conversation. but once they figure out oh he doesnt hate us and he's not even like one of those mean snappy punks he's just. european.. it's all relatively smooth sailing from there lol . it also helps when miro finally arrives and is both much friendlier at face value and also has roope being overly affectionate and up his ass 24/7 (which eventually bleeds over into his interactions with the other two)

#ik it doesnt Quite work with their actual ages bc of juniors age limits etc but. let us stretch our imaginations . #un-oldmanifying roope by a year or two for plot purposes #the process of them fully committing to the band is a very long drawn out exhausting process that we dont need to talk abt. amen #thank u for forcing me to think out the logistics of smthn i kept putting off LOL genuinely made me Think which is why this took so long #flying stars band au #ask

[69misato69]

Hello I hope everything's OK! I don't have a request at the moment but I would like to ask for some Advice, if you don't mind.

I also write every now and then, but it is mostly limited to AMAB individuals. I find the genitals a tad bit hard to describe for AFAB bodies. Since you write them often, I hope this doesn't come off as weird I just truly enjoy your works, could you spare a few tips with me?

Thank you in advance, wishing you a great day or night!

hii !! yes yes i dont mind at all. if anything im flattered 😭 i will answer just based on what i like to read and write, but ofc that is subjective and im sure it varies from person to person. anyways here it goes <3

for referring to afab genitals i usually never use the term vagina unless there is medical talk or sth of the sort going on. which leaves me using pussy or cunt most of the time. pussy has some slight funny, whimsical element to it at least to me, so that one i usually use for less serious stuff.

for something more intense and heated, if i dont want a goofy element at all, then i use cunt. also for smut i think it sounds heavier and strengthens the effect and therefore it is mostly my go-to.

an honorable mention is core, i dont use it often but it has a nice ring to it. the downside is that it is hard to reuse in a single fic. to me its a term i use the first time i mention a character's genitals, usually with gods/primordial beings etc bc core really fits them and creates a nice atmosphere, and then i kind of alternate between other words rather than carry on with core.

have i seen fics with core being used as a primary descriptor, reused all throughout the fic and enjoyed them ? absolutely but they were all very well-written and i personally struggle with it.

now for the parts obviously we have the clit, i dont think i ever write clitoris and mostly just clit. i like the usage of "bundle of nerves" or anything along the lines of that as well, especially when a character is overstimulated and/or sensitive and you want to draw attention to that.

overall for the clit swollen, puffy, sensitive are my personal favorites. engorged is also a good one, especially when a character is afab and trans, since it is a word commonly used for dicks it creates a nice gender euphoric narrative

then for the lips, using lips is a bit tricky bc if you are mixing a certain section with kissing and fingering simultaneously for instance, it could create some confusion abt whether you are referring to the top set or the bottom set. i like folds, especially with actions like separate, unveil, uncover and so on.

then of course the hole itself. i dont refer to the hole often and instead mention that the other character slides their fingers/dick/toy(s) in and it is easy to understand that im referring to the hole.

fundamentally its very different from fingering an asshole since there are more parts, more area and more movement on the surface and not just inside the hole. from the clit down to right above the place where the asshole begins, sliding a finger along that vertical area, rubbing/drawing circles on/around/over the clit.

for an afab character, being played with or fingered is much more than just preparation for penetration, so i like describing it in heavy detail and reading it that way as well.

when it comes to penetration we have thrusting, slamming into, drilling, filling up, stuffing... unless it is a quickie or a rushed session, i try to have a progression of:

"slow thrusts" - "character A picks up the pace" - "A starts slamming into B"

important to note that the other character will have physical responses to being fucked harder. clenches around them, sucks them in, their walls tighten around them, they pulsate, twitch, shake, tremble etc. vaginal stimulation and orgasms are very intense and they affect you as a whole so its good to keep that in mind.

the readers will also enjoy not just seeing the penetration but also how much it messes up the character and alters their body temporarily.

during the entire thing i like mentioning that its warm bc it really is an oven in there. wetness is also very important. drenched, soaked, sopping wet, dripping, dribbling, overflowing are usually terms i use.

i dont think im missing anything but feel free to ask again if there is anything specific you need. i hope this was helpful take care <3

#pussy guide

[wondereternity]

I am trying to be hopeful but I am a little scared that they might do love triangle between EJ, Gina and Ricky which I think would so boring and repetitive for EJ to date another girl who ends up with Ricky. I don’t think it would be fair for EJ to lose a girl twice to the same guy. Let EJ get the girl for once obviously him and Nini were not meant to be but I do however think EJ and Nini could be really good friends that support each other. I really hope they don’t screw up Portwell in S3. 1/2

If I have to watch Ricky pinned after Gina when she is dating EJ I will literally turn off the TV and never watch the show again. I am being dead serious I don’t want EJ to fall for another girl who realizes she still has feelings for Ricky. EJ and Gina seem to be the happiest when they are around each other don’t get me wrong Ricky did make Gina happy at one point but she seems more happier around EJ in my opinion. I really hope Portwell is the series endgame b/c they deserve each other. 2/2

i honestly think y'all are worrying abt it too much, like i get where its coming from but come on. they barely just got together, havent even kissed on screen yet do you really think they'll break up just like that.

as plenty of others have pointed out this season is 8 eps, and that isnt a lot. barely enough to cover songs from frozen, camp rock AND HSM. Like with all that and taking into consideration how many characters they have to cover. Its highly unlikely ej and gina will break up, and gina will get together with ricky.

i also dont think they'll go with ANOTHER love triangle, we've had ricky-nini-ej, nini-ricky-gina and the whole ms jenn love square. doing anything with ricky and gina would not only start a ej-gina-ricky triangle but also potentially a gina-ricky- lily triangle. Which is a LOT for a show that has like 8 different main characters and 8 episodes this season. and ur right, at the end of the day it would be repetitive. Which is exactly why i don't think they'll go this route.

and ive said this before, but them breaking up just goes against their personal arcs. The whole nini thing was EJ losing her because he wasn't truly being himself. and bc he stole her phone but whatever. But it was different with gina, he was nothing but himself and gina liked him for just that. so for both scenarios to have the same result, doesnt make sense imo. its the same with gina, her arc was not letting people in, not trusting. and she thought ricky could be trusted but ended up getting hurt. Then she found ej who proved her wrong, and she learned that letting people in doesnt always end in tragedy. What was the point if she just broke up with the person she let in in the first place.

besides ricky isnt even in the right headspace for a relationship right now. He JUST broke up with nini, and is dealing with lily (unfortunately). i kinda think he'll just stay single this season. Which id 100% support.

and i could go on forever but just have a little hope anon. we've come this far.

#portwell #ej caswell #gina porter #hsmtmts #ask #anon #and i neeeed a nini ej friendship #and gini friendship #anti r*na #kinda

[rexaleph]

Havent said anything abt perfume in so long bc ive been uh unwell but im coming out of it again i think.

Im interested in getting into florals, sth i started thinking abt in late spring. I want a green, wet, vegetal flower. Ive been enjoying Sublime Balkiss by the different company, but idk that it isnt too expensive for what it is. Lasts very little and ultimately it is just kinda a friendly fruity floral. sometimes i think that i just need to make life easier for myself and look into womens designer scents, but then i look at the reviews for Sublime Balkiss and people are like sharp green unisex different. And im like ah ok lol. Really interested in exploring tom ford's Vert Boheme, and that whole vert series in general, tho maybe its discontinued? And also fucking tom ford lmao. Fwiw i have actually tried Vert de Fleur during my last attempt at getting into flowers, and its not really it for me, feels like a sun-dried late summer steppe weeds + lipstick, the opposite kinda flowers from what im looking for. Funnily enough a lot of the reviews are calling it dark, fresh and dewy, which just goes to show that none of these words mean anything to me. (Having washed some of it off and waited a couple hours its much less unpleasant but still not what im looking for. dry bouquet herbal soap vibes)

De Profundis remains the untouchable fantasy BUT Amouage Myths woman seems to go to a similar green-earthy-floral well, while Myths man also has chrysanthemum and is supposed to be smoky which is intriguing (tho apparently also features prominent iris and is generally resinous and leathery). So time to reconsider Amouage perhaps. I occasionally revisit the samples i have and still cant really get into them but they are quite different from each other and idk that its their intrinsic dna that i dont get along with. Also given where de profundis comes from ive decided to stop being such a bitch about serge lutens, and maybe look into them for florals.

When i last thought abt perfume a couple months back I was considering making some purchases this autumn as a reward for hopefully defeating work demons, but im actually gonna be spending money on a trip and some things to do w that, which is a lot more valuable than perfume. However now i also want perfume as well. And idk id like to maybe not accumulate a million samples so i ought to go through what i have and really think about the hows and whys of my perfume experience. When i was depressed just now i still wore perfume every day but really didnt engage w the variety i have access to. I dont think i want to be the single signature fragrance person just bc my one perfume would be vierges et toreros and i cant do that to people, certainly not in the middle of summer lmao. But maybe i can have like... 4. Maybe 9. Fwiw i think ive resolved my search around leathers and animalics and am not interested in trying any more after having found my beloved few, even though some are completely inaccessible to me. Maybe i could write sth up about them. What feels very unresolved to me is fruits, my first big unexpected interest in perfume. Ive tried so many and rn i think i dont like any of them! My fucking samples store shopping cart is full of figs aside from flowers but maybe i should really think about whats wrong w the ones i have. I was gonna do a post abt the fruits as well and was reminded of it just now having had a bad time trying to wear Fig Man.

Anyway i dont think ill buy anything for now regardless, thankfully im good at not spending money. But i will try to have my perfume thoughts.

#perfume #unforfortunately i love telling myself to think on sth and then not doing it

[daydreamerunlimited]

i am once again thinking abt how my ed never actually went away and that literally all i did was stop exercising as much as i did

#just today i: #actively chose iced tea over breakfast #only ate fruit salad at lunch (to be fair i wasnt hungry but i also knew i shouldve had more so😐 idk what do u think) #thought abt how many cals id burn pacing #found out that weight loss is a side effect of concerta and unironically considered downing the whole bottle #skipped dinner by accident but didnt regret it and actually felt smug abt it. still do tbh😼 #going to bed hungry🥰🥰 #yknow. the little me in my heads telling me that im bullshitting an ed and it 'wasnt even that bad in the first place' #but not! a! single!! day goes by where i DONT think abt what i could look like now if i kept going like i was #i was going through the weight loss tag on tiktok the other day cus.. yknow #and i saw this girl who had the EXACT SAME BUILD as me before #and she lost fat and looked like EXACTLY how i want to look. #like. ur fucking telling me. that could be me?? like right now???????? #tbh if i had the same will to exercise that i did when i was 14 id be past that girl #id literally be dead #ouughhhh anyway. #my main ed tag is just. #ed #but. im gonna tag this more so i cover everything #ed tw #ed cw #ok ty for reading.. if u did then kissy for u!! i hope u had/r currently having a good day <3

[kyuala]

cravity as exes

serim

he swears he's not trying to make this harder on you but your family keeps inviting him over for dinner and he just can't say no to them

i feel like serim is gonna have trouble functioning the first few days without you because you were genuinely such a huge part of his life and now that's gone

physically restrains himself from calling you whenever he gets any news - good or bad - bc you were always the first person he'd tell. it's instinct

i feel like with serim the decision to stay friends after the breakup or not could rly make it or break it for y'all. if getting back together isn't on the table he'd rather just be gone from your life completely. if it is tho....

probably the one to suggest getting back together tbh. he'd just rather work through whatever issue it was with you by his side

allen

too nice for his own good but i say this abt allen all the time bc it's true

but like, if things ended in a particularly nasty way (ie you cheating on him), i dont think he would think twice before setting some boundaries (nicely) and putting his own well-being first

still, is nice to you should you run into each other sometime but doesn't really wanna stay friends friends in case it makes it harder for his feelings for you to go away

throws himself into work whenever he finds himself missing you too much or longing for your old relationship. the type to try to work through this stuff on his own

i feel like getting back together could be a 50/50 chance with allen. you're never gonna know until you bring it up but if it does happen i think he'll make sure you both work to change and make it work this time

jungmo

an enigma. he seems hurt but how hurt is he? does he agree with this? does he want to get back together? is he already engaged to someone else? you're never gonna know unless you straight up ask him

if y'all decide to stay friends he is going to be a little awkward but as sweet as ever

when he truly gets over it he might even encourage you to go out there and try it with someone new! jungmo would be a wonderful ex tbh

i feel like he would just deal with this a lot better and in a healthier way than most. yea he gets sad about it but that's part of it for him, you know? he's not gonna dwell on it too much

if the chance to get back together comes up i don't think he would give it a lot of thought tbh lmfao if he misses you he'll wanna do it. if he doesn't he'll politely decline simple as that

woobin

academy award for best actor in the role of "totally okay with it when, really, he's not"

ruby is actually so good at hiding his feelings in this situation it would take a rly good set of eyes from his closest friends to notice he's actually Going Through It™

he would never be anything but nice to you but i feel like he would lowkey ignore you, at least for the first few weeks, 'cause he just doesn't know how to feel and it's a lot for him to process

gets really introspective when he's alone but not in the sense that he thinks a lot about you and the good moments you both shared - more like overanalyzing every little thing to try to figure out where things went wrong

again, doesn't really know how to feel when faced with the prospect of resuming the relationship. even tho he wouldn't rly be able to determine what went wrong, i feel like ruby would probably decide against it bc he strikes me as a "what is done is done" kind of guy

wonjin

goes into shock before getting sad as hell and claiming he's "hit rock bottom" (cue hyeongjun in the background "thats a glass of MILK wonjin")

says he doesn't care anymore and then keeps tabs on you LMFAO

feel like he would have a good ass cry abt your breakup like 3 times a week at least

if u speak to any other guy and he finds out he'll go into cardiac arrest while monologuing abt having been "replaced"

suggest getting back together tho and suddenly he'll start acting brand new like he's gonna have to think about it but if ur like alright nvm he's like NO NO WAIT I'LL DO IT

minhee

the type to keep your photos and videos together in a secret folder on his phone to look at when he's alone and missing you

but like literally deleted your number a couple of days after the breakup specifically so he wouldn't feel tempted to call you

absolutely makes a point of still being polite to you when you run into each other even if it was a nasty breakup

i feel like flashes of your lips and your most intimate moments would plague his mind when he's like trying to work or something lmfao he'd be angry as hell

will NOT even consider getting back together unless he's 100% sure the issues that led to the breakup have been thoroughly resolved

hyeongjun

SO dramatic god he will annoy everyone at the dorm and every single soul who'll listen with how much he talks about you

keeps loudly sighing around the house and slamming doors and minhee has to be like dude they're not even here stop doing that

probably gets emotional a lot and has to hold back his feelings when he's around you, so he gets noticeably quieter and teary-eyed

if u still hang out with the same mutual friends he regularly comes up to you at parties and dreamily sighs about "we did have some good times didn't we" and ur like ????

honestly probably thinks the breakup is bullshit i feel like he'd try to make up and get back together like 3 minutes into it

taeyoung

will give you the option to stay friends even if you hurt him real bad

will keep hanging out with the same friends you have in common and will be upset if you refuse to 'cause he lowkey kinda expects to still see you around

i feel like for taeyoung staying friends is gonna make things a lot easier - still seeing you, still laughing with you, still having you in his life. being cut off from your life entirely and abruptly would make the whole thing harder for him

tries not to get caught up in nostalgia and missing you and honestly actually succeeds

the idea of getting back together is lowkey always in the back of his mind. like the minute you suggest it he says yes, doesn't even have to think about it

seongmin

petty ex 🗣️

but only bc your breakup hit him harder than he'd like to admit, whoever made the decision

type to block u on all socials tbh

doesn't like to talk about it and doesn't want to hear what you've been up to and how you've been, like it will take a whiiiiile for him to open up even to his closest friends

if the idea of getting back together comes up a huge weight is gonna be lifted off his shoulders but i also feel like seongmin would need to take a few days to think about it and be sure. he doesn't want to go through this again :/

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#cravity #cravity scenarios #cravity imagines #cravity reactions #cravity headcanons #cravity fluff #cravity angst #cravity x reader #serim #allen ma #jungmo #woobin #wonjin #minhee #hyeongjun #taeyoung #seongmin #allen #mari.doc #my first time writing for them yeehaw! hope yall like it ♡

[reonagisolos]

Personal ninjago hcs!!!

- Cole has vilitigo and the patches occur most around his eyes and chest!!! There's minor occurrences of it in his arms but not as much as those other areas

- Jay is a HUGE fan of bo burnham and has referenced him during his time as a show host (also cried when inside came out)

- If there isn't a baddie terrorising the streets, the ninja will have weekly game night!!! (I'm saying anything from monopoly to chess to cards against humanity)

- (i stole this from my friends hc abt another character, but like reversed) The only decent thing cole can cook is a pan-fried egg. The only thing zane somehow can't cook for the life of him is a soft boiled egg

- Despite nya literally being the controller of water, jay is probably the best at all water sports!! (with nya just behind his level of this)

- nya has the highest spice tolerance

- Both cole and jay knit and occasionally sew stuff together!! Both of them learned it from their parents from a young age and it's been an occasional hobby for the two of them since!!

- every once and a while, zane gets his head filled with ram and has to have some of his memories removed so that he can properly process information (he tends to perfom really weirdly otherwise)

- Since zane is the ice ninja, he has a special compartment somewhere in his system that is basically a minj freezer ( they store frozen chicken nuggets inside)

- Even if jay is a twink isn't as muscular in the arms as the other ninja, he has a surprising amount of muscle strength (sorta in the arms but most obvious in the legs :)) JAY HAS THICK MUSCULAR THIGHS I WILL NOT LIE WOOOO)

- While everyone knows that jay is a fruity gremlin who can and could crush you in heels while smoothly applying concealer, kai is pretty good at makeup too!! Reason on why he's good is because of his fan base and therefore must look good on camera at all times. Jay is the one who taught him all his tricks, which he himself learned some time ago even prior to the pilot because he was bored

- i think it's pretty commonplace as a hc but all the ninjas have scars from their battles!!

- if the ninja ever existed irl then jay and lloyd would've been tumblr kids i will not explain

- if jaya ever have a wedding you're betting my ass jay is wearing the gown

- there was a point where wu had the ninja clean the bounty every single day as punishment and training for something

- all of the ninja get white hairs over time due to stress and have all at one point or another asked one another to get rid of some of the white hairs except for zane ofc (my hc is that they want to look as young as possible so that the kids could somehow see them as stronger somehow?? Doesn't make sense but whateves)

- they all have color coordinated matching friendship bracelets i can only assume zane got them to strengthen their bond!! whenever they have a casual outing they all wear those bracelets

- pixal and nya have a girls night out sometimes and the first time they did it the boys stalked them to see what they were doing sp they could prank them. neither were amused

- pixal and zane have matching jewelry sets that they wear a lot both during and outside of work!! they are matching jewel necklaces!!

- jay and zane have sessions where one will excessively ramble about one thing while the other listens (this goes both ways and while the other ninja do it with them occasionally it happens the most between these two because they tolerate that stuff a lot better than the rest)

- disco nights happen.

- the lightning chicken was named by jay and while i dont know the name none of the other ninja use it and exclusively call the chicken bastard baby and all other iterations of such

#ninjago #jay ninjago #kai ninjago #nya ninjago #cole ninjago #ninjago headcanons #ninjago masters of spinjitzu #pixal ninjago #i am so sorry lloyd stans I have main 4 and nya brainrot 90% of the time I think of ninjago #and occasionally pixal

[babysizedfics]

romans teethers

after my latest fic pink crayons and pinky promises we saw that roman chews his toothbrush

but as u can see in the fic, it hurts romans gums and is generally bad for his teeth, thats why the cgs are all so adamant he not do it, but roman disobeys anyway... so logan and patton tried to get him to try chewelry instead

but the wood ones hurt romans teeth and make him feel weird, and he thinks the silicon ones are too squeaky, so he doesnt really like any of them :( but he pretends to choose one to get his cgs to stop pestering him about it

then one time at a sibling sleepover, roman is chewing his toothbrush again and complains about the chewlery not feeling good to vee

and vee suggests she has a baby teether that she hardly ever used bc shes too much of a baby to chew things when shes regressed

roman is pretty embarrassed that she even suggested it but vee says its okay but he can always ask her again if he changes his mind....

then a couple hours later roman asks if he can see it..

he is embarrassed bc it is obviously made for babies, its colourful and waterfilled, but he keeps fidgeting with it and squeezing it as they talk and he WANTS to chew it but he doesnt want to look like a baby especially in front of his baby sister

and vee is so sensitive to other ppls emotions she understands - so she grabs her dummy and suckles it while they chill and watch a cartoon

and then a few minutes in roman feels safe enough to try the teether and he rlly likes it 😭😭🥺🥺

he uses it when they have sleepovers a couple more times but ONLY if vee is half little and using her dummy - and everytime roman promises he will wash it and return it the next day but then vee tells roman he can keep it she doesnt use it at all

so roman starts using it in his own time too

but its meant for babies!! and roman isnt a baby of course!! so he keeps it a secret and asks vee not to tell anyone about it which she of course agrees to

then the way the caregivers find out....

when logan was getting roman into his jammies one night, he was wrestling romans arm out of his sleeve - then he hears a sudden CLACK and romans eyes went wide and they both look down to see the teether has fallen out of romans sleeve onto the bed

and logan was about to smile and ask if roman likes using it but as soon as he saw romans face bright red and tearful he realised "oh no ..." then roman literally started shoving him out of his room hysterically yelling GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT

before logan could say a single word he was pushed out of the room and roman slammed the door

but logan spoke a little thru the door "its alright, roman, im not going to say anything about it. But please know that theres nothing wrong with what i jsut saw. i dont know if youre still little right now, but please come and get me if you need anything at all. i'm going to be in my room okay?"

logan just waits ... then heard a small sniffle and eventually: "......okay"

the next day logan and patton did gently talk to roman to try to get through this misplaced shame but they didnt find much success. roman was so embarrassed and closed off during the talk they hardly got anywhere with it, roman was just pouting and blushing the whole time

because he doesnt want it to be a big deal! he just wanted smth to make his mouth feel good and he HATES that he feels so insecure abt it - he KNOWS that its not smth thats rlly so mortifying but it FEELS mortifying and the fact that he cant make that feeling go away makes him feel even more powerless

roman is still embarrassed to use his teether after this conversation even with all of his cg's reassurance that it doesnt make him a baby - until one day he is upset with his mommy and tearfully asks if he can get his teether (logan of course helps him fetch it and dutifully doesnt point out how roman hides it in his sleeve as he chews it and sits in logans lap)

in general roman doesnt like using his teether around people at first

around vee its okay but ONLY if she is half regressed or fully regressed and not aware of that much

he outright refuses to use it around his nana because its too embarrassing, and he wont use it with his daddy either bc hes worried patton will baby him

((alrhought since both janus and patton like getting everyone presents, they DO sometimes see teethers they know roman will like and buy them - but they always always give them to logan first so that logan can give them to roman so that they dont embarrass him 😭))

side note these are romans teethers

roman is a little shy to use it around his mommy at first but is the most comfortable with him. he can happily chew his teether with logan within a few weeks but he still much prefers hiding his face or the teether while he does and is v shy about talking abt it

logan never ever is like 'do u need ur teether' bc thats TOO babyish sounding for roman so he just does it wordlessly OR HES LIKE "sweetheart, do you want your blue bear?"

then roman blushes and fidgets and says "um... please can i have the red monkey please?" rlly quiet and logan just nods and doesnt make it a big deal and he goes to get roman his teether

AND waaahhh and he might walk past patton in the kitchen while he's getting romans teether from the fridge.. and patton sees logan getting the teether and they dont say anything bc it would be disrespectful to romans wishes but they do share lil soft smiles

also !! 🥺 i kinda think roman might be comfy using it around jamal eventually.... because he knows jamal never sees him as a baby and jamal already told him it would be okay if roman used pacifiers, so roman figures using a teether is definitely okay. jamal has just managed to seriously break through romans barriers of shame and its so good for them

but even with logan or jamal if he uses it then he faces away from them or keeps the teether hidden behind his hand or in his sleeve while he uses it

but he does eventually in the future get to a point where he will be able to use it openly in fromt of all the family, just like imagine the teether hangin out his mouth while he colours a picture for nana and his feets kicking behidn him and a bit of drool drips onto the page from him chewing it HAJDJJSJSJS

pattons like "hes grown so much :')" and logan is like "yes he is far more emotionally mature now"

meanwhile janus is eyeballing the drool like "...... if you say so"

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