I was tagged by @justalarryblog, @laynefaire, @tempolarriefix, @larryyouknow, @mercurial-madhouse, @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed, @jacaranda-bloom, @zannithinks, @disgruntledkittenface, and @evilovesyou to share a snippet of my WIP. This is from what I’m writing for @1daboficfest, I hope you like it!
“I’m so sorry, I really didn’t mean to have this happen. I had no idea she’d do this, and I didn’t know how to tell her that the two of us who’d been supposedly dating for so long don’t sleep together? And you said that about calling me over too, which like, what am I supposed to do about that? I’m sure I could…”
Harry continued to ramble, clearly agitated, and Louis found it amusing, but he was also kind of in the midst of a breakdown, so he shut Harry out. He felt awful for doing it when Harry was clearly thinking he was already angry, but Louis couldn’t bring himself to care when he was a bit concerned about his breathing.
Fuck. Shit. All of the thoughts that he’d been battling ever since Drew had ended things were crashing back into his head, overwhelming him. He’d worked so hard to rid himself of them, and he rarely had to worry about it now, but it was because he’d closed himself off. He’d not allowed an alpha to even so much as brush against him unless absolutely necessary for years. He refused to date. He attended regular therapy. And all of that combined worked. All of the voices in his head that had slowly started sounding more and more like himself that constantly tore him apart had faded away.
After not dealing with them for so long, Louis had somehow become weaker. He wasn’t used to constantly battling them anymore, so having them suddenly coming and speaking their vile words again had him instantly panicking and unsure how to start pushing them back into the locked cage he’d kept them in.
Never good enough.
I now tag @sadaveniren, @hazzabeeforlou, @bottomlinsons, @fallinglikethis, @kingsofeverything, @louandhazaf, and @dinosaursmate
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