#but one thing i can identify is match cuts bc theyre like the easiest thing to identify. theyre very easy to see happen. and they look cool!

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

not exactly flashy but it is pretty fast, like, 2-4 clips per second

inspiration (in music, style, theme even, accidentally, i basically copied the whole thing)

so i melted all the words in my thasmissy fic, added yazs sexual awakening and whipped it until it formed peaks, carefully folded in the doctor’s childhood trauma, added a pinch of missys whole situation with clara, poured it all into my video editor and i baked it for two weeks at whatever temperature my laptops processor gets when i run premiere. this is the result, entitled: With The Power Of The Kuleshov Effect I Can Make Thasmin Kiss

the story of this fic is that yaz and 13 travelling after revolution at some point run into missy because lo and behold one of missys doctor-catching traps actually works and she has successfully lured in a doctor. too bad it’s the wrong one.

when 13 realises this is missy circa s9, pre-vault times, she gets it into her pretty little traumatised head that if she reforms this missy, then the doctor falls doesnt happen, the master doesnt happen, gallifrey doesnt happen, she can get her friend back and undo the destruction of gallifrey, and maybe even unknow the things shes learnt about the timeless child

obviously this is 1) incredible ‘your control freakiness is making you disrespect your friends’ autonomies and also is gonna get you all hurt’ behaviour, and 2) a very bad idea because rewriting not just your own personal timeline but also the master’s and also yaz’s (and bill’s and nardole’s, like a ‘how many of your friends can you hurt at once’ bingo and shes winning) is gonna result in some very unsustainable and very painful paradoxes. which she cant tell yaz or missy about because they’d get rightfully mad for starters and also because neither of them know Anything about s10. so 13 is like ‘im gonna quietly suffer as i try to rewrite the last century and a half of my life’ in some clara-like mindset of “i am owed”

she doesnt deserve it but she is owed. she wants these people in her life. and shes sick of losing. so shes just gonna take what she wants.

so vault times 2.0, which is actually 1.0 for missy and shes not actually in a vault shes just hanging out with them in the tardis, basically skipping the first 70 years of the vault times bc she proves herself in the first chapter by stepping in front of yaz as shes about to get shot (was this on purpose? nobody’s sure). the doctor is still as distant as they were during the vault times. for reasons of traumatised and also it hurts to rewrite your timeline so shes Not Feeling Great and ALSO because cant accidentally let missy know what shes doing if they touch and she reads her mind.

thats whats happening, but thats not actually what the fic is about. because we’re in yaz’s pov. she has no idea about all of the doctor’s great life choices until the end when it explodes in all their faces. so what the fic is actually about is yaz having realised shes in love with the doctor but not knowing what that means, and by lack of any help from the doctor to figure out what it means, she turns to the only other person available, who is also in love with the doctor so thats great, but it’s the worst love you can imagine so thats less great. nothing good comes of any of this.

im not sure i will finish this fic but since making this video i got less stuck on it so i have hope. needs a lot of editing though so we’ll see. in the meantime have the film adaptation.

it’s about the stuff that gets stuck in our body that we cant touch, it’s about the intermingling of pleasure and pain, desire and disgust, it’s about the crossed wires and situations where youre not sure you can leave but also not sure you want to and whats the chicken and whats the egg there. it’s about unravelling ourselves like timelines unravel, with lots of blood and guts and ghosts, not pretty and not painless and not knowing what we’ll be at the end of it. it’s about all the things we havent told ourselves.

there are two versions, one with dialogue one without, because i think i managed to convey the story with just images very well, i did it with dialogue too, as well as with them combined. and i think you can see different things when the dialogue is off. like really appreciate the kuleshov in certain moments you know? i just like both versions so you get them both. bon appétit

editor’s commentary 1: intro

editor’s commentary 2: shame

editor’s commentary 3: the gay part

4.1 repeated clips: stake & snake

#I AM SO PROUD OF THIS ONE #i realised such new depths of what putting two images next to each other can Really do! like! #i watch videos that i think are great sometimes for inspiration but i cant really like. dissect what exactly works so well about them? #im not super good at that. i just watch them and hope to pick up the vibes recreate them intuitively later #(this video’s inspiration had a very distinctive style thats easy to copy though. i didnt entirely. #they used more tiny repetitions within scenes which i think is cool) #but one thing i can identify is match cuts bc theyre like the easiest thing to identify. theyre very easy to see happen. and they look cool! #so i look for them when im making videos too. there are a few in this one. like yaz missy and 13 all turning to their right our left at 0:46 #or like in the ‘on my command’ video where i matched yaz and 13 walking down the atropos stairs. that creates meaning too #but what i really really learned with this video is that the most meaning is created in CONTRAST #the bigger the difference the more meaning springs up between two shots #like in the first 20 seconds. the difference in emotion between each shot is really what creates the meaning there i think #it’s like. 13: dont leave. yaz+13:happy. 13: youre not leaving? 13: dont ask me questions i dont want to answer. 13: youre not leaving? #13: DONT ask me questions i dont want to answer. yaz: i want more time with you. 13: dont leave me. yaz: frustrated. #13: anticipating disappointing. #it’s the interplay between those shots that creates SO MUCH MEANING. it’s not about matching them. emotionally or visually #(although i think matching visually but contrasting emotionally might be super potent? should try that sometime) #it’s about the difference. the further apart two moments lie the more meaning springs up between them when you connect them #i guess this is like rule 1 in any art that definition lies in contrast but i had a lot of fun learning that with this video #and IM SO GLAD I FINISHED IT #im so so happy with it #and if i start having ideas again someone spritz me with a water bottle like a naughty cat asjdkhjgh #i cant do this again (i say while already having started the next video in my head rip) #also let me know if theres interest in a directors commentary? #or editors commentary i guess technically? #i could probably talk for ages about all the meaning and Intentions i stuffed into this video #but idk if that'd be interesting or if everyone would just be like 'yeah. DUH. we can See That' #so idk let me know if that would be interesting. no promises tho. maybe i have nothing more to say about it all. maybe ive said it all #thasmissy