Heidi haters are so immature, like youre what, a 13 year old little girl? You really think Tom would divorce his wife just because you hate her and is a jealous little hater? Aint no way….
Heidi and Tom actually loves eachother, and people spreads stupid rumours? Dont you want your idol to be happy? Tom really deserves to be happy, and so does Heidi. Like, leave them the fck alone 🤦
You dont have to like Heidi, but atleast show a little respect and stop with the rumours and shit
LOOK HOW ADORABLE THEY ARE, HOW CAN YOU WANT TO RUIN THEIR RELATIONSHIP ? 😔
AND to people saying that Heidi is making Bill and Tom stay apart, aint no way she is. Just because Tom and Bill arent togheter 24/7 doesnt mean that they are «growing from each other😔😣», Tom just simply has his own life, and so does Bill.
Like look at these pics, they all look so happy and looks like theyre having a great time togheter🤷♀️
I had to write an whole article because i am so done with Heidi haters atp😭
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12, 14, 21 :)
since u didnt specify, im going with demi on these because they skew a little more towards an adult/her 😔 i luv her and i luv u
12. Does your OC's family practice any faith or religion? Does your OC still practice? Why or why not?
demi's father came from a converted christian background and her mother's family practiced shamanism. sam henry was pretty firm on their family being christian but since he was away so often, their actual church attendance and worship was spotty and josephine was able to teach her kids some shamanism and tell those stories in his absence. their actual religious affiliation deteriorated by the time demi was a teenager, so she never felt particularly aligned with one or the other. currently, she doesnt practice any religion (demi voice: do u ever think about god and just kind of. feel nothing?? jesse voice: All The Time), but she has gone back to shamanism a few times to reacquaint herself with the faith so she could tell baby about it as it pertains to their yupik culture. demi appreciates and respects it, but shes never felt particularly moved by any faith or spiritual practice
14. Who was your OC's first love? How do they remember that person now?
demi had a few crushes in middle and high school, but her first "love" was a boy she met her sophomore year of college in an applied chemistry class—peter. he was from anchorage and had the kind of bright eyes and radiant smile that demi was used to seeing in celebrities; seeing that smile was enough to turn her to jello. demi was able to muster the confidence to talk to him since they were in the same group for class's lab component, and was just enamored with his intellect and easygoing confidence. the latter kind of reminded her of samantha, how she so easily slipped into any conversation or social arrangement. it was a trait demi had always admired. they got lunch on campus a few times and hung out and even made out, but demi eventually realized he wasnt really interested in having a relationship with her. it was like she was a practice round for him before he moved on to a "better" girl. for a long while demi just misses peter, but her recollections of him become tinged with bitterness and sadness as she gets older and recognizes how blasé he really was about her feelings.
21. If your OC could speak to their childhood self, what would they say?
oh my god. "it's going to be ok. it's going to be so hard, but it's going to be ok. u deserve peace and ur going to get it. the world is better because ur in it, i promise. don't let anyone convince u otherwise."
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no yeah i do agree that its much more in character for di leon to be annoying than it is for re6 leon but i just love re6 leon so much i have to make everything about him</3 also hes so fun(<- entertaining? idk if id call some stuff about him fun) to think about what it'd be like if he did have a partner just because his re6 storyline is very... ada-heavy. which i absolutely adore btw. most romantic shit ever it gets me so bad every single time i play and also just... me too leon i too am obsessed with her 😔
anyways let me get back on topic,, i do think re6 leon is not as annoying but he doesnt let a opportunity slip. he does it in a more private way tho i feel like. like he wouldnt tell a random person about it but if helena (<- will forever be mad we didnt get more of leon and helena. they're best friends to ME alright. he loves her</3) asked about any marks or about why he's walking weird... he's telling her. not in detail or anything (cause i think di leon would go into the weirdest details 😭) but he does say something just cause he's a little shit still</3 i love him so much god i need to squeeze him really hard. like one of those dog toys that squeak
no bc u right like you're so immensely correct and i feel like you deserve to be told as such. di leon i need to hold gently in my arms and brushing his hair out of his eyes and tell him he's everything to me but re6 leon i need to bite viciously. that man will just be covered in teeth marks by the time im done with him. i will bite into him like a dog trying to get the stuffing out of its toy. give him to me nowwww
I GENUINELY DON'T GET HOW PEOPLE CAN DISLIKE ADA OMG she is my babygirl she is my sunshine the light of my life.
leon and helena's relationship is so precious to me especially bc i am literally helena. anyway yeah uhmmm he has the ability to be a little shit but idk i could also see him being kind of shy about it.
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4, 12, 19 ;)
choose violence ask game
4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?
there are very rarely last straws bc if im gonna block someone its often the first time they say something i hate. but there was one time someone had been vaguely annoying for a while but i liked some of their posts so i didnt block them but the final straw was slightly mischaracterizing ollie while i was already in a bad mood fhdjkafdjs
12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them
not really a character but i dont want to give an obvious answer so im gonna say haley aka bitewing aka the dog from tom taylors nightwing run </3 i know a lot of ppl dont like her bc she represents a lot of whats bad in his nightwing run but its not her fault she was written by tom taylor 😔 bitewing is a casualty in the war against taylor and she doesnt deserve it 💔
19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...
okay everyone get your block button ready. theres a lot of deathstroke stuff i actually really enjoy
LISTEN. i dont like him. i am extremely loud about the fact that i hate him so much. but he compels me :(
when hes written right i like the whole "hes a terrible person that actually does love his kids but hes also the worst so he never gets it right and they will always be better off without him" thing !! deathstroke 2016 my beloved does it so well bc that book usually doesnt try to say "but slade is actually a really good guy deep down 🥺" its really just "sometimes his heart is in the right place but more often than not hes a dick that cant do anything right"
i just think hes an interesting character when hes like,, used right. and more often than not he is NOT used right but on the beautiful occasion that hes written in a compelling way i enjoy him showing up <///3
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s&b season2ep4 reaction!! book update: i finished seige and storm. it was lwk boring and im literally so mad bc alina deserves SO much better than mal hes such a hoe. anyways
help whats going on i kinda forgot what happened in the last episode
time to go read my own reaction
HELL NAH ITS BEEN A WHOLE WEEK SINCE I WATCHED THIS SHOW?? anyways i kinda remember the last ep now but my reaction is mostly crows stuff so it wasnt That helpful
ANYWAYS
even though mal is muchhhhhh better in the show i like the direction theyre taking with alina actually marrying nikolai
then again i havent read the kos duology (yet) so i dont know anything abt his real romance story so thats probably why i dont mind
stop mal telling alina shes his nation is so cute unlike in the books
and the way they actually do have some chemistry?? im sorry for ever hating you show malina 😔😔
is that the brother i cant tell
why does baghra lwk piss me off ...i cant tell if its because she wont stfu or because shes js boring
GENYA ☹️☹️
🥱🥱
FINALLY
"it'll give me some comfort to know you're with me" ohhhdhfmyygodddd and then her smile ahhhh
i cant tell if inej is mistaking kaz telling her to leave the city as him wanting her gone, when in reality hes js tryna protect her
or if shes just not promising it because she cant
theyre so complicated they make me sick (i love them 😭😭😭)
AWW THE I LIKE YOUR STUPID FACE LINE its different but whatever
WAITT JESPER BASICALLY CALLED HIM AND KAZ BROTHERS AND KAZ DIDNT EVEN DISAGREE?? HE LITERALLY AGREED
no cuz i actually thought kaz was gnna punch him or something but thats nice
no mourners no funerals 🙏🙏
NINA DECKING KAZ HELL YEAH I NEEDED TO SEE THAT
Dont take this as me disliking kaz btw hes my 2nd favorite character i js need to see him being put in his place
i have the most out of pocket thing to say but im not gnna say it
there are two heartrenders right there why dont they just check his pulse to see if hes lying
oh now they do it
i feel like maybe this is how they incorporate the crows into alina's plot - they'll ask them to find the sword since theyre criminals and know more than just the "wider black market"
IM LITERALLY A GENIUS HELLO????
NOT ME PREDICTING IT LIKE 2 SECONDS BEFORE HE SAYS IT
they cant just show kaz and nina for two seconds and then cut to another scene hello
OH NVM its an inej scene 🙏🙏
its so dark i can barely tell whats happening
oh they did the pox thing too they really taking half of crooked kingdom's plot huh
yeah now they decide to explain the plan
kaz is actually being so much like book kaz in this scene
"the trick is not to love anything" YEAH YOU KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT... and with nina in the background too?? i wish inej was here tho like in the books
i think shes busy saving those randos
"something you'd sacrifice everything for and it makes you weak" stop projecting
SIX FEET DEEP
see inej really needs to be here now nina and jesper kinda know his backstory but she doesnt
then again its more meaningful if he tells her on his own time
HIS SMIRK
"im begging you" "are you?" hes not begging but i can
sorry
HIM ASKING FOR THE QUITCLAIM DEED FOR INEJ 🥺🥺 him liquifying everything he owns in the books is still better tho
THE LOOK IS HIS EYES - this is not freddy carter acting as kaz this is LITERALLY kaz
lmfaoo the offended look on toyla's face
WHYD THAT ACTUALLY SCARE ME (the guy sneaking up behind mal)
ok so i have a class so i'll watch the rest later
im backkk
seeing that vasily guys face after a few hours is such a jumpscare like why is he so ugly
bruh i jus realized theyre not gonna do the thing where inej cuts a line above pekkas heart 😐another kanej moment wasted
hjdkfk wylan hiding under the table when jesper asks him out
this conversation is so awkward i keep pausing it 😭
its cute tho
omg just kiss already the tension is getting to me
finally!!! 🙏🙏
WAIT FUCK I JS REALIZED THATS ANOTHER MOMENT WASTED CUZ THEY CANT DO THE JESPER KISSING THE WRONG GUY THING IF THE SPINOFF HAPPENS
im not really liking how they did wesper anyways.... with the whole one night stand thing... 😐
ok. yeah. wow. go from super cute fluffy wesper to kanej angst. yeah. remind me of what i dont have.
kaz saying that theres a weak link in the crew and inej thinks it means her but hes actually talking ab HIMSELF because shes his weakness and shes the person he would sacrifice everything for and AUGHHH
the difference between the show and the books when kaz gives her the paper is crazy
wish they had kept the book's scene fr
waittt is nikolai adopted??
oh he is
tamar and nadia definitely have something going on its already canon that nadia is into girls so!!
did the vasily guy die i hope he did 🙏🙏
why didn't baghra just. do that before. yk BEFORE she got her damn finger cut off
"your obsession with the fold is naive" is bro talking about alina or himself
and thats it watch me wait another week again before watching the next episode 💀
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EPISODE 7!!!!!!!
OH OH CAMP PROM
ej promised gina he’d save the last dance for her… (the foreshadowing-)
omg gina and the rest of the girls look so good!!! and ricky choked on his fruit punch 😭
rip gina just asked ej to dance with her and he said ‘a couple more prompts’ because hes running lines with everyone because 24 hours til showtime (yk what i understand, they've barely had 2 weeks to put this musical on, id be stressed as hell)
Breakup :(
Im honestly so sad because this could've been done so much better and i really am cursing out the writers room because irrespective of shipping, the writing is so off this season and the breakup could've been so much better.
NO WHY WAS THEIR BREAKUP EMOTIONAL MOMENT CUT OFF BY COMEDIC MOMENT??
FOUL
there was a season 2 breakup with 2 of the other main characters (ricky and the other love square girl) and in comparison, that was done so much better, there was care and thought put into this and not that there isnt for the portwell breakup BUT WHAT IS THIS???
Omg ricky and gina in a room and tension and shes sad and crying and hes like *i wanna help*
Oh my god ricky was about to tell gina about his feelings and then gina saw ej and tension and he asked what happening and she told him about breakup so he decided not to
FINALE EPISODE!!!!!!!
RICKY’S BIRTHDAY!
Oh ricky went to go find gina
IM HAVING EMOTIONS
pain
well half this episode is just showtime
oH ALSO 2nd girl of the love square is here but she always does for opening nights regardless and its so supportive and loving and AH (also the actress who plays her isnt returning for the next seasons so this is a send off)
No no nooooooooo
ej calling his dad and his dad not even doing the bare minimum of checking on his kid and now hes breaking down but its okay because his friend is there
OK well fast forward and they’re at the premiere of the documentary and the trailer is basically a reality tv trailer where theyre all depicted like enemies and backstabbers
this is so messy
omg there was a part in the trailer where ricky and gina were alluded to be getting together and right after the trailer ended, gina said she’s sorry but ej said she doesnt have to be, we all saw this coming 😭
oh great confession
and kiss
great
SO THAT WAS SEASON THREE
my least favorite season for many reasons like half the cast being mia, the way characterization was (specifically ej’s) and how some plots seemed thrown in
I may have to cleanse and rewatch season 1 and 2
I cant believe they broke up skfjsjd and so unsatisfyingly too??? Bc of bad communication skfjsd I'm crying 😭😭 what about everything they built up before 😔😔 what a waste
No way they interrupted the breakup with a comedic moment 💀💀 that really is foul oml
It's fully possible to write a realistic and acceptable breakup, but from what I'm getting from your description and all the analysis people were posting in the hsmtmts tag this was very much not that lol. Also its really funny to me that they end every season with a breakup 😂
Not ricky about to tell gina about his feelings when as far as he knew she was still in a relationship 🤨 at least he held back in the end lol
The second girl in the square is nini right? I still have no idea what she even looks like lol. Good that she got a nice send off tho!
I feel rlly bad for ej hhh he lost both his last summer and his girlfriend 🥲 they really did him dirty, based on what i've seen in the tag lol people were out there writing essays 😭😭 and he deserved some appreciation for putting so much time and effort into the program, and yet he got so little 🥲 big oof that his dad didn't even acknowledge his efforts skdjs he deserves better
I saw the rina kiss and confession in gifs, and yea it was sweet skfjd they shot and acted it really well.
Not ej saying they all saw it coming tho lol rip
The trailer being huge drama bait tho skdjs I saw a clip that someone posted and it really was peak evil editing 😂😂 I wonder what impact it will have
I was going through the tag the day the episode came out and people were speaking facts about how they butchered ej's character, it's so sad 🥲 hopefully the next season will be better for him. At least Gina is happy tho? So ig that's something lol
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🐇 anon here !
wow eye,, the new chapter is insane miss yus! first off, thank you so much for giving us an update aka what we dont deserve hehe 💗
i love it so much. i can see this getting so messy
im really feeling stuck between the two and im SO broken. not jungkook being a simp for oc as we expected 🥱🤤 i felt healed and then broken all at the same time. ughhh... and junho 🥺
i really yearn for this family too. im absolutely shook. cant tell however, if jungkook is just playing us again. kinda like how an abuser will try and make the victim forget about their wrongs by throwing an emotional fit. hm. or maybe im super happy because i knew he was gonna crack eventually. he probably was telling the truth? the smut was so steamy 🥵 i could feel the toxicity through my screen. oof. down bad.
anyways. taehyung is THAT boyfie. wow wow wow. i just have no words. so in love with this. hes so hot. i live for the jealously on both sides. i hope oc doesnt hurt him. i can already see her feeling guilty asf. imperfect characters its all so realistic feeling i love it.
i do however, am interested in the whole textile thing. im trying to piece stuff together but im just so so suprised everytime i read. you really have a gift, yus. this is amazing writing. its all relevant information being given yet im so not ready to hear it all. i dont really trust jimin........ pls trust ur gut oc. although, not sure if thats worked out for her in the past. my poor baby.
junho, oc and jk never reached the beach... hmmm metaphor? wondering if this is just a huge facade/set up waiting to break our heart all over again. im trusting in your words that they will get a happy ending 😭 im being edged in the best way possible.
thank you!
p.s. fuck sora. im apart of that club for sure 🔫 i want her gone lol. im onto her
hey !! ofc jk is a simp for miss oc 🤚🏻 i definitely see your confusion w jk. like we don’t really know if he’s being sincere or if he knows oc too well 🫣 predicting how she would react etc. ig we’ll see…
tae 🫦 literally where can i get a bf like him. he’s so hot & jealous in a totally non-toxic way *hint hint* & her guilt is there meaning that she does feel a lot for him :(
ah thank you 🥹 yes yes it’s all very relevant and we’ll definitely get more info about the textile business. do you guys remember that jk has another warehouse in the area where oc, tae, yoongi, etc live?? yeh
i agree. oc should just trust her gut about jimin 😔 YES !! i mentioned before that the beach is a metaphor for something. i think someone got it 👀 it’s supposed to be ~something~ that ~one/all of them~ yearn for.
LMAO the sora hate club is alive & thriving i see. tysm for reading <333
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Hi Chris! Live action stone ocean :]
NoooooOOOOOO 😭😭😭
God okay jts under the cut its so long i hate it so much
Jolyne is played by chloe bennet who i only know from the stupid powerpuff girls cw thing which would basically end up being powerpuff girls riverdale but i dont think its happening anymore. Anyways someone who is willing to be on the cw is willing to star in this im sorry
Hermes is played by Aubrey plaza who is apparently Puerto Rican so the producers can say theyre trying even though hermes still has dreads and it looks really awkward. Also not everyone sees hermes as butch but since i do and i want to cause as much psychic damage as possible hermes is advertised as very masc but its definitely these vibes
And it leads to so much discourse about how women can still be feminine and kick ass uwu 🥺🥺🥺. Also hermes kisses some random woman who is VERY MUCH NOT jolyne so they can say they have gay rep. Jolynes bisexuality is completely erased </3
Foo fighters im giving to kaitlyn dever who...i only know as the love interest from dear evan hansen and she probably deserves better than that </3 but anyways shes kind of got a baby face and idk a lot of people love to give that to foo so. Also foo is not nonbinary here and uses she/her pronouns 😔😔😔 and shes probably just some random prisoner since they dont want to spread the cgi budget too thin. Also foo is so so normal in this im sorry shes guy some lady (derogatory) you are not gonna see her doing any of the weird shit she does
Anasui is god i think i have to go for tom Holland who has no swag and anasui definitely needs to be played by someone with swag if you want people to even tolerate him so </3 it doesnt matter tho its tom holland he gets a dedicated fanbase the second the cast list is out and anasui becomes an uwu soft boy. Also hes got short hair now and wears like an actual outfit 😡 i dont even think they would dye tom hollands hair you cant mess up his image at all he needs to he so so marketable so they manage to make anasui as cishet as possible
Weather report ....idk but i want to say oscar isaac? Like its another case of i can definitely see it because no matter how much of a tumblr sanction man he becomes hes still a good actor. I want to say more but its definitely spoilers just know this causes so much discourse and its actually justified
Emporio idk who are the kid actors nowadays??? I want to say like fucking one of the stranger things kids but theyre all like 20 now or some shit. I think instead of going for finn wittock again theyre casting gavin matarazzo because emporio is now the comic relief kid im so sorry
Pucci....hmmm the first name that came to mind was Jonathan majors and like idk i can see it? Which is kind of the problem thats too good i like him and i technically wasted my one good casting card with oscar isaac except not really but also i cant have two good actors here oh christ i thought about don cheadle......no i cant do that to him but like hes actually closer in age to pucci than anyone else coming to mind omg i like don cheadle but omg....idk i cant see it so its don cheadle for pucci
Idk who the fuck i casted for dio and jotaro but like sure theyre probably still the same im not casting the minor villains im so sorry except i think they get andy serkis the weird cgi man to play lane wrangler
Other points
So many orange is the new black references especially if we're going for netflix adaptation vibes and not cw vibes
Kiss has boobs now 😔 so does stand foo fighters now probably 😔😔😔
Everyone looks so boring now but thats a given...i think they give anasui khakis
They probably get a camilla cabello song for the opening and oh god i remembered camilla cabello Cinderella....NO OH GOD BILLY PORTER IS LIKE OLD ENOUGH TO BE PUCCI TOO 😭😭😭 HE CANT PULL IT OFF IM SORRY move over don Cheadle youve been spared billy porter pucci hurts me more...
Anyways!!!
Lots of #girlboss and #girlpower feminism like...think the random shot of all the marvel women in endgame for 10 seconds and then they all lose or whatever its like that like they probably give anasui and weather more fights and screentime but jolyne is men am i right 🤪
Jolysui is canon and it is so so cishet </3</3</3 theyre definitely having a big climactic kiss
Jolyne probably has the whole biker gang stuff erased from her backstory so shes sweet and innocent uwu and its replaced with a father daughter bonding montage so the audience can go awww jotaro rly does care....🥺🥺🥺
Im torn between them making conservative pucci real and or gay and homophobic pucci real...probably the second one and its definitely played for laughs also puccis probably just some guy like this stone ocean is not gonna go off the rails
Jolynes mom still doesnt have a name
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please share your red white royal blue thoughts
i know so many people love that book and i dont have a problem with them especially gay/bi people bc we accept the gay rep we think we deserve 😔 BUT that book is SO…its like someone watched hamilton or something and immediately went home and wrote red white and royal blue
but even then, i knew that going in. i knew it was gonna be some corny white liberalism so i cant even get mad at that part bc i did that to MYSELF. the thing im MAD about is how BADLY the romance was written.
like even putting aside the fact that you can tell that book is written by a white person immediately bc she writes alex like EVERY white person writes a latino character. AND putting aside the fact that you can not go two pages in that book without seeing a shoehorned pop culture reference thats trying so hard to be cool
AND even looking past the TERRIBLE politics. (bc they ARE bad)
the MOST annoying part of that book is how it just did NOT bother with any character dynamics or chemistry between the two main characters. literally 99% of the appeal of their relationship lies in their respective titles.
its like someone was like “wouldnt it be so cute if the prince of england fell in love with the first son of the us?” and then came up with fucking NOTHING beyond that
like its supposed to be enemies to friends to loves….but its straight up just not
the reason enemies to friends to loves is such a popular trope is bc it REQUIRES character development and strong character dynamics. literally the name of the trope is a step by step guide: enemies TO friends TO LOVES
this book doesnt do ANY of that despite claiming to. its just instant gratification. like for 2 people who hate each other youd expect a gradual shifting in feelings and development of their relationship…but you dont get any of that, its just completely skipped over?? the author just constantly substitutes character development for out of place sex scenes. and sometimes it feels borderline fetishizing
ALSO this is maybe the FIRST time ive read a book where the main character (alex) of the romance has been infinitely more interesting and compelling than the person theyre falling in love with
henry is SO badly written and it hurts the book more than ANY of the other things ive mentioned. she straight up did not give that dude a personality. his personality starts with “he is the prince of england” and ends right there too
alex is more interesting on his OWN than he is with henry
like those in between moments of alex just going about his life are more compelling than the one of him with his love interest
and that should NOT be the case in a romance???
theres scenes where alex is thinking about henry that just feel So weird bc henry doesnt warrant that reaction at all. i was literally reading the book like WHAT does alex see in henry? what is THERE to SEE?
character wise the author was really like: alright were gonna make alex driven and compassionate and funny and brave and for henry. well he is a prince….and that should be enough for him to be a likable main character LIKE???
i did like alexs character. unfortunately. he deserved better than this book
and then theres just little nonsenses like
making alex mixed and his white mom the president who divorces her mexican husband (which is like woke of her?) INSTEAD of making his mom, mexican AND the president??? like if youre creating an alternate universe at least go all out
his white mom naming her mexican son after alexander hamilton [looks directly into the camera]
ALL of alex/henrys arguments in the beginning were literally like tumblr arguments from 2013 where american and british people argued about who was more ethical like bro STOP this is so embarrassing for both of you
when they first met henry made a joke about getting waterboarded?? and they both kept talking about their countries atrocities in a tongue in cheek sarcastic way like BRO shut the Fuck up
theres a scene where alexs president moms talking about apologizing to netany*hu/israel out of nowhere LIKE?
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hi im sorry for coming to your ask like this but i just literally have no one to talk to :(( i kinda feel like a shitty daughter? bc like i love my mom i really do but like when she comes into my room i immediately make excuses for her to get out bc im really not comfortable around them (kinda) and like i really have a hard time opening up to them idk when it happened but it just did.. and sometimes i push her out in a harsh tone?? It's like my mouth has a brain of its own 1/? -🐓
okay i put this under a read more because it got hella long!!
like i didnt have the intention to sound harsh but it just did! i feel awful, i want to be what we were before but like it just doesnt feel the same anymore! i also feel really bad when she says smth like why i was closer to my friends than i was with her which is like partially true but not really? maybe bc i always laugh w them but when it comes to problems like these, i dont really like to talk about it... i feel sick- disgusting even?? 2/? -🐓
i just want to show my mom the love she deserves bc shes literally the most supportive person to me but like i really dont know how. Im fucking frustrated!! i really want to get a counselor but idk how bc i find it awkward to say my personal problems face to face... it's so hsrd to live like this... i just want my old self?? back when i was so happy and just had no problems to think about... idk where she went but i want her back.. 3/? -🐓
and what also made me feel super bad is bc shes really patient?? Like even tho i use a harsh tone, shell answer calmy.. and even tho i push her away she always insist to help me even in the most mundane tasks.. she doesnt deserve a daughter like me :(( and whenever she coos abt how im still her baby i just- i feel loved but like my actions says other wise bc i may look like im pissed but im actually dont?!?! i just... want her to feel i appreciate her but idrk how.. 4/?-🐓
we were so close before... i just dont know what happened to me... im such a shitty person??? im sorry i came to your ask like this... i just dont have someone to talk to... im sorry tk bother you but like thank you for keeping your anon option open?? im so sorry to bother you again im just... my mind was just not in the right place at the moment and i just need it to get this out of my chest 😔😔 -🐓 5/5-----------
okay my adhd brain and i are gonna try and take this one sentence at a time so i don’t miss anything!!!
you can always talk to me, don’t apologize!! i mean if you’re not comfortable, that’s not your fault, that’s something that she’s inadvertently done to make you feel that way. if it bothers you (and i can tell it does) i would try and talk to her about it so you can get it off your chest because harboring discomfort or similar negative emotions will just breed resentment and will ultimately push y’all farther apart. but i feel that i mean i also am very defensive when my mom comes in my room because i just like my privacy from time to time (also like [vine white kid voice] dude this is your space this is your area she can’t do that to you)
but i mean it really sounds like you might be upset with her about something subconsciously so maybe do some soul searching to find out what it is? and idk your mom personally but that’s kind of guilt-trippy for her to compare your relationship with her to your relationship with your friends :( i get that she might just be bringing it up with you because it upsets her but you don’t have to share everything with your mother. you have no obligation to tell her everything about you!! i’m not saying you should keep secrets, but i’m saying that you have a right to privacy, both physical and emotional.
and i don’t really know how to help you show your appreciation because i don’t know your love languages or anything like that but! maybe if you just tell her “thank you” and “i appreciate you” with sincerity it’s a good start! like if she offers to help you and you don’t want help, maybe be like “no thank you but i appreciate you for offering help” and if you’re comfortable and she’s comfortable--maybe give her some hugs from time to time? like i’m very cuddly and sometimes i’m in a bad mood with my mom but i always go in later and apologize and give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
and on the topic of counseling i really would recommend you talk to a counselor! i’m by no means an expert on this (though i’m happy to talk to you about it) but i do know that opening up to a counselor can be hard, but you have to be patient and wait it out. it took me a long time to find the right counselor because i didn’t feel comfortable opening up to my old ones and would just manipulate them and said what they wanted to hear, but now i have one who, with time, made me feel very comfortable with sharing personal details about my life.
i don’t mean to be blunt but i’m gonna call you out for a second. “she doesnt deserve a daughter like me” “im such a shitty person” *whacks you with a rolled up newspaper* i don’t ever want to hear you say that about yourself. your mother loves you for, i’m sure, very good reasons. i know i don’t know you personally but i’m sure you have such a beautiful soul and i don’t ever and i mean e v e r want you to say that about yourself again. you’re a wonderful person full of love and compassion--you just have trouble expressing it at times, which is perfectly normal and valid. if you were actually a shitty person you wouldn’t have sent me these messages because you wouldn’t care about how you’re making your mom feel. so: you’re not a shitty person and she does deserve a daughter like you, and if i catch you talking down on yourself again you’re gonna catch these virtual hands, missy.
also: people grow and change. you may have been through some stuff that changed your outlook on life, and you may not have noticed how significant the event was going to be at the time! speaking from personal experience, i’ve been through shit and it’s changed my personality almost entirely. i understand reminiscing and mourning the past, but it won’t do any good to do that, because you can’t go back. you can only move forward and try and bring back some of the qualities in yourself that you miss. it’ll take time, and it won’t be a linear path of progress, but you gotta keep at it if you want to see results. habits are easy to form but incredibly hard to break, so you really have to persevere.
and again, please don’t apologize. you can always talk to me, on anon or off anon. you aren’t bothering me in the slightest, my dear. i’m very glad that you feel comfortable enough that you can talk to me!! reminder that you are loved and appreciated by many and that you deserve wonderful things in your life, okay? try and do something that makes you happy today, even if it’s something small. you deserve it.
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i just read pick & roll jk and let me tell you the emotions i’m feeling rn 😭 pls i just want oc to get a new loving bf like dj who will treat her right, it was so sad but good, i reread all the angtsy parts again because #relatable, but the ending OMG🥺 y jkkkkkkk??? that’s like no coming back from now even though she’s been over it again and again, i really thought he was changing for the bette and for her ❤️🩹 i feel so bad for her 😔 rlly hope she makes her badass comeback who doesn’t need jk (or any man) and he gets jealous 💅🏻😏
also i’m sorry for rambling but this story was so good it made me feel angry and happy and a lot of mixed emotions lmao, but your such a wonderful, amazing talented writer and i can’t wait for more works you post through 👏🏻👏🏻 ty for your works that keep us entertained :)
will there be a part two?
t'was a lot 😭😭 and oc surely deserves the world and more! i tried to make this relatable in a sense, slipping in some personal stuffs. but yeah, this entire thing is hard and super heartbreaking. nba!jungkook just doesnt even realize the shit he's doing, nor does he even want to right now? idk if he ever will? he's a mess. he's the pure definition of messy in this lmao in regards to a part two, i have no idea right now. maybe not right away! it'll take some time for me to recover from this jk lolol
im glad you enjoyed it though, babe 🥺 i'm sorry for putting you through a wild rollercoaster lmfao i promise ill make up for it somehow! thank you so much for your sweet words as well!! i really appreciate you ♥️
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I JUST FINISHED READING TIPTOES AND IM PRETTY SURE YOU KNOW WHO I AM SINCE I LITERALLY READ, AND I THINK LIKED, EVERY PART BUT OH GOD I LOVED IT SO MUCH JFJSHFJDH Every so often I find a fic or smau that literally leaves me starstruck/speechless and tiptoes was definitely one of them jfjshfjs I couldn’t wait to finish it so I could come tell you how much I loved it ✋😔
At first I lowkey forgot it was even a Semi fic (because I don’t come across them often even though I lob him) and was like “why does Shiratorzawa keep popping up? Wasn’t this a Kuroo smau?” ,, don’t ask why I thought it was a Kuroo smau, idk why either,, ANYWAYS, I’m gonna share some of my favorite things because that’s how much I liked it pLS
what good are these new shoes i bought if i can't leave my room "cause he hasn't called
Idek why I liked this one so much, but something about it just felt so g o o d in my soul, like it was relatable for some reason, and I just 😔
"I would be good," Semi said, eyes locked onto yours." “To you. I would be good to you."
(SLIGHT MANGA TIMESKIP SPOILERS IN THIS ONE) HEART LITERALLY BROKEN- WHEN HE SAID “I would be good,” I STARTED MEMEING HIM BEING LIKE “I’d be such a good singer lmaooo” BECAUSE TIME SKIP SEMI,, AND THEN HE FOLLOWS UP WITH THE “To you. I would be good to you- NO. STOP. SHUT UP, YOU WANT TO SHUT UP SO BAD JDJDJGKD
"I know,” you said and Semi snapped his eyes onto yours. "I know you would be good to me."
Heart c l e n c h x7483647 you go y/n, gET YOUR MANS. GET THE LOVE YOU DESERVE AND POST ALL THE MUSIC YOU LOVE HDJNXJS Just 😔 wow,, love is real sometimes,, And when Semi DOESNT kiss her? Because he knows she does need that at that moment? Bls,, heart eyes to the m a x
Anyways, I hope your day is fantabulous and that you’re safe and healthy and you get all things good 😭
this is so sweet :< thank you for reading it and i'm really glad you liked it <3 it's been almost a year now but i still have so many fun memories from back when i was writing tiptoes. (i haven't thought about it in a while bc the relationship between y/n and semi was kinda based on my relationship at the time, but i'm still really proud of having written it)
i also vaguely remember being in a kuroo phase when i wrote it so i'm pretty sure that bled into my writing ngl 😩
thank you so much for your unnecessarily kind words, i wish you all the best <33
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At least noodle' ok now. Like she went to hell but it's ok she got better.
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