#but take this & run w it bc i just thought of it

[samioli]

I humbly ask for your NaruMitsu headcanons. Please

OOOOH man. this is hard to think on the spot but ill try my best! SFW headcanons:

-Phoenix is Bi. He also experimented with larry in college, you cannot convince me otherwise fdsnjkdsf

-Miles is gay (in my mind) and also demisexual!

-phoenix has ADHD and BPD, Miles is autistic

-Miles either makes too little eye contact or too MUCH eye contact. no in between

-Miles may pretend to be indifferent, but he LOVESSSS phoenix's scruffy look during the 7yg. finds it v hot and wants to stim on his stubble

sorry i cannot think of anymore sfw headcanons JNDFKJNDSFJK

NSFW Headcanons

-I think they're switches, but I think Miles leans more into being submissive of the two of them. Just my opinion! and i think he can def be dominant, especially if phoenix wants that.

-going off of that, i think it takes time for him to be comfortable with that too. In my head, he's tried to hook up with other men in the past, but he always felt sick to his stomach when trying. He thought for a while if he was in control that would help, and i think part of him def wants to be in control when he's with strangers, but once he's with phoenix he learns that he can start to let go of some of that control in a safe, loving environment. and eventually he's like putty in phoenix's hands

-Once Miles and Phoenix start dating, miles at this point thinks he's asexual and "warns" phoenix, bc he's concerned it might be a dealbreaker. phoenix totally understands, tells him they never have to have sex if that was what was comfortable for miles, that he loves Miles as a person. miles is so smitten with this man

-Phoenix often checks in with Miles during like kissing and everything if its all okay, and one day when they're making out, Phoenix pulls back and asks him if he's okay--Phoenix with his hair a lil messy and his checks flushed and lips swollen. and miles is like. oh

-He feels himself actually WANTING to touch phoenix and make him look even MORE disheveled and he's just SO overwhelmed but in a GOOD way and he WANTs

i think it goes down like this:

Phoenix: "U-Uh, Miles? Should we, uh--hnghh--sl-slow down, or…?" Miles stops for a moment: "Would you like to stop?" Phoenix, sheepish: "W-Well, no, but what about you? Isn't this--?" Miles: "Wright. I'm quite certain if you do not take your trousers off right this second, I will surely explode." Phoenix: Phoenix, internally: ᴏʜ ᴍʏ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ɢᴏᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛs sᴏ ʜᴏᴛ

-once thats out in the open, miles is fucking KINKY. and a horndog. me and sapphirewine have joked that they're just going at it over and over again until phoenix runs dry bc miles is insatiable now that he feels like this

-miles def has some like, fantasy kinks. micro/macro. unrelastic kinks like that. cum jar who said that

-and phoenix is just a pure freak he's like YEAH SURE!!! WHAT ELSE!!!!! YOU WANNA BE THE NAUGHTY YEAST TO MY BAKER?

-they are so weird and i love them for it

-it gets to the point where its like they always "yes and" each other during sex. this is both good and bad. good bc they're in a loving relationship where they can trust each other and they're very similar with their kinks so they bond over that. Bad in the sense that they be having sex roleplay where, as sapph said once, "spilled milk on aisle 6 and grocery store employee" they'll somehow do it. i believe in them.

-they have very few limits i feel

-again. both good and bad dkfjndjksfn

my brain is getting sleepy so ill end it here but i hope you enjoyed my rambling!

#narumitsu #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #ace attorney

[artist-rat]

my old and new tes character Saima <3 she’s a combination of a couple of my prev. ocs!

#elder scrolls #tes #khajiit #oc: saima #i play / will be playing her in both eso and skyrim bc the 'worldstate' my sister our friend and i have... we just stopped caring lol #probably if asked to take time seriously it would/will be all happening around skyrim times but #we just have such great time running around together in eso building the stories #:') #she's from dragonstar craglorn originally #. traveled... met a pirate captain and fell in love w/ her and became a pirate as well... #is besties with a daedric cat creature literally called 'lockpick' <3 (collects mint for them) #... always keeps a diary and loves collecting books and tomes.. #once got to peek into an elder scroll (but only lost vision from one eye bc kept the other one closed <3) (shh i know it doesn't work like #that in canon but i thought it was silly and awesome for her lol) #...her birthsign is the serpent. most blessed and cursed <3 #BOW GAL! both crossbows and uh. the usual ones? #in eso her class is nightblade. i once did another version as a necromancer and it was rly cool too but decided to keep the nightblade #THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK of my gal <3 it's over now #oh. one more thing.! she/they #💗

[mistykaru]

i got stuff from the csp asset store and i wanted to play with it so this is a mess but i did have fun and i kinda dig the vibes

#andreil #aftg #the foxhole court #all for the game #i just thought the lil computer window borders were so cute #also okay listen my vision: #lmao i just wrote college au and completely forgot the canon story is in college pls #but like alt where neil does the photos bc he gets a camera #art majors???? #idk what's going on my vision is gone i am blind now #it was like a we pass each other on campus and a double take with warning signs is happening #i just thought the warning signs looked kinda cool #i also wanted the wavey thing to be a heartbeat w a skippy in it but i didnt know how to make it look nice it wasn't cooperating #and honestly i was getting tired of trying to figure out what should go in the space #i am not an aesthetic person idk how people do the fancy lil edits all the time #i draw i dont do graphic design i dont have the frog within necessary #myart #anyway im running away now bc idk how i feel about this bye

[riacte]

so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it

#ria.txt #i spoiled myself so at first i was like 'this is bonkers wtf are they doing in those last few chapters?????' #but then it was like. yeah. i see #love those ch when it's just clearly putting the squad into Situations #also. izutsumi #what i really liked was how tightly the protagonist and the deuteragonist were wound up in the overall themes #the plot the themes the conflict the characters it was very neatly connected #hence i am also now accidentally invested in whatever going on between laios and marcille #not just platonic not romantic not enemies i just think they work well tgt and deeply care for each other its great watching them develop #it's the leader + most trusted advisor / anxious girlfailure + the annoying freak she's somehow attached to vibes #haha that rabbit chapter with marcille. hahha i was like what the fuck man. it was funny and then boom whump [tears streaming down my face] #those shapeshifter chs were sooo much fun esp seeing other chara's perceptions of each other. stealing that #the changeling ones were great too elf senshi is the fucking funniest he looks sooooooo unserious #marcille's evolving perception with death starting with saving falin and saving the squad and her nightmares of outliving everyone- #-and her dad and her 'temper tantrum' and UGH when at the end she said she was fine with falin not coming back.... WAAA. OUGH. #i think dunmeshi handled the trope of 'prophecy of chosen one becoming king' pretty well and it makes sense why laios is the protag #the worldbuilding is so thoughtful as well i liked seeing different characters with different worldviews interact #very solid and well rounded series wooo #the main 4 has such a fun dynamic together #anyways. dunmeshi au..... #more like borrowing the worldbuilding bc charas are too nuanced for a one to one comparison #ren is like some prince of his own species but he's like 34th in line and no one cares about him so he fucks off to eat monsters #which is why he's both snobbish AND a total freak when it comes to his food taste #false is originally in for the money from ren and plans to scam him but unfortunately the cringefail swag captures her #martyn is Obnoxiously Clueless and thinks he's smart but he's not. he's resourceful but also pathetic and crazy #stress cant cook but she thinks she does so everyone goes (≖_≖ ) when she picks up a pot. they delegate her to killing and chopping duty #the mvp is iskall who keeps on saving everyone's asses and somehow has resources for everyone #i think ren is actually aware false is going to scam him but he has too much money to spend anyway and he thinks shes cool so he lets her?? #and somehow she doesnt take the money and run. and goes back to eating monsters w/ the party. everyone is crazy

[whoviandoodler]

one of the things that makes mdzs SUCH a great story is the fact that it's a tragedy with queer protagonists, but their queerness isn't the cause or the center of the tragedy. it's not even related, really. it's a story about love and loss and wrong and right, about what we owe each other and what we owe ourselves, about how you can find joy even amidst chaos and grief; its complexity and tragedy is what makes it so profound and touching. sure, there's 'casual' queerphobia in the story, but with everything else going on, it's not really relevant- wwx's mostly like, 'oh, i like guys? i like lwj? i love lwj? fuck, what if he doesn't love me back? am i being presumptuous to think he returns my feelings? what do I do now?' followed by 'wait, he loves me back??? we're getting married IMMEDIATELY', and that whole attitude is very refreshing because sometimes you just want to read a queer story that isn't about queer suffering but that's still incredibly miserable, and i think we as a queer community deserve it

#mdzs #lwj #wwx #lan wangji #wei wuxian #mdzs thoughts #dan talks #wangxian #obviously the story has its issues but. FFUCK i just want something to break my heart w/o having to read thru queer trauma #ik danmei in theory isnt aimed at queer audiences but compared to like. some of 'made for cisshet women' queer man content ive read in #the past mdzss iss a breath of fresh air. imo most issues lie w the sex scenes and the INSANE lack of lube but. #ill forgive it this once #their dynamic and love story is otherwise great. just dont take it ass sex ed lol ud fucking die #the sex scenes are funny tho. im always cackling and going YOURE GOING TO KILL EACH OTHER GOD SLOW DOWN #also in gen we need to uh. do better w tws bcs theres a LOT of noncon rp in there and i didnt see it mentioned anywhere in the fandom after #hours of being around it. books do tws plssss someones going to run headfirst into there and not have a good time

[oysters-aint-for-me]

i'm always so afraid to ask my psychiatrist about increasing my dose of adhd meds bc i'm afraid she'll be like "ok addict no more meds for you at ALL" like she won't just refuse the increase but also stop prescribing the meds entirely despite her NEVER displaying that mentality before AND THAT'S WHAT STIGMA DOES TO A BITCH (i'm the bitch)

#my current shrink is great i love her #i've just had bad experiences w other doctors #i thought i was addicted to my adhd meds at one point but it turned out i was just undermedicated lmao #now i sometimes take slightly more than prescribed and i feel so much better but i can't keep doing that on my current dose bc i'll run out #idk though if i ask her what if she says no you're on too much already! #THEN what do i do

[padfootastic]

Ahaha thank you for the nice comments in tags <3 i love Remus but he seems bit like a spineless people pleaser and after dating somebody who would rather lie about their feelings than have people be mildly upset with them..... I chose violence 🗡

no but ur so right because!!! i’ve been sleeping on this for a while but let’s talk about remus’ personality traits and how they have the potential to make him a bad/absent partner, at best, and an abusive one, at worst. everyone wants to turn him into this image of perfection just bc he’s such an ‘uwu victim’ figure in fanon but that’s SO far from the truth omg

(i am…just gonna put this remus character analysis under a cut bc it got unnecessarily long and i wouldn’t want u to read it if u didn’t want to lol)

so, for one, he’s manipulative. he has no combinations in twisting the truth or dodging it entirely for his own benefit. like, the man could stand in front of his dead best friend’s orphaned son & not even allude to the fact that he knew his dad. he had no problem bringing james & lily up in the most twisted ways possible to guilt/emotionally influence harry. so remus in a relationship would have the capacity to either knowingly or unknowingly manipulate his partner. the definition of gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss except more sinister.

next, his spinelessness. either as a defensive measure to deal w anti-werewolf hostility or as an innate personality trait, remus has the habit of just—not standing up for things. he looks away when his friends act like assholes, even when he’s in a position of authority (which yes, u can argue that he’s afraid of losing them but atp they’ve literally risked life & magic & azkaban for him so either way, he comes off badly—either he doesn’t mind himself, or he doesn’t fully trust their friendship, or it’s just easier to look away). in a relationship, this can manifest as bottling everything inside u until it makes u bitter or u violently unload on the other person in an entirely disproportionate manner. the dynamic would also be a bit skewed. the people pleasing u mentioned is also such a big thing that people usually overlook. when ur constantly trying to make the other person happy and don’t want to rock the boat, that is a cocktail for miscommunication and breakdown of relationships. ur also constantly putting the emotional burden of constructively dealing w issues on ur partner instead of doing it urself.

connected to his cowardice is his habit of running away when things get tough. remus is conflict avoidant; he does not like to put himself in a position where he has to take a decisive stance, especially if it’s against what others around him believe in. he runs away when things get tough, and tbh, for me, this comes from a constant spiral of self hatred & self victimisation, both of which stem from his experience as a werewolf. in every difficult situation, he centres himself & his discomfort and instead of dealing with it and moving forward for a constructive solution, he decides that stepping back from it altogether is better. which, yeah, works well for him bc he can temporarily put a pin in it but it’s kinda terrible for everyone’s who’s left behind. so i also think that remus is a profoundly selfish character who doesn’t look beyond the end of his own nose. u can imagine how those traits might manifest themselves in a relationship.

and his people pleasing!! so this might be verging on fanon but his gratitude and/or devotion to dumbledore sets an…interesting tone. it’s also another example of how he cannot conceive himself in any other term except as a victimised werewolf. the marauders did a lot for him, arguably even more than dumbledore’s token representation formula, but he never felt indebted to them the way he did for D. dumbledore also kind of makes him feel needed? validates his feelings? and that just speaks to a very twisted sense of self for me. which, again, won’t bode well for his other interpersonal relations.

also, on a very hc note, i also feel like remus just…does not have any significant capacity to love. he takes and takes and takes but doesn’t give much in return. this doesn’t even have to be an actively malicious decision, tbh, just a very self-centred one. he doesn’t realise how much he’s taking bc he’s only thinking about his own circumstances.

all of these are also just why i can’t see r/s working out in any healthy manner. remus is exactly antithetical to everything sirius is/believes in, and not even in the fun ‘opposites attract’ way. but that’s another rant no one asked for lmao

#anti remus lupin #just to be safe lol #(i would not want to read sumn like this for j or s) #i read this harry/tonks postwar fic once #that had part r/s allusions #and it was basically about how terrible remus was as a dad & husband bc he kept running out to deal w his demons #not realising or caring ab who he’s leaving behind #and constantly kept making false promises and centering only his own grief #and harry steps up to take care of teddy and tonks #the romance is cool and all but it’s the characterisation of remus that really struck me. bc it was so new. even tho it’s basically #an extension of canon ykwim? #and i think we should talk about that more instead of turning him into a paragon of virtue and morality and parenthood #dude tumblr just ate my ENTIRE answer for a who monite and i was so ??? fully ready to give up i s2g lol #i also have so many thoughts of remus victimising himself #and consequently spitting on everything his friends and family did for him #bc those are destructive thinking patterns and no one except the person themself can take the first step #regardless of how much support they get #and remus just. never wanted to get out of it lbr #i am so sorry for this rant—u didn’t ask for it but ur fic LIT something in me #and i just. couldn’t stop once i started 😭😭 #pen’s asks #pen’s notes

[brittlebutch]

actually first ep of Voyager where Janeway talks to Tuvok about how his family misses him is that when she says they Worry about him Tuvok contradicts her and claims that Vulcans don't do that but when she corrects and says they Miss him he accepts this and admits he misses them too; implying perhaps a pedantic difference between 'Vulcans do not Feel Emotions' (false) and 'Vulcans do not Act Out of Emotion' (accurate) -> 'Miss/Longing' is an emotion, but 'Worry' is an action one does out of emotion -> one Vulcans do; one Vulcans do not.

#N posts stuff #continuation of thoughts from my last post bc i can smell the counterarguments of 'vulcans are not emotional and are #therefore not impulsive and therefore no vulcan child Would run off unattended' which is Wrong #but also a half formulated thought regarding: how often characters will CLAIM that 'vulcans don't do X' and how often #people take that at face value instead of accepting it as like. a character motivated Lie that is being told lol #ie) when Spock claims 'Vulcans don't Have emotions' this is a lie he tells because 1) it's funny to him or 2) this is an Exaggerated #expectation he feels put on him BC other vulcans are more ready to judge his behavior based purely on the knowledge of his #half human genetics -> Spock is forced to hold a Higher standard just to get others to acknowledge they are Minimally equal #ALT: we do Know that Vulcan emotions are deeper/more intense than they visibly show; it doesn't feel Standardized to me that #daily Vulcan culture would DENY the existence of emotions entirely (unless one undergoes Kohlinar which seems to be a Rarer #and more Intense lifestyle Choice SOME vulcans make) bc that Feels like it would be a Lie which wouldn't be Logical to uphold #BUT i Can see conversations About those emotions being one of those things Vulcans keep extraordinarily close to their chest #in Amok Time Spock was ready to Die before he'd tell anyone about a biochemical process his body was experiencing; I can see #emotions as a whole being an almost Equally intimate thing to share w/ outsiders -> hence the 'Vulcans Don't experience emotion' #claim being made in broader Outside society ; you'd talk about it w/ other vulcans but Not with a bunch of humans #(Spock being an arguable Exception to this standard BC of the 'has to uphold a Higher Standard just to be permitted on even ground) #this post is a lot of thinking aloud idk how much coherence there is here but it's fun to think about on many paths

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[unexpectedbrickattack]

.

#chattin #would u believe me if i said this was pep//pino related #its SILLY i was just listening to my friend get upset at ranked ow #bc like hes master and cant really climb past that anymore #and he plays as healer (bc dps role takes too long to queue up for) but hes been having some very dogshit tanks lately #bc u know. they thought it was a good idea to have one (1) tank… #but he was commenting about a shit rein that he had that kept running away from the group #bc all rein mains have one singular braincell #and he was like roadhog wouldve been a better fit bc of their comp #he was lamenting about the lack of roadhogs he sees in comp bc most of them switched to dps or zarya/junker queen #and i was like :( i miss my piggy man i miss him so much-> man pig designs are so fun i love w devs lean into it #-> boar designs are super fun i love boars they mean alot to me -> oh i need to draw boar peppino again i miss my piggy man #-> ROADHOG PEPPINO… #it wasnt even like evocative of anything #it was just like ‘roadhog is fat and pig related and i made my peppino pig related. thats neat!’ #and then i sat there thinking of a tiny roadhog in overwatch. like literally the height of ana running around w a hook 😭😭😭 #if i draw that that means im obligated to draw roadhog as peppino but i got comms to finish #no time for dat goku…

[villainsidestep]

got sad abt fawn’s little motel room again 😞

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #we were thinking abt it in canon but then thought abt it in v3/v3au so. now we have to talk abt those #themmy who gets to be the first to get invited over. it takes a bit to build up to it and then even after they all think they’re ready #it takes another few days to actually Work Up To It. themmy gets first pick bc they’re the least intrusive of the group #the ortegas are close to the group ofc but they are nosy and pushy but this is The Becker’s space. so they get told no when they ask #if they can tag along. (they ofc get approval later after a few times of themmy getting to visit #bc 1. they won’t stop asking but 2. they’re more comfortable w the permitted intrusion that they get a test run) #honestly I feel like one of the ortegas would offhandedly ask Whose room it is (bc they expect them each to have their own) #and the siblings are like no it’s Ours. plural. and then the topic gets dropped bc they’re skittish enough already they won’t push more rn #ohhh the besties giving them little house warming gifts to help spruce the place up but next time they go over it still looks just as plain #except u ask ‘hey what happened to [xyz]?’ and they retrieve it from wherever it’s squirreled away #solo!survivor au…. imagine having to go back to the motel room alone for the first time #you know where the traces of your siblings are hidden. but they aren’t in immediate sight so it feels so Empty. #digging out all of their belongings just to have them closer to you even if it goes against everything you’ve all done this whole time #maybe you don’t stay alone. maybe you invite an ortega over. maybe you invite both. #maybe they show up with a bottle of wine each and none of you say anything bc you don’t know what you even would #maybe they help you pack up everything to move apartments. maybe you don’t let them touch anything. maybe them just being there is enough

[astrxealis]

my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY #I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G #UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY! #i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades #down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND #things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad #just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot #and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy #bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class) #and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care #for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better #and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself #I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing #yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD #im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^

[saviourkingslut]

whoever advertised scrivener to me i am bowing like a peasant in front of his liege lord this shit is life-changing bro i am saying once again this will save my dissertation writing process i just know it. fairly certain it was @sevarix-blogs king you saved a guy's life for real

#i wrote 666 words today (lol). they aren't good words. but they're words #the way this programme allows me to spew my thoughts on different subjects onto a page without having to scroll through a document #im super bad at just. putting my thoughts onto a page bc im a huge perfectionist #but being able to jump around the different sections of my introduction is such a good way to help with that #i have a Thought about theatre life? i can jump to the section and write some words w/o being distracted by other shit #need to go back and add something crucial that just occurred to me to my historical context? can just switch writing tabs in the binder #the overview and structure! this provides! #and you don't end up with a document full of words where you have no idea what you wanted to edit and what to throw away #can just take it one section at a time #curry rambles #i still need to buy it lol i keep forgetting. before the trial runs out.

[sapphic-luthor]

i am really on the verge of identifying as a lesbian because i feel like that label really does fit me but what’s confusing me is that there is one fictional tv show character who’s a man who is probably the only man i’ll ever Like but it does really confuse me as to why i feel like i may find him attractive but never any man irl

would just like to generally casually direct you to the lesbian masterdoc just in case you were looking for a bit of a read this lovely friday eve

#i will say i am like attracted to many a man who does not exist #this was part of the reason i was able to affirm the fact that im a lesbian and ignore some of that comphet #is bc i realised i only liked men in theory and not in practice at all #in my early days i’d match men on tinder and flirt w them and run for my life if they tried to meet #i’d make eyes at boys at parties and as soon as they approached me be hugely unwelcoming #like i only liked men who didnt exist or whose traits i could invent myself in my mind #and before i knew i was a lesbian i thought that was me ‘being picky’ #but actually it was me purposely (but not consciously) creating unattainable standards that no man alive could fill #because; reader; as you may have guessed; i did not and do not like men #but it took a while to work that out confidently! a long while #take your time in the meantime like #i always was annoyed by people who were like ‘labels don’t matter!’ bc i fucking wanted one i felt good about #and i got there eventually but all i can offer for advice in the meantime is like #nobody cares tbh. just lie. tell somebody you’re a lesbian then tell the next you’re bi and just fuckin wing it #nobody’s gonna bust your door down for using different labels whenever u feel like it #just . kiss women and have crushes on fictional men and eventually itll work its way into a label you’re comfortable with #answered #anonymous

[bibleofficial]

so ive accidentally stayed up WAY TOO FUCKIN LATE w my ethiopian KING - i went to take pics for this class & baked & we ran into each other on the stairwell & then we went to his place to drop his bags & for ciggys (where we grabbed LI & GOT HIM TO SMOKE TOO before he went upstairs again) & the 2 of us sent on a walk so i could take pics for this one clase & boy howdy did i learn SO much, also btw ethiopia is currently, still, in a civil war

#stream #hes absolutely fascinating like girl we both chat SO much & hes also on topic bc i derail SO fucking much & then we’ll go on tangent then #subtangetn then he’ll get us back to what we were talking abt but i literally Cannot Do That im juts like oh um… what we were taling abt #anyway #yea its 3am & i need to be up at 10am #ALSO i had tea w the chinese flatmates bc i saw arthur & i got to learn so much & also yen je explained different parts of chinese grammar #etc & it turns out that he is INTERESTED IN LEARNIGN SPANISH SO WERK IM GOING TO HELP & ALSO I MET THE OTHER FLATMATE TODAY TOO #girl ive been playing the sims w myself i’ll be talking to someone then do the little like person+ (green bar) like frendshop increased #persuasion increase d #so albert(o) is from mexico city bc i also was like is ur name albert ? sick um yea is it like actually alberto just curious xx so hes #alberto now #& arthur told me his real mame but i forgot bc literally im still running on the 4hrs sleep i got last night like yall i was like wow i #pigged out last night haha - literally bc i ate an entire bag of baby carrots - so i thought im not hungry ? no girl ur colon just full so i #just havent eaten bc then i was going to after my irst class today but i saw the chinese & harassed them until it was like 15mins until i #had to haul ass to get to the japanese class & girl … i know i was such a bitch i was losing my mind it was 2hrs & she was like ‘we will #only use an hour !’ BUT NO WE USED THE WHOLE HOUR I NEED THESE WEEABOO AS MFS TO SLOW DOWN #i FULLY dont know what im doing & these bitches r soeaking sentences & also 1 guy was arguing w the professor like girl .. shes literally #japanese ur going to have to take this L like ur british thru & thru baby #so anyway #im going to go make french fries in the baking sheet that might give me cancer #ive also never used a baking sheet to make french fries im sry i just dont get to eat these in the states bc i love hating myself ? #ive been eating so much mayo i love peri peri omg … kewpie mayo …… im squatting

[perenlop]

god i really hope the concordia and anthea stuff is as good as i remember it being bc ngl the plasma arc has really been lacking

#i didnt even remember N started traveling with them at one point tbh i thought they only sporatically met up #and i can see why i forgot bc he does practically nothing in these episodes. which REALLY sucks bc holy shit #thats a ton of missed potential when he can literally talk to pokemon and consideringhis beliefs #during the last episode N couldve only learned charizards backstory tbh and that couldve led him on a tirade abt how awful humans are #and then ash and charizards actual bond comes through and he learns that ash has helped charizard and charizard still loves humanity #maybe even retcon the disobedience arc to connect to that. but no he has a one off line abt how hes disgusted w charmanders trainer #and he sees charizard and he really just goes goo goo eyes at it like everyone else in the episode #like??? was he just added in at the last minute bc they thought itd flow better than him just showing up in driftveil?? #idk the episodes where he... yknow... does things relevant to his character are still really good but the filler is dragging this arc down #also nitpick but N was knocked flat out so why didnt team plasma attempt to take him here #they knew he was and they want to capture him but they just... dont? and run off anyways #have concordia and anthea save him from an attack from them guys have them be even more swag #echoed voice #pokeani lb #idk i know N is supposed to be his bw2 self but its clear hes supposed to have lingering resentment towards humanity #so its weird that he only gets one off lines that are ultimately ignored