#but that's basically it

[speedwagons-glorious-mane]

MY STUPID BRAIN WANTS ME TO MAKE A VIDEO GAME FUCKING WHYYY

#I DON'T EVEN REALLY LIKE VIDEO GAMES #STARDEW VALLEY AND MINECRAFT ARE NICE I GUESS #BUT THAT'S BASICALLY IT #PROGRAMMING REQUIRES A LOT OF MATH VUT MY BRAIN HATES MATH #WHY AM I LIKE THIS

[foul-milk]

me showing what i learned taking 4 years of japanese in highschool

#i'm like 99% certain i can read everything on that piece of paper #but that's basically it #😭😭 #f1 #oscar piastri #japanese gp 2023 #my beef with my japanese teacher was legendary tho

[gabbylyons]

Wait, ik tumblr is collectively "no cops at pride" and while I get cops aren't our friends I don't get fully why no cops at pride? How can pride happen without security from anti groups?

Basically, because they have a history of repression and violence against queer people

#im not fully educated on queer history because it is different in every country #but that's basically it #not only are they tools of the state that was used to oppress us #but also thinking of the safety of queer people of color #and disable and nd queers too

[casual-eumetazoa]

I’m re-reading the 25k-ish words that I’ve written for FrankensteinWIP so far and man, it’s been so long since I actually enjoyed reading back my own text. It’s not the kind of literary prose I wish I could do, but it’s so distinctnly mine, and this book in general is such a self-indulgent project, it makes me happy just to work on it. 

On the other hand, I’m realizing more and more that I can’t juggle PhD school, youtube, and writing all at the same time. And logically I should prioritize youtube over writing because it has at least some sort of potential to become my full time job, but it hurts so much to post these videos that I spend months on and get like, a couple hundred views and 10 comments. So I would much rather focus on novels, but it makes me feel guilty. I feel like I haven’t had any sort of success with youtube yet because I don’t try hard enough, don’t post often enough, etc etc.

Doing the PhD is great because my workload is not insane, I get paid pretty well, and I love the people at my institute. I do have to manage my energy levels incredibly well and I end up burn out every few months anyway, but I make it work. Still, eventually I will graduate and will need to get a real job... and I don’t know if I can do it. Like, I don’t know if I will be able to hold a full-time post-doc position, especially a tenure track one. Especially if my chronic illnesses will keep detereorating. 

I’m hoping that after I graduate I will be able to scrape enough science writing and tutoring hours together to work part-time from home, and have time for youtube and writing. Doesn’t look very achievable now cause any freelance like this requires self-promo, and it seems like I really suck at it. But a boy can dream I guess.

#personal #random #not my best few weeks tbh #some good things are happening like #i had a whole bunch of scares about my legal stay here but it was granted a couple days ago #so a year from now i'll be able to apply for citizenship and then actually change my legal name as well #but yeah. constantly feeling like i have no energy to do the things i love #and screaming into the void with creative stuff #are both not very fun #im in a discord server with a whole bunch of video essayists #and literally everyone has more subs than me. out of like. 20-30 people #we were all shouted out in the same way by bigger youtubers - once - and it did kinda help #like going from 100 subs to 400 is definitely something #and that video got around 2k views now #but that's basically it #everyone else manages to network and put out more stuff and collaborate and shout each other out #i get some likes maybe. occcasionally a comment #no one has ever shared me on their community page. not even when they collab with me #and i feel like my videos dont do well in the algorithm cause people just dont click on videos that have less than 1k views #so im just kinda stuck. i can't like #outright beg to be shared or reblogged #i do what i can and it doesn't work #so i really just want to give up #cause after 2 years of pouring my heart an soul into every video they are still going nowhere #but im constantly tortured by the what if #cause every next video might be The One #it feels like querying all over again #anyway idk why im typing all this #not a good few weeks. especially the last few days...

[dear-kumari]

The Pale Blue Eye pulls a pretty neat final twist that I've always wanted to see play out in a whodunnit, but unfortunately it also executes that twist in the lamest way possible

#Kumari comments #The Pale Blue Eye #uhh definitely not making a spoiler tag for this movie #It's a decent time-waster if you like good historical costume design and a basic but atmospheric mystery #and also British actors doing charmingly awful American accents #Anyway‚ spoilers now: #after an okay faux third act climax it turns out that the mystery wasn't totally solved and the detective was the real killer #Which is neat! and I do consider it distinct from 'the POV character was the real killer' which has been done p famously before #but then his motivations are sooo booooring #he's getting revenge for his fridged daughter. that's it. #and she's literally just that meme of 'flashbacks of the action hero's angelic dead wife' but a daughter #It's honestly kinda remarkable to see such a head empty approach to the subject of SA in a fairly high-profile film in 2023 #like there's a half-assed moment where the detective goes off about how institutions are responsible for their members' crimes #and by the end you can kinda infer that he was actually mad about the sex crimes #but that's basically it #meanwhile Nice Guy™ Edgar Allan Poe is gonna go on to marry his 13yo cousin irl so … maybe not the best counter to his peers eh? #idk. I feel like a more thoughtful director could've taken all the tasteless tropes and played on them ironically #but that would involve /intentionally/ making the male protagonists look kinda shitty ig #Kumari abuses the tagging system

[astrabear]

There are a lot of things I would do if I were a more skilled visual artist. Finally realizing my vision of The Human Velocipede is the first.

The second is - you know how sometimes an artist will draw what a human would actually look like if those awful comic book boobs & ass pictures of women were real?

I want to draw what bodies and sex would have to look like if some of the poorly choreographed descriptions in fanfic were real. Person A has their mouth at Person B's crotch, and Person B has their hand at Person A's butt, and they're not 69ing? There's so much you can do with that! (arms that stretch like Mr Fantastic, a body that hinges in the middle, etc)

Alas, I am not a skilled visual artist, and these will all have to remain in my head.

#if I take my time #and put a lot of effort in #I can sometimes produce a reasonable sketch from a reference #but that's basically it #and I don't want to make the writers of the poorly choreographed sex feel bad #it's just funny

[coralsgrimes]

What happened over Christmas that he went on a deleting spree? Sorry if you were asked already

Jules commented a ♥️ on this post of Benny. It's an acoustic version of one of his songs.

Fans were yet again reminded that they are besties and started to comment under her comment. Benny was not happy, he was deleting the replies, blocking, going crazy turning the comments on and off.

Then he liked a tweet which was something like babying him and telling him that the REAL fans love him. So peeps got even more furious x.x

He spend days over the holidays deleting the replies. Then he showed up in Budapest (stalkers found him!!!), Jessie was around and all was forgiven and forgotten.

Sounds familiar?

#look through ma posts from end of december if ye want details #but that's basically it

[foone]

(bad) Idea: Pronoun selections for multiple pronoun users where you have the ability to set relative rates of each pronoun. Like maybe like:

See you could set relative frequencies of each pronoun, and order them.

And yes I did mock this up using Visual Basic 6. That's just how my brain works.

#trans shitposting #visual basic 6

[happyheidi]

𝖠𝗋𝗍 𝖻𝗒 𝖠𝗇𝗇𝖺-𝖫𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺 𝖲𝗎𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗏𝖺𝗇 | 𝖨𝖦: 𝖺𝗇𝗇𝖺𝗅𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺_𝖺𝗋𝗍

#this has to be one of my favorite little comic ever cus YEEEES #I love me a good rain lighting thunder trio <3 #ESP while laying in bed with a good book #had to share #cottagecore #comics #art #cute #drawing #rain aesthetic #cozycore #cosycore #reading #comfycore #wholesome #we had MASSIVE rain here today and some lovely lightning & thunder . so this was basically my just switch night to say and bed to couch

[bookpdf]

unfortunately i Do feel better when i clean my living space and eat enough fruits and veggies and go outside and generally remember i am a mammal :| real pity that knowing this does not make it easier to do those things

#i am my own zookeeper basically and that kinda sucks

[anymouslydone]

#basic human rights #humanization #save palestine #save the children #save humanity #israel #palestine #islamic #islam #welcome to islam #stand with gaza #gaza genocide #free gaza #gaza strip #gaza #gazaunderattack

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[rochenn]

I think we should write more straight relationships with 2010s TV queerbait tactics. Let that man and that woman's lives be horribly intertwined, let them take bullets for the other, let them be each other's meaning but NO KISSING. They are holding each other platonically. You're crazy for reading anything romantic into it at all tbh

#basically whatever fentanyl hiromu arakawa put in roy mustang and riza hawkeye's relationship #also low key what i wish obi-wan and satine could have been like

[zerojanitor]

twitter: currently owned by techbro pissman

tumblr: actively removing functionality and bloating the interface with things nobody uses

discord: being retooled by ex-Meta management who don't understand the appeal of the platform

youtube: neutered by advertisers and algorithms and also tiktokification

reddit: half of the site is down due to protests about the outrageous monetization of third-party API support

facebook: my mom is on there

#idk what point i'm making its just wild watching the established internet dominion basically screech to a halt

[scuttlebatt]

I Have Found A Solution!

So, obviously classic wizard robes aren’t wheelchair friendly. (Alright, admittedly this isn’t common knowledge and also this definitely isn’t a problem for most but listen, this is a problem for me and I’m pleased to present a solution for it nonetheless.)

The issue is in the sleeves and the length of the robes. The traditional trumpet style allows them to get snagged, dirty, and caught in the wheels.

This is distinctly not an issue with other mobility aids such as canes and crutches, these wizards are fine to carry on with their trumpet sleeves simply rolled up if needed.

Now, one solution might simply to shorten the sleeves and hem to be out of the way, but that looks rather silly so I won’t do that. Instead I propose the more elegant design of a hanging sleeve to maintain that flowy magical feel while allowing for better range of motion.

Honestly I just love the look of hanging sleeves in general and think more people should appreciate them, wheelchair user or not.

In conclusion…

#this is basically free character design hacks baybe so go make your fantasy worlds accessible and inclusive or else #digital illustration #wizard posting #wheelchair wizards #my art

[liberalsarecool]

UBI works. 88% success rate.

#universal basic income #homelessness #ubi