#but the first was judt stuff

[gayvampcentral]

my about 10 years old computer p much finally broke down today (black screens every 10 to 20 minutes) and I can thankfully have an old computer from my dad for now which I think is better than my old one anyway but. I fon't think I'll be able to get my drawing program back :,)

#desperately trying to backup as much data as I can inbetween crashes atm but realistically I won't be able to save everything I don't think #not having a great time atm lads (gender neutral) #what does it say abt me that the first thing I saved was my sims save files lmao. #but hhhh idk if I'll be able to get all of my art stuff there's just So Much #Anyway art program wise I got rebelle at a recent sale so I guess?? I'm gonna try switching to that? sad #but literally so so so so happy I can judt have my dad's old pc i do NOT have money to get a replacement #marshall's thoughts

[nomaishuttle]

sorry for falling for nostalgiabaiting. does it count as nostalgia if its for a game i played like. last year. whatever

#THE GAME (oot) ISNT EVEN LIKE SUPER SPECIAL 2 ME but i played it while hanging out with my sibling so we have a Ton of inside jokes abt #random shit in that game.so im rly judt nostalgic 4 like. hanging out with my sibling DNBFJFBF #oot has sooo many issues jn it. like i appreciate some of the stuff it contributed to the series I dont appreciate the biggest thing it #contributed to the series which is the Insane amounts of racism. yk. #but ya. sry my sibling just send me a totk screenshot where they found biggorons sword and i literally felt like a fucking star wars fan #bc i went I KNOW THAT THING !! and got excited #erm wait. hold on... biggorons sword is oot rifht not mm. it must be right .. bc adult link is the only one who can use it yeah. #but wait no bc theres that forge in the snowy goron moment where you bring. NO thats for upgradingyour normie sword. Ok i understand now #it is oot then i think. #yes it is i checked. ok slay #i didnt First play oot last year i technically played and beat it likeee. years ago.. n i started mm. but i dont remember that time at all #bc it was somewhere around the dark ages. yk. i thjnk it was eithr likee. within the year preceding the zoo or the year after. whos 2 say #avtually i thinkb4 bc i talked to my dad abt mm and he was like I didnt like it ! and well i wouldnt have been talking to him if it was the #year after the zoo bc well. restraining order LMAOOOO #not ghat that stopped my mom Whatever its late so im pissy. sry.

[tittysuckersworld]

i cut my hair again!!

#it went so well omg- #like i was afraid cause i was cutting way less hair from head #but it was it went so good im so happy #qlso like i am a fem nb person without much much dysphoria just cause being fem makes me feel more masc and #being masc makes me feel more fem #but my gglob idk whenever my hair is in the right style everything judt feels so much better #me:i dont have lot dysphoria. just cant wear dresses or be refered to femly #also me: feels more and more bad as hair gets longer until get it back in style i like again and gose crazy about it #like bruhhh if it wasnt so late at night and i liked photos i would just be playing with hair styles and taking photos #cause i feel very cute!! #being nb is hard until find good stuffs and oh boy do i just #feel better about myself now that i have a specific way i like my hair #its pretty fem but masc enough to me and i just- is so such uehfhsbduwhwhw #also have first thing with doing meeting people stuff irl for job on friday #so will be able to look cute for that!! #planning on if can sew adjust skirt fast enough can wear a cute pink one i have #so so fun uehduwbdushduwbsgwh #<3<3<3

[sinnohistrans]

#chloe dont read this im talking about the end of ethersea and stuff #anyways THATS HOW IT ENDS? IT JUDT CUTS OFF? HELLO? #i think im going to gnaw on my fucking work desk until season 2 i literally NEED to know what happens #also i think amber and oxana can be lesbians. for fun #i have to listen to imbalance and dust 2 first but i think im also going to lose my mind from steeplechase #for a different reason. as an ex theme park employee #dread snd excitement resdy for taz disney edition. #also i think im biased bc its fresh in my mind but i think ethersea is my new fsvorite over amnesty #and devo is my favorite ever my little asshole bitch of three names and confusing amount of parents #OH THATS ALSO WHAT I CSNT FUCKING GET OVER #HIS DESPERATION TO JAVE A MOTHER FIGURE AND AMBER LIKE REJECTING HIM AND THEIR BEEF #BUT LIKE HE SAVED HER SO DEPERATELY WHEN SHE WAS DROWNING AND HIS!! HIS MOM? GUIDANCE DIED #AND HES A CERN SO HE MUST HAVE OR KNOW HIS REAL MOM?? #IM SWUISHING HIM LIKE CLAY

[andreycoded]

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#we had a discord meeting with friends and thing is. i told everyone today that i got a soul crushing diagnosis #literally never cry to my friends but bawled my eyes out on a #whatre they called. voice message? yeah and one of my friends sent an empathetic text back in the group chat #one friend called and the other texted too but then in the discord meeting the first friend was really quiet most of the time and i was #glad to be thinking about something else than my stuff and be just chit chatting; when second friend asked the first if everything was okay #and ? she had the gall to say really angrily that no it isn’t and she has been crying like crazy all day because she feels like she isn’t #enough and does everything wrong #all the time. now this is not a new convo. we’ve talked about this vountless times and yeah she’s depressed clearly but doesn’t want to #admit it and i’ve told her (after comforting her many times) that she should really go talk to someone about it because if she just keeps #crying go us we’re just gonna go in circles and she isn’t gonna feel any better. like i’ve said everything that i possibly could to make #her feel better. and she has the GALL to say she’s been crying her eyes out when she KNOWS i literally heard i’m gonna lose feeling and #motoric skills in my hands and feet. and nothing can be done about it. and i for once showed how awful that felt. #i quickly told her that i hope the feeling passes because it’s baseless and she’s enough and worthy and really dear to all of us and then i #went to the toiler for a short while. and thought like. why couldn’t i judt once have said like. i’ve been crying about other things #altogether like hinting to the fact that that wasn’t appropriate. because she’s not gonna change. i should’ve said it for once because the #circle is just gonna continue. like. fuck #and at the same time i understand i really do but i don’t think however miserable i was that i couldn’t put my own worries aside at least #for the day. like TODAY i found out today . so if she’s miserable in her relationship (which i originally said was a bad ideaaaa) and it #makes her feel overall bad #. just!!!!! ahhhh. keep it to yourself for today. like i could’ve talked about my problems but i didn’t. so #v.personal #if you read this sorry sldntbtb #but also thank you. i’m not in a good place myself and i feel awkward and i know it can be taxing to read other people’s personal stuff on #your dash so if you did read this thank you

[penisliker-moved]

ill be like yeah gacha addiction ks a real thing that affects so many ppl and we all need to be more aware of it. and then realize ive spent 200 dollars on a stupid gacha game that i dont even like in 10 days

#no you SHOULD blow yr money on pointless #shit its best to do it now b4 u have rent and stuff #im gonna delete it this isnt a habit i want to keep up At All #im so fucking mad at myself i have things i need to be saving to and this is just..WHY m i doing this #i dont even like the fucking game why did i kep spending money on it #like. it wsnt from ym saving or anything but fucking. 200 goddman dollars im rly mad #and i cant even be mad at anyboyd else its Literally my fault #im just rly fucking disappointed in myself i should fucking know better than this #my parents being dumbfucks with their money is literally the reason i grew up poor im supposed to fucking learn from them #and again like. it ws from my spending money that im supposed to spend on whatever i want #it just feels like such a waste n m rly rly rly upset abt ir. whatever #this isnt me gamblizing this shit obviously. its rly distressing me #i feel like a bad person. whatever #like th game isnt a bad game like. its not g*nshin 💀 or something like that #im judt. still rly mad at myself #s just like. this past month is th first time basically ever ive a tually had my own money n. ive been putting some aside for savings #(i have 500 in savings rn) #but idk i just. i should be setting aside more or something i feel like im doing it all wrong and i rly rly rly dont want to endnup like my #parents lmao. #and i told my dad i ws worried abt it and he tried to give me financial advice that was jus tluke #but fucking. like. even if im not Actively in a lease #or whatever. i am saving up t move Across the Country #which is fuckinf expensjve #and rent'll be cheap bc were splitting it like 4 ways but i still #jghhhhhhh. i wanna have an emergency fund + a few months rent + money tk actually get up there + furniture money #but i dont wanna be setting aside my entire paycheck for savings either bc like. i do deserve nice things sometimes #my dads kind of right there where like. If they had gone crazy and gotten all the stuff they wanted Before they had responsibilities and 4 #kids #then theyd be way more responsible with their money now #i just. ufhghhhh idk. idfk. im rly rly mad at myself

[halinski]

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#if you ever find me to be what seems like writhing on the floor/couch/bed in agony #it's just the depression #depression fueled emotional pain and rage #bc everything feels wrong #and idk wtf to do withh myself #bc i don't want to exist #the agony of existence makes me forget about my wild ass crazy dreams i woke from with a headache #but i don't forget how i wake with dread and my first thought being why #why do i have to live and exist and be #why #ignore me #my bpd is rearing its head ever since i stopped drinking energy drinks #fun stuff 🙃 #i managed to resist posting this emo morning shit the last few days but i judt dont care anymore #this is how my days start #so you can imagine how the rest goes #which is why i waste 90% of my unoccupied time dissociated out of my mind #bc i can't handle this mind

[niunepp]

hiii it’s the writing anon and i want to say thank u for ur words of encouragement i really enjoy writing but i always get down when i read others works because i feel like i’m not doing as well as them but it does mean a lot and i’m going to try to be better at not comparing myself !

ohh nonnie ☹️🫶🏽 i'm happy i could help somewhat <333

#i've been where you are and i still sometimes compare myself to other bigger writers in this fandom #esp because my writing style tends to be a lot more silly fun unserious and a lot of the works that get super big tend to be introspective #and deep and stuff but i digress #i think you just have to remember that there's gonna be people who read your witing no matter what #i remember when i first posted my b99 au in february of 2021 #i was so fuckin nervous like i srsly thought i was gonna die #but then i got my first comment !!! and it made my day and it made me want to keep writing #but judt remember that there's always gonna be someone who clicks on your work and likes it !!! #AND also make sure to write for yourself !!! as much as the kudos and comments are nice keep in mind rhat you should always try to write #because You want to create that certain story and because You want to create something that is entirely yours #for yourself and for no one else <333 #asks from anon

[ltbunny]

May I ask what caused the divorce in the blind date with exhusband!Price?

Omgggjfdjs, first ask, hi,

Anyway, so like what I think what did the divorce is like, okay, you two loved each other, right, so much, he's such a sweet man, he dotes over you, hes never made you feel inadequate or horrible or anything, it was all so swell, date nights, couples getaways, cooking together, domestic stuff (and really good sex), but during that time period of the end, it'd been less of that, it feels like date nights are scarce, it feels like he's never home and when he is, the cozy quiet nights you loved don't feel the same.

You know he's going to be deployed long term, sometimes without any contact at all, and in theory, that's fine, you can go without your husband but at some point it just wore you down, maybe hearing a bang in the night and getting scared to be home alone so often, the fear that one day maybe he wont ever come back sticking in the back of your mind.

And those little things just nibble in your head until you can't ignore it but you didn't want to just be like "I'm sick of you leaving all the time" cause that's his job, you know that, he's the bloody captain. When you bring it up one day he suggests you both go to couples counselling, he doesn't really know what for but he's heard stuff like that helps and all he wants to do is help you not feel that way.

But it somehow makes it worse cause everything else that's been swept under the rug is coming out, children, retirement, what happens if he dies, what if someone comes after you?

It blows up into an argument in the car all the way home and fizzles down to a small break. You two are still married, no cheating, flirting with others, and its judt for a month. A month turns to two, then four, then he's off to another reconnaissance mission. When he comes back, there's a note on the table and some divorce papers.

(I'm blaming the marriage counsellor)

#ltbunny is tired #srry for horirble response brb need to finish coursework.

[smashingdollz]

Hi, i love your writing andjsndlw!!! May i request Adaman x touch starved reader who has finally started to open up to people since has arrived in hisui? Any pronouns are fine and can also be smut if that's ok with you

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hi hi! im very flattered that you love my writing, thank you! i can totally do that! i dont do smut mainly because i feel like i wont do it any justice and ill write it super awkward- but im considering trying to write spicy stuff in the future so you could request stuff then! im also going to try a new way of writing heacanons, ive seen other people write this way and it seems easier. (also im not sure if you wanted a story or headcanons)

-he was actually happy to see you finally opening up to the people around you. i mean you kept to yourself since the day that you arrived so why would he not be happy about you physically opening up to people, hes especially happy when its him

-the first time you've ever openly craved his touch he lightly teased you as he had that smile on his face (you know the one) but then of course embraced you in his arms while his other hand played with your hair

-you dont mind hugging or clinging onto people in public. but with Adaman you'd prefer to do all that in a private place, you dont know why you just do. (you do know, you just dont want people in public to see the flustered look on your face and how vulnerable you look as you melt in your touch)

-he also finds it absolutely adorable when you cling onto people in public, he loves seeing your face. later he even asks you about it. And he smiles happily when he feels you cling onto his arm and lightly tug the fabric of his haori.

-i also imagine you just clinging onto his arm as he walks around working or judt doing things in your shared tent in the diamond settlement. or even when the two of you are walking in a secluded area surrounded by wild Pokemon.

-he honestly wouldnt mind spending his time or even missing part of a meeting just to lay down with you in his arms as you crease his back and he creases your hair/head. wouldnt mind spending his time with you at all because he's an absolute sucker for you

-he wouldnt mind doing that all day until you go to sleep in his arms. he would also constantly rub your back through out the night and make you feel all warms oh my god-

-one thing he would constantly do is that he would play with your finger tips, and after a while he will match your finger tips with his and leave it like that for a couple of seconds before slowly intertwining his hand with yours, and you absolutely love when he does that. (this has me blushing oh my god 💀)

-if he ever sees you hesitate to cling onto him or to grab his hand he'll just pull you close to his chest so you could cling onto him or slightly brush his hands against yours before intertwining his with yours.

-i also imagine that one day you were clinging, hugging, etc onto Adaman and your Pokemon appear and push that two of you even closer to each other. if you have a Sylveon i imagine it wrapping its ribbons around the two of you binding the two of you together.

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You silently sat on the edge of the bed in your and Adaman's shared tent in the Diamond Clan settlement. Inside the tent was surprisingly big despite its small appearance on the outside. As you sat your feet slightly hoovered over the floor and you began to slightly kick your feet.

You let out a sigh through your nose as you leaned placed your elbows on your legs and propped your face in the palm of your hands. You starred at your swaying feet for what seemed like hours, you've been waiting Adaman to come back from a meeting. Of course you know that Adaman is an extremely important person and he doesnt just belong to you and only you, but in that moment you cant help yourself. You want to be in his arms and be engulfed in his scent.

After some time you saw a shadow being cast over you. You looked up and it was the one and only, Adaman. You hadn’t noticed his arrival because you were occupied with the thought of… well, him (funny isn’t it?) He had his usual smile on his face and his right hand rested on his hip. Your fingers lightly twitched against the fabric of your pants. Without a word you got up from the bed and embraced him tightly, your force caused him to stumble back a bit.

He regained his balance before wrapping his arms around you. "I missed you.." you breathed out against his chest. "I know I know..." he rested his chin on top on your head and began to rub circles on your back. A sigh of relief left your lips as you leaned more into his touch. "I know you're busy, but please stay..?" He smiled, "Im yours for the rest of the day. My attention is yours, my time is yours"

From then on the two of you spent the rest of the day together in each others embrace. You focused on him, all his attention was yours (same with him), and you made sure to keep as much physical connection with him as possible. :)

hi, so i formatted the story and HC's differently because i realized that i write in clumps and that might be difficult for others to read so i spaced them out a bit more. Let me know if this is better!

#pokemon #pokemon x reader #adaman x reader #adaman #adaman pokemon #pokemon legends arceus x reader #pokemon legends arceus #pokemon legends adaman #pla adaman #pla adaman x reader #pla x reader #pla #legends arceus #legends arceus x reader #legends arceus adaman #legends arceus adaman x reader #pokemon legends #pokemon arceus #pokemon adaman #adaman pokemon x reader #pokemon adaman x reader #x reader #fanfiction #fanfic #gn!reader #fan fic #fan fiction #fluff #pokemon fluff #headcanons

[bwoahtastic]

I'm just combining stuff I love from my 2 favourite verses wolves and orphanage:

Toto adopting little pup seb who is menace (still) and loves to chew his daddy's ears and run around like a crazy whirlwind of blind curly fur, ans isn't much easier in human form🤣

They have a little cabin in the forest where they go most weekends so Seb can run around a lot but one day, Toto suddenly comes running out in wolf form too and growls at Seb to hide because he smells another wolf! Toto being ready to fight when a small Omega wolf comes limping into the clearing, barely able to stay on their feet abd their fur matted and bloody in some parts. The wolf growling at Toto and sounding so scared but they are too weak and faint, changing back into their human form.

Toto carrying the blonde omega back inside and checking them over but the cuts don't seem as bad, the Omega is just really thin and clearly exhausted, and has faded bites in his neck as if someone repeatedly tried to forcibly mate him but failed.

Toto nursing the Omega, nico, back to health and Seb is very curious about Nico too! Nico refusing to change into his wolf form for a long time because he felt so ugly with his matted fur, but when he does eventually he has healed and looks so beautiful, all pale white fluffy fur that Seb eagerly snuggled up against because Nico is softer than daddy!

Oh plss!! Toto having adopted little pup seb and sure it's uncommon for an Alpha dad to raise a pup alone but he does well, he has a Pack where seb can be socialised more (especially in wolf form) but besides that his pup is happy and especially loves their forest cottage where he gets to zoom in wolf form as much ad he wants! Seb in human form babbles his dad's ears off and in wolf form he tries to chew them off wksks pls Toto is normally more than happy to let Seb zoom around the clearing on his own because its safe and Toto gets some peace and quiet, but then he smells another wolf and is instantly on edge!

Plss poor nico stumbling and limping into the clearing and being so scarwd when he sees the massive Alpha wolf, not even registering the lil pup hiding behind Toto's legs! Nico fainting and turning back into his human form and Toto is horrified to see how skinny the Omega in, and the failed mating bites in his neck...

Pls Toto changing into human form too and carrying him into the cabin, getting him bundled up snd starting on some food for him while Seb is just staring at nico from a distance akks

Nico being so scarwd of Toto at first but Toto is very gentle, judt confused why Nico won't turn into his wolf form again but Nico just feels so ugly 🥺🥺 when he gets stronger he plays with Seb outside, himself in human form with the pup growling in wolf form trying to est his pant leg sksksk. But when he does turn back into wolf form, he is so beautiful! But he is also nervous because his beautiful wolf form is what got him into trouble in the firdt place... but Toto just rumbles and nuzzles him while Seb faceplants the soft fur!

#asks #abo wolves

[nomaishuttle]

btw in my theoretical peculiar rewrite that Will not ever happen bc im not a writer anymore i left that life behind in 2017. but in my theoretical one its rly mostly just a rewrite of likee. maybe a bit of book 3 and then Completely rewriting books 4-6

#i like some of the stuff from the 2nd trilogy. mainly the stuff that was brought up in the first book that seemed rly interesting thar they #then forgot abt in the 2nd book and/ #or solved off screen or came up with some other reason for it to not matter. like. the american conflict wouldve been so cool. but then #they just decide its the noor story and r like Oh yeah rhe ymbrynes solved all the american stuff so don't even worry abt it 👍 #having the kids like. take modern normal lessons and have jacob trying to like. teach them while also trying 2 hide that hes trying to #follow jn abes footsteps. thats so fun . but i stead he just like straight up leaves and the kids r basically gone the entre time... #and the like. Omg theres like a group of normals that r hunting peculiars and have been for centuries. thats rly rly interesting. and then #theyre judt like Nah it was wights the whole time. #Like. i like noor i think shes rly cool i just think the prophecy is So stupid #im never gonna get over the way that the entire prophecy was pointless. like trying to find the other kids was pointless. bc the prophecy #didnt need 7 it needed 1 and the others were just spares. so it literlaly xouldve been like. Finished as soon as it started. and it was #just so generic and boring like... the first trilogy was very unique and like interesting and different #and then in the 2jd theyre like Omg this is the chosen one and shes one of the chosen jn this prophecy where 7 kids etc #i also think its rly stupid that theyre all light eaters.. #if we Have to have the stupid 7 prophecy like were every other book on this planet can at least be like. Omg... and theyre all very very #powerful peculiars from some of the peculiar subcategories. but whatever... #but ya. the main things id change abt book 3 is like. the weird like... Omg all peculiars Used to be hollows ???? thats why jacob can ??? #understand them ??? bc hes part hollow ????? Thats so fucking stupid. #its weird. and also in my au i would have emma and jacob break up bc i think that makes sense and emma is my everything girl but i feel #like in the actual books they broke up and then havob was immediately like Noor is my everything shes the reason i live im nothing without #her . and its been 2 hours since they met. and emma is right fhere and they broke up 2 days ago. yk... #i also think id just have the series be like. #a bitttt more spread out ?? like a little bit at least.. bc it takes place over the span of 6 months #roughly. which for the first trilogy i get why itd be very quick succession bc those kids were on a mission #idk. i just think its kinda silly that jacob was So into emma like Omg well never be apart she completes me etc within like. 3 months. and #then is the same with noor after like 2 days. Ik teenagers r like that Fucking trust me im so insanely aware that teenagers will fall #deeply deeply deeply in love with somebody very quickly even when tht relationship isnt rly good for either party . trust me im so insanely #fucking aware . LMAO. but it was just a bit annoying esp bc emma was just completely written out basically... it sucked :( it sucks that al #of the peculiar chuldren bssicslly werent there like. idk. it rly just felt like jacob was like Ok done with them NOOR TIMEEE #and like i said i love noor shes great im sooo down with her i judt wiuldnt make her literally the chosen one snd specialest girl on earth

[good-beans]

ack for some reason your reblogs stopped appearing on my activity feed o.O just noticed you reblogged something from me hours ago and I was so confused

anyways i might as well give milgram thoughts (which is me just rambling) since i'm here!! keep thinking abojt the mahiru and orekoto snippet thign it's judt oh man . . . . i wonder how kazui or yuno would feel about orekoto, not because violence or something, but because he actually speaks up about his opinions and doesn't smile and pretend like everything is fine like mikoto

i mean kazui already has a weird first impression on orekoto if we imagine he did break up the fight between kotoko and orekoto! but orekoto is so much more open about his opinions on stuff that would kazui be like huh maybe I should try to do something like that

and i mean i think yuno already called mikoto out once so it'd be interesting to see her feelings on how orekoto is like so open about everything

AND i know you asked for fuuta thoughts and I'm just rambling about orekoto and his interactions because of that snippet, so I guess I should probably say something about fuuta and orekoto now! honestly i'm not too sure his reaction would be? i can't tell if fuuta would be afraid of orekoto because he's worried he'd get beaten up by him or just general annoyance from how blunt(?) he seems

anyways rambling over yippee!

(My notifs have been glitching too! It makes me so sad -_-)

Ahhh ty pal because YES -- Kazui would have gotten Such a wild first impression omg :0 Hmmm, he and Kotoko probably have a skewed perception of Orekoto because their first experience with him was such a violent one :( Though! If anyone were to see him at his worst and still think highly of him, it's the man that tried to hide his "shameful" true self only to have its presence kill someone...

I loooove the thought of Yuno appreciating his honesty and being like "finally, you stopped people pleasing like we talked about 😌 I'm so happy for you ✨️" I wonder if he'd inspire her to stand up for herself more vocally! Though she was very happy in her profession, it's clear she's made some unfair compromises/sacrifices at times, and I wonder if she'd change her mind on some things after hearing how fiercely he cares for himself. They'd be the take no crap duo of all time 👏

OUGH Fuuta being afraid because he doesn't quite understand his motivations ;--; And you're right, there'd definitely be a lot of jealousy that comes out in the form of annoyance -- Fuuta is so used to watchful eyes and perfect online performances that he can't stand someone who does whatever, whenever. Instead of getting inspired, he doubles down on what he's been conditioned with and Orekoto just pisses him off. (On a different note. I always pictured Fuuta idolizing Kotoko in T1 for her strength and sense of justice, but I wonder if that inner fanboy would transfer over to Orekoto after seeing him match strength with the person that just took his eye...)

#milgram #mikoto kayano #kazui mukuhara #yuno kashiki #fuuta kajiyama #thank you mug!!!! big brained as always im 👀👀👀 #i was thinking about a few interactions but i never considered his and yunos relationship omg #i figured shes too chill to stress out the host so just never sees him adfgghj but i mean theyd meet eventually #theres so much about identities and selves and hiding parts of oneself !!!!! #literally its confirmed that haruka yuno fuuta kazui amane and mikoto all center around performing and lying and hiding #im torn between the angst of fuuta being scared of everyone and pulling away from the others #even when he should be bonding with mikoto over their shared verdicts #and the sappy thought of him looking at kazui and mikoto like 🤩🤩🤩 'they protected me theyre so cool!!!' #i dont know what what im going to do during the trial hiatus and i still have characters living rent free in my mind like this asdfghhj #ask #long post

[cataboliiicseed]

HELLO please tell me about your cd collection?? i would love to hear about it genuinely

HAIII BELL!!! i am more than happy to talk about my cds!!!

i included pics of my current collection 🕺!

i’ve been collecting them most of my life. i got given a cd player at a young age which is why i started collecting. as a kid it was mostly so fresh & now hits of summer cds that are still somewhere in the house (also alvin & the chipmunks).

these days i collect them because my car is old and doesn’t have aux or bluetooth so cds and the radio get me through. i’ve included pics of my glovebox, the ones that live in a bag cause i have too many to fit in said glovebox & my current listen. i’ll just list them as they appear and where i got them from!!

gorillaz, the now now- bought first hand. at the time i was listening to it almost daily

gorillaz, demon days- actually belongs to my sister. she doesn’t have a cd player so it judt lives in my car for when we go on drives

twenty one pilots, trench- a gift for my birthday last year. i have most of tøps discography and i was obsessed with it when it released (saw them in concert & everything)

my chemical romance, the black parade- found this one in an op shop. there’s a few i got at the same time, some emo must’ve donated their collection in one go. love this album its one i listen to a lot

panic! at the disco, a fever you cant sweat out- also found in the op shop haul!

panic! at the disco, pretty odd- another op shop haul find. i didn’t listen to this album a load back then compared to the rest of their stuff but its one of my faves now

my chemical romance, three cheers for sweet revenge- shocking news, found this in the op shop haul!

bastille, all this bad blood- at some point during my teens i spend my pocket money on this. definitely glad i still have it, there’s so much music on that album & i still love bastille

twenty one pilots, blurryface- another one i spent my pocket money on!!

twenty one pilots, vessel- another pocket money purchase

fall out boy, folie à deux- found in the op shop haul. didn’t even listen to this album at the time & i forgot i had it until way after i fixated on it and then went through my collection again

fall out boy, infinity on high- another op shop find, very fun find!! was a fave at the time

fall out boy, american beauty/american psycho- op shop haul find!!

fall out boy, save rock and roll- op shop haul find!!!

my chemical romance, danger days- my brother found this one in an op shop for me

will wood and the tapeworms, everything is a lot- bought this one online when he dropped the last of the original pressings a few years back. its signed but the signature is rubbing off a bit

will wood, in case i make it- i got this one when i backed the album when he was fundraising for it

the libertines, up the bracket- i think my mum gave this to me, i’ve never listened to it lol

janelle monáe, the archandroid- dad gave this to me. one of my favourite albums of all time

sara bareilles, whats inside: songs from waitress- this was a pocket money buy. i think i bought this before i actually listened to the waitress musical? so it was my introduction to it and then waitress was what made me fall in love with musical theatre

the hush sound, like vines- found this in a record shop. was very excited, i was playing one of their songs on repeat at the time

pulp, different class- mum gave me this one as well

the breeders, cannonball- my dad got it for my brother who didn’t want it and i slid in like hi, yes i love the breeders, this is mine bye.

troye sivan, wild- a pocket money buy. i really wanted blue neighbourhood but they only had this ep so its what i got

sara bareilles, the blessed unrest- another pocket money buy, i had a huge sara bareilles phase at some point in highschool

the scary jokes, retinal bloom- bought this one in one of the packs when the album was about to be dropped. gawd i love the scary jokes

the scary jokes, burn pygmion!!! a better guide to romance- what i listened to todayyy. probably my number one album ever this was a christmas gift!!

theres two fob cds i skipped cause they’re just a compilation & cd that all the songs on are on my other cds.

theres so many more that have come and left my collection but this is where its at now and i can’t waiiiit to find more!! especially w my damn car. NOW TELL ME ABOUT YOURS (please ^3^!)

#ren rambles #music collections #cds

[kusuokisser]

oomf reblogged a bunch of aro stuff and in honor of pride hour (i made it the fuck up Dont ask me any questions i dont talk to paparazzi) i want to talk about MYYY experience being arospec because it is Isolating and even if this reaches literally no one id rather at least have tried to share my feelings. Spreading love! 💝

growing up i very quickly realized that i wasnt getting crushes like the other kids were. as early as second grade i started trying to force myself to like the boys in my class. id, like, look around the classroom at the start of every new school year and look for the next boy to have a "crush" on. It sounds kind of funny looking back but like i remember how desperate i felt doing it. i remember one year i genuinely hated every boy in my class with a burning passion and, if nothing else, i remember the feeling of being wrong. i, a 4th (maybe 3rd?) grader, felt isolated and gross because i couldnt force a crush for a year.

i had known none of the other ones were really crushes, but it wasnt the romance i wanted it was the connections. i wanted to be able to join the girls talking about their crushes and i wanted to have a reason to try talking to boys; i wanted to be liked.

in 6th grade i think was the first time i didnt try to force a crush. i dont remember much from that year but i know that i didnt feel good. youd think that, as an arospec, i would have enjoyed the break from faking romance but at that point i didnt understand that my feelings werent quite real. i knew they werent like everyone elses, but i really wanted them to be even if it meant lying a bit to myself on the way. i felt wrong and weird.

in seventh grade that was when covid hit and everyone was quarentined, and also that is the year that holds my worlds most obvious example of my aromanticism ever. genuinely think back to this and go "how didnt i figure it out sooner"

i convinced myself i had a crush on my at-the-time best friend. there was no crush by the way, i judt knew i liked him more than all my other friends and to my socially deprived brain that meant it had to be romantic right? well he didnt like me back and literally i went, watched like two YouTube videos on something or other, and was over it. because the feelings were never genuine. it was never love it was a desire to be close with someone

8th grade was the first time i actually fell in love. by then i had figured out im a lesbian, and i met this girl named Jane. She was literally everything you could want in a girl and i fell HARRDDDDDDD i was so in love dont even. but I found that my capacity to love her fluxuated. the love was always there, but some days it was more platonic than anything. sometimes thr platonic periods would stretch for weeks. sometimes it would switch between platonic and romantic multiple times a day. it confused me and honestly? it scared me a lot. i distanced myself from her and eventually we broke up (for seperate reasons but this def contributed)

that really messed with me because now i was left with two understandings: i can definitely experience romantic attraction, and the romantic attraction can change at the drop of a hat.

after a lott of time and research i finally realized and accepted that im aromanticflux (will go into detail if necessary) and you know what? it didn't make me feel better. if anything it made me feel worse; i felt like such an asshole for getting in a relationship if it was always going to end.

now i am. Still coming to terms with my identity but i am learning to love and be kind to myself. the point of this whole thing is. youre never alone. there are eight billion people on earth, at least one of them is going through the exact same thing as you right now. you are not any less of a person because of your attraction or lack thereof

#Mimi gets serious wtfff #gross never do it again #faun talks about something other than saiki??? #aromantic #aroace #aromantism #arospec #Umm how do you even tag this #If it finds you it finds you. Love yourself ☺️💝

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

why is my class in art so odd. tell me why my class is always yelling, screaming, and even a few kids (im looking at you, JUSTIN) moaning. ome time in art, i got stabbed in the hand with a colored pencil. today, my crush (the dude i told you about a few weeks ago or something) SAT ON MY LAP. LIKE WHAT ??

anyway, my cat is always so aggressive at night. this mother fucker was biting and scratching at my hand . he only does this at night too, specifically when im on my phone/ipad

update on me and my friend reading your old smaus: we only got halfway through the todoroki one bcus she had to hang up for something, but thats not the point. we giggled. a lot. lots of giggling. so silly. were goofy goobers (just like my name). she wasnt paying too much attention cause she was doing other stuff so at one point she didnt understand what kirishima was talking about (the part where he was calling todoroki out for being rude to Y/N and dumping water on her) so i went on a rant about the lore and Y/N & todorokis history and how they first met and stuff.

im starting to think im not judt reading these to make fun of them and im actually reading them bcus they are actually interesting and entertaining (ngl 2021 you was cooking with these smaus 🔥🔥)

WHY IS THE PICTURE SO LOW QUALITY. I CAN LITERALLY COUNT THE PIXELS. THE WORDS LOOK LIKE A MINECRAFT ENCHANTMENT TABLE. (idk if its still gonna be low quality when i send this but like. its so low quality.)

ur crush sitting in ur lap… ur winning i fear !

and the pic isn’t low quality on my end lolz

#axel answers ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★