#but the show insists on being abt two brothers and constantly traumatizing them in relation to the other and then never addressing it

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okay but looking at how dean acts in s4 compared to s1-3 it’s SO clear it’s abt what happened in hell. he was tortured for 30 years and when he gave in and became the torturer to protect himself that meant the next 10 years he was in the process of becoming a demon. and when he gets back and he finds out sam is drinking demon blood and using his powers and training under a demon dean is terrified that the same thing is happening to sam. “at least he died human” is literally what dean wishes he could have done, he’s so ashamed of what he did and traumatized by it and he wishes he hadn’t, wishes he’d stayed himself instead of letting hell change him. and what sam is doing looks so familiar to him, he’s desperate to stop him, desperate to pull him out before it’s too late for him like it is for dean.

and actually! this makes the mark of cain arc so much more intense and if they had actually leaned into the fact that they’re talking about THEE biblical cain who was a brother THEE biblical abel and that cain commits the first murder by killing his brothers, especially since they changed THEE bible so that cain killed abel to save him from lucifer, from hell, and gave himself in his place, they could have done so much work with dean and sam’s relationship and deconstructed the dynamic they’ve been building up since s3. the older brother gives himself in exchange for the younger, the older brother tries to protect the younger from lucifer, the older brother ensures that his brother “dies human” and becomes a demon in his place. what was that like for abel? to know he is in heaven because his brother took his place in hell? to know his brother killed him for this? is it enough? is it worth the betrayal? is he ashamed of himself? is he angry? why didn’t they fucking cast abel????

#i LOVE colette the oc wife of THEE biblical cain they were THINKING when they did that #but the show insists on being abt two brothers and constantly traumatizing them in relation to the other and then never addressing it #address it!!!!!!!!!!!! they said we will lay out all the pieces for this story and then not put them together #and while we still make a pretty picture it will not be what we could do #and the thing is they could have kept the oc wife colette and juxtapositioned that. #the man who sacrifices himself for his younger brother and hurts him in the process and who is defined by the things he has done for his #brother letting go of that because the person he loves asks him to. it's antigone but who can make me a new brother doing everything for his #brother but that's not all he is and that's not all he can be he can love to. and he remembers that. he is not a killer. everything he has #done he has done for love. #IMAGINE IF SPN WAS GOOD #spn #speaking #dean