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PAIRING ⌠charles leclerc x fem!singer!reader
SUMMARY ⌠most of your songs are based off of your relationship with your boyfriend, so it's only fair that he writes a song for you, right? [ SMAU ]
WARNINGS ⌠cursing
REQUESTED ⌠here!
NOTES ⌠for the purpose of this fic, i have stolen some songs from other artists to use as the reader's/charles'. as per request, the fc i've used is sabrina carpenter, but feel free to picture whoever you want! my requests are open so feel free to leave a request :)
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yourusername my new song 'cinnamon girl', and the music video to go with it, is out now!! i'd like to thank everyone who supported me through the making of this song, but especially my boyfriend, who inspired me to write it. je tâaime đ
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user1 THEIR RELATIONSHIP HAS ME SCREAMINGGG WHEN IS IT MY TURN
user2 SO REAL THEY'RE SUCH CUTIES
charles_leclerc forever proud of you â¤ď¸
yourusername đđ
user3 her aesthetic means absolutely everything to me
user4 THE SONG IS EVERYTHING AND MOREEE I LOVE IT!!
user5 y/n l/n one chance PLEASEEE
oliviarodrigo so proud of you baby!! đ
yourusername thank you sm liv i love you đ
user6 their friendship is everything to me.
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yourusername cinnamon girl is already at one million streams on spotify?! actually insane - thank you all so much for supporting me and my vision, i love you all to death đ
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user10 WOAH 1 MILLION ALREADY IS CRAZYYY
user11 beyond proud of you y/n youâve come so far đđ
charles_leclerc couldnât be prouder of you â¤ď¸
yourusername love you!! đđ
user12 the way he supports her>>
user13 the fact charles leclerc inspired this song is actually everything to me
user14 IM IN LOVE W EVERYTHING YOU DO
tatemcrae MY GIRL COME ON â¤ď¸
yourusername TATEEE MY BABY đ
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yourusername next stop: bahrain!! đ
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user17 yâallâs relationship is everything to me
charles_leclerc â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
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user18 Y/N IN BAHRAIN THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!
user19 the way he looks at her omg
user20 i want someone to look at me the way charles looks at y/n oh my days
oliviarodrigo take me w you!! đ
yourusername next time!! đ
user21 sheâs so sweet i cant
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charles_leclerc touchdown in bahrain! letâs hope for a good race đ
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user22 HES BACKKKK
user23 LECLERCCC
user24 y/n is glowing omg
yourusername canât wait to watch đ
charles_leclerc â¤ď¸
user25 awwww stop it rn
yourusername FORZA FERRARIII
carlossainz55 SIEMPRE â¤ď¸
user26 y/nâs two moods: cutesy gf and raging ferrari fan
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charles_leclerc i promised something new and exciting with my music, and here it is. 'perfect' is out now - a song i produced and played purely on the piano. this song is for my love: you write songs about me all the time, so here's a little present from me to you â¤ď¸
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user30 he's so in love it's actually the cutest thing ever
user31 this song is actually so beautiful what on earth.
yourusername my love đ
charles_leclerc forever â¤ď¸
user32 kill me now why are they so cute.
user33 THE SONG CHARLESSS ITS SO GOOD
maxverstappen1 photo credits for the last picture?? âšď¸
yourusername thanks for capturing such a gorgeous shot maxie, much appreciated đ
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charles_leclerc to the person who i would dedicate all of my songs to. je tâaime â¤ď¸
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user38 someone put them in a cheesy romantic comedy film right this instance they're too perfect for this world.
user39 RIGHTTT IVE BEEN SAYING THIS
user40 can't tell who's punching more: charles or y/n
user41 she is so stunning i actually can't
user42 the song title 'perfect' is so fitting i mean look at her
yourusername im choosing to ignore the second picture đ
charles_leclerc but why, it's so cute!!
yourusername you are joking charles.
yourusername love you always and forever đ
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yourusername thank you sm charlie for the song, it was truly one of the most beautiful things that have ever graced my ears, and i will forever cherish it đ this post is an appreciation for you (the last picture will forever be my favorite)
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user43 the way i can hear the last photo đ
user44 "nothing it was just an inchident"
charles_leclerc the last picture âšď¸
yourusername my fav đđ
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user45 FUCKKK IM SO SINGLE RN
user46 NO REALLL IM SO LONELY
maxverstappen1 last pic brings back bad memories đ˘
yourusername sorry about that mad max, i'm sure you'll get over it soon. đŤś
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Sanji With A Clingy Reader Would Include...
Request: OH BABY telling about one piece is like unlocking a whole second heart of mine i have fully for that anime and manga and live action. and so, if you ever decided of course, you writing something similar to something you did on marvel once and sanji with reader that has no personal space and is touchy would be amazing. but also... kissing zoro is great to, if you ever decided? anyway! HOPE YOU LOVE IT (one piece i mean), and if not ignore me UwU
Ooh yess babes this is so SWEET!! :3 I LOVED IT omg hello to my latest obsession not me ordering the first collection of the manga
This was really sweet and fun to do, but I did stay up all night writing it so all comments are much appreciated!
Warning: slightly spicy, some mentions of fighting!
(I do not own One Piece or its characters, all rights go to creators. Gif credit goes to @fanpageknight.)
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Look at this man. Seriously, look at this man with his little bottom lip bite and eyes like the sun shines heavily out of them and tell me he would be anything less than absolutely madly, heart wrenchingly, soul crushingly enthralled with a clingy reader??? That's right you can't take the l on this one.
It all started that day when the three of you ended up shipwrecked on that sad sack excuse of a rock. When you and Sanji huddled on one side of the forsaken isle to stay away from the terrifying Pirate Zeff. His hands had shaken as he drew them up to his chest, but he mustered the nerves to string open the sack Zeff had thrown at his feet. Once he had counted out the cans, he offered all the food to you.
He wanted you to stay alive far more than himself. Ever since you had landed on his ship he had been smitten, and his weary heart would beat its last under this smothering sun as long as you would live on for the both of them.
To keep him calm: to stop his gasping, tortured heaves as he tried his best not to writhe in panic at the thought of never stepping back on safe land again, you would spent most of those 85 days sitting over the cragged edges. Sanji couldn't tear his eyes away from peering down at the gushing shards of stone below that seemed to rip up in tides and tear for his swinging feet; to try and distract him from sniffling any longer, your hand would tentatively creep over the rock until it landed flatly, and unceremoniously on top of his own. His fingers flexed beneath your own, but he didn't pull away. Instead, he folded them upwards, giving your hand a shaking squeeze: a dutiful promise, a flitting confession of love, that you just happened not to feel in your ruminations of the circumstances.
In fact, he asked you that night, in an uncharacteristically quiet and bashful voice, if you would keep his nightmares away by holding him like his mother used to. You felt terrible: you were so stunned that for a moment you stood with the last piece of mouldy bread you had in your hand in shocked silence. Poor Sanji thought you were about to reject him outright: throw what little he had left of his heart - that he had so carefully lifted out and placed in his hands to offer to you, only to have it thrown back to his feet in the usual ridicule he got for his love. His bottom lip began to tremble, until you nearly knocked him onto his bottom with how fast you dropped everything and flew over to lock him in a tight hug, not minding the fact that your shoulder was growing wetter and wetter despite the brewing rain each time Sanji buried his snivelling head against it.
So you would let him rest safely in the bracket of your arms: his left cheek resting in the warm stretch between your collar bone and your neck, his right hand draped leisurely around your waist as you told him stories of pirates and treasure: of the Deep Blue and tropical fish that shone like bursts of fragmented starlight every time their fins graced the water. Although he would groan any time you removed your hand from where you were stroking the wet strands of his hair back from his forehead, it was quickly replaced with wonderment as you would point up at a cluster of stars and whisper excitedly: 'look, there's some now!'
He had never been afraid of nights ever since that moment, not when the stars were still out and he could trace with the butt of his cigarettes the fish you had drawn specially for him in the skies. It was like a secret message: a lover's reminder that he was never alone. That you were always with him. That your beauty - your light, it shone everywhere, no matter where he was.
It was the first time he had kissed you, two forgotten children lost underneath the dripping crevice of your little hideaway. As your belly began to rise and fall underneath his elbow, and he believed you had exhausted yourself out after trying to make him feel better, he dared to dart up from your shoulder and press his lips firmly against your cheek. It had been quick, almost gliding past time like a dolphin leaping up out of the water, but it had meant so much to him that he curled up into a ball in your side and flushed a bright cerise, having to shove his fist into his mouth to stop his manic giggling from waking you up.
But you weren't asleep, and as Sanji settled back into your neck with a smile bright enough to rival the shine of buttercup petals, you swore as he began to drift off in the first peaceful dream he had had in years that one day you would return the favour, but in full.
The two of you were thick as thieves growing up, to the point where Zeff became so distracted by your antics that he often tried to separate the two of you by making you work the floor and Sanji either in the kitchens, or off fishing at the docks. Ten seconds later though, he'd be kicking through the kitchen doors again to find you leaning on the kitchen counter next to an eager faced Sanji, whose to busy to register Zeff's shouting. Instead he places the spoon to your lips, having spent half of lunch service prep cooking you a brand new recipe he had spent the whole night creating out of a medley of your favourite foods. He subconsciously licks his bottom lip, the tension in the room felt by the other chefs who try to carry on washing pans and cutting vegetables enough to put everyone on edge as Sanji refused to look anywhere but your lips. Holding his hand under your chin, his dipped eyes were broken by a sudden grin as a loud 'mmhhh' left your mouth and you chewed in sweet bliss.
Still ignoring Zeff's increasingly erratic rant, as Sanji goes to start cleaning up his pan you slide down to stand behind him, wrapping your arms tightly around your back and jutting your chin into his shoulder blade like a baby koala. You can tell he's laughing silently by the way his shoulders shake against you, but all he does is pull up your hand from his belly button to press sweet, dainty kisses up and down the lengths of your fingers, before dropping it down to press your palm flatly against his heart.
'I think that might be your greatest dish yet, buttercup!'
'From you, that means everything my precious heart.'
'Why do you call me that?', you murmur, refusing to lift your lips from his shirt.
'Well my sweet love, why do you call me buttercup? I mean, I always know I smell of butter and the likes-'.
He's distracted by your snort against the side of his neck, but the two of you are too love-strikingly embarrassed to say anything again. Even if neither of you could see the warm peach rushing up both your cheeks, Zeff could. He could also hear the padding thuds of Sanji's heart as he gripped his fingers that almost imperceptibly bit tighter around your hand, and he found himself sighing at how oblivious you two idiots were.
Sanji is definitely just as clingy as you, if not more so. You've definitely met your match in this man. I mean, any time you're out on the floor, handing out bread to tables and scanning the room to check if there were any patrons you may have to throw out by the scuff of their collars later, his eyes are trained on yours. He leans against the banisters, not even trying to remotely hide how obviously he's tracing your path with a dumbstruck, lit up smile. If you're in the kitchens, desperately trying to bite your tongue and not tear Zeff a new one as he chops his hands together and rushes you to plate up? He's sliding up to your side in an instant, throwing scathing looks at the man while trying to help you spoon thyme onto your bass, nuzzling the side of his head into yours encouragingly. If you have any free time at all? Sanji is fast on your heels, darting after you like someone's firing shots at his dress shoes, as if you have his heart tied to a string on your wrist as he seeks out whatever nook you're going to relax in. It doesn't matter if you're at the bar, watching the docks, or trying to hide from Zeff in one of the cupboards in the pantry: Sanji is squatting down and grunting as he shoves himself in right next to you. He sits criss cross, only satisfied when at least one of his knees is resting heavily over yours, and he has full access to watch what you're reading over the side of your neck.
He only fully settles, though, if you touch him in some way. He genuinely will begin mewling once your hand reaches over to brush your knuckles over his jawline, or your hand finds itself guided to bunch itself up in his hair. One time, he guided your hand into his lap, and you began to absentmindedly stroke your pointer finger along the seam of his inner thigh. Thank goodness you had your head buried in a book one of the pirate crews had come to swap some dried meats with you for, because it took every muscle in Sanji's body twitching: every finger clenching and unclenching into his knee until he drew blood not to knock you flat right there and then and kiss you like there was no tomorrow.
He gets a MASSIVE nosebleed - so gushing, in fact, that he tries to reassure you he's fine as you hold him by the elbows and lead his tilted back head and pinched nose down to Zeff for some help.
It becomes a very major recurring issue every time he looks at you. He makes sure to carry a handkerchief in his breast pocket from then on.
God, if he didn't love you more than anything in all the seas. If you weren't the only one that he let see past his charming nature: if you weren't the only person left in his life that truly could recognise the young boy left in his eyes, in his gait, in his smile, in his dreams. That little kid on that great big ship, the one who had found you stowed away behind one of the barrels of rum, and instead of calling for the crew had taken your trembling hand and led you into the kitchens, introducing you as his newest sous chef. That same kid, who stood beside you and held your hand so gently, so heartbreakingly gently under his as he guided you through lessons of chopping onions and sautĂŠing garlic, breaking out into long strings of rushed, praising French every time you got it right. The same one, who would frown as if he were the one who had been hurt any time you burnt your hands or sliced your fingers. Who would unravel the knot at the back of his apron, and tug it over his head to carefully place it over yours.
'This always brings me luck', he would say as his fingers daintily tucked the strings underneath your shirt collar. 'But I don't need it anymore, because you've brought me all the luck and happiness a man could ever dream of, my cherie.'
The same kid who would tip toe out of his bed to sneak down to your hammock, crawling in and burying himself underneath your blankets where you slept in the brig, telling you fantastical stories about his mother until you fell sound asleep. He would watch you from where he lay on his side, hands folded by your head, as if you had hung every star in the wide skies. He would brush his fingers over the edge of your cheek and curl up beside you, wishing that every minute of every day of the rest of his life could be spent with you.
Yeah, smitten wasn't enough to cover it. Only destiny could be raw enough to draw the two of you to each other, Sanji always thought.
As teenagers, you would end every shift outside, sitting on the wonky boards of one of the jutted docks. Just sitting side by side, as you always wanted to be, pretending you weren't playing a game of chicken as the two of you teased and pressed and glanced your fingers over each other's, leaning back and looking up at the stars. Sanji always appreciated the better chance it gave him: shrouded in naught by wisps of moonlight and the rare flashing neon of ship string lights, to take you in as much as he could. You didn't mind the fact that he spent the whole time staring over at you. In fact, if you hadn't been so lovestruck, you might have found the courage to tear your head away from the horizon to meet the look of gut-wrenching devotion that always seemed to pour out of his eyes and beam only on you. It always felt like warm sunlight, sitting next to him, and so you finally dared a chance at grabbing his fingers and intertwining them between your own, pretending it was because of the sea chill spraying a fine mist over your legs.
Again, the squeeze he gave your hand was almost, almost imperceptible, but you felt it this time. And you could feel the look of enduring devotion he pierced into your skin, a warm tingle washing like a spring tide through your tired body.
He always knew. He always knew that if he had stayed on that rock, he would have been content to. Happy, even. Because he would have been with you.
'I love you', he said without words. He gave your hand another squeeze. 'I'm going to love you forever. No matter how many lifetimes. No matter who I am. I'm always going to find you, and I'm always going to love you.'
His voice nearly made you jump, surprising you at how it started with his usual buttery smoothness, before cracking with a thick gulp as his words trailed of. 'Never leave without me.'
'I promise, as long as you don't leave without me.'
He shakes his head. 'You never leave me. Not even for a moment.'
Sometimes, when the two of you are older, he still comes stealing into your room at night, wiping his nose with the back of his hand as his lips wobble into a frightened frown. Turns out, as he draws the covers back and comes reaching in for you, he had another nightmare that pirates had come to steal you away from him again. With an aching sigh for how stricken he looked, how desolate, you let him claw at your shirt and bury his head into the side of your neck until the rest of the world melted away.
He kissed you again, that night. When the feel of his legs strewn familiarly between your own began to burn against his skin, and the weight of hand perched over his thrumming heart became too heavy to bear in secret. With nothing but the light streaming like shards of pearly stars through the porthole to betray a moment so special, so longed for, Sanji let his eyelashes flutter close as he slowly... slowly pressed his lips against your cheek again.
This time, his eyes widened in shock as the feeling of your hand gripping at his jaw and turning his face straight on to your own. Before he can even open his mouth in confusion, the sweet pressure of your lips pressed against his top one. For a moment, Sanji doesn't move an inch: doesn't even breath, not even processing that the thing heâs spent every moment of his waking and sleeping life wishing for ever since he found you on that boat was actually happening, right here right now. He tries really hard to stop his whole body from shaking, as his silky lashes finally falter shut against the top of your cheeks and he tries to focus his whole attention on the way your plush lip seems to press so perfectly against his own.
When he finally pulls away, he lets out a loud 'OW' as he pinches his arm.
'What did you do that for!?'
'I had to double check this wasn't a dream, my sweets!'
And then he's on you again, like a ravished man gasping for air. God, he wasn't sure if soulmates were real, but when your top lip pulled down against his, and he could feel the thud of your heart synch against his own beneath the tips of his fingers, if he didn't know that he was yours.
He stays in your room a lot more often after that, using it as an excuse for you to help him button up his shirt during sleepy mornings, smiling at the feel of your fingers as they knocked against the muscles of his chest. It was also his favourite part of the day - the good morning kiss the two of you shared before you raced down to be at your shifts before Zeff decided to knock your heads together.
One time you forgot to give him one, too distracted by one of the sous chefs busting into your room with a bloodied nose and a chipped front tooth, whistling through the gap as he begged you to come down to the main foyer and help him break out a fist fight that had started between two gangs of rival pirates. The pout on Sanji's face that day was enough to make even the most bounty-heavy pirate's knees tremble. Every other chef steered way clear of his station, watching the arch of his back and the jaw in his muscle jump as he busied himself by frying his steak of tuna, so gutted at the loss of just one kiss. Not angry, no: just grief stricken, because this man seriously just adores you that much.
When you finally get your lunch break, the first thing you do is throw your napkin down on the kitchen ground and grab Sanji by his suit collar, enjoying the surprise tilt of his head as he drops his spoon onto his serving tray and allows you to lead his feet backwards to the fire exit. As soon as he's outside, you slam him gently against the wooden beams of the Baratie restaurant, and kissed him silly to make up for it. His look of trusting confusion suddenly melt into jumping heart eyes when your knee slides up between his thighs to try and pin him in place. His breathing comes out in harsh, shallow gasps between ferocious kisses, and you have to press him back against the wall every time he comes arching forward to follow your head for even more kisses. No, this was about you making him feel good. And by goodness, as your tongue pressed against the seam of his lips and tentatively ran over his front teeth, if he wasn't two seconds away from falling to his knees right there and then.
When you let him go, he slides down the wall like putty until he's sitting with legs stretched out and both his suit and hair a ruffled mess. He's literally never been more deliriously happy in his whole life.
Your favourite time of the day is when the restaurant closes, and the two of you finally have the kitchens to yourselves. Once you've tossed your aprons back onto the rack with a tired sigh, the only thing that can cheer you up is the sound of Sanji kicking his chair back with the toe of his shoe, and the sight of him beckoning you over to him with that tilted head and pearly beam of his. Mmh, how safe you feel, how loved as you collapse down to sit on his knees, and he tucks you in between the brackets of his arms in a vice so tight it could match any Marine knot.
You take one of his hands off the pen he was holding, turning his palm round to face you so you could fiddle with the rings he was wearing. You draw one up, curling his finger before your eyes, before slotting one off and sliding it onto your own ring finger. It was the one his father had given him: one he so loathed to wear, and yet felt guilt bore down too heavily on his conscious to ever take it off. You turned the one on top of it, one you know Zeff had given him after his first day working at the Baratie, and you smiled at the memory.
'You know', you start, still fiddling with his hand, feeling him shift his thighs as you pressed a gentle kiss on the pointer finger you were currently grasping onto. 'I may just have to keep this one.'
'Oh yeah?', he says dreamily, and you could feel his grin growing as he hid his burning face in the nape of your neck. 'Don't worry sweetheart. One day, once I find the perfect one, I'll give you a ring of your own.'
The two of you sneak out and share cigarettes out the back door a lot, where Sanji steps forward and kisses you like a man possessed every time you pinch the stub from out of his mouth and draw it along your bottom lip teasingly. When you try to get him to go back in, he just wraps his arms around your waist and lifts you up, spinning you around to stop you from leaving him alone. Laughing, you try to shove him off, swatting at the hands that form a tight clasp over your belly button, until his large fingers finally slide down to hold your waist. You glance behind you, smirking at the way his eyes are tightly shut in euphoria as ducks down, chest nearly enveloping in his desperation to reach your face again. His kisses become sloppier: smoke stained as they leave wet trails up your jaw, before he finally gives in and tries to make you laugh one last time by nibbling at the lobe of your ear.
Whenever he has a fight with Zeff, you have to hold him afterwards. The feel of your fingers curling the hair at the nape of his neck, or rubbing soothing circles into the sore muscles of his shoulders stops the furious darts of air from flaring his nostrils almost immediately.
Man has blaring heart eyes 100% whenever he's in a fight with rowdy customers, and you get to kick the flashy knife out of the last one's hand before the pirate could launch straight for Sanji's neck. He tilts his head at you with those amazed eyes, a gentle smile growing almost shyly on his face like a secret wink, before he throws his now empty plate at the pirate trying to sneak up behind your back. The crash echoes out through the booth area, a cry so furious: so full of rage that anyone would try and dare hurt you, that it makes all the remaining pirate crews crawl out towards the door on their hands and knees.
Stitching each other up afterwards is a motherfcking mess though, that Zeff straight up just abandons all hope of being able to use his kitchen. With a defeated rub of his pounding temples, he lets the door slam shut on his heel because he just can't deal with the two of you. He'd much rather pick up a brush and start sweeping bits of crushed and splattered asparagus off the floors than have to watch you to battle it out in a stiff competition of who could be more sickeningly, maddingly in love with the other. Between you standing between Sanji's entrapping thighs, closing you in tighter so you could have full access to kiss his bobbing Adam's apple as you use a rag to swipe bits of dry sauce off his neck, and him throwing his head back and whimpering, Zeff was going to go insane. Even worse, as soon as you're finished, Sanji's reaching between your fingers to lick split consomme off your nose.
The two of you are literally insufferable, and if every one apart from Zeff doesn't find it the cutest thing I-
When Luffy comes and wrangles Sanji into joining his crew, the chef's first thought is to be distraught. He seeks you out straight away, nearly breaking some poor fisherman's pole as he tries to hurdle over it and grip onto your shoulders, making you drop the barrel of dried meats you were carrying from Luffy onto the planks and watching Luffy nearly dangle off the edge of his ship to stop it from rolling into the ocean.
'Y/n- I- I can't go!'
'You're hardly scared!'
'I'm not scared of going, I'm terrified of going without you!'
You let him pour his heart out for a moment, before stopping his rambling, near sobbing mess of a sentence by bopping the tip of his nose. You giggle, swiping some hair from his forehead. 'Sanji, Luffy asked me to come first. I promised I wouldn't go without you, and I meant it.'
You manage to unlatch his twitching hand from your left shoulder, and give it an almost imperceptible squeeze. The tears that threatened to fall from his eyes finally cascade down, although he's so relieved that he's smiling through the blurriness. You swipe them away with your free thumb, finally, after all these years, feeling the squeeze of your hand that Sanji gives you back, before he envelops you in a breath taking hug.
'Awww, you guys are so sweet!', Luffy calls out from where he's hanging by his sandal off the railing of his ship. 'But could someone give me a hand before my hat falls into the waves? That would not be very cool.'
The first thing the two of you do once you're on The Going Merry is to find your bunk. Sanji isn't very subtle when he kicks your door shut with his heel, and comes scampering towards you like an upended sand crab, pinching for you until he's hefted you up over his shoulder and has unceremoniously landed you in your shared hammock. He's quick to jump in, straddling you as the hammock sways back and forth with the commotion.
He nearly starts crying again when he sees a flash of silver poke out from underneath your neckline; he grazes his hand over the chain, recognising it as his father's ring you had taken months ago. The one he had hated so much. The one you had tried to save him from. A small piece of him. A weight you tried to bear for him. A reminder of how much he was loved.
A confused Zoro, not realising there are new crew members on board, follows the sound of Sanji's voice crooning out how much he adores you, and how he loves you more than every star in the sky, down past the window on your bedroom door. Let's just say, he's not very impressed when he catches sight of the hammock swinging wildly from side to side, and an array of clothes thrown out and discarded in a mess around it.
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Fuckboy Min 2 - angst w/ Lee Know + Hyunjin. 18+ only mdni.
{ Part 1 here + Part 3 here }
{Minaâs notes: I really enjoyed writing this. Sorry it took a while! Let me know what you guys think through comments or my ask box đđ}
âYou done crying yet or?â Hyunjin jokes after watching over you for the past thirty minutes. He was in the drivers seat handing out countless tissues to you, who was in his passengerâs.
âHyunjin, stop,â you crack up at his teasing. You were done crying now, you just werenât done being upset yet. A heavy feeling still lingering around your shoulders as you try your best to block out Minhoâs words circulating in your head.
âAre you still not going to tell me what he said to you in the bathroom?â A hand comes to wipe away the last of your tears, his tone gentler now.
Hyunjin can see the marks on your neck, anyone can. He can tell what happened in the bathroom and he knows Minho mustâve said something to overwhelmed you to cry, but he just doesnât know what exactly.
âI donât want to re-live it Hyunjin,â you couldnât tell him. You didnât want to tell him that you said the L word to Minho within the same month you got rejected by him. Hyunjin could never judge you for that but how can you tell him without telling the whole thing, how it was forced out of you. Dirty? Dirty because of Hyunjin? The words repeats again, haunting you. Hyunjin was involved in Minhoâs mean and hurtful words and you feel guilty. Hyunjin did absolutely nothing wrong, he didnât deserved to be dragged into whatever mess was going on between you and Minho.
âWhy? Is it because you might cry again?â He playfully says, not wanting you to feel downhearted at your own actions. He lets out a giggle after observing how you quickly pierced your eyes at him sassily - something you picked up from him. It doesn't matter what situation you're in, Hyunjin always makes it light hearted. He's so playful but in a way where he is still careful and you never fail to warm up to him. Just like this moment.
âI just got my heart broken by the cityâs fuckboy, I donât need the cityâs heartbreaker to feed into it,â you chuckle and he follows with furrowed brows, unable to keep a straight face at the names.
âThose names are crazy Y/N,â he remarks.
âI actually donât think youâre a heartbreaker Hyunjin, itâs just what everyone calls you,â you reassured him, hand finding his to give him a tight squeeze.
"I probably am one," he held yours back tighter, letting you know he didnât take it to heart. "I'm curious though," he continues .
âHmm?â
âCurious to why the cityâs fuckboy keeps yelling at you,â you eyed him again, arms crossed this time with a fake pout. âOr is it that youâre just a cry baby?â he laughs but he was serious though, he wanted to see why Minho keeps leaving you in tears.
âIâm not a cry baby,â you defend yourself. âYouâre probably tired of me crying hey? I know how to smile too!â To be fair, you were kind of a cry baby especially as this is the second time he has picked you up and wiped away your tears, all within a month.
âWait, can you actually?â he continues.
âIâm actually really sweet Hyunjin, I promise!â
âHow about the cityâs heartbreaker takes you out one day?â The tension from the incident with Minho start to disappear as Hyunjin slowly soothes it, directing your attention somewhere else - something he is very good at.
âHmm?â brows furrowed together. His question had taken you by surprise, you were unsure if he was serious. âLike on a date?â You clarified.
âMhmm,â he confirmed. âSo you can show me how sweet you can be and that youâre not just a cry baby.â He already knows how sweet you are. Last couple of weeks you guys spent together talking about everything and nothings have really shown him what type of person you are. You were caring, cheerful, playful. You loved to tease, loves to be teased and takes on jokes like a champ. You were just full of laughter and happiness and meeting someone like you is hard for Hyunjin. It seems that he has developed a soft spot for you, but unlike Minho he isnât afraid to show you.
You just giggle back, unaware of the thoughts going through Hyunjinâs head, everything falling into silence right after.
Hyunjin is a lovely person and you hate to say yes just to distract yourself from Minho. But Hyunjin has that effect on you, where he has made you forgot about Minho whenever youâre with him. You donât know how to explain it. Like earlier tonight before all of this, when you went with him to the party, you had zero care for anyone and anything besides Hyunjin and wine. Or like right now, Minho was slowly fading away in your head. If you give him a chance, maybe heâll be better than Minho. He always was, seeing as he was the one who was here, unlike Minho who didnât even chase after you.
âHyune?â
âHmm?â
âA date with you sounds cool,â your silly smile returning. He couldnât control his smile back, his eyes turning into thin lines as his upper lips disappears a little showing his white pearlys.
The man who broke your heart an hour ago long forgotten, in moments like this.
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âYou okay hyung?â Han asks, after observing Minho for the past hour just downing his drinks.
âYeah.. Good.. Iâm good.â Minho could barely reply, slurring on his words clearly intoxicated.
âWhat happened in the bathroom? What did you do to her?â Han was worried about you both. He still doesn't understand what you did to get Minho to push you away like that, especially when Minho would used to reschedule his plans with Han and their friend group just to be with you. It was clear to Han that you guys had something going on. Minho wasnât much of a drinker too but seeing him suddenly finish all these drinks made Han sense something was up.
âNothing, I just.. Nothing just shooed her away like usual,â Minho replied, acting uninterested in the conversation.
âMarks on your neck tells me otherwise,â Han replied back, eyeing up at his hyung. Minho doesnât reply, instead he stays quiet, one hand coming into contact with the marks you left on his skin. His head is in a daze, the scene of you pressing kisses to his neck, how soft your plump lips felt, your tiny hands holding the back of his neck to keep him in place while the other was wrapped around his..
âHyung? Hey hyung?â Han snaps the older man out of his thoughts, holding him by the shoulder trying to steady him. âSheâs a good girl. If you donât like her donât do that to her.â
âShe gave me the marks Jisung.. I didnât do anything to her,â Minho huffed, trying to defend himself.
âSure, itâs not like she didnât walk out of the bathroom with marks herself,â Minho just rolls his eyes. âIf you donât like her like that, stop hurting her.â
âLooks like you also want to fuck her, seeing as how youâre talking about her-â
â-Just because I feel sorry for her doesnât mean I want to fuck her, hyung. No girl should be treated like that,â
âWhatever,â Minho pushes the smaller boyâs arms off his shoulders making him stumble back a bit.
âSee how you act? Youâre a dick. How is it that every other girl gets let off easily when they admit they like you and when Y/N does it she gets yelled at?â Han was over his hyungâs antics, also fuming from the way he was pushed even though he was only trying to help him up.
âLast month you pushed her away then tonight youâre all over her again just because sheâs with someone else. Youâre so possessive. What did you do to her in the bathroom?!â Han has never called Minho out like this but the way Minho acted was very possessive. It was like he hates seeing other people interested or talk about things that was his. In this instance, you.
âI donât know,â as much as he hates to admit it, your words engraved itself to his brain. He couldnât come up with a reason why he treated you the way he did tonight or ever. Just the words I love you bouncing in his head, hitting every surface of his brain. Did he like you back? Heâs not in-love with you right? Or was he just possessive over you? Did he want you to himself only? Minho was overwhelmed with his thoughts, unable to voice anything else, eyes just seeking some sort of help from the younger boy.
âYou okay hyung?â
âNo.â
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A couple weeks go by and Minho catches himself thinking about you every second pf his day. He doesnât know how to make it stop. He contacted so many girl just to ghost them before they meet up as he has this feeling of guilt. Not towards the girls, they donât mean anything to him but guilt towards you. It was like he was doing something wrong to you. But you werenât even his and he doesnât even like you back. He has just be constantly in and out, and his friends arenât any help either. Well to be fair, heâs only been keeping his thoughts to himself so itâs not really his friendâs fault. But you and Hyunjin has been the topic of the week, updates of where you guys went or what you guys did was brought up every single day in conversation.. well ofcourse it would, seeing as how Hyunjin and Minho shares mutual friends.
âYou think he really likes her?â Felix asks the others.
âYeah, if he didnât he wouldnât have come with her to the party the other week,â Chan clarified and they nod in agreement.
âWhy wonder we havenât seen him all of last month, he was with Y/N.â
Minho listens to the conversation, quietly contributing and attacking Hyunjin in his head. Yeah but she doesnât like him. She clearly loves someone else.
âWasnât she one of your flings?â Chanâs question wakes Minho up.
âHmm? Y/N?â Your name comes out more tender than expected from his lips. âI donât remember,â Minho lies.
âAnyways, I reckon the photo he took of her from earlier this week was cute,â Seungmin says, the rest giggling like high school girls at their friends love life.
âLooks like the heartbreaker Hyunjin found someone he really likes.â
âAnd Y/N seems to really like him too,â Minho was furious, wanting to tell them what the reality was but even himself wasnât sure if it was true anymore. Maybe you have fallen for Hyunjin. Maybe you have forgotten all about Minho now.
He looks to his side, watching Felix swipe through Hyunjinâs instagram story. It was the first time he saw you since. You were as pretty as ever. Hair in a half up half down look, in a black dress looking and smiling at Hyunjinâs camera.
Hyunjin had taken you out to one of his favourite bakery and art museum. He had told you to wear something pretty, and be ready by noon. You got dolled up, picking out your most gorgeous dress and by the time he promised, he messaged you to come outside. Hyunjin was lean up against his car, his camera strap across his body, a small bouquet in his hand. It was something you never experienced before, you couldnât help but smile instantly at the sight. Oh how sweet he was, and definitely very handsome.
âYou look like you can be very sweet, Y/N,â he playfully says before pulling you into a hug. You hold him back, arms wrapping around his body pressing your cheeks against his toned chest, staying there a little bit longer than you extended.
âReady to go?â He asks, and you remove yourself.
âMhmm, ready to go and ready to show you I can be sweet!â The conversation you had with yourself, a couple days ago still implanted in your head. You will give it a try with Hyunjin. He has always treated you well, despite his title he received from everyone, but a little part of you is afraid. Minho treated you well too, but turned his back on you the second you liked him. You were afraid you were going to fall for it again. Hyunjin could never make you fall for him then ditch you right? But to be honest, has Minho ever picked you up in broad day light like this? No. You guys would sneak around all the time, and was only ever relaxed in a closed off area - that being his house. Minho has never planned a date this. But did your heart wanted that more than this? A unlike tingling heavy feeling fallen in your chest, the feeling is different.
As Felix continues to tap his screen, more images of the date appears. You guys spend a while in the coffee shop just goofing around with each other, then at the art museum.. Oh the art museum.. countless photos of you standing infront of and looking at the art works makes Minho go red.
âFuck-â Minho bites, fist forming into balls as he feels his blood boiling. Minho was angry now, he was jealous. He didnât ever show you off like this and was mad someone was able to do.
âGotta go, gotta go call Bella,â Minho walks out, everyone else looking around trying to seek a reason why he was acting like that.
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It was dark and late, 9pm to be exact. Silence fill the air as you and Hyunjin both just sit in his car. You shyly glance over to him, unsure of what to do now, he just gives you a smile. You really enjoyed your day with him, it was fun and quite the romantic day. But do you invite him in now? Do you take it slow? What would you do if you invite him in anyways?
"I enjoyed today with you too Hyune," you break the silence. "I'm actually really tried from everything though" you lie, you needed to distant yourself for the rest of the night, to work out what you were feeling. You needed to take it slow. The tingling sensation before was still around you, a feeling you can't explain. "I think I might start ready for bed," you observe his reactions, but there is none. Just him keeping a small smile like earlier.
"We did so much today, Iâm tired and ready for bed too," he agrees, one hand reaches over to hold yours. He was so soft, it's like he knows the barrier you had set up. He doesn't questions it and just lets it be.
"Thank you Hyune," you reply, twisting your wrist so your fingers can interlock with his now, giving him some sort of affirmation. You lean in towards him and ahe air grows a bit cold now. You had to do it, to show your gratitude. You continue to move in, giving him a peck to his cheeks. Hyunjin freezes in return, the sudden affection makes him flustered. "Goodnight Hyune." You retracted back your hand, collecting your stuff, along with your nice bouquet of flowers and exiting his car.
It was clear to Hyunjin after the peck that he liked you. He really liked you but he was still unsure of where your feelings stands. Regardless, he wanted to keep trying with you.
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You were in the middle of the dance floor, to the grand party that Hyunjin asked you to be his date at. Well technically, you were invited by Minho's mum but you can't turn down a cute date with Hyunjin.
âWhere are you?â You ask on the phone, eyes searching for a lost Hyunjin. He has disappeared from your sight so suddenly after you guys had spend a hour of drinking the free wine.
âAt the table we were before," you can hear him slurring on his words, unable to keep your giggles in at how tipsy he is.
âOkay, coming! Stay where you are," as you turn around someone pulls you back, making you stumble a bit forward into them.
âCan I talk to you?â You encounter a familiar face. Minho was standing in front of you, his hand gripping your wrist not painfully but strong enough for you not to pull back. Your eyes scan his face. He looked so different. He had his hair down covering his forehead, something he never wears out in public. His eyes were coated with a thin cover of gloss, almost looks like he had been draining in his emotions for the longest time ever. Minho looked so soft, you were taken back.
âI gotta go. Hyuneâs waiting for me,â you reply trying to pull away from him. You needed to avoid Minho, unsure why but you had too.
âHyune?â
âYes, Hyune,â you managed to escape and walked off, only because he loosen his grip. Minho was left on the middle of the dance floor, watching you make your way through the crowd.
âHyune?â He whispers to himself, confused. A nickname already? Maybe the boys were right.
You donât know why but a sudden urge to spin around got the best of you.
âHey Min!â The nickname makes him instantly turn around but he knows it wasnât going to be you standing there, so he prepared himself for whoever was there.
âHey, I was looking for you,â he lied to the gorgeous woman infront of him, Bella.
You watch as Minho smile at her, his hand coming in contact with her cheek. You spun around again, not wanting to watch any more of what he got up to, going back to Hyunjin.
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The music was blaring now and you feel yourself getting light headed from the countless shots and mimosas you consumed. You lean into Hyunjinâs chest, wanting to stay still for a minute to regain control of your body.
Minho doesn't know how he got here but there he stood a couple steps infront of you, watching you with Hyunjin. He has Bella in-front of him holding his hands as she sways to the music, seeking for his attention.
âHey, Iâm losing you here Y/N,â Hyunjin laughs, although him himself was feeling the same thing. He had to control it, he couldnât let you both loose to alcohol.
âIâm so tired Hyune,â you replied, unable to move your head from his upper chest.
âYou wanna go sit down?â He asked, hands coming to your waist to help hold you up. The small contact with your body makes you widen your eyes. You steady yourself back on your heels as you make eye contact with the sweet boy in front you. Your eyes catch his lips for a second, they were so plump, so full and the perfect shade of pink, almost a reddish. A thought ran through your head and you feel guilty about it but you wanted to do it. You want to feel his lips on yours to confirm that feeling that keeps staying around in your chest. His eyes flutter from your eyes to your lips. You looked so pretty like this, your cheeks was pink, eyes looks so bright and full, you were so kissable. Hyunjin slowly leans in, one had holding your face and when he doesnât see a signal of you avoiding it, he closes the gap between your lips.
Minhoâs heart sinks watching Hyunjin kiss you. He has always been possessive of you, hating when your attention is on another person. He has always been annoyed, always been angry but right now, he feels broken, he feels hurt. He didnât come here with Bella because he liked her. He came here with Bella because he wanted to use her as a distraction. He wanted to use her to get over you. He doesnât realise it until now, after witnessing the kiss, that since the night you confessed your feelings to him, he felt the same. He felt the same but he was too afraid to say it, to show it. Liking someone was overwhelming, let alone loving someone. Minho was just afraid.
The feeling doesnât go away, itâs heavy itâs numbing your body. You pull away from Hyunjinâs lips, hands on his chest to help you detach. You canât keep his eye contact, letting out a heavy breath.
âHyune, I..â you look up over his shoulder and catches Minho eyes as he towers over Bella. Minho stops to observe you, observing your next move. For a second the world stops, everyoneâs face was blurred, the music goes from blaring loud to a long beep, something you hear when your brain restarts similar to the sound in movies when the main character watches someone close to them die. It was only you and Minho.
Part 2 was was like a filler, I know.
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Big Girls Don't Cry
CEO!Steve Rogers x co-CEO!Reader from It Had To Be You series
prompt from this dirty ask game, and I'll give you a hint--they absolutely do cry, and in this instance, Steve, uh, really likes it.
Summary: It goes against everything his Ma taught him, and his every instinct to protect, but Steve is willing to comfort you in any way you please after a horrible meeting ruins your mood.
Warnings for smuuuuuuuuuut, and we do not waste a single sentence of lead-in. This is a little rougher than usual for these two, and it took an angsty turn, which I guess means I will have to write a makeup for them... MINORS DNI. Kiddos and my delicate flowers, you can find something else to delight you on my Light Masterlist, but not here. WC ~1.1k
"I know, precious, I know," Steve soothes with a rough grip to your shoulder, keeping you from sliding farther across the satin bed sheets as his hips wetly slap your ass. "Let it out, sweetheart."
The arch of your back deepens when you bury your face and sob. He continues to keep his pace steady, just like he promised.
Steve sits up, adjusting his knees until his thrusts visibly shove your jiggling ass higher, and slowly pets that broad hand down your sweaty spine.
"That's it," he whispers.
Peppered in with your tears are grunts of anger. He understands only a little, but after the morning's disaster of a meeting, he'll do anything to make up for his blunder.
You take over and bounce on his length, pumping him with your tight pussy while Steve eagerly watches himself disappear and reemerge shinier with your dripping arousal.
This...shouldn't be the hottest sex you two have ever had. He should feel awful about walking you into a conference room of chauvinists, encouraging you to ignore their snide comments, and whiffing the opportunity to stick it to them.
You did everything he should have, and now he has to grovel in whatever position you demand. He can't question or argue. He can't comment on the how loudly you cry for him to fuck you harder. He can't mention that he found you hiding in your old apartment, curled on the couch, soaking the sleeves of a baggy sweatshirt with your tears. He can't take time to parse how you went from that to jumping in his arms, to ripping off his clothes, to pushing him into the bedroom, and to presenting your bare sex.
Who is he to argue? Steve is but a man in love...
God, it feels like your sucking his soul out of his body though. His face is scalding with desperate embarrassment that he really likes how this afternoon took a turn.
He's not going to last if you keep this up, so his goal changes from glorified fuck-boy to proper boyfriend. Steve can only take so much crying from anything other than pleasure. Your frustration has to be mostly worked out by now, right?
"Come 'ere, precious," he gasps, holding your hips still as he leans to kiss your shoulder. His arm threads beneath you and lifts, pinning your back to his front and stretching both of you to face the headboard.
He painted you that picture which hangs above it. He's noticing it's askew, probably from the repeated smack of your bed upon the wall. Steve resolves to fix that later.
Instead, he keeps his arm locked beneath your breasts, free hand snaking down between your legs and slapping gently. He can feel the strike in his balls.
You yelp, and damn, he is liking this.
He smacks again, softer this time, like a kitten swat for your undivided attention. "Give me a big one," he rumbles, beard scratching at the column of your neck where he licks a stripe. "Please."
The begging never fails to make you whine. Steve knows this, so he keeps pleading for you to come while his slick fingers circle your clit. He can touch the base of his cock in those same strokes, nudging at your sweet spot with pointed ruts from behind.
Shit, he's close.
Your mewls are tinged with sadness, your head falling back against his pec, eyes closed with tears still escaping the corners.
"Hey, hey, look at me, baby."
A slow, heavy gaze locks onto his.
"Fuck those guys. You are everything, precious. Everything."
Steve hopes you can't hear the unhinged crack to his voice as he feels his orgasm wrenching through his gut.
He lowers his lips to yours to mutter "I love you" against them and spanks your mound one last time before he loses control, cum leaking into the condom, threatening to fill to the brim.
The band in your belly snaps, too, tensing your body in his arms, forcing him to hold you up as your legs curl forward and off the mattress.
Steve keeps a slow, steady pace of rubbing again, swallowing your powerful moans in a greedy kiss, letting himself fall back to his heels and come hard with you.
"Beautiful," he praises. "So perfect..."
Your limbs jolt while you ride out the aftershocks, and he moves his hand to press you flush with him, no need for the sharp angle of your spine when he slips out easily now.
But you're still crying when he lowers you to rest on your side. Your body immediately shrinks like it was on the couch.
"Shhh, my good girl," Steve tries. "It's okay. You're alright."
He sees you shiver and scrambles to find the blanket, tucking it around you but not giving you space to hide your face.
He cups your cheek so you can't cover your eyes either, thumb sweeping across the wet streaks left behind, asking if you're ready to talk to him about it, but you shake your head.
"I love you," you do say. "I just hate you a little right now."
Steve frowns.
He shouldn't have given in. He shouldn't have taken the bait. He knew this wouldn't fix anything.
He thought you needed it, though, thought you needed him. He wants to be needed. He thrives on being needed by someone so independent.
Professionally, Steve's always been needed for his products, his poise, his persistence. Personally, he feels like nothing but a burden.
That feeling crossed over today, and he hated himself just a little, too.
He cleans himself up, returns to wipe you gently with a warm cloth, and drapes a fluffy towel over you to layer under the blanket, worried that the overhead fan you insist stays on will give you chills from sweating.
He's not leaving, and he tells you as much before settling to face you on the pillows.
When you don't answer, your eyes open but staring down and away from him, he offers, "I can't go back in time, precious, but I can promise I will never kowtow to men like that ever again."
You huff judgingly.
"I'll believe that when I see it, Rogers."
He'll take it, begrudgingly, but Steve lives to fight another day for your renewed respect. For the moment, all he can do is vow to succeed or die trying.
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In the Valentine spirit, could you do boyfriend HCs for the jjk men? Thanks đ
oh, ABSOLUTELY I CAN this is like my bread and butter!!
Now Presenting...
Starring Satoru Gojo, Suguru Geto, Kento Nanami, and Ryomen Sukuna.
Satoru Gojo
The Fool
Listen, you can not convince me Gojo isn't all about PDA
He wants everyone to know that you're his and he's yours.
He shows his love by giving you sweets
"But none of them are as sweet as you, Dear"
Did I meantion this man is cheesey as fuck?
His ideal date is staying at home with you and watching a movie, because honestly, it's one of the few times he can truly relax.
10000% the type of boyfriend that wants to spoil you more than anything else...mostly because he's not sure how to be a good boyfriend outside of that.
He's honestly fairly new to romance. He's only had one other romantic partner in his life, and that ended far less than ideal.
So, he's learning how to love you while also just learning how to love in general.
But, he's excited to learn!
he fully beleieves you desrve only the best in everything, and that includes boyfriends,
Meaning he's not scared to ask you how he can do better.
Also meaning he's not quick to share his emotions. He doesn't want to inconvinence you with them.
Or worse, shatter your image of him. He is supposed to be the strongest after all. Everyone loves him for his strength.
Except for you, probably the only person that sees him for him.
It may take some time and coaxing, but once he knows how he fells (Cause lets be real here, hes not the most emotionally intelligent) he'll try his best to explain to you.
please be patient with him, he's bad at this.
It's a big deal for him that you and Megumi at least get along. As far as he's concerned, Megumi is his son and his son has to come first.
Luckily for you both Megumi takes to you as well as his tsundere ass can.
He's the first one to ask you to make it offical, but waits for you to say "I Love You" first.
Mostly because that phrase scares the shit out of him. Theres no curse more powerful than love, and honestly he would have rather avoided it.
But you were inevitable. He knew it from the first time he laid eyes on you, you were going to be the death of him.
Metaphorically.
he hoped.
Suguru Geto
The Lovers
OK, first things first, his favorite thing is to show you new music.
Not too long after you had stated dating, he promised you he as going to show you all the good music the world had to offer and he ment it.
Honestly he surprised you with his range. anything from Heavy Metal, to Folk Punk, to R&B to Pop, to fucking country, if he could vibe with it, it hit his playlist.
All about words of affection. He's constantly telling you how beautiful you are, how smart you are, how powerful of a sorcerer you are, he won't shut up about how amazing you are.
Not typically one for PDA, unless he thinks someone else is hitting on you.
Then it's like he's been suddenly glued to you.
He's very much the silent jealous type. He'll never straight up ask you "So who the fuck was that?" He's more prone to passive aggressive comments.
"I'm just saying, you two seem really close." type shit.
He covers you in very visible hickys and is very quick to "lend" you his jacket for this reason. He want's to make it very clear that you're his.
His ideal date is an underground concert. He always knows where the best ones are.
The energy of a concert is intoxicating to him, and the effect is doubled when you're around.
It's one of the few places where he'll actively take part in PDA without having to be jealous first.
He's normally pretty Stoic. He jokes around yea, but he's never vunerable in public.
The only place you see his walls come down is when you're alone together.
It's a visible change too, you can see the tired flood his eyes as he collapses in your arms.
You were the first person to notice when he started to grow cold to Jujutsu Society, and the last to know when his betrayl finally took place.
As much as it made you sick to your stomach to admit, you weren't surprised at all. a darkness had been growing in him for a long time.
He spoke all the time about how unfairly society treated sorcerers, and he spoke with such passion, you often found yourself almost convinced by it.
Almost. you we're always able to bring yourself back to reality one way or another.
That was until he came back for you.
He was just as sweet as he always was, pouring affection over you.
how he tried so hard to move on, but he couldn't rebuild without you. No matter what he did, his soul called out for you.
"Please, Y/n, I need you. come back with me?"
Nanami Kento
The Hierophant
Ok, so hear me out. I actually think Nanami has had a few relationships before.
They all ended amicably, He didn't have the time for petty mind games as a teenager, he damn sure didn't have the time for them as adult.
So, he has quite a bit of experience in making things work.
He's AMAZING at communication. He's clear, consice, and careful with his words.
Often times he's able to deesculate a fight before it even becomes one.
And if you're one of those people that will start a fight because you need drama (*cough* me. *cough*) he's quick to notice and shut it down.
"Are you really mad that I lost the remote, or is something else going on Darling? If you're mad that's ok, but I feel like theres a diffrent underlying issue here."
He loves cuddling. Its shocking and strange, I know, but he is touch starved.
Also, he loves kissing. It's one of his favorite things to do, espically with you.
His favorite dates are when he takes you to a facny resteraunt for dinner.
He loves watching you get all dolled up, and he'd be lying if he said it wasn't a nice little ego boost to walk in with you on his arm.
Not even just that, he loves taking care of you in anyway he can. So feeding you the finest foods? Top of his To-Do list every day.
While he loves to take you out, He loves staying home with you just as much.
Nanami is insanely good at Tekken, like God-Teir, this is not up for debate.
Really, he's good at all fighting games, but his favorite is Tekken.
And he loves to play with his SO. you're not that good at video games? He's willing to teach you if you're willing to learn.
One of his favorite date night activities is having you be on mic while he plays some online matches. It's hilarious to watch his opponent get a big head, 100000% sure theyre going to own this soft spoken ninny just to get absolutely BODIED by Nanami.
He tries to make it through movie nights. He tries so hard. but he passes out, every. single. time.
even if he really likes the movie! He just can't bring himself to stay awake.
He'll always try for you though. He would do anything for you.
Ryomen Sukuna
The Devil
Listen to me reader, LISTEN TO ME: you may see his charming smile and his oddly puppy-dog like eyes and think "OH, come on! how bad could this guy be? He's so cute!"
That is the Devil talking.
I am Sukunas number 1 cumslut and I can tell you from personal experience he is The Worstâ˘.
For one, he's cold as fuck. Even if he is head over heels in love with you, he's too emotionally closed off to ever fucking admit it.
His heart could be doing acrobatics in his chest when you're around, his palms sweating like crazy and his sight suddenly switching to Shojo vision when he's looking at you and he would STILL have you convinced he hated your guts.
Hell, he'd honestly be even meanier to you just so no one suspects his true feelings.
But, once again, you are inevitable and there's no escaping you.
But dont start thinking you're going to get a date or even a talk. Nay nay dear reader.
He just kinda decided at somepoint that you we're dating now. You had no say in it, and didn't even know until he caught you flirting with someone that wasn't him and almost ripped their fuckin head off.
Yandere. I will not explain, nor do I need to. Look at him.
He's hiding you away in his temple and never letting you go.
Which, could be worse. That temple is decadent as FUCK
If you do manage to endure him long enough though, I do think he'd let his soft side slip.
Sukunas love is quiet. It's not showering you in gifts or words of affermation. He's honestly not sure how to do that.
It's quietly holding you in the night, pulling you just a little bit tighter when the nightmares start to make you stir.
It's letting you quietly lay on his chest, tracing his markings, letting you get close enough to his heart and neck to kill him.
It's sitting with you while you read in the garden, secretly reading over your shoulder incase you wanted to talk about it later.
Sukunas love isn't shown in grand gestures, it's shown in his lack of violence. it him quitely, without either of you even realizing, letting his walls down around you.
He's never going to talk about his emotions, ew gross. That would make him weak.
What he would do is pull you into a bath with him, or into the bed, or somewhere else safe and comfrotble, and ask you to talk about your day.
Listening to your voice calms him down, and you know you've helped because when youre done talking about whatever, he quietly thanks you.
He has killed to "protect" you, and would die to atually protect you.
Once you've wormed your way into his heart, theres no leaving. he's obessed and even if you manage to get away one day, he's never getting over you.
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ARAGORN ⥠cowboy like me
His old wandering lifestyle made it pretty hard to be committed to a person in one place, but he made it happen as soon as it was possible, and he would have done anything in the world to give you safety, protection and all the love that you deserve. And he plans on giving it to you forever, no matter the trials and tribulations that might appear on the way.
GIMLI ⥠love story
This dwarf is a proper gentleman, a confirmed charming sweet-talker and most definitely a deeply romantic soul in a very classical way. He is very respectful towards you, and respects some traditions as well, so he wanted to ensure everything was in order before asking you to be his forever.
LEGOLAS ⥠snow on the beach
Isn't he so unusual, kind of ethereal, and positively vibrant? You never met anyone like him, with all his interesting quirks and his abundance of joy and lust for life. It is impossible not to share his fascination with nature, and you cannot help but smile just a little brighter whenever you are around him.
BOROMIR ⥠willow
This is an absolute Boromir song to me - he likes to be outright, take charge, but maybe sometimes he is just a little bit too flattering (don't blame him, he just needs to express his feelings for you approximately 26 hours a day). With him every day feels like an enchanted love story, and you feel safe with him, and both of you take pride in being together. trophy couple
FARAMIR ⥠starlight
This wonderful man is absolutely a dreamer and an imaginative person, who likes to share his thoughts and wishes with you, and finds it absolutely delightful if you agree with some of them. Everything he promises to you, he most certainly delivers. Also, he has so much love to give, and would be a very big fan of the idea of starting a family with you and just being the best supportive parents ever.
ĂOMER ⥠enchanted
Horse boy's jaw DROPPED the first time that he saw you and he forgot about everything and everyone else in that moment. He just knew he needed to approach you and get to know you as soon as possible, because he was convinced you were either already happily taken, or you would be very soon, and he couldn't live with himself if he just sat aside and let it happen.
ĂOWYN ⥠dancing with our hands tied
Her thoughts and past struggles sometimes still come back to haunt her, and the fear of being trapped resurfaces, but you're there to reassure her that you'll stay, no matter how hard things get. Even if it's the two of you against the whole world, you wouldn't rather be anyone else but by her side, hand in hand.
SAM ⥠fearless
This is such a lovely sunny song, and it instantly made me think of the best gardener boy!! He might be apprehensive about taking some risks sometimes, but you make him feel brave and strong with just one look, and the fact that you believe in him makes him more confident. On the other hand, he makes you feel like absolute royalty and he loves to spoil you and treat you so right.
FRODO ⥠jump then fall
The sweet little song that this is!!! The two of you are each other's safe place and comforting presence, no matter the rude neighbors' comments, the evils of the world, or the occasional nightmares. It's a relationship that comes from a strong friendship first, and it shows in the way that you just silently understand each other and aren't afraid to just be yourselves.
MERRY ⥠glitch
Absolutely nothing romantic was ever supposed to happen between the two of you - you just liked to get up to no good together, sometimes! But somewhere amid setting off fireworks, pulling a couple of pranks on your mutual friends and getting a little tipsy in the Green Dragon on the weekends... something just clicked, and there's no going back.
PIPPIN ⥠our song
It's a cute and a bit chaotic song, so it's perfect! He might be a little childish still (and fairly young, gotta give him that), but that doesn't make your relationship any less valid. It's full of cute little moments and small acts of love that are greatly appreciated by both of you. He loves to surprise you with small gifts and surprise visits, and absolutely makes up silly little songs to make you smile.
ARWEN ⥠delicate
She was always so kind and sweet that it was hard for you to be certain what kind of feelings she harbored for you, but you were falling in love the more time you spent together. Although she liked you back romantically the whole time, you were the first one to mention something about it, though apprehensive, and she was delighted to find out about, and return your love.
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pythia, a supernatural rewrite. phantom traveler, p.3
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notes: hello!!! on the wings of an absolute ARMY of betas, here is a fresh new chapter for you!! since the last one was a little short i took the time to really flesh this one out. I'm a shy idiot who is SO bad at responding, but i see your comments and they mean the world to me. i literally have a folder on my computer full of the sweet words this fic has been given, and i think i've re-read the comments in that folder at least a million times over by now. ty so much for reading, and i hope you enjoy!! bloody mary is next!
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PITTSBURG, PENNSYLVANIA - Dec. 4th.
You donât have to be psychic to know precisely what your mother is going to say when she answers the phone. Sheâll pick up on the fourth ring with an occupied, scathing drawl and say, Look who finally has cell service.
Alright. So youâre not the best, most communicative daughter in the world. You call when you can, you honestly do, but thereâs not exactly loads of emotional bandwidth to spare on the road. Peeling off all the layers of case anxiety and Winchester grief takes a while, dammit!
Maybe youâd feel less guilty if you vented to Sam or Dean, but itâs kind of lousy to bitch about Mom-stuff to, uh. Yeah. The boys. You could use a simple, uncomplicated statement like, talking to my Mom reminds me of how much of a disappointment I must be to her, and Dean would hear matricide instead. Samâs blank, uncomprehending look wouldnât be much better. Looks like youâre alone on this one.
When thereâs a natural break in the dayâs long research-fest the three of you are riding, you slip away, pace beside the Impala for a while, then finally bite the bullet and call her. Cars whisk through the slurry of snow on the road. Your phone charms rattle in the icy breeze. One ring, two rings⌠She knew you were going to call, she could sense it, but of course she has to torture you⌠three rings, four.
âI didnât know cell service was so hard to come by in Pittsburg,â Beth greets you, sounding preoccupied. Damn, do you know her well or what?
âHey, Mom,â you sigh. The wind is loud, so you pull your phone further down your face and try to come up with an excuse that is even halfway reasonable. âSorry I havenât called. Itâs been ages since Iâve been around the boys, and I guess I get a little caught up with them sometimes.â
This is objectively true. She used to have a rule about you getting your homework done before they came over, purely because you forgot about everything and anything else the second Sam and Dean entered the house.
âForget those losers. Youâre my baby, I love you most,â Beth gushes, and you understand that this is her way of saying that youâre forgiven. Both of you have fallen victim to the Winchester spell before, so she canât exactly blame you.
Youâre a little embarrassed by her mushiness, but a relieved, bubbly laugh jumps out of you. âAlright, consider them forgotten. Now⌠I know I donât deserve it, but Iâm gonna ask you a question, and I need you not to freak out or overthink it, kay?â
Beth snorts. âYou mean my two jobs as a mother? Go ahead, shoot.â
This is not the kind of question that you just âshoot,â though. It takes you a moment to string together how youâre going to ask this, and of course, youâre nothing but graceful and delicate about it. â...What do you know about demons?â
Your mother doesnât say anything for a long, yawning second. Still, you can sense her rising swarm of questions and outrage all the way from Pennsylvania, and you try to stop her onslaught before it starts. âHey! No questions! Just answers. I promise I would tell you if this was outrageously dangerous.â
âThen youâve already broken your promise,â Beth utters, slipping into her Sage Grandmaster Psychic voice. Just hearing it makes you deflate. She predicts, â...Let me guess. Youâve felt nauseous. Suffocated. Hungry, but everything you eat comes right back up again.â
You toe a chunk of ice on the asphalt with your boot, grumbling, â...Yeah.â
âThen youâre lucky,â she reveals, her words still ringing with the same crystal ball clarity from your childhood. âThat means you havenât come into direct contact with it yet. Iâd hope you never would, but⌠you are your fatherâs daughterâŚâ
You know your mom. You know thatâs just her way of warning you about the kind of danger youâre in, here, but all the comment does is bolster your resolve. Damn right. You are his motherfuckinâ daughter.
âTell me,â you push.
Beth sighs through her nose. Thereâs a squeak on the other line, and you can imagine her at home, dropping heavily into the massive, millennia-old armchair she always took her readings in.
âDemons⌠well, I wonât explain to you what you can already guess. Theyâre unlike most legends we know of, because everything thatâs written about them is utterly true. Most spirits that walk the natural earth are here to feedâvampires, werewolvesâor to take care of unfinished business. But demons⌠they come to earth to steal, kill, and destroy.â
Welp. Your mother is truly a pillar of optimism. Youâd been hoping sheâd say something along the lines of, donât worry, sweetheart, theyâre just really messed up ghosts. Instead of, yâknow. The most evil creatures man encountered in the bible. Bible, capital B. An uncomfortable, existential shiver rolls down your spine. Now this was something you could bitch to Dean and Sam about.
Youâd grown up surrounded by the idea of demons. Even before youâd fully understood that monsters were real, sometimes youâd slip into your motherâs reading parlor while she was gone and play a game with the strange, segmented star pattern on the giant worn-smooth carpet. Donât hop on any of the lines! Only step in the points of the star! Or, jump from sigil to sigil!
The one time youâd gotten carried away and played for too long, your mother had appeared through the beaded curtain with a stiff frown on her face. Donât play on the devilâs trap. Itâs not a toy.
There was the fraying devilâs trap in your motherâs parlor room, which was one of the hundreds of sigils burned into your mind at a young age. Youâd shaken hands with demon hunters before. Most of the rituals your family practiced were in Latin; and the list went on and on into oblivion. Youâd always known demons existed, but as you pace the parking lot and take in what Beth is telling you, the ramifications start to stack. Demons. Actual, literal demons. The thing that took down flight 2485âthe suffocating, unimaginable presence from your visionâwas a real-life demon. When youâd stood in the skeletal remains of the plane and reached out with your Gift, youâd been sensing the lingering presence of a fucking creation of Lucifer. What the actual fuck.
In a strange, backward way, youâre kind of relieved. Anyone would be fainting all over the place in the presence of an actual, real-life demon. Especially somebody like you, with all their senses turned up to 100. It makes sense that you were having such intense reactions before.
What the fucking fuck. Youâre suddenly grateful to be on the phone with your mom.
You wandered toward the Impala, (checked first that you werenât wearing the kind of jeans with the little studs that would scrape the paint), then leaned against it. â...Um. Okay. Thatâs just⌠awesome⌠How do they get⌠up here, then?â
âIâm not sure,â your mother hums, thinking. âYour great-great-aunt Miriam wrote in her records that they find their way top-side on their own. Bugs through cracks, that sort of thing. Apparently, there used to be a whole lot more of emââin Miriamâs day it was a Proctorâs job to shove them back where they belonged, but⌠I dunno.â Beth helpfully jokes, âMaybe we got most of them.â
You huff out a laugh, but itâs not the most sincere. âMaybe we did,â you cough. âBut, um, do we have any Proctor family secrets that could help me out here? Did great-great-aunt Miriam have a trunk somewhere full of demon-killing grenades or something?â
Beth smirks. âGreat-great-aunt Miriam turned the house into a brothel and carved terrifying sigils in all the ceilings. Thatâs all we got from her.â
Of course. How could you possibly forget? âOh, huh. I was wondering why we have old chains and whips in the basement. That fills in a lot more for me, thank you.â
Your mom barks out a laugh at your joke, which gets you laughing too. The sound trails off. Thereâs that funny pause where you both remember what you just said, then start giggling all over againâand man, does it feel good to just have a moment with your mom. The boys both have an unforgiving radar for âbonding,â and the second they realize that you love them and theyâre your friends, they creep right back into their shells. Neither of them were very good at absorbing that sort of thing.
Your mom is just as skilled at spoiling the moment.
âBut, seriouslyâŚâ She stresses. âPlease be careful. Avoid contact with these things at all costs, especially with your Gift. Itâs made to find the truth, and demons are made of lies. Not a good mix. Theyâll rip into your mind⌠take you apart if they have to. This is a lot more hands-on than you should ever be with your Gift, ____.â
â...Right,â you say through your teeth.
This is the part where you start awkwardly shoving in a goodbye without coming across as an asshole. You open your mouth, about to say something stiff and unsure, when you sense a spike of alarm ripple out from where the boys are still researching in your motel room.
Phone call forgotten, you jolt off the Impala and whip towards the door. Not a second later, Deanâs slipping out onto the stoop and sweeping the parking lot with a calm, guarded stare. He doesnât look at youâjust gestures you inside, holding the door open. Even from the parking lot, you can make out the insane amount of notes and papers Sam has coated your motel room with.
âJerry just called,â Dean utters. âThe surviving pilot from 2485? Chuck Lambert? âŚHe just went down in a plane crash.â
You snap your phone shut and follow him inside.
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The three of you head to the site of the next crash as fast as you can. But first, you have the pleasure of watching the boys play Winchester Telepathy when you insist on coming along. Theyâre still worried. You would be too, in their position. (In fact, if the roles were reversed, youâd probably chain Sam to a radiator and call it a day.) But Chuck went down in a twin plane, not a massive, two-hundred-person graveyard, so your Gift should have the legs to handle it.
âŚAnd knowing what youâre dealing with has steeled your confidence. You werenât slashing at the dark anymore, even if what was in the dark was, um. Proof that hell exists. After days of being totally screwed over by this thing, you finally had even the slightest leg up on what was going on. You were going to take that win and run with it.
Chuckâs twin plane was hardly a twin anymore; both the engines had been shredded, the white body of the cockpit twisted like a wrung-out washcloth. The plane had dove so hard into the farmland that the snow around it had melted. You still kind of felt like tossing your lunch, but more out of sympathy than psychic backlash. People had been in that plane. The thought made you taste bile.
Sam and Dean only hover a little bit (a lot) while you open your Gift to the wreckage. You take your glove off with your teeth and touch your right hand to the ashen, snow-soaked remains of the pilotâs chair⌠and there it was again, the leeching, seeping, violating presence from the vision thatâd brought all of you to Pittsburg. A demon.
Your Gift wrings out another scraggly, disconnected vision for you. Chuck was beyond anxious to get back in the saddle after 2485. The co-pilot, Lou, had pep-talked him like any good friend would, reassuring him that the flight would go smoothly. After that, everythingâgassing up the engine, takeoff, and the brutal, horrific crashâwas blotted with poison ink. Every time you tried to steer towards Chuck with your senses, it was as if the strip of film playing your vision had been burned away. His face had been scratched out of every frame. He had become something else; something terribly familiar.
The research Sam had compiled began to link with what youâre seeing. You could feel, even through the leftover wisp of the demonâs presence on the plane, that it had done this many times before.
You jolted to your feet, scrubbing the palm with the eye tattoo off on your slacks. Dean and Sam reeled back, since theyâd both been looming an inch behind you as you worked.
âWhatâs the verdict, doc?â Dean said, bracing himself.
You turn from the wreckage and bee-line straight for the road, eager to avoid a repeat of last time. The boys follow your lead. They fall into step on either side of you, and for once you feel like the specialist Sam always said you were, complete with stern-faced bodyguards.
âFull-on Pazuzu, just like last time,â you confirm, cursing. You shove your glove back on and stomp through the snow. âI-I get it now. God, it feels so fucking obvious. Itâsâitâs playing. It finds these disasters, or it makes them, and then it picks off all the survivors one by one. Chuck Lambert, George Phelps. It possessed them. Like some sort of twisted cosmic-order thing.â
Sam pulls a face. âFinal Destination style?â
âMinus the hot girls and the tanning beds, apparently,â Dean pouts.
âItâs trying to finish them off, boys,â you say, swallowing hard. âThatâs something we can work with. If itâs only using disasters to do the job, thenâŚâ
â...then we need to see if any of the survivors are flying soon,â Sam realizes, finishing your thought.
The second the Impalaâs on the road again, Sam is fishing out the passenger manifests from the first flight and chasing down any phone numbers he can find. There is a part of every hunt where your run is forced to become a sprint, and this is that turn-over moment, tensions ramping high. What once was seven people is now five.
As Dean hauls ass back to Pittsburg, you and Sam get to calling. You thank the Mother Goddess above for shitty, awful customer service, because posing as some lousy Delta Airlines representative has Dennis Holloway sitting in seat 21A and Kathleen Willard (seat 25E) swearing off flying for good. Sam uses a similar tactic on Blaine Sanderson (seat 14D). The two of you take the safe bet that the parents of Ava Struder (seat 1C), an unaccompanied minor, arenât fucking idiots dumping their kid on another flight the second she survives one. That leaves you with Amanda Walker. A flight attendant on 2485⌠because of course, this job can never be easy.
Sam tries her phone. While it rings, you cross your fingers and hope that she has quit her job and started a new life as a dedicated couch potato. Samâs forced to leave a message. He snaps his flip phone shut with a curse and throws it into the footwell, where it clatters against his boots.
You curl a cold hand around Samâs shoulder, soothing, âGimme the list, baby. Iâll try her emergency contact, at least find out where she is.â
Sam sulkily passes it to you, never once shifting under your hand. You do get a small, grateful look from him over his shoulder, and the urgency and anxiety there makes your gut twist. It would be more than easy to comfort him, to stroke your fingers through his hair, to rub his collar and tell him everythingâs going to be fine.
But youâre a shit liar, so you open up your phone and make the next call. Samâs lingering gaze ducks back down into his lap.
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Of course, your luck continues to flourish. Amanda doesnât answer her phone. But her sister does, and she informs you that Amanda, being a flight attendant, is in fucking Indianapolis for a flight. Indianapolis. As in, a good five-hour drive from Phillyâand in the complete opposite direction of where you were going. Dean barely waits until the road is wide enough to turn the Impala around. The u-ey he hits sends you, and all your stuff, careening from the right end of the bench all the way to the left.
The drive is not fast. Staring ahead and silently revving yourself up can only waste so much time, so you pull out the mini sewing kit from under the seat and do your best to patch a rip in Deanâs jeans, struggling to thread the needle even more than usual. You feel a bit like a bad hunter distracting yourself from whatâs ahead, but just one of you stuffing the car with anxious brooding is enough. Sam passes back a sudoku booklet for you and then goes straight back to his thousand-yard stare.
He used to be excellent when things came down to the wire like this. After years spent in empty motel rooms, counting pennies and waiting for John and Dean to come home, Samâs patience was unimaginable. But losing Jess⌠had tilted his axis. These last few hunts, youâve noticed how crazed he gets on the last couple steps to the finish lineâwhen none of you are sure if thereâll be anybody to save. It happens. But youâre scared of what another round of it could do to Sam, even with a stranger like Amanda; he cared so muchâŚ
Dean isnât happy, either, but he at least has something to do. He alternates between playing brain-melting Metallica or forgetting to reload the tape, so the drive is a strange mix of music you can feel in your eardrums and silence thatâs just as loud. The first piece of levity you get is thirty straight minutes of Dean over-explaining the album to you. And, thank god you ask, because Dean rattling on about the âbass and drums feeding off each otherâ and the âmusical integrity of a locked-in rhythms sectionâ bring Sam out of his trance. He pries his eyes away from the rolling fields of snow, scrunches up his face, and sighs, âCan we at least listen to â...And Justice for All?ââ
Youâre an excellent tactician, so you use this opening to nudge them both toward the most surefire argument starter in the Winchester handbook: Whatâs the best album of all time? It wouldâve been harder to lure flies into honey. Dean argues more with himself than he argues with the two of you, dancing indecisively between Zeppelin II, Dark Side of the Moon, and at least twenty other albums that you are vaguely aware exist. Sam outlines that there is a difference between someoneâs favorite album (Californication in Samâs case) and the best album objectively by sales (Thriller).
All three of you play into the argument more than usual. Guess youâre not the only one desperate to think about something other than the two hundred other people who might die tonight. By the time thereâs enough of a break in the conversation for you to throw your hat into the distraction-ring, youâre thirty minutes from the Indianapolis International Airport.
âBoth of you are wrong,â you decide. âThereâs only one reasonable answer to that question, and itâs Rumours.â
Dean audibly grumbles, and when the Impala jams to a stop in front of a red light, he dramatically points at you in the rear-view mirrors and declares: âYou are obligated by hippie, witchy-girl bullshit to love that album, Proctor. And itâs good, but itâs not the best. Itâs mostlyâŚâ he flashes you a mean, big-brother smile, âgirly music.â
You know youâre right, so his comment rolls right over you. Cooly, you remind him, âNuh-uh. Sam loves Fleetwood Mac, too.â
Youâd figured that was a good counter-point, since Sam was hardly girly. The hand he was using to keep his notepad on his knee was all kinds of veiny and calloused, and on top of being taller than Dean, he was a lot more comfortable with his masculinity. He didnât have mile-long lashes or glazed donut cheekbones, either.
Sam hums in agreement, like you knew he would; the two of you listened to Go Your Own Way and The Chain endlessly before he left for school. Sometimes heâd even dance around the attic at home with you.
Dean side-eyes his brother, then barks out a hearty laugh. âCase in point.â
Sam elects to pretend he didnât hear that, and instead turns around to talk straight to you: âI mean, the end of Silver Springs aloneâŚâ
âŚMaybe if Dean listened to more âgirly music,â heâd have more women melting over him the way you melt when Sam says that. Even though youâve gotten used to having him in front of you again, there are moments like these where youâre stunned by how similar the two of you still are. Dreams would play in your attic and Sam would already be offering you his hands, gangly and shy and bright red for you and only youâŚ
You listened to Silver Springs a lot after Sam started dating Jessica.
INDIANAPOLIS INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT - Dec. 4th, night.
All three of you mustâve been hyper-planning what to do the second the Impala parked, because you fan out as soon as Dean jams the break.
Sam uncaps the travel-sized hand sanitizer from your purse and empties it out onto the pavement. Youâre a little sad to say goodbye to pumpkin cupcake, but then he starts pouring as much holy water as he can into the teeny bottle, and youâre reminded how clever he is. When Dean gives him a weird look, Sam explains, â3.4 ounces or less per liquid item, dude.â
âShit,â Dean curses. Right. Travel size restrictions. That cuts your only physical weapon against the demon in halfâor into a fucking fifth, I guess. But itâs something. âAt least heâll fuckinâ smell good when we send him to hell. Great.â
You give Sam the marshmallow pumpkin latte sanitizer, too. Youâre going to look painfully suspicious walking into an airport with nothing but hand sanitizer and an occult journal, but thereâs nothing you can do. Thereâs no time to check bags or trudge through security lines. Hopefully you wonât have to board, but knowing your luckâŚ
Youâre about to go peeling out of the parking lot at top speed, when you turn your boot and feel the warm piece of metal pressed against your ankle. Shit. âGod, this is stupid,â you curse, and drop onto a knee. You lose the pocket knife in your boot, then dig around for the loose rock salt shells rolling around in your pockets. Thereâs a visible pout on your face when you abandon your iron knuckles. Anything thatâd be caught by security or picked up on a metal detector goes straight into the trunk.
When you pull your butterfly knife out of your bra, Sam is suddenly very interested in the color of the sky.
The boys follow suit. By the time youâre through the doors and among the harried, criss-crossing crowd of travelers, youâve lost ten pounds in weapons each. Dean grumbles the whole way about feeling naked. Everything in the airport is overstimulating, even at this time of night. The long, endless squares of glass looking out over the runway reflect the too-bright lights in big glossy spots, and the air is flooded with a constant stream of intercom updates and civilian chatter. You duck and weave all the way to the departure schedule, which is just the right font size to make you anxious.
Sam scans the chart. âTheyâre boarding in thirty minutes.â
Shit. You wrack your mind for something that could coax Amanda off her flight. But the gears in your head are suddenly muddy, and Deanâs faster than you, anyway. His eyes dart around the floor of the airport. âOkay⌠we still got some cards to play. We need to find a phone.â
Sam and Dean dart off like twin bomb-sniffing dogs. You move to follow them, but something tethers you in place. The buzzing, bustling commotion in the air pitches up, and then your ears are ringing, and your whole body is stinging with the ugly leeching feelings from before. The demon. Itâs close.
You blindly walk in the direction your internal Winchester compass gives you, and just when Deanâs about to take a courtesy phone off its hook, your body extracts the phone from his hand on autopilot. For a brief flickering moment, youâre not yourself. Your powers talk through you.
Your Gift foresees, âThat wonât work. Your only option is to board the plane.â
The boys exchange an unsettled look. For a second youâre confused why theyâre giving you their Freaked Out faces, then you feel the hollow plastic of the phone in your hand, and you realize youâre a whole twenty feet from where you started. Man⌠you hate the whole psychic-possession thing. Just for fun, your Gift loves to take over and course-correct you when it thinks youâre being stupid. You drop the phone back on its hook with a heavy click. It takes Dean a second to answer, and heâs still giving you that look. After a long pause, he knocks up his chin and not-so-happily mutters, â...Uh, okay.â
Sam, at least, has learned to roll with your weird psychic bullshit. His voice is soft with conviction. âFine. Plan B, then. We gotta get on that plane.â
You run your palms down your face, then steel yourself. Thereâs no other way, and no time to second-guess. Even your Gift has decided itâs your best plan. âOkay. Fuck it.â
The usual authority in Deanâs voice hikes up with a note of panic. âUh, woah. Letâs just hold on a secondââ
âDean,â you wince, and your hands drop heavily at your sides. âWe gotta. Iâm sorry.â
Sam, per usual, reads Deanâs hesitance as something else. âThat plane is leaving with over a hundred passengers on board. And if weâre right, itâs gonna crash. We have toââ
You watch as they have their usual back and forth; Sam, eager to throw himself at this, and Dean gnawing on the inside of his cheek. Itâs easy for you to sense the steam of real, nail-biting terror radiating off your best friend. You feel Deanâs fear all the timeâand even then itâs hard for you to picture him being afraid of much of anything, much less planes. Itâs even harder for Sam to look past his little brother glasses.
â...Flying?â Sam puts it together. His voice is understanding, but super confused. âYouâre joking, right?â
âDo I look like Iâm joking?â Dean flails. He fists his hands as he talks, swaying back and forth to try and work up the nerve. He glances at you, the only other witness to his weakness, just once. âWhy do you think I fuckinâ drive everywhere, Sam?â
Sam is genuinely stunned. Slapped-in-the-face stunned. But he takes it in stride, and, also glancing at you only once, he blurts out: âAlright. Uh, Iâll go.â
The anticipation of boarding the flight is making your skin prickle with anxiety, and you canât help but inch back toward the ticket counter as they talk. But when Sam says this, without question or complaint, youâre instantly stepping up to his side and demanding, âThen Iâm going with you.â
You brace yourself to shut down the argument you know is coming, but this Sam continues to be different from the guy you knew four years ago. This answer is just as easy for him, too. âOkay.â
Not, youâre staying here, or even, I wonât let you risk yourself like this. Just a plain and simple, okay. It bugs you. You donât even have time to dwell on it, though, because Samâs blatant courage tugs Dean over his fear.
âManâŚâ Dean utters, face twisted with nervousness. He gives in with a helpless scrunch of his shoulders, and taking that as permission, Sam twists around to buy your tickets not two seconds later.
You both watch him rush off, neither of you over the moon about this situation. Deanâs so anxious that his hands are clammy, and you can tell because he clutches at the sleeve of your jacket like a little kid. He knocks his forehead down on your shoulder with a groan, and your palm automatically loops around to give his back a soothing rub.
âThis is fucking⌠awesome,â Dean gripes. âNo guns. Canât even bring a damn bottle of holy water. Is there some kind of psychic Xanax you can give me?â
Maybe some of your Gift drains into your voice when you promise, âWe wonât have to worry about that. Everythingâs going to be okay.â
Dean doesnât make his Freaked Out face this time. He does, however, bump his forehead against your shoulder again, and sink into your touch with a rough sigh.
FLIGHT 424 - Dec. 4th.
Youâd felt bad for Dean the whole time heâd struggled to get on the plane. Now, you kind of felt like choking him with your bare hands.
So many people crammed into one space was enough to flatten your Gift with the weight. Adding Dean to the mix, shoved shoulder-to-shoulder against you with his jitters ramped up to eleven, made you feel like picking your brain out with a fork. Your Gift ping-ponged between Dean and Sam, making you bounce between chattering your teeth with fear and thinking things like, wow, I just love the Dewey decimal system.
Maybe it was a good thing. Youâd much rather be in one of their heads than yours.
All day, youâd done a pretty good job not obsessing over the things your mom had said over the phone. It was hard with so much time to marinate in the car, but the massive weight of the existence of demons only slammed on top of you once or twice. Boarding had managed to keep you occupied, but then the colossal body of the plane had shuddered and heaved its weight off the tarmac, leaving all chances for escape behind on the ground.
A part of you was resigned to it; it is a simple fact of your life that evil things are real. So whatâs one more, right? But at the same time, you thought about the cross Sam wore under his shirt⌠you thought about being one of those things, being âmade of lies,â like Mom had said. That, too, had been gnawing at youâwhat had she seen to learn all that? How did she know that a demon would âtear into your mind?â The Vague Psychic Thing is fun, until youâre on the receiving end.
âCan you sense who itâs possessing?â Samâs smooth, calculating voice interrupted your thoughts.
âŚOh, right. Youâd gotten so swept up in your own head, no doubt influenced by Deanâs incessant foot-tapping, that youâd totally forgotten to scan the plane. Tilting away from Dean and his panic, you subconsciously shifted toward eerily calm, level-headed Sam. Just catching a wisp of the clean cologne he wears cools you down a little bit. Okay. No more freaking outâitâs game time.
Youâd hoped that the white noise of the flight would settle your nerves, but the air tasted painfully sterile, dry, and cottony against the back of your throat. Everything felt like cold metal touching an open nerve. If the demonâs influence wasnât making your powers touchy, then the woman across the aisle definitely was, oozing with homesickness as she watched Indianapolis shrink far belowâor maybe it was the guy two rows back, replaying an argument again and again in his headâor maybe the other two hundred fucking people stuffing the plane with their boredom and their tiredness.
You push your knee into Samâs. He pushes back.
After a tense beat, you whisper to him over the chatter of passengers, âToo many people. Thereâs no way I can narrow it down to one personânot unless theyâre right in front of me.â Samâs gaze turns expectantly to Dean, whoâs still in full-on dissociation mode. Heâd spent the whole boarding process humming tracks from St. Anger, and you knew he was really going through it, purely because heâd stopped and restarted Some Kind of Monster three different times now. Poor guy.
One of the things that made the three of you such a natural team was your ability to rotate leadership. In moments like these, with Dean way too wigged out to take charge, youâd usually step into his shoes without much trouble. But Sam has fielded your fainting spells and panic attacks all week, so heâs already got a pep-talk prepared for the two of you.
â...Okay.â Sam checks his watch. His voice still has that touch of classic Sam softness, probably because he knows how hard this is going to sound: âStay focused. We got thirty-two minutes and counting to track this thing down, figure out who itâs possessing, and perform a full-on exorcism.â Youâre about to make a comment about how blissfully easy he makes things seem, but Dean beats you to it. He snipes, âYeah, on a crowded plane. Thatâs gonna be easy.â
You snap one of your bracelets against your wrist a few times, thinking. âWho would it want to possess?â
This gets Deanâs head in the game. Easily, he recites: âItâs usually somebody with some sortâa weakness, yâknow, a chink in the armor that the demon can worm through. Somebody with an addiction or emotional distress.â
As he explains this, you unlatch Deanâs claws from their death-grip on your arm and give the top of his hand a little soothing pat. Your gaze remains fixed on the pattern of the seat in front of you. âFor a regular demon, maybe. This thing might not even need a chink. It wants maximum damage hereâso maybe itâd go for the pilot?â
This is not a soothing thought. Checking his watch again, Sam suggests, âOr Amanda⌠Surviving a crash like that? Iâd be pretty messed up if I was her. We should check both.â
Youâre happy to spend the little time you have left wisely, so youâre quick to push out of your seat and get moving. Dean puts on a brave face and follows your lead. There are only two ends of the plane to checkâthis thing canât hide forever. Just when you start to do an awkward side-shuffle to nudge Dean out into the aisle with your hip, the whole plane thrashes top to bottom, and there he goes, dropping like a rock back into his seat. His spike of panic is so genuine that you end up dropping with him.
âCome on!â Dean hisses through his teeth. âThat canât be normal!â
You and Sam immediately get to shushing and soothing him, and suddenly you understand how married couples feel when their kid starts crying on a flight. Shifty eyes in other seats pretend theyâre not glaring at you. Summoning as much strength as you can to share with him, you drop a hand on Deanâs shoulder and order: âBreathe, dude. Youâre okay.â
âIâm not fuckinâ four,â Dean whisper-shouts, sulking flat back into his seat.
âSheâs right,â Sam whispers back. Should it be worrying you how much heâs been agreeing with you lately? Stern, he says, âListenâif youâre panicked, youâre wide open to possession. So you need to calm yourself down. Right now.â
A weird part of you is grateful that Dean is having a rough go of it, because itâs giving you something to focus on. Youâre usually pretty good with planes. But for a minute there, when the turbulence had hit, your mind had defaulted to oh shit, this is real, weâre all going to die. A slideshow of the last crash had blitzed through your thoughts. Thoughts that had nothing to do with the anxiety you were picking up from Dean.
You know you despise it when Dean uses his Parent Voice on you, so you try not to use it on him when you urge, âCâmon. I think Amandaâs in the back of the plane. Iâll check up front.â
Dean gives an unconvinced, âIâll go talk to her,â then makes grabby hands at Samâs pockets, âpass me one of the hand-sanitizers. Fuckinâ uh, pumpkin latteâdonât gimme that face, _____, not all of us can tell with just a look. What if itâs in her?â
âItâs a bit more than a lookââ you begin to clarify, but Sam stops your back and forth with a shake of his head. He pulls out the little orange plastic container of your pumpkin cupcake holy water and passes it to Dean.
âWe should try to conserve what we got,â he warns, passing you the only other weapon against the demon (marshmallow pumpkin latte). âGo more subtleâif sheâs possessed, sheâll flinch at the name of god.â
Now that youâre running out of both time and options, the second Dean unbuckles his seatbelt and steps out into the aisle on coltish legs, you take the opening and bolt out of your cramped middle seat. Anything you can do to get closer to finding this thing will make you feel loads better.
You start down the aisle. As the chatter of the boys fades into the all-encompassing thrum of the plane behind you, you take slow unhurried steps past each row of seats, soaking up what you can get. A girl listens to music in her headphones. A businessman clicks away at his laptop. Each of them you comb over with your powers, and each pass feels like scooping your hand into a bowl of tacks and waiting to get stabbed.
Theyâll rip into your mind⌠take you apart if they have to, Mom had said. You waited for that moment, steeling your nerves the closer you came to the cockpit. If the demonâs on this side of the plane, and it sensed you, would it immediately press into your mind? Would just being near you snap its presence to you like a magnet? You didnât like the mental feeling that gave you; the stark secret-seeking white of your Gift clashing with the black choking smoke thatâd been chasing you all week. When you spoke to a spirit through your Gift, it felt like you were touching fingertips through a curtain. Would it be like that? Would this demon press its claws through the veil and dig around for something to tear, to grab?
The other flight attendant on board pushes past you with her cart, leaving no barrier between you and the cockpit. Behind you, bobbing in a sea of blurry people, your Gift could distinctly make out Sam (practicing the exorcism) and Dean (talking to Amanda). Youâre just a few paces from the front exit of the plane when a man emerges from the bathroom cabin, andâ
He twists to meet eyes with you. Expecting you.
Youâre flashed a clever, haunting smile, thenâa set of glossy void-black eyes.
You wait for it. And in its own way, the presence of the demon does overpower you, bringing the heavy-as-the-sky, parasitic feeling from your visions into the real world. For a long ringing moment, you are blasted with dark leeching power hot enough to singe the entire front of your bodyâlike a nuclear bomb had dropped down just a few steps from you. It is spidery and vicious and knowing and awfulâ
âŚbut the conquering sensation never comes. Beth had said that it would root into your mind, that just feeling it with your Gift, as you are right now, would tear you to pieces. Yet all that really happens is you staring at it and it staring at you, before it shoulders its way through the cockpit door and disappears inside. The only thing you really experience is the shock of seeing it in somebody, puppeting around a person with dreams and thoughts and memories.
For a few moments, you suck down heaving breaths through your nose and stare at the closed door.
Something about it nagged at you. Besides the obviousâhow different it felt compared to what your mother had describedâyou swear you felt something else, some ringing sense of strangeness that you just couldnât put your finger on. Maybe it was the fact that youâd just made eye contact with a real creature of hell, an evil spirit, whatever. But you made eye contact with evil spirits all the time. This was⌠closer to home than that. Underneath the writhing mass of bloody, black ink that made up the demon, your Gift had recognized something unimaginably familiar.
Sensing the demon in person had reminded you of⌠of a sensory memory, almost. It smelled like⌠warm static. The old staticy TV in your house, the ancient one that sat square and unattractively on your Momâs slanting sideboard in the living room. You remembered her crystal ashtray propped up on the top, the fizzy sound the TV made when youâd shut it offâŚ
On the nights when it was just you and Sam home, and the house felt so big and empty that the silence throbbed in your ears, the two of you would set up a fort in front of that TV and watch old horror movies well past your bedtime. The silly effects and the dated acting were easy to tease together. Youâd much rather watch movies on the newer screen in your Momâs room, but for whatever reason, Sam insisted on the clunker in your living room.
Yâwanna know somethinâ cool? Heâd asked you once, running a finger through the film of static bubbling on the surface of the glass. A little bit of the static in TVs is actually radiation leftover from the Big Bang. How weird is that? Something so old and powerful, picked up by this random piece of junk.
Sam always crashed first, leaving you alone with the white static the TV defaulted to when the movie ended. You could vividly remember how your shoulders bumped against the hard floor through the thin sleeping bag the two of you had sharedâhow Samâs warmth had seeped into your shirt where he was curled up behind you, his soft sleepy breaths tickling your hair.
When youâd pulled his arm around your waist to snuggle, a spark of static had shocked you through his touch. When youâd closed your eyes and tried to go to sleep, you swore that the ancient, cosmic hum of the static in the TV ebbed and flowed at the same exact time as Samâs breath.
In. Bzzzsh. Out. Bzzzsh. Crackling as he breathed.
It wasnât the demon you were scared of anymore. The ancient, ever-present sting of static youâd felt deep down inside it⌠that scared you a million, a billion times more, becauseâ
You felt that static every time you felt Sam.
_
Itâs like trying to describe the smell of your childhood home.
Logically, you know your house must smell like something. But when youâre in one place long enough your brain filters it out as background noise, and it becomes something you can only notice after a long time away.
Youâd known Sam since you were in diapers. Back then, the meager threads of your Gift were already taking him in and absorbing him into your memory. Eventually, you felt him so often that all the pain and optimism in his core, all the stuff that made Sam himself, had smoothed out into warm, familiar background noise to your Gift.
Then heâd left for Stanford. Four years passed, and the only exposure your Gift had to him was the flimsy thread stretched two thousand miles down to California. Because itâd been so long since youâd sensed him in person, hugging him outside his apartment had been like stepping into your home after a long time awayâfor a brief moment, the filter over your psychic perceptions of him had lifted. Youâd sensed for the first time what had always been there, buried deep. The Static.
At the time, youâd gotten so swept up in Sam, Dean, and the adventure of finding their Dad, that it was easy to get sidetracked. Things came up. You got used to Sam again, and his Static faded to background noise.
Until youâd felt that demon with your Gift.
A demon. A creation of Lucifer. Youâd always remember what Sam felt likeâyouâd never forget the smell of homeâbut in one of them?
Your mind whirls with so many questions that it flat-out pops, failing you. Pulled along on a cloud of white noise, you somehow manage to turn away from the cockpit and start back down the aisle. The demon is possessing the pilot. You have forty minutes, less than, to exorcize it and save the two hundred people on this flight. These are all truths floating around in your head, but no matter how much you try to circle back to one, the static of the demon overcomes you again.
Static. You think of Sam, the crackle of his soft raspy voice through the phone. Your heart is pounding in your ears, thudding away in your chest like a piston. The static had burned in the demon, burned like busted speakers and smoking plane wreckage. Little pins all over your skin pressing in. The space you have until you make it to Samâs seat seems to yawn, your footfalls sluggish and shivery. Why do they feel the same? Why does he feel the same? The static of the demon worms under your fizzing skin, bubbling, boilingâ
You stop in front of Samâs row, and heâs already looking at you when you get close. He asks you a question. You stare at him, the whole world filled with that awful roaring buzzing, the air tight and dessert dry in the back of your throat. Even though heâs right in front of you, you feel like you barely see himâjust the vague burning outline of him in your powers.
Sam reaches out to grab your wrist, tugging it away from the long marks youâre viciously scratching into the flesh of your arm. The touch of his hand causes a literal static shock to jolt from his fingers to yours. You yelp in surprise, but itâsâ
Itâs different. Thereâs a similarity, definitely, between what you sensed in the demon and whatâs always been in Sam⌠but his Static is hot chocolate warm and fuzzy and so good. Melt-in-your-mouth good. Your surroundings filter back in, and there are his soft, worried eyes looking up at you under his brow, and his big hand soothing over the irritated skin youâve scratched raw. Sam. The same Sam heâs always been.
âŚWhatever it is, whatever weird connection youâve just made, youâre sure thereâs a lot more to it than Sam having something in common with a demon. Right?
Sam takes one look at you, your insane reaction, and your mysterious reappearance, then easily puts two and two together: âOne of the pilots?â
âCo-pilot,â you tell him, and one of your absent-minded hands drifts up to scratch at your arm again.
And again, Sam fishes his fingers around your wrist and pulls it away. Now that youâve noticed it, you canât un-notice it. His touch makes your fingertips and the ends of your ears tingle, and not completely in the boy-crush way. In the psychic way.
He asks, âYou gonna be okay? We got twenty-two minutes.â
That jolts you back to life. Twenty-two minutes until this plane is smoking ashes in a Pennsylvania cornfield. Though the last ten minutes have easily overcomplicated all twenty-four years of your life, you wonât have a life period if you donât see this job through. When Dean returns from investigating a very un-possessed Amanda, he feels the exact same way.
Your resolve hardens, and you manage to give Sam an absent-minded smile. âIâll be fine.â
Thereâs no time for arguing. Dean and Sam unanimously agree that the only possible place to exorcize the demon would be in the back, where Amanda is, since you canât exactly jump the guy in the middle of economy. You donât exactly like the idea of roping her into this, but Amandaâs the only one who could potentially lure thatâthing to the rear of the plane. It is the worldâs shittiest ambush. But by the time the three of you decide what to do, youâve burned ten whole minutes on anxious chatter. A shitty ambush is the only plan youâve got.
Dean starts down the aisle for the back of the plane. You stare at nothing for a beat, and only remember to get out of your seat when Sam nudges your elbow. He presses his lips together like he wants to ask you the million-dollar question (âAre you sure youâre okay?â), but there is literally no time. In a haze, you shuffle out of your seat after Dean and make a feeble attempt to get your head into gear. Sam does not make it easy. One of his broad hands brushes against the small of your back as you both squeeze out of the row, and you feel like youâve just gone down one of those static-charged plastic playground slides.
Your Gift is exaggerating it. It has to be, right? Making big connections out of little things, picking at a fresh bruise. For weeks, youâve been crammed into a little car with Sam, into teeny motel beds with him with no room between you. Why hadnât you felt it? Why now? Not when you were four, napping in the same bed after playtimeânot when you were twelve, and Sam was the first person outside your family that your Gift had connected with. Had it always been there, living inside him? Had you missed it?
You reach the back of the plane. Amanda is there, a pale, blonde flight attendant straight out of a commercial. You are dully aware that you have twelve minutes left before the demon makes its move, always on the forty-minute mark (...and you donât like the line suddenly drawn between Sam and such an old, biblically evil thing).
The boys talk. A familiar conversation occurs over your head, which might be why itâs easy for you to tune out. Your mind returns again to thoughts of Sam, so intense and loud in your head that it all fizzles out to nothing, and youâre left standing there with the air pressure making your ears ring. Sam. The demon. Itâs stupid and intangible and youâd have no fucking clue how to explain it out loud, but your Gift is made to find the truth. Something inside that demon exists in Sam, too. Something.
You try to reassure yourself that maybe, just this once, your Gift is wrong. Maybe this is the demon getting into your mindâlearning your deepest fears and bringing them to life.
Sure enough, Deanâs charm and Samâs earnest face must win Amanda over, because she flits out of the back room like a frightened bird. The boys peer through the curtain to watch her go, the two of them as still and sharp-eared as twin watchdogs. Youâre slapped back to life by the sudden tension in the room, and quickly scuttle up behind them. Right. Amandaâs getting the co-pilot. These next ten minutes will determine the rest of your life.
In the same beat, you and Dean ready your holy water, and Sam gets the written exorcism from their dadâs journal out in front of him. Thereâs no need for the three of you to say a word. An understanding passes between each of you, hammered in from years of hunting as a team. Sam slides up next to you and Dean gives you a firm nod, squashing your last wisps of fear. Youâre here to do a damn job.
A manâs voice floats toward the closed curtain to the back room, followed not-so-closely by Amandaâs. Youâre glad sheâs not the first one into the roomâbecause Dean instantly slams a fist into their face.
The co-pilotâor really, the thing inside himâgoes sprawling. Youâve got a strip of duct tape bridled over his mouth before he even fully collides with you, and for the blissful moment you have him pinned, Dean gets another fierce hit in.
While heâs still stunned, you whip the co-pilot to the grated metal floor. Dean clambers on top of him and keeps him there with a firm fist twisted in his rumpled button-up.
Amanda panics, âW-what are you doing? Y-you said you we-were gonna talk to himâ!â
âWe are gonna talk to him,â Dean grits.
Then, youâre hosing him down with holy water, splashing it brutally in the manâs pain-twisted face. Your gut clenches with empathy. Did the demon leave his body already? Youâre terrified for a moment that you got the wrong guy⌠until you smell the smoke. Itâs not just sulfur, but full-on dead body bloat, steaming up from the big black boils that spring up where the holy water hits skin. You get a mouth and noseful vile enough to make you gag. This thing fighting you? This is definitely not a man.
Amanda watches the demonâs skin sizzle, the usual terror and confusion on her face. âO-oh my god, whatâs wrong with him?â
You pour all the psychic clarity and calmness into your voice when you whip around and tell her: âItâs going to be okay. Be calm, go outside the curtain, and donât let anybody in. Can you do that, Amanda?â
You donât stop to listen to her answer. Samâs already tearing through the opening to the exorcism at ninety miles an hour, his pronunciation punchy and fatally clear. That had been one of the less exciting parts of the five-hour drive here; when Sam had run through it over and over, re-training himself. One misspoken word could get everyone on this plane killed.
âExorcizamus te, omnis immundus spiritusâŚâ
The demon thrashes viciously in your grip, twisting and contorting under Dean in ways the human body canât bend. Bile rises in your throat as you hear a snap, then two, as the demon does everything it can to buck Dean off. By the time you go to stun it with another splash of holy water, itâs more of a dribble. Thatâs your first mistake.
Two people are not nearly enough to keep this thing down. It gets a hand loose that instantly sends Dean flying, and before you even see where he lands, it cranks your head all the way to the left in one vicious slap.
Your whole face is blasted with red, stinging pain. You go down hard, smashed sideways into the cramped wall.
The pain stuns you out of the headspace you built to distract yourself, and all at once the presence of the demon is thrust upon you. The black, molten psychic power of it crackles through your body, filling your nose and mouth with the same terror hanging in your visions all week. Until you realizeâ It fucking backhanded you.
Trying to see past the dots swimming in your vision, you mindlessly shove off the wall, snarling with rage. No fucking way.
And then it speaks (to Sam?), and in the fizzing noise of pressure in your ears you hear it promise, âI know what happened to your girlfriend!â The constant stream of Samâs exorcism stops cold.
When the demon speaks again, its voice, a spectral twist of the co-pilotâs and something older, drooled with pleasure. âShe died screaming,â it rasped, âEven now, she's burning.â
A lot happens in the next precious seconds. First, the little circular light flushed flat to the back cabinâs ceiling explodes. Justâbursts, in shock, spraying sparks and glass all over the little room. Youâre stunned enough as it is getting hit in the face, so one more thing to fuck up your vision doesnât help. But you heard what the demon said to Sam. Through the suffocating evil flooding your mind, you feel the sharp spike of hurt and rage and grief in your best friendâand thatâs the precise moment when you decide that youâve had e-fucking-nough.
These last few days have not been winners. And though you live a pretty shitty life with an impressive amount of shitty days, even before you got to Pennsylvania, your streak of bad luck had only just gotten started. This demon has screwed with your Gift on an unimaginable level. Your last few nights have been plagued with nightmares straight from hell, and your days havenât been much better, riddled with useless visions that get more and more disconnected every time you faint. It made it even more obvious than usual that youâre deadweight for Sam and Dean. They had to handle your boiling water burns and your freakouts, not to mention your mood swings and your unhelpful visions.
The demon hurt Dean, which is enough to get your teeth grinding. And Samâit had cut him much deeper.
You wanted to tear it apart. You wanted to reach into it the same way it had reached into you, dig in with your nails, and rip something out. Your momâs words buzz in your head: contact, truth, lies, rip, apart. Rationally, you know you should listen to her warning. If just looking into its eyes has forever changed your view of the man youâve loved since you were little, then looking deeper could kill youâscramble your mind. You know that. But beside the rage and exhaustion fizzing under your skin is this desperate need to know.
Demons are made of lies. What if it was lying about Sam? What if it had screwed with your Gift in some new way, tweaking the image of him in your mind? It had to be lying. The Static in him, as warm and as good as you swore it wasâit came from something evil. Sam. The man you love, the boy youâd fallen in love with, his soft sleepy breaths as he lays on the floor beside your bed, his freckly arms swimming in his too-big sleeves. How could any part of him be evil? He couldnât be. N-not your Sam. How could he ever have something like that inside him?
You need to be sure. Consequences be damned.
As the demon rears up to keep snarling in Samâs face, you slap a hand over its foreheadâreach inâand start ripping.
_
She died screaming.
Sam canât pull a full breath in. The words burn through his body like a syringe of poison, spreading from limb to limb. The demon snarls up at him, its foamy spit hitting Samâs face and its teeth snapping around Jessâs nameâuntil.
_____âs hand seals over the demonâs face. The demonâs jaw snaps shut. There is a terrible hanging moment where Samâs brain struggles to connect the touch to what sheâs doing; she never, ever psychically connected with the full face of her palm tattoo. Even with her mom Sam knew she put up a barrier, reading Beth with the smooth back of her knuckles instead.
Shit. Another fresh shot of horror lances through him. What the hell is she doing to it?
The effect is instant. Whatever button _____ had just hit, it activates every horror-movie, Exorcist-level instinct in the demonâs body. Surprised yelps echo down the back of the plane as the lights violently flicker. In electrified, strobing flashes, Sam sees it. The co-pilotâs body is diagonal on the floor one moment, and then itâs arching its back three feet in the air, lurching up into ______âs palm like sheâd hit it with a defibrillator. The demon floats up and stays up.
âŚUntil Dean brings it smashing back to the floor again, throwing his weight on top of the co-pilot. He barks, âSam!â Right. Whatever sheâs doing to it, itâs the only working distraction theyâve got. Slapped back to focus, Sam stutters out where he left off: â...O-omnis congregatio et secta diabolicaââ Itâs a blessing that he makes it through the next lines of the exorcism. Sam pours all of his willpower into keeping his eyes on the stained notebook page itâs written on, no matter how many times his gut begs him to check on her. All he can do is have faith. This is what she doesâwhen Deanâs not strong enough and Samâs too weak, she finds a damn way, come hell or high water. Sam has always had endless faith in that. So when the whole plane gives that terrible shudder that he was expecting, and then tips, and tips, and tips into a full pitch forward, Sam grips that faith with both hands. The demonâs power ripples through the rest of the plane. Everything descends into chaos. Past the curtain, the lights go out in one silent burst, followed by the explosive, concussive screams of the passengers as the oxygen masks drop. Movies are unfortunately good at capturing this precise moment, but nothing could ever replicate the way Samâs belly swoops as all five hundred tons of the plane heads straight for the ground. Sam and Dean both go flying, crashing sideways into the walls of the back cabin. The turbulence rips the journal from his hands, and of course, with their fucking luck, it goes skidding through the curtain and down the aisle to ricochet under the seats. âGrab it!â Dean screams.
Sam canât hear him. He staggers into the open doorway of the back cabin, clutching the frame for dear life. A terrifying, unnatural howl whistles through the cabin, even louder than the wails of the passengers. Its wind flutters his hair around his face and sends luggage toppling out of the overhead bins. For a moment, Sam wonders if the planeâs been hit or the demon has done somethingâbut no. Itâs her. He flattens himself to the floorâor rather, gravity flattens himâcrawling on his belly towards the shadow of the journal under the seats. The passengers sob and shriek. The air is singed with smoky fear, and riding that same fear, Sam surges ahead, lunging for the book where itâs lodged between tossed luggage. He has to twist to get his hands on it, and itâs then that he feels it.
Down the aisle behind him, the wind drags luggage and loose papers into the void-like darkness of the back cabinâwhere the great, cleansing, sweeping power of her is fighting the demon. Sam believes in what heâs seen; Sam believes in angels.
Sheâll buy him enough time. He knows she will.
Samâs hands donât shake as he pries the journal open to the right page.
âEcclesiam tuam securi tibi facias libertate servire, te rogamus,â he shouts, and the words ring as clear and clean as a bell. The plane tries to toss him again, but Sam grits his teeth and persists, âaudi nos!â
He waits. Sam sees it more than he hears it. Deep in the blackhole darkness of the planeâs cabin, something red and fiery flashes to life⌠flickers⌠and dies.
Maybe heâs imagining it, but he swears he feels the demon fizzle out. The heaviness in the air melts away. The lights, which Sam realizes had been snapping on and off, turn on for good. The hissing of the turbines spins to its normal hum. The plane swooshes back up with a slow coasting motion, then sets itself back on its peaceful forward track.
Gasps and sobs of relief chorus all around Sam, and sprawled in the middle of the aisle, he finds himself doing the same. Overhead, the pilotâs voice crackles reassurances over the intercom. As big wuffs of air cycle in and out of Sam, he waits for the moment for his heart to stop thumping, for the big âwe wonâ moment to wash over himâbut it never really does. It sits with him. For a long terrible moment, he is on the bed in his apartment in Palo Alto, Jessicaâs blood boiling holes in his neck.
Even now, sheâs still burning.
INDIANAPOLIS INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT - Dec. 5th, early morning.
Somehow, amid all the noise of swarming paramedics, feds, airline authorities, and stunned 424 passengers, Sam manages to remain lost in his own head. He clenches his jaw tilâ his ears pop. How had it known about Jess?
The terminal is quickly packed. Heâs not in airports often enough to know whether they should be packed at one in the morning, but heâs gonna guess not. It is all background noise for him. Passengers whirl past, getting cleared by cops to go home, and Dean subtly nudges the three of them into the leaving crowd. Sam has a vague notion that heâs putting one foot in front of the other, but everything feels distant and hazy. His neck blazes with that terrible tingling feeling, and he digs into it with his nails until Dean stops him.
âSam,â Dean orders, dipping his head towards the direction of the parking lot. Apparently Sam isnât cooperating well. âLetâs get the hell outtaâ here.â For a brief moment, the awful burning feeling covering him in a fog parts long enough for him to think, and Sam realizes that he doesnât know where _____ is. Panic lances through his chest so fast that he sobers all at once, and he opens his mouth to panic moreâuntil he sees her, scrunched up behind Dean.
Well, clutching Dean. Left shameless by whatever she saw in that demonâs head, sheâs got Deanâs hand and wrist in a deathgrip, trailing him so close that her shoes catch the heels of his boots. She does not look good. Her eyes are big and wide and she looks straight through everyone and everything, still tethered to the other dimension her powers live in. Sheâs got her elbows pressed into her ribs and her body bunched up so tight that Sam can almost feel her psychic overstimulation from where heâs standing.
âSâokay, sweetheart, â Dean hushes, the first in a long, quiet string of reassurances.
Sam stares at her. Even if sheâs in her own world, she must be able to feel it, âcause she physically leans out of his way. That should hurt himâshould make him burn with sympathyâbut instead, all he can think is, she would know. She would know if the demon was lying. Samâs connected with her like thatâthereâs absolutely nothing to hide, even if you wanted to, so thereâs no way she couldnât see if the demon had been telling the truth.
The line of people seeping through security to get out of the airport slows to a stop, making way for the pack of paramedics hauling 424âs copilot away on a stretcher. The black boils from the holy water have left his body entirely.
Heâll ask her once. He has to try. Sam lets the two of them in front of him, Dean, then _____, almost pressing her face into Deanâs back. When theyâre stopped in line, Sam lifts a hand to touch herâbut stops himself, not wanting her to feel any worse. â_____,â Sam swallows, trying to keep his voice even. âWhat did you see? H-How did it know about Jessica?â
Before she even has the opportunity to answer, (if she can even hear him), Dean swings around to shoot Sam a pained look. âDude, look at her. Now is not the fuckinâ time. Let her get a full breath in before you start with the interrogations, okay?â
Sam recoils. The gnashing, rebellious fire he usually saves for Dad pours out here, instead, and before Sam knows it heâs snarling back, âI canât ask one question about my dead girlfriend?â
It lasts only for an instant, but Sam gets to watch in real time the way that hit lands. Heâs aware that itâs deeply fucked up of him to enjoy throwing Jess in Deanâs face, but it is his backward, comforting reminder that she was a real person; not a four-year-long fever dream he invented to escape. No one says her name but him anymore. At least, when he talks about her, someone else is forced to feel something too.
Dean sets his jaw. He makes the mistake of trying to turn towards Sam, which _____ thinks is an attempt to shake her offâand she lets out this awful, hoarse sob sound that stops them both cold.
Sam feels like a rail spike has been driven through his chest. Dean gives him a look, then mercifully drops it.
Immediately, Deanâs wheeling her back in and soothing her. The angle at which sheâs clinging to him is awkward for all three of them, so he endures her trembling and hitching little sobs as he peels off her hands and re-arranges them. Dean loops an arm around her back so he can stroke her shuddering shoulders, uttering, âSâokay, kiddo, sâ all over⌠ainât nothinâ gonna hurt youâŚâ
And of course, because Sam can never exist in peace, he watches the way ______ drops all her weight onto Dean and feels his chest squeeze. Suddenly, heâs very aware of what four years have changed between her and his brother.
The rush back to the car is silent, but for _____âs little sniffling breathes. After making it out of the blistering lights of the chattering airport and out into the peaceful snowy parking lot, things calm down.
Four separate times Sam thinks about reaching out to comfort her. The Gift always leaves her freezing cold, and early December in Indiana on top of that has her making audible little shivering sounds as they walk. Samâs boiling under his coat. He unzips it, then zips it up again, unsure if sheâd even want it. Dean gets her in the car and puts a warm blanket around her before Sam can get over his indecision.
They just saved two hundred people. In hindsight, thatâs a massive win. Maybe if the demon hadnât said what itâd said, and maybe if it hadnât reduced her to this, Sam could celebrate. Seeing her so messed up always throws him. Less than an hour ago, she was the powerful psychic that used to have Dad clutching his telepathy-blocking charm under his shirt.
Sam scrubs his hand down his face, staring blankly at the trembling lump of blanket lying across the backseat. Now, sheâs⌠whatever she saw in that demon.
Dean tucks her feet up onto the seat, then nudges the door closed with his hip. Sam stares past him, through him, at her silhouette in the Impalaâs dark glass, because thatâs somehow easier than looking at Dean.
The smattering of snow growing on the asphalt makes the whole world sound muffled. Sam feels like heâs talking to empty air when he croaks, âIt knew about Jessica.â
âSam,â Dean calls, softer this time. Asking for Sam to look at him. When he manages to heave his head up, Deanâs face is firm and reassuring. âThese thingsâthey read minds. They lie, just like Beth said. Thatâs all it was. Donât let that thing get into your head, okay?â
Sam forces himself to nod. They both spare the shaking shape in the backseat one more look, then Deanâs rounding the car for the driverâs seat, and Samâs sliding in next to him without another word.
PITTSBURG, PENNSYLVANIA - Dec. 5th, night.
Green. It had to be the ugliest color a motel room could be, Sam thought as he stared at the empty room. The walls were this sad limey green color that managed to look awful even in the dark, some parts made even limey-er by the huge neon green vacancy sign right outside their window. Their room was parked right next to it, so there was no escaping the sign even with the curtains pulled shut.
You and Dean, who were positioned right under the ugly green light, had somehow managed to fall asleep anyway. The only sound in the whole world was your soft breathing across the room and the crackle of the ancient TV.
Right now, it was playing a rerun of some televangelist in a big shiny white suit. He paced the screen on mute as Sam watched, curled on his side, laying diagonal to face the screen. Nightmares were so common for him now that the hardest part of the battle was getting to sleep in the first place. His strategy was to get so bored and so tired that his body would simply have nothing else to do but crash. Bored was the key wordâSam had tried reading, sudoku, and counting cars as they whisked by, but all of that occupied his mind too much to work. Tonight was another night where his mind was just too full to sleep.
He hoped Dean was right. He prayed that the demon had just been lying, lips pressed to the cross he kept under his shirt. Most days, Sam dropped into bed and sent off a brief prayer before the fight for sleep began. Tonight, thoughâtonight was one of those nights where he clasped his cross in both hands and poured his heart out. Sam prayed for his brother, his Dad, and for you, like usual, pleading for protection and strength. Sam prayed for Jessica, too.
(But never for her forgivenessâhe knew he didnât deserve that).
When Sam had first started getting comfortable with prayer, heâd always worried that he was being greedy or selfish by asking for so much. Health, food, lunch money, for Dad and Dean to get home okay. Now, itâs a natural comfort to him. To open yourself up to something higher than you, to give up your pride and ask for helpâthat is a mark of holiness. Goodness. Sam closes out his prayers and feels clean.
Across the room, Sam hears the covers in the opposite bed shift. He squints sleepy eyes at your silhouette, and even sluggish and drained, the shifting colors from the TV and the vacancy sign illuminate you like something not entirely from this world.
You pad over to his bedside. A soft, ice-cold hand shakes his arm. When you get up close and realize Samâs awake, you scuttle back in surprise. âUh.â
Sam shoves his face into his pillow. With his mind still on Jess, itâs hard for him to look at you right now. âWhat is it?â
Itâs funny. From the moment you got off flight 424, youâd been glued to Deanâs side. Sam had kept his teeth pressed together through the entire thing, watching from a distance as you reached for Dean, spoke to Dean, took the food Dean gave you. If Sam didnât know any better, heâd figure you were avoiding him. Now youâve decided you want something from him?
The second you touch his arm, every wisp of jealousy in Sam dries up. Not at all in the mood to be touched, he squirms out from under your hand and hoarsely repeats, âWhat?â You speak to him for the first time in hours. You sound rough and broken, and the edge of that awful sob from earlier today threatens to tip into your voice. âCan IâŚ?â
Sam keeps his face planted in the pillow. At first heâs unsure what youâre even asking forâuntil you drop a hand on the mattress and he feels your weight tilt closer, wanting to⌠to lay with him. Like when you were little. When you share beds on the road, thereâs often space left between you. Thatâs not what youâre asking for. If thatâs what you wanted right now, youâd be in Deanâs bed.
The soft, choked little voice he canât resist begs, âI just need to feel you.â
The last sliver of guilt and self-loathing that Sam has been holding onto instantly slips out of his grasp, hearing that. For the millionth time since this morning, heâs reminded of how awful he was to you. Youâd been brought to the brink with your powers in a way they hadnât seen in years, and Sam chose that precise moment to freak out. He wished heâd been better to you. Maybe he canât pray for Jessâs forgiveness, but he can work to earn yours now.
Sam shuffles back on the mattress and opens the covers for you. âCâmere.â
As quiet as a mouse, you duck under his arm and slip under the covers. Sam immediately realizes that he shouldâve fucking braced himself or something, because holy shit, you are so close. He accidentally gave you very little room in the already small bed. To keep from tumbling off the mattress and onto the questionable carpet, you reasonably and logically slot right up against him, your back against his chest and your heads on the same pillow. Holy shit, he did not think this through. Sam has very few gentlemanly places to lay his arm. And even if he found one, your icy cold hand picks up his warm one andâright, okay, you take it and wrap it right around your middle. Thatâs fine too. Cool. Awesome.
Okay. Forgetting every way he could sabotage this for himself for just a moment, Sam realizes that he missed this. God, he missed it so much. You wiggle back into his body and Sam gives you a big, indulgent squeeze around the tummy, earning this watery little sigh that makes his already racing heart zing out into orbit. Friendly snuggling became a lot less friendly when you were pushing seventeen instead of nine, so Sam hasnât allowed himself to properly, um⌠cuddle you⌠in ages.
That isnât even the best part. That little squeeze makes him realize just how pleasantly cold you are, a wonderful ice cube in blazing hot soup. Samâs practically cooking under the coversâand that must be perfect for you and your chilly hands, because you make the same pitiful happy noise that Sam does as you get comfortable against each other.
Maybe if this were any other moment, after any other day, that would be something you might laugh about together. Instead, Samâs prayers are filled with you and your incredible burden. He hesitates to go all in and hold you like he wants to⌠until your breath makes that tight, hitching sound again, and Samâs sure youâre holding back tears. Screw it, Sam thinks. Heâll take care of you this time. Sam presses his face into your hair and entwines your hands on your belly, unsure of what to say and yet wanting to say so much. Dean canât hold you like thisâthis is something you only want from Sam.
You both go still. Sam feels you hold your breath. His legs are itching to shift under the covers and your hand awkwardly holds his, the two of you afraid to disturb the magic.
Your thumb slowly caresses along the flat side of his hand. His heart leaps into his throat, and he squeezes his eyes shut, willing himself to relax. You need this. Finally, itâs his turn to comfort you.
Sam swallows hard. Thereâs no way you canât feel his heart thudding away, inches from popping clean out of his chest. Neither of you are stupid. If Dean were to wake up, you know exactly what this would look like to himâto the cleaning lady, to the strangers out on the street. But right now, in this frozen moment, thereâs no one awake in the world but the two of you and the TV. It is so, so wrong. But when you touch him, Sam feels clean.
Bit by bit, you adjust to one another. Your breath syncs up. The whole time, your eyes never move from the TV, but if Sam focusses he swears something washes over himâthat same great, sweeping, cleansing power from the plane, as light as moth wings on his skin. He has to bite back his smile. If you did that to anyone else, theyâd find you creepy as hell.
After what feels like forever, you plainly croak, âIt was lying about her. It was made of lies.â
That hits Sam like a slap to the face. Thatâs⌠yeah. That sounds right. He absorbs the impact as best he can, because although his faith was thin, Sam trusted Deanâs word and he trusts yours, too. Thereâsâso much that he feels about that, but he doesnât want any more of his grief to overwhelm your Gift. Samâs not naive. No matter how good of a person you are, no matter how considerate and understanding and empathetic you can be, Sam knows that talking about Jessica brings you some level of pain. It hurts him, too. And he has zero clue where that conversation would even begin, so he stores his shame and his loss and gives a shaky nod.
Instead, Sam asks, â...What did you see? When you looked into its head?â
Right. Causeâ that was such a better question to ask her, Sam.
You go silent. Itâs a weighty, knowing silence, one that chokes the whole room. Sam readies himself for whatever youâre about to share with him. Admittedly, heâs curious. When the Gift was something new in your life, Sam used to pile on question after question about what the world felt like to you. âWhat does it feel like when Deanâs happy?â A car motor turning on. âWhat does my happiness feel like?â Dimples and a mystery being solved. âYouâre joking.â Not even a little. It fascinated Samâhow does a demon feel in comparison to a regular spirit?
â...It was just an evil spirit, Sammy,â you dismiss. âThatâs all.â
Sam highly doubts thatâs true. If it was just a spirit, then why did it screw with you so deeply? What had you seen in its head that had scared you? You, of all people, who was built for this? He knows thereâs something more here, but after this week and all the ways youâve fought to avoid being a burden, the fact that youâd crawl to Sam for comfort is a sign of surrender. Youâve given up. Clearly, you donât want to talk about it. Sam isnât going to push you. God knows heâs done that enough.
When Sam doesnât push you, you shudder out a wet sigh and pick up his hand. At this point, Sam expects you in this state to do something weirdâand sure enough, you do. You pick up Samâs hand and you just stare at it. Just stare. Your thumb presses into the meat of his palm, almost like youâre looking for something. Feeling him. Samâs heart gives another pathetic, noticeable throb. Feeling him and being close to him is, after everything, still a source of comfort for you. His cheeks burn.
Just to fill the silence, Sam whispers, âIâve lost a lot of my calluses.â
Per usual, his little creep says nothing. Youâre still feeling him. Your other hand comes up to investigate too, adding even more soft gentle touching to Samâs already overloaded system. Your thumbs press into the center of his palm (reading it, maybe?), then over each bump, confirming for yourself that Samâs real.
Maybe heâd be a bit more resilient if you were doing this to him in a crowded diner or a rowdy college party. Instead, Sam can feel the rise and fall of your breath through your thin shirt, and itâs the only sound in the dead world besides the buzzing static on the TV.
Your gaze turns to the TV. The fingers caressing his hand stop cold.
Sam says your name. He can feel your heart thud thud thudding deep in your chest, like rabbitâs feet hitting snow.
Again, absorbed completely in your own task, you donât answer him. You roll over very suddenly under the covers. Sam hopes for a minute that being face to face with you will give him some answers, but the flash of your face he sees only serves to scare the shit out of him. You give him no time to process before youâre full-body hugging him, shoving a hand between his side and the mattress and fisting one in his shirt to bodily haul him against you. Sam sputters out a sharp noise and awkwardly slopes his hands down your back. The sudden intimacy gives him a whole world of shameful butterflies and freaks him out enough, butâŚ
You looked terrified. The same bone-deep horror you had on your face after you saw the demon in personâwhen you trudged up to Sam with those haunting Proctor eyes, staring straight through him and right at his future. What had you seen in that demon?
Sam tries to speak, but you talk over him, just as haunted as youâd been on that plane.
âI love you. So much, Sam. You know that?â
Itâs not a sweet, reminiscent kind of question. It is a genuine, unironic, please-tell-me-the-truth, You know that?
Samâs brain stalls. â...Yeah. O-Of course.â
In case that wasnât worrying enough, your hands needily grasp at his back, refusing to let Sam go as you duck your face into his shoulder. Sam can feel your entire body trembling from head to toe, can feel your hot breath on his neck choking back tears. âYouâre a good person,â you tell him, insisting. âThe best to me.â
âThatâsââ
âI can feel it, okay?â You snap. One of your hands slips up his chest to smooth over Samâs heart, and you squeeze him against you, promising, âHere. Right here.â
âŚOkay. Consider him officially freaked out. Sam manages an unconvinced, â...Thank you.â
Youâre so wound up that youâre gritting your teeth, digging your nails into his shirt and clawing him as close as possible. This has to be an effect of what you saw. Which is strange, because that⌠whatever that was, did not feel like psychic possession or a psychic panic attack or any kind of psychic anything. It felt like you, trying to convince Sam that heâs a good person. It strikes a cold, dark chord somewhere deep within him that he doesnât like. Youâre just⌠youâre just reacting to what the demon showed you. Youâre overwhelmed from stretching your Gift so thin. T-thatâs. Yeah. Regardless, youâre scared. You need him. That, at least, is something he can work with.
âShh,â Sam coos. He rubs a warm hand from the base of your scalp all the way down your back, then up, and back again, repeating the soothing motion until his arm goes numb. âYouâre tired. Letâs go to sleep.â
You mumble something non-committal under your breath.
Sam hushes you, blindly reaching for comforting things to say. âSâ okay. Youâre okay, baby. You can fall asleep on me.â
Maybe the demon showed you visions of Sam getting hurt. Something. That would explain this, maybe. He fixates on it, purely because itâs a problem in front of him that is much easier to think about than how scared he is for you, and worse, how much he loves this. Being your person. Itâs a stupid, selfish thought to have in a moment like this, butâSam wishes he could take care of you like this all the time.
As your frantic breathing smooths out into a clear, easy in-and-out, Sam wonders, wherever Jess is, what she would think if she saw this.
He closes his eyes and tries to steady his own breathing, the TV still crackling away on the dresser.
In. Bzzzsh. Out. Bzzzsh.
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Till the End of Time ~ Eris x Fem!Reader
Summary:Â 5 times Eris fell in love with his best friend and 1 time he did something about it
Warnings: Beron Vanserra, fluffy (for the most part), some sexual references, angst here and there and everywhere
word count: 5.6KÂ
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A/N: I have had this concept planned out for a while, and I felt like typing it out today. Idk just feeling lots of love for Eris Vanserra this week!!!! Always Epilogue will be coming out soon I promise, just feeling a little burnt out from it! Also this was also meant to be a drabble because I have to study but I have no self control! (I also didnât edit this, we are rawdogging this sorry not sorry) Hope you guys enjoy this little fic! Please, as always, like, reblog, and comment your thoughts, you already know it means the absolute world to me! Please eat something, drink a sip of water, and take your meds! Lots of love -Rose <3
1. When they promised to be best friends forever at the age of five
Eris eyed you as you stood behind your mother, hiding behind her like she could protect you from the world. He could have scoffed at the naivety of the little girl. His father had let his five year old son know earlier that morning that he was to be on his best behavior because special guests were coming today. When Eris had questioned who the special guests were, Beron had backhanded him across the cheek for âquestioning the High Lordâ so hard, that the little lordling was knocked to the floor. His cheek had ached for the rest of the day before his mother, Roux, found him and sobbed as she kissed the tender bruise that formed. She had applied some salve, whispering apologies and sweet nothings into his ear as she rocked him back and forth, cuddling him close before murmuring a glamor enchantment to cover the atrocious crimes of the high lord before his guests.
Eris had assumed that the so-called guests would be old, greed-mongering males, probably praising everything that Beron did or said, but he was shocked to see a small family of three making their way into the entryway. The little girl peaked out every so often from behind her mothers skirt, just to get a glance of the high lords family who stood before her. When her father had rushed himself to introduce the rest of his family, simpering at the High Lord for the invitation, he had yanked the girl harshly by the elbow, pulling her into the limelight. You stood there, shaking like a leaf about to fall from a tree because the wind had been so strong, before curtseying so low, Eris thought your knees touched the floor.Â
Suffice to say, the High Lord had been very impressed and turned to his son, glaring at him so hard, the child stepped forward and introduced himself, sneering down at you when you whispered your name in exchange. Eris didnât know what to do with himself as he sat next to you at the dinner table, you hadnât said a single word to him, quietly eating the food placed in front of you. Your mother and father were deeply entranced by the conversation with their high lord, and failed to acknowledge you. Only when Roux asked how old you were, did they seem to remember you were there, as the conversation went deadly silent and everyone turned their gazes onto you. You squirmed for a second, freezing as soon as you made eye contact with your mother who stared at you icily, and yelping out that you were five. Roux beamed back at you, âEris is only a year older than you, you both may go outside after dessert to play.â Beron had scoffed at her, but didnât deny lady autumn's suggestion. Er had been surprised, not only by Beronâs lack of scolding or response at his mother, but also because he had minor interactions with children his age in general. His father kept him busy with intense training and schooling, and refused to let the little lordling interact with the children at the forest house, citing they were peasants and Eris âdid not need to mix with the likes of them.âÂ
After dessert, some kind of tiramisu that Eris did not care for, Roux reminded the children to go outside, âfresh air will do you both good,â she said, and he had turned to glare at his mother. He rose from his seat awkwardly, waiting for you to also rise, so he could take you to the area under the willow tree that had the single wood swing attached to a thick branch. You followed him without a word, and Eris had planned to let you sit and wait until one of their mothers would call them inside as he tried to swing as high as he could. He had no energy or will to speak to you, but you broke the silence as you walked past the stables, âWhat's in there?â Eris almost snorted, thinking it was a stupid question because what else would be in there. He replied boredly, âHorses⌠and my hounds.â You whipped your head to him so fast, so excitedly, it knocked the breath right of the little heir. âYou have puppies?â Your eyes shone bright in the setting sun, and your hair glimmered under the remaining rays that flew over the horizon. âThey⌠they arenât puppies! They are hounds. For hunting,â the lordling replied feeling flustered, heat rising up to his neck as he pulled at the collar that felt too tight at that moment.Â
âCan I see?â you pleaded with him, âJust for a couple of minutes?â Eris thought for a moment, feeling protective over his pets who had probably just finished their evening meal served by the stable boys. He didnât know how they would react to a new presence⌠to a girl. The hounds were being trained to hunt, but he supposed a quick peak wouldnât do any real damage, âFine,â you cheered so loud, beaming at him with a toothy grin, the little lordling felt his heart skip a beat in his chest. He rubbed his tiny hands together anxiously, âonly for a minute though, they are probably tired.â You mustâve picked up on his nerves, because you quieted down, thanking him with a blush dusting your cheeks, and followed behind him as he paced towards the shelter holding his precious hounds.Â
The door was painted red, and Eris had to pull it open using all his strength after standing on the tip of his toes to unlatch the door. If Beron had caught them, he knew he would be in serious trouble, but he couldnât find it in himself to care as you peaked through the fence, bouncing on your feet to get a glimpse. He grabbed at your wrist, ushering you inside with soft tugs, as twelve hounds bound to the pair of children. What Eris hadnât expected was for his hounds to surround the little girl, jumping onto her, knocking her over into the hay that lay beneath their feet, as she let out a tiny scream in fear. He panicked, yelling out commands to the hounds to back off, yelling her name, and almost called out for his father in the flurry of fear. The sounds of giggles filling the stable interrupted him, Y/N sat up as the hounds were eagerly shoving their noses into her face, licking at her, scenting her, rolling onto their backs for her to pat them. She squealed with joy, wrapping her arms around one particular hound who had made his way onto her lap, hugging him close, âEris, your hounds are puppies! They are so cute!â His jaw had dropped to the floor, the hounds frivolous display of affection was extremely uncommon and usually reserved for the little lordling alone. Indignation rose within him, but he cut himself off as three of his hounds left the girl to approach him, begging for their masterâs attention.Â
The children spent the rest of the night in the stable, the girl asking Eris so many questions about his pets, the hounds and horses included, opening up rather quickly from her previous shy nature. They sat on the ground next to each other as the hounds cuddled up on them, most falling asleep at the babbling between the five year olds. At some point, the conversation shifted away from his pets to any and all topics. They discussed their favorite foods, their favorite desserts, their favorite holidays, what they were learning in school, what Y/N wanted to be when she grew up. Hours upon hours of conversation, well into the night until the stars and moon were the only source of light other than the small faelight at the edge of the stable. âFather says we will probably see each other more,â Y/N excitedly whispered, trying to keep her voice down for the sleeping pups, scooting closer to the little lordling. âReally?â The heir couldnât believe it, âWhy?â The girl let out a huff, âWe are moving here⌠mother keeps saying its because father has been promoted to chief accounbant.â
Eris stared at her for a moment, âyou mean accountant?â She rolled her eyes, falling back onto the floor in helpless despair, âI donât know Er,â a nickname she had come up for the little lordling during their conversation. He opened his mouth, probably to reaffirm the girl probably meant accountant, but was stopped by the girl, âDo you want to be friends?â The lordling had once again been rendered speechless by the girl. He had never had any friends before, and he didnât really know what friendship had entailed. She lifted her head, eyes wide, boring into his as he tried to formulate his answer. âSure, let's be friends,â if he had learned one thing tonight, it was that he didnât mind the girl's presence. He actually found himself enjoying it. âBest friends forever, Eris, swear it.â she said determinedly, raising her crooked pinky to link with his. âOkay, best friends forever Y/N. I swear.â A tingling sensation arose around the inner part of their right ankles, a small tattoo of a dahlia formed, obscured from the eyes of their prying parents. He stared at her, a grin forming on either of their lips, his heart warming because he finally had a friend. And the lordling couldnât wait to be best friends with her, till the end of time. Â
2. When you helped him with his injuries from Beronâs wrath and comfort himÂ
âOh gods, Y/N, you are a fucking menace,â the amber eyed male groaned into her shoulder, burying his face further into the soft skin of her neck, as she stood between his legs, stitching up the cut on his collarbone that had been left by the knife of the high lord in a fit of rage. She pulled the male off her, trying to get him to sit up straight, so she had proper access to the superficial wound, âEris, get up,â she chuckled, âYou are fine.â
 It had been a century since Y/N had found out about the abuse the lordling was subjected to on a daily basis after he had shown up in the middle of the night when they were just teenagers, bursting through the hearth that kept her bedroom warm with flames that continued on into the night. The shock of the male popping out of her fireplace had nearly sent her into cardiac arrest, scrambling out of bed, ready to scream at him for scaring her half to death. She abruptly paused as he slumped into her arms, exhausted and beaten to a pulp. She dragged him onto her bed, and cuddled him close, crying into his chest as he murmured apologies, stroking her hair, and pressing kisses into the female's temple. Eventually, Y/N had shot out of his embrace and ran into the bathroom to gather supplies to clean and help mend some of his already healing wounds. From that night on, the lordling always managed to come after a beating from his father, sometimes so late into the night, it was practically minutes before sunrise. She would pull him into the bathroom wordlessly, and have him lean against the counter as she would sterilize his wounds, stitching them or applying salve, things she had learned after insisting to her mother she needed to receive weekly training from the local apothecary.Â
âMother above Y/N, your best friend is in pain,â the heir groaned, leaning his head back into the mirror, peaking at you through his eyelashes as you ignored him, focusing on the task ahead. His hands gripped at your hips, pulling you in even closer before sneaking up to your waist to hold you there. Long ago, you would have blushed being too shy around the heir, but you were desensitized to your best friend's antics at this point. âWhat happened anyway?â you asked as you tied off the stitch, before moving to place a cloth over the wound to protect it from developing infection. Eris sat up straighter this time, gazing into your eyes as he responded softly, âI am not sure. Something to do with the alliance between winter and summer, I think he wanted in, but they refused.â You snorted, and the male knew you were probably thinking none of Beronâs abuse to his children and wife could ever be justified, but the excuses he did come up with were so absurd, it was beyond him how he still had supporters throughout the court. Everyone was at least mildly aware of the plight of the heir, his younger brothers, and lady autumn, yet everyone who could do anything, like your father, refused to, in order to continue lining their pockets with wealth.Â
You continued to smooth down the bandage in silence as Eris watched you, you had certainly changed in the past century. Your hair had grown longer and fuller, your eyes more bright with love and hope despite the fear you experienced so close to the high lord, your body had morphed into a grown female. When you finished, you lifted your worried eyes to stare into his, and a soft smile lifted onto his face unintentionally, easily. âIâm fine, doll,â he pulled you in, rubbing at the point between your shoulder blades, letting your head rest on his shoulder as he buried his face deep in your hair, inhaling the smell of maple and sage shampoo you used, the scent bringing him a deep sense of comfort and ease as he held you close to him. The softness of your body and quiet beating of your heart against his was lulling him, and so he leaned away, half lidded gaze focused on yours as a tear slipped down your cheek. He thumbed it away, his heart speeding up at the thought of you caring this much for him, like no one else ever had. He worried that your hands on his chest would pick up on it, but neither of you made mention of it as you enjoyed each other's presence.Â
âAt least flash me your tits if youâre that worried, I think I'll be feeling a whole lot better if you do,â a smirk lilted his face as he watched a deep red flush develop on the apples of your cheeks. He loved flustering you like this, and the thought of you actually following through on his request had his cock twitching in his pants. âGods, are you ever not horny Er?â you shoved him back, laughing at the males audacity, the solemn mood completely shifting into one you were more comfortable in, âFuck off.â The smirk on Erisâ face deepend as he snorted, âI most certainly will if you show me your tits doll.â You sigh, shaking your head at the male as you wiggle away from his grasp around your waist. A flash crosses your beautiful irisâ, one that has Erisâ knees nearly buckling, as a smirk forms on your face. âFine,â Mother fucking above, he could pass out, âonly for like ten seconds though.âÂ
3. When he watches you interact with the people of autumn, especially the females and childrenÂ
One thing Eris always gave credit to his best friend for, was the fact that she loves helping people. He didnât know where you inherited the trait, knowing your mothers cruel indifference to others and your fathers greed, but whenever he brought you to the nearby villages for the day, the citizens' hearts were won over by her. The lordling couldnât do much for his mother, once a week, he would beg her to flee autumn, even going as far as saying he would seek protection from the night court on her behalf, or even send her to Day if she so wished to be with its high lord. But Roux refused every single time, too afraid for the lives of her children if she were to flee, his youngest brother, Lucien, already being forced out of the court when Beron killed his lover. The thought made his stomach churn and heart ache, and so he shoved it deep down, burying it into the darkest part of his unconscious, turning his attention back to you.Â
The heir had gone behind his fathers back, building female centers in every village for those who had been abused by males, accepting any and all who came looking for help. He ensured these projects were funded, funneling his own wealth into them to make sure these females and children had access to healthy food, clothes, products for their cycles, education and training for both the females and children, toys, etc. Anything and everything these females could need, he made sure was provided to them. He often took you to these centers whenever your mother would let you out of the house, more often than not, you would sneak out willing to face whatever punishment your mother would enforce later on.Â
He watched as you spoke to the females, allowing them to show you whatever it was they had chosen to study, and you listened so intently, focusing all your attention on them. A warm feeling spread throughout his body, knowing that you were just as passionate about these projects as you were. In fact, you had been the one to encourage the lordling to pursue these projects, and you helped him plan everything out, taking on a huge role in the process. His thoughts drifted to you helping in the future, one day when Beron was dead, and he was high lord. Mother above knows that he would need all the help that he could get, and mother above also knows that you would be there at his side every step of the way. Butterflies arose in his stomach so hard and fast, the male needed to steady himself as he watched you turn your attention to the babes who were grasping at your dress, vying for your love. A soft smile was stuck permanently on your face as you cooed at the babes, leaning down to pick them up and hold them against your chest, swaying back and forth in a lulling manner. He watched as you stroked at their hair, smoothing down any stray strands, and he couldnât help but let his mind wander to what you would be like with your own babes one day, his heart palpitating at the thought. The heir took the very thought, and shoved it into a box inside his heart, as the feeling of envy at whichever male was lucky enough to have her in that way creeped its way throughout his body. But as your gaze met his and your smile grew wider, Eris let himself hope that maybe the cauldron would bless him with that luck.Â
4. When you danced together in the forest moonlight after Amaranthaâs reign endsÂ
Fifty fucking years. Fifty horrific fucking years. Five decades without seeing you, without talking to you, without holding you. Every year, every month, every day, every hour, every minute, every second was beginning to blur together with the lordling as he lived under the mountain, trapped by Amaranthaâs reign. The longest Eris had gone without seeing you since the male had met you, was three weeks, for a vacation your family had forcibly taken you on in the winter court. After that, you had opted to stay at forest house while your parents went out on vacations, keeping close to the lordling as much as possible and avoiding Beron at any cost. You just couldnât stay away from each other, those three weeks had been torture.Â
Fifty fucking years was unbearable. Eris missed you so much, with every fiber of his being, with every cell in his body, with every molecule that made him whole. He ached for you, thinking about you constantly night and day, almost to the brink of insanity, his one reprieve being that you were not trapped under the mountain with him. And all of it ended with Feyre, the cursebreaker as they called her. He sent a silent prayer to the Gods, thanking them for the girl who bought the trapped faeâs freedom, before winnowing out of there immediately after she had been brought back to life, the only thing that was one his mind, that was consuming the male really, was getting back to you, even if that meant you being the first female he would visit, the second being his mother. Seeing you. That is all he wanted.Â
The male found himself standing outside your window at the edge of the forest, it was the middle of the night and there was no way he would knock on the front door alerting your parents of his arrival. He stood there, watching you silently, heart racing with joy as you sat by the windowsill, engrossed with whatever book you were reading. He stood there for what felt like hours, as hot tears began to collect in his eyes from the sheer relief that you were okay. But it had only been a couple minutes. And you glanced up, staring out the window, as if sensing you were being watched before you froze. Eyes locked onto his form. You stared. And stared. And stared. And stared. Book dropping from your grasp, as your now free hands rose to your face, clamping around your mouth as you probably cried out. Suddenly, you were standing in front of him, probably having winnowed yourself out of your bedroom. Shaky breaths misted in the air around you as your respiration rate increased, chest rising and falling so fast, the heir wanted to rest his hand on it to calm you. And thenâŚÂ
And then warmth. Gulped sobs into his shoulder and your hair. Tight arms around his neck, along with tight arms around your waist. Pressing against one another until each ridge of his muscle, and each curve of your body molded together. Somehow, the lordling gathered the strength to winnow you away, deep into the forest, where your mother or father wouldnât be able to see you out the window.Â
You continued sobbing into his shoulder, not even noticing the change in location until Eris had pulled you away from him, staring down into your eyes before peppering kisses all over your face. Kissing away your tears, kissing the corner of your eyes, kissing your temple and forehead, kissing your reddened nose, kissing the plump of your cheeks, kissing your chin, kissing the corner of your lips, even landing the softest, quickest peck onto your bottom lip. You clung to him, fisting his coat's shoulders, trying to keep the male impossibly close, as he wrapped him arms around your waist, finding it out of the question of being away from you for another moment.Â
He whispered sweet apologies for being away for so long, murmuring how he had to protect you and autumns people, rubbing your back while mouthing his thoughts into your shoulder. He couldnât bring himself to say the one thing he truly desired to tell you, Beron still being alive was reason enough. So⌠the male showed you. Tucking your head underneath his chin as he buried his face into your hair, swaying you deep in the forest with the moonlight as your source of light, and his hums serving as the music, pressing a kiss onto your head whenever he wished as he breathed in your maple and sage scent.Â
5. When he had a nightmare from the trauma of Under the Mountain, and you comforted him.Â
Eris woke up with a start, sweat nearly drenching him and he frantically flailed his arms across your bed in search of you after his palm found your side of the bed cold. The events of under the mountain had left the male traumatized more than he already was; the things that he had been made to watch made his bones chill to the very core despite the fire that ran within his veins. Ever since he came back, the lordling hadnât been able to sleep in his own bed, finding it too cold and unfamiliar to him. He walked through your hearth to find you asleep in your bed, blissfully unaware of his presence within your room, the site bringing him a wave of comfort through his chest. He approached your bed with apprehension, you had never done this before in your 700 or so years of friendship, slept together in the same bed that is. There was always that boundary that the heir hadnât been willing to cross, in case your scent rubbed off on him too strong and his father started to get ideas.Â
But his nightmare had him frightened, mind racing with images of your dead disemboweled body being torn apart by Attorâs at the command of Amarantha, as he screamed out for you in what he could only describe was the worst pain he had felt in his entire lifespan. The dream had been so vivid that first night, he had winnowed himself using the fire in his hearth to get to you and make sure you were okay. He watched you sleep that night for hours until you woke up, jumping back slightly at the presence of the male in your room. But the look in his ember eyes⌠the tears that had streaked down his cheeks⌠you didnât say a word, lifting your comforter and patting the space next to you. He siddled up next to you, until your arms had wrapped around his waist and your head tucked under his chin. There was no need for words that night, and every night since then, when the moon rose to its peak, the lordling found himself crawling into the space next to you and cuddling impossibly close, letting your scent and heartbeat lull him into a dreamless sleep.Â
So tonight, when he woke and didnât find you withins arms reach, he nearly panicked. He shot up from your bed, only to find you splayed out across the couch in front of the hearth, deeply engrossed in the book he had recommended to you a week prior. His shaken breaths snapped you out of your focus, attention shifting to the bed where the lordling was sat, staring at you, eyeing you up and down, looking for any injury or sources of bleeding, only to come up empty. His dream tonight⌠it hadnât been related to Amarantha. In fact, ever since he started sleeping with you, the dreams of under the mountain became few and rare in between.Â
Tonight⌠the male had dreamt his father beheading you before his eyes as a way of punishing him for the espionage he was committing with the night court. No one, except for you, had known of Erisâ plans to receive help from the high lord of night in killing Beron. The anxiety that ran through Eris had his entire body shaking with fear as he thought of the possibility of Beron finding out. âCome here Er,â you gestured him to come to you, opening your arms wide for him to fall into. He steadied himself against the bed, slowly sliding out and making his way to you, his best friend, his love, his everything.
He collapsed into you, resting his head between the valley of your breasts, only the sheer thin nightgown separating the feeling of his skin against yours. You carded your fingers through his auburn hair, mumbling âItâs okay,â and âIâm here,â and âIâm not going anywhere,â and âyou are safe.â He wished to hear the words, âI love you,â but he didnât mention it as your other hand came up to run up and down his back with a slight pressure. Eris doesnât remember falling asleep that night, and he most certainly doesnât remember the inaudible whisper, âI love you Er,â that spilled from your lips once his soft snores filled the room. The only thing he remembers is that when he woke up, he found you sleeping, the soft planes of your face relaxed into a bliss he hadnât seen before as your arms continued to hold him tightly against you even as you rested. He remembers that at that moment, he decided that he needed to kill Beron sooner rather than later. Because he only wants you to ever look blissfully peaceful and happy as you did now.Â
6. When he found you after killing Beron, and decided to do something about loving you.Â
A week later, with the help of the night court's high lord, general, and spymaster, Eris had snapped his fathers neck in half, sending a shockwave throughout autumn court, as each and everyone of its citizens felt the shift in power from the feared high lord, to the immeasurably kind heir. The lordling had sent you and his mother deep into the woods days prior, to stay at one of his cabins so that he would be able to complete the act without worry of harm towards you or her. Eris hadnât told you exactly what was going to happen, but somehow, you knew. And you pressed him close to you before he left to complete the act, leaning up and pecking a soft kiss into his lips, similar to the one you had shared the night he returned to you from under the mountain. When you pulled away, he nodded softly at you once, before winnowing back to forest house where he would meet the night court's inner circle. They had struck up a deal with Eris, finally coming to terms with the situation that happened with Morrigan, after he explained to her that he couldnât help her with his father sentires around, but had come back for her with me at his side to help heal her, only to find her already gone. Eris had even gone as far as bringing you to meet with the inner circle, shocking them all at his gentleness towards you, and opening their hearts to the pair of you.Â
So there you sat, with his mother, distracting her with mindless conversation as you poured her tea out. And then⌠And then you felt it. Felt the shift. You felt the power shift from Beron to Eris, and it had been so strong, the kettle had fallen to the floor, spilling hot water all over the carpet. Neither of you noticed however, as Roux started sobbing in relief, pleading that we take her to day court as soon as possible. You wrapped your arms around her, stroking her hair in comfort as you wept your own tears of relief and joy, telling her that the lord of day was most likely already informed by Eris and on his way. So you both sat, patiently waiting for your Eris to come back to you.Â
A heavy knock sounded at the door, and you motioned for Roux to stay seated as you reached to pull open the door, a dagger hidden in your other hand in case one of Beronâs loyal sentries had found you. Relief sagged through you as you lowered the knife at the sight of the tall high lord of day standing before you, peaking in anxiously around you to get a glimpse of his mate. You beamed, moving to the side, allowing him to stride past you as Roux stared at him before leaping from where she was sat and jumping into his arms. You smiled at the intimate moment, before tucking your dagger into the holster at your hip, and closing the door behind you to let the mates have private time to themselves.
 Your patience was wearing thin as you waited for the new high lord to make his way to the cabin, so you started the trek through the forest on your own. Eris had told you he had been planning on burning down Forest house with the body of his father inside, tearing apart all the terrible memories associated with the place, and so he was probably busy doing that. As you walked through the forest, you smelled the fresh leaves, listening to the stream nearby with complete peace spreading through you from the core out. The snap of a twig cracking startled you, and you swiveled so hard on your ankles, dagger already out of its sheath and aimed at whatever was creeping behind you.Â
 And there he stood. Staring at you. With a fresh pair of clothes, old ones probably soaked in his fathers blood. And you stared right back. Right back at Eris. The dagger fell from your grasp as you bound for each other. You slammed into him, knocking him to the floor, as you reached to protect the back of his head from the fall. You were clutching each other so hard, the lordling thought you would melt right into him. You shot up from his chest, peppering kisses all over his face, weeping as you cherished your best friend. He laughed, loud and free, pulling you even closer as he felt the warmth of the fire in his veins burning impossibly high. When his amber eyes met yours, another snap shook you both to your core. A golden rope, binding the two of you together as Erisâ own sobs began wracking through him, his hand wrapping around the back of your scalp and pulling you in for a hard kiss as he reveled in the sheer ecstasy of your mating bond falling into place. The words that had him aching, flowing past his lips, without any restraint or fear, âY/N, my best friend, my love, my mate⌠I love you forever and always, till the end of time.âÂ
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Hi I really like your work and I'd like to request nsfw of Homicidal Liu with a traumatized plus size fem reader, like where the reader loves to eat but when ever someone makes a comment about her weight she starts spiraling. I hope this isn't too much, I hope you have a great day or night, thank you sm
-Bunny Anon
Homicidal Liu x plus size fem.reader! NSWF (and a bit of SWF!)
⼠Hi and thank you!! Im always happy to write for Liu!! Also sending you lots of love and a great day/night!! Take care of yourself, you sweetie!
Hope you don't mind that I wrote some fluffy headcanons too! >:3
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For small and silly SFW things :
â If you wouldn't feel comfortable with eating out? Liu is your guy, eating at home is way more peacful and comfortable! I believe he would love cooking dates! You two together in kitchen, with aprons and nice music in background? Sounds amazing, doesn't it? There is something domestic in stuff like that, that he would really enjoy - Liu craves for sense of normalcy. Also! Picnic dates! Like come on, isnt that precious?
PS.I believe he would be sucker for sweet, homemade things likes cakes or cookies!
â Not afraid to get bloody if someone will be a meanie! I mean, he is literally a serial killer!! People can suck and he wants to protect you, so he is not afraid to stand up if you would hear not nice comments. And about spiraling - he will be always by your side to support you with loving touches and words! If you would like that, Liu would try to find you healthier ways to cope. And I promise he is patient, so he can seat and reassure you all day and night long.
Now for NSWF:
â Hear me out : mirror love making! If you are feeling really insecure, he would love to put you in front of mirror and show you love..small kissess all over your body, sweet words..making sex..? He finds you beautiful from every little angle and he would to show you his feelings towards you AND how pretty you are! When you are standing naked before mirror, he will list all things he loves about you..your round cheeks that lifts up when you smile! or your soft tummy that he could hug forever! or your hot thighs..please put them around his head!
He would also trace your stretch marks and give gentle smooches on your soft curves (he finds it absolutely hot, i mean he finds everything about you hot!)
â If you get too shy or too embarassed, not wanting to look him in the eyes..He would pull your hair or grab your chin, just to make you look him into his eyes when he fucks you silly on his cock! In the mean time, his hands would hold tightly your hips (or other parts of body, whatever is the closer)..good luck with bruises later!
â Would love to spank you, just the sight of your ass shaking with every spank.. Listen, you laying on bed/on his lap/or just on hands and knees with your ass up! He would love to use his hand just to touch your plushy skin or watch his hand leaving mark! And if not his hand? Then a belt, whip? Anything you are comfortable with! Liu would also like to touch your genitalia eg. rubbing your clit or fingering you while spanking! His touches are teasing but firm..
â Liu is a soft dom!! He would shower you in kissess and compliements!!! Just him, whispering soft things into your ear..âYou are doing so good sweetheart..â, âMhmm..so pretty for me..come on..give me this sweet sounds..â, âThats right..watch how deep I am baby..â..He would also love to praise you and worship you..! You are like a Goddess to him..he would kiss the ground you are walking on, man..he would spend hours just on his knees!
â He would eat you out like he has been starving for days..he loves the taste of you and he loves if you squeeze him with your adorable thighs! Would also leave a lot of bites and hickeys! But you can't blame him, you are such a good girl for him!
â If you would feel comfortable..then he would love to do some sexy homemade photo shoot..doesn't matter if only in some cute lingerine, that fits your curves perfectly or naked! He would make you look so amazing..or!! Liu could draw you (I believe he already do that without your knowledge - nothing lewd but you know)..please please be his model! You are the prettiest girl walking on earth..!
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Heaven In Time
Chapter 1 Chapter 2
Chapter 3: Bleeding Hearts, Angel Voices
Danny Wagner x Sam Kiszka
Summary: The last supper. Or is it?
Tags: Religious trauma, hella guilt tripping/mentions of religious upbringing, internalized homophobia, sliiiiiight slut shaming, sibling fighting, slight sauciness
Words: 10k
A/N: As promised, here's the playlist, as well as the last chapter of this little series. Thank you all so much for being so sweet about it and I'm so happy you liked it!! Tell me all your thoughts!!! OH also, I'm aware that only Catholic priests really wear clerical collars, but I decided to include it because Josh is dramatic and would think it looks cute. Okay enjoy
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âThis is it?â
âYup.â
âWow. Somewhere along the way you failed to mention that itâs absolutely gorgeous.â
âItâs practically sinking into the lake, Dan.â
Already crabby, Sam really wanted to be able to trash the house looming in front of them. But for all its ghosts and lonely corners, Sam couldnât write off the fact that his childhood home (and Jakeâs new permanent place of residence, apparently) was and had always been a sight to behold. It wasnât particularly flashy with its modest white paneling having been frayed by weather and stained with mildew, and it certainly wasnât modern by any means. However, with the silver maples conspiring around it and a lakeside view from the bottom of the hill it rested on, the house with all its flaws and farmhouse style charm was enough to make Dannyâs eyes widen.Â
âI didnât know my parents had moved,â Sam noted softly, heart racing as he observed his brothersâ cars in the driveway and wondered where his dadâs station wagon was parked now.Â
âIâm sure Jake will fill you in on everything,â Danny assured Sam as he parked next to Jakeâs crappy Volvo. He cut the engine and studied Samâs apprehensive expression out of the corner of his eye, selfishly hoping that Sam would call the whole thing off and they could drive off towards the loving embrace of Dannyâs own childhood home just beyond the state border. He knew his parents and sister would absolutely adore Sam, but he wasnât sure that Samâs brothers would welcome him as readily.
âOkay,â Sam blurted, smacking his hands against his thighs and letting out a fast exhale. âQuick overview before we go in.â
âRight,â Danny nodded. Honestly, he could use a refresher. It was always a struggle to get Sam to talk about his family like this.
âJosh is the oldest,â Sam started, beginning his list of points by marking them on his fingers. âTechnically. Heâs older than Jake by, like, I donât remember, a couple of minutes. Super friendly, loud as fuck, took up my dadâs pastoral duties after he got deep into the televangelist bullshit that Iâm sure heâs still doing now. He was a natural, of course, given that thereâs nothing he loves more than the sound of his own voice.â
âHarsh.â
âDude, trust me. Youâll get what I mean. Anyways, youâve met Jake. Sort of. Heâs veryâŚpassionate, which youâve seen. Kind of hot headed, very one track minded. He basically runs the whole ministry from the shadows, even when Dad was still pastor. Josh gives the go ahead, but Jakeâs the organizer. Heâs busy 24/7 and has been since they were, like, 12.â
âDoesnât sound very sustainable,â Danny commented. Sam let out a laugh and shook his head.
âIt is not,â Sam agreed bitterly. âBut he likes barking orders and playing puppet master, so I guess it works for him. And, I mean, school and youth group pretty much taught us that there was no other way for us to live other than doing church shit all day every day, so I canât say Iâm surprised he turned out this way.â
âPretty relentless, huh?â
âYup. Especially when your dadâs running aforementioned church and giving you shit for doing anything, I donât know, childlike? Or for just enjoying stuff?â
âDefinitely explains why Jake was such a dick about your cute âfit,â Danny said. âThose values trickle down if you let them, I guess. I still donât think you had to change, by the way.â
âI definitely did,â Sam muttered, looking down at the plain jeans heâd pulled from his suitcase and the thin flannel heâd buttoned over his chest after their backseat tryst. âJosh wouldâve lost his shit. No way heâd go full âOoh, look at me, Iâm a man of God and that means I get to preach with corporal punishmentâ route, but heâd sure as hell think about it if I showed up in those shorts.â
âBaby,â Danny lamented, heart sinking as he watched Sam fiddle with a button while wearing a sullen expression. âWe donât have to do this.â
âI want to,â Sam insisted, reaching for Dannyâs hand and giving it a reassuring squeeze. âFor, you know, closure.â
âOkay,â Danny relented, still hesitant but trusting in Sam to know when enough is enough.
âOkay,â Sam echoed. âOkay. Okay, letâs do this.â
Sam pulled Danny in for a quick kiss of courage, bounced once in his seat, let out a nervous sound and then threw open the door and climbed out. Danny chuckled and got out, locking up the truck and watching with adoration as Sam shuffled towards the peeling front steps.Â
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âOne second!â
The voice came booming through the rattling front door after Sam had given it a timid knock to the beat of three. Almost instantly, Samâs nerves flared with electrifying panic and he spun to face Danny.
âActually,â Sam declared in a rushed, reedy tone. âFuck this, letâs go.â
âWhat?â
Before Sam could drag Danny down the stairs and bail harder than anyone has ever bailed before, the door swung open with a melodramatic bang and then there was Josh. Danny could immediately see the startling resemblance between him and Jake, but there was something particularly unique about Josh that immediately set him apart. Danny assessed his tidy curls and the clerical collar nestled snugly at the base of his neck and knew it must be these physical differences, but he stood there puzzling nonetheless. Joshâs face was lit up with a plasticine cheer that seemed to be his resting expression, but at the sight of his deserter younger brother turning to him like a deer in the headlights, his face morphed into uncharacteristic shock. Once again, Danny stood in awkward silence as the useless mediator. This time around he had the good sense to step to the side before the situation devolved.
âOh,â Josh said simply, his graceful hands rising to cup at the sides of Samâs face with practiced theatrics. âOh, praise be to God. Sammy. Youâre okay.â
âIâm okay,â Sam repeated, already faltering under Joshâs fiery gaze. âHi.â
âI canât believe it,â Josh breathed, tears glittering in his eyes as he shook his head with wonder. âI just canât even believe itâs really you. It is, right? Or are you some agent of the Lord sent to test my faith in His protection of you?â
âPretty sure Heâs not worried about your faith, Josh,â Sam muttered, grasping Joshâs wrists and lowering them. âIâve been protected just fine. Itâs me, I swear.â
âThank God,â Josh blubbered, throwing his arms around Sam and pulling him into a crushing hug. Despite it all, Sam accepted it gratefully, crossing his arms behind Joshâs back and holding him just as hard. This was the reunion heâd been dreading the most, but his shame was temporarily assuaged in the comfort of his brotherâs embrace.
Danny kept his silence as they hugged, but eventually Josh caught his eye and appeared to register that there was someone on the porch other than Sam for the first time.
âIâm sorry, Iâm being rude,â Josh began after he let Sam go, wiping a tear with the heel of his palm and presenting his other hand to Danny. âI didnât catch your name.â
âDanny,â Danny introduced himself, giving Josh a firm handshake and smiling nervously. Even though so few words had been exchanged, Danny had to admit that it was enough to feel that Joshâs presence could quickly become overwhelming.
âDaniel,â Josh grinned, pleased. âI assure you our home tonight will be no den of lions.â
âOf course,â Danny smiled, completely disbelieving of Joshâs sentiment. âPretty sure that was revealed to me in one of my many visions. âŚThat is what Daniel did in the Bible, right?â
Joshâs laugh erupted out of his chest and he clapped Danny on the arm with an approving grip. Sam shared a look of surprised amusement with Danny, whose shoulders flickered with a shrug as Josh came down from his laughing fit.
âGood man,â Josh wheezed. âAh, thatâs funny. Am I right in assuming youâre Sammyâs companion in the travels Iâm sure heâs had? The travels I simply cannot wait to hear about?â
âCorrect.â
âIâm happy to hear it,â Josh beamed, flashing his wide smile back on Sam. âI knew this would happen, you know. That Heâd send you a guardian angel to watch over you. I prayed for it.â
âIâm truly blessed,â Sam agreed, giving Danny a private, bashful smile while Josh became temporarily distracted by propping open the door.
âThat you are,â Josh professed, gesturing into the house as he crossed the threshold again. âAll of us are, really. Now I donât want to keep you waiting on this drafty old porch, please, come in, come in.â
Josh went in first, flying ahead of Danny and Sam as the door closed behind them and the house swallowed them whole.Â
âHere we go,â Sam whispered, nearly inaudible. Josh guided them, humming and singing under his breath as he reached to graze his fingers against the walls of the hallway lined with crosses of all sizes and finish.
âItâs going good so far,â Danny whispered back. âHe likes me.â
âWait âtil he finds out what kind of guardian angel you are,â Sam murmured. Danny flushed and snaked his arm behind Sam and gave him a pinch on his side, only inches away from the situationally appropriate angel wings messily inked on Samâs lower back.Â
Sam bit back a muffled squeak and smacked Danny in the arm. He was ready to send another flirty whisper his way, but when they emerged in the kitchen, Sam froze up once again at the sight of Jake stationed at the stove. Jakeâs hair had been relieved of its outdated ponytail and skirted over his shoulders in messy waves, swaying with motion as he tended to a pan.
âWhen you said surprise guests, I was certainly not expecting a surprise like this!â Josh cried, shaking Jake by the shoulder. âYou drive me nuts.â
âYou drive me nuts, it seemed only fair,â Jake smiled. âIâm surprised you saw me come home acting the way I was and didnât immediately know Sam had something to do with it.â
Sam let out an offended little exhale from his nose and Jake finally regarded him and Danny, renewed tension stretching between them all as he gave them a curt, impersonal nod.
âYou really came,â Jake noted plainly, gaze lingering on Sam before turning back to the stovetop, pushing sizzling green tomatoes around the skillet.
âYou invited us,â Sam reminded him, cautiously approaching and watching him work. âEnthusiastically, actually. Is this Grandmaâs recipe?â
âYup,â Jake answered flatly, still refusing eye contact as the oil snapped and leaped when he flipped the tomatoes.
âIt smells divine,â Danny piped up. Jake gave him a side eye that Danny honored with a nervous, polite smile, but Jake ultimately shut him down with empty air.Â
âItâs all divine in this house,â Josh followed up dreamily.Â
âWell, hopefully it doesnât taste like âdisappointmentâ,â Jake muttered pettily, bringing up Samâs words from the gas station. Sam sighed and took a step back from Jake, who filled his space by moving from the pan to open the oven, poking noisily at a covered tray.Â
âCome on, Jake,â Sam groaned. âWe come in peace. I donât want to fight with you anymore.â
âAnd I donât want this catfish to char,â Jake countered. âScoot.â
âIâve scooted, thanks,â Sam frowned, taking another step back. âWhy are you acting like weâre showing up uninvited? You literally asked us to come.â
âHey, what has gotten into you two?â Josh interjected, finally absorbing his twinâs clipped tone. âWe should be celebrating. And we have company, so if you could save us all the trouble of picking apart your rude semantics, that would be lovely. I mean, honestly.â
Jake let out a huff and continued working to pull dinner together, plunging the kitchen into icy silence as Sam sneered at the floor to prevent any tears from creeping up on him. Danny wanted nothing more than to hoist him up and carry him out of the house, but he watched helplessly as Josh came over to Sam and gently pulled him out of the room. Â
âYou two can hash it out later, okay?â Josh whispered, and Sam nodded as they crossed the threshold into the wood paneled dining room. The dining table was set with four crisp placemats, all of them centered in the middle of the table under the flowering hands of the chandelier. It was odd for Sam to see, considering heâd never known the table to be set without a placemat at the head of the table for his father.Â
âSorry,â Sam apologized, falling into old habits. âWe ran into Jake at a gas station and it endedâŚweird. You know he can be kind of-â
âSnippy?â Josh finished for him, pulling out a bundle of cutlery from a drawer. âRighteous? Yes, he can be. Lord knows I know. Heâs working on it. Been working on a lot since you left, actually. Some days I swear he out prays me.â
âWhen did Mom and Dad move?â Sam asked, changing the conversation while robotically accepting and laying down silverware as Josh handed it to him.
âTwo months ago,â Josh replied nonchalantly. âTurns out Dadâs broadcast made its way to Nebraska and amassed a following there, so they picked up to be closer to his flock.â
âNebraska?â Sam exclaimed, nearly dropping the bundle of forks in his hand. He swallowed the revelation with a shiver of relief and an equally strong wave of grief, no doubt felt by the lonely little boy he carried inside him. Sam realized with blank shock that there was a very good chance he would never see his parents again.
âSo, what, they just up and left?â
âYeahâŚâ
âFor Nebraska?â
 Danny walked in then, unable to withstand Jakeâs angry clanging for another minute.
âWhatâs in Nebraska?â Danny asked innocently.Â
âOur parents,â Josh explained with a weak smile. âI trust Samâs told you about our Dadâs post preaching venture?â
âA little,â Danny lied. Heâd heard plenty about what the Kiszka patriarch had been up to since retiring and passing on the torch of preacher to his oldest son: good olâ American televangelism, complete with the incensed ramblings and an addiction to being on screen. From what he heard from Sam, this came at the cost of quality time with his family. Sam had assured him the blow was softened significantly considering theyâd all been fruitlessly clamoring for his affection for their entire lives and were long accustomed to the scraps theyâd been dealt. Â
âI guess I shouldnât be so surprised,â Sam laughed flatly, shooting Josh a knowing look. âLord knows Dad has the means to afford it.â
âOh, here we go. I donât want to hear your conspiracy theories, Sammy,â Josh replied sternly. âI have faith that every drop of his viewerâs donations go right to the Convention.â
âRight,â Sam muttered. âJust like the college fund did.â
Josh stiffened, bright eyes suddenly cast in shadow as he set a glass down on the table. Dannyâs eyebrows silently rose in curiosity. Heâd never heard mention of college.
âAlways the firecracker, Sammy,â Josh said with a brusque laugh, recovering with shocking speed and slipping his cheerful mask back on with ease. Sam rolled his eyes and carried on doling out glasses and napkins, but Danny found Joshâs abrupt mirth disturbing and studied him from where he leaned in the doorway. Danny had felt quite certain in his assessment of Jake when theyâd met, but with Josh, he couldnât quite pin what it was about him that kept Dannyâs attention.
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Dinner had gone off without a hitch, much to the surprise of everyone at the table. There was a bit of a rough start when a chilly direction from Jake had Danny positioned at the seat farthest from Sam, one that also conveniently faced the portrait of Jesus on the wall. But after theyâd all sat down, Josh had led them in a tearful round of grace praising Samâs safe return and then insisted on hearing every single detail of their cross country journey. Knowing that âevery single detailâ would send both his siblings into cardiac arrest, Sam had regaled them with only the most entertaining stories. Danny felt his heart swelling in his chest watching Sam settle into his natural element, rolling his wrists in the air and grinning like a madman as he detailed engine mishaps and eccentric motel squatters. The biggest surprise of all was Jake slowly warming up as the conversation rolled along, never contributing more than a few words at a time but eventually offering up the smallest of smiles and persistent eye contact as his little brother rambled away.
âI just canât believe it,â Josh noted brightly at the tail end of one of Samâs stories. âYouâre so bold now, Sams. I remember when you were such a little scaredy cat too scared to get the communion wafers from the back room by yourself. Now youâre out there roughing the wilderness and pushing cows off the road.â
âTrying to push cows off the road,â Daniel corrected with a smile, remembering how hard heâd laughed watching Sam push with all his might against a cow where its herd had blocked the road somewhere in Texas. âEmphasis on trying.â
âI pushed that big one with the brown spot!â Sam argued. âYou saw! He went running!â
âHe felt bad for you, Sammy.â
Jake let out a snort that set them all off into their own fits of laughter, save for Sam who open mouth scoffed and mouthed threats to Danny across the table. Despite his faint indignation at Danny poking fun at him, Sam felt a great rush at the light hearted mood that had settled over the room. For a split second, he thought of a world where they could eat dinner like this on a regular basis, but he held himself back from indulging in that hope and laid it to rest in a far corner of his mind as quickly as it had risen.
Sam found it to be a wise choice when the laughter died down and Josh, completely unknowingly, killed the mood.
âIs it a hassle to find churches near motels?â Josh asked with sincere interest. âOr is it nice to settle for one day a week when youâre always driving around all willy-nilly?â
Jake let out another snort and Sam and Danny made awkward eye contact across the table.
âThey donât go to church, Josh,â Jake answered for his brother. Josh blinked and Sam bowed his head, suddenly very interested in tearing at the seedy heart of the tomato at the end of his fork.
âI suppose we can be few and far between,â Josh nodded. âI donât think itâd hurt to peek in on a general Christian service, though. Itâd do the job if the Baptist radio stations donât reach wherever you end up.â
âThey donât want to go to church, Josh,â Jake continued. Sam kicked him under the table and Jake shot him a snotty look, raising his eyebrows haughtily as Josh turned to Sam.
âIs that true?â Josh asked, sounding a little hurt.Â
âDid nobody here read the note I left?â Sam mumbled childishly, keeping his eyes down as Josh sputtered and looked between him and Danny. Danny couldnât muster anything more than an embarrassed cough, also looking down but keeping his eyes firmly glued to Sam.
âI did, about a thousand times,â Josh insisted, shifting his entire chair to face Sam. âBut I figured youâd, you knowâŚwell, maybe I donât know.â
âI bet thereâs a lot we donât know,â Jake added, kicking back when Sam kicked him again.Â
âWhat are you, 12? Stop it,â Josh snapped, adding his own kicking leg to the fray. âAnd what is that supposed to mean?â
âYou shouldâve seen what he was wearing when I saw him,â Jake said conspiratorially.
âJake, shut up!â Sam hissed. âYouâre so fucking prissy.â
âWoah, language!â Josh scolded, throwing his hands up. âEverybody take a brea-â
âHe was practically naked. From where I was, I actually thought he was a girl.â
âOkay, Jake, give it a rest,â Danny snapped, anger finally giving him the courage to speak up.
âIâll âgive it a restâ when you stop necking my brother in broad daylight, how about that, Florida?â Jake snarled, tossing his fork on the table with a furious clatter and crossing his arms. Dannyâs mouth clamped shut at the same time Joshâs fell open. Sam let out a strained howl, staring daggers through his brotherâs skull as Jake sent them right back.
âGod, Jake, youâre so, so,â Sam stammered, insults piling in his mouth. âYouâre so fucking jealous!â
Jake didnât reply, but his eyes fluttered from the sting of Samâs words. Sam had hit a nerve with sharp precision and they both knew it.
âWhat on Godâs green earth is Jake talking about?â Josh asked, eyes glued to Danny where he wilted in his chair. Danny drew in a breath like he was about to answer, but they all found that the silence he gave instead was just as clear as if heâd spoken.Â
âSam?â Josh asked, a little desperate. For some reason, he didnât sound as deeply disappointed as Sam had imagined, and certainly not as mad as heâd feared.Â
âI hate you,â Sam whispered across the table to Jake, ignoring his other brother searching his face for something heâd missed entirely. âI said I didnât want to fight.â
âAre we fighting, or am I just saying things that are objectively true?â Jake countered with eerie calm. âYou donât go to church. You dress like a girl. Youâre screwing a total stranger. Anything else youâd like to add? Is he paying you, perhaps?â
Samâs chair scraped loudly as he got to his feet and sent it banging against the wall. He crumpled up his napkin and threw it in Jakeâs face before storming out of the dining room, leaving behind another frustrated cry that was cut off by the metallic clang of the front door. Josh turned to Jake with his own expression of genuine anger.Â
âDo you want him to leave again?â Josh growled, glaring him down before casting his eyes on Danny. âDaniel, I am so sorry. Please, forgive us.â
Jakeâs face grew cloudy and sullen at Joshâs fury, clueing Danny into whose opinion he must value most in this world. He sank further in his chair when Josh breezed past him and followed Samâs warpath out of the home, leaving Jake and Danny to sit side by side in their private rages after the door had slammed for a second time.
-
They sat there for a very long time. Danny wanted to run to Sam (he was always running to Sam, and he thought maybe he always had been) but knew that Sam needed Josh more than him. As much as he was not enjoying this trend of being left alone with Jake, he sat with the storm cloud beside him and did his best to steal glances and collect information without Jakeâs knowledge. When theyâd first encountered him, Jake had seemed so eager to fly Sam back home to the nest. Heâd seemed almost understanding, or as understanding as someone like him could be, but itâd spun out within seconds. Danny was trying to figure out the exact moment that had turned him into a cold shouldered teenager so desperate to cut Sam down.Â
 When slyly sliding his eyes to try and gauge Jakeâs expression, Danny startled slightly to find that Jakeâs focus had shifted from the wall to him. When he followed the low trajectory of his tired gaze, Danny saw that Jake was staring atâŚDannyâs scuffed cowboy boots. From the looks of it, he was tracing the stitchings in the brown leather. Lost in a daydream, maybe? Danny considered with a note of private amusement that Jake might be looking at his boots and tucking himself into a fantasy of cowboys and fast horses. Maybe that was something he and Danny both did; escaping into an idealized reality when the one at hand was too much.Â
Then, with a jolt, it clicked. The way Jake had grown cruel when Sam had defended his new look and new life, no doubt shattering Jakeâs pre established perception of his baby brother. Inviting him to dinner and cooking what Danny knew were some of Samâs favorite foods, only to spoil it all with appetite stealing jabs. How he had shrank under Joshâs disappointment. How he sat now, staring at Dannyâs boots like he wished they were his.Â
Like he wished he could run.
âIâm sorry, Jake,â Danny blurted. Jake jerked at the sudden sound and regarded Danny with wide, confused eyes. He blinked once before his face crumpled, perplexed.
âFor what?â Jake asked, all bite gone from his voice. He sounded almost friendly. He sounded a little like Sam, actually. Danny used that familiarity to gather his confidence.
âIâm sorry Sam didnât invite you to go with him. That mustâve really hurt.â
Jakeâs expression held its dumbfounded composure but Danny could see the emotion shift from confusion to something akin to being completely crushed. He barely blinked and Danny watched his eyes fill with tears.
âDonât be ridiculous,â Jake hissed, his voice wobbling slightly as his lip curled in feigned disgust. âYou two are going to die out there, one way or another.â
âYou must be a masochist, then,â Danny accused, continuing to find his nerve. âBecause Iâm willing to bet that Sam wasnât too far off when he said you were jealous. Iâm really not trying to be rude, Iâm just trying to understand.â
âUnderstand what? Why I hate your guts?â
âYou donât hate my guts, Jake. And I sure as shit donât hate yours.â
âCouldâve fooled me. You didnât even give me a chance.â
Ah. There was another puzzle piece clicking in place for Danny.
âThatâs another thing Iâm sorry about,â Danny said honestly. âI shouldnât have shut you down like that. Itâs just - and this isnât an excuse, itâs just an explanation- itâs just that Iâve spent the past year trying to get Sam as far away from what he was running from. And, well, youâre a part of all that in one way or another. But I shouldâve understood your circumstances the same way I do Sam.â
Jake was quiet for another beat, swallowing and sniffling before letting out a sigh.
âI guess I shouldnât have shut you down like that either,â Jake admitted. âAnd I guess I should thank you for keeping him safe and, well, alive. Itâs just so weird to see Sam like this. Heâs soâŚâ
Jakeâs lip trembled in a particularly Sam fashion and his eyes drifted off into space as tears began to roll down his ruddy cheeks.
âHeâs so happy,â Jake breathed, in awe. âHe was right, he was never happy here. I pushed him too hard. Josh was too wrapped up in his own crises. Our parents never gave him a second glance. And now heâs so free. He got out. You two have done so much and gone so far that it just makes everything at home feel even smaller. I guess I didnât realize until I saw him again that there was something to âget outâ of.â
âItâs okay,â Danny whispered, reaching out and putting a hand on Jakeâs arm. âHey, breathe, itâs okay.â
âItâs not,â Jake wailed, fully swept up in his hysteria now. âItâs not okay. This is supposed to be a place people flock to, not run from. And, shit, if it was so bad that he had to run, youâd think heâd have the decency to at least tell me and Josh. Youâd think heâd ask if...â
Danny thought heâd be more distressed watching Jake completely spin out, but he was actually pretty calm. He supposed this was par for the course in a place like this. Another holy man laid to waste by a betrayal. Another brother struck down by his brother, laying still while the other wandered. In some twisted way, there was something divine here, but not in the way that any of them wanted. Danny suddenly felt even closer to Sam, and he shivered a little with the understanding and satisfaction of it despite the gaunt atmosphere over the entire estate. He kept a steady hand on Jakeâs arm when he crossed his arms on the table and buried his face shamefully, the lean crest of his back shivering with an unruly sob.Â
âYou should go, Jake,â Danny whispered. âI mean, you should leave, too. You canât be happy here.â
âThatâs not an option for me,â Jake laughed, his face still hidden by his periwinkle sleeves. âThereâs too much here for me to leave behind.â
âJosh?â
âJosh,â Jake repeated, voice wobbling. âAlways gonna be Josh. As much as Iâd love to have a week to myself without having to set up a million church activities or food drives or buying a trunkful of candles, I know he canât handle the responsibility all on his own. Itâs just easier if I do it so he can focus on writing sermons and doing confessions.â
âWhat happened to having faith in each other?â
âHe doesnât want to handle the responsibility on his own,â Jake corrected. âThatâs another thing. In all honesty, I always thought if any of us were going to make it out of here, itâd be him.â
âReally?â Danny asked. From what heâd heard, Josh was more than happy with a microphone in his hand and adoring congregants standing at the ready to harmonize with his gospels.Â
Jake calmed slightly, resurfacing from his arms to rest his chin and catch his breath. His round face was still flushed with emotion and Danny resisted a very genuine urge to brush his hair back from where it lay lingering on his cheeks, kept there by stray tears.Â
âJoshâŚâ Jake trailed off, his gaze finding comfort counting the slats in the blinds. âJosh struggles. I mean, we all do, but heâŚI donât know. He doesnât tell me much. I just know something keeps him convinced that heâs not worthy of being the pastor. Which is ridiculous, in my opinion.â
âReally,â Danny repeated, slightly more somber as he thought back to his first impressions of Josh and the immediate recognition whose source alluded him. It came to him in a wave, then, along with the fond ache of understanding.
âNo one is more deserving,â Jake continued. âThereâs no one as kind or as devoted as him. I think itâs just the church, well, the Convention, really, that has certain ideas that make him feelâŚunworthy, maybe. Thereâs an expectation he thinks he doesnât live up to.â
âHeâs..?â Danny trailed off, testing the waters cautiously in case the conclusion heâd jumped to was entirely wrong.Â
âHeâs my brother,â Jake said firmly, finally looking Danny head on. âAnd my best friend. Thatâs all that matters to me.â
Danny sat back in his chair, a long held breath (of relief?) escaping his chest as his understanding of Jake finally crystallized. He wasnât really a sharp tongued, verse slinging Bible thumper with a million little hills to die on. Jake was a man who was first and foremost devoted to his family, and he was willing to forego all of his wants for their needs. He was a brother, and he feared for how the world would treat his brothers, both inside and outside his little world. And at the end of it, heâd withstand feeling forgotten if it meant they felt seen. He had never been angry, not really. Just hurt.
âYouâre a good brother, Jake,â Danny insisted, flashing Jake a smile. âYou and Sam should have a chat before the night is through. And I still believe you should think about leaving. Both you and Josh, actually. Thereâs a lot of world youâd really like to see. Obviously itâs not my place to tell you what to do, but I do think itâd help.â
âYouâre probably right,â Jake agreed. âAnd thank you. Sorry for, you know, everything.â
âItâs no problem,â Danny said genuinely. âIâm happy to help.â
âYou are, arenât you?â Jake laughed. âIâm surprised youâve stuck around this long, honestly. Especially since youâre not religious. But I guess if youâve put up with Sam for a year and not jumped overboard, you must be accustomed to some nonsense.â
âI donât âput upâ with him,â Danny asserted. âItâs a privilege to get to spend so much time with him.â
Jake watched him with an arched, amused eyebrow, finally straightening in his chair to smooth his hair back and settle with his arms crossed.Â
âSo, what, Iâm gonna wind up being your brother, too?â
âI meanâŚin a way,â Danny laughed, heart racing. âIf you donât mind.â
âI donât mind,â Jake answered, shaking his head slightly. âI figured. I mean, after he hit 21 and had no dating prospects or interest in dating at all, I assumed he was gonna forgo it completely. I just guessed he was more interested in his commitment to the church, like Josh.â
âSeems they both had their reasons to stay away from girls,â Danny noted.
âI suppose they did,â Jake said with a light laugh. âAnd still do. But, wow, Sam really does light up around you. Iâve never seen that with him.â
Danny smiled, blushing with warmth again as he tried to recall Samâs expression when he was around. Heâd always been smiley and wide eyed when looking at Danny, complete with pupils blown wide and overtaking the honey brown of his iris while he mapped Dannyâs face. Wasnât that how heâd been before they met? Apparently not.Â
âYouâve got good intentions?â Jake interrogated, nudging Dannyâs knee with his own. âYou treat him right?â
âI do, I do,â Danny insisted, crossing his own arms and grinning. âI sure try. Heâs easy to love.â
âYou love him?â
âIâŚyeah, I do,â Danny affirmed, certain of his answer. âI didnât even mean to say it like that, but, yeah. Is that alright?â
âYeah, itâs alright,â Jake smiled, yet slightly subdued. âJustâŚbe careful, okay? At least as long as youâre in Alabama. Especially in Shady Grove.â
âI know,â Danny said softly, a little more morose. âSam warned me about that. Another reason he left.â
âAnother reason we should go,â Jake replied reluctantly. âRight?â
âRight. Believe me, nowhere is going to be perfect, but I think youâll like the version of Josh youâll meet when he can be himself. Iâve loved watching Sam come out of his shell.â
âI wish I couldâve been there for that,â Jake whispered, choking up again. âHeâs probably out there right now telling Josh how much he hates me.â
âDonât say that.â
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âI fucking hate him.â
âSam.â
Sam had bolted the second he was out the front door, but Josh had known where to find him. Ever since Sam had been young enough to start throwing the tantrums that had made him so intolerable to their parents, he always fled to the dock at the bottom of the hill. Ever the mediator, Josh had spent his fair share of time on the rotting wood planks listening to Sam vent his frustrations as they plunged sticks and rocks into the murky water, eventually advising him with echoes of affirmations heâd heard from the mouths of older congregants. But they were adults now, and as Josh sat on the dock with Sam curled into his side, he realized with a faint panic that there were no more words to borrow but his own.Â
âI do,â Sam insisted, his head resting on Joshâs shoulder as he glared out over the blurred surface of the small lake. âI really do. Iâm done with him.â
âNo, youâre not,â Josh sighed, throwing an arm around Samâs shoulder and rubbing his arm.Â
âWhatever,â Sam grumbled. âI want to be.â
âYou donât have any kind of hate in your soul, Sam,â Josh told him. âGod takes it from you and leaves you even more kind and enduring.â
âJosh, stop,â Sam whispered, sending an embarrassed thorn right into Joshâs side.Â
âStop what?â
âThe God stuff. Please. Just, not now, at least.â
âThe âGod stuffâ used to make you feel better.â
âNo, it didnât. I just didnât say anything.â
They sat without speaking for a minute. Without their voices, the rushing rain sounds of the mayflies and the hush of the surrounding trees filled the void between them.Â
âYou couldâve said something,â Josh murmured. âEspecially if it wouldâve stopped you leaving.â
âIt wouldnât have,â Sam answered. âIâve thought about it a lot. I think I wouldâve left no matter what happened.â
âOh,â Josh said, sounding small. âDid you know that before you left?â
âTo some degree.â
â...I wouldâve liked to know that, too, Sammy.â
Sam swallowed a guilty lump in his throat and sulked further against his brother.Â
âSorry,â Sam whispered. âIt was selfish. Itâs justâŚI was scared if I told you, youâd tell Jake, and then heâd tell Dad, and then youâd all hatch some master plan to keep me here.â
âI suppose thatâs not an unfounded fear,â Josh admitted. âRemember when Jake had his little Sunday school girlfriend? I didnât see him for, like, three days after Dad got wind of it.â
âExactly. And then you wouldâve written up some elaborate, guilt trippy sermon and sat me down in the kitchen and made me talk about my feelings for 2 hours minimum.â
Josh laughed a little, drawing a knee to his chest against a cool breeze that rolled off the lake.
âIâm pretty predictable, huh? Goodness.â
âAnd that wouldnât have worked because if I talked about my feelingsâŚâ
âWhat?â
â...â
âWhat, you wouldnât want to hear my feelings about the whole thing?â
âWell, yeah, but itâs too late for that now. And thatâs not-â
âI havenât even told you how I felt,â Josh pointed out.Â
âI know how you felt,â Sam murmured, tears searing his waterline again. âMaybe itâs you and Jake with your creepy twin telepathy, but I felt you both the whole time, even all the way out in California. Itâs horrible. Some days I couldnât even enjoy myself because I could feel the disappointment two thousand miles away.â
Josh felt tears of his own threatening to spill over hearing that. It had never occurred to him that a lifetime of observing at the sidelines wouldâve made Sam so accurately attuned to his familyâs emotional patterns.
âSammy,â Josh exhaled. âIt pains me to listen to this. You donât have to feel so guilty about everything.â
âNeither do you.â
Josh bristled slightly, lifting his cheek from Samâs hair and looking down at him.
âWhat do you mean?â Josh asked gently.Â
âI know you didnât want to be pastor.âÂ
âWell, I love it now.â
Sam pulled away from Josh and crossed his legs under him, staring out over the water before staring Josh in the eye with a look so sincere and cutting that it made Josh lean back slightly.
âItâs okay if you donât, you know,â Sam said evenly. âItâs okay if youâre upset.â
âWhat do I have to be upset about?â Josh teased, pushing Samâs bony shoulder. âI live in this beautiful little town and get to spend my days with its beautiful little people talking about what I love. Plus I just got my baby brother back. Iâd be a fool to complain.â
âOh, for fuckâs sake, Josh, cut it out,â Sam snapped, grief fizzling into frustration. âYou sound like Dad at his worst. Why canât you just drop the act for 2 seconds and admit you hate it here?â
Joshâs eyebrows flew up and he let out a reflexive laugh, anxiety coloring his tone as it fluttered cautiously out of him. Sam looked at him pleadingly, grabbing his brother's hand and gripping it tight.
âI know you didnât want to be pastor,â Sam repeated firmly. âI know you wanted to go to college. And IâŚI know youâre gay.â
Josh immediately froze, falling silent as Sam stared into his eyes and what felt like his soul.Â
âAnd thatâs great,â Sam continued on, a tear escaping his eye and rolling down his cheek. âIt can feel amazing if youâd just let yourself feel anything. Trust me, I know. Youâre not trapped here, dude. You can still go to school and be yourself and be happy. You just have to put yourself first for the first time in your fucking life.âÂ
Josh, struck dumb, couldnât do anything but breathe as his heart burned in his chest and pushed up hot tears that blurred his vision of his brother. His brother, who was undressing his façade with effortless impatience that made Josh begin to wonder just how transparent he truly was. Or was it only Sam, who was part of him in so many ways, that could see how blind Josh was? When he spoke in dizzying circles of hell and damnation, were his congregants shaking their heads in pity with the knowledge that all Josh was really doing was scaring himself back into submission?
âIf youâre really okay with how your life is turning out, tell me now and we can never talk about it again,â Sam promised. âI swear to God. I will leave it alone.â
Josh hesitated further, pulling his hand from Samâs and letting out a slow breath. Looking down at the cloudy water swaying underneath them, he wondered how big of an inhale of it would take for him to sink right to the bottom.Â
âYouâre right,â Josh confessed, his voice as soft and as uncertain as Sam had ever heard him. âI didnât want any of this. Itâs too much pressure. And the more I read the Bible and listen to the sermons from out in Texas and GeorgiaâŚthe more I lose faith in what Iâm supposed to be telling people.â
âYeah,â Sam whispered, finding respite in Joshâs honesty. âI never really believed we were all born sinners.â
âI still kind of do,â Josh admitted. âBut now Iâm thinking thereâs no amount of trying thatâll change that. I do all of this praying and writing and confession but Iâm stillâŚâ
âItâs not sin, Josh. How you feel, how we both feel. Thereâs nothing to be saved from when it comes to that,â Sam insisted with quiet urging. âSeriously.â
âMaybe,â Josh whispered, picking at the skin around his nails as a dark coil of shame slithered in his stomach. âIt just isnât natur-â
âItâs like this,â Sam started, trying to put something into terms that would get through to him. âGod is everyone and everything. Maybe thatâs something I still agree with. And when you stop dedicating yourself to trying to get him to pay attention to you, you start to see Him or whatever âHeâ really is everywhere. You realize that youâre honoring Him by honoring yourself and doing what feels right to you. I donât know if thatâs something weâll get rewarded for in heaven, but the reward of it on Earth is enough for me.â
ââDo not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing itâ,â Josh recited with a nod. âHebrews.â
âSure. Yeah, actually, yeah. What Iâm trying to say is you should live for yourself, Josh, not God or Dad or anyone. And if you still want God, youâll find that without even trying.â
âDid you find Him with Danny?â Josh asked quietly. âIn Texas?â
Sam blinked in surprise. Heâd never thought about it like that, butâŚ
âI guess I did,â Sam breathed, a smile drifting onto his face as he thought fondly of Danny. âAt the start, at least. Now itâs all just him, no capital H.â
Everything was Danny to him, in complete honesty. Even though Sam only half believed the whole speech he was giving to Josh, he couldnât deny the divinity he felt in the presence of his boyfriend. His best friend.
âI want that,â Josh murmured. His throat closed with emotion as he forced the words out, but it felt good to say. He couldnât remember the last time heâd expressed wanting out loud, and based on the look on Samâs face, he realized it may have never happened before.
âGo get it,â Sam said fiercely, his grin growing wildly when Joshâs eyes lit up a little at his encouragement. âYou wanna come to Florida with us? We can find you a nice, alligator hunting boy.â
âSlow down, slow down,â Josh laughed, holding up his palms in surrender. âOne step at a time.â
âJust Florida, then. Weâll ask Danny.â
As if summoned, there grew the sound of hushed voices and the sound of shoes on the wooden steps down to the deck, bodies hidden by the trees and the dark. Eventually they emerged, Jake hopping down from the last step that had been laid too high, bending at the knee from the impact as long legged Danny casually stepped down beside him. Sam and Josh turned to face them, leaning back on their hands and giving little waves. Without any words, they all knew the nightâs battle had blown over, and Sam reached for Jake as he sat down between him and Josh. Jake received him with a hug, both of them bent into each other awkwardly as they murmured brief apologies to the other. Josh, unable to stay out of anything ever, leaned into their embrace and struggled to wrap his arms around both of them. Danny laughed as he settled next to Sam, their knees bumping as Sam attempted to wiggle out from the hold Josh had joyfully trapped them in.
âIâm just so grateful,â Josh wailed with phony passion. âI love my family!â
âYouâd hug Mom and Dad like this?â Jake asked incredulously.
â...I love my brothers!â
All 4 of them laughed again as Josh finally released them, immediately proceeding to chastise Jake in a low voice as he fiddled with the frizz his hair had accumulated. Sam teetered backwards and landed with his back to Dannyâs chest. Danny took advantage of the twins getting distracted and planted a kiss on top of Samâs hair, letting his eyes flutter shut for a moment at the consolation of Sam back in his arms after the whirlwind day theyâd had.
âAll good?â Danny whispered in Samâs ear, smiling when Sam nodded and tilted his head to grin up at him.
âYou?â Sam asked, humming when Danny mimicked his own nod back to him.
âJake said we can stay the night in your old bedroom,â Danny informed him, repeating what Jake had said in the conversation on their way out of the house. âBut he wonât make us breakfast.â
âFuckinâ liar, he will,â Sam laughed, reaching a hand up and lovingly stroking Dannyâs cheek as he utilized his other hand to smack Jakeâs thigh. âWhatâs this about no breakfast? You want me to burn the place down trying to make toast?â
âIâm just not babying you anymore is all,â Jake announced, smacking Sam right back. âDanny agrees itâll be good for our relationship.â
âTraitor,â Sam complained, smacking Danny on the cheek and squealing when Danny scoffed and smacked him back. Jake let out a brash cackle and Josh a defeated groan.
âYouâre like the Three Stooges,â Josh whined. âAlso, coming from you, Sam? Thatâs a bold accusation.â
âWow!â
âLook whoâs finally growing some balls,â Jake continued to cackle, hooking his elbow around Joshâs neck and pulling him into a side hug.Â
âThe state of my balls are none of your concern,â Josh muttered, which made Sam and Jake let out identical barks of laughter. The three of them got whipped up into a frenzy of bickering and Danny watched with a grin and a bloom of warmth flowering in his chest at the sight. There was something being healed here, he thought, and he could almost see the misguided little boys theyâd once been as they tussled and giggled on the groaning dock.
It was strange to think how differently he had felt just a few hours ago. With Sam in Dannyâs life, it seemed like things changing at the drop of a hat was something that Danny was going to grow well accustomed to as long as he was around. After that night, even with Sam squirming out of his grasp to try and push his brothers into the lake, Danny knew with complete certainty that he wanted Sam to stick around forever. It was time he told him that.
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âHow was your shower?â
âArctic.â
Danny laughed and opened up the wing of the sheets and comforters to welcome in Sam, who came rolling in with his hair still wet. He was clad in linen pajamas from his teenage years that fell slightly too short on his wrists and ankles, while Danny lay under the blankets in only his boxers and socks. Even though Samâs skin and hair was freezing cold from the shower and dampened his own skin, Danny pulled Sam against him and struggled with the blankets to bundle them together as best as he could.Â
âThere, now weâre a proper burrito,â Danny smiled, kissing the tip of Samâs nose.
âIâve never had a burrito,â Sam whispered in a hushed, secretive voice. Danny gasped.
âYouâre joking.â
âIâm not!â
âWell, that's okay, we'll remedy that. Plus, theyâre not half as good as this,â Danny mumbled, using his grip on Samâs back to pull him further into his bare chest and tuck Samâs head into the crook of his neck. âWas the water really that cold?â
âSub-zero,â Sam promised with a shiver. âThose assholes hogged all the hot water, I bet. Typical.âÂ
âIâll warm you up plenty,â Danny purred, sliding his hand up Samâs shirt and tracing his fingers along his cool skin with featherlight touch. Sam shivered again and giggled, nuzzling deeper into Dannyâs neck.
âNot in my childhood bed you wonât, pervert,â Sam murmured against Dannyâs skin, which seemed to be radiating great waves of heat like he were a human furnace.Â
Said childhood bed had been a source of poorly hidden smiles from Danny, who finally admitted through a smothered laugh that the entire room looked like his grandmaâs room back in Florida. No doubt done up and never redecorated for the daughter his mother had been expecting and never received, the wallpaper was pale, flowery and hung with silver crosses. Picture frames held stitched psalms that sat cheerfully on the vanity facing the bed. The double bed barely fit the both of them and, as Sam admitted through laughs of his own, the sheets and comforters that surrounded them now did, at one time, belong to his granny. When theyâd first walked in, Sam had felt the loving ache of being remembered upon finding that the bed had been made and the room had been tidied for his return.
âHow about some sleep, then?â Danny offered. âWeâve had a long day.â
âNo kidding,â Sam quietly agreed. âIâm glad what happened did happen, shockingly enough. I really thought it was going to be a trainwreck. I shouldâve had more faith in them, I guess.â
âYouâve got just the right amount of faith,â Danny hummed, eyes drifting open and shut as he grew sleepy from the perfume of Samâs shampoo and his natural sweetness. âIâm really proud of you, baby. I know that was a lot for you. Youâre a tough cookie.â
âIâm your tough cookie,â Sam murmured, tickling Dannyâs neck with his nose and planting a lingering kiss on the pulse thrumming violently under his lips. Danny let out a breathy groan and gently dug his fingers into Samâs back as Sam mapped a sleepy path of kisses along Dannyâs neck.
âEasy, cookie,â Danny raggedly chuckled, smoothing his palm up and down Samâs back as he fought in vain to stave off the growing pressure in his boxers. âI thought being in this bed was a no go.â
âIt is,â Sam doubled down, lips dragging against Dannyâs skin as he whispered. âJust saying thank you real quick.â
âYou and your fuckinâ âthank youââs,â Danny smiled, eyelids fluttering fully shut as he tilted his head back and gave Sam more area to cover. âThis is like that first night all over again.â
âI was so embarrassed,â Sam giggled, his breath fanning out in warm bursts over the thin layer of saliva cooling on Dannyâs skin. âI thought Iâd gone and fucked up the best thing that ever happened to me.â
âSweetheart,â Danny cooed, butterflies fluttering in his stomach. âYouâre the best thing that ever happened to me.â
âNo, Iâm not,â Sam refused, pressing his cheek into the hollow of Dannyâs collarbone.
âYes, you absolutely are, my little California love.â
âEven after today?â Sam asked, sounding more uncertain than he wanted to. âI canât think of a single other person on Earth who couldâve sat through all of that bullshit and still liked me at the end of it. Like, I really canât apologize enough. Especially for Jakeâs crazy ass.â
âEspecially after today,â Danny insisted. Sam lifted his head from Dannyâs chest and looked up at him with an unconvinced sneer, their noses brushing as Danny raked his fingers through Samâs damp waves and searched for the fortitude to say what he felt. These were the moments where Danny felt it the strongest; Sam burrowed into him with his eyes as wide and wondering as the day theyâd met. This was what love was to him.
âSam,â Danny whispered sincerely, voice low and breathless. âIf it meant I got to keep you by my side for 10 extra minutes, Iâd live today over and over again. Do you understand? There is nothing you could put me through that I wouldnât stick around for. Not when Iâm this ridiculously in love with you.â
Samâs already wide eyes nearly bugged out of their sockets at that, pupils expanding slowly as a nervous smile wound its way onto his flushed face. Danny smiled at him, feeling a flush of his own beginning to heat his body from his heart outwards.Â
âYouâre what?â Sam asked, leaning back slightly to look at Danny properly.Â
âYou heard me,â Danny teased, pinching the rosy apple of Samâs cheek. âWhat do you think about that?â
âI think youâre crazy,â Sam laughed, shimmying in their cocoon of blankets and limbs to readjust his arms to wrap around Dannyâs neck. âAnd may have been dropped on your head as a baby.â
âHow did you know that?â
âItâs the only rational explanation as to why youâd go and say that,â Sam flouted breezily.Â
âIs it really so hard to believe?â Danny asked, making a pitiful face that made Samâs heart flutter. âYou make it very easy to be in love with you, as a matter of fact. I donât have to try at all.â
âI love you,â Sam murmured, in awe. Itâs not like he was stupid, he knew Danny had to have loved him for them to have gotten as far as they had, but it still felt entirely unexpected to actually hear it. After a year of being startled awake by Samâs sleep talking, patiently listening to stories of the worst of Samâs childhood punishments, even sleeping sitting up in a jail cell in New Mexico when Samâs newfound chutzpah found purchase with a rowdy biker, there was Danny at the end of it all. Patiently awaiting what fresh hell Sam would drag him into next.Â
âI love you, too,â Danny assured him. âBut are you in love with me?â
âFucking obviously,â Sam blurted. âI'm so in love with you, Danny, fuck. I didnât realize I even had to clarify that.â
âOf course you did! How else would I know?â Danny laughed, eyes glittering with glee and relief at Samâs confirmation.
âI thought I had made myself plenty clear when I followed you across the country with zero hesitation. Twice.â
âI guess thatâs fair.â
âAlso, I mean, you popped my cherry, so.â
âYou werenât gonna give that up for just anyone, huh?â Danny laughed, his freckled nose crinkling.Â
âNope,â Sam smiled flirtatiously. âI was saving it for truuue looove.â
âIs that what this is?â Danny asked softly, his smile paling with uncertainty as he searched Samâs dark eyes.Â
âI hope so,â Sam breathed, his heart racing just as fast as it did when he was still learning to look at Danny without feeling faint. âDo you think it is?â
âI do,â Danny said sincerely, cupping Samâs jaw. âLetâs say it is and go from there.â
âWorks for me,â Sam agreed, nervously tilting his chin forward and melting from the inside out when Danny met him with a fiery kiss.
Sam was no stranger to the possessive pressure Danny preferred to apply when kissing, but there was something fierce behind this kiss that left Sam feeling utterly and completely loved. Lying in the same bed just over a year ago, Sam recalled how heâd bundle the blankets into a wall to press his back against as he slept, pretending it was someone to keep him steady and wake him in the morning. He thought of how that was something he didnât need to dream about anymore. He thought of how lucky he was. How blessed.
âIâm starting to think Josh may have been right,â Sam sighed against Dannyâs mouth, now tucked under him with Dannyâs loose curls tickling his cheeks. âI think youâre my guardian angel.â
âYouâre the angel here,â Danny insisted, thinking of Samâs tattoo and feeling his thighs tighten unconsciously on either side of Samâs hips. âNever gonna let anyone clip your wings ever again.â
âIâm serious,â Sam whined, twining his fingers in Dannyâs hair and pulling him closer. âYouâre the real deal.â
âMaybe Josh did get one thing right tonight.â
âSpeaking of JoshâŚhow do you feel about another passenger on our way to Florida?â
âHeâs going to have to share the backseat with Jake if thatâs the new plan, âcause Iâm pretty sure I convinced Jake to pack up too.â
âFamily road trip,â Sam sang. âI hope your parents donât mind.â
âNo, theyâll love a full house,â Danny answered. âAnd my sister will love peer pressuring them into doing stupid shit.â
âI canât wait to see them drunk for the first time,â Sam confessed with a laugh. âTheyâll be fucking ridiculous.â
âI donât know if youâll want to see them like that if theyâre anything like you were the first time you got drunk,â Danny teased, nipping at Samâs earlobe. âIâve still never heard you talk like you did that night.â
âStop that,â Sam giggled, muffling a squeak when Danny kissed the sensitive skin under his ear. âI donât even remember half of that night.â
âYour brain is protecting your dignity,â Danny joked, his voice low and warm against the shell of Samâs ear. âYou were kind of a slut.â
âYeah?â Sam asked weakly, panting slightly from so little. Danny tended to do that to him.
âOh, yeah. Big time. You cried when I wouldnât put it in.â
Sam immediately slapped a hand over Dannyâs mouth and shushed him theatrically, attempting to smother him when Danny laughed hysterically and tried to lick and bite at his fingers.
âWhat if they heard you!â Sam hissed, his wrists now pinned beside him as Danny held him down with visible triumph.
âThen Iâll apologize!â Danny laughed, jostling as Sam tried to wrench himself out from under him. âYouâre the one making the mattress squeak all suspiciously. This is a Christian household, Sam, I mean really.â
âShut up!â
âYou shut up!â
âI hate you,â Sam declared quietly, sharp eyes trained up at Danny with a glimmer of mischief dancing at his waterline. Danny smiled fondly and lowered himself so their chests were pressed together. He cocked his head, looking Sam over with his hazel eyes lush with emotion.
âAnd I will love you âtil the day I die, Sam Kiszka,â Danny announced, pressing his lips to Samâs with careful appreciation and keeping them there for the hours that followed.Â
In the morning, theyâd clamor and argue and shed tears before pulling out of Shady Grove with a body in every seat of Dannyâs beat up little truck. Theyâd follow the fate line to Florida to settle and heal and wander from the path like they always did. But that night, they had nothing to do but lay under the blanket of the whistling Alabama sky and love each other.
Theyâd find in the years and decades that followed, it never got much more complicated than that.
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A reclist of Tenshi's work (and some memories)
It's late here and my whole being demands sleep, but I promised to myself I'd make a reclist of my favourite things @slimysuckers/@tentacletenshi ever made for Tenshi day, so here goes.
As far as photomanips go, there's really one that immediately comes to mind: the hug in camo. I just love it, I can't tell you much more than that.
For fics, however, there are three of them I'd like to mention:
Welcome Home, You're No Longer AloneâI have a funny story about that one. See, I first stumbled upon it way before I joined the CafĂŠ, knew Tenshi personally, or even shipped any combination of 00Q00... but the art struck me (I mean, it's uh, very striking indeed đĽľ). I had to frantically search the whole Bond category on AO3 to find it again (maybe some people from the slack remember it?)... and yeah, I did find it. And you can be sure I'll never forget about it ever again.
Kisses Across Universesâaaaah, good, old-fashioned bondalec (and yet another amazing piece of fanart). If I dedicated my earlier post from today (A Time for Sweetness) to Tenshi, it's because of this fic. Tenshi really loved bondalec, and actually had commissioned the piece of fanart at the end before creating the fic itself. From our talks together, I can show you something she probably never showed the world beforeâthe sketch she provided the artist to explain what she wanted (see below).
It's just so sweet... reminds me she had a very extensive collection of bondalec/00Q00 fanart, btw. A real treasure trove I should download from Discord before it disappears forever (you can never be too careful these days).
And last but not least, Good Names Are Forever. I personally think this is her best (of those I read, that is). The premise, the characterisation, the plot, I love everything about it. In fact, now I remember telling her I wish I had enough skill to make a fanart of it. Considering how my art skills have dramatically improved as of late, I might just do it. I wanna bring to life this image I have in my mind: Q stands next to a sitting Alec, his hand on Alec's shoulder, and Alec gives his most Janus stare/smile and says something like "don't f*ck with my son". You'll surely understand reading the fic.
You were so shy, Tenshi... and yet, look at everything you created. Everything you brought other people to create, even. Looking through Discord messages, I see you were saying you've been in the fandom since LiveJournal days, that you've seen GE in theaters, and that basically you've always been there, even when you weren't creating yet. Even though you didn't start writing until 2020, I have the conviction you've always been there indeed. Perhaps I was seeing your name in comments, although I'll probably never know for sure.
I'm so sorry you were bullied, you absolutely didn't deserve it. I'm even sorry for scaring you at first, all because of those firm Opinions I used to have. So I'll conclude with this:
*hugs the tentacle creature*
And thank you, as always.
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Hi, for the choose violence ask game đĽđĽđĽ, I'd like to hear your opinions on 10, 13, 16 and 22 (if some don't inspire you, you can skip them ^^)
Btw, I discovered your blog around a week ago and let me tell you, I think I binged all of your one-shots and commented on practically all of them, + I passed way too much time on your Tumblr blog/AO3 account, something I didn't do in YEARS, so thx for making me go back to my fanfiction obsessed phase xD
thank you very much, anon - this is absolutely lovely!
[choose violence ask game here]
10. what is the worst part of fanon?
âthe class system is good, actually.â
as someone who is also annoying, vaguely sinister, and spends a remarkable amount of time with the dead (because iâm a doctor, rather than a serial killer, i promise), i am one of lord voldemortâs ride-or-die girlies. what i am not a ride-or-die girly for is the tiresome pro-aristocracy fanon which infects so many death-eater-centric fics.
the sacred twenty eight is not real (itâs a pisstake of things like debrettâs), lucius malfoy doesnât have a seat on the wizengamot, when sirius says his parents thought being a black made them âpractically royalâ it is with utter disdain and not a statement of fact, aristocrats are not better or more special than people who are not aristocrats, just as purebloods are not better or more special than people who are half-blood or muggleborn.
class is the central theme of the harry potter series, absolutely - just as it is the central theme of pretty much everything in britain - but that doesnât mean that glorifying it is good or enjoyable or a way of sticking it to jkr. if you meet real-life aristocrats, theyâre almost exclusively all cringe. donât give them a veneer of being sexy and fun that they donât deserve.
13. who gets the worst blorbofication?
regulus black.
someone with a scrapbook about terrorist activities is not a sweet little baby.
16. what is a trope, characterisation, headcanon etc. that you canât understand why people like?
ron being written as dumb or abusive.
ron is incredible and i love him. heâs emotionally mature, kind, obviously a wife-guy, clever, a big-picture thinker etc., and i hate when he gets turned into a violent boor just for being a dick about viktor krum (he was acting up because heâs bi and he fancied krum, for one; hermione is just as bad about how ron acts around fleur and lavender, for two).
i especially hate it when he gets turned into a violent boor to enable hermione to run off with either severus snape or draco malfoy. two men whom i always associate with the phrase ânot prone to jealousyâ...
22: what is your favourite part of canon, which everyone else ignores?
that theyâre wearing pointy hats on nearly all occasions.
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Han Jisung x Reader
Genre: friends to lovers, fluff, angst, idol au
Summary: Han and y/n have been friends since before they remember. But what happens if their friendship is severed by an unfortunate situation and Han goes off to be an idol while y/n is in college. When they connect through a mutual friend, what happens then?
CHAPTER WARNINGS: self harm, suicide attempt, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, reader isnât in the right mind, body insecurities, just a lot of feelings, insecurities in general, self consciousness (tell me if I missed anything)
NOT PROOF READ!!!
A/N: chapter 2 is finally up!! If you couldn't tell, my life has been kind of a mess lately and I've been really busy with school as well as personal matters. But thank you for sticking around and being patient <3
COMMENT TO BE ADDED TO MY TAGLIST FOR THIS SERIES!!!
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Going home my mind was working overtime but at the same time not working at all. My body went into auto-pilot while I was absolutely mentally wrecked. My biggest priority was to drive home without dying or having a mental breakdown; so I focused for the 15 minute drive home. As soon as I was safe inside my house I allowed myself to go numb. To have millions of thoughts but at the same time have no thoughts. It was a coping mechanism I developed over the years.Â
I found out I could get into this little headspace after Jisung caught me cutting myself. Since I didnât want to be caught doing something so embarrassing; I had to find another way to cope.
And to think I thought my night couldnât POSSIBLY get worseÂ
I know I told myself I had gotten past this; but I really needed to feel something. So I went to the bathroom and picked up my blade and started cutting.
 Itâs not enough
The pain wasnât painful enough to fix my broken self so I cut deeper than I knew I should.
 Ah⌠sweet reliefÂ
While relishing in the floaty feeling, I hear a quiet ping come from my phone. I pick it up, reading the text on my screen.
Hey y/n. I wanted to tell you that I passed that audition that I told you about and got accepted to become a trainee at JYP Entertainment. The only thing is that I have to leave tomorrow; but I promise Iâll keep in touch. Donât die while Iâm gone lol
Hannie
I let out a humorless laugh before making one more cut on my left thigh; it was so deep it gushed out blood. I didnât really mind though; I needed the pain, maybe even liked it. Or I at least preferred it over everything that had happened in the past couple hours. The bathroom started to blur and I started to see stars; I decided to close my eyes and let the darkness take over.
SIX YEARS LATER
I walk into the cozy coffee spot trying to spot my friend. When I do; I rush over and give him a tight hug while he gently sways the both of us back and forth gently. He hugs me so tight I pull back from a lack of air.
Now, one might think that our greeting is a little much for not seeing each other for two days; but there is nothing dramatic enough for the man who saved my life
âHey Y/nâ
âHey Chanâ I say back breathlessly.
Chan, the 5â7 father of seven who is the reason Iâm still here today
FOUR YEARS AGO
After receiving the news of my momâs death; I was devastated. She was at the hospital more than she was home; but when she was home we had so much fun. I could remember nights when we would stay up until 4 am surrounded by our favorite snacks. We would talk about anything and everything: me, her, the new episode of our favorite drama, Jisung.
Jisung
He hasnât contacted me since the night of that party two years ago. I kept my old phone and number, even when I got a new one, just in case he called. I even pay the ridiculous rent for my childhood home just in case he came by. But maybe he just forgot about me; I mean, I am pretty forgettable. Not much special about me when he is a musical genius.Â
I look out onto the bridge Iâm on; the city looks so pretty from up here. Then, I look down at the water and the reflection of the city on it. Honestly, I would rather be in that city than the one up here. So I walk a little closer to the edge; not to jump, just to look. Or at least thatâs what I tell myself. When I get to the edge and lean over it a little, reaching for the city in the water; I feel arms pulling me back. I immediately tense in the manâs arms, trying to figure out what type of person he could be. I lower it down to three options
A pedophile
A man that thought I was gonna jump and is trying to save my life
A drunk guy
âHeyâ the man says in a gentle voice. âYouâre a little close to the edge; why don't we back up a bit, yeah?â the voice says, gently pulling me back to a safe distance from the edge of the bridge. While still in the mystery manâs arms, I begin to analyze him. Heâs strong, definitely stronger than me, so I canât fight him. He also seemed to have the accent of a native English speaker. Before I could finish my detailed analysis the mystery man turned me around.Â
âHi,â he starts. âIâm Chan, Bang Chan. And you are?â he asks, looking at me with expecting eyes. âY/n,â I responded in a quiet voice.Â
âYou looked like you could use some company. Why donât we walk around and talk for a bit, hm? We can grab some food if youâd like.âÂ
âOh, Iâm not that hungryâÂ
That is the dumbest lie I have ever told
The truth is I am hungry. I have had nothing but a protein shake every other day. I skipped at least two days a week for the times I would go get food with friends or go eat with my mom at the hospital. But, I couldn't stop now. I've finally started to look normal, maybe even pretty.Â
âY/n, whenâs the last time you ate, and I mean a full meal.â
Y/n, are you really about to spill all of your emotional trauma to some random stranger you just met?
Yes, yes I am
âAbout a month agoâ his eyes automatically widened. âYeah I have an eating disorder that I developed from body dysmorphia,â now Chan is looking at me like Iâm crazy. Which, at the moment, I probably am. âYeah I know. My mom died last week.â now even I know Iâve gone insane.Â
âI wanted to jumpâ this time, Iâm a little quieter; the fact I wanted to end my life a little harder to admit. âIâve been cutting for years but after she died, cutting wasnât enoughâÂ
That was when I realized I was crying. It 's the first time I had cried since I was at my momâs deathbed. Not while I drove home; not while I was cutting myself on the bathroom floor, not even at the funeral.Â
I expected Chan to walk away. To consider me another depressed college student and to move with his life. But instead; I feel his arms wrap around me and his hands stand to gently move up and down my back. In my estranged state, Iâm confused as to why the man I just met is comforting me. Whatâs even more confusing is how loved and cherished I feel in his arms. So, as any normal person would do, I cry my heart out into the manâs arms.Â
After my loud sobs turn into quiet sniffles, Chan pulls me back and looks at my face.
âNo offense, but you look like a messâ
âYou look worse,â I sniffled.
Now that I got a good look at him, he looked a mess. His hair was in messy, tangled curls, he had really dark bags under his eyes, and he was wearing different shoes.
âWe both look like shit. But why donât we fix our shit together, yeah?â
âSure, why notâ
BACK TO PRESENT TIME
âOk, hear me out,â Chan starts. âWhat would you think of meeting the kids and becoming our manager for our upcoming comeback?â
âLet me get this straight. You want me, a broke girl straight out of college with no experience; to manage you and your friends' world-wide popular band?â
âYes?â he says, but it sounds more like a question.Â
âI havenât even met them yet. First let me meet your so-called kids then we can talk about me becoming one of your managers,â I negotiated. Chan talks very highly of his kids; but again he couldnât say a bad thing about anyone.Â
âOk great! How about right now?â he asked with a smile.Â
âWHAT?â Chan grimaced at my loudness. âBang Chan I am not dressed to meet a bunch of world-famous kpop idols!â Truthfully, I wasnât dressed that bad. I was wearing a white tank-top, maybe a little too tight for a girl like me to be wearing; under a dark blue zip-up with some black, wide leg cargo pants.Â
âYou look fine,â he said a little more seriously. âThey are at my apartment, we donât have to go if you donât want to.â
âNo, I'll go. Iâve been wanting to meet them for a while, this is just a little more sudden than what I had imagined.â are the words I force out of my mouth. âYea sorry about that. I just knew if I didnât ask you to come over today you would put it off for weeks,â he responded with a small smile.
This man knows me too well
He knows how I panic when meeting new people. How I get anxious about everything from what I say to how dirty my shoes are. He knows that I worry myself into panic attacks when it comes to first impressions
I let out a choked laugh, as if I were trying to laugh at a lame joke.
Except I am the joke
I tell him Iâll go, even if I kind of donât want to. Donât get me wrong, I do want to meet everyone; itâs just they seem so perfect. They just had to look good in everything: serious pictures, funny pictures, music videos, interviews, you name it.Â
Slightly against my own will; I begin to get up, expecting us to leave.
âY/n, youâre forgetting something,â Chan reminded me. I look at the table to see if I left my phone or wallet on it, but I donât spot anything thatâs mine. âWhat am I forgetting?â I asked him confused. âY/n you forgot your sandwichâ
My brain is working at 500 mph trying to come up with a better lie than âI had a really big breakfastâ because Chan knows I ever eat in the morning. âY/n, did you eat at all yesterday? And I mean real food.â Chan asked, or rather scolded.
The truth is I didnât, but itâs justified because the day before yesterday I went out with my old college friend, Yeji, and we ate hot pot; 3750 calories if I calculated correctly. And thatâs way above my daily intake for two whole days. So technically, I ate enough for two days in one day which means there was no need to eat yesterday.
âY/n,â Chan sighed; âCan you at least take a couple bites? Please?
âI canât eat when Iâm nervous,â was my excuse of choice. I mean, it wasnât the complete truth but he didnât have to know.Â
Chan seemed to accept my answer and stood up. âFine, are you ready to go?â he asks.
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fluff 7 + angst 18 obs (or any other jk story on your masterlist)
"My mom adores you." + "All you had to do was stay."
pairing: jungkook x f!reader
rating: PG
genre/warnings: established relationship, college au, fluff but to be fair this is obs so everything is angsty in hindsight đ but i tried, a couple of swear words here and there, one mention of childbirth lol
word count: 1.8k
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Jungkook suddenly switches off the TV, interrupting your Goblin binge session. You turn to look at him quizzically, but he just swings a leg over both of yours and pulls you closer until your hips are flushed together. He holds your body down with his limbs, looking into your eyes with a sickeningly sweet glint in his.
âHey, pretty,â he coos, so suspiciously sappy out of nowhere that you have to squint your eyes at him. What does he want now? What motive does he have for disrupting your weekly thirsting over Gong Yoo and Lee Dong Wook?
Jungkook presses a wet kiss to your cheek and squeezes your waist affectionately before he speaks.Â
âAs you know,â he begins, âmy mom is coming to visit this weekendââ
âAbsolutely not.â
He scooches back a little, mouth hanging open, flabbergasted at your swift shut down when he has barely gotten more than a few words out. âWhaâ You donât even know what I was going to say!â
âYes, I do.â You give him a look and try to move away, but his meaty thighs are caging you in and heâs just clinging to you like a freaking koala that itâs hard to budge a single inch. âStop trying to make me spend time with your mother. That woman terrifies me.â
At this, he frowns. âWhat has she ever done to you?â
âShe hates me,â you deadpan, and watch his expression shift into one of confusion.
Although, in the name of completely unfiltered and unadulterated truth, you donât actually think Jungkookâs mother hates you so that was probably a bit of a reach.
âWhat are you talking about? My mom adores you.â
âRemember the last time we visited your parents and I had to leave early because I forgot I had a paper due? You went back with me and she sent me a text saying âIf you take my son away from me again, itâs on sight.ââ
âShe what?â he asked with an eyebrow quirked, pink lips curling up steadily fast to display his pearly whites. âShe said âitâs on sightâ? She actually typed that in a text?â
You nod begrudgingly, and your boyfriendâs first reaction upon hearing that his mother would practically beat your ass, is to laugh. The gall he has to chuck a fucking Elmo laugh at you, eyes turning into slits as he throws his head back to cackle loudly like a child, clearly amused at the revelation. On top of you, his body shakes with utter glee, sending vibrations through you â who is not entertained at all. Nope. Not one bit.Â
âOh,â he says, actually wipes a tear from the corner of his eye, and muses. âSo thatâs why she asked me what it meant. You have to admit, thatâs funny.â
Your hand sneaks down his back to pinch his ass so hard, you hope it leaves a bruise. âThe hell it is! Your mom basically promised me violence!â
âObviously she didnât mean it. She just wants to know what lingo the kids are using these days. Thatâs her sense of humor!â
âIt doesnât translate through text!â you protest, but the lack of personal space prevents you from being as dramatic as youâd like. âMoms should not be using slang!â
âWell.â He shrugs and boops your nose sweetly, but you just scrunch it and frown like an angry cat. âNot my fault you had to leave. All you had to do was stay.â
âNo, all you had to do was stay.â Jamming an accusing finger into that hollow spot beneath the column of his throat, you crack an evil smile when he chokes on air. âI told you I couldâve taken the train to the city by myself.â
âUm, excuse me for coming with my girlfriend to make sure she didnât get murdered travelling alone.â
âOh gosh. My hero,â you say sarcastically, placing a hand over your heart and rolling your eyes. âDonât act so chivalrous. You know that was because you didnât want to hear more grandchildren talk.â
âOh, and you did?â he asked, voice full of sass even though he knows youâre right. The trip was only a few days, but it felt like much longer. His mother wasnât dropping very subtle hints about wanting a mini Jungkook around the house. He was overtly annoyed, but she was nothing if not persistent and accustomed to his attitude.
It was kind of awkward, but you didnât give it much thought. Every parent does that anyway.
âI did not,â you confirm, and stare at him blankly. âYour mother talking about me pushing a child the size of a watermelon out of my vagina was very weird. She said that in front of you, your dad and your brother at the dinner table. And now you want me to schedule a one-on-one session with her? Uh-uh, Iâll pass.â
âCome on. Please? You just have to keep her company for one day. I wouldnât be asking if I didnât have that recording with one of the seniors. Hmm?â He pouts, and you have just a teeny tiny urge to kiss those slightly chapped lips. Then he whips out his stupid eyes, the huge ass Bambi eyes that always look like thereâs an entire galaxy within them. But that isnât even the thing that does you in. Itâs the subsequent words he pulls out of his ass that youâre sure donât hold much weight. âBesides, donât you want to score points with your future mother-in-law?â
Your lips part slightly and your brain goes haywire. Despite your friends bringing up the topic of marriage from time to time, you havenât taken a moment to consider family and kids yet. Youâve never imagined yourself walking down the aisle because it is a scary thought â to settle down with someone, to start a family, to grow old with them⌠To trust that a person wants you enough to vow to love you forever, and for you to want them enough to do the same.
Jungkookâs mother has always been just that to you â his mother. But the words âmother-in-lawâ imply that one day, she might become a member of your family too, connected by your bond with Jungkook. You know he probably doesnât fully register what heâs saying. This isnât something that you two have ever discussed, not seriously anyway.
You and him are both still in school, youâre both young; thereâs plenty of time left. You arenât planning that far ahead into the future relationship-wise, especially with the two of you being career-driven people. Both of whose careers are still so far away from blossoming.
You donât reckon that that many people a few months into their 20s are prioritizing getting married and settling down anyway. Not unless youâre Kim Taehyung and sometimes you have weird existential musings about life, love, death, and every other thing in between.
Nevertheless, Jungkookâs words are putting thoughts into your head.
You picture Jungkook on his knees, proposing to you. You picture his face when he sees you in a wedding dress for the first time, in front of all your friends and family. You picture your honeymoon â maybe somewhere tropical like Hawaii or the Maldives â with him happy and relaxed, right by your side. You even picture a kid too, one that is the perfect combination of you and him, running around and babbling nonsenseâŚ
Your heart flutters and you blush. If you can do it with him, then maybe it wouldnât be so bad. Itâs tempting enough that you might consider marriage and the whole shebang. Not now, but some day. You reiterate those familiar words in your mind: What will be, will be.
Regardless, itâs like that feeling you get when you go apartment hunting and looking for the right home. With every place you step into, you start to imagine yourself as if youâre already living there. You see your frames and posters on the bare walls, your clothes hanging in the empty closet, your books and little trinkets littering the vacant shelvesâŚ
Your brain conjures up a whole life for you, one thatâs so irresistible that it takes you approximately five seconds to get attached to. Thatâs usually how long it takes â a few seconds â for you to grow fond of a life you havenât lived, a version of you that doesnât exist yet.
The same thing happens now, as Jungkookâs words echo and your mind, unintentionally, presents you a glimpse of what life could be like with him. An entire future together. A flower-filled path and him, next to you, with a smile that you adore blooming on his face. It feels⌠attainable. It feels like itâs within your reach.
As the images in your head fade away, you know youâd acquiesce. Itâs not his pout that convinces you, nor is it his eyes. Itâs not even the cunning way that he saccharifies his voice to make your knees buckle even when youâre horizontal. Jungkook hasnât persuaded you at all, but your little romanticized daydreams sure have.
âUgh,â you groan, feigning annoyance, succumbing to his body weight on top of you like youâre boneless. âFine. Iâll show her around the city. Maybe take her to that cafĂŠ by the waterfrâ!â
Jungkook squeals, excitement pouring out of him, and leans down to kiss you deeply. You feel him smile against your lips and this makes you smile too, but heâs positively wrecking your lungs at this point. When the sudden lack of air combined with the added pressure on your chest gets too much, you make a muffled noise against his mouth and move to nudge him off of you.
âSorry,â he murmurs, still smiling. âIâll even give you two permission to talk shit about me.â
You scoff and politely decline, as one would a telemarketer. âNo, thanks. I just got my hair done. I donât want your mom to rip it out.â
Jungkook mimics your eye roll from earlier, but then quickly returns to looking at you appreciatively when you shoot him half a glare. When he leans in again, you let him kiss your cheek.
âIâll give you something else then. What do you want, the moon?â He grins. He then taps his chin a few times and hums, pretending to be in thought. âThe stars? How about Saturn?â
You glance sideways at him, and feel a smile pulling up the corners of your lips. You canât help it. He plucks the strings of your heart like heâs playing the harp, and every sound it makes reverberates through you like a love song you could never perfect.
You snatch the TV remote from behind his back and return to your beloved drama, but not before giving him a final kiss.
âOkay, you can give me Saturn.â
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Idle Hands | Jake âHangmanâ Seresin/Bradley âRoosterâ Bradshaw
Idle Hands.Â
Summary: The promise of not having to eat mess hall chow leads to consensual breaking and entering. Homemade pasta, white wine, and kisses.
One shot 1,439 words. Slash
Warnings:Â None.Â
Notes: For the TGM fic exchange. A humble attempt at Hangster. Likes are appreciated, comments and sharing are absolute gold. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate it so much and it means the most.Â
âHey Bradshaw,â Jake is sprawled out on the bunk opposite him. âYou got anything planned today?â
Heâs quiet for a few minutes, before putting his book down on his chest. âWhat do you have in mind, Hangman?â He tips his head to regard the man who was focused on him.
âSomething other than laying around the barracks all day.â Jake sits up, a silver key ring dangling from his fingers. âI want to cook, Iâm tired of mess hall chow.â
âWhoâs keys are those?â Bradley sits up, intrigued at the possibilities that Hangmanâs offering.
âNatâs. Her and Bob are renting a place. Sheâs out with Halo, and Bobâs watching the Star Trek films with Fanboy.â
âThatâs somewhere I donât want to be.â Bradley chuckled. Fanboy and Bob would often get into spirited âdebatesâ over which of the space operas were better, Star Wars or Star Trek. âWait, you stole Natâs keys?â
âTechnically, theyâre Bobâs, they fell out of his pocket in the locker room.â The key jingles as Jake spins it around his finger. âCome on, I miss being in the kitchen, you like to eat, and weâll leave leftovers as a peace offering.â
âYouâve put a lot of thought into this plan, considering youâre assuming Iâm in on it.â
âCome on, youâre just as bored as I am Bradshaw. Youâve been reading the same page for half an hour.â Jakeâs grin is genuine and real, dimples on display as the full force is turned on him. Bradley drops his gaze a little uncertain with the flutter in his stomach. Bradley knew it was just due to proximity, and seeing each other every hour of every day, but that grin made him weakâthough he was loathe to admit it.
âYouâre not wrong.â He gets to his feet. âCome on then.â
Jake nearly springs from the bed, grabbing his keys and wallet. âI have an Instacart order showing up at their place,â he looks at his phone. âItâll be there when we get there.â
The drive to Phoenixâs place is pretty enough and theyâre pulling up to a gray rambler with a brilliant yellow door. The walkway is an explosion of flowers, the riotous color and sweet smell going to Bradleyâs head. Jake turns when heâs halfway up the walk, sunlight illuminating him with a brilliant glow. That smile hits him again, and Bradleyâs heart nearly stops in his chest.
âCome on, Bradshaw, theyâll be back before we know it.â
Bradley picks up the last grocery bag, following Jake inside. The house was clean and well lived in, and once again he was thinking about his choice of staying in the barracks rather than finding space of his own. Though, bunking with Jake wasnât all that bad. He follows the other man into the kitchen, leaning against the counter as Jake makes himself at home. The blond had retrieved an apron from somewhere, tying it around his waist, rolling his sleeves up to his elbows, and beginning to unpack bags.
âSo, what are you making?â
âHand cut tagliatelle, with spicy Italian sausage, spinach with an alfredo sauce.â Jake is scrubbing his hands, before drying them on the apron. âDo me a favor and open that bottle of wine.â
Bradley reaches for the bottle of white wine, opening it, pouring some into the glasses that Jake places in front of him. One is offered to him, and he takes it, a shock running through him when his fingers brush Jakeâs. Heâs acutely aware of the fact that heâs never truly been alone with Jake. Sure, they bunked together, but they intersected in the shared space only in the morning and evenings. Their days were spent with the rest of the group, or in the air. Jake moves around the kitchen the same way he does everything else, effortlessly, deliberate.
âIf youâre not going to talk to me,â that grin is back on his face, âthen turn on some music.â
âI donât want to distract you.â Bradley says. Jake tips flour onto the countertop, making a well and cracking eggs into it, and another egg yolk.
âIf I wanted to avoid distraction, I wouldnât have invited you.â He tosses a wink Bradleyâs way, and he canât help but mirror the way Jake smiles again.
âYou think Iâm distracting?â Bradley leans against the counter, arms crossed over his chest.
âYouâre the second best looking in the group.â
âI suppose youâre the first?â
âYou tell me.â Jake flicks flour Bradleyâs way.
He licks his lower lip, mouth dry, the wine doing nothing to sate the discomfort. âYou know you are.â Bradley blinks noticing the stain of red that appears on sharp cheek bones. Jakeâs attention very focused on the olive oil heâs adding to the blob of pasta dough. Itâs almost cute, which is a word one wouldnât use to describe one Jake Seresin, but in this situation, it worked.
âThis needs to rest.â Jake mutters more to himself, draping a kitchen towel over the ball of dough. He washes his hands again. âWhat are you looking at Bradshaw?â
âYou,â he says. âI donât think Iâve seen you happy before.â It was the simplest way to describe the easy grin, the way Jakeâs shoulders are relaxed, the ease he moves around the kitchen. He notices that Jakeâs hand fumbles the wine glass when he sets it down. âAm I really a distraction?â
Another slow spread of red, across Jakeâs cheeks, down his neck. âEverything else is a distraction. It interrupts my thoughts about you.â
Bradley sets his own glass down, walking around the island. Jakeâs throat bobs as he swallows, looking down at the marble surface, brushing invisible flour from it. Bradley hesitates only for a moment, letting his hand rest on top of Jakeâs. âWhat sort of thoughts?â
Thereâs a moment where Bradley doesnât know where heâs at, just that the edge of the counter is digging into the small of his back, Jakeâs hands are in his hair, and his lips are parting under the slow drag of Jakeâs tongue against his lower lip. His own hands find purchase on Jakeâs hips, pulling the other man closer, flush against him. The sound Jake makes goes straight through him, the kiss deepening. Bradley groans against Jakeâs mouth when those nimble fingers pull just right on his hair.
Warm, open-mouthed kisses trail down his neck Jakeâs tongue lingering on the scars he finds. âBetter than I imagined.â Thereâs a softening of his words, the drawl more pronounced. Hands sneak under the hem of Bradleyâs t-shirt, palms skimming up the flat of his stomach.
Jakeâs pulling away hurriedly, Bradly blinking a little fuzzy headed. The absence of Jakeâs warmth against him makes him shiver. Green eyes flicker toward the door, and thereâs the sound of conversation, getting closer. Natasha and Bob cross the threshold.
âTold you that was Seresinâs truck.â Bob says.
âBoys,â Natasha grins easily, dark eyes flickering between the two of them. âWhatâs going on?â
âJake-Jakeâs cooking.â Bradley steps back to safety, the other side of the island, next to Bob.
âWhat are you making Hangman?â
âPasta, and plenty of it.â Jake starts rolling out the dough into thin sheets. âStart a pot of water and toss some salt into it. âBobby, grab a cutting board and start dice the sausage.â
âLet the man loose in the kitchenâŚâ Bradley mutters.
âYou want to finish that sentence Bradshaw?â Jake points at him. âInsult the cook and Iâll order you McDonaldâs.â He turns away, and starts messing with a pan on the stove, the smell of onions and garlic beginning to cook filling the air.
Thereâs an ease between the four of them, Bobâs cracking terrible jokes, Natashaâs laughing so hard thereâs no sound coming out except for the occasional snort. Jakeâs singing along with the old country song on the radio, terribly off key as he cooks. Thereâs the sound of footsteps, and Payback and Fanboy enter the kitchen to a riotous noise.
Silverware clatters, Mickey setting the table, Reubenâs spinning Natasha around the kitchen. An ache settles in Bradleyâs chestâa warm familiar ache that somehow, doesnât hurt this time. Â Bobâs trying to sneak a handful of parmesan cheese into his mouth, only to be chased away by Jake brandishing a wooden spoon chasing the lanky WSO away from the cheese.
âYou were right.â
Jake startles slightly, âWhat do you mean?â
âI was bored,â Bradley murmurs, one arm dropping around Jakeâs waist. âAnd this smells better than mess hall chow.â
âDamn straight it does.â Just for the briefest of moments, Jake leans against him once more. âNow go sit, lunch is ready.â
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Mr. & Mrs. Styles
Anon request:
Hey đ
I really love your writing and was wondering if you could do a Harry styles fix where the reader is an undercover agent and Harry is just Harry and somehow they end up in a mess....it would be absolutely okay if you don't. Â
And i also wanted to besides this request that i enjoy all of your content and it always lifts my mood when I'm down so thank you âĽď¸âĽď¸
Wordcount: 2.4K+
Description:Â Maybe you should have told your husband you were a spy, but hey there is no time like the present when you both are in danger, he canât be too mad right?
A/N: Iâm so sorry it took me some months to get to this request, but thank you so much for your request and kind words, it means so much. I had a lot of fun writing this, Iâve missed writing for Harry. Also I watched Killers while writing this so partly inspired by that.
Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HARRY, MY LOVE, I HAVE LOVED YOU FOR SO LONG YOU HAVE MADE MY LOVE BRIGHTER FOR BEING YOUR AMAZING SELF.
Warning: Shooting, murder, murder attempt. Cheesy.
It never should have gone anywhere. It wasnât supposed to go anywhere, you werenât even supposed to meet Harry, but you did and now you both were fucked. You rushed through the house, going into your bedroom and opening your secret safe pulling out passports, money, and guns.
âLovie, I am completely confused. Will you tell me what is going on?â Harry said from right behind you.
You jumped, cursing yourself and cursing him. You should have been more aware of your surroundings that is why this was happening now. You got lax, stupid. You fell in love and now you both might die.
âBaby, I donât have time to explain everything, but I promise I will give me a minute,â you tried to keep your voice as soft and sweet as possible but it was difficult. You ignored his pout as you pulled two duffel bags from under the bed, one with clothes for you both and the other with more weapons and money.
He gasped as he saw bags, his eyes widening comically as he looked between the bags and you. âSo I take it you are not a florist,â he said, looking ready to faint.
You sighed, biting your lower lip. âI am sort of a florist,â you replied.
âLook the target isnât here, what am I supposed to do,â you said, a glass of wine pressed to your lips so no one will see that you were talking.
âHold your position, daffodil,â came a voice from your earbud. You scoffed, downing the wine and taking another sweep of the room with your eyes. It was some charity event, you couldnât remember for what cause, it wasnât important for you to know.Â
The only important information was making sure the foreign diplomat left with the slow-acting poison in his system, none the wiser about how it got there. The dress was over the top, you argued against it, but your boss claimed it was needed to blend in and he wasnât wrong.
Anyone who was anyone was here together, from politicians, celebrities, and royalty. Your dress fits in amongst the Gucci, Dior, and whatever else was being worn. Even Florence Pugh commented on the dress when she walked by. Still, you'd rather be planted as a waitress or something, not a pretty little golden doll in the corner of the room.
âYou are standing out too much,â Growled Thimbleweed.
âMaybe itâs because Iâm dressed like a fucking Oscar,â you shot back, a bit too loud getting a questionable look from some Swish model as she walked by.
âSee, talking to yourself isnât helping. Go, Mingle, stop looking as if you are being tortured.â
âThis dress is torture,â you replied dryly.
âOh, but I think you look lovely,â A different voice said from your left.
Eyes widening you looked to see known other than Harry fucking Styles standing next to you. His suit was Gucci, of course, and his curls were a perfect blend of messy and perfect. Your mouth watered slightly.
âClose your mouth,â Thimbleweed.
âYour staring,â Harry teased at the same moment.
Snapping your mouth closed, drug your eyes up to meet Harryâs. âSorry, I just really like your suit. Gucci is one of my favorites,â you said, with faux sheepishness.
Harry laughed, it was light and joyous, his whole face lit up as his eyes closed. His flush flushed. âAnd there I thought it was me, goes to show I have too big of an ego.â
You couldnât help but smirk. âWell, there is a reason I like Gucci so much, some of their models are beautiful,â you said, enjoying how his face flushed more. Who knew Harry Styles still blushed at compliments.
âThen I will thank you for boosting my ego a bit,â He laughed.
âThe target has arrived. Heâs at the bar.â Glancing over Harryâs shoulder you saw the man you were here for sitting at the bar. You slide your eyes back to Harryâs.Â
âHow about you thank me with a drink, Mr. Styles,â you said.
âPlease call me Harry. And I would love to.â Taking your arm in his, he led you to the bar. Ordering you both a drink. You had your back to the diplomat, but you were keenly aware of him and most importantly where his drink was.
âSo what brings you here?â Harry asked, sipping his drink, his eyes never leaving yours after a few minutes of talking.
âWork.â You answered, before pausing. âMy company did the flowers and they thanked us with a ticket. I won the luck of the draw,â you shrugged.
âWell, I am just as lucky you got to come.â
âHmm, and why is that?â
âAs much as I love this charity,â he started before pausing and leaning closer. âI would have probably died from boredom, or got locked in the bathroom when I tried to hide from all the people trying to sleep with me.â
You laughed. âStuck in the bathroom, sounds like itâs happened before.â
âA few times actually. Once a crewmember had to break the door down, I fell into the toilet,â he said, chuckling.
You laughed again, this time louder as you playfully shoved his shoulder. âNo,â you gasped.
âI was mortified. That is the last time I tried to avoid Jenifer Coolidge's grabby hands,â he teased.
Again you laughed, shoving yourself back, bumping into the diplomat, and knocking his dress over. You turned, gasping slightly. âOh, Iâm so sorry. I didnât see you there,â you said, your hand going into your small clutch, pulling out a tissue, but also the strip with the poison. Quickly you were dabbing at the spilled drink on the counter and his hand long enough for the poison to transfer before pulling away.
He chuckled, waving you away. âIt happens all the time, donât worry about it. I would spill a drink if I was the one chatting up someone like Mr. Styles,â he teased, giving you a wink.
You chuckled back, putting the tissue away. As sweet as he seemed, you knew about the horrible things he did to the people back in his country and the worse things he did to young boys and girls he ordered to his home.
âGood work, daffodil. Now get out of there.â
Nodding to yourself, you thanked the diplomat once more before turning to Harry. âI canât believe I did that. I think it is best if I leave,â you said.
âLeave?â He asked with sad, wide green eyes.
Oh, he looked so adorable like a little puppy. As much as you wanted to stay and talk more you needed to leave, your job was done and nothing good came from staying longer than needed.
âSorry, I have an early tomorrow anyways,â you said.
âLet me walk you out then,â he said.
Nodding you let him walk you out. You subtly took out your earbud, placing it in your bag. âSo tell me, Harry, have you ever wasted someone on someone important?â You teased.
âI once went to dinner with Timothee Chalamet and he had something on the side of his face and I stupidly did that thing when you lick a napkin to wipe off.â
Your eyes widened as you stared at him in horror, âNOâ
âYes. To make matters worse, we were with at least 7 other people, who all stopped and stared when it happened. I got up so quickly, I fell over my chair. Iâll just say Iâve never been back to dinner with that group.â
You couldnât help but laugh, holding on to Harryâs arm to keep yourself upright. âWhat possessed you to do that?â You asked between fits.
âOh that question keeps me up at night,â he said, laughing along with you.
Once you both grabbed your coats you walked outside into the cool night air. Harry smiled down at you. âYou know I was thinking about leaving as well. Kind of hungry, do you want to go get a burger with me?â
âDepends.â
âOnâ
âFrom where.â
He grinned. âAnywhere you want.
You matched his grin with one of your own. âI know the perfect place,â you said, tugging him down the street.
âSo you kill people for a living?â Harry asked in disbelief, sitting on the edge of your bed.
You nodded from your place on the ground, between his legs. Your hands ran up and down his thighs trying to soothe him.
âThat is not like a florist at all.â
âWell bad people are like weeds soâŚâ
He gave you a blank look.Â
âI should have told you sooner, but I wasnât sure.â
âWasnât sure? Weâve been married for three years and you werenât sure if you could trust me?â He scoffed.
âWhat no? Of course, I trust you. I wanted to leave the company when we got married and thought it was best not to tell you, it was safer that way, but I kept putting it off and then I left last month and it turns out my boss didnât like that too much so he sold me information to the highest bidder.â
He ran his hands through his curls, nodding to himself a few times. You watched him, glancing at your watch. You couldnât stay here much longer, you had a few options, leave him behind, or knock him out and take him with you.
Neither option was good, but if he couldnât stop panicking it would leave you no choice. You loved him too much to leave him behind, plus they could use him to get to you, though you made sure that nothing tracked to him, if they came here, they would know.
This is your fault for falling in love with a celebrity. You cursed yourself once more for being so foolish.Â
âOkay,â he said a moment later
âOkay?â
âYeah, okay. We still have a lot to talk about, Iâll text Jeff and my family and let them know I am going on vacation off the grid,â he said, grabbing his phone to send off the text before smashing his phone.
âBaby was that for?â You laughed, getting up from the floor.
âThatâs what they do in movies, lovie.â
You kissed his keep, grabbing the bags off the bed, rolling your eyes playfully when Harry grabbed one from you. âWe could have made the phone untraceable or used it to back hack them,â
âOh, well I am a singer. Iâm not versed in spy things,â
âDonât worry, Iâll teach you, but we need to go,â you said, walking downstairs, pausing to grab your wedding photo.
The moment you opened the front door, you saw a black SUV pulling into the driveway. âFuck fuck fuck,â you cursed slamming the door back and moving the table in front of the door. âDo you think you can get the sofa?â
Harry stared at you with big eyes. His mouth opened and closed.
âBaby sofa, now, freak out later.â
Nodding he went around the corner. You looked out the window to see another car pulling up, roughly 5 guys getting out of both. You huffed, slightly annoyed and honored with how many people they sent to take you out.
You pulled a gun out of the back of your pants, checking the magazine even if you knew it was full, before grabbing another out of your bag just as Harry rounded the corner with the sofa.
You quickly helped him, taking a peek out of the window, before grabbing him and shoving him to the floor. A second later bullets are flying.Â
âOh my god, people are trying to kill usâ He whispered-yelled.
âYeah baby, I know, now we need to get to the backyard.â
âWhat? Not the garage? You know the cars?âHe said but started crawling towards the backyard.
The moment you were further enough from the door, you spoke, grabbing his arm and running for the door. The front door was kicked in and you shoved him outside. âHere take this,â you said, passing him a gun.
âWhat? Lovie? I donât know how to shoot this,â he said incredulously.
âHarry, come on, you pull the trigger everyone knows that donât be insane. Go towards the neighbor's house, if someone comes at you, shoot first and ask questions later. Got it?â
âFuck, okay shoot first, ask questions later. Shit, be careful lovie,â he said, kissing you fiercely before doing as you said.Â
Sighing you pulled your gun out just as someone rounded the corner. âMy front door was beautiful, you dick,â you said, shooting them. Running over you grabbed his gun, tucking it away. A shot went off, barely missing you.Â
Groaning, you turned around firing back. You really werenât in the mood for a shot out, you just wanted to get Harry out of here safely and then think of a plan.Â
You ran at the next person, knocking them to the ground, and slamming their head on the floor until they were knocked out. You took them out as they came at you, firing and shooting.Â
You were sweaty by the time you made it outside, crossing over into the neighbor's lawn, narrowly missing a bullet Harry fired. âShit, lovie, Iâm sorry I didnât mean to you said shoot first,â he said, running over to you.
âWhat happened? Did you get shot?â He asked worriedly, looking at your bleeding arm. You waved him off, checking him over, but besides looking frazzled he seemed fine.
âIâm fine H. Just a little graze,â you said, taking his hand. âAre you okay?â You asked, pulling him along to the neighbor's garage.
âYeah, Iâm fine. I almost had to shoot someone, but they slipt and fell in our pool.â He said, following closely behind you. âAre our neighbors in on this?â
âNo. I own this house.â
âWhat? You really have a lot of explaining to do,â
âI know I know and I will. I promise,â walking into the garage you put the bags on your bike. âWe need to leave and go to my safe house,â You explained tossing a helmet at him. You got on the bike, putting your own helmet on.
Harry got on wrapping his arms around you. âI didnât know you could drive a motorcycle,â he mumbled.Â
âAgain Iâm sorry.â You said, opening the garage to two men standing with guns. âShit, Harry shot them,â you said.
âMe?âÂ
The men smirked, raising their guns.
âYes and now.â
Harry cursed before shooting them both in the knees. âWell that is better than nothing,â you teased as you took off down the road.
âReally I just saved our lives.â
âI know and I love you for it.â
He just huffed, tightening his hold on your waist. âSo can you speak more languages than I know of?â
âNine.â
âYeah, you have a lot of explaining to do.â
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