#but these are like the main ones i can find rn

[cinnamonsly]

i don’t think there is anything worse in this entire world than desperately clinging onto a hyperfixation you’ve had forever that you know is slowly fading away from you

#and you know there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it either #literally one of the worst feelings in the world #yes this may or may not be about CCCC #like i still love the characters and album to death but my brain doesn’t have a frickin chokehold on them anymore like it did #which is honestly one of the main reasons for this massive art block rn #this isn’t to say CCCC/CJ art and content is going away. no worries about that #but i find it rly hard to draw stuff for things i am not currently hyperfixated on #ugh it’s a struggle. but i’m working on it #thanks for ur patience

[crazy-maracuya]

Im gonna do whats called an Euripides move

#spin the tale around for so many stories of the bible and yet still follow the plot just to mess with people's heads: #On blast rn (most of these are tragedies): #A tragic love story betweeen Absalom and Mephiboshet #Another tragedy of Neptolemous becoming sympathetic and regretful of the things he has done in war only to get killed by his actions #The tiny story of Abbadon and Azrael witnessing the beginnings o the heavenly war and the end of time in the rapture. #Another short story of Satan forgetting his angelic name (symbolism) and trying to find Michael to help him remember. #Another short story of Gabriel falling in love with Michael and asking Miriam for help about human feelings. #Testament of Solomon rewrite where he keeps talking with the demons about their pasts and just shenanigangs #Uriel's adventures in deep space and the many extraterrestrial beings that appear. (I literally want to get a biology degree for this) #Mary Magdalene. Virgin Mary and John's lives after the death of Jesus. #The women in ministry in the early church. #Cain and Abel's story from the point of view of the older sister and Cain's wife. #Deborah's story #Job's journey through so much more becuase I love this man he is so cool. #Paul's life story and his corresponding love with Jesus. #A divine comedy inspired story but with essence of all the abrahamic religions being combined witouth answering which one is actually real #(not just the three main ones but like also as many others as I can place of the abrahamic tree) #and ummmmmmmmmm..... wait theres too muvh ill run out of tag spaceeeee

[deityofhearts]

ya know it’s honestly funny and weirdly comforting when my friends call me a fake gremlin or green tea bitch because like despite that they still love me and like having me around

#deity dialogue #idk like I’m the past I’ve struggled a lot with like ‘performative positivity’ where I wouldn’t ever let myself be anything other than peppy #24/7 even when it was exhausting and I wasn’t happy #and then irl I deal a lot with being treated like an idiot and infantalized and so I’ve in an attempt to make myself feel better #started to lean into it like sure make whatever assumptions you want about me I’ll find a way to benefit from you treating me like this #I’ll pretend to be an uwu sweet angel if that pleases you or whatever. #but like it’s also nice because like around my friends and loved ones I can have actual emotions other than happiness 24/7 #that being said I still talk like an elementary school teacher I cannot change this I’m sorry #that’s not fake I just talk Like That I know I use and excessive amount of exclamation points and question marks this won’t change lmao #I also like to think I’m somewhat peppy and social? sure my social skills suck ass and I’m terrified of everyone ever #but I also love to talk to people and hear from people I’m just kinda at a point where I struggle to even reach out first to most people any #more. it feels like if I try to maintain contact or reach out first that I’m overstepping and should be killed in sight lmao #so again sorry if y’all don’t hear from me much or at all it’s not anything y’all did I just struggle a lot and idk how to not T-T #I have to hope that someday it’ll get easier #rn the main thing helping is the reassurance and patience from ny beloved friends <3 I love my friends sm #the tags r all over the place sorry I’m half asleep

[moonsidesong]

wtf do you MEAN the urban legend in limbo ps4 soundtrack cd was limited edition and is hard to find now HAVE YOU considered that i want the gay little cds in my house for Not one billion dollars??????????

#i made PEACE with not getting zmc 5.5 / 9.5 because they didn't even come with cute cases #like that's Fine whatever #but AUUGH this one hurts a little more #maybe someday i'll get lucky i just have to keep my eye out... #there's only one listing i can find rn and it's like a hundred bucks including shipping #like granted it also comes with the main game? and i don't really need that so i can sell it #but still... lotta money for a seven track cd lol...

[macroglossus]

accidentally set it up so i finished thieves guild, dark brotherhood AND champions questlines today 💪

#what else can i do before i start main questline..... i've done 4/5 black books but i don't remember where the fifth is so i might look for #that #unless it's locked behind the miraak quest which i can't do bc i haven't even seen a dragon besides the helgen one #OH dawnguard!!!! duh!! usually i do that early game so i get my beloved serana but i'm nervousssss bc i have my darling weirdo cicero as a #companion rn and my first game glitched and let them BOTH be my companions but i'm sure it won't work the second time around..... i guess i #could try downloading the multiple companions mod but i've never downloaded a mod before so like. idk also i think the update might've #broken it anyway #whatever. okay find 5th black book hopefully and dawnguard and then i guess i have to bite the bullet and do main...... #ugh and maybe the civil war questline. which i hate tbh

[nomaishuttle]

sweeney pondered and sweeney planned like a perfect machine he planned. barbing the hook baiting the trap setting it out for the beadle to snap. if u even care

#im making my frankensweeney playlist rn (sweeney playlist with every sweeney recording on spotify organized so u can hear every version of\ #each song) #the main reason im making it is so i can find the best standins for the songs 2012 doesnt have and aklso bc i think its fun 2 hear all the #versions.. #altho tbh i prettyyy much already know im gonna be using 2023 sweeney to fill in most of 2012s missing songs.. like pirellis songs and #greenfinch and linnet bird probably will be 2023. the only one im like worried abt is poor thing bc famously i Do not like 23 lovett. #but i also dont like 06 lovett so its either gonna be 80s or the movie i suppose..

[apollo-just-ice]

Love that I had the thought “hmm well some of this stuff in my fic might not be completely accurate :/“

But then I reminded myself it’s like a totally self indulgent written for *me* thing,,, like yeah! It doesn’t have to be perfect, I am writing what makes my heart happy! That is all that should matter really!! And so now I feel okay, honestly. Good job, me.

That rly is an important thing to remember when creating things, is that foremost it should be making you happy, no matter inaccuracies or popularity or anything else

Also an essay of my thoughts about writing a pmd fic below in the tags hahah oops:

#lol yes I have been working on a pmd fic that I may or may not post when it’s done #it’s like such a conglomeration of different points in my life when I played the game and thoughts and feelings from throughout those times #something that can be. so personal #I wanna make a mark of having some pmd content shared I think so! #but yk so maybe there is some wavy logic in the human (before they became a Pokémon) being able to talk to Pokémon #but that is always how I imagined it must’ve been as a kid without question #and that I know Grovyle and the mc aren’t the main relationship the game wants focus on #but for me over the years I more and more find it fascinating to think about #especially just with the context of a friendship that now only has memories remaining with one person #and stuff like that #but I don’t super delve into angst bc I also rly just want this to be cozy at the end of the day #happy warm soft fuzzy cozy vibes #which I probably get from nostalgia alone here but writing it I feel those energies in it #but while the partner character doesn’t get as much of a focus she is still so dear to me methinks #idk this rambling has been going on so long rn lol #I hope all that I have been putting into this fic shows through in the end #I’m not even done writing it yet it has been a challenge at times but I sure do want to complete it #okay thanks and thanks like sm if you read the tags hahah <3 #now we are going to do proper tags so maybe people will see this… #pmd #pmd explorers #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokemon #fanfic #writing #content creating #? idk what to tag bc the advice/whatever u would call it can apply to more than just writers I think… #pmd2 #pmd eos #pmd sky

[memecatwings]

yaoi recs based on that post about the princes and knights? 👀

ok to preface the only yaoi i would ever sincerely recommend ever is killer crush but since you have asked you shall receive but im saying upfront that this is yaoi and yaoi is basically its own content warning you are getting what you have requested here.

on another note i would also like to state that the selections i have hand picked i chose based on the criteria of "warrior gets railed by pretty boy" and they are not all necessarily prince/knight.

also also im not including links because i dont want the sites i use to get reported and shut down.

now here's your rec list + one only tangentially related yaoi that ive been keeping up with recently that i find kind of really sweet and wanted to share it even though it doesnt fit the criteria

+1

#a lot harder than i thought itd be to find these if im being honest #i dug through. so much #small top big bottom is kind of niche and then you gotta filter for fantasy its a whole thing #this isnt even a subgenre its like. a niche of a subgenre. hell #i feel like there's definitely more but this is all i could scrounge up rn #soldier and soother is probably the closest exact match to what youre looking for though :3 #you should stay away from the grand dukes boytoy if youre faint of heart though that ones kinda advanced #trying to find these was like .man. its always the prince getting railed #you can make your own choices on what to do with this #marking this post as mature bc well. you know #i talked a big game on that post anon is referencing so im a little embarassed rn #anyways. nobody cancel me for yaoi on main

[excesscore]

i am. probably going to have to not draw very much at all as much as i want to. it has been nearly a year now of near constant wrist/hand pain. um. ill still be doing a thing here and there but like... lets be honest, i fucked up my wrist badly last year. not to mention my usual disability getting worse and making it hard to stay in a Good drawing position or really.. do anything.

As much as I really enjoy drawing and I'm really proud of how much progress I've made, I also..like. need to take care of my health and acknowledge the fact that like..... I physically should not be drawing right now. And that's not going to change anytime soon.

#not to mention other issues that get in the way of me drawing #i am working on other Less Bad For Wrist art things.. #will you see them anytime soon? no #probably fucking not. #i mean okay the thing im working on rn yes. you can see previews on my main. its just a silly model edit. #but. you know . . . theres others... #and other things simply wont be posted under this inline identity ^^ if you find it. dont connect it to this one <3 i like keeping my thing #separate uwu

[autistickaitovocaloid]

I haven't done all the sidequests etc that I still want to do in my inital playthrough but I kind of want to replay totk...

#art talks about stuff #like even if i know all the twists + story beats i want to actually like #replay it in order as 1. i didn't know the geoglyphs had an order and 2. i ended up getting [redacted] early therefore making- #-a whole chunk of questline redundant #maybe once i finish all of the sidequests excluding the compendium one #like in my main botw save file i've nearly 100%ed it aside from all the koroks seeds all the armour upgrades like 1 kilton medal #and the zora stone monuments quest because fuck that quest it confuses me #aside from sidequests i've still got koroks upgrades + miniboss medals #and then also the bubbulfrogs i think i have like 79 left to find #but those can wait until i'm properly in 100% mode. rn i'm still taking in everything #like i said it'll probably be once i've finished all the sidequests that aren't filling out the compendium #which could be anywhere from a couple of days to a week

[jankwritten]

the story doesn't start with the beginning or the end, the story starts with the moments that spark it. the story starts with that idea you had that made you want to sit down and write, the story starts with the moment the characters have that branches out and out, blooms into so many different choices and paths and conversations. it's okay if you don't know how to begin or how to end or even if you don't know what the story wants. just write the moments. follow them and see where they lead.

#this post brought to you by: my fucking writing process #i always try to force myself to write the beginning like i 'should' but then i get BORED and i wanna write the FUN STUFF #so write the fucking fun stuff!!!! #write the moments!!!!! #write when the two protag's eyes catch across the room #write the moment when the main character massively fucks up his entire project and ruins months of work! #write the moment where the hero and the villain run up against one another and in the ensuing fight we learn that they loved one another #like write the shit that makes the story INTERESTING!!! #i PROMISE it will lead you to the plot it will lead you to all the points you need SO Much better #you don't have to start where the story starts. you can start wherever the FUCK you want and then decide later what to do #i always start writing where the conlflict begins #and then if backstory is needed or if there's something that should come first i can make it come first #i can start with nico meeting the weird pale blonde boy and taking him into the woods and then i can go back and add the context #write the moments god dammit #ALSO ALSO ALSO if this advice isn't for you then fuck it!!! this is my advice that i took and it works for me and if it doesn't work for u #then that's totally chill and cool and sexy! now you know one more thing that doesn't work and you're closer to finding the thing that does #it's 3 am so i don't know how coherent this will seem in the morning but By The Gods does it feel so important rn #maybe this is more just a note for myself. write the fucking moments grey.

[g-r-a-y-p-h-i-c]

not really the typical content for this blog, but i did some concept exploration for a pair of pajama bottoms im gonna visibly mend. its very rough, since i didnt go into this expecting to post it lol

#artists on tumblr #autisticart #quickmessyscribbles #for those of you who dont follow my main: this laptop is like kinda on the fritz rn #so im probably putting the art project ive been working on since last april on hold til some laptop repair supplies arrive later this month #bc id really really hate to make some serious progress and then have the laptop shut down right in the middle of it and lose all that #so- ive been focusing more on visible mending (another thing i do) bc if i dont have SOMETHING creative to do ill get cabin fever #the pants* im mending have been a bit challenging in terms of what to use thatll work with this odd burgundy/light blue/lime combo #but i think i finally figured it out by booting up csp and using the tools in there to come up w more colours #and i even managed to find threads to buy that match those colours decently! well- kind of. #so the (GOTS- and OekoTex-certified) thread shop i frequent is like. currently in the process of getting set up #it actually didnt exist the first time i bought something from them- i had to go find ANOTHER shop that sold their stuff and get it there #thankfully now they Do have their own shop so i can buy direct from them. BUT- #they have a lot of colours they Plan to sell that arent yet available #three of the colours i picked here are of those unavailable ones #so ive emailed them for an eta & set up an email subscription (hoping to get emailed whenever a new colours added) #and- we'll see what happens #worst case scenario i have to go somewhere else for three colours (which'd be a pain- hard to match this shops quality) #*i am also working on mending a few other things but for various reasons (supplies for x has to arrive; y is currently in the wash; etc) #those arent available atm #this image really is way way lazier than i think anything else ive Ever posted to this blog #couldnt even be bothered to make the 'sun' motif round or fully coloured-in #but like. i wont have much else to post to this blog til i finish that ongoing art project and THATS not happening anytime soon #and- shoddy execution aside- i DO like the colours and concepts in this image #so. shrug

[iratusmus]

what is one peice.is it like. a bathing suit. insert panel where sally acorn is cutting up film reels here

one piece is the best selling manga of all time and it damn well deserves it

#im not sure if you meant this as a dumb joke or a genuine question but im going to answer it seriously anyways #bc if you give me the chance to talk about this series i fr will never shut up about it #im going to sum it up as best as i can given that its a 1000+ chapter ongoing manga but Basically #one piece is a long running shounen manga about friendship and freedom and adventure. and also pirates #the mc is a guy named monkey d. luffy who gets rubber hose animation style powers as a kid and wants to find the One Piece #there are many very stupid and very serious shenanigans #the humor can only be described as wildly stupid but lord its so terribly funny #and the tone of the store oscillates back and forth between #''genuinely who hurt you author . why did you feel the need to rip my heart out and stomp on it and then tear it to pieces'' #and #''real question wtf am i reading (but in the stupidest funniest possible way)'' #but not in a way thats jarring or try hard edgy #the main cast is... spectacular. like theyre so well done and such great enjoyable characters and their dynamics are just DELIGHTFUL #the mc is probably my most favorite mc of all time #the worldbuilding is insanely good and so extremely fun and flexible #there is a massive and sprawling cast but they are juggled so well and when you stop to think abt how many moving parts there are #esp in the later arcs. its like. real question author why are you so good at this #and most shockingly of all i think. is that after 25 years there is no series decay. the most recent arc is one of my most favorites #regardless if youre interested in checking it out rn is literally the best time because we're on a month long break (2 weeks in) #if you need a site i have one. also dont watch the anime unless you really just dont like reading manga bc the pacing is ABYSMAL #ask #scatman-world #also it would be SO absurdly easy to make an archie sonic crossover with it. like. so so easy. #one day ill run into somebody who likes archie and op and then we can talk about judge and locke basically being the same guy #but until then

[vonkarma2]

4 + 14 + 23 + 27 + 34?!

4. How did you find the name for a certain character?

I have the same process pretty much all the time I feel bad bc this is such a fun question or it would be 😞 no ones named after anyone or like has their name chosen based on the meaning actively I just like look up names for the place and time period and pick whichever I think fit the character or I already have a name in mind when I make them. I’m like wondering if there were any exceptions. Oh I did want my character Adam’s name to sound like a pseudonym instead of a regular name right bc he’s an SCP agent type like mysterious or whatever. So I used a stage name generator to find out his last name (Adam I just liked how it sounded + the fact that it was biblical). I also like the last name King bc he is also in a position of authority over the other characters at times so it makes sense I guess. 

14.Which OC/s do you relate to the most?

Kind of embarrassing to answer lol like this has to be at least a little personal. I like actively try to make OCs different from myself so I’m not just projecting onto them yk. Like that would be first of all embarrassing LMAO but second of all it it wouldn’t be very interesting to explore I feel like. In my opinion it’s better to start with something you can understand, but like have layers of complexity that you don’t relate to at all or whatever. I don’t really know. But to answer the question I think I relate to like the 3 main OCs of Rocio Angel and Cirillo the most :P maybe Lucia as well. 

23. Have you ever seen something/someone that looks like one of your characters IRL? What was it like?

I actually haven’t that I can remember like not particularly. I have seen some people sometime where I was like ok I should draw a character’s hair or eyes or etc more like them. Like bc I was trying to draw them a certain way but wasn’t 100 sure how but I’d see someone who looked like them irl and I was like ok ok like that. Ofc Ive seen people with some shared traits, but no one who really looked exactly the same, no one where like I was like omg it’s like seeing them irl yk. 

In terms of seeing people irl that remind me of them though like vibes wise what I have seen is people whose clothing really reminded me of like certain characters. Like not that they would actually wear the same thing because I don’t live in a fantasy world in the 1940s but like that remind me of their personality like that they would wear it yk. One time I was like walking around in a city and saw like 10 people with really nice outfits trying to memorize them all to write them down and draw ocs in them later. I ended up doing one of them but I didn’t like how it turned out 😔

27. What's the nicest thing someone has ever said about an OC/OCs?

This question is so embarrassing I have to admit I remember specific nice things people have said about OCs. I do remember specific nice things people have said though. It is hard to pick like 1 nicest thing. You saying Rocio had autism swag is up there. My irl cousin said a bunch of REALLY nice stuff a while ago she likes reading so it was nice to see her reaction. But like every time anyone has said anything like they like a character’s personality or design or storyline or anything it’s really nice I definitely appreciate it and I will remember it forever <3 

34. What scene that you've written/imagined is your favorite?

That’s a good question. I literally don’t know at all. Bc I don’t have like all the details down for most of the scenes I’m thinking so all the ones I’ve like thought abt vividly just have a cool visual to go with them and that’s abt it. That makes it sound shallow it’s not that it’s just like I like the emotion of the scene and the idea behind it but not really any of the specifics you know. So I feel like if I tried to pick one it wouldn’t be like a nuanced pick it wouldn’t be like because it develops the character in this way yk it’d be like bc it’s the climactic scene where this character almost dies and it’s so cool or something like that. Does that even make sense. 

Ok time to actually answer the question. I wish I had thought of more scenes that like show the dynamics between characters that I like bc my plan with that was to write it in wherever it felt intuitive yk. Like check up on the chastcters’ emotional states to see how they’re reacting to plot events. I just realized as writing this I think I want to have Tiago live for longer. Ok ignore that thats not important ummm I think the only scene I’ve really thought much about along those lines is the one where Cirillo and Laura meet again after a long time. I like the conflict there I like the characters a lot and I think it has the potential to be a very satisfying scene <3. Also maybe like denouement stuff where Rocio is like hi getting back from thr underworld was so annoying anyway sorry for almost ruining your lives and getting you killed. As you can see I haven’t really developed that part of the story yet but I think it’d be cool to see as well

#Im going to have to change Gawain’s name #because I have an active investment in like the knight of the round table gawain now 😞 #<Im not actually going to #also this reminded me I need to start putting my art into a folder #I always have to re export them from procreate I can never find the ones I need 😭 #also I might write something with Rocio and Yiming of all people lol #I think it’d be an interesting change of pace #also also maybe develop the plot line with the assassins in a little more depth? #my main thoughts rn are to make everything more complex #+ just have there be more going on #Lucia and Joanna subplot as well esp since it’s been like revamped #I like it though I think it gives Lucia more to do #only problem is figuring out her character development 😔 #well whatever I’ll get to it for sure #wow thats a lot ok anyway thanks again for sending this in :) #my ocs

[noxtivagus]

IDENTITY CRISIS WOOOO

#🌙.rambles #ok i will move these to my spam account soon but wait quick rant. actually not fully rant just smth i find interesting to think about #since yk how we ourselves change somewhat. like. huh. everyone to an extent i think but as an empath i'm probably more susceptible to it #depending on the people we're with. the environment n all. we change a bit #like w each friend i just naturally end up matching their way of text n their mannerisms esp when i'm around them #while most of it is natural n all too it's one of my love languages >< i love the feeling of. yk having more similarity #personally for me it makes me feel more understood n connected #NO FUCKING WAYYYY WAIT. SOB. watching from apollo's laptop rn a bit of that one cutscene with emet-selch ffxiv n bestie #the way. the way he looks at the wol. THE WAY HE SMILED.... HE DOESN'T SMILE OFTEN???? THIS GRUMPY LIL MF #wait i'm emotional. meteion and hermes n. FUCKKK #SOB HERMES YOU NEVER MANAGED TO FIND YOUR ANSWER. I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY #GOD CCAN YOU TELL THE KIND OF PERSON I AM FROM MY FAVE CHARAS #A 'FIELD OF FLOWERS'. IM GNA CRYYYYYY 'thank you for guiding me here' i. GOD I'M EMOTIONAL THIS #mafuyu's my fav chara. i'm a kanade kin. hahaha. & then. i'm a dark knight main in ffxiv. after tank i'm also a healer main #can you see? i love to. i love to help others oh my fucking god n it burdens me but. i love it more. as a strength. #flow is making me emotional. the lyrics mean so much to me. with ffxiv context n then. my emotional attachment to it for numerous reasons #the lyrics. out of context comfort me. resonate with me. the rain. stars. fate. memory. love. water. sleep. dawn. dreams. #i wonder what words others hold in importance. that resonate with their soul. & what it means to them. memories too #i know in certainty for me. i want to learn of everyone else #this little world of mine. i wonder. how. it looks like in your eyes. what others wish to learn of me too. i can only hope that #i'm so used to fiction you see. reality feels so distant at times. n with my differences it. oft feels i don't belong #yet still i hold on. why? bcs there's so much more to life. please don't give up. you deserve so much more. #n to everyone i know now. to just indulge in myself maybe. a selfish desire. i hope this will last. n i'll be there to see you #better and happier in the future. for as short and long as we know each other i care for all of you so so much #maybe i'm sorry for ever loving you in whichever way it differs per person in my life. but i'll be a bother. i don't want to #i don't want to lose anyone anymore #god... thinking back on drk and. myste's words resonate with me so much. love and forgiveness has always meant so much to me #ah yeah i remember again who i am. don't think twice is also making me extra emotional #i'm sorry though. it really does hurt n. time's going far too fast. but i'll try to do what i can. so long as you're still with me i think #i can manage. that's enough. that would be enough. even if i'm not enough. i'll hold unto myself and. what's important to me

[coffee-bat]

this is the 2fort server of all time

#been frequenting it the past days #it's so chaotic it's great #lots of a-posing and random explosions #also yesterday we had movie night (on request a dude playingthe entirety of 'expiration date' in voice chat) #anyway maining this server rn :)) happy to have found it #tf2 #ramble #i've dug through SO many either empty or bot-filled servers to find this one #so ig i can give it as reccomendation to spare the trouble for anyone else here who might be looking for that :) #it's a capture the flag map but we don't fully like... do that #as in matches usually last at least 1-2 hours before either team gets the intel 4 times #leaves lots of room for just vibing