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generallynerdy · 4 years

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High On the Burn (Carol Danvers X F!Soulmate!Reader)

Summary: In a post-Snap universe, the last thing (Y/N) (L/N) and Carol Danvers want is to meet their Soulmate. But in a very punctual fashion, fate decides to play with matches.

Requested by Anon: See your Steve Rogers soulmate fic has me hooked on the idea. How about a Carol Danvers x Fem!Reader soulmate fic where the reader is a very powerful Avenger and they meet after the decimation but before it is undone. Bonus points if it's angsty because Carol tries to fight the attraction (on account of being scared to lose the Reader), and for short hair!Carol.

Key: (Y/N) - your name, (L/N) - last name Warnings: i have no idea how far into the aftermath carol cut her hair so sue me, Nova calls the Decimation the Snap bc its a superior name, ENDGAME SPOILERS, cursing, angst, that Gay Shit yet again Word Count: 1,447

Note: i think i accidentally created a new soulmate au but im sure someone has done it before? Where u touch and u pretty much get really high and overwhelmed with positive emotion, but if neither one of u wants to meet the other, then its a whole big bundle of Suffering. I may use it again in the future?? Idk. anyway this is really soft!!

The thing about the world ending was that it wasn’t supposed to get worse.

Yeah, the world would fall apart and people would struggle to pick things up again, but no one would ever have to watch half a world of loved ones disappear again. It could never be as bad as the day it happened-- or at least it wasn’t supposed to be.

For (Y/N) (L/N), things were very different.

Being part of the Avengers meant that every day was worse. Every day was another day you couldn’t save the world, another day your failure stared you right in the face and asked: “Why? Why couldn’t you save them?”

The day Tony Stark fell out of the sky was a little victory. Their friend was alive and he had two more with him for the ride. Well, the second part was a questionable victory. For (Y/N), it was a loss.

It was a gut feeling, the first time she made eye contact with the fiery-- literally-- blonde that brought Tony and Nebula back from Titan.

(Y/N) hadn’t been around the first time the woman was really there, but as soon as she got the call that Tony was alive, she raced to the compound. She’d been following leads on Thanos, trying to find him, trying to find anything that could help her kick his ass.

Nothing. There was nothing.

But when she met this woman’s eyes, there was something. There was a spark, a tiny one, but enough to scare the ever loving shit out of her-- out of both of them.

Sparks didn’t happen. Not since the world had ended.

“Hi,” the blonde said, reaching forward to shake (Y/N)’s hand. “Carol.”

“(Y/N),” she replied.

When their hands made contact, there was a sharp burn. It was like fire had engulfed their palms and a sword had stabbed through them at the same time. Carol winced and drew back her hand, while (Y/N) practically yelped.

It wasn’t supposed to be like that-- the burn, the pain.

It was supposed to feel like a high, like a burst of colour and light and love, reaching into your soul and pulling out a new person you didn’t recognise. Your Soulmate.

But this wasn’t love.

This was hatred. This was a glowing ember of hatred, for themselves, for the connection they had.

Who the hell met their Soulmate after the world ended? After the world ended because they couldn’t save it?

And suddenly, it was worse.

The end of the world was worse.

“Oh, shit,” came from Natasha’s mouth as she watched the exchange.

There was an awkward silence. The team would’ve dispersed out of respect, but social rules had since changed after the Snap. All things considered, this was probably the first meeting of Soulmates since the Snap. (Y/N) and Carol were the first.

And privately, (Y/N) hoped they would be the last, too.

“Hi,” (Y/N) whispered, the first to speak.

“Hi,” Carol repeated.

The feeling of being watched, being studied, sent the hairs on the back of (Y/N)’s neck straight up. She felt like a science experiment.

“I wish I could say it was nice to meet you,” she said, scraping for words.

Carol opened her mouth, closed it, then opened it again. “You, too.”

That was the only words exchanged between them for the moment.

Well…

For 6 months.

Despite her initial gut feeling to stay as far away as possible from Carol Danvers, (Y/N) began to miss her. It was a natural instinct to crave her Soulmate, however twisted their meeting was.

She had met Carol’s eyes for no longer than a second and she missed the feeling of them staring at her.

It didn’t help that (Y/N) was constantly interrogated by Bruce on how the separation was affecting her. He wanted to see the changes that the apocalypse made on the Soulmate system. Was it so natural that even half the population dying didn’t alter a Soulmate assignment? Had anything changed?

(Y/N) didn’t know and she didn’t care. Maybe Bruce was using it to distract himself, but she’d rather he didn’t. Just the mention of Carol made her heart rip in half.

Carol didn’t want her. That was what the burn meant.

Given, she hadn’t wanted Carol either, not at that moment, but her views had since changed.

So, she met her Soulmate after the apocalypse and so everything sucked right now, but that didn’t mean she should feel guilty for making an attempt to love her. She was meant to love Carol, Snap or not. The apocalypse shouldn’t get in the way of that. Surely Carol could come to the same conclusion.

Across the universe, a call rang out from the Avengers compound. A few replied.

It was like an intergalactic conference call, with (Y/N) taking the place of Natasha and getting updates from the rest of the team. Rhodey mentioned a missing Clint, Rocket said something about a major war breaking out, and the rest was barely paid attention to. Until Carol finished her report.

“Anything else?”

“No, luckily, it’s just that,” Carol said.

(Y/N)’s very presence seemed to make the woman uncomfortable. Or was she afraid?

Hesitantly, she dared to make things personal.

“You cut your hair,” she said in almost a whisper, a soft smile painting her face.

Carol was taken aback by this, but managed the tiniest sliver of a smirk. “Don’t like it?”

“No, I do,” (Y/N) stammered. “It’s just...different. Good different.”

As soon as the words left her lips, she heard a snort from the raccoon on the other line. (Y/N), one of the more powerful members of the team, shot one glare his way that made him go silent. He disconnected, followed shortly by the others, especially Rhodey, who shot both of them a knowing, encouraging, look.

“Carol--” (Y/N) started as soon as they were gone.

“Don’t,” the woman said. “Please, just don’t. Don’t make it worse.”

“It can’t get any worse,” she protested.

Carol sighed. “(Y/N), it can always get worse. I thought you’d know that by now.”

After a pause, (Y/N) nodded. “You know, you’re right. It can get worse.” Before Carol could be shocked at her sudden admission, she continued. “It gets worse every single day knowing that you’re out there fighting the entire universe and I can’t do anything but call once a month to make sure you’re alive.”

“(Y/N)--”

“I don’t know you, Carol, and it kills me,” she added, disregarding her interruption. “I know we didn’t want this, I know we didn’t want this now, of all times, but we have it. We can’t just not do anything about it.”

“It’s better that way,” Carol protested firmly.

(Y/N) scoffed. “Why? Why is it better that way? How can it possibly be better to let you die without having known you at all?”

“Because it hurts less than knowing me!” Carol huffed, crossing her arms. “I don’t wanna have you and have to lose you, (Y/N), and if that takes not having you at all, then that’s what I’ll do. I can’t lose you.”

“You already have,” her Soulmate spat.

She had to wipe away a tear that made its way down her cheek, contrary to her wishes.

“You’ve already got me, Carol Danvers, like it or not. And you’re already losing me,” she said again. “Please. Come back.”

Carol went quiet, uncrossing her arms and changing to a quiet tone. “Can you promise me you’ll be safe?”

“Never,” (Y/N) laughed a little. “But I couldn’t do that before this happened anyway. Just come back. Come back here and meet me properly, without the burn, without the dumbasses in the next room watching.”

Carol laughed at that, eyes softening at the effect the woman had on her. So that was what it was like to have a Soulmate. It cut and it burned, but she was high on it.

Despite being unable to actually touch (Y/N)-- Bruce had been working on that-- Carol lifted her hand. If she could touch her, her hand would be resting on her jaw, cupping her face ever so fondly. It was a small gesture, but it was something. Though neither could feel it, they may have preferred it to the intense pain of their first touch, that raging fire.

“Please?” (Y/N) asked one more time.

Carol practically melted at the break in her voice. “Okay,” she managed, not wanting to admit how the idea made her heart leap. “Okay. I will.”

“Promise?”

“I promise.”

(Requests are currently closed. I’m finishing up my old ones.)

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vore-scientist · 7 years

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Nagastuck Questions and Answers

thank you @edeacilys for all these wonderful questions! (the more questions I get, the more inspiration I get for the next story)

1) Has john ever met Jake, and do they fight? Oh I’ve definitely wanted to write this, but for now I’ll try to come up with ideas! It Depends on when they meet. There are two options.

it would likely be a few months after Dave and John have been friends (and after Jake has eaten Dave that one time, well im not saying it was just one time... again, Jake doesn’t ask permission). If that’s the case, , Jake would most likely be fascinated by John, who wears a shirt, who is very well socialized (as socialized as a naga with both ADHD and autism can be). Jake would probably comment that John is smaller than him, to which John would point out that he is still growing.

I have not decided exactly HOW the Sassacre Clan are related. Jane isn’t John’s father, she has no children, and neither does Jake. What I might go with is siblings from different litters, or clutches? Litters are for live born animals, clutches are for eggs. Jade is the oldest, Jake and Jane are either the same age or a year apart. John is the youngest.

But Jane is the smallest. No reason other than if she wasn’t, she wouldn’t be a TV star bc her size would’ve scared people off.

Anyways, Jane would notice that they are probably related, and feel obligated to let Jake stay in the mansion as well. idk if Jake would accept. He might just come and go as he pleases. Jane would get him a job to keep him out of trouble.

The other option? They dont meet until John is graduating high school, and is full grown. The thing is, he ends up being larger than Jake, since he wasn’t malnourished in the woods during childhood and puberty. And Jake would just be intimidated. John isn’t that much larger, but Jake is able to tell.

(probably going to go with Option 1, and have Jake get more and more scared as John gets older and eventually outgrows him)

Now, I didn’t answer if they fight or not! The answer is not. I can’t write fighting. If you want to know who would win in a fight, it’s Jake. John might end up physically larger (just barely) but Jake is stronger, more agile, and has better instincts.

2) what about Rose? Has she met John once? How did that happen and when?

She met him around the same time Dave did! They go to the same high school and Rose like weirdness, and John, the only Naga student, is worth meeting.

So nothing very exciting?

Not that I have nothing exciting in store for her!

Originally I was going to have it be that John had only eaten Dave until he meets Karkat. But I’m ret-conning this

John has totally eaten Rose. Probably after she figures out that he’s eaten Dave and she just has to know what it’s like for herself. I don’t know when or where that happens, but probably when all three (Dave, Rose, John) are hanging out at the Crocker mansion. Definitely while using the pool, i’m kinda outlining a fic in my head?

3) has Jake eaten someone else and released like he has with Dirk? if so, who?

Yeah, and it’s Dave. He’s kinda the universal prey in homestuck vore and im not gonna go against tradition!

Oh do you mean before Dirk?

A few times, yes, when people bargained with him. He would have caught them when he wasn’t that hungry, and had something he wanted. Like a cool hat. He has a collection of trinkets in the woods somewhere that he either found or… bargained for.

So it’s no one specific.

Wouldn’t this gain him a reputation? Ummm. yeah... I have plans.

The reason Dirk was let go, even though Jake was starving, was because he bargained with food.

4) Is HIC composed of people or is just one which controls all the company?

Just like in Homestuck, she is the founder and CEO and Betty Crocker. She is also a politician. Like our current president except smarter, less racist, less sexist, less antisemetic, and less homophobic. but just as evil.

She isn’t president yet. Probaby on the cabinet of whoever is the current one. idk who that is but it is a taur-man she helped put there in an experiment to see if America would even elect a taur.

WAIT IT’S GOTTA BE A HOMESTUCK CHARACTER, SO LET’S SAY UMMM ANOTHER MER-TAUR LIKE DUALSCAR? i’ll figure it out. it’s not ICP, im saying that right now.

5) what's is the HIC exactly? What's their goal?

She’s a mer-taur. She’s a CEO of a powerful baking company. She’s a politician. Her goal is to TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!! MUAHAHAAHAHAHA

6) is Feferi is also mermaid-taur? If no, what's is she?

She is! I believe I stayed that? or i just said she looked like HIC. If a taur has children with a human, it still has Taur children. If it’s a taur with a taur of a different species, and the children have a 50% of being either species, never a mix of the two.

So who is the father? it sure as fuck aint Duelscar. It’s some random politician who fell in love with HIC. He was… fed to Jade soon after Fef was born, or even before that, while HIC was pregnant. He’s probably one of the few that deserved it, whoever he was, he was also evil. He tried to take HIC’s power while she was pregnant. First he tried character assassination, claiming her having a child made her weak, then he tried actual assassination.

He also had world domination ambitions. But he ended up in Jade’s gut.

He also told Jade a false story, but when she is writing it down, Fef is able to recognize who he is.

kinda a weird sad not so sad moment? Fef realizes it’s her dad, and Jade is very much freaked out and tries to apologize but Fef actually knows about her dad bc HIC told her the story as an example not to betray her, and mentions that the dude did try to kill her while she was still in HIC’s womb. Jade still feels bad, but less bad bc the man was evil.

#nagastuck

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psychiatric-service-dog · 7 years

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So. I messed up & I take absolutely all the blame on this.... an SD handler’s worst nightmare:

Warrior pooped in Walmart today.

I feel ashamed not only as an SD handler, but a dog trainer & owner. I should have known better but I rushed it and he had an accident. I did give him time to use the bathroom outside (I /always/ do before we go into a public store.) but it was in the middle of a parking lot. I guess I never really thought he might be particular about where he poops? Maybe he doesn’t like to go out in the open. But I had kept telling him the command to go to the bathroom, but he wouldn’t, and didn’t act like it until we went into the store.

Thankfully no one saw, I always carry emergency poop bags on me, and it wasn’t that big of a mess. I had turned my back, turned around, he was already crouching down and pooping. I cleaned it up as best as I could, and high-tailed it out of there. I will NOT be going back to that Walmart ever again, and I am taking Warrior out of public access for at least 2 - 3 months.

Again, I take full blame for this. I /knew/ he had to poop. I know his pooping schedule quite well. I went against my gut instinct because he wouldn’t poop in the parking lot, but I really should have taken my time and brought him to a more sheltered area for him to poop. Though I know some of it is his marking behavior. He is not neutered, and I don’t intend on neutering him, but he has developed the behavior of marking with poop she he tends to hold it for specific areas. I am really, really reevaluating his ability as a Service Dog. He’s not bad at what he does, but he’s NOT as good as I need him to be. And you know what, that’s not his fault. I’m not blaming him. He’s a smart boy. He can be stubborn, and yes, he’s not only a young dog (my first young dog, too.) but also my first neutered dog. I know a lot of SD handlers on Tumblr say that being fixed vs not fixed doesn’t have a huge bearing on their behavior, but I really think it does. He’s much more bull-headed than other English Labs I have met at this age. So. Going back to the drawing board. 1.) Engagement is going to be our #1 focus. His public outings, he has been less and less engaged with me, and in general, he has been overlooking alerting me... or even paying attention. It isn’t like he is as distracted as he used to be, but he still isn’t focused on me. And I believe he pooped because he knew I wasn’t paying attention & he also didn’t care. I don’t think he would poop intentionally out of spite, but he knew that he isn’t supposed to poop indoors and waited until I wasn’t looking. And this isn’t even about him pooping, just in general, he has lost a lot of connection with me. I can’t blame him entirely, but like I said, he’s my first young and unfixed dog. I need to exercise him more, and train him more as well, and equal out both mental and physical training, as well as giving proper rest days. So I’ll be going back and looking at the Denise Fenzi post I reblogged a few days ago about engagement.

2.) I’m not going to use the choke or prong for a while. Just a flat collar. This pains me (literally) because any sudden jerks or straining he does REALLY hurts me, but idk. I’ve used a prong on him for.... 6+ months now. And I’ve noticed he seems to not love it. He does listen to me better with it, but I really know I cannot rely on it. I am just gonna have to suck it up and use a flat collar. I will only be using it in areas where I know he is less likely to pull though. I also will probably use it in conjunction with the Freedom Harness. If he can learn to walk on a loose lead on the flat collar and/or Freedom Harness, then we will adapt back to the prong.

3.) Like I said, we are going to pull out of public access (at least in stores) until I feel better about him. Again, it isn’t just him pooping that made me realize that public access isn’t going well... he makes me MORE stressed in public lately. Usually I can rely on him, even with people acting weird (I mean, today, before he pooped, someone actually reached over and pet his head, he didn’t flip out too much so good for him, but he still started whining a little bit because he wanted more attention.) but idk. I think I really fucked up his public access training. Maybe I am overreacting to that (I probably am tbh.) but it seems like he gets really stressed when we do it-- at least walking into stores, but he probably picks up on my anxiety :/ I thought he was just being excited, but he will pull, pant, whine, etc... I am used to more energetic dogs than English Labradors so I think it was hard for me to identify it as “stressful” behavior over “oh he’s just a puppy” though it’s probably a combination of the two. I did start public access when he was 6 months old and it wasn’t anything too stressful, and some stuff he can do just fine (like self check-out, quick 10 min trips to grab a thing in Target or Walmart.) but idk. I feel bad.

4.) And just in case I am gonna really go back on all our important SD tasks. Including bathroom on command. Yes, we may even have to resort back to giving him a treat when he goes where I want him to, but I think if I do it in public (or like in parking lots), it might make him poop in strange places easier.

I feel like I’m a bad trainer? But maybe I’m being too hard on myself. I know that this is my fault, I know we need to take steps back. And idk. I feel bad because I have been hard on myself and in extension, hard on Warrior. He’s almost 14 months now. He’s quite good at a lot, and could use improvement, but he is my FIRST Service Dog, my first puppy, my first unfixed dog. I am bound to make mistakes. He’s a learning experience. He’s still, overall, quite a stable, intelligent, loving dog... so that’s good. But idk. He’s still growing, he’s still learning.

Anyways.... I guess it goes to show that even with all the experience I have training dogs, and my knowledge of SD handling and laws, that doesn’t mean I have the hands-on experience. But I am going to do better and take better steps to work as a team with him.

#pppp #i feel so bad #and sad #but i guess this is my slap in the face to take things back to square 1

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nguyenx33 · 5 years

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Can’t believe we are pregnant again. Being pregnant again wasn’t something I thought was going to happen anytime soon— at least not for us.

I remember while taking the pregnancy test I felt for sure there is no way I was pregnant. But as I was sitting there waiting. the second line appeared slowly. I had to double check the instructions and even triple check it because I could not believe the results I was seeing. Believe it or not— WE ARE EXPECTING!! My body went into this shock mode because Riley just literally turn 1. We were just pregnant about a year ago and now we are doing this all over again.

[First trimester]

unlike my first pregnancy— this pregnancy wasn’t as bad. I don’t recall having much morning sickness or throwing up after every meal I had.

Hearing baby’s heart beat for the first time was everything. Having another life grow inside of me is so beautiful. What we experienced with Riley was beyond magical and breath taking— & to be able to experience it all over again.... we are so lucky 💓

Both Layne and I are so excited to start on this pregnant journey again.

[Second trimester]

At first we were planning to do a gender reveal party. However after having a talk with each other. We’ve both decided to wait till we give birth to find out. YES. I know. How can we do that for 9 months?! Believe it or not at first I was so ANXIOUS to find out. I told myself, man there is no way I can wait that long. I need to know now!! But then I realize maybe after all it isn’t so bad waiting. Who doesn’t like surprises right?! It has to be one or the other— & for that we’ve decided to keep the gender a surprise.

Deep down in my gut feeling I swore we are having a boy. This pregnancy feels different and my instincts tells me it might just be a boy 👶🏻 —Idk, I could be wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️ boy or girl, as long as baby comes out healthy and full term. We are happy with which ever.

{16 - 36 weeks;}

So with this pregnancy to prevent preterm labor again. I had to start taking progesterone shots weekly until I hit 36 weeks. Thankfully I am able to get the shots at home. Layne was such a big help and im so grateful for him. For a person that has no medical background and has never given a shot before. He was the one who gave me the shots weekly with minimal pain. I remember how much I dreaded getting these shots weekly. I’m so glad it was over. On a good note. The shots did help.

[Third trimester]

Following up for my heart blocks. I had to do some extra testing to ensure my heart is ready for delivery and see if there is any leakage. Good news is that they did not find anything. Which is a good thing. Dr Khan, however did suggest I get a sleep study done. I on the other hand, don’t feel like I need to at this point or will in the near future. My palpitations has not been bad at all with this pregnancy. As a matter of fact, I barely had any.

36 week prenatal visit was when I got my cervix check every week until labor. Good news was I was only half centimeter dilated. My cervix is still close.

{37-39 weeks}

Final last trimester— feeling heavier than ever. Swollen foot, hands & backaches. I can’t believe i made it to full term. We’re so excited to bring baby home with us and not have to go to the NICU.

During the last two prenatal visit I was measuring a little big so Dr Asato ordered an ultrasound to see how much baby weighs. Weighing in at 5 lbs 4 oz about 1 month before my due date. I had thought baby is at least 6 lbs already. Where is all this weight going to? 😳 At this point it’s a waiting game. Wondering if my water bag will break or when my mucous plug will pass. Will I start to have contractions again. Thankfully I made it to water park with the family and my little one 🥰 being pregnant with a big belly at 38 weeks walking around for 6 hours in the sun is not the best idea. You would think all this walking I’ve been doing I would go into labor a bit sooner but i did not. Deciding to take my maternity leave 1 week early was a good idea. By 39 weeks I was so tired and had body aches every where. We had thought this baby might be a 4th of July baby. But surprisingly I made it through 4th july. July 5 was Vivian’s birthday and July 6 is Devin’s birthday. For some reason I woke up the morning of Vivian’s birthday with a burst of energy. I thought to myself, oh gee today might be that day. The last few days I’ve been feeling minor contractions but it wasn’t painful to the point where I felt like dying. It was bearable.

Sure enough I was bleeding that morning. I called Dr Asato to see if I should go to kap or what I should do. Apparently bleeding is ok and it’s probably from all the cervix check prior. As long as I’m not bleeding heavily or having painful contractions I was advised not to go in yet— however I am in the process of going into labor.

At first I thought that was my mucous plug passing but turns out it probably wasn’t.

I called Layne to let him know he needs to come home now because I am going to labor— soon.

Through out the day the contractions were bearable. Nothing harming or painful. We cleaned our house a bit, i sterilized the bottles and was able to take a nap for a bit. We also had dinner at aunty’s place. We’re all waiting at this point because baby could come any minute. Surely enough after we got home. From 10 pm to 1 am my contractions were consistent with a pattern and it was creeping up on me. Around 1 ish I knew it was time to go.

39 weeks and 4 days. We can’t wait to meet you baby. 🥰💓

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sikizu · 6 years

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idk which ones these are, but multiples of 6! and 51, because antimony! :) (also, I'm love u, birch 💕❄️)

Aah birch thanks! (sword emojis)

6. Do you like the beach?

Yeah! As long as I have ample sunscreen, fins, and am inland of the sandbar, all is well with the beach. Though I do prefer coldwater beaches.

12. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

What fun! As someone who has various mental health problems as well as a few chronic conditions AND chronic pain, I’d say they all suck pretty equally in their own ways. Sometimes not being able to walk or eat what everyone else is is worse than mild brain static, but sometimes being able to do absolutely anything at all is, oddly enough, preferable to a limp or cramps.

18. How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

None, though there’s a carabiner on my pegboard shelf above my desk right now with around 10?

24. Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

A lot, actually. My entire family has a pretty good “danger alert system” of sorts (we also just call it “instincts”), and so far I have a pretty good track record of that gut feeling being right. I’ve had it triggered by thunderstorms that produced tornadoes later on, avoiding a public place seemingly for no reason only for something bad to happen around the time I would have been there, and by individual people who ended up seriously hurting people close to me. Unfortunately that last one has happened a lot.

30. Have you ever cried over a text?

Yup. Sometimes kind words are very, very relieving. In other news, I have the best friends in the world.

36. Do you make supper for your family?

Occasionally. I have dietary restrictions so anymore it’s difficult for me to make something that can satisfy everyone.

42. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

This is pretty sappy, but literally any of my close friends. I’m either very content around them, or an excited little puppy. No in between. Also Terry Crews.

48. How many people have you liked in the past three months?

I’m assuming “like” is a more casual “crush.” 4? Maybe? No serious crushes.

51. If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

Weed is a different story, but in general, yeah. I’ve been burned by enough people who regularly/occasionally do them that I don’t have any patience for it anymore.

54. Do you get along with girls?

I’d like to think so?? I’ve always had both girl and boy friends, and as of late I seem to be making friends who agree that gender isn’t real. Fun!

#thesikizuspeaks #thesikizuanswers #god these are fun

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theowlreblogs · 6 years

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I was tagged eons ago but I write this now because I suck!

A tagg!

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

Oh godness, it's a little shameful, but more cereal! I just love it, Although it's been a while since the last time I had cereal for breakfast

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

I adore it, especially early in the morning, it makes me feel both nostalgic and happy... Somewhat, alive

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

Tickets, leafs, random papers xvx;; But I try to use bookmars!

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

With sugar and milk!

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

Oh--! Sometimes! But I try to calm that feeling down. I love laughing and smiling, after all. I do that all the time, can't help it!

6: do you keep plants?

I love my lil' cactuses... They three are named off things important to me! (Yes, even Mr Pickles, fuck off)

7: do you name your plants?

OH GODNESS. Yes. Yes I do. The names of my plants are Sócrates, Eainstein (Tamy named him!) and Mr Pickles.

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

Usually, writing. I used to draw for that too, but I barely do it now. I ought start to do it again.

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

Oh boy, I am always humming and I do love singing

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

It depends! I don't care that much, I usually sleep on my back, I think? But I also like to sleep on my right side?? idk

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?

...Too many, gods

12: what's your favorite planet?

Mars! Dunno why

13: what's something that made you smile today?

Mhmmm... A little kid in the hairdressing salon. She was just too pure and cute!! And she was super excited of getting a nice hairstyle. I also smiled while watching some more eps of B99 with my brother- And when we made some cherry shake ~ ! Idk, I smile a lot lately

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

AAAHHhhhh hmmmm!!! Oh gods that sounds so dreamy. It will be so full of books, plants, cactuses everywhere. Stars in the roof, stars in the walls. I'll buy any glowing in dark paint to use it in the walls and make a galaxy. I imagine it all magic and beautiful--- I would try to have that flat really pretty!! I love to decorate rooms. We would have a ton of animals living with us too!!! ofc

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

"Most stars take millions of years to die. When a star like the Sun has burned all of its hydrogen fuel, it expands to become a red giant. " I googles when a star dies. I had no idea of what to search...

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?

PISTO!

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

Dark blue...! Probably? Oh, godness. I wish i had the guts to actually do it.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

I've started to laugh only to think about the QUESTION. I am that friend who always make stupid shit. It's so ridiculous! A thing that is always remember in my friends group is a time when we were eating cake and then a piece of chocolate fell from Maria's cake. I started to laugh so hard I choke. I MEAN I REALLY CHOKE, I WAS ABOUT TO DIE THAT NIGHT. Maria always remembers it because she says that it all was so irreal. Two deaths for the price of one! (Her chocolate x me)

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

I have a book journal! I draw a little something every time I finish a book.

20: what's your favorite eye color?

Blue... A lil's bit obsessed with them, to be honest.

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

The one who gave me moms's first friend when we moved to Lugo! It's brown and big, I've been putting badges around it. It's a little old already (it has like four years) but I feel so comfortable with it!! it has just so many pockets and I adore it!!

22: are you a morning person?

Not that much, to be honest <XD;;

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

Playing videogames and reading (probably fics)! Oh boy I love both things

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

I used to have that but-- Not now. The closest is my brother! We both traveled around so many places, moved out so many times, that we are like-- the best friend of each other? We had no choide. We both were the only person that were always... there. I know he never ever ever ever EVER will hurt or betray me, and I never evER EVER EVER will hurt or betray him either, but he is my lil' bro- you know, there are some stuff I wouldn't tell him <XDD;;

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?

Mhm... I can't remember now? I can turn normal places in weird ones -sparkles-

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

;v;" None... all my shoes are less than a year now...

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?

MINTH! And tropical fruits =///u///=

28: sunrise or sunset?

Sunset! The sky-- burns then

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

Always, when we sea each other, doesn't really matter how a shitty day we had, I can't stop but smile when I see Maria! And she always starts to smile and laugh too, although she almost always asks what is that fun. I just find it too cute! How we are always happy to see each other, I miss so much her...

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

Yeah... five years ago I was pretty sure that I was dying, and I was about two or three days being not able to sleep or eat. Just-- for that thought. If I ete something, I would throw up.

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell?

really, just talk about socks.

I LOVE socks!!! They rock /SNORTS. I mostly have boring socks now, I really should start buying weird ones- I will!

About if I sleep with them-- I do, where I live nights are cold (even in summer!) so, yeah.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Once... When I was in a friend's house we TOUGHT we saw a weird/ghostly shadow????? It was just so

NOPENOPENOPEBOPENOPENOPE

33: what's your fave pastry?

Mhhm~ Tiramisu?

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

U-umh... Her name is Luna and she is a dalmatian dog... She's been with me since I was six? I love her... I used to be super scared of dark and nightmares until I got her

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

I love them! I have some brown pens and I use them way too much. The type that use BROWN to write test and such- In my schools I am known for 'that one who uses the brown pen'

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?

I've been the past hour listening to Gregory and the Hawk

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

Clean! But it gets messy too easily

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

I can't stand when people don't look at me in the eyes!

39: what color do you wear the most?

Oh... Black! It isn't a color per se... Then, blues!

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?

A star of some gem I don't remember now. Paula gave it to me last summer! It's one of my treasures -nods-

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?

MHHMM... If you ignore the relationship of... two characters, Interview with the vampire is pretty nice. It makes you think!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

OH!! It's called Señor León (Sir Lion)!! They are super nice and cheap and give so many free food I love them!!!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

I can't remember--

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

Mhmm... The last time my brother and I went to a Burger King after having a shopping day. I just felt so calm and comfy... Like everything in life was good

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

I do!

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

P2 ! (In Spanish. I won't explain it, 'tho. Sorry /snorts)

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

GUTS! Eeeew

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

It was darkness... and it really isn't anymore. In fact, I am like 0% afraid of darkness now. Isn't the light what makes us see what is hidden there?

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

UH- Ummmmh... I don't... actually do that? Youtube is my friend -sweats-

50: what's an odd thing you collect?

Cans? I like pretty cans...

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

My friends Lorena! With this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blQA4W8B0OI

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

Oh my god, so many-- The one of the stars, probably

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers?

beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

Heathers! With Sari and Juan, some months ago. And Beetlejuice when I was a kid, so I don't really remember much of it.

I really liked Heathers! The irony and sarcasm is on point

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

MMMMMMMMH... my mom?

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?

Oh my god I have no idea, I am super extra for the lols all the time

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

When they smile, calmy, so tenderly, at something they enjoy/love when they think that nobody is seeing them...

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

Dude I always have that song in my soul, I don't ever NEED to listen to it- I love it, so much, it makes my heart aches, even

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? Why?

The vodka aunt is Tamy! The wine mom probably is Lorena. I am the hen mom who tries to feed and take care of everyone /ohboi

59: what's your favorite myth?

A Galician one... The one of the crossed paths. It says... That if you pass over a path that intersects with each other after midnight, you may see somebody sweeping the exactly spot in wich both paths are connected. And that somebody would be-- a witch that you better ignore and don't look into her eyes

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

I love Machado and Ruben Dario! La princesa está triste being one of my faves

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?

The one i've given-- A freaking joice! All neatly wrapped and all. The stupidest I've recieved... a toilet brush holder shaped as an owl!! I like to make gifs as joke, and my family/friends like to make them to me too because they know how silly am I

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

Sometimes! Usually of orange, but I like the one of pineapple too!!

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

I keep them organized by shapes!!! My babies

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

Dark! It's late here

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?

So.. many people? My friends life far away now...

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

Roses and mimosa flowers!

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

Well, here it usually is like that, so it makes me feel just... normal?

68: what's winter like where you live?

Super cold!

69: what are your favorite board games?

MONOPOLY! I am such a nerd of Monopoly, all my friends are tired of my shit with that game. I also like Cards againt humanity pretty much

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

Nop. And never will. There are some stuff we gotta leave alone, you know.

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?

Black! With milk

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?

...Yes. Pretty much

73: what are some of your worst habits?

Mhmmm... Talking too loud, probably. I am kinda, aaah... escandalous?

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

A nerd of blue eyes with a dreamy smile who makes everything they touch super cute. Their aesthetic? Red roses, vintage stuff and plushies. Gives the best hugs ever and never ever ever even in thousand years I would hurt them. (I am full of love for all my friends! But I hang out with them some days ago and I am still super glad they exist)

75: tell us about your pets!

Her name is Tana and she is a BITH

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?

Probably drawing... or sleeping. My back is killing me

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

MANGO lemonade!

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

Hate them- Although some of their mercha is pretty cute

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

Mhmhmhmmmmmm... so many stuff--? I am so grateful everytime somebody makes anything to me. But a thing I find it super cute is when my friends lend me their own clothes when it's cold and I am an stoopid who brought a summer thing... ///

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

White! They are pretty boring -v- I didn't choose it

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

Like open, clean skies, with long, pale eyelashes. Golden petals in the irises... (It's a different blue of the other person I was talking to!!)

82: are/were you good in school?

People tend to think that I am super nerd, but I am just okay, tbh

83: what's some of your favorite album art?

I don't really know I don't owe any...

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

Oh! Yes, maybe! Wings in my back, something in my wrist. I am still not sure what. I used to want the dark mark but gods, I fell out of love with HP last year =v="

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

YES! I really enjoy reading shojo 9//9

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

Oh! Yes. The ones about weird photographies are usually my faves

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

Megamind, Ever after and Amelie

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

Oh! Reneassance and Dada, probably. I like pretty much impressionism too

89: are you close to your parents?

Eh! Only to my mom. Although she sometimes it a little too... much, being honest.

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

Madrid? Probably. Even if it smells like piss

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

I am not planning to travel anywhere- Maybe to Santiago in my brother and me's birthdays, just to chill

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

I love cheese, but I usually only use a tiny bit of it on my pasta

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?

I only let my hair down, I am a simple Lani

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

Certain Rene! > v >

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

MMMMMMMh... Going out with some friends! I don't know where, 'tho

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

I install them p fast! I try to take good care of my bab

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

INFP | Virgo | Slytherin (I am all the good stuff!!)

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

HMMM... I live in a place we have nature everywhere, so explain which exactly means ‘hiking’, because so many times I end up in a place that looks like a mountain (oh!)

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfUKpLGgts4 <- "If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky. You can hide underneath me and come out at night. When I turn jet black and you show off your light I live to let you shine " one of my very favourites ever. I feel like it did sum up my feeling many times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klHpznbGeYc <- "Try not to mistake what you have with what you hate " Love that one..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tlAiq0_BXac <- "Hey, would it be so bad if I stayed? I'm just a ghost out of his grave. I won't put white into your hair... I won't make noises in your stairs. I will be kind and I'll be sweet if you stop staring straight through me " I can't explain how much this one means to me... I even have a comic planned because of it

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why?

To the past. I will fix so many stuff now that I know better.

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