#but walmart takes it OUT of me

[dullweapons]

uhhh ray in a wheelchair cause i’m thinking about getting one for myself cause my cane is not enough

#⸻ ray : visage ✦ rusted cracked & broken : but still standing ˎˊ˗ #⸻ ooc : artwork ✦ madness takes the paintbrush & sings ˎˊ˗ #uh little vent in tags tw #( i haven’t left my house since my birthday - and before that was only for doctor appointments in months ) #( but i have used the scooter at walmart when i did go out and they made me so happy to be independent) #( as well as the wheelchair in the ER i could move without fear of falling ) #( i really want to go outside so imma see about getting one ?? ) #( probably just a cheap hospital one at a thrift store near me ) #( idk if i wanna bother with in insurance ? ) #( i am trying to get a walker through them and it’s taking forever to the point i need MORE ) #( i am doing physical therapy which helps but also my legs are so weak i can’t even go down my stairs on my own :/ ) #( imma ask my PT therapist and my doctor but who knows ? ) #( anyway vent over enjoy ray being a dumbass )

[yourcalamity]

i dont think anyone should have to put themselves through it but it is interesting to me how some other “disabled” people just decide they cannot work before even actually trying because its uncomfortable or makes them anxious and its an active choice they are actually able to make which they see zero privilege in when talking to those of us who will always have to work no matter what… and then theyll talk to you like “oh you dont understand i just cant” while you literally experience the exact same shit or more 😭

#best example is shitty cali roommate who had three separate jobs including one i helped them get hired at and then they just decided they #couldnt handle it so it was fine to let everything fall on me and their wife with a heart condition while they sat on their ass playing #jewelry on etsy. and then theyd have the gall to be like well im mentally ill and disabled as if we werent too #also it was so obvious thats why they upcharged my rent when my only other option was homelessness they saw a situation they could take #advantage of parasitic ass person. the wife was not great either but after seeing how their wife treated her i really hope they divorce(d) #also jobless roommate was constantly making comments on what i did with my money too like they literally were mad at me for buying a $5 #t shirt from walmart once #and then theyd act surprised they had no irl friends after shit talking every single person they invited to their wedding party #this isnt about them tho this is about random posts i see on here and think. you can actually get yourself out of this one man. just try

[todayisafridaynight]

seonhee and sawashiro both being associated with purple's the most evil shit in the world now who the fuck am i supposed to put in my purple card holder

#snap chats #sorry guys im one of those girlies who are super into card holders now </3 esp the ones you can customize </3 #highkey i got this cause i wanted to put my school id in it so i didnt have to take my wallet out every time i needed to get in my buildin #BUT ON THE LOWEST OF KEYS I GOT IT TO BE MENTALLY ILL TOO i was obsessed watchin people journal and make cute card holders #i dont get recc'd those vids anymore but i remember watchin em an bein like MAN i wanna do that.... thats so cute.. #on the real i think card holder customizing's healthy for me. it helps me learn to use things i buy LMAO #CAUSE WITH STICKERS AND THE SORT I HOARD THEM AND NEVER USE EM #and i always get buyer's guilt even if it's something small so i just think. i have to learn letting go and things not being perfect is ok #YOU BOUGHT IT SO USE IT like those ishin colognes... like the scent'll fade anyway i should use them while i can... #as much fun and therapeutic I Think as this was tho i cant imagine having a need to get another card holder... tragedy.. #regardless. this card holder's really cute </3 spoilers it's a kuromi one cause i needed more purple in my room i fuckin guess #the stickers were real cute.. also there was a lil baku... hi baku <3 #which leads me back to my problem. '''''''problem''''''' yeah i dont even have a printer here but when i go back to my ma's i wanna be sick #walmart lets you get photos on that GLOSSY PAPER... tempted... anyway no listen to my non problems #cause in my heart i do associate kuromi with seonhee alright it just makes sense. PLUS baku and joon-gi #COUNTERPOINT. HOWEVER. there is no image funnier than slapping a depressed middle aged man who prob has a worryin body count #into a card holder decorated with hearts and sweets and bows with a big ass heart keychain danglin off it. like cmon #big brain move is to print out one pic each of em and just swap em out every other day LOOOL #i just want an excuse to show off the card holder.. i get why people have these now this was fun and cute.... #ok bye i think ive been ill enough tonight #i thought i was gonna finish another comm but ☠️ ill just do them tomorrow morning they wont take long..

[ratgingi]

i truly am gods specialest little guy

#one of the girls in my house pissed off the housemom so she took me to target and got me the biggest nicest room fan possible #[she got said girl the tiniest shittiest walmart fan she could] #shes also letting me pick out some snacks and a sody i am so loved #shes taking me to whataburger after heehoo #dialogue

[confinesofmy]

my grandma does so much stuff to piss me off and i feel like i can't vent to anybody else in the family about it bc it sours them on her and makes them less likely to help her so then it always all comes down to me when she needs help so she's just getting more and more isolated, and weird in her interactions with me. and the cycle repeats again.

#i'm driving her to an appointment tomorrow because no one else will (2 hours one-way) #and she just tacked on going and visiting with someone afterwards which will add on a minimum of an hour #plus i honestly don't want to see that person again. she reminds me of my dead mom bc my dead mom is our connection to her. #and i hate driving generally. like my bi-monthly drive to go get groceries from the walmart 5 towns over stresses me tf out every time #and i know for a fact i can drive 30 minutes further for even cheaper groceries but i can't do it because it's such a stress #so i told my grandmother there's just no way and there's got to be an alternative #and she got really really upset so i said you need to find someone else to take you to visit her on a different day #and if you can't find anyone else then i'll take you if it comes down to it #but tomorrow is not going to become a 10 hour day no way no how #and she got so upset she said she had to go lie down 😑 #sorry you didn't get your way. i am allowed opinions and autonomy. #even if they interfere with what you want to do. #adam talks too much

[luwupercal]

still think the funniest possibility is that hes adapting ciaphas cain and they hire some aged twink who looks like a stiff breeze would bowl him over with no cheekbones and a flat ass to play cain in the real world but every so often they switch to Propaganda Mode™️ and they blast us with sexy bass boosted cheekbones mcCavill de geralt posed like fabio saying that he humbly slays absolute penis for the emperor while wrestling into submission five orks simultaneously with one hand. and then they can cast taylor swift as amberley vail i guess i think shed rock the role

#ive never read ciaphas cain but inquisitor vail has Walmart heiress vibes. to me #this is the only way to utilize henry cavills cheekbones for ''Praxis'' #if its spelled veil i want you to take me out behind the shed like a lame horse btw

[july-19th-club]

*breathing real hard like a boxer in the corner halfway through a fight* it is not a crime to shoplift plastic painting stencils from walmart and you will not be punished with sickness/car trouble/household appliance breakdowns/deaths in the family for it

#especially since i paid for the two biggest ones #the trick is to sandwich the smaller ones in between the bigger ones and then just scan 'em in self checkout that way #when i steal from walmart i always buy at least one or two of the thing im stealing #both because my catholic neurotics are convinced this makes it less likely to karmically kill me #because i pretty much only steal small cheap items i want a LOT of anyway #and because it's easier to take a shopping bag full of small items some of which have been scanned #out of the building. than it is to try and smuggle everything out without at all passing a cash register #and that's a guilt-ridden tip from me to you

[androcola]

horrible news guys.i have to go to work tonight

#and even more horrible. neither of my parents will take me in the shit weather so walmart sent a random coach to get me #so i gotta get in some randos car. i will not freak out

[ctrophyduo]

I talk a lot about my qualms with c!Phil. His behavior to c!fundy is cruel and unusual at points. But that’s the problem; it’s unusual. Because, seemingly, there is no real line of reasoning for why he treats c!fundy like that.

People often flock to surface level arguments when I say this, something something butcher army something something the time he almost scammed him something something. To which my only response is: c!Ranboo is his neighbor.

(And to the second thing- by that logic my mom should disown me because I signed up her email a few years ago for colleges and now she gets a comedic amount of emails everyday and it’s funny. But I guess I should be disowned and tormented for this. Or something. I’m not sure…)

Anyway. My point is that any excuse he makes for his hatred holds no actual weight once you realize he has little to no anger for c!Tubbo or c!Ranboo- the former of the two being far more proactive in the butcher army plot than c!Fundy was.

And here’s the thing; I couldn’t accept there was no answer. There had to be some estranged reason I didn’t get and I needed to figure out what it was.

And I reasonably think I have. Now obviously, the Morbillion words I’m about to write were probably not intentionally written (as most things on the Dream Smp tend to be) But my relationship with authors intent is a bit strained for this server. Whether Phil wrote this intentionally or not, I’ll praise it nonetheless for being an interesting piece of dots to connect that add a fascinating layer to c!Phil.

To start; c!Phil doesn’t like responsibility. I don’t think it’s a stretch to say this. Everytime he discusses c!Wilburs death with someone- he always takes partial blame, but never full blame.

The sentence will start with “I killed him… but-“ he will *always* tact on something else to blame on the end, usually the government. There is also the time he said “Because the government made me kill my son.” I don’t think it gets any more explicate than that.

The thing is too is that c!Phil killing c!Wilbur didn’t have tangible consequence. Obviously there is emotional consequence: grief, sorrow, etc. But nothing tangible; L’Manberg is gone, the new president has been selected to lead the New L’Manberg, c!Tommy and c!Tubbo- whilst found family figures are not blood related and therefore they are not c!Phils responsibility, etc.

Oh except for one thing:

c!Fundy.

You know the kid who’s an orphan because of c!phil, the kid who no longer has a dad because of c!phil, the kid who is directly impacted by the loss of his blood family… because of c!phil.

(Idk if I just have the “I need to over explain everything because Twitter will Misinterpret my words and kick my ass if I don’t” disease but just to elaborate: Me saying this isn’t exactly putting more importance on c!fundy than the others mentioned. It is just that he is the only *Tangible* consequences. Anyway)

c!Phil, is morally (and If we were abiding by our world rules for just a moment; legally) obligated to take on c!fundy. He is c!Phils sole responsibility.

And that’s where the problem is. He can’t push c!fundy onto something else. He can’t give c!fundy away or find an excuse to get rid of him. c!Fundy becomes synonymous with Responsibility and Blame.

And if c!phil takes c!fundy under his wing. He is *admitting* that c!Wilburs death is 100% his fault. It is nobody else’s. And he must take full responsibility; and full responsibility, means all the grief that comes with that.

Think about it. You’re an immortal, you’ve seen nations rise and fall. People die beautifully, tragically, unfairly, etc. You havn’t felt true grief in a very long time, if you felt grief for every person you’ve met that’s passed you don’t think you’d be standing where you are today.

However, your son dying- no less to *your* sword must be a hell of a lot to take on for someone who’s grown comfort in apathy.

So he doesn’t want that. He can’t handle genuine grief.

So when the opportunity arises to get rid of it. He immediately pushes c!fundy onto the one thing he’s *always* blamed c!wilburs death on; the government.

See c!Phils excuses for doomsday and similar events is that he doesn’t want another event like c!Wilbur to happen. But ironically, when c!fundy gets wrapped up into (what c!phil perceives as) government corruption, c!Phil immediately- without hesitation- disowns him right then and there.

And for someone who so badly wants to ensure nothing will happen like what happened with c!Wilbur. He’s a bit shit at that huh. But that’s the thing;

he gets to push c!fundy, the personification of responsibility and by proxy grief- onto what he *really blames for c!wilburs death* the government.

The worse part is- c!fundy would’ve listened! Had c!Phil talked with him and discussed his opinions I guarantee you c!fundy would’ve folded like an omelette (remember when c!fundy lied and said he thought Doomsday was justified just to get c!Phil to love and hang around him more? Yeah.) Hell, the last thing he says to c!phil is “I love you!” Clearly showing he cares and values c!phil and his opinions. And c!phils only response, to having a window to protect another family member from government corruption is; “you’re dead to me.”

Ah. I love irony sometimes. Isn’t it funny that government corruption supposedly led to his sons death and he wishes it upon his grandson who is currently being corrupted by the government? I think that’s funny.

TL;DR;Please shut the fuck up; c!Fundy is the personification of grief and responsibility, c!Phil pushes him away at all opportunities (especially pushing responsibility for him onto the government) to avoid having to deal with the true grief at taking responsibility for c!Wilburs death.

Yeah. That’s about it. This is lengthy. And I’m sorry for any errors. I have shit eyes but I like analysis, so. If you disagree too that’s ok. I think discussion is fun. Thanks for reading!

#dream smp #meta analysis #c!fundy #c!phil #philza #fundy #no word limit is fun #is this a controversial take? idk. i don’t go on here much #Dsmp #dream smp meta #don’t get it twisted btw. this sorta connection made me like c!phil a bit more #not as a person. #like If he was real we would fight in a Walmart parking lot #but as a character it’s interesting #he’s like. shitty but figuring out why is fun #immortal and kinda childish. #i like subversion of expectation #it’s such a childish solution to having Big emotions #i like that coming from a character perceived and expected to be wise #anyway.

[illdothehotvoice]

Anyways I've said it before and I'll say it again.

Hi! I'm an artist who has an interest in character design and working in video games. If anyone wants to reach out to me to work on their indie projects feel free to dm me ^^ I'm also willing to do illustration work fjxbxbxbdndndf

#this is kind of half joking because i'm bitter right now but the sentiment is there #my friend told me there's a company on linketin that hires people to do art on indoe projects remotely with no pay for like #an experience thing xjchxhchxjd so worst case I might look into that and like. work at walmart for a bit lol #to build my portfolio a bit and get my name on a project y'know??? #anyways i am. always looking for projects to be on cjfncnndf #i need to make a website for portfolio purposes fhfjfjf just so i have a better place to put all my art and organize it better #ANYWAYS with that said even if it's a project you don't plan on making money off of feel free to reach out i'm less looking for a job #and more looking for the experience fndncbxhdbxf #i'm about to start taking my professor's advice and just. reach out to people directly djdbcncndf #worst that's gonna happen is they're gonna say no

[actual-corpse]

Was gone for a week and a half.

Cats had no water

Trash not taken out

Piss on tub

Shit on toilet

Dishes in sink

CATS. HAD. NO. WATER

I can forgive everything else, it's fucking annoying, what the fuck ever....

BUT THE CATS HAD NO WATER AND I DONT KNOW HOW LONG THEY DIDN'T HAVE WATER

#fuck him #he can live in filth once I leave #i wanna take his cat tho #if you cant be bothered to make sure the cats have water (I topped everything off before I left) #then it proves just how fucking selfish and self-serving you are #you holier-than-thou ape #get me out of here #i have to meal prep for this fucker and he WASTES HALF OF IT #I CANNOT AFFORD FOOD FOR MYSELF AND HE FUCKING WASTES WHAT I BUY #and wants to make ME out to be lazy because i dont work #CANT work #WALMART STEALS HOURS TO KEEP THEIR WALLETS FULL #not really worth it to risk a lower paying job with even less hours #im exhausted

[worldssilliestserpent]

bruhh the world really hates me this week

#let's see what happened? what hell did I go through? #we were down 12 people this week on the team- so we had two 12-hour work days #my body hurts and my feet are blistered- and I was assigned to help my supervisor wrap up in equipment for the week #which I barely got training on #yesterday I accidentally tripped the emergency fire exit alarm in walmart cause my dumbass didn't watch where I was going #which caused me to have a meltdown which I was trying VERY hard to hold back and not sob my eyes out in front of my boss #My belt buckle broke while I was working today so I had to stop and shop for a new one #I tripped and ate shit while packing the equipment cases into my supervisor's hotel room last night #my leg gave out from under me when I tried to stand up after counting a shelf in grocery and I rolled my ankle #I got lost when my supervisor told me to take the equipment to the back room #I had to stop and ask two walmart employees where it was located- neither of them knew #I've been overstimulated since first break this morning #I got so many scratches on my arrms from counting pegs in apparel and those bitches are so sharp they'd make my therapist concerned #aaaand while wrapping up equipment there was a bike hung up on a shelf and I ran face-first into the handlebar and I bent my glasses frames #so now I gotta get those fixed #I'm quickly making my way to the top in competing for 'most directionally challenged' as my supervisor jokingly put it #I'M GONNA GO DOWN TO THE LOBBY TOMORROW MORNING AND MAKE MYSELF A WAFFLE FOR BREAKFAST #I DESERVE A TREAT

[littlejazzy]

AAAAAAAAA MY CEREAL PRIZES CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY!!!

I won the monster cereal sweepstakes back in december, after having put in the code on the back of my cereal box into the website for two weeks straight in october! I didn't win the november drawing, but when they drew another pool of winners in december, I got an email that I won!!

#they feel so nice and smooth in your hands it's a good feeling plastic #(i kept the cereal box in pantry all this time bc i specifically wanted to take this picture) #(it's been taking space since october lol) #(nobody else in my household rlly eats cereal which means i ate half of this before i got tired of it and threw the cereal itself out) #(in related cereal news i found a box of double chocolate krave at walmart which is great!!! bc i thought it was discontinued!!!!) #(it's labeled as double brownie but it tastes exactly the same) #big day for chocolate cereal fans (me) #agere #babyre #totre #age regression #toddler babbles

[byanyan]

adult byan gets into fistfights while running very normal, everyday errands, send post

#they've been kicked out of and banned from three grocery stores two drug stores a walmart and even a wholeass pet store #it's not even always over big things it's often petty shit and minor inconveniences that they're Not used to handling like a normal person #u can take the kid out of the feral but u can't take the feral out of the kid. or something. #just dumb things i start thinking and laughing about way too much while plotting w moon don't mind me #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[the-starlight-papers]

My mom is here to help me move out of my apartment since my internship is over and where’s the “moms are capable of leeching vibe arsenic” post. Because. That’s what’s happening.

#I’m pulling stuff out of the kitchen that was mine vs stuff that came with the apartment #and she keeps going ‘*you* bought those?’ #like yeah I bought a crappy $30 set of pans from Walmart? were you expecting me to subsist on just ramen and boxed mac and cheese? #she also asked if I had a better grasp on what I needed to pack for when I have internship round two next summer #and then said I probably would have learned to pack fewer spices #and I was like ????? #because yeah my family gave me some spices to move down here with because we had duplicates #but I bought about half the spices in that cabinet myself?? #again? what? #it feels like she’s suprised that I made it through the whole semester by myself because she thinks I don’t know how to take care of myself #and I can’t even argue back with her if she keeps making these comments because I have to drive 8 hrs back home tomorrow with her #(oh also. shes making me drive most of the way back home myself. because I’m driving back to college to move myself in by myself so she #thinks I need to practice and make sure that I can do the drive. come on the whole point of you coming down here to help me move was so I #DIDNT have to do that.) #good news at least is that I’m only home for three weeks

[afireyearth]

i kind of want to go back through and read the sookie stackhouse novels again because once i hit the 5th book i read them all on Libby’s mobile app and that was like cocaine to me. I would read one book a day. So I didn’t really take them in as much as i like. BUt i also enjoy the fact that they’re kind of like a fever dream for me.

If i do reread them I want to get my own copies so i can highlight and reference and what not with them. I need to figure out the point where charlain stopped writing for passion and started writing for a check

#also to figure out how many times walmart is mentioend #i absolutely hate when its mentioned because i hate that store with a passiona nd everytime it takes me out of the boook so bad #i hate it #it would be done out of hate