#but wishful thinking is dangerous and i shouldn't indulge myself in trying lest my desires get irreparablly denied

[pixelatedrose]

I want to be friends with big creators because they would be fun to talk to and i need more extroverted friends but the problem is i have no way of doing that without being Just Another Fan and honestly I really am Just Another Fan

#ro talks about dumb shit #mcyt #my desire to be in the same loop as big ccs is so strong i want to cry #i really want to be a creator like them #and i know i will never be their friends in this lifetime because hoping otherwise would be foolish and shallow of me #but i still wish i had friends like that #i crave to be known because once I'm known i can make sure that I'm making others smile #and if I'm friends with big ccs then my chances of becoming known increase and my reach becomes bigger #and then we're all happy #the ccs have a new friend i have new friends and i also get to spread more joy to more people #but wishful thinking is dangerous and i shouldn't indulge myself in trying lest my desires get irreparablly denied #so I'll be quiet and respectful and wait until I'm forgotten and try to be satisfied with the smiles i caused along my way #sorry for my tag rant i have a lot of feelings about shit