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bluewinnerangel · 1 year

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can you talk about change pls i need more change love and analysis in my life

I know of a couple of Change analyses here and I think I'll just end up repeating a lot of what's already said if I'll just do a full reading but BUT what's not part of those analyses is it in the context of FITF (you know since he played it well before we had the album). Soooo I wanna use this ask to highlight a bit of the lyrics weaving magic that goes on within FITF, taking Change as a handle and somewhat match other lyrics? I think that might result in some fun stuff to break our brains over.

I don't think we have the official lyrics of Change, just so you know some of these words may be wrong I can't be sure. Also these parallels often just hold the same theme and said theme is everywhere (I mean, change and time and being the same they're just always everywhere constantly) so they're paired up with a line in Change in this thing but they all just belong together in one big piece of coherent work and not so literal in the one-on-one I'm writing down here but it does the job I think:

Change x FITF:

Time of our lives, it's easy to see / We were just getting by but we were complete

To me the most obvious parallel is with Common People:

I came from a good home / A house full of terrace dreams / That was enough for me / You know you had to see it to believe / All the late nights / Good times - Common People

and again the next verse, perhaps even worse:

No deep pockets / But big hearts / Do you see what I see / Now we’re all screaming on the dance floor - Common People

And more:

We’re going out to end up somewhere we’ll regret / Cos in this town it’s easy to forget - That's the way love goes (easy to have a good time)

Do you see what I see - Common People & She's Beauty We Are World Class

Lately, lately it’s been so easy to see my life completed instead of half way full - Paradise

Gonna cut here because it's gonna be a few scrolls:

Fun that it starts with "time", because that's EVERYWHERE. Out of 21 songs (16 deluxe +paradise +copy +saved by a stranger + high in california + change), 17 have the word "time" in them. 17.... Yes we're doing it. This is literally every time(lol) the word time shows up, rather than the theme of time, because that's more than this (you know when you stare at a word too long and you forget its meaning yeah get ready):

Said I had a plan for us / Time it came and changed it all / We had to disappear - The Greatest

Before the world it got so serious / Before the time it got away from us - Lucky Again

Let’s buy some time / For what we shouldn’t do / I don’t wanna face the music / But I still wanna dance with you - Face the Music

They "say bitter ends turn sweet in time", is that true of yours and mine? - Chicago

Just have patience / It’s not how you spend the time / It’s if you waste it - All This Time

The friends we make / the love it takes / is worth it all this time - All This Time

I only wanna go faster towards disaster every time - Out of my system

Maybe if you’d taken more time / I’d still be the one you wanna talk to every night - Headline

I've been wondering about what you're up to / Not for the first time / Not for the last time / And I've been thinking 'bout the things we used to do / Not for the first time / Not for the last time - Saturdays

You know it’s times like these we’re so much happier - silver tongues

You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home - silver tongues

Sit down sit down in the space and time - She's Beauty we are world class

All the late nights and the good times - Common People

There’s a time for saying who did what / Where it went wrong I wanna hear all that /But right now all I need you to know is / You’ll be ok we can talk tomorrow / I’m on my way with some time to borrow - Angels Fly

And time can always heal ya / If you let it make its way into your bones - Holding on to Heartache

Pick up the phone cos now it’s time you learnt to say that's the way love goes - That’s the way love goes

Remember when you told me I should give it time? - That’s the way love goes

that she changed me for the better by the time that I was coming ‘round - Saved By A Stranger

I wanna be in California smoke some weed outside in the summertime - High In California (I mean I had to)

Time of our lives, it's easy to see - Change

Now it's time to realize you don't get another life - Change

It hasn't been long that I've been away I don't know why everything's changed

tumblr is being weird with the formatting but everytime i try to fix it it just gets weirder so egh well leave it

Still on the same parallel we started with but now it's the opposite? kinda?:

When I get lost I go back to where I started / Common people / Nothing's changed - Common People

There are a lot of things being away from other things throughout but I don't think I'd be able to list em all if I tried, but here's an attempt:

You give and give until it’s gone away / Just tell yourself you’ve got another day / You’ve lived that life you just don’t see it yet - Lucky Again

Before the world it got so serious / Before the time it got away from us - Lucky Again

Has it been long enough that you can forgive me? - Chicago (as a whole really

I think she’s moved on mate it’s almost been a year / We haven’t seen you yeah we’ve given you your space - that's the way love goes

Saturdays take the pain away - but really Saturdays as a whole

put the pain behind you now, you don't need it anymore - Away from the pain again in Angels Fly

But the truth is, I/you still doubt / That what I/you do can get me/you home - All This time

We had to disappear / Cos nothing gets through here - the greatest

With me, I know you wanna come with me / Take anything you can carry /And leave everythin' else behind - Out Of My system

Sometimes I wake up and I wish you were beside me - Headline

It's time to go but I don't feel like going home - Silver Tongues

'Cause inside we're still the kings of the Friday nights Silver streets and the neon signs

This makes me happy-angry. hangry?. I don't know how else to put it:

Air max’s and silver tongues / Settle in for another heavy one - Silver Tongues

I love all the things you know but I’m king on a 50 metre road - Silver Tongues

I'm not supposed to be feeling dirty cheap on silver street at quarter to three - Saturdays (+the friday night melting into the saturdays that take the pain away)

You said I’m holding on to heartache / You said I wear it like a crown - holding On To Heartache ( about that king )

Everything's changed outside, sometimes I wonder why

When somebody told me I would change / I used to hide behind a smile / When somebody told me I would change / I was afraid I don't know why / Cos so does the world outside / I've realised - Bigger than Me (let's also add the next line: didn't read the signs, because last line of Change we had neon signs asdsdf)

If you need you can call on me, I'll be the friend you need

Cos if you’re lonely in Chicago you can call me (baby) - Chicago

I’ll knock on your door it’ll save me from calling / I won’t say a word It can wait ‘til the morning - Angels Fly

The nights they change in seasons / Become the strangest days / I called you twice but then regretted it / And changed my number - Holding On To Heartache (nights - changing - calling)

We haven’t seen you yeah we’ve given you your space / Pick up the phone cos now it’s time - That's The Way Love Goes (he's being the friend needed <3 )

Everything's changed outside, but I feel the same inside

Saturdays take the pain away / But nobody stays the same / No matter how much you want it / Some things change - Saturdays

Spend my whole life just thinking I had to change - High In California

The kids are alright / That used to be me Always losing our minds / Out on the street

I think this is described in Silver Tongues, being in the middle of the losing of their minds out on the street lol

And I choked when your smoke got in my eye / Bad logic and empty cans // You said grass was a dirty drug / You like to preach with vodka in your mug / I love all the things you know / But I’m king on a 50 metre road / We stand up tall and beat our chest / Shout some things that we’ll regret / Sit down with a master plan / I know nobody understands me like you do / You know it’s times like these we’re so much happier / Nights like these we’ll remember those stupid jokes only we know // You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home // You and me until the end / Waking up to start again - Silver Tongues yes I just basically pasted the whole song

A trip down memory lane, houses all look the same

Screams in Silver Tongues MV

Yeah I'm gonna use this as an excuse to paste any and all "home"s and "house"s in FITF:

But the truth is I/you still doubt that what I/you do can get me/you home when it gets cold - All This time

You smile at me and say It’s time to go but I don’t feel like going home - Silver Tongues

I came from a good home / A house full of terrace dreams - Common People

There's different names on the gates You know the people have changed It's such a shame, nothing stays the same

Common people / Nothing’s changed / You’ll hear strangers singing you name / If you act like you’re one of us - Common People (This. Is. Such. An. Interesting. Parallel.)

[When you gonna/now it's time to] realize [you/we] don't get another life? Always overanalyze, what's the point? I know it'll be alright [You've/we] still got the rest of [your life/our lives] We're [all/still] the same inside

Realizing you don't got another life / having the life you choose kinda waters:

Then made my way back to a life I would choose - Lucky Again

I just wanna stay in the moment the rest of my life / one more night I'm gonna choose I don't wanna face the music but I still wanna dance with you - Face The Music

Have you seen how my life’s been going? Cos i’ve been wondering what you’d say / Would you have told me to keep going or would you say to walk away? - Chicago

I am only half of what I think I can be / Gotta get it out of my system / Gotta get it off of my chest / I've lived a lot of my life already / But I gotta get through the rest - Out Of My System

With me, I know you wanna come with me / Take anything you can carry / And leave everythin' else behind - Out Of My system

And I/you keep on building mountains hoping that they’ll turn to gold / But the truth is I/you still doubt that what I/you do can get me/you home when it gets cold - All This Time (building the life / what happens when it changes, overanalyzing, not sure it'll be alright, but then: )

Together we’re the greatest / We’ll never be that cold again / No falling all to pieces / We’re the greatest / It’s you and me until the end / Life for us is never over - The Greatest

All being the same inside waters:

So come on call me liar / Yeah you're so quick to judge / Cos yeah I might have changed / But everybody does - Bigger Than Me

when you're just like me- Bigger Than Me

Are we one or are we two? Are we me or are we you? Have we been all this before / do you see what I see? - She's Beauty We Are World Class

common people / just act like you're one of us - Common People

So let this be your comfort / You're not the only one, no /In a strange way, all in this together / Been this way forever, you're not the only one - COAC

Getting high on the amber wave / Going deep for the ones who do the same // I know nobody understands me like you do - Silver Tongues

Our eyes meet and I can tell that you’re the same as me - All This Time

#if youre wondering wtf how long did this take you #i have a word file and i make good efficient use of it sljsklskjs

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dream-meister-translations · 1 year

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CROW - VOICE COLLECTION

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"Okay, we're all set! Let's get going!"

"Haha, you know, I'm starting to take you for granted."

"Which country will we venture to next?"

"All right, let's have some fun!"

"How 'bout we grab a bite to eat somewhere?"

"I wonder what kind of people we'll run into."

"Oh, you're preparing an expedition? Better be sure you're making the right choice. You never know what might happen."

"Well, the harder the work, the better the reward! Come on, cheer up, and let's do our best!"

"I'm soooo happy to see you! I can't wait to see the world like I've never seen it before! Where do you wanna go first?"

"First aid… Survival kit… Wait, you don't have a map? Oh, well I'll just follow my gut."

"We're both Moon Wanderers, so you can count on me for anything, okay? I'm here."

"I'm counting on you today. No matter how tough it gets. Together, we can overcome anything."

"Leave it to me."

"This is exciting! Let the adventure begin!"

"Let's keep it moving, full speed ahead!"

"Three in a row!"

"I won't miss!"

"Watch me!"

"I got this one! Concentrated fire! Kaboom!"

"I can still fight…!"

"Who the Hell's gonna stop us!?"

"Damn, look at this treasure! We did it!"

"We're not done yet!"

"I hope you'll keep relying on me."

"The journey has only just begun! Let's have even more from here on out!"

"I truly believe you and I can do anything together. We'll be fine no matter what comes our way. I promise!"

"Hey, I've been thinking… I'm happy that you're with us. It's nice having you around like this."

"Home… Huh? Oh, no, it's nothing. I just mean our home. The Moon Wanderers home…"

"Hm? You woke me up. That's okay. I'll be right here next to you so why don't you get some rest?"

"We'll stay together. Whatever the treasure. Whatever the adventure. I want to share it with you from here on."

"The stars are beautiful… I wonder what they'll look like tomorrow."

"Full speed ahead!"

"Okay, partner, we're all set! Think you can keep up?"

"It's nice going out casually like this every once in a while, huh? Let's have fun today!"

"That was fun! We should go out again like this!"

"You know that super-popular cake shop? They sell out of cheesecake all the time! Well, would you believe I just got the last piece before they sold out!"

"Have I had any luck lately? Uh… Oh! I was weating shellfish the other day and found pearls in it! They were huge! And beautiful!"

"Did you know I almost got swallowed whole by a monster once? But he was soooo big I was able to squeeze my way through the gap in it's teeth!"

"I feel extraordinarily lucky these days…"

"I'm so glad I found you! That's all there is to it!"

"Hey! It's nice to meet you again as Meister and Guild Keeper!"

"You wanna know what tools I keep handy? Well, it depends on the day, but as an adventurer, I always have a rope and knife on me!"

"Oh, aren't you a sight for sore eyes! I know the price is outrageous but those bandages work wonders!"

"Oh, that? That's the stone I picked up at the ruins we were… Just… Ex... Ploring… Shit! I forgot to give it to Lannes!"

"Do you really wanna know what's in my bag that badly? N-No, there's nothing weird in there! Just… Be careful, okay?"

"It's just some knives and gunpowder… It's dangerous, and I didn't want you getting hurt by accident…"

"If you're that interested, I'll have to teach you how to use them one day."

"If you wanna know what I do, I'll take you with me next time. The best way to learn is to get your hands dirty."

"Hmm… There's a lot of responsibility resting on your shoulders… Deciding everything we do. Haha, isn't that what YOU said?"

"Oh, for me, it's all about having fun! The harder it is, the more excited I get!"

"…Oh! It's important to remember: One of the best things about being alone is being free to do anything you want!"

"But if you have someone you can count on… Well… You can do way more things and achieve even greater results!"

"So… A few tips from me: Find a group of people you can trust. That's what I'm tryna do here."

"Hm~? What's up? Oh, you're worried about me? Well then, do whatever you need."

"Oh, a staring content, is it? Okay, then let's see who looks away first! You think I'm gonna lose~?

"…Whoa! You scared me! I didn't know you were that close!"

"All right! What do you wanna do today? We can go wherever you wanna go!"

"I… Don't think we'll get separated, but… Hm… Hold my hand just in case."

"Oh, it's time to go… Is it too soon to ask when you're next free?"

"I guess that's it for today. I wish we could have hung out a little more. But I'll be back soon, okay?"

"Huh? What the Hell…? Oh, you wanna spoil me? Well, I guess I'll just have to do it, too, won't I?"

"Your hair's grown so long… How long have we been out searching like this? It's getting harder to cut."

"You enjoy touching my hair? I don't mind at all. It kinda tickles."

"Oh, uhh… Sorry… I'm just a little sleepy…"

"Your hands are so soft, so gentle… Feels so good… I wanna do this all the time."

"Y'know, I miss you… It's irresistable… Almost like I'm choking without you… Can I ask you to stay for just one more minute…?"

"I mean… It's not THAT bad… I can endure it… I just need… To… Ahahahaha! Okay I can't do it after all! Hahahaha!"

"God, you really caught me by surprise there! I thought I was gonna die laughing!"

"Hmm? Are you… Are you trying to tickle me? You look like you're trying to tickle me. Wait. Wait. Wait. No, no, no, no!"

"If you still wanna tickle me, I'll have to tickle you, too. I'm gonna make you laugh so hard, so forgive me, okay?"

"Hm? You're such a hard worker. I was just admiring the way your hands move. They're so nice~"

"I was just thinking: You're hands are so cute. It's like… I want to protect them."

"Hahahaha! The Hell? You touch my hands all the time! Do they really feel that good?"

"Actually… I'm the same way… I love feeling the warmth of your palm…"

"Our hands are so different… I have mine and you have yours, but even still... We've got each other's backs."

"I mean? What can I say? Having you stare at me like this makes me feel a little uncomfortable."

"I like to think I'm pretty close to people, but you're on a whole other level."

"I always thought you were cute. But up close? You're beautiful… Your eyes, your skin.. So beautiful…"

"Hey, what's up? Something on your mind?"

"Hey, I was just thinking about you… I think you're the best partner I've ever had… I'm glad you feel the same way."

"Celebrating with you was always more than enough for me. But now this…? Thank you so much… It's the best thing anyone's ever done for me."

"Haha, I'm glad you like me so much, but I can't take this… I... Thank you…"

"Oh, I love it~ Thanks, Emma!"

"Hmm? You're giving this to me? Well, then I gratefully accept!"

"Huh? Hm~… Instead of giving this to me, maybe you should give it to someone who needs it?"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, I know you're excited, but calm down!"

"I want to thank you for all you've done for me… I don't mean that in a burnt-out kind of way… I just wanted you to know that I'm always grateful. So, here, take it."

"Wow, it's my favorite! You really know how to make me smile!"

"Oh, thank you! I'll have to get you something, too!"

"Are you sure this is addressed to me? I see… Well, thank you. It makes me happy."

"Haha! Hey, stop it, stop it! If you keep doing that I'm gonna lose control!"

"Hm! I knew it! You really are the best partner of all time!"

"Thanks for for this. I'll take good care of it."

"Hahaha, I'd just be happy receiving anything from you!!"

"Let's just leave it there for now. We'll pick up where we left off once we get back, okay?"

"I wanted to give you this to... Express my thanks for the past and the future."

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CROW : Hey, Evan, have a great day, man. I'm counting on you to be there for me when I need you! EVAN : Don't talk to me like that. You think I'm gonna take care of you? Are you listening to me?

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CROW : Hey, Itsuki, where do you want to go explore next? There's a place I really wanna visit! Let's go! ITSUKI : We just got back yesterday. Fufu, that's so like you… Well, let's get on with the next moon reading!

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CROW : Hey, Itsuki, let's do this again today! ITSUKI : Just like always.

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CROW : Nice assist, Itsuki! ITSUKI : I'm used to supporting you.

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CROW : Gran~? You gotta move faster than that! They only sell a hundred cheesecakes a day! We gotta get there before they sell out! GRANDFLAIR : Oh my… Oh no… It's time like this I realize you're still just a boy, Crow…

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CROW : Let's do it, Evan! EVAN : Don't tell me what to do!

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CROW : Yeah! That's it! That's what I'm talkin' about, Evan! EVAN : Hmph. Don't be such a fool.

#Otome #Yumekuro #Yumekuro Translations #YMKR translations #YMKR #Dream Meister Translations #Otome Translations #Dream Meister And The Recollected Black Fairy #Dream Meister And The Recollected Black Fairy translations #Evan #CrowVoice

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mermaidsirennikita · 1 year

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I feel like Lorraine Heath's two most recent books haven't been as angsty as her books usually are and I'm low-key depressed about it! Do you have any recs for hrs by other authors that are super angsty?

I really like both of them, especially The Return of The Duke (I just love the hate vibes and of course... the time he asked her to ride him~) but I agree that they aren't as angsty for the couple personally. More the plot. I will say that though I haven't read her latest yet, I do have it and I've read a few bits and pieces and.. WHEW. That one, I think, is gonna be a looooot.

I think you can't go wrong with Elizabeth Hoyt for angst. She writes excellent sex, and intense, flawed characters who often do a bit of emotional damage to each other.

Angst standouts include:

The Raven Prince--boss/employee, he's an earl and she's his widowed secretary so they can't be together. He's very angsty because he's scarred after a bout with smallpox and like. His wife cursed him as she lay dying in childbirth lmao.

The Leopard Prince--upper class lady and her steward, he doesn't feel good enough for her and also people are trying to frame him for mURDER

Scandalous Desires--pirate hero, widowed Quaker heroine; there's a lot of "he's gonna die" angst because, you know, pirates, and he's pretty mean at first in the beeest way

Thief of Shadows--virgin hero, widowed/older heroine, he's a masked vigilante and she knows who he is; also, she's infertile and is FOR REAL, there is no magic baby, and there's a lot of sorrow from her and feeling that she shouldn't keep him from the kids she knows he wants. EXQUISITE novel, one of the best ever.

Duke of Midnight--duke hero/impoverished lady's companion hero; they have a cat and mouse thing where she knows he's a vigilante and blackmails him into helping her free her brother from imprisonment. They begin this passionate sexual affair, but he's courting the woman she's a lady's companion to.

Sweetest Scoundrel--uptight heroine/wild hero, but she's deeply traumatized after being sexually abused as a child; they begin a slow burn affair where he's super respectful of her boundaries and helps her learn to enjoy her body again, but they have every intention of not staying together. It is *chef's kiss*

But all the Maiden Lane books are worth reading, and they are all ANGSTY.

Sarah MacLean does angst very well. Her heroes are always like "LEAVE ME TO ROT AND FEED ON MY CARCASS IF YOU WISH, I AM SUCH TRASH". MacLean heroes listen to Hozier and go "he gets it", but only after they leeearn.

Angst recs:

A Rogue By Any Other Name: childhood friends to enemies to lovers, a forever fave, he does her soooo baaad and soooo gooood but he has to make it up to her

No Good Duke Goes Unpunished: she was engaged to his dad and accidentally framed him for her murder, lmao

The Day of the Duchess: a daringly angsty book where he cheats on her while she's pregnant (he has reasons, not that it matters) and then she loses the baby and they separate for years before reuniting

Daring and the Duke: may be better if you read the two previous Bareknuckle Bastards books more (depends) but lol.... he kinda tried to kill her? It's another book-long grovel

Jeannie Lin's The Dragon and The Pearl made me like. Tear up. because it was like so star-crossed and the tension got so high, and they just couldn't spit it out. Also: has one of the hottest non-sex scenes I've ever read.

Indigo by Beverly Jenkins is gorgeously angsty. He's an upper class guy she nurses back to health, as they both work with the Underground Railroad. The heroine was enslaved as a child, and she's go a lot of understandable trauma related to that. The mountains this hero moves for her... It's gorgeous.

Dreaming of You is my favorite Kleypas because of the high angst. I mean, he literally sends her away for months and becomes a shadow of his former self. He like, confesses his love in a SOBBING. BLUBBERING. MESS.

Unmasked by the Marquess by Cat Sebastian. Another very high angst book. One lead is AFAB nb, the other is a cis man. They're friends, and then they fuck, and he's like "be my wife" and they're like "dude no". A LOT A LOT A LOT.

The Madness of Lord Ian MacKenzie and Lady Isabella's Scandalous Marriage by Jennifer Ashley. Madness has a hero who's on the autism spectrum and has been an outcast and literally imprisoned for it. Lady Isabella has a couple that spent time apart and is now back together because she knows someone is stealing his identity, basically. He's trying to win her back, despite all their issues.

The Bride Goes Rogue by Joanna Shupe. Hero and heroine were betrothed by their parents, and he dumps her. They hook at a masquerade and start a no strings relationship that quickly becomes intense.

The Duke Gets Even. Enemies to fuckbuddies. Uptight duke who's head over heels x brash woman who refuses to commit. A favorite of mine.

The Prince of Broadway by Joanna Shupe. Hero is trying to destroy the heroine's father, agrees to "mentor" her in running a casino and gets in way over his head.

Duchess by Day, Mistress by Night by Stacy Reid. A cold duchess gets into an entanglement with a self made man. It's supposed to be for fucking, but it gets FOR REAL.

I'm currently reading the Lady Charlotte's Society of Angels series by Grace Callaway, and it's both fun and angsty. The heroines are a part. of a Victorian Charlie's Angels thing, which I LOVE. She's also like... one of the hotter historical authors I've read.

Olivia and the Masked Duke--she's a 19 year old ingenue type, he's the 31 year old widower who's all damaged from his first marriage; together, they fight crime and she's the brat to his dom; he feels VERY angsty about despoiling her but does it anyway

Pippa and the Prince of Shadows--childhood friends to lovers; she's a widow with a shitty first husband, he's a Scarred Hero (TM); has one of the most lovely and emotional "let me see your scars" scenes I've read

Anyway, these are some!

#romance novel blogging #book recs

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spinoff-antithesis · 1 year

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i actually have not stopped thinkin bout your bb!edit like,,,, its so good and scratches my brain right

how long have you been doin edits for? do have any tips for someone, who hypothetically, wants to start doin edits too? what programs do you use? how did you do the cool animated bits?

im so sorry for all the qustions 😭😭 i just think youre very talented and inspirational and i hope you have a good day ^_^

hi firstly oh my gosh you're literally so sweet i am gently shaking you i love you so much /p. secondly, i apologize for the long answer! (it's all under the cut. this got away from me. i'm so sorry apparently i have a lot to say.) (also you're so good about the questions i would constantly be asking one of my professors questions during class to the point where she said i didn't have to go "i have a question" every time i approached her)

i've been editing since 2016! around march/april, i think? loved it so much i went into film & video production in college as a major so i could do editing for a living. (i have done more motion graphics for my classmates than i have done edits outside of class assignments, BUT!)

the program i use is after effects - i started learning it when covid first hit the united states because i had nothing better to do with my time (other than music theory but i failed that bc my professor focused more on the history aspects than the actual theory soooo) and my ipad kept giving me the "no more storage" whenever i tried to use videostar lmao. (vs has, apparently, gotten a LOT of good updates, so if you're looking to start editing and have an ios system, i'd look into it! only downside is you have to pay for some of the cool stuff).

also the program i use for masking (i think i explain this later dwdw) is superimpose. i've been using it since 2014 and it's SO nice bc i can use my fingers to erase backgrounds & stuff instead of hoping i can get it to work correctly in ae or photoshop (photoshop my DETESTED i'll use it but i'll complain the entire time).

for people who want to start editing: tutorials on how your program works and how to do specific transitions are gonna be your best friend when you're first figuring things out! i forced a friend to literally walk me through how after effects worked when i was first figuring it out, and when i had swapped to videostar back in 2017/2018(?) i had watched a Lot of tutorials. that and played around a lot and figured things out on my own - which is also always a good way to start!! it's also totally valid to look at other people's edits for inspiration - most editors don't really care, as long as you don't flat-out remake their edit (some people don't like that!). i have a style insp folder on instagram where i save edits that i like so if i need transition ideas or i'm doing a different style, i can look there for inspiration. at the end of the day, as long as you're having fun with it that's all that matters!

also, starting simple is always okay!! my edits for a year were just me slapping gifs & video segments together on a timeline in cute cut pro bc imovie didn't load them lol & it'd crash every time i breathed. ++ it never hurts to ask people for feedback/constructive(!!!) criticism/etc! (also not to sound like everyone else but practice? good. it's so good. if i showed my 14/15y/o self some of the edits i can make now they would've passed out on the spot bc i was still trying to figure out transitions back then. programs can also sometimes make a difference in edits, but usually it's not super noticeable until you start getting to the Complicated Shit.)

a lot of popular programs i've seen are ones like video star (ios only), alight motion (android only), after effects (i recommend 🏴‍☠️ing it tbh, i only use it legally bc i had to use adobe programs for school), capcut, and i think some people still use sony vegas pro & maybe cute cut pro (i've heard it may have actually gotten better since i last used it in 2018)? i have no idea. programs also depend on whatever device you're using to edit on! since i've been using my laptop, i'm able to use after effects (it's computer-only), but when i used my phone/ipad to edit i used ccp & vs.

for the animation - it's a lot of cutting up the image and masking! more complex animations, like the one i had of leo walking down that red 'hallway' have several different layers that have been masked. (i removed the background & filled in the spot where leo originally was in two different apps - superimpose (taking leo out) & photoshop (filling in the bg)) in after effects, the way i've done this was mask out the specific thing i wanted to move (like an eye) and then put that mask on what i've called a "base" (not animated), and then stick a solid behind the base to match the color of the object. (some of my layers are not named appropriately; base 2 is the left arm & the four "SIX_[...]" layers are the mask/bandana tails)

an example of this would be for any of the eye blink animations i did! this (above) is the same shot, with and without the eye - since it's masked out and i have the background solid behind it, it doesn't look too unnatural/have a black outline/mass where his eye should be.

what it looks like without the solid layer behind it ^ (the red lines are from the null layers - ignore that)

this is what my timeline looks like if it's a more simplistic animation - the only five things being animated here are leo & raph's eyes. (there's only this many layers bc it's two characters in one shot & i was also animating their pupils - typically, an eye-blink animation is about 4-6 layers for me (solid, base, mask, & null to animate with, 6 if i'm animating both eyes & 4 if just one))

in after effects, there's this really cool tool called the puppet pin that one of my friends (lovingly) yelled at me for not knowing about - which. yeah fair she wasn't wrong it's SUPER useful in animating, provided you chop up your image first. if you don't it's a mess.

(separated by layer vs i should've really put the mask tails & leo's head on separate layers and didn't bc that was the 2nd to last animation i had to do and i was losing my mind bc i wanted to be done with the edit lmao)

the way people animate depends all on their style (there's two common ways to do blinking animation - having the anchor point at the bottom of the eye, or the middle of it) and the program they use. it's been a while, but i could probably tell you how to do some basic animations on videostar still even though i've been doing them in after effects for about 2-3years now. ALSO the best way to have an animation be noticeable is to over-exaggerate it/make them Big - which, yes, can mean 'breaking bones' and having the limbs be a little wonky at the start. (if you want it to be realistic though go Just to the point where it looks uncomfortable lmao)

uhm. again i am so sorry that this is so long i THINK this is everything? if not: my inbox/dms are always open if you ever want to ask more questions, wanna follow up on something, etc etc!! (also if you ever start editing please send me your edits!!! i'd love to see them <3)

#this got away from me im SO sorry (just put this in google docs out of curiosity. 1255 words. i am so sorry for the essay.)#uhm. ANYWAY YES like i said if you have any other questions feel free to reach out!!! i am always alway willing to help people out #with stuff like this!!! i can talk your ear off though if this wasn't enough proof of that /j #if nothing makes sense it's bc i'm responding to this at like. 5am my time. so. my bad if there's typos i'm so sorry #like i think i saw this ask at 4:40ish am and i'm still making sure i've got everything covered and its like 5:32am LMAO #me when i dont sleep bc i have no routine now #ask box pals #art creds in the screenshots to trubblegumm !! <- tagging to be safe #still in shock at the amount of positive feedback im getting from my bb!leo edit like oh my god you guys are incredible ilysm /p #sorry i discovered in the middle of typing out my tags that you can edit them now after you've hit enter where am i.#also this is offtopic so its down here but i am Not complaining about doing more motion graphics than actual editing.#a bitch has won two awards for their motion graphics at festivals and i've been doing them for a YEAR #(laughs in the first time i ever did a real one i won a student award. idk how. but i DID and i won the pro category this year <3)#it would be nice tho to do more editing for short films tho :( had a professor tell me i was good at it.#i should rly start using my camera and shoot my own stuff and edit it huh. maybe i will eventually i have a few ideas.#anyway. i need to stop rambling abt my experience as a film student and go to bed i apparently need to be up in the morning but idk WHEN

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everybodyshusband · 8 months

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Ok so I'm not really back to normal but I'm gonna ignore my tummy for a couple minutes in favour of talking to you because I've been dying to send another ask after your wonderful responses!!!

I'll send it in sort of bullet points bc idek if anything I'm saying is even coherent and this might be easier for you to understand? (Or it might not, I'm sorry) In my brain everything makes sense but then sometimes when I say it out loud or write it it's like "what the hell is she saying rn?" So here I go:

- that bit you wrote about swiss and Copia with the soap and swiss stops swearing even when not regressed... oh, it has my heart... Poor baby, I hope Copia makes it up to him with lots of cuddles! I can imagine them laying in bed, Swiss with his head on Copia's chest, as Copia kisses his forehead/hair/nose/whatever he can reach, and promises it's never going to happen again over and over until swiss believes him and eventually falls asleep... (He even drools a little in his sleep, but don't tell him shhhh)

- I understood what you meant about the part I thought I didn't understand in the rain fic! Ugh every time I read that fic I just wanna give him the biggest hug my poor baby... Their dynamic in that fic is so "it's rotten work" 'not to me, not if it's you' I'm screaming and sobbing about it 😭🥹😍

- I will literally always enable you to ramble about any of your fics! Anything! I'm interested!!! I promise!!!! Anything you want to bring up??? Guess what!? I'm all ears!!! Always!!

-not gonna lie I felt pretty shitty all day bc of my tummy (and still do) but your super sweet responses and thinking about sending you an ask kept me a bit motivated (and distracted from the fact that tomorrow is Monday and I gotta work 😭) so thank you!

- I wanted to ask if there's a specific fic that's close to your heart or one that you like a bit more or one you wish got more attention? Because I'll get my greedy lil paws all over it in like 2 seconds flat and start discussing it... I think I've read everything you've posted but I wanna hear your thoughts on your own stuff too!! 💓💓💕💗💗💖💖💗

You're probably sleeping rn and you'll probably see this tomorrow so I hope you slept well and the day ahead is good to you! 🩷

ooh, my darling anon, i've been hoarding this and all your other asks for much, much too long, i am so, so sorry !!! please know i love and appreciate each and every one of your kind words, even if it takes me a very long time to respond 💙

under the cut because of length, haha :'D

i hope that by now your tummy has settled down a bit, i'm sorry this bout of stomach issues seemed to hit you so hard :0 (oh, and don't worry ! your asks always make perfect sense, my friend !!)

don't worry, after the incident, copia makes sure to give soooo much extra love and care to swiss. that ghoul is not escaping those cuddles from copia without plentiful doses of extra love and chaste forehead, cheek and nose kisses, haha !! copia is so very willing to reassure swiss that he's safe and that it won't happen again, you're right (and you're also very right in that swiss drools right onto copia's papal vestments, but not to worry, the stain comes out ...eventually)

ah !! i'm glad it's making more sense now :D i have a chronic case of the "does not write the things in his head into the actual fic" haha !! i agree that rainy deserves all the hugs in the world, it's a very icky headspace for the poor little guy to be in and he deserves so many hugs for doing his best to navigate it. whether or not he accepts the hugs though is another story entirely...

again, i hope your tummy is feeling better by now. or maybe it's been long enough that you've cycled around into another rough patch ? ooh, i hope not. but either way, i'm sending you so many good tummy vibes, hehe <3 (and maybe you'll take solace in the fact that as i'm answering this, tomorrow is a wednesday rather than a monday ?)

ooooh, that's difficult, haha !! the rain fic you mentioned before is the one that's closest to my heart at the moment, i think. but i'm also quite attached to my most recent ficlet with regressed aeon and zephyr because oh my goodness, i love their dynamic and i want to explore it as much as i can, hello ?!? and then on the complete other side of the spectrum i'm very proud of this t4t raindrop filth, haha !! i think because they're all my newest works i haven't had the time to build up an "ew, what was i thinking !??!" response to them, so i'm still feeling very good about these three. and by the looks of it, other people seem to like them as well, which is a nice bonus :)

thank you very much again for your lovely asks, anon 💙 they make me smile and brighten my day every single time i look at them !! i hope life has been treating you well, my dear, and i hope that you have a wonderful day/night depending on where you are in the world 💙

#ask box #husband rambles #🐝 anon

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apricotronin · 9 months

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My main blog is @peace210ve and I've been obsessed with SoH since like 2015(?!) and I swear to GOD I've been drawing art of this game nonstop since then. I'm so tired of just staring at my drawings soooo imma just dump them here. It's like my tumblr sketchbook or something.

Some stuff you should know before scrolling:

I've been reading and drawing SoH since I was 14yrs old. I'm currently a college student. I may post horrible art from my youth so be prepared for that. It's a lot.

Samurai of Hyuga is an interactive fiction series authored by Devon Connell. It has 5 book entries so far. I’ll link the author’s Patreon down below in case you want to check him out and support him. I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING EXCEPT THE ARTWORK I POST!!

ART MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR BOOK 6!! I have early chapter release access on Patreon, so I can’t promise anything here will be spoiler-free. I’m ngl I’m not gonna tag any spoiler art, but I won’t expose the fact that it’s from the unreleased book. Any piece of art here could potentially be spoiler-y. Sorry bout that.

I ran a SoH tumblr blog back in the day. If any of you guys were a part of that initial SoH era, hey. How y’all doing? If you wanna check out more SoH art and content by people vastly more superior than I am, check out that blog. It’s inactive, but has a ton of goodies. @samuraiofhyuga

As you can imagine, 8+ years of SoH content builds up. I have a shit ton of strange, convoluted AUs. If you’re interested in any of them lemme know, even I confuse myself with them all lol.

That’s all I can think of for now. Thank you so much for stopping by! Go check out this awesome series if you haven’t already! (Oh, and if you join the Patreon Discord let them know I sent you pls:3 ❤️)

Link to Devon Connell’s Patreon

Link to Samurai of Hyuga games (and author’s personal blog)

#samurai of hyuga #SoH #Devon Connell #choice of games #hosted games #if #interactive fiction

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shameonmeeguiltypleasure · 2 years

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Seducing Mr Bridgerton Author rambles: 04.08.2022

Hi guys 👋

So I'm sick and I have to take a few days off from work. But I feel soooo guilty about taking sick leave I've been typing away at my laptop as if to play pretend like I'm still working 😂😅

What does this mean? Well it means I've been doing aloooooot of thinking for SMB and it's future plot events.

And y'all don't even get how much more is left to be written!!

I think all that's left from book Canon is the Cressida lie, Church scene, carriage ride, engagement party, then Daphne's party (I think).

Chp 9-10 of SMB is defs the kiss and the aftermath that follows.

But I've decided to ignore the 'Colin insecure bout his writing' thing. I think the whole Sir Lee thing is a bigger aspect to my Colin. And a whole lot more interesting to write and explore. I mean he still writes.... He's just not insecure about it. (I have plans. I will explain it eventually 😂)

I very much feel like we are entering the second half of SMB once Chapters 9 & 10 are posted.

And I intend for chapters 11 onwards to focus more on Lady Whistledowns persona, My version of the Featheringtons, and Colin and Penelope fully embracing their true selves without care for the opinion of others.... It's gonna be glorious 🤩 Like take all the tension between Colin and Penelope now, then make it LW & Sir Lee. 💥🤯💥

Secrets will be revealed, confessions will be made and dares will be issued. I can't wait to share it all!!!

In saying that... I am confirming the next fic for this series will be 'To Sir Phillip with Pleasure'. Once SMB is finished I want to leave my Polin characters to marinate in their ending for a bit.

Also, with how many Eloise scenes I've been cutting out of SMB I think she's due some major attention.

My Eloise is nowhere similar to Canon Eloise. And in her prologue you're gonna really get to know how she became so different from canon and really get to see SMB Colin's influence on her growing up.

I will say that I'm using Marina from the show' characteristics. I think I already mentioned it in SMB. But Marina is Penelope's cousin, and Eloise and Phillip met a little differently than canon.

First half of Eloise's book will mostly be letters between her and Phillip and her POV on SMB Polin events. Second Half is her running away and how she and Phillip get on.

Only once Eloise's book is finished will i return to writing SMB's direct sequel "Loving Mrs Bridgerton".

LMB will follow my version of Polin after Eloise's wedding. As I won't be using any canon sources as references this entire plot is going to be completely original. Despite the title, the story is gonna be more adventure, thriller and action then it will be romance. Let's just say....

Colin has some unfinished business to properly wrap up before he can officially retire his alter Sir Lee. With his beloved wife along for the journey, Colin is determined to see it done swiftly & properly. Having successfully retired Lady Whistledown and no longer being a spinster , Penelope is all for the new adventure. But only time will tell if she'll be able to handle the danger Colin has been risking as Sir Lee while traveling all these years. He's terrified the truth of his travels will cause him to lose her. She's not sure what to expect... But from the way her silly husband is acting, Penelope's determined to overcome it all...so long as she gets to keep him.

.... So yeah.... I'm suuuuuuuuuuper excited!!!!

I've got 1000 something words done for Chapter 9 and estimate a final word count of 5-7000. I will be leaving you readers on a cliffhanger BUT I fully intend on posting chapter 10 a week or so after. Chapter 10 is estimated to be about 7-9000 words long because there are lot of things to happen.

But Chapters 11 is currently planned to focus on the Featheringtons.

Honestly!!! I'm super excited so for all of this to get done 😆😆🤩🤩

It's exhausting but I love it!!

Anyway, hope everyone stays healthy,safe and strong ✨💪😘

#excited #bridgerton #polin #romancing mr bridgerton #fanfiction #seducing mr bridgerton #ao3 #author rambles

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rosetintedgunman · 2 years

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✨ (ik we haven't spoken a whole lot in general but it wuld be a big help rn)

Sparkles!

@wolfvirago

You're right. We haven't spoken a lot, but that isn't a bad thing. I'm not someone who judges a person based on how much we talk. It'd be a huuuge double-standard for me if I did.

You've had a lot going on, and I've held onto this until things might be a little calmer. Truthfully, I don't think they are, but I'm putting it out anyway. It is an immensely difficult task to create an entire world with an original story. I've seen the snippet of your projects that you were able to share, and not only is the work utterly fantastic, you've given it life and room to thrive and flourish. It will be hard work to get everything ready and finished, but I promise it'll all be worth it in the end.

Not only that, you've got so many crossover ideas, and they all just work. How do you do that? How can you get every single one to be an absolute banger? That's proper dedication to both your own work and the other material you're working with. Every time I've seen a piece of info about a new verse I just nod sagely because it makes sense. Because it always does!

I know IRL has been super busy and you're likely super stressed still with everything, but this is your reminder that you're doing a great job. I promise.

BONUS:

"Er..."

"Normally I'd take th' chance ta talk 'bout a muse on th' blog but, ah... Robin kinda scares me. I mean, I'm all fer women bein' stron' an' powerful but I also feel like she's gonna throw me across a room if I say anythin' wrong soooo I'm not gonna risk that today.

Instead! I'm gonna say yer lookin' cute as hell today. That outfit ya got goin' on? Don't gimme that look, it works! It's got a nice thing goin' on. When ya get a bitta free time, y've got a mission. Yer ta go out an' treat yerself ta somethin' nice. Y've worked real hard! Ya deserve a little snippet of a break! An' even when ya are workin', remember that all this writin' whatchamacallit can wait. Focus on th' important stuff first."

#sneaky sneaky sparkles #wolfvirago

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chappedlipjournal · 5 months

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I've been feeling a lot of emotions the last few days, most of which are the result of pms.

We've had:

Rage

Fatigue

Anxiety

Despair

More anxiety

Small bouts of numbness

And today's primary feeling which isn't actually a feeling, vertigo!

And I am over it. Over it!!!! I am ready for my hormones to level the fuck back out and to get my bad nights of sleep behind me.

And i'm trying v v hard to honor my feelings and doubts without letting them completely sabotage me. Because a lot of it is perfectly normal and fine to be anxious and worried about (the rage was like 90% unwarrented).

I'm moving house and i like this house and im sad about it.

I'm moving out of the country (like hello???? Massive life shift massive massive change)

Ive spent copious amounts of money this week on a new (future proof) phone and new (future proof ish) laptop. Neither of which will have to be updated for 5-7 years. And my friend who did move out of the counry confirmed that it was a good decision and didnt regret updating their stuff at all.

I think a lot of the not insidious but a lot of the doubt and fear has really reared its head this week and i was not prepared for it. Like what am i doing??? Leaving everyone ive ever known and loved all the places im familiar with leaving the security of my own country.

For a place where i have no legal standing. No house. No job. No visa. Nothing. Like what the fuck. Who does that???

And yet. And yet. I canNOT picture myself staying here. Staying at this job another foir and half years. Staying in this house.

I realized that prior to my trip to England, I was having massive bouts of self harm urges. I was struggling mentally. I was struggling a lot trying to stay clean. It was taking up soooo much of my brain space and i didnt know what to do.

But after making this decision thats not really been an issue. I think like i needed some direction or a goal or something to work toward. Ive never done well with being aimless. And i hate hate feeling stuck or trapped.

I hate feeling trapped. I mean clawing at the walls, heavy weight on your chest cant breathe, fighting the urge to run trapped. I dont really know where this feeling comes from in me or why i have it. I dont know why its so visceral. But the job the house the thought of the future. It incited that feeling in me. And i need out. I need to breathe.

Prague every time ive been there its felt like coming home. This knot in my chest, it just loosens. I dont feel so on edge? I dont feel so i dont know to describe it. I just feel more content there. Less like a frightened horse i guess.

And im confident i can make it work. Im good at job interviews. Im good at cover letters. I miss working with kids.

I think if covid had not happened when i graduated i would have ended up abroad teaching english in 2020.

#p #now i just gotta focus on packing #tomorrows goal the books #sunday and mondays goal is the bathroom #then we move into thanksgiving break and will tackle the spare bedroom #my bedroom and my office #i can do it #i have to do it #i have no choice now

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tashabilities · 1 year

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I look at online shit from 10-12 years ago

And see the amount of weirdos I've had to block

It's a LOT of them

But the people who have been followers or mutuals with me across multiple platforms for many years stands out even more,

Cause I am consistent and not wishy washy and I really do know what I be talkin bout, like,

It really was NOT me

These motherfuckers really was weird!

And there were a LOT of them

Pretending to wanna be my friend

Cause they really did think I'm somebody

But that wanting to take me out or make me look stupid or throw their master's and Ph.D. in my face is strong in soooo many Black women and it's painful,

Cause it don't even gotta be all that.

I'ma go make cornbread and tea and finish washing these greens so I can throw em in the pot, ow.

It's too late to take Adderall,

But I have the energy for a strong tidy

I don't exactly need a deep clean anyway

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ellewords · 3 years

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❥ the haikyuu boys who start talking with their left hand whenever someone is flirting with them. can this person just not take a hint? can they not see the cool metal band on their ring finger? regardless, it’s slowly beginning to get on their nerves. they don’t want to cause a scene, but they’re tired of being subtle as it’s clearly not working. they’re gesticulating with their left hand, every word is emphasized with their left hand. the gestures don’t even begin to make sense anymore as they practically wave their hand wildly in front of the other person’s face in hopes that they’d get the hint. they eventually walk away without another word, not wanting to waste any more energy on them when they could be with you.

— kageyama, OIKAWA, BOKUTO, tendou, DAISHOU, osamu

❥ …but also, the haikyuu boys who just go “not interested, i’m married.” they’re not even going to bother. looks at them with an unamused face and leaves. the ring on their hands is clearly visible, if another person still decides to flirt with them despite that...yeah, no <3

— iwaizumi, USHIJIMA, kenma, TSUKISHIMA

#idk where this came from #but I've been thinking bout it a lot soooo #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu headcanons #kageyama x reader #oikawa x reader #bokuto x reader #tendou x reader #daishou x reader #osamu x reader #iwaizumi x reader #ushijima x reader #kenma x reader #tsukishima x reader

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causticsunshine · 2 years

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2021 writing wrap up

tagged by @brightgolden, thank you babe!!

sorry this is a bit late, i only posted three fics this year despite working on a lot more so trying to come up with answers was a bit of a process, haha.

1. Number of stories posted on AO3: 3 2. Word count posted for the year: 89,545 3. Fandoms I wrote for: 1d 4. Pairings: harry styles/louis tomlinson 5. Story with the most: Kudos: Losing Focus Every Time You Speak Bookmarks: Losing Focus Every Time You Speak Comments: Losing Focus Every Time You Speak

6. Work I'm most proud of (and why):

probably 'you can lay your hands on me'! i don't typically sign up for fests + exchanges because i tend to have a hard time getting writing or art work done by a specific timestamp, and despite the last thirty six hours of working on it i was a sleep deprived mess i'm still really happy with what i turned out in the end and i'm still looking forward to adding on more to the story!

7. Work I'm least proud of (and why):

also 'you can lay your hands on me'—just because i had lot more i originally wanted to pack in by my post date that i ended up constantly writing and deleting, and in the end i just posted what i'd already finished writing and editing and really just stayed up nearly 36 hours for nothing in the end :)) but as i've said a few times already—since i've gotten the okay i'm definitely going to clean up all i had to scrap before too long and will tack quite a bit more onto the original fic!

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

tbh every comment or nice tag on a fic leaves me with my chest feeling all warm inside because i crave validation soooo badly so i think i'll share one that really stuck with me from each of the three i posted this year:

on 'losing focus every time you speak' a writer i really admire and constantly re-read said the fic was one of the loveliest pieces they'd read in awhile, and that they really loved my in-fic characterization and take on domesticity!

for 'swear i've known you since forever' one comment on how i captured 'wistful teenage romance' made me so happy because iiiii never really had a reciprocated teen romance—at least a healthy one—and as an adult i was a little worried i was going to rationalize their relationship because i had to dig into my younger self's experiences and kind of re-evaluate things to make sure i could capture that head-over-heels puppy love feeling without dipping into unrealistic or even unhealthy territory. also, @littleroverlouis' comment about this AU being the most canon they've ever read make me literally !! like i'm really proud of this AU and i have so much more to add onto it despite so much of it already being written and my goal outside of doing an o/o story was trying to give it a kind of alternate timeline/canon feel and to hear i accomplished as such to even just one person was so validating <3

and with 'you can lay your hands on me' @thestylinsons yelling at me via DMs and in my comments about passages they really liked and just generally hyping me up when i was feeling really shit about the fic due to all my overemotional sleep deprivation, was so so kind and had me literally laying in bed with my hands on my face willing myself to not cry again.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard:

tbh i kinda wanna say on and off all the time? just because as much as writing is more a hobby for me i do put a lot of effort and time into my work and i have bouts of inspiration mixed with dry spells of wanting to do literally anything but writing—or even reading—and trying to get any work done when i don't feel a lick of desire or inspiration to do is like...pulling teeth with a rusty spoon for me. i'm so goddamn stubborn when i don't want to do things.

but if that answer was too bleak lol: when i'd been up for over 30 hours and had written multiple passages for 'you can lay your hands on me' and deleted like, i don't even know how many of them because they were too rambling and disconnected, and my posting deadline was right around the corner and i realized i couldn't post all i'd originally wanted to anymore and that i'd have to be content with what i'd already finished writing and editing before i stayed up all night and the next day....yeah suffice to say i'll be minding my limits better from now on dfkjgndf

10. A scene or character that you wrote that surprised you:

i'm tied between two scenes that really stick out to me tbh?

in 'you can lay your hands on me' it's the one where HL have their proper conversation about introducing bee-dee-ess-em into their relationship, as the whole section from harry's accidental sub slip to that initial conversation i'd done over and over again only to be unsatisfied each time. it actually put me quite behind as i had to walk away from it for a few weeks in order to come back with fresh eyes and pull it off; it's such a big scene because it properly kicks off literally everything else that follows and i didn't want to skip or half-ass it so i could move along.

the second scene is the confession in 'swear i've known you since forever' just because when it comes to boiling points of high emotion or confrontation i always feel like i'm being unrealistic or too soap-opery with everything but i'm really happy with what i came up with! there's definitely some build-up leading to the confession itself, but the way it's done feels more natural to me than other confession/high-point scenes i've written where things feel far too explosive for what's actually going on.

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

tbh 'losing focus every time' probably has the most one-liners i'm super proud of so it's kind of hard to pick, but! this one sappy section i am particularly fond of:

Louis goes a little cross eyed staring at him so close. He could trace each mole and freckle on Harry’s face with his eyes closed. But right now, he just wants to remember how he is for his eyes only. Before he’s polished for sets and strangers again.

Like—the stubble over his jaw that frames his plush, rose lips will be gone in a few days’ time. His hair, too, will be trimmed, and styled curl-free. All freshly shaven and prim, time accurate and in-character, for his period pieces. Pretty in a distantly familiar, almost boyish way. Too clean and too plain in his wardrobe pieces, all lacking the color and flair of Harry’s tastes that Louis’ fallen more in love with every day.

But it’s still his Harry once they call cut or wrap for the day. His Harry that makes friends with everyone on cast and crew, bringing people breakfast and tea, waving to intrusive fans who line up behind the set tape like they’re at a red carpet premiere.

And when Harry comes home for a few days or after it’s all over, he nearly sighs in relief the next time he’s allowed layering sweaters and stacking rings, fluffing his hair so it curls over his forehead just the right way. Back to seeing himself in the mirror again.

But always, regardless, Louis’ Harry.

12. How did you grow as a writer for this year:

i think i've been finding my 'style' easier and easier to come by! in the past i've needed to constantly read stories and written word excerpts that fit the 'vibe' of what i was going for to keep me feeling motivated and that i was pulling things off correctly but i don't have to do that half as much anymore because the voice i'm aiming for just comes easier to me than it used to!

13. How do you hope to grow next year:

i really just want to get more things done and posted and not get so hung up on making this big grand 'projects' every time i get an idea, or scrap every little thing that doesn't have 'project' potential, because i think that hinders me a lot both by way of motivation and feeling achieved. and in a similar vain, get my current wips finished and posted up (including: the rewritten half of my subrry fic, my momrry fest fic , o!harry fest fic, at least the second part of my o/o series 'and the sun came out', aaaand maybe a long-had wip lightly inspired by a—really terrible and definitely problematic so if you find it on my page do not read it lmao— fic i wrote in like.....high school that has far too many kudos and reads but that i still haven't deleted if only to show how much better i am at writing now lmao

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

oh boy uhm i'd just like to say a big thanks to the @1d-library discord server because most of the other writers i talk to i've found in there, as well as some lovely stories and interesting conversations, resources, the works! i've felt very reaffirmed in my writing as well as been able to work through issues a lot faster since joining and i'd really like to be more active in talking to more people there...as i've said i'm just kind of shy + with some past experiences in fandom discord servers i'm a bit tentative to engage in active conversation, but i'm working on it!

in terms of pieces that've really fueled me this year, i'd say godsent stories including coffinofachimera's 'time passed', superglass's 'loved by your mother' and 'garden of eden', and @indiaalphawhiskey's 'our lives, non-fiction' as well as some old favorites like navigator's 'keep yourself warm' and some fics i've read for the untamed/mo dao zu shi really kept me inspired and clutching at my chest in feeling. i also hoard one-liners and book and poetry excerpts like mad and constantly go through my words tag as well.

also to everyone who's yelled at me over my momrry snippet to 'give him a baby alex i swear to god'—i see you and hear you and promise to not leave you disappointed!!

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year?

yes yes and YES i'm horribly self indulgent and love to sneak little bits and pieces of my real life into things i'm writing!! for one, if you notice a near-constant mention of food in my fics, it's usually because i'm craving that thing or thinking of making it irl and have to work it out of my system somehow. i'm a romantic with very little luck in love as well so a lot of my romantic desires, love languages and kinda relationship 'goals' show up a lot in my work, to kind of tide me over, haha. any gender talk in my fics also comes from a very personal place, and i actually dared to make some insinuations of unhealthy past relationships in 'you can lay your hands on me' with little hints of things that i've been through.

writing is very cathartic to me in general and sometimes it's easier for me to works things out through written word in versus in drawings because words can sometimes be less blunt than an image—you've got to piece things together to find the message instead of it staring you unblinkingly in the face, sometimes, and a blunt allegory is easier for me to translate into words than when i'm painting or drawing a lot of the time.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

be kind to yourself, developing a style or rhythm that feels personal to you isn't an overnight process, take the time you need to get things done, you're always going to be your harshest critic, aaaand there's no harm in taking breaks from writing!

17. Any projects you're looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

vibrates i'm honestly so so SO excited for my momrry fest fic to come out...mild spoilers though because i'm technically writing two momrry fics—one for the fest and one i've been working on for almost a year now as part of the 'and the sun came out' series! so i guess i'm excited for my momrry fics to come out, lmao. i've actually gotten all of the momrry part planned out for ATSCO as well as most of it written, but because it's not the next part in the series itself i've got pretty much the entirety of part two to still write, but i finally figured out what i was stuck on for literal months and just know part two will be coming before too long, too!

18. Tag some writers whose answer you'd like to read.

i know i'm late here so feel free to ignore me if you've done this already but! tagging @ialwaysknewyouwerepunk @non-binharry @thestylinsons @dryourtearsaway @polaroidlouis @hershelsue @princelyharry @softfonds and anyone else that would like to! ofc as always no pressure <3

#tagged #writing tag #alex talks

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in a weird round-a-bout way I'm actually glad that I can recognize that episode 1 of gen:lock season 2 is bad

I've always been afraid that I blindly love things too much because it seems like more people hate the things I like. I see people say that the only reason people liked the star wars prequels is because they hyped themselves up and refused to believe a star wars movie could be bad. and I'm constantly like... is that me? do I do that with all the things I love?

because I almost NEVER think something is bad if I was already a fan of the earlier stuff. the only other time I've ever been disappointed in anything I was already a fan of was the last season of voltron and... woof. like you'd have to be completely brain dead not to see how that crashed and burned. otherwise, I see people say the only reason why anyone likes a certain thing is because they're blinded by fandom and I'm just like, yeah but it was good. but was it really? what if I'm always blinded by fandom and I just can't tell.

but now I know I'm NOT, because I absolutely was madly in love with gen:lock. (I didn't post about it a lot here, but that's only because it wasn't a very big fandom and it went on hiatus for two years.) I DID hype myself up for it, i marathoned the whole thing and I wad so excited for season 2. I wanted it to be good, more than anything.

and then it was soooo bad. like so bad, I questioned if it was even real. how could they fuck it up this bad?

but I was able to see it right away, and that's a good thing. I'm not blinded by fandom and I was able to form this opinion on my own without influence from other people. and I'm really happy about it because these are doubts I had in the back of my head for a long time. i wish it wasn't bad, but since it is, at least it helped me learn something about myself.

so, idk. SUCK IT HATERZ. THE THINGS I LIKE *ARE* GOOD!!!!

#fandom #gen:lock #sorry for putting this in the tag #but ineed it tagged on my blog #it me

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The Aftermath - Ch. 14

Goodbye, NYC

SUMMARY: The group leaves for Cordonia

Word Count: ~3.8k

Warnings: Mention of character death

A/N: i am soooo sorry that i haven’t updated as regularly, i’ve been pretty drained this past week but hopefully it won’t happen again. & also i just wanted to give my thanks to each and every one of you for all the comments, likes, & reblogs. it means more than you all could know <3

*All characters belong to Pixelberry, except those that are unique to my story (I've also used some characters and fictional instances from Donna Tartt's "The Goldfinch")*

Catch up here!

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- Eleanor -

Today was our last day of school since we were all leaving for Cordonia tomorrow. When Rowan dropped us off, she told us that it was okay to feel sad about leaving. That made me think I was going to tear up when I would have to say goodbye to all my friends, but surprisingly, it wasn't that difficult, considering that I knew I would never see these people again in my life.

When Rowan picked us back up, I decided to ask Gabe how his day had gone. Ever since that dinner with Mama and Liam, he had been distant. And honestly, that upset me.

All of the adults had were occupied lately, helping Mama get to her appointments and trying to make her feel better. Grandma and Rowan had been helping us pack, and Rowan was always busy trying to make sure that Grandma didn't change her mind about us going with Liam. So since everyone else had something to do, I only had Gabe to spend the day with, and now that Gabe was distancing himself from me, I was technically alone.

Rowan opens up the door to our penthouse, telling us to go inside. She said that she would be back in a couple of hours and had to go home and pack (since Grandma decided that the only way she was going to let us go was if Rowan came with us). I closed the door and turned to tell Gabe about my day, but he had disappeared.

I walked into the living room, finding it empty. I heard voices from the dining room, but I didn't feel like talking to Liam's friends at the moment, so I go towards our bedrooms, leaving my backpack next to the couch.

Once I reach Gabe's door, I knock. I hear him cough from the other side, so I try to open the door, but the handle doesn't turn.

"Gaaaaabbbeee!" I call to him. "Please don't lock yourself in your room again!"

"Go away!" he shouts at me. "Leave me alone! And stop being annoying!"

I shake the door handle a few more times, to which Gabe responds, "Stop it! Don't break my door!"

"I won't break it if you open it!" I call back.

"No!"

I feel tears burning at the backs of my eyes. If Gabe wasn't going to talk to me, who was? Everyone else in the house was busy. And all I wanted was to talk about my day at school.

I look around me at the empty hallway and suddenly feel so alone. I feel empty, but at the same time, I feel like there are so many emotions inside of me that I was going to burst.

So... if Gabe wasn't going to talk to me, and I had said goodbye to all of my friends in school today... did that mean that I really had no companions to speak with anymore?

I feel so far away from everyone else. I couldn't go into the dining room with everyone because I didn't belong there (and they probably didn't want a crying baby to ruin the mood), and I couldn't go to Gabe either because he didn't want me near him.

I had never really felt lonely before. Friendly people always surrounded me, and there was still a shoulder for me to cry on. Now there was no one and nothing.

If I felt like this at home in New York... then would I feel worse in Cordonia? Where I didn't know what the houses or apartments looked like, how the other kids acted, how their subways worked?

Suddenly I didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay. I wanted the loneliness to go instead of me. Why did Gabe want me to be alone? Weren't we supposed to be in this together?

I ball my fists and start pounding on Gabe's door, and eventually start crying, too. The tears blur my vision, and I couldn't even see the outline of the door, but as long as my hand hurt a little when it made contact with whatever was in front of me, I took that as a good sign.

I was about to start kicking the door, but a pair of large, soft hands grab my arms and pin them to my sides. The person turns me towards them, and I come face-to-face with Liam. His eyebrows are slightly furrowed, and the corners of his mouth tilt downwards in concern.

I stop crying for a moment, allowing the remaining tears in my eyes to fall so that I could fully see Liam.

Daddy used to make the same expression that was on Liam's face, and for half a second, I actually see my father instead of Liam. Even though Liam's hair was blond and his eyes are blue, while Daddy's hair was dark brown, and his green eyes were always on the other side of a pair of glasses — their expressions are frighteningly similar. I have to stop myself from referring to Liam as my father.

And that took a lot of energy. I take a shaky breath to stop the words from escaping, and when I see Daddy again after Liam's eyes twitch, I bury my face in Liam's neck and continue crying.

"Oh, Ella, it's alright." He wraps his arms around me, which is so comforting that I start crying even harder. I missed having someone envelop me such safe hugs. Liam rubs a hand along my back. "It's alright. You're alright, I'm here."

I hear the click of a lock and know that Gabriel has opened his door. I can't see him, but I feel Liam's neck crane upward to look at Gabe.

"Sorry, Ella," my brother says. "I didn't realize you were outside."

"You're lying," I mumble into Liam's neck.

Liam sighs but keeps me in his arms until my crying subsides. I hear Gabe retreat into his room again. Liam pats my back, and I remove myself from his embrace to follow my brother into his room, wiping my tears on my sleeve, my bout of angry sadness over.

Gabe is on his bed, playing with his Nintendo Switch. I can't tell what game he's playing, but I hear the animated characters' grunts and catchphrases. Looking around his room, I see that the shelves along the walls of the room are half empty. There were open suitcases in front of his closet, which still had a few clothes that needed to be packed. (Thankfully, Grandma had already helped me pack all of my things, so I didn't have to worry about my own clothes).

I look at Gabe, wondering if he would talk to me now. Understanding that he wasn't going to glance up from his game, I'm about to ask him if I can use his PlayStation before he puts it away, but Liam speaks up.

"I know it must be difficult for both of you—" he stares at Gabe, trying to get his attention, "—having to leave your home and everything you know to start living in a foreign country. It's not going to be the same there as it is for you here." His shoulders are tense, and he pulls his hand behind his back. Liam seems uncomfortable, and it's not a good look for him. "You will also spend a lot of time under public attention, and that may be difficult to adjust to. I want you both to know that if there's anything you need, I'll always be there to help you through it."

"Yeah, you said that already," Gabe mumbles, still playing his game.

Liam's face falls. He opens his mouth a little but then closes it again. Liam turns to look at me, and I smile at him.

He hesitates for another moment before saying, "How was school today, Eleanor?"

"It was nice!" I tell him, suddenly giddy with excitement, remembering all the events of the day. "My teacher told the gym teacher that today was my last day, and so the gym teacher brought out these scooters that we had to sit on, and we played football on the scooters! And then look!" I hold out my finger to him, and he cups my hand in his to bring it closer to his face. "My team was about to win, and I had the ball, but then this girl from the other team, Veronica, who doesn't like me, made her scooter go over my finger and then my nail broke a little bit and started bleeding a little and then I had to go to the nurse, and the nurse gave me a lollipop! I would give it to you, but I ate it already. Sorry."

He looks back at my face, gently running his thumb over my bandaged finger. One corner of Liam's mouth lifts, and he says, "That's alright. It seems like you had an exciting day. Did Veronica get in trouble?"

"Nuh-uh," I exclaim, shaking my head. "She rolled away. And then when I came back from the nurse, everyone was waiting because we had to go back to our class and when we got there the teacher gave us pizza and tiny cupcakes! But then I had to say goodbye to everyone, and it was sad."

He kneels down on one knee so that our faces are at the same level. "Well, I know it must be upsetting to say goodbye to your friends, but I'm sure you'll make new ones in Cordonia."

I shrug, not really believing him.

"Oh, don't be like that. I know many children in court that would love to be your friend!"

"Like who?" I ask him.

"Well..." he looks away, deep in thought. "How about Bartie?"

"Bartie never wants to do anything!" I tell him.

"And all he does," Gabe speaks up, finally putting his game down, "is walk around saying, 'I mustn't, Your Highness. No, thank you, Your Highness.' He's so boring. And why does he call me that? My name is Gabriel."

I notice that Gabe put his Switch on the bed, so I run for it and start trying to play the game.

Liam stands and comes to sit on the edge of the bed. "Since we are going to announce to the public that you are my son, you will be anointed as my heir and will be the Crown Prince. Whenever someone speaks to you, they will refer to you as 'Your Highness.'"

"Why?" Gabe asks. He leans into my side, trying to see what I'm doing in the game. I make my character, a really buff dude with a red headband, jump around other characters who are chasing him.

"That's how it works," Liam states. "They refer to their king and queen as 'Your Majesty,' whose Latin root word is 'greatness.' They call the prince or princesses 'Your Highness,' because of their high status. Bartie is accustomed to a life of formality, so it's natural for him."

"So...," Gabe turns to Liam, "they call you 'Your Majesty' because you're the king, right?"

"Nuh-uh!" I exclaim. Liam chuckles, and when I turn to look at him and laugh along, the Nintendo Switch vibrates, and a man's voice from the game screams 'GAME OVER!'

Gabe takes the device from my hands and starts another game. Liam points at Gabe's suitcases. "Do you need any help packing the rest of your things?"

"Nah, I'm good. Grandma said she'd give me a hand with everything that's left," Gabe responds. As an afterthought, he adds, "Thank you, though."

Liam gives a small nod. "Well, then... I wanted to let you both know that I am leaving for Cordonia today."

Gabriel looks up. "I thought we were all leaving together?"

"Yes, but since the press doesn't know that you're my son, we have to be discreet and enter the country at different times to make sure news or rumors don't get out before we're ready to give an announcement."

"So when are we going to see you?" I ask.

"A few days after you settle in with the Beaumonts, I'll come to see how you are all doing, and I'll bring you back to the capital for the social season."

"That's the thing you were asking Mama about?" I question.

He gives a small smile. "Yes, your mother has gone through the social season before."

Bastien interrupts our little conversation by knocking on the door. "Your Majesty," he says. "The jet should be ready now. Shall we depart?"

"Yes, thank you for alerting me, Bastien." Liam stands and turns back to us. "I'll see you two very soon."

"Okay!" I exclaim, getting off of the bed to give Liam a hug.

He puts a hand on my head, and when I back away, he tells me, "If there are any mean Veronicas in Cordonia, promise you'll tell me if they bother you?"

I laugh a little and then promise.

When we part, I see Gabe and Liam stare at each other awkwardly, but neither of them makes a move. After a few moments, Gabriel lifts his hand in farewell. Liam smiles and nods, and then leaves.

For a few more minutes, I watch Gabe play, waiting for him to give me a turn. Before he gets a chance to start the game again and give it to me, we hear his phone vibrating from the inside of his backpack. When he crosses the room to take it out, before answering it, he tells me, "It's Uncle Boris!"

Uncle Boris was Daddy's college friend, and also our Godfather. We hadn't seen him in a while. He was traveling around Europe for business and to spend time with his wife and kids. We were actually supposed to visit him a couple weeks ago, but because of the bombing, we couldn't.

Gabe answers the phone and puts it on speakerphone. We both huddle in front of it and a nostalgic joy vibrates in my heart when I hear Uncle Boris' thick Russian accent call out, "Hello, zayats!"

We giggle at the nickname that hasn't worn off since Gabe lost his front teeth (when they came back in, Uncle Boris had commented that he looked like a little rabbit), and then in union we say, "Hi, Uncle Boris!"

"Rowan tells me today was last day of school for you two?" he asks us in his broken English.

"Yeah," Gabe answers. "We're leaving for Cordonia."

"Cordonia, eh?" (He pronounces it 'CARdonia'). "That is not an hour's flight from where I am!"

"Really?" I ask. "Are you going to visit us? Can you please visit us?"

"If your Mama allows, then yes, I visit. But what you children go to Cordonia for?"

"Because apparently Liam is Gabe's dad that Mama never told us about," I ramble, "and since Daddy's not here anymore and Mama doesn't have a lot of her memory, we have to go with him and his friends."

"Liam?" Uncle Boris questions. "Liam, who?"

"Uh." Gabe frowns. "I don't know his last name. But he says he's a king."

"Which is fake!" I blurt out. "I bet he's lying about it."

"Ah!" Uncle Boris exclaims. "King Liam! Yes, yes, your mother tell me and Potter about him." (Uncle Boris has always called Daddy 'Potter' because Daddy's glasses used to remind Uncle Boris of Harry Potter). "What he wants?"

"He's bringing us to Cordonia with him," Gabe states.

"Pfft. Nonsense king. Bringing small child to foreign country to keep stupid monarchy alive. You know why countries have no more monarchy? Take Russia as example—."

He continues rambling, and I genuinely think he doesn't remember he's talking to us. Gabe looks up at me and whispers, "I think he's drunk!" He coughs loudly into his elbow, and the vibration I hear from the back of his throat tells me the cough was genuine. But Uncle Boris doesn't seem to notice and keeps talking.

I cover my mouth and giggle. There's another knock on the door, and we turn to see Rowan, followed by Maxwell.

"What's up, baby blossoms?" Maxwell calls to us.

In a loud whisper, Gabe responds, "Talking to Uncle Boris!"

"It's okay," Rowan says, grabbing the phone and taking it off of speakerphone. "I've got this. There's food for you guys if you want something to eat?"

"C'mon, blossoms!" Maxwell exclaims, leading us towards the dining room. "Are you guys excited to get to Cordonia tomorrow?"

We shrug and nod, trying our best to seem somewhat enthusiastic.

"Aw, don't worry. I'm sure you'll love it when you finally get there. Your mom came to adore it after just spending a short time there." He pauses for a moment, then lowers his voice before continuing, and I don't think Gabe and I are meant to hear what he said when he goes, "That's why it was so much of a surprise when she left."

Gabe and I share a worried glance. In the short time that we had known Maxwell, he was always cheerful. But his last sentence was carried out with a heavy voice. "At least it's good that she's finally going back?" Gabe states, accidentally making it sound like a question.

Maxwell looks down at him, patting Gabe's head. "It sure is, baby blossom. It sure is."

- Drake -

The day after Liam left, the Beaumonts, Drake, Rowan, Riley, and her kids were all in the airport waiting for the pilot to get ready. Liam had told Drake before leaving that he thought it would be best if he went back home with the Beaumonts so he could help Riley and the kids settle in. Drake wanted to tell him that he already decided that, but he believed that it would be best not to agitate Liam, who was already stressed.

When it was time to finally get on the jet, Drake tells Maxwell to grab Riley's crutches before she can reach them. Drake then offers to carry Riley in his arms to help her board the plane.

She blushes and argues that she can do it herself, but then accepts after Drake persists. Her kids follow closely behind, not taking their eyes off of their mother.

Inside, he puts her down and takes the seat right next to her, while the kids take the seats in front of them. While everyone else settles in, Drake notices Riley moving around.

"You good, Brooks?" he asks her.

"Yeah," she says. "My leg's making me a bit uncomfortable, though."

"The doctor said that you had to keep it elevated. Here." Drake gently grabs her injured leg and sets it down on his knee. "That better?"

"Yeah, thanks." She smiles at him.

For the rest of the plane ride, Riley goes in and out of naps, resting her head on Drake's shoulder. The children talk with Rowan and Maxwell, who seem to be getting friendly with one another. Bartie stares out of the window for the most part but does his best to include himself in conversations with Gabriel and Eleanor. Savannah and Bertrand murmur amongst themselves, and occasionally Bertrand stands to make sure that Riley's doing alright.

Drake sits silently, glancing at Riley while she slept, doing his best not to remind himself of the first time he and Maxwell had brought her to Cordonia.

He promised himself that he would do everything that he could to make sure there would be no repeat of the social season or the Engagement Tour.

I'll be damned if I let the court ruin Riley and her kids, he thinks to himself.

Drake watches Maxwell teach Gabriel and Eleanor a game he just created. When he glances out the window, Drake takes a moment to stare at the expanse of water that had separated him from Riley for so long. He checks the time, trying to estimate when they would be able to view Cordonia out the window, hoping to wake Riley to let her see the shore. He hated that she still didn't remember any of them; there were still so many questions they needed to ask her.

He stares down at her sleeping face, and for a moment, his heart aches for everything that she's gone through. There's a sense of guilt that vibrates within him, for everything that he did and didn't do. And there's also... reluctance. He's almost scared to bring her back, to bring happiness back. They had all spent so much time in a deep hole of 'if only' that leaving the hole felt unnatural. Eventually though, that all fades away as Drake drifts into sleep, Riley's peaceful features having allured him.

- Bastien -

Due to unpredictable weather the night before, King Liam's jet was unable to take flight for Cordonia when he had wished it to. The delay lasted for hours, and King Liam's aircraft was finally in the air only an hour before the Beaumont's plane was predicted to take off. Liam told Bastien it would be best not to tell the Beaumont's about his delay, seeing that they still had to give off the illusion that everyone was arriving from a different place, but Bastien saw the reluctance in his king's eyes; the man wanted to go with them, but couldn’t.

As King Liam's jet lands in the capital, Bastien sends a radio message to the rest of the King's Guard to keep away paparazzi and to make sure there was no threat in any surrounding areas. Near the entrance of the airport, there's a limo waiting for the king. Bastien opens the door for Liam, then goes to sit in the front.

He sends out another message to the guards still in the palace, alerting them that the king was returning, and reminding them to report anything pressing. Bastien receives messages stating that there was nothing eventful going on, except small preparations for the social season. Bastien breathes out, glad that his king would not have more to bother him.

When they reach the palace, Bastien jumps out of the car and follows King Liam, who is already through the entrance.

There's noise on the other end of his earpiece, and Bastien is about to ignore it and shut it off before a female guard's voice states, "Alert His Majesty that he has someone waiting to speak to him."

Bastien doesn't say anything back into the radio, since King Liam was walking right beside him. Before Bastien can tell his king the news, the woman's voice sounds again.

"Bas, can you hear me? Prince Leo wants His Majesty to know that he's waiting to talk to him. He says it's important."

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