#but. i mean its kinda worth it. im really proud of these

[ppnuggiex]

　　　　　　OCTATRIO x gn reader

　　　　『　azul ,, jade ,, floyd ,, gender neutral reader 』

　　-> taking interest in their mer form

　　— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack ,, vulnerability from jade and azul ,, floyd being a pain in the ass

　　— some headcannons and writing blurbs for octatrio <3 they mean sm to me . might make dating hcs of them but genderswapped ,, or like dating them but theyre girls yknow ? 😭 i stumbled across some oneshots of them as girls on ao3 and now im becoming addicted to fem azul 😿🙏 also made little divider things <3 i kinda like them but they wouldnt become transparent 🤬🤬 so theyre just white n stuff 😞😞 as always enjoy and feel free to request :D

| • getting azul to trust you enough to show his merform took quite a while ,, a lot of patience and reassurance but it was worth it in the end

| • long tentacle arms expanding and curling with himself ,, flexing suction cups and reaching afar to stretch

| • face tinted red ,, glasses covering his eyes as he glanced downwards ,, his lips turned out in a pout as you gazed at his form

| • he was so sure you'd be disgusted ,, tell him never to contact you ever again ,, leaving him there in shambles with his heart broken

| • yet it never happened ,, rather the opposite instead ,, your eyes wide with excitement but voice soft and calm as to not spook azul more than he already was

| • a small " may i ?" with your hands outstretched towards him ,, ready to examine him as much as he'd let you

| • he'd only nod slowly ,, arms curling within himself once again and eyes darting around all over to ensure no one was near to see the sight before him ,, or in case he needed a quick getaway

| • azul is quite touch starved and touch sensitive ,, not used to having someone's hands over him in any sort of form ,, other than in violent means

| • how gentle you treat him ,, as though he were to wither away under your touch ( which he did feel like doing )

| • everything down under his consent ,, and his supervision of course ,, your brain and curiosity end up satiated ,, pressing a small kiss to azul's cheek in thanks for this memory

| • treasuring every touch you can get ,, reassuring azul that he's quite a beauty rather or not he thinks so ,, and last but not least a thank you for allowing this ,, for letting him trust you this much and that you would never break said trust

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        cool to the touch yet smooth ,, your fingertips roamed over one of his appendages . azul sucked in a breath ,, eyes fixated on your fingers and awaiting for any depricating comments from your lips . though he never expected you to smile and whisper praises to him . " you're quite beautiful , azul ." it was small and short ,, yet it meant a lot to him . " i do absolutely adore the gradation from black to purple here ,, its quite lovely if i say so ." you murmured under your breath ,, eyes raking over his form as you played with the suction cups on the underside of his appendage .

        your eyes glanced back up ,, meeting azul's as they took in every movement of yours . " thank you for this azul ." you whispered ,, hands leaving his tentacle to wrap around his neck as you coddled against him . " i understand how private this is for you ,, how important it is . i really appreciate this azul ,, i'm proud of how far you've gotten ." you whispered against him ,, eyes still holding his as tears welded up in his soft iridescent gaze . his arms slowly wrapped around you ,, chest heaving as he tried to keep his composure around you . yet the more you sung genuine praise ,, the more his heart clenched in his chest and the faster his tears started to roll down his face .

        he allowed himself to bury his face in your neck ,, soft cries being blocked against your skin as your hand rubbed against his back ,, lips pressing kisses to his shoulder as you let him be vulnerable . " its okay azul ,, go ahead and let it out . i'm here for you ,, i promise ." you said ,, feeling his tentacles creep across your skin to wrap themselves around your torso . just this one moment ,, this shared memory of yours ,, he let his walls down and let you in ,, the vulnerability of his current state . your lips pressed another kiss to his shoulder ,, hearing his sobs start to die down as you rest your head against his shoulder .

| • its not often that hes surprised or caught off guard ,, like in this instance for example

| • he has caught your gaze before whenever he happened to be in his more natural form ,, how your eyes would eye him up and down

| • yet you never said a word about it once ,, keeping all your thoughts to yourself ,, all your secrets locked away

| • jade had gotten curious himself ,, curious of what you thought of him in this state ,, though he was never self conscious about it once

| • it didnt bother him whether or not you liked his natural state more than his more humane one ,, it wasnt of his concern to know or need that information

| • and it surely settled that way in his mind ,, at least until he got closer to you until eventually you both ended up together in a relationship

| • he couldnt contain the thoughts clouding his mind ,, it was near impossible to put a lid on them ,, as they would come back in a mere few hours to haunt him again

| • so when you asked to see his merform ,, he was quite ecstatic ,, caught offguard yet it wasnt an ask he would refuse

| • with the two of you in one of octavinelle's pools ,, alone together with jade in the water floating about ,, you on floor of the room with wide eyes and a smile ,, jade contemplated the emotions he felt

| • somewhat vulnerable ,, yet not in a bad way he supposed ,, watching as your eyes gazed all about him before you asked if you could touch him

| • his heart may have fluttered at that ,, but he wouldnt allow you to know that ,, eyes lidded as he swam closer to the edge of the pool and letting you feed your curiosity

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        your hands reached out to the finals where his ears wear ,, stroking one softly with your thumb as jade laid his head in your lap . " enjoying yourself pearl ?" his sultry voice asked ,, mismatched eyes gazing into your own as he allowed you to fuel your curiosity . " yes ,," was all you could muster out ,, allowing your hands to trail over his scales coating his neck ,, collarbone and dragging down his arms . he was muscular ,, though not as much as jack was . you could still feel the flesh as your fingertips glided alongside his upper arms ,, digging in gently before moving on .

        jade could feel his heart pick up pace slightly ,, eyes widening slightly as your eyes shined ,, enthralled and mesmerized by his luxurious scales . you didnt notice ,, too busy being entranced at the gradation of his scales ,, eyes glazing over little nicks and scars he's gotten over the years .

| • similar to jade ,, hes been in his more natural state around you ,, noticing your staring and has teased you for it before

| • he'll call you out on how rude it is to stare before grabbing you off the ground and dragging you into the pool with a loud giggle

| • " shrimpy's so silly ! if you wanna look or touch ya just gotta ask small fry ,," he'll remark as he rubs his cheek against yours with his long body coiling around you

| • even then it takes you a while to finally ask ,, a gentle night at the beach during sprink break having mustered up enough courage to ask

| • floyd didnt mind ,, enjoying your flustered state as he allowed you to rub your hands on his scales

| • who knows he may try to get you to itch a spot for him that he cant reach ,, or splash water onto your face with his tail

| • he'll laugh as you grumble about ,, trying to wipe the water away only to be met with even more water ,, this time using his hands instead of his tail

| • when joining him in the water you have to be careful of what you do ,, after all if you do try to run from his grip he'll only take it as indication that you wanna play chase

| • like a snake he'll slither within the water ,, hands reaching out to grab at you and pull you close to him

| • on days he happens to be more chill for the time being he lets you gaze all over ,, not bothering to call you out on your obsessive staring

| • its moments like these that you can observe floyd in his beauty ,, rather than trying to escape it

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        " floyd !" you grumbled as he splashed water at your face ,, causing you to squeeze your eyes shut . " for five seconds can you not splash me ?" you asked. he could only shrug ,, dorky smile on his face . " shouldn't have been starin' ,," is all he'll say ,, waiting for you to open your eyes only to splash you again . at that moment ,, you didnt care anymore and lunged forward at him ,, arms wrapping around his neck as you tried to splash water into his face as payback .

         unfortunately for you ,, he'd already dived underwater and dragged you along with him without warning . when you let go and resurface ,, he's at the other end of pool laughing at your flailing arms . " for one minute can i admire you ?!" you huffed ,, glaring over in his general direction as you swam towards the ledge of the pool . it doesn't take long until hes coming up right behind you ,, grabbing at your waist and bringing you back to him . " all you had to do was ask shrimpy ." he'll say as he floats along his back ,, you ontop of him and in his arms as he lets you look him over with adoration in your eyes .

#twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twisted wonderland #🌊.octavinelle #azul x reader #azul ashengrotto #floyd leech #floyd x reader #jade leech #jade x reader #🌊.jade #🌊.floyd #🌊.azul

[junee-e]

A NEW PENUMBRA EPISODE HAS RISEN!!!! TIME TO THROW MY THOUGHTS INTO THE ABYSS!!!! random thoughts and ramblings follow :D

I AM SO READY FOR DETECTIVE RITA YOU HAVE NO IDEA

OH SHIT WILL SHE BE NARRATING PLEASE TELL ME SHES NARRATING

HER DETECTIVE VOICE IS SO FUN IM SO DEAD

why is she better at this than juno this is going so much better than his attempt

‘WATCH THIS’ * keyboard tapping noises* (i love her)

of course she gets paid in cereal i dont know what i expected

oh ok no junos still narrating

‘THE MAN I LOVED WAS ON THE LINE’ (this will never get old for me)

‘my name is juno steel and *usually* im the private eye’ i am enjoying this way too much

ok why do i love skipper they’re so fun?

‘he just ruins the *peaceful vibes*’ so real so real

HE TOOK THE FUCKING FLOWERS I SWEAR TO GOD

rita. had. dinner with them. oh my god. she is the best.

the mother speaking for the grandfather in like such an annoyed voice and then being so calm with ‘or so father says’ is so funny to me

skippers so dramatic i love them

‘SHUT UP DEAREST’ LMAOO

ooooooo did skipper help nureyev?? wait no thats too obvious….or it is just obvious enough to be right????…..no its isnt….or is it???? (im going insane)

‘he makes friends or.. more than friends and he uses those connections to his advantage’ OH SHIT (skipper???? skipper?? skipper kinda makes sense???) (but like yknow…obvious option)

‘watch skippers reaction in particular’ AHAHA!

OOOO ARE WE GONNA GET RITA NUREYEV INTERACTIONS PLEASE OH MY GOD

‘mostly i was thinking about nureyev’ *cue me falling off my chair at the instant romantic soundtrack that apparently follows nureyev’s name everywhere now*

roomantiic moonoolougueee tiimmee

GRIMMS MASK EPISDOE CALL BACK OH I AM NOT READY

‘another love’ ITS FOR HIS JOB ISNT IT ISTG

OH ITS FOR FUCKING HYPERION CITY OHHHHH SHIT

why does this remind me of the monolouge at the end of final resting place (end of the first season)

‘it wasnt a very nice city but hell im not a very nice lady’ vs ‘this is my city. im not proud of it but that doesnt mean its not worth saving’

there are so many things this season that are setting up to be broken (probably not the right word) but like so many things that have potential for a really sad/angsty pay off. like nureyev and slip or juno telling nureyev he’ll keep following him untl he says he doesnt want him to. or juno and missing hyperion city. i’m so scared.

oh ritas so dramatic its making me so happy

HE TOOK THE ORCHIDS !!!!!

ITS THE MOTHER????

of course she had an inflatable couch in her hideout spot

ooooo its juno detective-ing explain-ing time

juno obsessing over detective stuff is so fun

a CoNfEsSiOn

‘im tired of you people…and also just tired’ skipper being way too relatable

OH SHIT NUREYEV DIDNT TAKE THE FLOWERS???

SOMEONE TOOK THE FLOWERS FOR NUREYEV WHAT IS THIS????

OH IT WAS THE GRANDFATHER WHAT???

‘he sent me up to bed early’ ma’am, you are a probably-around-40-or-something-year-old woman

the gibberish is still funny

WHAT HE WAS FUCKING IN LOVE WITH NUREYEV HUH WHAT THATS SO FUNNY

‘we know how this theif operates he grabs you by your heartstrings and never lets go’ yeah rita would know about that with all the agnsty monolouges

WHAT THE FUCK HES TALKING????

WHO SAID HE LOVED HIM??? NUREYEV???? WHAT???

OH FUCK OH SHIT OH NO OH GOD ‘he said hed come back for me he said we’d run away together’ OHHHH NO NO NO NO NO. NO LONGER FUNNY

‘well it looks like my work here…is done’ *very fast tapping of rita walking away*

OH WAIT SHE CAME BACK TO ACTUALLY HELP JUNO LMAOO

awwww they’re all back together!

A TRACKER A TRACKER HE GOT IT ON NUREYEV AHAHAHA

THEY KNOW WHERE THE DOKANA GROUP IS LETS GO

oh ok fuck i thought we were done how foolish of me there hadnt been a sad speech yet

‘i knew he hadnt done the same to me’ OH THANK GOD OKOK

‘he meant the promises he made me’ AWW YAY

wait no its sad oh god oh no

‘problems for another day, i thought’ best coping method fr fr

‘the rest we’d just have to figure out together’ yay ok happy-ish ending :D

okok so alot of thoughts. i’m so scared of all the set-ups for angst and honestly i’m kinda just waiting for the episode that it all comes crashing down and everyones really sad. but also! hopefullness! juno saying that he’ll figure it out with nureyev! yay! i honestly don’t know how the big climax finally thing with jupeter and slip and the dokana group and everything is going to go i’m just really hoping for an eventual happy ending with happy jupeter (and rita there too :D)

anyway! loved this episode can’t wait for the next one with (i’m assuming) stuff with the Dokana group!!

#tpp #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #peter nureyev #rita (tpp) #jupeter

[daenystheedreamer]

pls more abt viserys Omaegorverse I'm so fascinated it's insane and i honestly think grrm would b proud

im so happy u love it and this means so much but i do NOT think he would be proud 😭 he would read my posts (gun to his head ofc he wouldnt just. do that.) and sit in silence for a few minutes and then he would say. Maegor isnt gay what are you talking about. and i go well thats not really the point and anyway sexuality is kinda fluid and its more about opportunity and power than about sexual attraction although i will concede- and then he sends elio and linda with spears to hunt me down.

he's canonically a nothing character with personality of 'Beloved Of The Commons' n nothing else so i can kinda do whatever tf i want with him which is fun. he's also mostly there to be a sad wet cat that gets kicked by everyone and everyone he loves dies or is weird about him in some way. he's my special little sad uke twink i brutalise for my personal entertainment <3 im so maegorcoded so tyannacoded... anyway more about my babyboy viserys below<3 warning its SOOO long like fifteen fucking paragraphs Jesus christ

trigger warnings for like everything. incest death depression mental instability murder psychosis uhhh. torture and suicide. just all of it do NOT read unless youre like super certain you wanna read about my deviantart OCs because guys it is NOT worth it

childhood pre-Torture Labyrinth. he's born in 29 AC and was 8-ish when he was at the deathbed of Aegon1. aegon the uncrowned is three years older than him, and rhaena is six years older. jaehaerys is 5 years younger, alysanne is 7 years younger vaella who i kept alive is 10 years younger. just to give an idea of ages and general canon info :>

his only personality trait is Promising and Beloved of the commons. i think him and aegon were friends :) younger brother so he followed after him a lot. slightly scared of rhaena the big cool older sister who has a pet dragon. think his granddad is soooo cool doesnt really think about The Implications of conquest or anything. normal boy normal childhood (as normal as possible when ur siblings are married...) also he is gay because it adds to the horrors later on 🥰

something i think is Inchresting is the rhaena, aegon and viserys are named for rhaenys, aegon and visenya :3 i think viserys is like hercules right where he was named in an attempt to appease The Wife. aenys was like hiiiii auntie/stepmum visenya look i named a kid after you you dont wanna kill me right?right? and she looks at this kid who didnt claim a dragon isnt a girl isnt maegor and goes oh so youre insulting me huh.

i think rhaena aegon viserys had a slightly weird dynamic. rhaena the lesbian getting forcibly betrothed to her younger brother by her father is gonna make things weird, also aegon was 15 and rhaena 18 which adds just the best most awesome sauce to the mix. i think viserys had very complicated feelings on that especially if he is gay cos like... rhaena obviously does not love her brother romantically right. so u are a boy and ur sister is a lesbian but you dont have that word. and you are gay and your brother is cool and the crown prince and everyone is screwing their siblings and that makes your brain chemistry weird. and now your brother is marrying your gay sister. What about you. the dragon has three heads??? idk he's like 12 at this point he just goes back to playing hide and seek with jae+aly.

Uh oh daddy's dead. daddy's dead and uncle maegor is king now with his three wives. Uh oh. oh awesome he's kidnapped you and you're his squire now that's so cool. well its mostly a power play and hes not actually making u do anything as long as you stay locked in the red keep all day he leaves you alone. also maegor's insane girlfriend stares at you like you're a baby lamb that would make a delicious lamb tostada. but hey your big brother aegon has a dragon now and him and rhaena are gonna save you soon. Uh oh aegon's dead. aegon's dead and maegor is king for real for real.

everyone steers clear of you in the keep. you used to play with your siblings and the commoners and you used to play on dragonstone and kings landing and now no one wants to touch you. no one is calling you maegor's squire now, the pretence is gone. you are maegor's hostage. you fantasise about a different outcome, where maegor took you to the battle as his squire, and that you being there might have changed what happened. maybe you could have warned aegon. but you know nothing would have changed. youre not a dragonrider. you're worthless you're powerless. youre 14 years old :)

alys harroway is dead. maegor killed his wife. you knew alys, you saw her around the keep. she seemed very nice. she was very quiet and stayed in her rooms. she was always pregnant. you wonder why she married maegor, why she and tyanna are so strange with each other. you hear rumours. you wish you had talked to her. but she's dead now. maegor killed her. maegor tortured her. she's a whore now. you look out the window and see her rotting leg on a stake outside, her torso on another. you wish you had talked to her.

visenya targaryen the looming shadow over your life, the woman you're named after who looked at you with nothing but scorn, is dead. your mother is gone and she took jae and aly. what about you? what about you? is she not your mother too? are you not her little boy anymore? you are 15 years old. maegor killed alys' family when he was angry with her. is he going to kill you now?

ok second person pov over the gimmick is getting lame. anyway this is where the AU deviates: instead of viserys dying of torture, maegor is like hey maybe my nephew will be more fertile than my BITCH wives. and visenya the blood witch before her death compiled a bunch of old valyrian a/b/o fanfiction and said son if you ever find yourself with infertile wives. Consult These Texts. then tyanna and maegor made viserys mpreggable i dont care about how or like. what his body looks like. im not into the fetish of omegaverse LMAO i dont want to think about the fertilisation or birthing process or what organs he has thats unnecessary. only thing thats important is viserys can incubate babies and they are birthed via c-section :3

quick lore dump: vis is forced to maegor -> rhaena crashes the wedding but vis is so broken at this point he just doesnt want anyone else to die and has resigned himself to maegor so rhaena reluctantly surrenders -> alyssa jae and aly DO go to the red keep after they find out about the wedding and jae dies fighting maegor which makes viserys fully break -> alyssa now has husband dead 2 kids dead her son is queen and she also loses her fight :( lives on dragonstone with alive vaella -> alysanne is given to the faith -> rhaena agrees to a truce and she is hand of the king now and viserys' main protector -> vis gets pregnant and the kid is basically a reincarnation of jaehaerys -> tyanna loses her shit and tries to murder/sterilise/whatever viserys so maegor kills her cos he's finally got his babymaker -> vis has a daughter who's the reincarnation of tyanna -> faith uprising, shut down -> vis has his second daughter final child daenys who's birth is heralded by the martyrdom of poxy jeyne poor in the quashed faith uprising

vis is in the torture labyrinth for a couple decades. life sucks husband sucks everyone is weird about him. very death in venice people are weird about the boy type deal. has to wade through gender and sexuality politics of westeros which means several men going utterly insane about him including a couple kingsguard knights (celibate hypermasculine freaks bound to be insane sexually). one point early-ish on he DOES start believing this one kingsguard knight will save him from The Hells The Horrors but maegor finds out and kills that guy adn sexually humiliates viserys in front of the kingsguard and makes their son watch. So that fucks up vis' psyche for a while :3

rhaena and alysanne try to convince him to rebel and run away that they will use their dragons and fight. but maegor has made vis so paranoid and crazy he thinks maegor knows everything knows all his thoughts so he's terrified of plotting escape cos he thinks maegor will kill everyone. plus maegor made sure to force kids onto him early so that vis wouldnt be able to leave :3 world's most evil babytrap of all time.

vis doesnt interact with anyone except rhaena aly maegor his kids and the kingsguard so yeah its bad for him. ceryse hangs around for a while but shes like yeah i dont want any part of this shit dude being queen is NAWT worth it and she goes back to the hightower to plot marrying her niece off to maegor's son.

also there's a curse on the kingsguard all of them die really horribly and early. its a fun little thing for me personally because in f&b maegor's kinsguard is cartoonishly bad and jae's is cartoonishly perfect so i though Hey what if we did a little curse on the kingsguard ey. that would be fun. the only guy who stays long is a bracken because brackenfail cancels out knightfail. he's all godly and pissy about the gay marriage thing but he's also a monarchist so even though he think maegor is satan he's like well. he is my king i must serve him i obey my vows. he thinks viserys is a freak of nature but slowly grows to respect him and helps kill maegor + takes the fall for it. they have a weird father figure/white knight/weird tension thing that never gets consummated yay ^_^ the maegor torture labyrinth will have you 21 years old and best friends with a 50 year old celibate knight like dang where tf ser bracken at today 🥹

viserys snaps in 66AC with no like big catalyst or anything. he just has a good day where he's mostly lucid and he's angry and he's tired of everything and he's sick of maegor and he wants freedom he wants to be free. he wants to breath the air without panicking that maegor is going to hurt him. and maegor says some disgusting comment to him while theyre alone in the throne room and vis just snaps and start fighting him. daenys shows up cos she had her own Visions and Voices and they just start whaling on him. bracken knight helps too he takes most of maegor's counter attacks his organs are all over the floor but maegor dies impaled on the throne YAY

vis is like. A bit better for a while. his son is now king and vis is seeing that oh it doesnt get better does it people will still die. also his son jae has this weird oedipus complex about him thanks to maegor's insane parenting and viserys is fully aware of that so its not fun times for him. jae and daenys try to make him better try to invent therapy but its the middle ages they dont have that yet. they finally send him off to harrenhal (BAD IDEA) because they think viserra (the elder daughter btw, the tyanna one) might be able to cure him with her weird witchcraft. they think she's insane too but its the last option... viserra thinks vis is lame and weak but she does love him in ehr own way or maybe just pities him. anyway she does her best and it works for a while but viserys sorta gives up cos the depression is too much. and viserra believes in euthanasia as a mercy and thinks this is best for him this will let him be at peace. daenys has a premonition about it and tries to stop him. she has a big blowout fight with jae about it too and curses his bloodline and prophesises the long night. burned the red keep a little bit, you know how it is.

blah blah blah anyway daenys and vis end up dying in the gods eye together in a murder/suicide suicide/suicide murder/murder whatever. viserra has the lake dragged and they're found holding each other like a mother and her fetus :3

Fucks sake this post is long. holy shit holy fuck. my fucking bad guys my bad im so sorry. Holy shit. anyway thats my deviant art oc tee hee ^_^

#ive never read a little life but i suspect i have somewhat cribbed it. my bad guys brutalising a fictional gayboy is just so fun #au:omaegorverse #you guys have GOT to blacklist that tag if u dont wanna lose any respect you have for me. it is So embarrassing im sorry to be lke this 😭 #ask #anonymous #oc:viserystargaryen

[genderqueerdykes]

kinda vent-ish? //

im an abrosexual and bigender, and most of my life i identity as an MLM trans man. but occasionally, i identify as a girl and WLW (meaning the femininity of my bigenderism and the lesbianism of my abrosexuality have synced up).

it makes me really insecure because i worry if it appears to invalidate my experience as a lesbian. only hours ago i was feeling like a bisexual man, and now i feel like a lesbian. i have a lesbian friend who says that she thinks it’s weird, like i’m sexualizing WLW by only occasionally feeling as if i identify as one.

do you have any suggestions? this is really eating me up and i want to be able to feel proud of myself no matter how i’m currently identifying

no disrespect to your lesbian friend, but i think her comment was weird and also rude

lesbianism is not about chasing away men or excluding men, masculine or male identifying people. it's okay if you identify as a man sometimes, or even if you did all the time. it does not take away from the fact that you are a lesbian at times, and you being a lesbian does not take away from you being a man. lesbians can, do, and have always had a complex relationship with gender. butches especially have always had a complicated relationship with gender

people have been trying to chase butches and lesbians with male and masculine genders out of the community for quite a while, but we're not going anywhere. you're not weird. it's not weird to be multigender, or abrosexual. it's not weird to be bigender. it's not weird to have this experience. it's just who you are. it's a state of being and it's not a threat to anyone

any type of "men are bad/men do not belong in lesbian spaces/men need to be as far away from lesbians as humanly possible/etc." rhetoric is political lesbianism and/or lesbian separatism and it's not worth your time. even if your friend meant no harm, the ideology is harmful and has its roots in chasing butches, transsexual, intersex, and other lesbians with complex genders out of the community, so it's not worth your time. be who you are, don't let someone else dictate your experience. it'll bounce around in your head for a while, but at the end of the day, you know who you are

take care of yourself, if you need anything else, feel free to come back any time. i think you're cool as fuck, take care of yourself

#asks #answers #bigender #lesbian #bisexual

[yeastinfectionvale]

hi um sorry i just wanted to tell you a little bit about september ig im genuinely really sorry if its annoying or doesnt make sense or generally just sounds dumb i dont really talk to anybody except eachtra about him but um

we had this idea that his dad owns one of the teams, because he is very much a car man, his wealth is generational but he built on it a lot with his um, like, chain/branch of motor garages across australia, and then he ended up working on some prototypes for f1 cars and eventually ended up with his own team because he can just. afford to do that. and the whole motor garages and cars thing is what got september into cars in the first place because he grew up around them and i think maybe his dad projected his own dream of driving onto him so he'd been karting since he was really little, it was mostly his dad's influence that got him into redbull but he made his own name and showed his own worth pretty quick cuz he'd been around cars forever, yk? he met his longest relationship (pre-suki) when he did summer work at the karting track near his town just outside of melbourne city, and they were kinda always gonna be endgame until suki came along. but anyway sorry that was kind of off topic but anyway now hes got this big idea of needing to impress his dad and meet his expectations and their relationship is kinda strained anyway from. certain other things that happened when he was a teenager. and its weird because he wants to do well so his dad will be proud but if he does well then his dads team wont do as well so its kind of a double edged sword. also his ma is a licensed dermatologist with her own little makeup/skincare line that suki literally swears by. shes like, idk, the charlotte tilbury of skincare if that means anything to you idk if maybe im just a makeup snob and that makes no sense to anyone but me but um yeah sorry for bothering you thanks bye

Ahhhhhhhhhh never apologise for September lore!!!!!!! Wait this is so exciting. The heir to two businesses and building a name for himself at the same time???? Generational love for car oooooooooooooh, and working on prototype of F1 cars???? Reminds me of that one scene from the movie rush where Niki Lauda is talking about the magnesium parts and making his car faster.

The double edged sword that is his father's name is so interesting because I bet no matter how good September is, the media would always find a way to mention his parents, father specifically.

OOOOOH THIS IS SO EXCITIN!G!!! Please feel free to pop in whenever you want, I love hearing about OCs!

#I promise you're never going to be annoying <3 #asks??? in this economy??? #Outboundsolace!!! #F1 oc time

[hobidreams]

my gosh babes, things have been so hectic😭 i’m im my fourth year now, and higher-level subjects r making me cry😭 why is everything so scary??

i’m taking a class under a really popular, established writer here in my country, and he scares me so much😭 it’s not like he’s mean or anything, in fact he’s kind of like a nice grandpa, but he’s so intimidating. he ended up quoting from one of my exercises for his column last week and i was so flattered🥹 when he asked me for my consent to be quoted, i had to play it cool but internally i was fangirling so much lol. i just really want to make a good impression on him because i’d love to get a letter of recommendation from him in the future🥹🥹

i’m starting my thesis next semester too, and i’m both scared and relieved😭😭 i’m kinda looking forward to what the future holds for me hehe

that’s all from me!! (mostly haha)

how has your internship been?? i miss seeing you around here on tumblr🥹🥹

-🌿

ps. love and deepspace is actually lowkey addictive and i’m genuinely considering buying the monthly pass they have bc it’s rafayel’s birthday next month and i want his card so bad😭😭

FOURTH YEAR ASDLJAFD seems like yesterday you were just starting uni i feel like ?!!?!? 😭😭 im so proud of all you've accomplished bb! honestly my upper year courses were the best so i hope they are for you too hahah.

OMG that is awesome that he praised you like that 💗what an honor!!! go grandpa author LOL <3 i hope you get that letter!

whatre u gonna write your thesis on? 👀

its been busy,,, but only 2 more months to go. im really looking forward to relaxing in the summer after this 😭 but im happy to be helping clients and actually doing some good work in my community.

LOL tbh the monthly pass is always worth it??? sorry to enable you buti feel like if u buy 1 thing the pass is always the best thing to do hahaha

#🌿 anon #rain reply #mwah

[ask-rw-dark-au]

Hello, you don't really need to answer this ask. I just enjoy your blog and well, idn, I just want to give a little bit of advice/encouragement. I'm bad with words, specially in English, which is not my first language, please don't take this as an insult or offense, I really tried to just come here in friendly terms (terms? That's how you said it? Idn 😅)

What I wanted to say it's, whatever you do in any fandom it's always best to do it for intrinsic motivators, specially if the fandoms are small. Having engament it's great, I'm a fanfic writer, I know that feeling of seeing any comment in my stories, but I learned long ago that I must do things for myself, for my personal enjoyment and fulfilment.

Don't get me wrong, i enjoy your blog, you will probably figure out who I am bc I'm gonna reblog stuff lmao but you know, do this for your own personal happiness, not to seek engament. I have stories from 2013 and even 2015 that to this day have no comments but I'm fine with it. I really enjoyed writing them and I'm proud of them, even if they have almost no engament at all, I wouldn't delete them for any reason <3

What I try to say it's try to not seek motivation in extrinsic motivators like engament and just do it to have fun! Do it for you, not expecting attention, but to just have fun and feel nice inside. Do gender bend, play with sexuality and relationships, explore and come out with new designs and lore, and enjoy it fully. Don't be afraid to take breaks if you need and come back when you feel like yeah, I wanna have fun with this again! I may be shooting myself in the foot since I'm saying dude take a break if you need, that it's totally fine, even tho I wnana see more of your ideas, but seriously, your personal enjoyment comes first :D

So yeah, have fun, ignore the haters and all that people that don't get what Au means can go live under a rock ;v

Have a nice day/night 😘

thank you so much for the ask !!!!! im answering it so other people can see since i think this is a really really good message,,,

i do my best to do things for my own enjoyment, and i do absolutely LOVE this au and i love making it :3333

however, ive always struggled with doing things i enjoy because of how often its ignored by friends, family, ect, so im prone to forgetting even though it was enjoyable

engagement helps me remember it exists, helps me get new ideas, and mostly helps me know that its worth posting to places. i dont enjoy doing things when nobody knows it exists, and although im not sure why, its kinda just how it goes for me idk man SHGSSGD

ive been taking breaks periodically throughout winter break, and thats why i usually answer asks in short bursts since it means they all build up and then i can answer them all at once :3 i get myself hyped to answer and then i can and it works pretty well for me,,,

fr man i think. i think that "au" is a bigpart of the "ask rw dark au"

sure, just about nothing in this au is the same as canon, but thats. thats the point of an au im just silly like that !!!!!!

ive been working on not relying on engagement to enjoy things, ive been getting better about it and i have been able to make things just because i like them

idk if it makes sense or not, but sometimes it feels like i shouldnt enjoy something when nobody else does or seems to, you know? ive struggled with people pleasing for years as well as having problems with adhd / anxiety (unmedicated) making it difficult for me to kinda just. do things guh

im not saying this bc i disagree because i dont at all i completely agree with what youre saying and i do genuinely appreciate this !!!!!

im working on getting better abt it and i think im going to delete the reblog post soon just because i dont really think its worth it, hopefully if i just keep answering asks and making designs and drawing these silly creatures ill be able to get past the worry that people dont like it and just start posting because i like it !!!

thank you so much !!!!!!!

[nerves-nebula]

 This turtle au has made me think more about my childhood than I have in forever. (I know that’s very common but it’s too late at night in my timezone for me to think of a decent joke to make about it)

  Uh warning, complex (and probably not super relatable? I have an odd situation) feelings about parents ahead though I’m sure that’s just the usual drill for ya nowadays.

  Because like…there’s so much I relate to, but also feel like I shouldn’t. Because unlike Splinter, my parents did get better. They went to therapy, stopped hurting us, apologized for it all, and genuinely earned forgiveness by being there, caring, and listening and learning.…But it still happened, y’know? Like…they can be awesome now, but they also spent most of my childhood yelling and hitting and a bunch of other shit I’ve repressed. I've still got issues from it, and half my childhood is repressed memories while the other half is screaming at people. 

  And so I guess it’s weird trying to reconcile that. To have my fury co-exist with the fact that the people I’m mad at have grown into some of the most amazing people ever. Like I’m terrible for daring to still be mad…but then it hurts to know what the people I love are capable of, to see a proud smile all while knowing in the back of my mind that that person has physically harmed me, that they’ve given me a cold stare and smashed me into a wall with those same hands that are patting my back right now... And maybe they haven’t hurt me and my siblings in years, but…it happened and it fucking hurts still…

  IDK where I’m going with this any more, and I should probably (read: definitely) be sleeping, but I guess…well, thanks for sharing your AU. It’s uncomfortably relatable and yet somehow deeply cathartic. It’s made me think a lot about stuff I had been trying to repress, but in like, a good productive way I guess? I dunno. It hurts good. Probably gonna sleep now lol. Feel free to ignore this if you want, guess I just wanted to let you know that your AU helped me, all while being really pretty from an art standpoint…keep it up dude.

"it hurts good" hah. yeah. i get that.

sounds like youve got an ok situation goin on, for what it's worth im proud of your parents for getting better. and im happy for you. it's ok to still be mad or resent them for things did before, obviously. you might need some kinda therapy to work through or process shit but, like, there's nothing wrong with relating to this story. it's for you!

i mean, its for ME but it's also for you hahh.

#nnstuff #ask #child abuse tw #asks are sweethearts #being helpful

[shattersstar]

Hey, I saw your recent post about readership and I'm sorry you're dealing with all that. Your work is really great and deserves more attention and traction than it gets. I read all your Jason fics and they're always spot-on. I come back to reread some of them regularly. If you end up deleting, I completely understand, and I'd be sorry to see you go, but you need to do what's best. I hope you continue writing either way. Much love <3

thank u this is rlly nice and im glad my work is smth u can return too <3 and i didn’t mean to fear monger that i’d b deleting its just the. principle of it all. idk?

bc i have no intention of leaving when i made this blog for me, to write things i’d want to read, which is y i’ve been here for so long and y y’all r kinda lucky lmao. and it’s y everything frustrates me so much and i said that shit abt deserve bc art i made for me that im proud of enough to share is worth a like or attention when it first releases until everyone waits for something new :/

#i feel. comodified ig #like despite having 80 smth works already sitting there everyone wants smth new #or will interact with them When i rb them #like they have always been there #and i feel like i rlly try to talk to u guys abt stuff i write if u do leave comments or asks #idk it feels like i’m putting a lot of effort in especially recently for. the bare minimum #mac rambles

[skadream]

Rudy's Book Reviews: You Will Get Through This Night by Daniel Howell

yeah thats right im gonna be a phannie on main for a second. this is the start of my book review series which i hope to actually folow through with lol. this one ive been listening to as an audiobook but i do have the physical copy as well cuz im like that! next review will hopefully be gideon the ninth so tune in for that, but for now, read this review under the cut:

this book is a practical mental health guide, honestly a lot of it is stuff that you can learn in therapy so like if you have a therapist that you like then maybe its not worth it BUT theres like slim pickins for mental health books that arent just anecdotal evidence without actually talking about what people did to help them get better, just "yea i was sad but then i got therapy ✌️" or books that are so couched in psychiatric jargon its hard for a layperson to get into OR just vaguely inspiring bullshit.

its all written with the help of an actual licensed psychologist person, so no bullshit, no just do yoga and drink water shit (although obviously exercise and hydration and physical health are talked about) and yes he mentions medication and LICENSED therapy if those end up being necessary steps to take with your mental health!!! which again, in the world of self help type books, tends to be rare advice which is DEPRESSING IN A DIFFERENT WAY LMAO.

ofc it should go without saying that a book can never be a replacement for therapy but Considering How The World Is, this book is good for like maybe stepping into learning some coping skills as well as figuring out a plan before, during, and after crisis mode. i would say the tone is more serious than humorous but dan puts a lot of his own natural snarky sarcasm stink all over this book which obv that can be a taste thing if youre not into brit sarcasm mode but as a One Of Those i like it lol

in terms of Dan And Phil™️-isms, theres a sprinkling of cute winks and nods and inside jokes that people who drew sharpie cat whiskers on their faces as teens would understand but Normies will not find to be out of place or anything, there's also some storytimes of like his previous tours or living as a dropout youtuber being stress-inducing and things like that but not a ton which i kinda prefer cuz it makes it easier for me to recommend this book to people who dont give a shit about Phandom Memes

theres an introduction which is kind of a short summary of who dan is, basically just summarizing his youtube videos talking about depression and when he came out as queer and all that fun stuff, if youre a psycho hardcore fan person like me you might find it to be a long and unnecessary read, but if youre someone who didnt know about this guy and are curious as to why he would even write a book like this its a pretty good synopsis.

the american cover has dan's stupid face on it, and as someone who is a big fan of dan's stupid beautiful face, i wish we had the EU version with like tasteful yellow stripes on it bc it looks so nice, but i mean i just keep it on my bookshelf with the spine showing which is just a nice yellow spine with the title and looks unassuming so its not THAT big a deal lmaoo.

in terms of the audiobook, dan's voice is quite soothing and there's all these like audio cues and fitting music which i really like. the only downside is, for example, he reads out this timed breathing exercise that is meant to be like a five minute exercise, but it's not actually timed? so like i want to do the breathing exercises along with him reading it out but he reads it so fast its kinda like bro slow down you said breathe in for five seconds why you going ahead two seconds later homie. thats my only criticism i think obv if you are reading it and not listening you can just do the exercises by timing yourself lol.

ummmm idk if im gonna give a number at the end of these reviews!!! i give this book a big thumbs up!! 👍 woohoo yeah baby i am very proud of dan's current life journey thing that he's going on and i think this is a great book for people who need help which is everyone alive today right now :)

#rudyreviews

[astridmoved]

You know. Astrid is my character, from my book, and you have her bio- and a single chapters worth of content for her. (sorry lmfao) And yet you have taken her to tumblr and kept her so in character in so many different situations.

You know how i am with canon characters and characterization, im kinda an ELITIST dick lmfao…. but to be honest? Seeing someone else write MY character from MY canon? Is surreal. And honestly? Im so proud.

Somewhere down the line there will be more Astrid blogs that pop up im sure, you know when im a famous writer and all 💅 xoxox

But you will always have the first, the original, and the author approved Astrid blog. Its amazing seeing her come to life under your care, and I wouldnt have it any other way. Thank you for taking one of my favourite characters and sharing her with the world.

*Happy Alpha noises*

Yeah thanks for that single chapter..

I am sure she will be a fan favourite, except at that point she'll no longer be an OC, but a fully fledged character.

But getting to write her is a pleasure, Astrid is a beautiful character, she's very much still undiscovered, but she's getting herself out there.

I'm very pleased to have shares in this world, through Astrid, Celeste and Kah'lee. I hope to do them all the justice that they deserve, keep to the canon even in her AU TVD verse.

Thank you for the approval, it means a lot to know im doing well, especially since you are extremely nitpicky with your character portrayals, i really must be doing a good job.

#little red answers things

[blazingstarship]

Free gush pass, talk about Yusei >:33

OH MY RA TH-THANKS💖💖

Okay I just jwjdkekmd gonna typ and just see what happen. Prepare for a novel…

Lets see him yeah Yusei, just like the meaning behind is name like it got explained in the series too and think is need. Also he smart like so smart and sometimes Im like he super smart I kinda feel dumb next to him tho he just put it like “Hey you are smart! Im just a nerd.” And he knows that will put a smile on my face as he continued that everyone is smart in their own way and he is proud of what I have accomplished.

Uhmm blue. Gosh I love this blue shirt of him like so freaking much like bless bless they give him this shirt its my favorite fancy shirt to see him in and he knows how much I like blue. Tho its not “physical impossible” I love blue roses, lots like so much with as second peony’s and galaxy petunia’s (they remind me of yusei’s eyes). Tho every flower Yus gets me makes me swoon but one day he offered me a red rose. I was such a confused mess he never gave a red one ever. “Well red ones stands for love and I though it was the perfect time to give you one.” What a cute baka.

Talking about blue. I just uhm oh I try not to get into vent but like ever compared a duel monster which will suit yourself? Well Yusei tried to be funny when I asked what duel monster I reminded him of (hoping for a powerful nice monster, idk maybe Stardust high hopes hehe). He just answered winged kuriboh….”Why?”

Cause my bed hair reminded him of a kuriboh and to be a little sappy just “and the wings cause of your *pidge days back in satellite.”

*a pidge was a person to bring the illegal goods people request to get outside satellite.

Great I was the Judai 2.0 (no offense Judai is my spirit animal) but he could have said “like Silver Midnight or spark like Solar Blaze…” oh yeah the living dream. Kuri kuri. Cant complain to the guy cause his life line is “there is no useless card”…

“You asked me what card reminded me of you and it was Winged Kuriboh.”

“Yeah…so?”

“You never asked what card value me of you.”

“Is there a difference in that?”

“Yes. Cause you mean to me as much as Stardust Dragon. You are like the Blue Eyes White Dragon to me, you are three in a thousands, millions of cards.”

“Omg Yus…thats so cheesy.”

“Yeah but you love it.”

“Im a mess right now. Im the winged kuriboh worth like a blue eyes white dragon. I cant stop smiling.”

“Now Im curious, what monster do I remind you of?”

“Oh easy. Junk Kuriboh. Kuri Kuri.”

“Arent you hilarious.”

“But with the heart of a warrior. So kinda Kuriboh the Junk Warrior.”

“You just made that up.”

“Yes! Means you are ultra rare cause no one has the card.”

“Sappy.”

“You are my tuff warrior.”

You know what else is cute? Yusei trying to pronounce words in my language gosh thats so darn cute. (I was the first one who said “I love you”…in dutch…cause I didnt want him to know cause it was really early and the moment felt like that and I started saying it anytime I left him as a secret reminder he is loved…without him actual knowing what I said.)

When he found out what I was saying all this time he was “So any time we said goodbye, any time we aparted or on the phone…you said you love me!?”

“….yes?”

He was a mess. He uhm couldn’t speak or even look at me for minutes.

“Ya okay?”

“I am trying to remember when you started saying it.”

“Two months after our date at the parking tower…on a thuesday…you worked on the new module for the WRGP…I had picked up me the repaired laptop for school…it was before Marco picked up the parts that werent usefull anymore for the prototype engine…”

“That long ago!?”

“I guess so.”

“Ik hou van jou.”

“YUSEI! Dont say that so suddenly!”

“You think I haven’t practiced?”

What more what more.

I have some cheesy petnames I like to call Yusei in a loving mood like Yubear. I love plushies, snuggled and with plushies you can snuggle. So a teddybear and Yusei….Yubear💖 I love hug him and snuggle up to him and just get so relaxed if he let me. Another petname is Moppie💖 Moppie is just a dutch version of bae or honey or sweety…but specially Moppie cause of his mop of hair, when I ruff it and kiss him on his cheek and call him my sweet Moppie💖 also babe…cause hes a babe💖

#❤️our future is written in the stars #✨blazing answers #✨kenna tag #THANK YOU FOR THE ASK GUSH PASS!!! #it really turned into a novel i cant whoops🙈

[hellbentredhead]

Tell me everything about your project 👀

Okay okay okay

SO I was playing around online and stumbled onto this really cool choose your own adventure game on a website called Playfic. And then I learned that you can create your own on the website. However its based on a program called Inform 7

Now the issue with this is that Playfic didnt have near as many available setting and customization options as Inform did. But it still gave you the same menu. I wanted to have access to those options because I felt handicapped without them in the process of trying to create something similar to the game I had played.

I had already come up with a concept and everything. The real issue arises with the fact that I'm limited to my chromebook, as its the only computer I have. Unfortunately Inform is not avaialble to download in a chromebook compatible form (let's face it almost nothing has a chromebook compatible form).

So I went searching for anything and everything I could find that would be a suitable substitute for said program. And I happened to find a mention of a website called Twine after looking for like a week.

This is where you sit down and buckle up because that was just the intro.

So I got to digging into Twine and oh good gods its amazing. I cannot recommend it highly enough to someone looking for an accessible, user friendly open source tool for creating a text based game.

Just right off the bat, the best thing is that you dont even have to download anything to get full access to all of its features. The thing about Twine is that it is entirely based in your web browser.

This means that everything is stored within your browsing data. The one downside to not downloading is that projects arent transferable between devices unless you export it first. But I really just see that as a minor inconvenience more than a true downside. And it also makes it kinda scary in a way because if your browsing data is somehow erased, so are all your projects, so I really wouldnt recommend thi if youre someone who clears their data often.

Another absolutely cool thing about Twine is that it allows you to be as simple or as complicated as you want with the actual creation. It runs purely on HTML and CSS coding language. Which gives me the opportunity to learn those languages while I'm creating the game in a way that actually drives me to learn, creation.

I havent gotten very far in the actual creation of it but I have the concept fully figured out. And I'm already really proud of how far I've gotten in just the first day!

Ive learned how to use CSS to override the default display setting, so I can customize to my hearts content.

I learned how to set and adjust variable like health, stamina, etc. AND how to get those changes to display with each change in the adventure.

I figured out how to acces a built in feature in the Twine format I'm using that isnt actually listed and edit text into it to constantly display your stats (it took me over an hour and it turned out to be stupid simple but worth it)

And my favorite, I learned how to get the text to appear on screen as if its being typed out real time!

I cant wait to continue on the project and see what it turns into. And once its finished (this is my absolute favorite ascpect of Twine) the project is exported as an independent .html file. WHICH MEANS it can be opened in any web browser on any device its saved on even if the user id offline! Im so excited to share it with everyone when its done.

AND FINALLY. Last but not least. The concept of the actual game Im working on. It's called "The Tale of You" and its about exploring your own subconscious landscape with the help of the latest technological advancements, however the technology is still in its testing phase and the user gets stuck, your goal is to escape.

#infodump #dont mind me #im so so sorry about the long read i started typing and couldnt stop

[kareofbears]

hi op im the asshole that just dropped two nuclear bomb comments on your two newtmas fics and i just wanna say 1. If youre reading this before seeing those comments i just wanna say ummm get ready for the least coherent comments and im so sorry and 2. If youre reading this after seeing those comments in my defense . i love your writing . again tysm for writing for the tmr fandom in the year of our lord 2024 its truly a travesty that the dead franchise has a dead fandom who decided that ❤️❤️🙏😭😭 newtmas fandom fightingg ✊😭

anon,,,, I have read. And reread. Your comments three times. Each. I will one thousand person answer them in full because I want to give it the time and respect and DETAIL that you’ve honored me with, I just want to wait until I have a keyboard to work with.

But I just wanted to say this right away, without delay. But you seriously gave me so much hope and comfort and joy. I can’t stress it enough!!! Like!!!! I love you!!!! Whoever the hell you are bestie!!!! Because you made me so happy. You supported my work. Not only that but you said so so much of the stuff that I was thinking. You quoting Taylor lyrics that literally played in my headphones 200 times while I was writing these fics. I just!!! You get it!! You GET ME!!!! Honestly I was a little sad before this because when I finished Warning Signs (I’m just making the name shorter lol I chose such a long title! Worth it though), I was really fucking proud of it because it came together really well and it ended up being over 6k (my intention for it was 3k haha). And then! No comments! No kudos! And that’s okay, you learn to be okay with it after years of writing for smaller fandoms, but I just hoped that one person would give me a little heart emoji or something! Signs of life yk?

AND THEN BOOM! You’re here!!! Wow!!! I’m so happy thank you so much :)))) it seriously, seriously means the world to me. Seriously!

Also! Since you reached out on tumblr (and I don’t like saying this kinda thing in ao3 because I worry I’m setting myself up for failure), but there’s going to be a third fic for Fever Longing Still which I’m soooo excited for teehee I just wanted to let you know!! Thank you again friend ily ily 🫶🏼🫶🏼

#wow #this is what life is all about #:) #thank you #seriously #ask #asks #NEWTMAS FANDOM FIGHTINGGGGG

[lexingtonprincess]

Ya’ll excited for another blog? Cause I’m not lol just kidding guys, what’s uppppp? How’s it goin?

I’ve been studying/ catching up on work since roughly 5pm and its going on midnight. So that’s how my days been, but worth it. And means I didn’t have to stay home all day. The walk is what I’m not looking forward to in 45 degree weather no thanks, but Ill survive. Even though the walk is 35mins long, maybe I’ll steal a traffic cone on my way back to make myself feel better.

I swear I thought I was gonna come study today and catch up on everything and be okay but NO guess who has an exam tomorrow at 9am and completely forgot about it. This girl, So I freaked out over that then realized the Zoom review was at 7pm so that helped me somewhat even though it was only one person asking like a crap ton of questions. Nothing I really needed but I also didn’t prepare questions so kinda on me as well.

Last night was eventful, I wondered around campus after the watch party which was pretty boring but gave me something to do. Long story short it got eventful quick and I didn’t get home till roughly 4-5am, but it’s okay Im not complaining at all. It gave me something to do, because trust me I was beyond bored just staying at home. That’s why I wondered around campus for something to do, because I had nothing to do. But its okay! I made due and ended up having a really great night!!

When it comes to my other classes I’m doing really well, had a choir concert recently that I loved and had a great time. I think I might have my makeup history exam this Friday but honestly im not sure. I just know I need to finish my cheat sheet so that way I don’t massively fail her exam. Which I didn’t last time So I should be okay, she make really nice PowerPoints each class and they’re really easy to understand so I really think I’ll have no issue.

Besides all of that nothing really new has happened, so I think Ill sum it up here guys, thank yall for tuning in! I wish yall the best. Also It’s never to early to listen to Christmas music.

PS- I love yall so much and I’m proud of you, yes you, and you too!!!💜🫶🏻

#i love you #university of kentucky #college blog #lexington #spotify #studying #resources

[boyfhee]

the ending of take two was pretty lame ngl but it's still better than forcing any ship as an endgame cuz it would have most prolly made a major plot hole ig and the angst was so good in the whole series and literally live for the way their relationships kinda became beyond repair (esp ynki) tbh but idk what i could even expect i mean it was really so hard to imagine any happy ending that made sense in this story cuz it really looked pretty lame but love this whole work tho and you really did an excellent job changing my brain chemistry cuz my bias literally changed from Riki to jungwon and idt i would ever be able to look Riki the same way altho ik it's just a fic smau but damn it really changed how i perceive love and infidelity (lmao is this even the right word) but i really wanted to see Riki physically suffer more this whole time cuz i think he still had it the most easy among all three and come on jungwon was the least wrong out of all of them and yn did NOT just ditched her friends for 4lyfers,,, that shits embarrassing. I'll literally read it ig every month again and again cuz idt I'll ever find some worth its competition it was so fucking good girllll I'm proud of you and also all the best for your exams take care love ya

hi yes i know it was lame bc i didn't know how to end it . look, i changed the plot three times and the ending i had was like 'ooo kiss jungwon, date him!' but while writing that chapter, i was like 'wait this is wrong on so many levels' and so i had another job, which was for yn to clear shit up with riki. besides, giving yn a 'happy ending' didn't feel right bc she has been having it easier than all of us ( even the readers lmfao ) she got miya in jail, got jw, has riki, had a good vacay, it was like this thing didn't even touch her while the other two are :/ focusing on how much more sensitive this was for won and ki bc they're not only friends but group mates and it could seriously affect their group dynamics. so i decided that yn doesn't deserve anyone, at least not yet.

AND NOT U CHANGING UR BIAS OH GOD EVERYONE TAKE TWO RIKI ISN'T REAL HE WOULD NEVER DO WHAT HE DID PLSS ANON GO BACK TO LOOKING AT HIM THE WAY U USED TO im so sorry 😭😭😭 cant believe im altering opinions here plsss riki my sincerest apologies 🙏 hmm and i think riki had it easier too, but maybe not. we all have different perspectives so!!! this was fun to read and omg the last part made me smile so much, thank u for thinking so highly of my silly little smau :(

#—anon. #@ : tt