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your-turn-to-role · 4 years

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I was thinking about that scene in cr1 e94 where vex is meditating trying to connect to Pelor as part of the grey hunt and finding it really difficult and I think Matt even mentions Vex is someone who needs a lot of sensory input so I was wondering if you had any thoughts on Adhd vex

so im rewatching this scene now and oh man vex is, as ever, the biggest fucking mood

like she hadn’t been initially on my list of nd headcanons bc she doesn’t outwardly show it a lot but then i remember she’s the character in cr i relate to the most and i probably don’t outwardly show it a lot either, because fun thing about being a girl as well as neurodivergent is you get really good at hiding that shit! i can mimic a neurotypical person perfectly because i spent most of my childhood learning how to do that but goddamn is it fucking exhausting

but yeah, vax is very obviously adhd, so his twin definitely can be too!

adhd vex proof:

yes yes yes sensory input!! you’re right in that matt mentions it in this episode, she’s someone who needs a lot of external stimuli, she’s more drawn towards chaos than calm. which like, a lot of us can relate to, because when your brain is constantly working at a hundred miles an hour, the chaos makes you feel a lot more relaxed than the calm, where you’re always on edge. good trait for adventurers to have, honestly, which is probably a reason it’s less obvious in vex to begin with - she has that outlet for it. as much as she was really concerned with fitting in in syngorn, i imagine teenage her had a lot more of a problem staying still

defines herself a LOT by other people’s standards - this is both a trait of any kid who doesn’t fit in (which is true both bc adhd and because half elf), but also that rejection sensitivity makes it a very appealing thing to do - having people disapprove of you in any way, even mildly, makes it feel like the world just shattered in front of your eyes, so trying to make yourself what they want you to be is just the smart response

you know that thing, when you were a kid, and people used to use “you’ve got a big day tomorrow!” or “the quicker you go to sleep, the quicker you get to [exciting thing]” as motivation to sleep? or you saw people on tv experiencing that? and apparently for them it works?? whereas for you the only way to sleep is to not be excited about tomorrow, because your brain doesn’t process time the same way so you can’t process sleep as coming before the exciting thing, the exciting thing has to be Right Now and if we go to sleep we don’t do Exciting Thing and entire brain is focused on that thing now oh fuck looks like i accidentally stayed up until 4am

that’s the entire vibe i get from the sun tree scene

like vex manages to stay down there a really long time but only while actively trying to get a vision, and when that doesn’t work she switches tactics, she’s not thinking “eventually a vision will happen”, she’s thinking “how do i think hard enough that the vision happens now”

(and also how easily her mind wanders despite that)

when this doesn’t work she starts complaining to trinket how they’ve been down there for days (it’s been maybe 10 hours) and they’re going to be stuck there forever (she can leave whenever she wants, but she really cares about this thing so she’s not going to) and mood

i’ve mentioned this before, but vex... really does have a lot of empathy. and i don’t know if that’s more of an autistic thing or adhd thing bc there’s a lot of crossover and i don’t always remember which me things are which nd things but hyper empathy is a thing for at least one of them! and like, she does so much burying of it, because it’s a survival mechanism and she had a really rough childhood, she’s got about 500 emotional walls up at any given moment. but once you realise that she only really gets snippy and pretends like she doesn’t care in situations where she feels unsafe, she cares so much

fairly resistant to change? adhd isn’t as routine oriented as autism is, but big life changes are still things that can get completely overwhelming, and vex definitely doesn’t want to deal with those. a life on the road, that doesn’t count as change to her, that’s her routine, but settling down with percy? that’s terrifying

literally in this episode part of her internal monologue is “what are you gonna do, stay here??”, she loves percy, but she doesn’t want her adventuring life to change, because then she has to figure out how to navigate a new life (and honestly, that takes her a while, even in their epilogue they mention percy and vex still do the adventuring thing a lot, they never plan to retire, bc that’s life for them)

vax is the other big constant in her life that she needs to stay constant, she doesn’t want him to get into a relationship with keyleth bc she’s scared it’ll make things between them change, and even once she’s gotten over that, she ignores vax’s attempts to tell her he wants to move to zephrah several times, because she can’t really handle the idea that things might change between them that much, can’t deal with a life where he’s not living in the same place as her

as much as she does try to fit in, she also prefers to live in the forest and her best friend is a bear. tell me that’s not just a constant nd mood

#sorry this took so long i wanted to actually put effort into the response #and it took a while to find the time for that #cr1 #ask #vex'ahlia #cr nd headcanons #cr thoughts #text #meta #Anonymous

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nobutseriouslywhat · 6 years

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As much as I might joke about the character and fanon interpretations of him, I think it’s important to realize that in canon, John Kramer is highkey ableist (this post will mostly reference the first three movies, especially the first, but if anyone would like to add evidence from later films you’re more than welcome).

Trigger warning in advance for ableism and mentions of suicide, abuse, and self-harm.

First of all let’s look at the elephant in the room: his treatment of Amanda. He abuses her so severely that she develops Stockholm Syndrome, by threatening her life multiple times, making her harm/kill others, forcing her to face the man who ruined her life in the first place, making her emotionally dependent on him then neglecting her as soon as Lynn arrives, and finally, something so awful that I still shake whenever this scene comes up- he sits there and watches as she cuts her wrists open. You can see from her flashbacks- she cuts deep. Probably not deep enough to kill, especially the direction she was cutting, but enough to cause her serious physical and emotional distress as well as probably do some permanent nerve damage (wrists and hands are VERY delicate y’all). And he watches approvingly (as approving as he gets anyway). There’s almost an implication that he told her to do it. Whether she was already self-harming or whether that was the start of her self-harm, we don’t know. Either way this is horrifying, especially since she looks up to him as a father.

(worth noting also that John practically sets up Amanda to be killed, by making her hate Lynn enough to harm her so that Jeff would come in and kill her. Seriously if you think canon!John loves Amanda you need to think about what he does way more carefully.)

Now let’s look at the victims he chooses. If we’re leaving out the events of Jigsaw, that would make his first victim Amanda. Why did he choose her? She was battling drug addiction. Okay, so he wanted to help, right? By... telling her that unless she cut open a human body (which he told her was dead, but was very clearly alive), she would die in less than a minute. She’s so traumatized and surprised to have survived that she dedicates the rest of her life to him.

His other victims, namely Paul and Lynn, he punished simply for being depressed. Paul (razor wire trap- first movie) was taken because he had self-harmed, and John blamed it on him wanting attention? Forcing him to cut himself on barbed wire again and again for a chance to stay alive? What if he was recovering from self-harm and knew that if he crawled through the barbed wire that would be enough to trigger a relapse? And as for Lynn, the crime she committed to earn being tortured with a shotgun at her neck for hours, having her child and husband kidnapped, being forced to perform surgery on her own without the proper equipment or else she would die- was, get this- having depression. That’s the reason she was picked. John cites his particular disgust in her taking depression meds to stay alive- ironically before demanding medical care of this same person.

John’s double standards are truly revolting. He tried to kill himself once, so he dedicates the rest of his life to torturing and killing people who have attempted or considered suicide or self-harm. He doesn’t think he’s doing the right thing either, that’s just what he wants everyone to think. He knows what he’s doing. He’s imposing his twisted morality on the world through his torture experiments.

Okay I know I said I’d stick to the first three but we need to talk about VI. In the first few films, nearly every character had some reason to be trapped (yes many of these were completely bullshit reasons but at least he made some up). In Saw VI, all the traps are set up to test one person, yet ten additional people are placed in traps with their lives in his hands. Many of these people are disabled and placed in such a trap that they wouldn’t be able to survive (for example, the man with COPD being forced to hold his breath longer than a man with healthy lungs).

Now I’ve saved my favorite bit for last. If you’re reading this, you probably know how I feel about Adam. Long story short Leigh Whannell is the light of my life for creating and playing him.

In the original script, John suggests that Adam was suicidal. But this isn’t in the final film, so what is his crime? In the final film, John describes Adam as being apathetic. But if anyone in the room is apathetic, it’s Lawrence, right? Adam is highly emotional and reactive to his surroundings. It’s obvious that he’s not apathetic at all, unless you don’t realize that-

Adam is strongly coded as autistic. I could go into this, but for the sake of all your eyes I’m going to save it for another post. So the moments when we the audience see him at his most emotional, he’s shutting down to process it.

Adam’s crime, that he pays for with his life, is being visually autistic. He’s given no chance to live and used as a pawn to torture Lawrence for the sole reason of not being neurotypical.

So that’s today’s hot Saw discourse it’s 1:30 in the morning and I’m going to bed now.

#*distressed porg noises*#saw movies #john kramer #amanda young #adam faulkner stanheight

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oldmyths · 5 years

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maybe this is like. a bit too personal for this blog and while i dunno how comfortable i am with just anyone reading this at the same time i don’t think it’s something i should be ashamed or embarrassed about, or to try and. not have this conversation? i’m only stuffing it under a read more in case somebody doesn’t wanna read blocks of text that hold the ramblings of some weirdo

like, ppl on this website talk about mental illness as depression and anxiety, and romanticized accounts of personality disorders (only borderline, everything else is ‘too crazy’ to understand) and like, that’s fine i suppose. we definitely should be talking about depression and anxiety and borderline but also all the other mental illnesses that are ‘scary’ and challenge the neurotypical standard for what brain disorders are “ok” and which ones aren’t

it’s also a really intimate and personal thing when u get down to it. everybody supports you til you got special interests where you just keep going on and on about and it’s the worst when you can hear yourself droning on and on and you can feel the interest in the listener wilting with each word that flies out of your mouth at a thousand miles an hour but you just like, can’t stop?

people that think that kind of thing is a choice, a conscious decision autistic people make are blessed with the restraint.

people support you in your more ‘out there’ mental illnesses til you talk about your delusions and point fingers at you and cry wolf when you can acknowledge that they are delusions because crazy people don’t know theyre crazy, is the thing that pop culture would have u believe. i mean i’ve never had a psychotic breakdown and i’m not trying to speak for people who have but, metaphorically i guess, i’ve taken a step forward that way and that wasn’t. fun.

your friends and family are willing to tolerate your outward bouts of anxiety when you cant leave the house but if it’s more than once then youre just being unreasonable. they love you until your mental illness stops looking pretty and marketable.

not to be edgy but my brain is a fucking prison and i’m trying to be less. afraid.? less... guilty about it. like, my illness doesn’t reflect my whole, but it’s a part of me in a way that my ribs are. i can’t see them, but if i push my fingers down on my body hard enough i can feel them there, and i can count them. and it can be almost..reassuring? to know that you have them, the ribs i mean, and to an extent my brain issues. knowing i have them means that i have a name for it, and i can look for ways to help ease the pain of living with it.

being sad and being exhausted mean kind of the same thing but they feel different in distinctly abstract ways and i don’t know if i have the means to describe it from my experience.. and i want to talk about it. i want to talk about these issues of mine, and to read other people’s experiences, without having the issues romanticized/glorified or whatever. i think that, for many, it’s easier to talk and share your thoughts when they’re broadcasted as hopeless and neverending. which in turn just perpetuates the cycle and you have to make the choice to get out of it. but when your pain has been used as a crutch that you fall back on when life gets overwhelming, consciously deciding to get help and get better is terrifying bc the crutch is gone and you’d just rather stay sick and hopeless cos at least there was a safety net when you thought you were falling

i guess i’m still trying to let go of that. i think it’s starting with this post, maybe. i have depression and anxiety and some other things that i might have written about here in this post, or maybe i don’t. i doesn’t matter what you think’s going on in my brain cos i know, and i’m starting to accept that part of myself more.

i mean this process isn’t linear, i used to seek out all the information i could find, i regularly tested myself on this and that from various online resources, and then. well it wasn’t the best of times. friends of mine (maybe?) can attest to the fact that my mental health has been on the decline for a long time, and then the last three months of 2018 hit and i was near inconsolable

but that’s over, am in the process of getting over it, and my point is i’m not afraid of my head anymore. or, i guess, i’m not as scared. and that doesn’t scare me.

#a long and rant-esque post about mental health? on my blog? it's more likely than u think #not necessarily a ''rant'' in the traditional sense there's no hostility (ok maybe some hostility) but i'm not mad. this is a good post #i mean i hope it is. that's how i feel rn #good. despite ...all that #actually. good. With all that.

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msl4233 · 6 years

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A neurodivergent guide to traveling to Japan

Idk how many people will benefit from this, and I guess some of my tips will help neurotypicals as well, but its 1 am and I camt sleep so here we go. (In no particular order)

Don’t take the hotel soaps with you. In America, this is perfectly fine. They have to throw them away after each person. But in Japan (at least in the hotels I’ve stayed in), they reuse the shampoos and such. You might notice that its a normal size bottle, and has some missing. That’s because they sanitize the outside of the container and leave it for the next guest until it gets used up. There are a few things like toothbrushes, hair ties, and small packages of shaving cream that are more one use that you can take with you, especially if you’ve opened them. Those they have to throw away.

Japanese thermostats are in Celcius, so if you’re American like me they can be tricky to figure out what temperature it is inside. Google can be very helpful here and has an online converter. Some thermostats have a button to change from Celcius to Fahrenheit as well.

To board the airplane early (if you have an invisible disability and have problems with boarding like me), line up with the wheelchairs and people with small children. In America you can explain in more detail and the Tsa will ptobably ask, but in Japan (and Taiwan for that matter, I had a layover flight there), just say “Special needs” and they let you go right ahead.

Speaking of tsa, their website has a customizeable card you can print out and show at security that tells them what your disability is so they can help you get through security smoothly. Mine says I’m autistic, and my dad has one that says he has an artificial hip replacement.

Weighted blankets have to go through additional screening if they are carried in your carryon. For me this meant that it was removed from my bag and the tsa worker felt each of the pockets to make sure there’s nothing hiding in them. The worker was very respectful and did it in front of me, explaining what he was doing as he went along. He let me fold it and put it back in my bag. I’m not sure how Japan does this, since I transferred it to my checked bag after the overnight flight. Ill update when I go home and go through security again.

If you take prescription medication, check a few months in advance if youre allowed to bring it into the country. Some medications are required to be sent to Japan two months in advance for screening (like prescription painkillers). I take Zoloft and it was not required to go through this process, or be declared at customs. Just make sure you keep it on your body during the entire airplane process. Don’t ever put your meds in your checked bag, in case it gets lost.

Google translate app is you best friend. You can take a picture of anything and it will translate it for you, and if you’re having trouble communicating then you can talk or type into the app and it will translate to Japanese and vice versa. Its very fast and easy, and I used it at the angelic pretty store to ask where the changing room was. The employee spoke into the app and it translated for me, so the language barrier was nearly invisible.

Hotel water is mostly drinkable. Sometimes there is a sign, if theres only one sink. But if there is multiple sinks drink from the one that has the tea making supplies next to it. Thats the kitchen sink and potable.

Walk on the left side of the sidewalk and staircases. In Japan they drive on the left side of the road, and walk on the left side of the path as well.

Dont jaywalk. Ever. Only cross the street at marked crosswalks or pedestrian bridges.

If you’re having trouble finding your way, ask a bus driver. They know the city very well and speak English relatively fluently. Don’t stop random people to ask for directions, that’s weird and rude and they might not speak English.

If you have personal space issues, I would recommend getting a taxi or uber as opposed to riding train and busses. Depending on where youre going and the time of day, the latter can be packed like sardines. Taxi/uber are more expensive, but if this is a serious problem for you then definately make room in your budget for this.

Speaking of crowds, if you’re overwhelmed and need to get out of a crowd quickly shout “sumimasen” repeatedly while walking to your destination (I recommend a bathroom). That word means excuse me, and people will understand that you need to get somewhere quickly.

All Japanese coins are marked with the value except for the little bronze one with a hole in the center. Its worth 5 yen.

If you use a mobility aid, you might feel daunted by the amount of stairs everywhere. However, for every staircase there is an elevator, and sometimes an escalator as well. They are typically marked on the walls, but if you can’t find one ask someone who works at the place you’re at. Some crosswalks are the kind that go up and over traffic, but there is a traffic guard underneath who will stop cars and help you cross. I havent tried this for myself, but for my dad who had his hip replaced and has problems on stairs still.

When in doubt, find and information desk.

7-11 has the best atm machines. This might feel really weird, but 7-11 in Japan is much better then America. Its more like a tiny Wal-Mart.

Spaghetti in Japan doesn’t take like spaghetti. It tastes more like offbrand kraft macaroni and cheese with a slight hint of tomato. Its good, but not what spaghetti is expected to taste like.

French fries are often lightly or unsalted. You might want to ask for salt.

The trains are color coded. If you can’t find your line check on a map in the station what color it is and then follow that color.

If there is a raised step in a room, take off your shoes before going through. Slippers are often provided as well so you’re not barefoot or in your socks.

If you go to a cat cafe and talk about your own cat, you might be asked to show pictures to the staff.

Lots of shops have a ban on taking pictures. If you are unsure, ask an employee. “Camera ok?” Is understood and they will answer yes or no. If you can’t find anyone to ask, just don’t take the picture. Its not worth the risk of getting thrown out.

English swear words are common. So is sexual themes. I passed a condom vending machine walking down a main street. If this bothers you, try to ignore it. Honestly theres no avoiding it.

Most plaves have free wifi, but.renting a pocket Wi-Fi is cheap and then you always have a secure connection.

If you’re having trouble ordering food, a lot of places have the menu on the counter with pictures. Point at what you want. This isn’t rude like it would be in America.

Lots of restaurants have fake food in cases outside. I can nearly guarantee you that what you will be served looks exactly like the representation. I’m surprised every time, having grown up with the American standard of “it looks like its been sat on and ran through a washing machine”.

If a store has multiple levels, a good rule of thumb is to pay at each level.

Most stores have a sign that says “Japan tax free”. To get this, you have to show your passport when you check out. Keep your receipt because tsa might ask for it.

A lot of stores only allow tax free on purchases over 5400 yen, or about $54.

Japan tax is 8%

Wall outlets dont have the classic pig nose input. They only have the two vertical lines. Make sure your charger will work with them, or bring an adaptor.

A lot of places have usb chargers built into the wall next to the outlet.

When paying for something, put the money in the little tray on the counter. Never hand it directly to the employee. They might put you change in the same tray or hand it back to you on your receipt, it varies by shop.

100 yen is about equal to $1. It fluctuates but this is a good rule of thumb.

Dont litter. Its a huge fine and possible jail time. Hold on to your trash until you find a trash can. Most convenience stores and vending machines have one.

Thats all I can think of at the moment, feel free to send asks If you have questions. This is by no means a complete guide, just the ramblings of a very sleepy tourist.

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laryna6 · 7 years

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If our human ancestors had access to psychics, they would absolutely have taken advantage of this due to not being dumb. So, some Noblesse worldbuilding -

Karias’ ‘give women flowers (especially on birthdays)’ thing has something to do with the culture of the humans in the area the clan used to live. Fertility blessing? I seriously doubt the clan is heteronormative given Krasis Bluster’s Devotion to the Previous Lord. The ‘love god’ association happened because nobles are psychic, and therefore could be used to verify if the other person really loved you.

The confusion over whether or not nobles ruled humans in the past comes from the concept of ‘rightful authority,’ or ‘why should I listen to you instead of that other group?’ The authority of the US government comes from ‘the will of the people’, but that a lot of governments (including the UK) come from ‘because god picked me as the ruler.’

The ‘benevolent despot’ concept is that the ideal government would be the rule of someone very smart who actually cared about the people and helping them and would therefore be able to figure out the best things to do. The problem is how to find a person like that, someone really dedicated to the public good who will look at both sides of an issue. This government model is more effective in small communities where the leader can actually talk to people and understand their personal needs and concerns, provided they care to.

Hmm. If only we knew some psychics who could find good candidates for us! That would make not electing a total bastard so much easier!

Because of this, if a community had a noble, they weren’t listening to anyone the noble disliked, and would listen to whoever the noble liked to be around and went to when they needed a thing explained. This meant that a lot of these communities were ‘theocracies’ not in the sense of ‘the gods tell us what to do’ but ‘we’ll listen to that person because the god thinks they’re the one for the job.’ So the right to rule derived from the god’s approval - and the Lord’s authority derived from A. being the smartest and B. being willing to give up personal identity for the good of the nobles (Raskreia keeping her name is new), so nobles would have a good concept of what kind of person to look for.

So nobles didn’t rule humans (unless they wanted a smackdown), but if you wanted the power to lead/help the community you’d lobby the noble (~join the priesthood) instead of campaigning for the approval of the people whose issues you’d actually be addressing and whose needs you’d need to take into consideration. Also, people tend to like people who think the same way we do about things, and nobles and humans have very different stances on issues like ‘needing to take showers.’ So despite the fact that nobles could filter out the candidates who were dumb bastards, even a benevolent despot can’t make a good decision without good info and the priesthoods were focused on noble mores and concerns, not human. Or rather, ‘immortal’ vs. ‘mortal’ - a human who doesn’t need to eat and wants to stay sane for a thousand plus years had better start acting more like a noble because those are the good survival traits, not ‘stealing a loaf of bread.’

Part of why Frankenstein is as sane as he is despite everything including the transition to immortality is that his particular neurotype - or the autism spectrum in general in this universe - is adapted to handling nobles. Not subconsciously making assumptions based on physical signals would make it easier to understand a species that didn’t emote like typical humans - autistic people can communicate with people from cultures other than their own better than allistic people, because cultures have different body languages as well as spoken languages and allistic people have a hard time adapting to that/the signal to noise ratio becomes very bad. Several cultures in Europe alone had traditions that autistic children were either supernatural (they’d wind up with supernatural abilities if they became contractors) or outright holy that in this verse could come from that neurotype being good with nobles.

Part of why the Previous Lord was so amused/delighted by the story of Frankenstein’s arrival at Raizel’s was that it established that despite the number of generations and the fact false contracts had become the norm, some humans at least still had the instincts for manipulating nobles - or were those instincts deliberately enhanced/awakened to give him an edge?

If humans can still adapt very easily to cohabitating with nobles, that’s a good sign for when the species made formal recontact.

Aside from neurotype and how that affects things, Frankenstein’s enhancements would have become the norm for humanity if it wasn’t for the Union, and the Previous Lord was absolutely observing him partially as an example of what humans are going to turn into - and he’s very, very pleased. I’d say part of the reason for the separation is to keep humans from becoming domesticated, and Frankenstein does absolutely not automatically respect nobles for being nobles. Yes, his relationship with Raizel is a lot more ‘traditional’ than Frankenstein realizes, but a lot of that has to do with humans being social animals and Frankenstein clinging to sanity by his fingernails.

If he was actually obedient to Rai, he’d quit calling Rai Master because Rai doesn’t like it. Despite the fact that by default Frankenstein is unaffected by human instincts re. nobles, he’s going with what feels natural here becuase that’s what makes him feel most secure and these are emotional needs here. He’s still absolutely putting his own survival over Raizel’s preferences, which was a problem, humans putting the noble’s preferences (eg. disliking certain foods) over the humans’ need to not starve.

The Lord’s job is future planning for the good of the nobles, though, not the humans. Enlightened self-interest and just common sense means that any inter-species arrangement would need to be sustainable to last more than five seconds by noble standards, and be one that the humans are happy with so that we act to make sure it stays in place despite our tendency to change/mutate rapidly, but in my head the Lords were absolutely going for humanity to end up a certain way and have a certain overall paradigm for human-noble relations, one best for nobles and noble society/long-term sanity.

An enhanced humanity doesn’t need nobles, which the traitors probably found worrying but is actually very important because humans are vicious when we need something and are acting to ensure our supply. If humans needed nobles it would very much suck to be them.

Instead humans find nobles ooooh shiny (canon) and derive psychological benefit from being around them. So having nobles around might not make us smarter (the way we increased noble effective IQ) but it does make us saner, and if we can think more clearly we make better decisions.

So noble-friendly human groups are going to have a lot of little, subtle advantages over groups w/o nobles, in ways that enhancement isn’t going to edit out of most of us because that would be screwing around with our ability to do threat assessment and other things we need to not go crazy.

Humans feel better with nobles around, but enough better for us to slightly like it. Ideally not enough better for us to latch on to it fanatically, but Frankenstein has the additional factor of Dark Spear and was not well when he reached Lukedonia, and part of the reason he loses it when Raizel is threatened is that he’s likely very well aware w/o Raizel he’s going to lose it. There are thousands of souls in Dark Spear at minimum: a small effect on every single one of those souls would add up.

...So multiple reasons Frankenstein isn’t representative at all, and then there’s Raizel doing something so humans don’t stop in the middle of a busy street to stare at him.

Also the reason the criminal in Rai’s Adventure lived outside town is probably so he didn’t come to care for the humans - see him only interacting with bastards, which is what the traitors did in the Union. Also because we see with Yuni’s Sense Evil that humans can be psychic too even unmodified, and a lot of the benefit of being around nobles would come from our ability to sense that the noble/someone wants to protect us (nobles have v. powerful auras).

Of course, the Plan is for humans to become something that incentivizes correct behavior in nobles - which means that we need to be able to smack them down if they trespass on our wills, and if they want us to benefit them they’d best benefit us...

Lots of fun to consider. Also how this fits into transhumanism, because really it’s what we transform ourselves into over the next several thousand years that’s more important than our pre-modified/larval state.

Wanting to link to a consciousness that is not ours would give us some protection against hive minding. Being able to link/deal with non-human minds... is something we’re failing to deal with inside our own species, given the treatment of people who don’t think like allistic people, but if that becomes a heavily reinforced trait instead of all the advantages going to those best able to go with the flow of other humans?

Also once there are other aliens around - humans would make a lot of the first contacts, and then we’d be effectively-immortal, psychic bond creatures... so what’s going to happen to other species once we’re in the position the nobles are... Yeeeah, we need our species to absorb the lesson that ‘you think it’s alright to abuse and kill those weaker than you? Alright, have it your way’ the Noblesse exists to demonstrate...

#noblesse laser cannons #feels like I've said a lot of this in other posts #but a lot of thought comes from putting things together in new configurations

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askderynsharp · 7 years

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Hey so I am that anon who doesn't ship Dalek.I just wanted to say that by toxic I mean not only for Deryn,but also for Alek.Anyways,I felt like I had to get that out of the way.I don't really mind Dalek shippers thou.Everyone has their preferences,opinions,etc(especially when it comes to ships in fandoms)

((oh jeebers! I didnt mean to disregard your opinion! Oh no no, I totally agree with you in a lot of ways. We all interpret things differently and literature, especially YA lit, exists for entertainment and to better understand ourselves. I’m not ranting @ you below either, these are just thoughts i’ve been having for a while and you’re giving me an excuse to share them, if Dalek aint yer thing feel free to go on your merry way!))

((I am always hesitant to use words like ‘toxic’ or ‘problematic’ when describing characters, especially ones like these. I’m a high functioning autistic, and find myself feeling a lot of the same feelings as these so called ‘problematic characters’ do. because I’ve always been in sped schooling most of my relationships have been with other people with stunted emotional growth, or ‘problematic’ behavior. All of my relationships, at least by Tumblr’s standards, could be called ‘Toxic’. But we did the best we could, us crazy fucked up broken kids, and we managed to make ourselves into somewhat functional adults after the fact.))

((Which is why it seems unfair to say that something is just “toxic” because two characters rely too much on their relationship and get a bit screechy when its compromised. I’m someone who is constantly second guessing myself, asking if I deserve the support and affection of others or if I’m pushing them too far, and it kinda pisses me off this whole notion that if I were to let carefully constructed behavior slip even a little I just dont deserve love thats it the end goodbye.))

((I feel like this is true of Deryn and Alek. These kids are fucked the heck up from horrible past experiences that obviously left them scarred. LadySherlock made an excellent point about Deryn’s trust issues, and I myself have interpreted alek’s behavior when his ‘Favorite Person’ is knocked from her pedestal. The true drama of the situation is that neither of them are really in the wrong, the situation comes about from both of their own mental hangups. Alek’s feeling of self worth is tested by Deryn keeping secrets, and Deryn’s fear of abandonment keeps her from telling Alek the truth. If each of them knew how the other was feeling, which by the way they eventually do, they arent really pissed at each other anymore. Lemme tell you these goobers actually handled this shit a lot better then most people my age.))

((See, the sad truth of the matter is: When you’re someone who is mentally ill, you’re gonna sometimes act mentally ill.))

((Not all the time, its your responsibility to try and exhibit normal healthy behavior and strive for happiness, but everyone makes mistakes. even the ‘neurotypicals’ that supposedly exist. I wont pretend to know everything there is about love, but I do know about compromise, which Dalek exhibit a lot of. Not the whole flinging the emperor over the edge thing, just in the fact that they were able to stay friends even after the spine scene proves that. Yeah it was a bit weird between then after that, but they were still nothing but friendly and supportive even when Deryn got properly rejected.))

((Furthermore, I think its fair to say that Alek would have been completely miserable as Emperor. He couldnt even handle disappointing Volger, how do you think he would have done in a thankless job where the only feedback he’ll ever get is if he fucks up?))

((The problem i actually have with the way its written is the fact that at the peace conference Alek states he wants to get hitched. That seems excessive to me. I mean, who knows? Maybe they’re just the perfect couple and everything’s going fine enough to get married right away but i severely doubt that. I think it’d be very possible for them to not even end up together, just date for a while and break it off amicably. Thats not what I’m going to portray because I’m a romantic loon, but I think we can all see theirs is more of a ‘first crush’ thing from the point where it ends in the series. I could open that can of societal worms and say that ‘first love is only love’ in context of the setting but...nah.))

((long story short I’d say that Dalek is a perfectly good puppy love ship, and also has foundation to grow into something bigger as I’ve done in my fanfics. Ship it or dont ship it, thats up to you. I just like ranting about these dweebs tbh.))

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