Just a reminder that people only see you if you're not fat.
I definitely can tell I get treated differently when I'm at my heaviest vs when I was at my LW. It sucks but its true. If you're fat they can't see you. They just see a fat person, not the soul you are.
Every. Fucking. Day. I wanna rip myself apart for gaining all my weight back. I miss being at 220. Even tho 220 is still fat, people could at least see me. They treated me so much better then, vs now with me being 290 *yes I've gained even more weight :(((((*
I want to crawl out of my skin. I hate myself.
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Mealspo 🥰
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tw: meanspo
(mostly for me hehe)
is someone pushing that food down your throat? no, right? then why do you still eat it? you claim to be anorexic and how you don’t eat but thats what you do all the time. you never have enough, do you? all these pretty skinny girls eat small portions, so why do you stuff your mouth with unhealthy shit? you think something’s gonna change that way?
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i am back to counting calories
i tried to recover but i gained too much weight and now i just don’t feel so good
so back to the gym and eating less than 1000 calories
summer is too close and i have a wedding to attend too…
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after taking a nutrition course i found some useful info in my text book!
it shows the kcals burned based off kg. very helpful for me personally as i always find myself guessing my burned kcals
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the day someone looks at me and tells me to eat a burger is the day i die happy
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people saying "you're gonna get all the weight you lost back" as if that helps 💀
man that just makes me want to never recover ty
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Tw: ana stuff
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So it's been a while (again)
It's not that I've been trying to recover or anything, I just honestly forget this app exists. I haven't been tracking but I haven't been eating normally so I've probably been keeping under 1,300 but I'll try and not forget this exists and post semi regularly
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I hope that when I’m skinny I won’t be a second choice anymore. I don’t just mean romantically. I mean just with a solid 3 people
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Been at work since 8 am and I've gotten hit on 3 times. They're really hyping me up I'm like daaamn I go one day without binging now they all want me 💅 😩 imagine in a couple months when I'm back down to 220. Then i can't even imagine how it'll be once I start getting below 200!!!
I love men who aren't afraid to love big girls out loud. I just wish i could love myself out loud too :/
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Time to repent for your sins and weigh in, skinny legends.
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one thing i learnt from ed is that
no matter how hard i recover, i can't get rid of the thoughts of the amount of calories i consume a day
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when skinny people say “you can eat!!! food is good!! dont starve!!” i feel like they say that because they can “afford” it?? they’re already skinny and are literally the beauty standart?? it’s so easy for them to say that
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working? 👎😡😖
getting 20k steps and being paid for it? 🤩🥳🥰
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