There is a part of my head that’s like, ‘So you just watched a woman collapse and you felt nothing. Like, that’s not normal. You should feel...awful? Crippled with guilt? Like... But then I can also hear his voice in my ear. And he’s — he’s saying, ‘No, actually, you made the right call. If you stop riding, then you stop surviving.” And, I mean, I’ve heard him like that for years. Like when Blue Bloods first IPO’d, the first thing I thought was, ‘Oh, my god, Ryan — Ryan would be so proud of me.’ And I don’t really know what to do with that.