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calamity-aims · 5 months
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89 if you haven’t gotten that one yet 💕
89. The Chain - Fleetwood Mac
Rex watches the sun rise over the horizon, partly because sunrises are still a novelty after so long on Kamino, and partly so he doesn't have to look at his general's face.
"Rex, don't," Anakin pleads from inside the tent. "Don't go."
He sighs. Lets the tent flap drop from his hand, and turns back to his general. Anakin's sitting up in bed, rumpled and shirtless, with mussed hair and a line of dark bruises trailing down his chest.
Bruises that Rex sucked into his skin last night. His hands ache, remembering the feeling of Anakin's hair in his fingers, the muscles of Anakin's back bunching as Rex clung to him.
Rex clamps his hands behind his back in a stiff parade rest.
"I-" he starts, but he doesn't know what to say. Anakin is still looking at him with those pleading blue eyes, and Rex just wants to say whatever will get Anakin to stop making that face at him. It's breaking Rex's heart just that much more.
"Stay," Anakin pleads, orders. "If you love me, stay."
That's exactly why Rex can't. "I love you, sir," he says, and curses the wobble in his voice. "And I'll always be your captain. But the Senator...she's who you're in love with. She's the one you have a life with."
Anakin looks away, like Rex slapped him, but doesn't argue. It's stupid, but Rex was hoping-
It doesn't matter.
Fuck.
(this ficlet based on Lindsey Buckingham's little whispered "fuck" in the very beginning of the song)
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shesaysrodriguez · 5 months
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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals, followers and all the wonderful people on here!
Things that make me happy are answering asks in my inbox, making edits, reading, watching movies and listening to music.
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radioproto · 2 years
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**Pats for EVERYONE **
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Calamity: gasp Thank you, friend!!! :D
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calamity-talvi · 2 years
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Tagged by  @tinbramble- describe yourself ONLY using pictures you already have.
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kalamity-jayne · 1 month
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Sorry for asking but I am a cis male teenager (well, I thought I was.) but lately I have realized I think I might be a trans girl? I am very scared to drop my masculinity. How did you find out you were trans if that’s okay to ask?
Of course it's ok! I am always happy to help someone who is questioning their gender. However, this is actually a pretty loaded question, because while there is a lot of talk about "when my egg cracked" in trans circles, figuring out you're trans isn't always attributable to any one singular event. Some folks might crack through and emerge from their egg in one swift motion but that is not true for everyone, it certainly wasn't true for me. Sure I could tell about the moment the first crack in my shell appeared, but a single crack in the egg is a far cry from actually breaking out. For many it's a process that can involve a series of revelations and tends to require lots of self reflection and learning how to love yourself. So, there is no quick and easy answer for this. However, I think my story will have a number of different lessons relevant to your question.
Before getting into all that though, I feel I must point out that cisgender folks rarely ask themselves these kinds of questions and when they do entertain these thoughts it's brief and comes with very little agony. The fact you have gone so far as to reach out to trans woman for advice, the fact the you are clearly worried by the prospect of being trans, is a pretty clear indicator that you probably are trans. Regardless of whether you actually are transgender or not, I want you to know that either way, it's ok. You will be ok, no matter what conclusions you come to.
Now, the story of how I figured out I was trans. Bear in mind, the first “aha moment” was 20 yrs ago and things were very different back then. I was about 17yrs old at the time and the term transgender didn't have the currency then that it does now, there wasn't the robust set of terminology that we have today, there were far fewer resources to turn to, no social media, and the overall public opinion was significantly more hostile towards anything LGBT. Anyway, more below the cut.
I didn't follow the typical trans narrative of the time in the sense that, as a child I didn't really care about my clothes so long as my favorite cartoon characters were on 'em, I liked toys typically marketed towards boys, I looked like a boy and everyone referred to me as a boy. So I thought I was a boy. However, I do have a vague memory from early childhood, somewhere between the ages of 4-6, of sneaking into my mother’s room and stealing a pair of her satin underwear and trying it on (it surely would have been too big on me but I remember liking the texture of the fabric) and hiding it under my bed. This memory has since been confirmed during my adulthood by my brother who shared a room with me at the time and had apparently found the hidden stash.
From an early age I was explicitly shunted towards masculinity. I was regularly told to “stop acting like a girl,” and “quit crying like a girl,” and even at one point to “stop walking like a girl,” by my peers and one of my brothers. By the time I was a teenager I was doing my best to be as masculine as possible going so far as joining the highschool wrestling team, a sport that is as homophobic as it is homoerotic, and I hated every minute of it because being manly didn't feel natural to me (and it definitely didn't stop the bullying). It felt like I was trying to ice skate uphill. I fit in but only imperfectly for I was merely acting.
I was also very confused about my sexuality. I thought maybe I was gay or bisexual (turns out the latter) but that didn’t really explain what I was feeling. Around 17yrs old I got curious about transsexuals, thinking maybe the answers would be found there and hoped on to the early and oh so clunky internet. Now I knew of transsexuals conceptually but I didn't know anything about them. Sadly, pornography was really the only reliable way to actually see what a trans body looked like back then. I was stunned because the women I saw did not look at all the way I expected. I was blown away by how so many of them, genitalia aside, looked indistinguishable from cisgender women. And they were all absurdly beautiful. I felt an immediate attraction but there was something else I felt too, envy. And that realization was the first crack in my eggshell.
After that I couldn't get the thought of crossdressing out of my head. So, I dug through a box of my mother's old clothes and took a few items she no longer wore, an old white tennis skirt and a very very 70s sleeveless orange blouse. I was so comfortable in those clothes and when I looked at myself in the mirror I felt good, really good. So, I continued exploring, shaved off all of of my body hair, went to department stores that were open late at night to buy girl clothes (deathly afraid someone would recognize me), I would stay up late at night to watch HBO because at midnight they would occasionally air stuff about trans people, (I remember two documentary shorts in particular and the movie Soldier’s Girl) and I scoured the internet for more information. The internet search brought me to a website called TG list (at least I think that’s what it was called, this was 20yrs ago after all) which was a directory of resources ranging from The Breast Form Store (which still exists!), a myriad of gender identity quizzes (I took nearly every single one), and Susan’s Place.
Susan’s place was one of the few reliable places to hear from actual transgender adults. Unfortunately, while Susan's Place had a lot of useful information the forums there were full of horror stories, a never-ending supply of all the things those women had suffered. So needless to say, there was little to no positivity around transness to give me hope. I was afraid to call myself trans as a result, afraid of what it meant for my life, my future, and my physical safety (you have to remember that back then Mathew Shepard wasn’t old news, his tragedy was practically current events). So I called myself a crossdresser but for reasons I didn't understand at the time I deeply resented that label. I think deep down, no matter how much I tried to deny it and bury it, a part of knew I wanted to be a girl. So when I came out to my parents as a crossdresser and explicitly told them I wasn't trans, that I didn’t have any desire to transition to female, there was that lil voice at the back of my mind calling me a liar. That voice would follow me until my late 20s.
Coming out was a real struggle for me because not only did I think my life would literally be in jeopardy, I thought everyone would think I was making it up, having not followed the stereotypical models of transsexuality. When I came out to my parents they didn't disown me or anything but they were noticeably uncomfortable around me when I was in girl mode. At a certain point I needed their help (credit card) to buy a gaff for tucking and that was when my parents, out of a misguided desire to protect me, pushed me back into the egg. Because of their rejection I spent the rest of highschool and most of my college years trying to hold the egg together with even more denial and by doubling down on masculinity. While I did have some fun during my college years, on balance I was miserable and depressed. I chafed at my male costume and I knew I was lying to myself the entire time, and I hurt myself a great deal.
During my senior year of college I started privately dabbling with crossdressing again, the desire had been nagging at me incessantly. A short time after graduating I met my wife who accepted that side of me and she introduced me to the BDSM/kink community, and the overall culture of nonjudgmental acceptance there cracked the egg for good, because is provided spaces besides my own room where I felt safe being a girl. From that point on I slowly but surely came out of the egg, first calling myself a crossdresser, then genderfluid for awhile, then GENDA passed in NY making me an explicitly protected class and for the next 2 yrs I presented as a they/them genderqueer woman 100% full time without HRT (I was still reluctant to call myself a woman).
I wrestled a long time with the choice to go on HRT. Ultimately that was always a big stumbling block for me. Therapy had gotten me pretty far but I was still afraid of so much and was unsure I would be happy with the changes because my parents had initially rejected me as their daughter in very paternalistic fashion I struggled to trust my own instincts. I still struggle with that sometimes. Eventually, I befriended a trans woman in my neighborhood who pointed out HRT works very slowly and that it takes a long time for any permanent changes to take root. So, she suggested I give it a try and if it didn't feel right I could stop.
I was also taking gender identity quizzes again. Now most of these claim to be diagnostic and those ones a generally misogynistic garbage (they ask stupid questions like, “are you good at math?” and assign a gendered value to the answer) but I happened upon one that started with the disclaimer that it wasn't diagnostic and instead only offered questions that are good to think with. Two questions in particular were very helpful. The first asked, "If you could take a pill that would allow you to wake up tomorrow as a girl, would you take it?" My answer was a hesitant yes, but that yes was bolstered by the next question, "If you could take a pill that would allow you to wake up as a man, in your current body, but without any dysphoria or desires to be feminine, would you take it?" My answer was an emphatic no because that would have felt like killing an important part of myself off. I then at the age of 33yrs old started HRT and 4yrs in I am incredibly happy. That was one of the best decisions I have ever made.
Now, I know that was a lot of fucking text to read but I wrote all of that because I know the prospect of maybe being a trans girl feels scary to you right now but I want to assure you that as daunting as it may seem there is so much about being a trans woman that is full of beauty and joy. I love my trans womanhood and despite the hardships, I wouldn’t give it up for anything. In fact the opposite is true. Knowing what I know now, I would give up almost everything in order to be a woman. So if you feel like you want to give girlhood a try, do it! You can take small incremental steps and you can always stop if it doesn’t feel right, either way you will gain a degree of self knowledge most cisgender people lack completely and that is absolutely priceless! Plus, unlike me when I was a teen, there’s all kinds of resources and information available to you now and an entire community of people ready to help you, and unlike the women in the forums from my past, we aren’t all gloom and doom.
As for your fear of giving up masculinity, don’t let that fear lure you into the denial trap like it did me. Denial is like quicksand, once you’re in it becomes hard to get out, the more you struggle the deeper in you go and it is so very suffocating. And the thing is, you actually don’t have to give it all up. Back when I was presenting full time as woman without HRT, I felt like I had to be ultra feminine all the time, full face of make-up, dress, heels, the whole nine yards. Now that I’m 4 yrs in with HRT I don’t feel that pressure anymore and have since reclaimed certain aspects of masculinity I actually liked. I sill like presenting high femme from time to time but these days I mostly rock a soft butch aesthetic, flannel/t-shirt, jeans and the only makeup I wear daily is just a lil bit of blush. At certain point you become comfortable and realize that gender is just a sandbox to play in and experiment. Masculine and Feminine are just concepts, they aren’t real! so regardless of being cis or trans, don’t let those mere concepts box you in! Just do what feels natural and right to you!
I hope all of that was helpful to you anon, and that at the very least you walk away from this knowing you don’t have to have all of the answers about yourself right now. Now, I don't no the particulars of your situation, so I’m happy to speak with you further if you have follow up questions, just send another anon.
Best of luck to you anon, I am rooting for you!
Big hugs,
Mother Calamity
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lanabenikosdoormat · 9 days
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soloing azteca and khrysalis as an ice type beat
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whisperinggbreeze · 4 months
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"Has anyone here heard of a god known as the Crown Prince of Xianle?"
Silence.
"Where did you hear that name?" A voice asked sharply. It belonged to General Xuan Zhen.
"I read it in a scroll, and I was curious why I'd never heard of such an interesting figure," Hua Cheng replied smoothly. "It seems like everyone is in the know except me."
General Xuan Zhen scoffed. "If by 'interesting figure,' you mean 'pain in the ass,' then sure. Be glad you've never heard of him. Don't mention him again."
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kredensik · 11 months
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the PROOOOOBLEM with colin or rather MY PROBLEM with colin is that i knew he was gonna be wildly popular along with deli from the first ep. i was like oh yeah people are gonna ship them and i’m gonna get sick of it so fucking fast. WHAT I DIDN’T account for were lou wilson and zac oyama, who are incredible players. zac with his little tasty one liners of “no secret is worth this” and “you know what i mean” WHILE COVERED IN QUEENS BLOOD and lou with his quick violence and no talking and killing that poor fungi guy.
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blueskittlesart · 8 months
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I genuinely can’t remember or not if your botw/totk link knows sign language or not…or am I thinking of a different link?
my personal headcanon is that he knows basic sign and uses it when he's completely nonverbal, but that for most of his time as a soldier pre-calamity he limits himself to basic signs that are well-known enough for anyone to understand and not much else (thank you, please, basic combat orders, occasional fingerspelling) and uses them VERY sparingly if at all. I personally believe that the lack of communication he displays pre-calamity goes beyond just physical muteness, and I think that removing the communication block by having him sign freely removes some of the nuance of his relationships with other people pre-calamity, so while i think he CAN sign, i think he only uses it when communication is absolutely necessary.
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calamity-aims · 2 years
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also for the palette asks, g9 in mwah for cody if you feel so inclined!!!
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POV: you are the Marshal Commander of the Seventh Sky and your insane blond little brother has just come up with the wildest plan of all time
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quinn-of-aebradore · 6 months
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So I was flipping through Luis’s Candela AMA on Instagram and he got a question about what Zerxus and Marion would think of each other and. Naturally, he said that Zerxus would project a lot of fatherhood feelings onto Marion. And Marion’s response would be a solid “uhhhhh what the hell?”
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radioproto · 1 year
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Happy new year to all! Hope you guys have had a great 2022 (I know I have!), and will have a great 2023 (I know I will!)!
@lunardoesfandomart
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calamity-talvi · 1 year
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Writers ask 4,5,8 :D
hmm alright let's see answers I can come up with, thank you for asking even if these aren't quite the answers you were looking for. lol xD
4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral? -to be honest not too sure if I have a word or not. I know I have a habit of describing blood as "crimson" and will usually draw attention to "elegant fingers" of one of my characters in a story I'm working on, but that's usually because that character's emotions are typically told more through the actions of his hands than by the passive expressions he wears on his face. And maybe I'm also trying to hint at a thing for observant readers ;P
5. Do you have any writing superstitions? What are they and why are they 100% true? -I think for a time I had writing superstitions but I'm unable to recall them at the moment. The only "superstition" I could talk about now off the top of my head, is that I don't tend to write when my emotions are too high/volatile. I find the writing made in those moments to be very same-y and not great of quality. I have written while emotional mind you, though that's usually because of the scene's I'm writing.
8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose and how would it go? -Hmm this is a slightly tougher question to answer, I'd say in the end I'd do a story without dialogue. I feel the way my writing works with descriptions I could describe a series of actions well enough that a story could be done without dialogue, whereas I think something would be missing if I only had dialogue to work with. I think it would have to be something very simple though probably lending itself to a creepy short story. like something I wrote a few months back that only at the very end contained the barest amount of dialogue.
~thank you again for the questions! <3
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skyloftian-nutcase · 6 days
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Personality ideas for Wild, Ages, and Kingdom (TOTK), respectively. Ages is Wold when pre-amnesia, super quiet and stiff, never relaxed. Goofiness does peak out when with his friends, but in most cases, he's in full soldier mode.
Wild is, well, Wild. Our favorite little Wild boi gremlin!
Kingdom is very close to Wild, but also not. He's stressed out, extremely stressed. And has not slept in weeks. Paranoid, too, the guy had like 7 years to rest, and suddenly everything is WORST, and Zelda got turned into a Dragon! He likes to visit the Light Dragon and collects a mot of her parts by effectively becoming her personal groomer. He's closer to a mix between Wild and Ages but more unhinged. Also, he has even worst chronic pain than Wild did. The dude's arm had to be amputated, so it's bound to ache, magic replacement, or not
I can’t imagine how weird and painful it could be to lose an arm and immediately have another one magically attached. Also he’s stull suffering from gloom effects so yeah, Kingdom would be in rougher shape than the other two. But in terms of his mental health, idk… I feel like he’d be a little better adjusted than the other two. He has far more support. Zelda’s sacrifice would absolutely destroy him, though. But idk. He’d be mourning and honoring her sacrifice, but yeah. He’d be hurting.
Age would definitely be in full soldier mode. But imagine what’s going through his head seeing the other two. He’s probably terrified of that happening in his world.
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botwstoriesandsuch · 11 months
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Hold up I'm out of the loop and didn't play age of calamity why do we hate the little white guardian
Ok imagine you watch the play Hamlet and then the Shakespeare Company announces a prequel for the events of Hamlet and it's advertised as a heart pounding and desperate adventure that fleshes out the characters you know and loved.
Then when you go watch the prequel, instead of getting a look at the politics and relationships and murders and events that shaped the world and characters you knew in Hamlet you instead were introduced to a time traveling watermelon that saves Hamlet's father in the first five minutes of the show and the rest of the play is dedicated to having all the various characters react to this watermelon before the watermelon then kills Claudius for Hamlet at the end and everybody goes home and has brunch
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kalamity-jayne · 15 days
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I wish I could tuck. it just seems to hurt me every time I try and never ends well. I was hoping hormones would help some but they haven't really worked very well and even affected that area.
do you have any advice/guidance? not being able to tuck just makes me feel really bad and miserable and not very girly.
Hi anon!
You’ve come to the right place with this question because I have lots of advice when it comes to the subject of tucking.
When you first start tucking, there’s no getting around the initial discomfort and “pain”. Pushing your testicles up into the inguinal canal and keeping them there takes some getting used to. Now the reason I put “pain” in scare quotes here is because there is some pain when start out doing it but it should be a kind of dull achey pain. Like, if it feels like someone giving your testicles a firm but moderate squeeze, that’s normal. It should never ever feel like a sharp pain! If your tuck is making you wince you need to carefully undo it immediately. If you’re experience a sharp pain there’s a slim chance it could be an anatomical issue (everyone’s bodies are different) but most likely it either has to do with one or several of the following things that can be changed: Technique, Gaff, and testical size. Also, like I said, even without HRT, eventually you do acclimate to how it feels having your testes inside the inguinal canal such that the sensation will hardly even register let alone hurt.
Now, you mentioned being on HRT. I don’t know how long you have been on HRT but with time your testicles will shrink, even if you penis stays roughly the same size. Tucking does get significantly easier the further along you are with HRT. So even if you’re testicle size is currently giving you trouble it almost certainly will not be an issue later on. Eventually the shrinkage should make tucking effortless and easy.
It’s also possible there is something off with your technique. It’s a little difficult for me to imagine how one might do it so incorrectly as to get torsion but I can walk you through my tucking technique. First, I make a peace sign with the index and middle finger, I use those two fingers to push the testes up into the inguinal canal and rest that hand on my pubis mons with the upside down V crook of the peace sign at the base of my penis. Then I gently pull the penis back along the perineum with my other hand, you want to pull it pretty far back but don’t go nuts, you don’t need to pull it all the way back to your anus. As your holding your penis back up against your perineum your testicles should be able to stay inside the canals on their own freeing your index and middle finger to pinch/grab the empty scrotal tissue and roll it up around the shaft of the penis, like nestling a hot dog inside a hot dog bun. I find it helpful to think of the scrotal tissue I’m wrapping around the penis as labia, and it should look vaguely vaginal though that isn’t the point, rather it’s to ensure all the loose fleshy bits end up inside the gusset of your panty so they don’t get pinched. Continue holding all those bits together like that either with the hand you just used to wrap the penis or with your tightly closed legs and pull up the gaff to hold it all in place, move around a bit and adjust accordingly.
And that brings us to Gaffs. Holding it all in place with tape can be painful and ultimately wasteful, so I highly recommend investing in some good gaffs. A gaff is basically like a normal panty but with a few key differences. The are generally made with stretchy but compressive fabrics like, they have a wider gusset (the underside area that would typically cover the vagina or in this case your tucked penis), and they sometimes have some extra padding in the frontal pubis area. In a pinch you can use a swimsuit bottom or double up a pair of normal panties and then wear some tight jeans. There is a way to make a down and dirty DIY gaff out of an athletic sock and panty hose but I can’t vouch for how comfortable that is and it is certainly the least sexy option. Fortunately these days there are a number of good gaff makers out there (Etsy is a great place for this) and there’s almost too many to enumerate here. I recommend trying a few different styles out and seeing what works for you.
However, there is one gaff maker I do want to highlight because I think they are great for someone like you who is still trying to get the hang of it. https://www.etsy.com/shop/LeoLines?ref=l2-about-shopname Now these are def not the sexiest gaffs but they are full proof. These are the gaffs I turn to when I need an ultra secure tuck that won’t need readjusting. I recommend starting the bikini style for going out and about and practicing at home with one in the thong style. The former is easy and if something is less than perfect about your tuck it’s unlikely to be an issue and the latter, because it’s a thong, will help you get the hang of keeping it all tight, particularly with wrapping the penis in the scrotal tissue, because if you don’t do it right it’ll get pinchy pretty quick but you can easily adjust it because your still at home. The other reason I recommend LeoLines as a starter gaff is because of the extra padding in the front and the amount of compression in the fabric which allows you to achieve the tucked effect without actually tucking (a lot of gaff makers will make that claim but it’s mostly BS with the exception being LeoLines). LeoLines also offers swimsuit gaffs and is the only gaff I know of that makes them in children’s sizes (this was a big deal for my trans niece cause she used to do gymnastics and loves to swim and wanted to wear the same stuff the other girls wore).
I also highly recommend every trans girl check Origami Customs! https://origamicustoms.com/collections/all-underthings/products/mesh-gaff-hipster-underwear They have gaffs in every style and size and even to custom fits. But they also have a sizing guid that’s helpful for buying regular underwear! Like, ever wonder why a particular style of panty never seems to fit right? It may not be your size but rather the shape of your butt!
Lastly, it’s very important to exercise a bit a common sense with tucking. It’s really important to take breaks. If your tucked during the day then you need to untuck at night, especially before going to bed. Once you’re farther along with your HRT and the testicles have shrunk this becomes somewhat less of an issue, at least pain-wise. It’s also important to take breaks and give your junk opportunities to air out, especially during the hotter seasons when you’re more prone to sweating. If you do too much tucking and you genitals don’t get any airflow at all, you could contract a fungal infection, ie Jock itch or other kinds of irritation. But if you don’t tuck when you go to bed, and maybe even give your self some time at home to be naked, you’ll be fine. I’ve gone through months long periods of tucking every single day, even at the gym, and never had any issues. I do recommend wearing softer gaffs if you just shaved your bikini area, gaffs like the ones on LeoLines can exacerbate shaving irritation but if you wait till the day after you shaved you’ll be fine.
And that’s basically it for my tucking advice! I hope that helps you anon!
Love,
🌷Mother Calamity🌷
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